1. No voices (introjects) of harsh inner critics anymore 2. No self-loathing, no doubts etc. You are happy with your decisions 3. You have the ability to trust (again) 4. You no longer doubt your judgement; You are congruent with your opinions; This is supporting your authenticity. 5. You are able to see the world directly 6. Your sense of agency has been restored; You are the one, who is directing your life, which feels good 7. You have an autonomous motivation and act for your own goals, reasons etc.because it feels good 8. No more feelings of doom, not expecting the worst anymore but believing in the good. You have taken your life back. 9. Getting rid of generalized anxiety 10. You feel confident and start interacting with people (again) 11. In an intimate relationship you do not behave like a parent but like a mature adult, a grown-up. 12. No more "us against the world", no cult, no splitting (very sick) but a relationship where you both have the safety to become more of your potential. 13. Not reading your partner's mind because your own needs are important. 14. No people pleasing (anymore) because nobody has the right to demand anything from you. You are freely sharing your emotions, services, goods with others. 15. You regained your empathy and you are socially active. 16. Your beliefs, values etc. are stable. 17. You do not have infantile defense mechanisms anymore. 18. You regained to experience emotions in a direct way. 19. You are seeking intimacy and you are not afraid showing vulnerabilities. 20. You are not a victim (anymore). 21. You are proud of your identity, which is who you are. Shalom Prof. Vaknin and thank you for your insightful education 👏👏👏 This quote of who you are related to identity I liked most, "A smile that lights up the room." 🌞
@user-jz7yu2zc1h Жыл бұрын
Gosh I’m no where there 🥹 very happy for you 🙏
@tobiasgreger48827 ай бұрын
Arrived...
@aquariusstar72482 ай бұрын
@roxiemovie Thank you for capturing and scribing. I listened first with the intention to go back and write later. You made this easy for me and others. Thanks!
@roxymovie39382 ай бұрын
@@aquariusstar7248 You are quite welcome.
@brandijohnson71782 ай бұрын
Thanks for typing this out!
@chrissyuy Жыл бұрын
So true… “If a narcissist wants your opinion, he’ll give it to you.”
@daverobbe6560 Жыл бұрын
I still have a lot of work to do
@sludgerat6669 ай бұрын
4 months. How has the journey been?
@lalaelel99429 ай бұрын
3 months. I feel like great some days then weak again but im resisting to look back
@thejewelledchalice-joolswi95639 ай бұрын
I have ongoing challenges with self-deprecation and sentimentality. Although I do acknowledge this and I continue to release the baggage
@tiffanyclark33419 ай бұрын
Come a long way but same
@all_is_alchemy7 ай бұрын
You and me and them both 😅 Don't let anything pull you away from your path to freedom and actualization. Can't save drowning people that WON'T accept your help. Don't drown with them for the sake of their illness. Don't let the what-ifs hold any space in your mind. They might walk in the unlocked door but they aren't allowed to stay, so to speak. There was never a what-if with them only what-is in their mind and that is reality for them and everyone around as they placate the narc... I'm trying to focus more on calling mine/our personal power back! Less on attempting to set the record straight or argue what is reality with a person lost in a house of mirrors within themselves.
@Mjones4949 Жыл бұрын
She sent me a text wishing me a happy 4th after nothing on Father's Day or my birthday. Looked at it and laughed...I'm good!
@TheIsraelProphetess5 ай бұрын
Block their number
@thxnarrator3174 Жыл бұрын
Survivors of narcissism, not victims of narcissism. Great point Professor, great session today and everyday
@GVpeace Жыл бұрын
Indeed :)
@robertafierro5592 Жыл бұрын
@@GVpeace ffcccctt cttfftttt ffcf
@ljw6639 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations on the .001 % Dr. Sam! I’m so impressed and grateful for all your hard work!
@samvaknin Жыл бұрын
0.1%. Thank you.
@suslynn4033 Жыл бұрын
And thank you for the last Point, the icing on the cake…victimhood! “I’m an empath, I’m a (even worse!) SUPER empath.” NO, I am not! I am a beautiful and complicated human being, who made bad choices, and with MY OWN character defects to learn from! I
@GVpeace Жыл бұрын
not a bad choice if you learned things about yourself and life and other people...and if we did learn, then this is just one more experience we had to go through in order to thrive and go on awakening our conscious.
@ckl5801 Жыл бұрын
I am a proud, strong and resilient survivor 🎉❤
@KeriV-wx4qh Жыл бұрын
when you said "you recapture your zest for life - you want to live" I teared up. Having grown up in a house of horrors, i've lived the past few years in a constant dread of living. I've been suicidal my whole life - ive had my ups and downs. I was agonizing "what is the point? theres nothing to look forward too, I don't want to suffer anymore" I recently went to europe for 2 weeks with my partners family. Being immersed in a safe, loving, welcoming and yes, FRENCH family, gave me much needed rest. I have recaptured my zest for life. I want to live. There IS more to life. It's been a long journey of healing and I'm still going.
@adambutler42374 ай бұрын
Perfection is a direction not a destination.
@hopealivealways Жыл бұрын
I will always tell anyone who cares to listen; "be very careful with therapists." Be ready to WALK-AWAY! Whenever therapy becomes more damaging to you walk away and keep searching until you find safe and satisfactory therapy experiences. Be very discerning of their own behaviour and interests. Keep your expectations reasonable. Understand they're human too. And one day you'll find a wonderful therapist because they do exist. Continue doing your personal work in the meantime and don't let bad therapy experiences put an end to any progress. I wish everyone only the best as we journey through healing. Congrats Prof and may you continue soaring!
@elianecgarcia7 ай бұрын
Thank you Sam Vaknim. I even cried at the end of this video. I smiled widely and he hated it. I haven't laughed out loud yet, but I'll laugh again like I did before I met the idiot. And the funny thing is that I became a "bullfighter" and I must have a red cloth because I attract narcissists, I can already identify it in the "hello" and say "Olé" 😂 Kiss and a beautiful smile for you.
@ckl5801 Жыл бұрын
Adults contract freely and exchange emotions freely 😊
@marie-christineslesser3094 Жыл бұрын
I am a French English teacher (lived 16 years in the UK and was married to a Scot for 39 years ) I am also very impressed by what an excellent English speaker you are: wide range of excellent vocabulary and perfect stress pattern. You also seem to have a good knowledge of French too. You are also an excellent pedagogue / communicator. Congratulations! You bring a lot to this audience on all your knowledge about Psychology. I cannot thank you enough for the knowledge and clairvoyance you bring me and all of us, I think, here. 👏🙏
@succulentlife3343 Жыл бұрын
Congrats Sam!! That is such a great accomplishment and I can see why you made it. Your work is invaluable and made the difference in my healing. I know everyone says get therapy, but I did a couple months of weekly therapy while I was still in "the grip" and it did little to nothing. I needed much deeper education given to me verses just trying to talk myself through understanding the brainwashing. I felt I was such a strong person and that's the feedback I got from friend, so could not wrap my head around why and how I could end up in the same spot as people I thought I'd previously tried to help. Not only did your work get me out, but guided me through healing, and changed everything about my approach to guiding others. I'm no longer in my profession (intensive parole type agent) but an entrepreneur and love my life. Thank you!
@aliciaserrano888 Жыл бұрын
This video is very empowering. I feel the healing happening within me. It feels like I’m crawling out of a dark cave. These steps are very helpful when it seems like all joy is gone.
@ckl5801 Жыл бұрын
“Show the narcissist two middle fingers” 😂
@nicolasommer77522 ай бұрын
I did this continuously, behind his back, once I knew who he was. It’s a very powerful tool and allowed me to go to bed giggling, with the door locked until I was out of there.
@WestonBishop1Ай бұрын
Wow. I was lucky enough to watch this video right after my discard and I'm watching it again after my healing. Doc is absolutely right about everything. To anyone that is going through it, just know that you are not alone and you can make it, and when you do you will feel nothing but love and pride for yourself for going through the journey. You deserve love ❤️
@patriciajoseph3035 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for this one. It is indeed possible to go from surviving to thriving. So many others make it sound like you're broken beyond repair after narcissistic abuse. Well done once again Professor!
@margaretwhelan1475 Жыл бұрын
A genius indeed💛🙏
@ckl5801 Жыл бұрын
I found myself getting sucked into a relationship with old patterns. I had to hit the pause button. It was clear when I exercised my autonomous self and what was right for me and faced a firestorm of attack from this person that I would have to compromise my core values and self sacrifice to conform to this person’s value system which is based on their obsession with rap music(Chicago gangland style), be subject to their criticisms (I say “like” too much) and be asked to change who I am vs being respected for who I am. I am proud of who I am. I’ve worked very hard on myself in years of therapy. I won’t be subjected to the projections of this toxic person with comparisons to the ex. 😢
@ALSTCM5 ай бұрын
Congratulations, Prof. Sam Vaknin! I’m so grateful for you and all of your work. Binge watching your videos has been the only way to keep me on track and helped me break the shared fantasy. It feels like you’re speaking to me and my exact experience. I’m forever grateful for the brilliant way that you help us make sense of the seemingly senseless. 🙏🏼
@kathyg2093Ай бұрын
Binge watching Vaknin’s vids has been instrumental in my recovery, too! It’s only been a few months, but I’m so grateful that I discovered his channel, and that he shares his knowledge and insight! I’ve got to get his book!
@daleg4299 Жыл бұрын
Thank you Sam, for this re-affirming, supportive video. Therapy and no-contact along with these presentations have given me tremendous freedom. Mine was birth- family programming as scapegoat and took a lifetime to get past. I am 66, and although the loss of family can still leave me sad, I know how much better life is now without them. It is the difference between a torturous life sentence in a dark, dank cell vs standing on a breezy sunlit beach. Many blessings to you for your great contributions.
@nicolasommer77522 ай бұрын
I concur. I actually now live on a breezy beach lol. If I think of my family, I call them Pork Chops and move on. Maybe give your family a name that resonates with you. I love Pork Chops now, but I used to be allergic to pork when I lived with my family. Weird, but the name Pork Chops make them sound ridiculous, which they are.
@amee9442 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for this!! All I see in the NA community is pain.....I needed to hear this!! Next we need more recovery and success stories......Survivors need to hear that thriving is possible....Thank You again Sam for your work!
@Snow-wz6eu Жыл бұрын
Anonymous communities are so TOXIC. It kills. Bill W: Narc in chief.
@anitabeck1833 Жыл бұрын
Sam, you make the most complete, interesting and true analyses of the Narcisstic theme I ve ever heard. I was during decades the most perfect puzzle piece to fit with them (highpotential, hypersensitive, empathic... and hoping healing them as I failed to this with my mother (passive-aggressive) during my childhood 😅). Since over 25 years I try to help people showing them that they are NOT victims but that they do not have enough self-confidence, self-esteem, not enough love and respect with themselves, etc, etc ... and I try to show them how to grow inside, leave their saver syndrom etc. to become uninteresting for abusive people. This is my heart "business" ( I do it for free most of time). Thank you so much for all you are doing... this is such an important issue🙏. Greetings from Switzerland ❤
@suslynn4033 Жыл бұрын
You’re so very brave. I am indeed very grateful for your teachings.
@marie-christineslesser3094 Жыл бұрын
I thoroughly enjoy all your work Professor Sam Vaknin. You are irreplaceable!👏
@juliesheard2122 Жыл бұрын
That was incredible! Thankyou Prof. I'm healing at suprising speed. No-one else tells it like it is this way. Not sure if I will ever get to intimacy but I can at least stop revelling in my victimhood. Good to hear you are getting the recognition you deserve.
@anabandana666 Жыл бұрын
I started this process in the last year!!! I'm not 100% there yet but I'm on my way.
@slamtailsuspension19334 ай бұрын
This should be verbatim on a banner in a public place for all to access
@suslynn4033 Жыл бұрын
I am so VERY pleased to hear that you have made it into the top .01%! It’s truly amazing! The help, honesty and brilliance in your own place, and our place, in the world is so very hopeful and fills me with gratitude! Thank you!!!
@succulentlife3343 Жыл бұрын
Yes on victimhood!!! Love this one. I have felt healed, but this was a perfect video to give some sort of gage and know what areas I still need to keep in the forefront of awareness.
@oilselevated4808 Жыл бұрын
I just passed a year that my husband/abusive bully of 33 years has passed away, and am doing so much better. You reminded me of sooo many situations where he would burst through the door screaming about the (whatever) disaster and he would make everyone in the house crazy, while 5 minutes later he was great but left us all shaken
@oilselevated4808 Жыл бұрын
@@mrsqueakthecat.8061 must have been scary…yes, all hell broke loose, usually his own making and within 5 minutes the crisis is over and he’s peacefully watching tv while we’re all shaking and upset for hours
@michellemiller47428 ай бұрын
My ex was really great at causing a sh*t storm over losing or missing something. It was a daily occurrence....sometimes a few times a day. I realized as I was waking up to his manipulations that this was just a way for him to get everyone to do things for him!! Find his wallet, keys, etc. He would create the Chaos and we all ran around like nuts trying to find his items!! He was so damned lazy and manipulative. Controlling us like marionettes. God help anyone still in narc relationships.
@oilselevated48088 ай бұрын
@@michellemiller4742 and starting a fight, an excuse to leave and make his calls…leaving everyone in a bad mood and frazzled. Every time I hear the stories and it reminds me how grateful I am that m free. Good luck
@meriemmimi104 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations !!! Happy to see you get the recognition you deserve sir
@ckl5801 Жыл бұрын
I have emoted by proxy my entire life…I hate this…crying at sappy movies or other people crying. 😢
@anne-marietracey48663 ай бұрын
Professor Vaknin. You have without doubt saved my sanity , my soul and my life. Your work gives incredible support and teaching to people who have suffered narcissistic abuse. Thank you thank you thank you 🙏☺️x
@missellz7630 Жыл бұрын
Since I’ve been separated from the narcissist my BPD is getting better I’m now starting DBT therapy and mentalisation therapy after years I feel clean in a way I can’t explain almost as if I wasn’t me atal, when I was with him I looked drastically different too my skins glowing again I was almost colourless with the narcissist, he literally had my life In his hands it’s crazy how much they change you for the worst when your with them you only notice once your out I’m a better mother to our son I enjoy our son more now he’s not around he always would downplay my parenting even though everyone else tells me I’m a amazing mum it’s what they do make you feel less now I now feel more than again despite the pain it caused me and he’s son great work as usual Sam💯however I still need help because I still act like the parent and have type constancy which I struggle to stop doing.
@ckl5801 Жыл бұрын
I’m sure you are an awesome mum! Heart hugs to you on your healing journey! You are on your way and going to survive and thrive! God bless you!
@russellmatt41977 ай бұрын
This is the most profound description of recovery available. It is both broad and deep. The force de tour is the last point. There is nothing more to say. This is a gift from the universe I accept with grace. Thank you.
@user-lq5pz2tm7u2 ай бұрын
I learned so much again Sam. I'm about half way there, not ready for dating. You're right on the victimhood. I didn't want to hear I had a part at all but I did. Once I saw my part, I started the healing. It's made no contact so much easier.
@truthteller-yu7kf Жыл бұрын
Taking responsibility is a must for any and all relationships. Please talk about overcoming the fear of complete loss and facing consequences. It is a must I do this and not blame others or make excuses.
@TheWisdomOfTheAges_PsyM_Revd Жыл бұрын
ok let's face it to see if I'm passing the test finally.
@trinityscdc3312 Жыл бұрын
Dear Professor Vaknin, thank you for your work. A video about signs of recovery from abuse through Borderlines would be interesting (if such a thing exists).
@samvaknin Жыл бұрын
Good topic suggestion. Thank you.
@nicolasommer77522 ай бұрын
This video is one of the best for me to know where I’m at in healing. I blew you a kiss every time I could tick positive to each of these. I have 5 to work on, but know I’m half way there on 4 of them. Intimacy is going to be my hardest. I’ve had 1 practice and as soon as he did one thing that the ex did, instead of me communicating, I took it to, hurry up and finish, masturbate into me if you have to, which is all I ever got. But, I’m proud of myself after 9 months of no contact with him and no contact for 4 years with family.
@ckl5801 Жыл бұрын
I needed this run down on healthy vs unhealthy behaviors! Thank you Sam!
@RS-ww8jo Жыл бұрын
I’ve been healing after being married to him 33 years. Taking care of my bedridden mother on 10 acres with animals, mowing, I do everything by myself. He’s been gone 4 years. My mother has dementia and it triggers me at times when she gets name calling and mean. But I’m doing my best. She reminds me of him at times, maybe she’s narcissistic too. Probably lol But I’m getting it done. Getting to know myself all over again and starting to really enjoy my peace. I just wish I could get out and do things again. It’s so hard with no help. I have a caregiver at 20.00 per hr I can’t afford to do much other than, groceries, dr, dds, hair cut a couple times a year. It’s been tough but utube and you Dr. have helped me all along the way.
@user-wy4sr7dt2g Жыл бұрын
Something to be proud of! Congratulations Dr. Vaknin. I appreciate you.
@ohmoflife19 ай бұрын
I felt a huge weight lifted recently once I drew a line in the sand that helped me let go but feel really good and secure. Reading the list, I can now enjoy the true fact that I have really begun to love on 🎉
@user-xc3wj5mz7l Жыл бұрын
Watching this one twice !! Thanks for everything Mr Vaknin you have helped me immensely.
@vagelissevastakis7417 Жыл бұрын
A recognise my torments in Sam Vaknin's justifications,(wantning to confront them )but also the collosal apparatus of his total devotion to human condition through the personal to the collective Good of mental Health. What a visionary lion you are doctor.! A charm of bravery and Ethos.Thank you.
@elenav986 Жыл бұрын
Bravo! Thank you so much for this video! Proud survivor, living my best life and thriving 😊
@dilfuzakhaydarova2859 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Dear Professor Vaknin. All your knowledge interesting for me and it is helping me. One of my goals is learning. I love learning from you.
@nurjaanmahomed15665 ай бұрын
Thank you for the information.
@marionwurdak-swenson80367 ай бұрын
Brilliant- as always!
@nat64426 ай бұрын
You re so poetic!thank you for the encouraging inspiring motivating words!
@APJosiane Жыл бұрын
Thanks for all your videos! Through them, today I was able to attend this one and conclude that I am recovered.
@Valeriafoxx6 ай бұрын
Thank you Sam. You amazing 💗
@jeaniemckaig Жыл бұрын
Thank you for journeying with us in healing. In a way, you hold our hands until we spread our wings and fly again. I can’t say thank you enough. Everything you teach makes so much sense and everything connects. I love your humour too! Congratulations! The Father of Narcissism and Narcissistic Abuse.
@marlenedralionfontaine3010 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much, I totally feel this video. You helped me quite a lot through my healing path. ✨💖
@Sylvia0619 Жыл бұрын
Thank you Sam! Great video again! It seems I have been healed. It was a very long and hard ride (almost 2 years). During this time your videos helped a lot. I am very grateful for that. Thank you for your work and always useful and meaningful videos.
@RS-ww8jo Жыл бұрын
You’ve done great work Dr. Something to be proud of. Thank you for helping me! His bless you❤
@wereallapartofthisreligion8453 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your work. I Am so relieved I have found your videos.
@Gigiyoungerme Жыл бұрын
You are a kind man Sam Vaknin Congratulations 🎉 Génial
@aquariusstar72482 ай бұрын
Thank you so much! I am not, shall not be a victim!🙏🏾 I fight and stand for my life. I love myself and my life!
@razbearymoon1276 Жыл бұрын
I wish I could give a thousand thumbs up for this video.
@jesuschristthesecond Жыл бұрын
such fitting timing
@runwiththewind3281 Жыл бұрын
Professor Vaknin, thank you
@suzanneelmore5528 Жыл бұрын
That is an amazing achievement. Research, citing, putting it all together so that it keeps the reader engaged is far more difficult than many know! Congratulations on such a giant life achievement Doc.!~S 👍🏼👍🏼💞💞✔✔
@MissSuzapalooza Жыл бұрын
Awesome post thank you. I’m 20 out of 21….pretty darned good!!!
@angiemcleod7979 Жыл бұрын
Great achievement, well done. Happy to see my healing process. Still a ways to go but I think some of this is deep-seated and explains continuing to date narcissist people. Thanks for the videos and for sharing your knowledge.
@HungarianMeringue Жыл бұрын
What a fantastic list. Thank you. I was wondering if I was "there" yet and I would say I am pretty darn close, but I will take this list to my therapist and check in with her. We've been working together for just about 7 years. It has been the work of my life. I appreciate your videos and I have learned much from them. Ever onward.
@susansimon42554 ай бұрын
This post is so revealing and so clear!
@WendyA-s7sАй бұрын
I have a lot of work to do too!
@martinas8063 Жыл бұрын
Saved. Thank You very much Sir for being so clear and the profound science. Time for healing.
@valevazquez7262 Жыл бұрын
Wow ! You melt my soul , the last 5 minutes are so powerfull . Thank you Dr Vaknin .
@magorzatawidawska3964 Жыл бұрын
A very informative talk, so much, still, to work on.
@AyaAlm-bo7tl Жыл бұрын
Congrats Sam, very deserved, thank you for all you do ❤
@user-jl3ey6hn9u9 ай бұрын
Thank you so much from Quebec❤
@agnesmukhavi5501 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations !
@onedayatatime746 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations Sam!!
@dropdead_red Жыл бұрын
Omg Sam! Well done, and absolutely deserved. 🎉
@JosCampman-qj3oi29 күн бұрын
Congrats🤗🤗🤗🥰
@juliaagnes7 Жыл бұрын
This was excellent; thanks so much!
@MariaAra2924 ай бұрын
You are the best Professor Vaknin! You deserve recognition for So Much including most likely, aiding, objectively in the prevention of Our potential breakdowns&what could have been our no get bk ups..
@jgalebrubeck1838 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for the deluge of information for recognizing, studying and healing from narcissistic abuse. Your legacy is set, and over the years I hope many people will recognize, reorganize and recover from this scourge of their lives. Thank you and know that the immortality of your knowledge is forever appreciated. Suvivor and thriver. G
@jessiegordon916 Жыл бұрын
Kol HaKavod Sam! Thank you for being #1 teacher!
@user-zg9dr9hf7n Жыл бұрын
Congratulations🎉🎉🎉
@tathe3786 Жыл бұрын
I was a Victim. I Chose a Partner altough my gut alarmed….I was traumabonded… And i knew it Listen to you and Others here… …my gut acepted what Happens to me….i Went in to radical aceptance…. And got a surviver…. Now i am quiet out of This Bond… free to live me in Full capasity…!! Thanks you Sam, i am back with me!!!
@amandaherbert9664 Жыл бұрын
Really helpful video. Thank you so much.
@pixie345811 ай бұрын
this is exceptional, and has helped me to evaluate where I am 9 months out. In the end, I chose him, and opted to ignore my urges to exit. My one challenge is to understand what in my past led me to this...perhaps an invalidating mother who declared later in life 'I put you down at every possible opportunity'
@patriciajoseph3035 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations Professor. I do follow them.
@arianehammerle3159 Жыл бұрын
Grazie grazie grazie - non ci sono parole per esprimere la mia gratitudine. Professore, il Suo è un lavoro grande e si merita tutti i riconoscimenti che Le arrivano!
@user-rg7lu3co6f7 ай бұрын
Thank you for your eyes-opening and compassionate videos! I enjoy the fact that conclusions and concepts are all scientific- both psychological and philosophical. I like how you help those who had to face narcissism overcome painful results of those interactions without conveying excessive dramatization or hard feelings, in a very constructive way 👍 I wish you success in your noble endeavors
@newearthnaijavibes727511 ай бұрын
Thanks. I'm not a victim. Amen.
@JaneDonut9 ай бұрын
LIFE SAVING MESSAGE 🙏 Infinite gratitude to you, Prof. Vaknin, you have saved my life. No exaggeration. Thank you.
@abbeyphadima709 Жыл бұрын
That point about feelings projection answered my questions about why Narc crying so often when watching movies, so when they infect you you become like that too 😢
@diane4284 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations Sam.
@MeenaHarlow-kx4fz Жыл бұрын
Thank you Professor. Your content helped me have my first independent Independence Day today.
@annamariagoldschmied259211 ай бұрын
❤❤🎉❤❤ Thank you Professor Vaknin, you saved my life..the last 2 years I was listening you hundreds/thousands of hours. ❤
@TuerlingsTim Жыл бұрын
I am not totally done but due to the last person found out that I had more this kind relationships started with my brother. But due to the study I have recognised a lot and moving on. The memory from the last one is gone. The rest I can look back without bad feelings. So not yet there but on the right path. I even made a document with all kind of links in case when confused and need some information 😁. My way to park information from The head to outside