Hi, there. It's been a while and I'm slowly but intentionally making my way back. Thank you for all of the good thoughts and vibes, while I was focusing on other aspects of my life. You are appreciated, beyond words can express! Now, go have a wonderful day, no matter what! Hugs! ☺️💕

So glad to see you back!

This is A MASTERPIECE!! I was left crying but with the biggest smile on my face! You never cease to amaze me, I love you so much! ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for sharing your story with us Christine. I was bullied a lot as a child and I spent ALOT of my childhood hiding away and not sharing my truth with anyone. It’s been a journey and I’m not all the way there, but I’m more open with who I am now at 34 than I was at 15. How magical is that? Very. *hug* again, thank you for sharing.

Thank you so much for this video. I'm currently working on making a book, ironically about my 3 year journey of reclaiming myself and holding space for myself, which is still on going. So your words deeply resonate with me. I've been working on the book for 3 weeks now and alongside being fun, rewarding and mirroring, it has been intense, scary and anxiety inducing. Tomorrow I'm meant to send the book off o the printers, I promised it would be ready, but with my anxiety and stress over the weekend, I did my best and it's still not ready. The pages are compiled. But final details still need to be done. A little more writing, a read through and more drawing. The book isn't ready yet. What am I to do? I've been stressed all day and listening to your video today made me realize that, stressing myself out isn't going to finish the book. I accept that the book won't be ready by tomorrow. I'm sad and I know I tried my best. I'm going to continue working on the book. It's going to come together. It will take more time than I thought and it will be ready. Thank you so much.

Thank you for sharing this. I have eczema too, and I had to hear a lot of nasty things as a kid as well, espicially the question if it was contagious. Also just the fact that I had to explain myself so frequently, as early as kindergarden and elementary school, while other kids where able to just be, was hard. I understand your journey and I appreciate you being so open about it

I've never clicked so fast! I love your art and stories. I'm so glad that you're back Christine!! ❤

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!! I'm so very proud of you and have missed you, your art, and your stories more than words can describe. Being a creator is such hard work. I used to create KZfaq videos but burnt out right before the pandemic. I admire you for your dedication. This video is so different from your other content, literally a short film, and I absolutely loved it (cinematography, editing, music, STORY). I'm sure it took a TON of time to put together, but the end result is truly lovely. I hope you are pleased with it. I've never joined a Patreon before, but if I were to support any of the hundreds of creators I've watched over the 10+ years I've consumed KZfaq, you would be one of the first. I was actually just thinking about you and your content and wondering how you were. I'm glad you shared this vulnerable part of yourself. It's truly a masterpiece and I look forward to more stories and art from you in the future! Take care of yourself and never stop creating! ❤

I love watching videos of artists rearranging their studios!

I love this video! The rawness that runs through it, and the little behind the scene confession at the end make it better! Love the honesty. Thank you for being brave and sharing this video despite your doubt. This is what I really need to see and hear at this moment. Sending lots of love!

thank you for sharing

I clicked so fast ! Christine it’s amazing to hear you

I wish I can hug you right now ❤️. We are human being and we can be imperfect. And.. your art is amazing. You always inspired me.

I cannot express how beautiful you are, both inside and out, and that manifests in your art , your stories and how much you inspire others. Nevermind all the negative remarks and comments and surround yourself with those who love and respect you. Be true to you, what you love and who you are. The world doesn't need people to be "picture perfect" - the world needs individuals with compassion and empathy, who have a kind heart and a beautiful soul. We need people, like you, who share your talents with others,. You have truly been missed!

You’re such a sweet thing! Girl, I really feel your pain. All of that. The skin issues, the eye issues, the perfectionism, the binge-eating, I am familiar with all of that. I’m thinking there may be others besides just the two of us. 😉 It’s sooo cool when content creators decide to be real! Social media can be very misleading. When you choose honesty, you are choosing to help many more people than just yourself. We all need to be reminded that what we see on social media is a hi-lite reel. Not only that, it’s an intentionally created hi-lite reel. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I think many people (maybe even MOST people?) feel like they don’t fit in at one time or another. I pray you find your people- the ones that will love you no matter what. We all need those people!! Blessings Beautiful, and I’m so glad you’re back; your work is AMAZING, and you have been missed! ❤️❤️❤️

Christine!! I’m so glad to see you back! 🥺

I love this video! Can't wait to see how your studio will look like once it's finished, and I am excited to follow on the journey towards it. Also, you look so sweet and charming, naturally beautiful. Insecurity about your own image is normal in most (especially young) people. Thanks for sharing so many personal information and showing us the real-life you. 🍀❤️

I’m so happy to see your video again. Have definitely missed your beautiful videos, art and just you. 💚

Welcome back, Christine, I'm so glad you are here again. Good luck on your healing journey!

Welcome back! 😻😻😻 ETA: thank you for your transparency. Perfectionism and negative self-criticism are so difficult to deal with, especially since you have to show up for yourself every dang day. ♥️

I love your videos for so looooonngg but this one made me so proud of you. Christine, you are now so much stronger can you feel it? At the moment we do what we do for us, at the moment we are capable to accept us or recognize we have work to do on ourselfs we grow so much! Happy to be here till now and see you grow and glow 💕

Just discovered you 10 min ago. You have the nicest voice I’ve heard. And the way you speak is cool, it’s not a valley girl accent, nor is it clingy or over enthusiastic. It’s just.. cool. I wish I had the same voice. I can understand where you’re coming from, I think things get better as we get older, because then we also care less what others think. You’re pretty. And your personality is interesting. You probably wouldn’t be who you are today, if you didn’t have those experiences and struggles. Maybe it was rather a blessing in disguise for you, because it seems to have helped create depth and character to your soul. You’re such a multi layered person it seems. Maybe that’s why your art is so nice!

Christine, I missed you so so much!! I am was so happy to see your video appear and even happier and honored once I watched it. Thank you, Christine, you made me smile and cry, happy to connect and share feelings even though we are strangers. You made my heart happy! Wish you all the best! Lots of love, Hana

...I'm so, so happy you posted. You're one of a handful of journal youtube creators I follow for the things you say as well as the art you make. I'm just...I'm happy. And I'm excited for you and impressed with how far you've come. Thank you for sharing this. (And omg thank you for the end. It's so GOOD to see people opening up about how much work goes into the videos they produce and put up here.)

I'm so happy that you are back, Christine!!🥰

Ohmygosh i literally jumped when i saw your thumbnail!! Ive been following along with your newsletter emails and its been so comforting! Welcome back Christine!!

This spoke directly to my heart .. loved that you shared it..

Welcome back Christine! I’ve missed you so very much! This video had me crying but with a great big smile. We all have to go through some kind of healing journey at some point and it isn’t always easy to be vulnerable and share it with the world. Thank you for being able to open up to us and show us how you’re working on healing yourself. Much love ❤️

Thanks for sharing your story. Have a nice day !

I've known you since middle school. You, my sister and best friend, are a beautiful soul. Inside and out. You are you and I only see you. Just as you see only me. I am forever blessed to have you in my life. No matter where life takes us.

Your have become your own life boat. You have learn to find your own strength in your beautiful art.

Thank you for being you and to sharing that with us. I became a Patreon for the first time today because of you.

So glad to see you back!!! Missed you so much!! ❤❤

OMG! You are back! I missed your voice and your art and your calmness so much!

Beautifully filmed! Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. The best person to be, is to be the person who you are created to be. You are beautiful and your art print is amazing. I hope you experience the freedom of being who you are made to be.

Welcome back Christine! Love your artwork, voice and perspectives 🌼🌼

Oh my God! Thank you for sharing your story. I cried so much listening to you talking and smiled so much it's incredible. You are beautiful person inside and outside. You inspire me (and I bet a lot of others) so much. I wish you luck and happiness and acceptance! Don't forget even in your darkest moments that there are people who love you and adore your art not only because of fancy drawings but because there is profound story behind everything you do.

Thank you for sharing your story and your vulnerabilities. Your videos really exude peace and warmth. Welcome back!!

I'm glad you decided to share. You deserve to be comfortable in your own body and your own life! Wonderful video! Thanks for sharing!

I'm so happy you're back! I've been thinking about you and your work often and hoping you were doing ok. This was such a beautiful video!

Thanks for coming back .I am so glad you are back. if it does matter,I look forward to watching your videos and work. Thank you for not giving up and be yourself.

🤗Yes we love you Even MORE!!! 🥲💭Ty so much for being so real and true…keep that determination up n take your time, you Beautiful, Inspiring n Very Gifted Lady! 💖

Such a beautiful testimony. You are such a beautiful soul! So talented! Love seeing your creations.

Thank you so very much for this. I've been struggling with making my studio space workable and it's SO NICE to know that I'm not the only one whose space is a bit chaotic!! I've been avoiding doing anything because it's overwhelming. This has helped to remind me that I can work on a little bit every day! Thank you! Please more of exactly this!!!

thanks for sharing, Christine. I'm glad you're here. ♡ ♡

Your videos inspired me to draw n even making my own journal in order to stay productive.... been learning to improve my daily habit from ntg much to smtg pretty much. Thank you so much for sharing your stories n I hope you'll keep updating tutorial videos for diy stuffs, drawings, life thoughts etc ✨

Christine, you're such a beautiful human being! ❤️

Have missed you so much. Thank you for sharing your story. Brave and beautiful 😍

You are so brave ❤️🙏 I studied in a school where being a performer (dance actor even an athlete) was a good thing 🤪 it made me feel like a nobody at school but I had a family who valued my art ❤️ and that helped me grow as an artist 🙏

You are so beautiful inside and outside! 😍😍😍 Thank you for sharing your story 💖

oh so beautiful, you have such a lovely magical way of telling a story and then wow your filming is wonderful. So cute at the end when you told us about the process. :) :)

Your story is so amazing! your inner journey is so valuable and relatable to me, and I think it can help a lot of people. It is amazing to share those inner struggles, and how they shape us, how we overcome this internal fights, and how we are not alone in this journey... lots of love for you

So glad to see you back🤗🤗🤗 you're simply amazing, you and your art both are beautiful 💖💖💖💖

Yay you're back! Missed your beautiful work and videos! I'm glad you are working through things. Honestly you are a beautiful young lady. None of us are perfect. We should all just accept one another and get on with living. We only have one go at this life, it can be taken away so quickly. 🤍 I hope you start putting more videos on here. LOVE seeing your amazing art work. My partner was watching your video too. He said your voice is so relaxing 🥰👍 xxxx

So happy to see you. I love your art and your videos ♥️ Thank you for sharing your story. I also struggle with perfectionism and my appearance. It really helps to know that you are not alone on this journey. Sending you a lot of love 🤗

welcome back...glad to see you again...hope you always healthy and happy

Omgg!!!! you're back❤❤❤

I am so happy that you explained that you completed the video in two weeks. It made me so relieved. Even though I know that I shouldn't compare, I was thinking I could not do all that you did in one day. Your honesty and transparency has made me be more honest and accepting of myself. AND I am going out right now to my local book store to grab How to Love! Thank you for being you and sharing you with us. You are precious...

Man, I feel like I could have written this video. We even have the same smart watch! Thank you for being vulnerable. Thank you for your beautiful words and enchanting art. I hope your healing continues.

I was so shocked when see this video ~ Glad to see you backk 🤩🤩🤩

thank you so much for sharing, most of what you were saying felt like you were telling my story. your bunnies are beautiful and I love to try and draw them. Looking forward to see what else you do. xo from Australia

Thank you so much.

I love your videos and your art. We all struggle and have stuff and wonder if we fit. You are not alone. You are important. You are special. You are loved and lovely just the way you are. Have a lovely, blessed, peaceful, joyful, safe day.

Oh my goodness I squealed with joy when I received this notification Christine. I am so literally proud of you for making this video. I smiled, I oohed and I cried through it. A lot of your story resonates with me as I think I mentioned in an email to you. I wasn't able to join your Patreon when you returned, but hopefully I can in a week or two. Stay strong. Keep doing what you love. You really are a beautiful soul inside and out. Lots of love xxx

Its been awhile waiting for your new video update, love your art as always!

Christine!!I love this!! This is so beautiful!! Thankyou for sharing! I hope you have a wonderful day! God Bless!

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I was inspired by your words . The way your shared you space as is, is something we don't see alot of on social media. Thank again I am so happy i came across your video.😊😊

Ohh a new video! I've missed you sooo much. And this video is sooo important for me in my current situation! Welcome back!

I didn’t have a notice is that you posted a new video and I missed it on Instagram! Thank you so much for coming back and for sharing your story with Us. You always have been an inspiration source and you still are today. Thank you and now I will watch the next video I missed too 😜

This was beautiful, thank you for sharing it!

So happy to see you back 😊 Just yesterday I thought of you, I really missed your videos. And now your back 🥳 Thank you for sharing your story, it made me cry. I can totally relate to your story, I have always felt like an alien and still do. You are beautiful, exactly as you are 😊 Hope my Englisch is not too bad, sorry 😅 Take care of yourself 🥰 Vanessa

Yay!! Welcome back! You did a great job on the video, I love that you're sharing your journey with us because I know there are people who can relate and find comfort in knowing they aren't alone! Thanks for sharing your story and journey!

Thank you for sharing, I relate to this so much. So happy you're back!

Oh finally you came back! Thank you! And girl you are beautiful

Love this video and love the last few minutes! I feel like I was watching a version of myself when you were sharing. I really connected so so much

loveee this video so much!! im so happy you're back. Your videos always make me so happy :D

Thank you very much for sharing this! Including the bit at the end where you explain how long it actually took to film - I thought several times during the video something along the lines of "sure, the work in her studio isn't over yet, but... the video still looks so good?! and the shots, the transitions, the script... how did she manage to make everything seem perfect in a video about accepting imperfection?" So, I'm not surprised it took you some time to make it that way, and I'm really glad you spoke about it - I think a big part of the problem with social media in general is that even when approaching topics like the pressure around perfection or issues with body image, people still pay A LOT of attention to how they word, edit and, well, perfect, their content. Which is not a bad thing in itself - of course we need to pay attention to the way we communicate, if we want to be seen and understood. But I believe it can make things more difficult when you try to detach yourself from impossibly high standards, because you immediately run into a form of paradox: "I don't want to be part of this sometimes-toxic culture but I still want to create quality content". So it's kind of hard to navigate. I'm not a social media influencer myself but I've had to face a realisation of that sort - that I can't achieve exactly what I had in mind because my standards are unrealistic - and the solution I'm trying to implement is, well... focusing on what I, personally, actually like, want and enjoy. Because there's a big difference between "this is the proper way to do things because people seem to like it that way" and "this is what I find interesting, beautiful or enjoyable in this activity". But that difference is not that easy to spot. And I don't know what you've planned for your next videos, but if I were to give you (or anyone reading this) an advice, it would be: don't focus on making things "look good" - focus on making it something *you* enjoy. And I'm 100% sure there will be people who resonate with it. (This comment turned out way longer than planned and now I'm worried that my advice bit just sounds presumptuous, 'cause well, it's not exactly as if I were a wise ancient on a mountain who's got everything figured myself - I'm better at writing stuff than at following my own advice. But well. If you've read this far, I wish you the most pleasant day/ morning/ evening/ night/ time is fake anyway, just do that thing you feel like doing already, and take care of yourself, this random stranger on the Internet loves you)

I connected with everything you said. This was great.

Welcome back!!! I missed you!!!

So glad to see you back!!! Cant wait for your new contents. Through you I learn that we are each unique in our own way. I always compare myself to people on social media too and I know thats bad. I want to change this about myself too

You are so beautiful, sweet and your art is amazing! Being ourselves, accepting ourselves it’s not easy but knowing how it can change our life for the better, it should motivate us. I’m glad you chose this path and I’m sure things will get better and better 💕 P.S. mess is beautiful, I love mess 😂😂

Aww I love your video great expression how you feeling being honest and confident

This is absolutely beautiful! I’m so happy you’re back I have thoroughly missed you and your creations! I still use your bullet journal spreads so often because they’re so beautiful! Welcome back! ❤️❤️❤️

So good to see you in my feed, I have missed you! This video spoke to my heart. Parts of your journey to belonging and healing is similar to my own. I am so grateful for you sharing this vulnerable part of yourself. Also, I had forgotten you had a Patreon, so you now have a new member!

I am really glad that you are Back. 🫂

Thank you for sharing!!!

Yayyyy!!! You're back!!!! 😃 so glad to see you

Its nice to see you again🥰 after a long time

I'm so late, but I'm so happy your back! ❤️

You are beautiful inside and out. I can't wait to see all that you do. I just found your you tube and look forward to watching you grow in your craft and your soul.

It’s been so wonderful being inspired by you again! You’ve been a favorite for so long, you are the main reason I got back into art. Your story telling is pure magic. You are a beautiful person inside and out!

I'm so happy you're back!

Awwww love, this video spoke directly to my heart. Being a perfectionist especially with my art and image had dictated so much of my life. Being a part of your journey is something my soul really needs and I’m grateful for your vulnerability! I love you!!

Lovely to see you back. So excited to watch your journey. Love your voice, it's so calming

You're so beautiful, inside and out! You're so talented, so real. Thank you for sharing your story. 💜

Thank you so much for sharing. I'm going through my own process of learning to be true to myself and so many things that you said helps so much, especially with regard to art and creativity. Much appreciated ❤️

Hello, I'm very impressed to your art work, I really enjoyed watching and listening just keep on Sharing thank you so much.

I have missed your videos so much! Thank you for sharing part of your journey. I don't share my art online because of fear. I have social anxiety and for so long fear has controlled my life. For the past year now I've been gathering courage to embrace each one of my fears and let them go. I've made a lot of progress (went shopping on my own, yay!) but I've yet to feel comfortable enough to share my art. I know that day is coming and I hope I can face it with as much bravery as you have shown.

Welcome back! I'm glad you're okay :)

Yes, knowing the bts made me love this video more. Everything you said spoke to me-- especially the desperation to see vanity metrics improve. I've been reading Braving the wilderness by brene brown and reminding myself what belonging is-- you belong to no one and everyone at once-- has been helpful. Your voice is sweet and lovely btw. I sent one of your videos to my niece to draw a rabbit. I love your art style!