can i request someone to pray for me..i feel very lost right now

Won't say I'm lesbian but I've been attracted to both genders. For the past 2 years I've been dating this girl. I just noticed how things fell apart since I started dating her. My life is a mess and i got no direction anymore. I'm depressed all the tym and I can't even explain why. I'm trying to breakup with her but smthing pulls me back. I'm exhausted and I no longer want to be in this hell. I need prayers.

There has to be more ex gays out there! We need support and to feel like we aren’t alone on this journey.

“How can you see something as a sin that doesn’t feel like one”! I am so proud of you for sharing your story. God is faithful and true and I am glad you have made Him the Lover of your soul!

I never comment on anything...ever....but your story touched me in a way that I can't even describe. Your transparency, vulnerability and genuinity gave me so much hope. This is so beyond powerful and even though I don't know you I'm so proud of you for speaking up even through the anxiety. Many can't get there, but I'm so grateful you did. Cause I needed this this morning. God is using you to help set so many women free. Including me. God bless you ❤️

Literally, God spoke through you today to me. Literally ended what became a very toxic lesbian relationship but I loved her so much and I still love her so much. I fell in love very hard for this woman but I promise to God throughout most of our relationship I just kept saying "I just want peace". Seems like things just worse and worse. I tried pursuing God more intimately throughout our relationship but I felt like you. Like I was blocked. I promise before we started dating I was writing again and getting back to my creative side but I Kidd you not throughout the entire relationship I couldn't write one decent thing. My creativity was majorly blocked. It's so crazyyy. Like a prophet told me the same thing a year ago. That whoever I was in a relationship with would have to end because they were not apart of my destiny and I CRIED like a baby. I had already known God was telling me to leave but I didn't want to. I even entertained the thought of us getting married. My heart was broken. It took me almost an entire year to obey and I have only recently gotten serious, I feel what you felt right now. I really thank you for sharing. God really did have you make this for a reason. Thank you for sharing your truth. God bless you.

Ky, i’m so sorry to hear how alone you felt. i wish i could’ve been there for you during such a hard time. love you forever ❤️

You are very brave and strong! Few know how difficult it is to get out of this... The present times and the pressure of pseudo-freedom do not make anything easier. May God keep you in his care!

“I didn’t want to sacrifice the life I had built on my own even though I knew God had something better for me.” I felt that. Try to be obedient. Be obedient. Say ok and just go, trust.

Thank you for sharing. I understand how difficult it is to share, I’ve been struggling with this for years and this past year has been the year I’ve allowed the spirit of lust and homosexuality to control my life. Hearing your testimony has helped me, so thank you for sharing, I truly appreciate it :)

You literally are doing more good for this world than you can ever imagine. Thank you dear sister. Seriously!

I'm desperately searching for community in this area. It's unlike anything else. I'm 3 month in turning to God. 😢❤.

Thank you for sharing. I went through a similar situation and I really resonated with your story because I UNDERSTAND everything you were feeling! I haven’t been in the lifestyle for over 8 years but it is truly a daily journey!

Thank you for sharing your powerful testimony.. Tears were flowing from my eyes while listening!! I can truly say I know how you felt

Beautiful sister in Christ, this was a very tough testimony to share but God is using it to speak love and truth to the world. Thank you so much for being brave, vulnerable, and obedient to the inkling of God you felt in your heart. You are beautiful, treasured, valuable, and covered by Christ. Love you!

from South Africa, that was very courageous I'm so proud of you. At the end all our fleshly desires have to die so that we may live willingly righteous in our Creators ways. praise YAHUAH in his son's name Yahusha.

There is also a woman who use to publish (?) an LGBT magazine called Venus ( ? ) who also gave her heart to Christ and let others know right in the middle of a conference.

EX-LESBIAN HERE. Now happily married with a man of God 😭♥️ Thank you for sharing your testimony. I will be sharing mine soon. ... A mystery I tell you, most homosexuals I know that confessed with me, most have gone through child abuse (sexual). Satan usually attack you from child specially when you have a destiny/calling from God.

i’m just wondering why loving someone of the same gender is so “abominable” why does it matter what body parts they have? at the end of life we are all spirit without gender, why does it matter if it’s the same or opposite sex? i’ve heard all the Bible verses, but please explain in your own words

I loved her. I loved her so much. We would talk about our wedding and things for hours, deep in-depth conversation about life and aour deepest fears and insecurities. She hated me for leaving

Popping by almost 2 years later after God led me to Kylia's testimony. Praise God I'm FREE in Jesus name!!! Thank you for staying obedient through every trial and test!

You don't know how much your testimony has helped so many others who have gone through the same thing. Please update us as to how you are doing.

Love this testimony. It's been almost 2 years for me. God is wonderfully gracious to us. I was also in a relationship and trust me when i say with time God will show you how you were never in love just in bondage.. this is just the beginning

Thank you so much for your testimony .I love that you were aware that you couldn't leave the relationship by your own strength but through God's strength and grace .To God be the glory 🙏🏾also you are incredibly beautiful 🌹

I've Always been bi sexual. I Realize For the first time in my life 😌 I have met a man that doesn't shame my sexual experiences nor does he lack anything that I want need or Desire. I can't wait to marry him. I Never Felt That Completeness Being With The Same Sex. I Loved them a whole Lot but I never found that real stability emotionally but the physical part of lesbianism had me all caught up for the longest. I was raised in a Christian family who kept on loving me but still hoped that I would grow out of it so you speak. I Tried To Be As Open As I Could with the same Sex But I Can Tell That Me & My Boyfriend Are Soulmate's. I don't shame anyone struggling to come into their True Definiition. The LGBT church never appealed to me. God is Love... But God Confessed His Design Plan So To Go a Different Route is To Crush His Heart. I Want No Part in That. Period.

God bless you. These kind of testimonies are so powerful. Praying for my sister 😔🙏

Thank you so much for sharing, I’m battling with lesbianism and I have a similar background like you and I’m determined to be set free forever.

I understand Going through the same Thank you so much for sharing I needed this

We love you, sister in Christ. You described it exactly right, even if I wanted to go back, which I genuinely don’t, it wouldn’t ever work because it’s not gods plan. Amen and you are very brave and I appreciate you sharing your testimony. You describe it very well. God bless and thank you!! 🌻🙏🙏❤️

God Bless you, that took a lot of courage, and I prayer that God gives you the strength to endure until the end.

I knew that lesbianism was wrong because of going to church when I was young, however I secretly wanted to be with women sexually and only sexually. Later in life I became involved romantically with a woman and God began to break that spirit off of me slowly due to my mother praying for God to release me from that relationship.One night I woke up and had the courage to leave her. 🙏🏾

I used to be a lesbian before but only for a certain period of time. When I had a girlfriend, at the same time I have boys trying to get a relationship with me. That was when I got to the point where I have to choose. Reading the Bible helped a lot. So at the end, I realized that it's wrong to fall on love with the same sex and at the end of it, we end up the relationship because we both want to be normal. I am married now and so is she. I still treasure her now but only as a good friend. I thanks God for giving me the second chance in life to do the right thing and I will continue to praise him. 🙏...I didn't go for any type of therapy, but just reading the words of God from the Bible which put me where I am now.

I left heterosexuality at 26 20 years ago it's so possible I believe in you!❤

The enemy attacked me around the same age or earlier... The L word had my mind trapped as well while having a boyfriend. Even my boyfriend started telling me that I'm a lesbian and how I was obsessed with the L Word. I fell deeply in love with a women as well.. I thought I was happy.. I thought I was meant to marry a women.. But I always felt so empty and lost inside. My soul felt disturbed. I got involved in smoking thinking it was ” cool” which turned into a strong addiction. Every time I would attend church I felt like everyone was looking at me like I was dirty and knew my secret ( being a lesbian) feeling uncomfortable. The enemy gives you the mindset that ” love is love ” and it doesn't matter what (sex) you fall in love with. I pushed God away and wouldn't let God speak about my relationship. I started looking up to other lesbian couples. ( mainly on KZfaq ) I started to ask God how could you make me a lesbian and not love me for who I am and what I am. Asking God why would you make me and then call the way I love an abomination? It hurt me the same way. I started get upset and slowly pull myself away from God. I thought people who hated the LGBTQ community were just being so judgemental and didnt understand how to ” truly love” without boundaries. God has delivered me and I surrendered my mind, my soul, my spirit to God completely and decided to walk in faith and repent before God. Cast all my sins upon him and ask him to save me from my own self and to make me brand new, make me whole, let me live for him and not by the flesh. To make me a new creature in Christ, born again and to reintroduce me to the world and how I view the world. The enemy can attack you just by using ur eyes, mind, and heart. It happens so fast you don't even see it coming. Now my soul and spirit is awake and now I lean on God and not my own understanding! Amen.. I thank anyone who reads this message! 🙏🏽✨

Now I admire your obedience and will hopefully soon find myself following suite. I’ve been grieving for quite sometime.

Thank you for sharing this. I was definitely moved and touched by your message. I know there are many lesbians that are struggling Internally with this, and I'm glad you were able to let them know it is okay to let go. I know this is definitely going to rub a lot of lesbians that wrong way because they are trapped in the lifestyle and feel it is 'the right way'. This is the perfect message, and I'm glad I took the time to listen to it. I truly hope you find that special man and build a beautiful family.

I pray that God will bless you for your obedience in sharing your powerful testimony. I’m going to share this with someone very close to me. Praying for your continued strength and peace in God🙏🏾

I’m very depressed. Sometimes this life is so hard. 😓

the desperate of me trying to change myself into a better person had gotten me here You gave me so much hope that I can change! thank you truly. A very big brave move from you

Thank you for posting this! I really needed to see this.

Thank you for your courage, this testimony was authentic, powerful.. and naturally beautiful like you ❤️ you!!

Thank you for sharing your testimony sister in Christ. Jesus called me out as well and he can not be ignored! There's so much peace and rest with Jesus. God Bless you!

Your testimony was very moving to me. You are very strong, brave and obedient to post it on youtube. Thank you for this. I'm sure your testimony will help many others. I'm an ex-lesbian of 25 years and the pain in your voice moved me to tears. God bless you dear sister in Christ.❤️

Powerful testimony. G-d is the only judge who matters. Your testimony isn't just for people struggling with that particular problem. But ANYONE who puts ANYTHING before G-d... Thank you my sister for sharing. 🙏✝️

I can relate. My entire life feel consumed by this unexplained guilt. I tried to make peace with it. Try to accept myself. It went well for a while but each time when i on my prayer mat, i feel so incomplete and empty. I pray everyday that i have strength to leave this lifestyle because it just a superficial happiness. There is a void that i couldn't explain exactly but it is torturing.

Same girl. L word. Girlfriend ( not living with each other but was IN LOVE). I would finish watching the L word and then feel so happy and feel my life is right and then later I'd be crying out to God to take all of it away. I had that while I was in my relationship. It was these flips where I KNEW something was wrong. It tookseeing a kind of vision of hell to take me to the point of surrender though. I told God I wanted the world over him and he gave me a warning. He didn't give up. And my life is better than before in regards to how I feel in my spirit. Temptation does come... but I Never want to lose Jesus. thank you for sharing. It's been hard seeing people finding mate's and I am here like. great. God what about me. Thank you.

Thank sis for your testimony. God has called me too, and is unbelievable the change I feel inside. God's grace is overwhelmingly miraculous. I can see a lot of pain I faced was God calling me and me thinking I knew better. Now I trust in Him and see He never left me. God bless you and all of us trying to know Him.

I am so blessed by this video.... Indeed God is real. Now I know I am not the only one going through this situation. Thank God for this bold step. By his grace i will share mine.

I’m crying. I was literally delivered from this too a while back. It was painful but I feel such a joy now. Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. I’m praying God continues to bless you and others who are going through what we went through. Amen. God is good!

Thank you for your honest story. My niece is going true it to and I watched your video because I want to understand her better and know how I can pray for her

Dear sister, thank you so much for sharing this, you have a beautiful heart! God is faithful!

The courage you have is so beautiful. God is alive and working !!!! Thank you for sharing!!! May God bless you woman of a God.

Wow, this was such raw testimony, God bless you for sharing ❤️

Tell me why I’m watching you and I’m literally seeing myself .. everything you said is how I feel . I am still struggling with getting out of the situation and I’m praying to God to give me the strength to leave her .. because I love her too and it’s just so hard for me . She says if I leave her it means I didn’t love her .. and I know I love her but I also know that God wants me to do right by him .. it’s just so hard .

I never bother commenting on things and I know you may never see this but hearing your story makes me want to keep going. I'm in a very similar situation, God is stripping me down and I just feel so done with everything. Like everything is falling apart but this.... I don't know what to say. It won't solve the problems I'm dealing with but it pushes me on a little more, it gives me some hope and comfort and I don't think youll ever know how much that means

You’re an incredibly strong person for speaking about this. I pray that you find peace on this path. Thank you for reminding the world that a human being’s identity doesn’t revolve around their sexual orientation. Also, for the record, what goes down in L.A. is hardly a yardstick for anything remotely resembling reality.

I left too. 20 years.

very touching story, thank you for sharing :)

I truly appreciate and thank God for your life. You are beautiful and bold to talk about your experience. I pray God will continue to strengthen you in all areas of your life.

God Almighty bless you for being courageous to share your testimony. It will help a lot of people.

Thanks for sharing your story, it’s very inspiring! I resonate with a lot of things, in fact we have almost a similar story. Mine got so bad that I even continued after I got married and kids. But thank Abba Yahuah that I’ve been delivered from this bondage of sin, I cried to Yah in prayer, I went into a baptism of repentance, and He saved me.

"I need to hear from God, b/c there’s a part in me that’s dying" I am there now. But I’m not sure if I want to go back.

I love you, God loves you!! Thank you for being so brave and amazing telling your story. You are truly a blessing 🤗🤍

Thankyou for sharing. I really relate to the pain leaving the lesbian relationship caused. I can honestly say that now 6 years later I don't regret it. God is good adn He will give us the desires of our heart.

Kylia, thank you so much for your transparency and for sharing your testimony. Girl, I’m going through the same exact thing right now and I’ve been in need of a word from a woman after God’s own heart. I know you are in a tender place, as am I and I appreciate your openness. Thank you a million times over for being in alignment, keeping it real and sharing! Peace and so much healing love to you! Power for your journey! ♥️🦋💋🙏🏾🦄🦄🦄🌸🤗

I always felt this way... I wanted God but I wanted her love also... I felt empty after what seemed to be happy moments between us.. Things got worse, I realized I can't live in peace with out God... thank you!!! because I always got my peace after my relationship ended

Wow! I'm only 5 minutes in and I already hear so many similarities to you testimony and mind. God is so good!🙌🏾

Wow! Powerful testimony. Thank you for sharing

Powerful testimony!!!❤

Your journey has a purpose and that purpose is Good. You're in God's Hands and you're helping his people out here by sharing your story. I appreciate your strength. God Bless.

Thank you so, so much for telling your story. I experienced something very similar and have been feeling called to tell my story. Please pray for me, and I will pray for you also.God bless you, Sister

God bless you! ❤❤❤ As struggling with being bisexual, I really want to get out and get these feelings to go away. Thank you for telling this story

Im so very very proud of you!! Honey the same thing happened to me! Trust!! I was a not so fem lesbian, I tried being no sexual 1st then I was a full lesbian from the time I was 24-31 and none of my relationships with women worked! I too had NO PEACE AT ALL, I was feel in depression though I had some happy moments in that lifestyle, I was a serious alcoholic for 13 years, so God knew.. He had to get me sober in my right mind 1st and He did. He delivered me from alcoholism 1st. 6 years ago. Then He had to deliver me from that because I wasn't letting it go. But I couldn't have peace in it, again.. It continued.. No relationship was working, I was with a woman I was madly in love with but it wasn't always easy, we got engaged, and she ghosted me around christmas of 2017. I was in the worst heart ache condition in my life, and I was in am uber talking about that relationship, hurt, was taking narcissistic abuse counselling, but I felt God was telling me something... Sure enough I told my uber driver lile taxi cab confessions that i wanted to understand the bible but u just couldn't. He gave me a new Testament Bible with commentary by pastor and bible teacher Greg laurie and on the front it said START! I wasn't so hesitant to read it I guess because it didn't say bible in front of it. It took me a lil bit but I started reading it and he had a message to the reader, I felt convicted, I started going to church with my mom, but wasn't fully ready to surrender that part of me yet, until one day, I felt convicted to search for scriptures on homosexuality, there was ovee 20 of them. I was in shock! On how many there was, and I felt God was seriously working in my life, so I broke down, I remember.. I was at work in a dark parking lot praying, open and talking to Him, and ready to surremder all those broken pieces (beauty for aches) and I said LORD! IF THIS DOES COME FROM YOU, AND GOES AGAINST YOU, I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH IT! TAKE IT FROM ME! CLEANSE ME!! USE ME!! BUT TELL ME LORD!! in tears and open completely, and I heard Him say, "I didn't give them you, you gave them you". I stopped crying and I just knew what that meant to my heart. That that lifestyle wasnt ever gonna work or give me peace because I was choosing it for me and He wasnt in that lifestyle of sex and sexuality, and every woman who entered my life was taking the place of God in my life and it broke me further and further down. I surrendered it all and now.. I'm fem, i love being the woman God made me to be. I'm an evangelist, a mentor, a God mothee but a real one! Lol I teach her the bible, and I spreD the word in a mental hospital. Those who God sets free are free indeed-! Quick note changed movement has so many just like us! I found them about 2 weeks ago. Something to look up and read, its awesome to know you're not alone and not the only one who God has delivered, its an amazing feel! God bless u sister-! Greater is He who is in you than he that is in this world. He said "the heavens and the earth shall pass away, but my words will by no means pass away" and amen to that!-

I'm really struggling with quitting same sex attraction...I don't want to be a lesbian but at the same time there's this one person I've never stopped liking... another thing that makes me feel so complicated is that, I've never liked any lady apart from her..I can't understand why I have never liked any lady apart from her...I just want to love men again... I'm confused, I don't know what to do... please help me out

Love this testimony. Thank you for bearing your soul. I could relate to so much of this. Much love mighty sister❤

Thank you for sharing your testimony, it has touched me deeply! I thank God for your life and for putting it in your heart to share the process of this difficult path but one that is worth it. Listening to you, I was moved to see that a woman has gone through something so similar to what I have gone through. Although I still have my struggles with temptations, I know that God is faithful,and in Him we are more than conquerors and I appreciate his infinite mercy! I'm new to your channel, thanks for the content you share here sister, continue to be an instrument at the service of God! God keep blessing you!

Maybe you’ve heard of the book “Gay Girl, Good God” by Jackie Hill Perry..I just got done reading it twice and it has so many similarities to everything that you said.

I love your story I struggle with homosexuality as well but I believe this day I am not gay anymore : I love this channel and I subscribe and you’re a very beautiful women

Thank you for sharing your story! God loves you so much. I love you. God is so good and gives you a spiritual peace! Hallelujah 🙌🏼❤️

My best friend told me Good will make a way of escape. That door was painful. I don’t think I’ll go back.

Amen. Thank you for sharing your story. God love each and everyone of us more than we can ever imagine. We love everyone including our LGBT community, and we will pray for them. , and we are not going to beat them up with the Bible like so many Christians do. God is able to reach them exactly where they're just like He reached you. Let's be kind to one another, and show love.

What a powerful testimony sis, God is always the answer and am so happy you found Him. You have a story to share, you have lives to save through your story for the kingdom. I pray for God’s strength for you on this journey 🙏🏾🤗😘

I happen to have come across your video with so much to be intrigued by. I applaud you for speaking your truth which is something that will always be difficult for anyone. The pain I hear in your voice on how much you’re struggling to understand what you’re going through, I empathize. Whatever choices you’ve made that helps you align with whom you are within is god’s path, the only path. I hope you’re able to stand strong in who you are and not what your desires tell you to be. Who you truly are and want to become is your power the one power that no one on this earth can take from you and whatever the characteristics that shape that person may be, I hope you only pull strength from it. God bless you and god speed to your journey to your own truth.

Bless your heart. I'm happy you are talking about your feelings. God loves you.

Thank you for sharing! May God continue to strengthen you every step of the way. Continue to share your experience, it has been a blessing to me. 🙏 prayer is powerful!

Praise the Lord. you did the right thing for God. dont let the world put you in temptation

I thank you for telling your testimony. The topic surrounding those in the LGBT community has had an impact on my walk with God.

Thank you for sharing your testimony i know it wasn’t easy to share but I needed to hear it ❤

You're beautiful queen, takes confidence to talk about it

Thank you for sharing your story because this is the exact thing I am going through right now!!❤️

Hi you are doing great and I'm glad that you can share cause I needed I hear these words and you are very helpful 👏

Hi I just want to say that ur videos have helped me so much to understand myself, Christianity, God. You definitely have a purpose on here and I’m sure I’m not the only one you’ve helped. Thank you so much and God bless you.

Beautiful testimony!!!!!!

I’m going through this right now. Except she left me…I feel so empty. Idk where to even start.

I support you for being who you are 110% there's nothing wrong with you you read the exact example of humanity coming to terms with who you are and accepting yourself instead of falling in line with social standards of a woman of your stature. You explore the world and you came to turn before you are and you're still happy!!!

Thank you for your honesty and for sharing Blessings ❤️🌹

Years ago I watched a Street healer and was fascinated that he could heal someone on the street through the name of Jesus Christ, I listen to this man yesterday , he is now a preacher and what he said I needed to hear, he said gods standard for righteousness is The Ten Commandments, and there is not a person that can say they've never broken any of The Commandments, and the important thing is that we have the conviction in our hearts to know we need Jesus, my view on religion has changed over the years, I think every spiritual teaching is the continuation of the previous, and Jesus was the last teacher and my savior, thank you for sharing, God bless

Amen, Amen, Amen sister for sharing your story. May the good Lord bless you. Listening to you is like you read my life story. Thank you. Thank you. I have completely surrendered to Jesus and it is the greatest thing that I have ever done in my life. Sister keep the faith in Christ, love you for sharing 🙏🙏🤗

God led me to your video. Thank you for sharing your testimony. May he continue to bless you beyond infinite measures. #KeepUpTheGoodWork🙌🏾

Thanks for sharing your story 🙏🏽