feels like "I deserved better but this is what i want and i dont know how to stop"

Really can relate to this. It's when you feel you've been neglected, put aside, and used. And yet you don't mind as long as she still remembers you and comes to you whenever she decides/feels to. At times, you question yourself if is it because its instilled in you by your upbringing to be patient, enduring, and hopeful; waiting when it's your time to be prioritized by the person you love most. or if you just haven't learned from your past and you keep putting up being at the backburner.

"After everything you put me through I still somehow believe in you" BRUH, THIS HITS HARD!

Niki’s songs are an embodiment of the teenage crush who got away -but left you with the tingling feeling that _lingers_

Backburner isn't just for people who secretly want to have a personal and intimate relationship with someone who doesn't reciprocate their feelings. Backburner is also for the people who are neglected, used, ignored, left out, and forgotten by their so-called friends. Backburners are the ones whom they can run unto when no one's around-their second to last option. When there's no choice but to be with you. Backburners know they deserve better, but they still chose to settle for it, still choosing them despite the pain because, deep in their hearts, that so-called friend once made them feel seen, valid, and loved. They'll still stay not just because of the bond the two of them once had but also because of the longing- hoping they'll see them again, meet them again, and laugh with them again, just like in the old times.

"maybe you'll finally choose me after you've had more time..." The tiny hope that glimmers from this line is the hope that I cling to. I don't know how much more time you need in order for you to realize that we deserve another chance, but I'm willing to wait for a lifetime just to be with you again someday. Do know that it's still you that I long for so much that's why I don't mind being your backburner :'))

there’s always that one person you loved so much to the point that even if you’re just an option to them, you’ll let them, because that’s the least thing you could get from them

niki’s storytelling songs is just so satisfying.. NICOLE you saved me

this was the song that stuck with me the most in the album. girlies that settled way too much in their lives can relate :(

to all the backburner girlies and guys, i hope you all find the love yall deserve. I hope you find someone who choose you the way you choose them.

maybe we accept the love we think we deserve. and that sucks if we can relate to this song. we really deserve more. our love should be celebrated, not tolerated

"Maybe I’m just not better than this, I haven’t tried. Cause maybe you’ll finally choose me after you’ve had more time". This. Have you ever loved someone to a point you feel like you should've done more just to be accepted by them? Its not you. Its them. You are enough. Do not question your worth over someone who is blind enough to appreciate whats infront of them. I really can relate to this song and I wish i could tell you this. Reminder to everyone who is reading this, no matter how nice they treated you, no matter how clear the signals are that they are into you, cared for you, asked about your family, asked how your dad treated your friends, wanting to get to known you more, asked your routine, made you feel special, know this, never assume unless stated, and never do more for them unless its official. At the end of the day, you are just their safety net. I will always remember how my heart shattered that night. I've been on my own for the rest of my life and I don't open my heart for anyone. But for you somehow I risked it all and congratulations, you win. You win. You don't know how much you've hurt a soul. Never again becoming a backburner. Never. Backburners out there, leave the whatever you are having with that person, you deserve someone better.

I've loved this guy for almost a decade now. And though I know that I should have let go what we almost had, every time he comes to me to talk, I drop everything down for him. It does not matter what I'm doing, for when he calls, I'm always ready to listen to whatever he wants to say. I know I deserve more than whatever this is, I deserve more than being on his back burner, but I'm still hoping that someday, he'll finally choose me. I guess being his friend now is the best way that I could show my love for him.

Yup! That's a new word for my vocabulary.. Back-burner "a person to whom one is not presently committed, and with whom one maintains some degree of communication, in order to keep or establish the possibility of future romantic and/or sexual involvement.” 💔 Niki! 😭

dear nicole, your songs never disappoint me. it always hit my feelings everytime i listened to your song, thank you

I’ve experienced this before. Me being the chaser, ignore all the signs, trying all ways to get him like me, but at the very end I would always only his “entertainer”. Thank you for this music, Niki!💙

this song feels like a 90's pop song, even mentioning goo goo dolls. I really miss this kind of song, reminds me of my peace childhood before adult dramas 😌😌

omg im feeling something about this album Nicole, its making me go through the same old love 🥹

I think she will be the next taylor swift with her own style, how she brings her song is like telling a story

I really adore the line "Maybe life's less romantic when I don't wanna die."

NIKI inspired me to go all in with my music because she was once just like me, an artist without many listeners. And now she's on top. I believe it will happen for me one day, I’m not stopping when it does!

2-3 bulan belakangan music nya selalu ada di radio jakarta.... pagi siang malam enak dinikmatin....

I have always been liked but not pursued and it's crazy that I don't mind being a backburner for someone whom rejected me before-- I cut him off my life but sometimes I wish he is thinking of me the way I think of him but that is just a wishful thinking and I know he couldn't care less about me

i went from a “take a chance with me” girl to a “backburner” girl. we talked for 4 months .then, he confessed to me irl and yes he indeed took a chance with me. towards the end of our relationship, i felt like he cared less abt me, he ignored me and he invalidate my feelings, somehow i still hold on. even after the break up, when he had problems, i was still there for him. i comforted him and called him just to prove how much i still cared and loved him. and i knew damn well he was gonna fade away as time goes on.i just couldn’t lose him tht time. but when i realised tht im worth more than to wait for someone who thinks tht he could live his life without me, i stopped responding to his texts. its been 2 months since we last talked but he still stalks my soc med alot. as for me, i just simply ignore his soc med. if im being honest, if he texted me rn, ill probably respond to it. but i will never forget how bad my condition was after he left. physically and mentally. i loved you, L. and i hate it tht i miss you.

"I deserve better but I'm staying because it's you we're talking about."

I wish the ticket is more affordable to me, or at least if I can buy just one day ticket to Niki performance so that I can enjoy Nicole live

I’ve never cried from a song in my life. This song did it for me

I kinda relate to this song, it hits so hard when you in a situation where you have a feeling for another person and willing to have a bit of conversation or interaction while the other person does not even care or may not reciprocate the similar feeling you have for him.

i love the way she always mentioning her mama with her songs 🤍

Every lyric of this song reflects to me so hard. I'm a Christian and I love how she used predestination ❤️ Im in the same exact position as was said in this song. I love niki so much

okay i really believed that anaheim is my niki song yet backburner humbled me today, what a fucking masterpiece nicole 🥺 along with facebook friends jesus. I can't even talk about the apartment we won't share 😢

" How do you feel lucky and appalled at the same time. " it feels like that ex that cheated on you but you still have feelings for calling you back to catch up and meet up, you still remember that they cheated but you feel kinda excited meeting them again.

Nicole, bener bener dah,, aaaah never thank u enough. Lagunya gak ada yang gagal uy, Masih blum move one dri before trilogy , eh udh dikasih lagi.

WHAT AN ABSOLUTE BANGER

“Hey are you still there?” “Good” Gets me everytime

baru td pagi dan belum selesai buat dengerin semua lagu di album NICOLE.. and this song buckburner is something ..

we can really tell, THIS IS THE AUGUST TO REMEMBER. Thank you for this, sayang♥️

I want to share my experience. I had a friend who I liked. He was broken, so I stayed with him. We talked and became closer to each other. I'm always there for him. Every time his other friends can't be with him, he'll call me. Ask me out. He's a good dancer and singer, plays an instrument, and is academically inclined. Who wouldn't fall for that, right? I stayed with him through his process of healing. Then he started liking my friend. He asked for my help, and I helped him. That friend and I weren't talking to each other because of some issues between us, but for him, I lowered my pride and talked to that friend. But then he called me again, crying because he felt insecure being with my friend. I honestly felt bad, and I comforted him. I'm hurting not just for him but for myself too, because he cried to me because of a girl. I liked him. Through their talking stage, we weren't able to communicate much. We won't be having a conversation if I don't make the first move. Even in person, we can't interact because he's always with her. I didn't feel jealous at all. But I feel like he's slowly drifting away. And so, I tried to move on. However, he chatted with me, saying they stopped talking because he couldn't bear to feel the insecurity my friend made him feel unconsciously. Again, we talked. I helped him again. I stayed by his side. When he cries, I cry with him. Then again, he liked my other friend, lol. I helped him again, but this time I cried so much. I realized I was hurting myself physically, emotionally, and mentally. I started distancing myself from him. Even with our classmates. I barely talked with them. Because upon talking to myself, I realized they talked to me every time they needed me. If they couldn't understand the lesson, they asked me. They asked for my advice. They just need me, and that makes me feel dejected. We stop talking, but I still consider him my friend. I was actually planning to confess, but I don't think I can. He dated my friends, so... I don't know if I'm a backburner, but I always feel like I'm his second choice. Until now, we're not talking. But I think he's doing good. They broke up, but they're healing. And yeah, until now, I'm still a backburner; it just became part of my life.

omg, i feel bad before I listen to this and now I feel hurt and excuse me let me cry in the corner 😢

I can't lie, it feels nice that you're calling You sound sad and alone and you're stalling And for once, I don't care about what you want As long as we keep talking (As long as we're talking) I mean, you gotta admit the history's kind of unmatched Asian Calvinism-, we made it out of that Well, whether we're free of will or predestined Clearly I've not learned my lesson even now Hope He doesn't strike me down (Strike me down) The Goo Goo Dolls are dead to me The way you should be too But you bring them up Along with how much I fucking miss you Maybe I'm just not better than this, I haven't tried Maybe life's less romantic when I don't wanna die You'd think I'd be a fast learner But guess I won't ever mind crisping up on your backburner Your backburner Your backburner Your backburner Your backburner It's pathetic but at least, you are too I don't know what to do I don't like anyone except sometimes you And now you're sounding like a hurt puppy You look ugly when you cry But I'm the one you think to call How do you feel lucky and appalled at the same time? After everything you put me through I somehow still believe in you, oh But I know in a week or so You'll fade away again And I wish that I cared Hey, are you still there? Good Maybe I'm just not better than this, I haven't tried 'Cause maybe you'll finally choose me after you've had more time I thought I was a fast learner But guess I won't ever mind, guess I won't ever mind Maybe I blame my mother bleeding into my stride Maybe it was my father and his wandering eyes (It's their fault that) I'll always be in your corner 'Cause I don't feel alive till I'm burning on your backburner, oh (Your backburner, your backburner) And I know that it's sad that I settle for the backburner (Your backburner, your backburner) (Your backburner, your backburner) Oh Guess I won't ever mind crisping up on your backburner (Your backburner, your backburner) (Your backburner, your backburner) Oh As long as you still think of me, oh (Your backburner, your backburner)

I discovered this song the same way I discovered that I’ve always settled on being the less priority. And just wondering when will I ever be a priority to anyone.

I can’t understand, why those type of people who love the most, those type of people who had the purest intentions always get hurt??

Nicole, album of the year!!!

EVERY SINGLE WORD IN THIS SONG. EVER. SINGLE. FKIN. ONE. I COULD TO RELATE TO ALL OF IT. i love u. i really do youre amazing

This is exactly how I feel toward my friends. With covid and now after we graduated, I always be the one who reach for them first. Most of the time they will forget me

Aaah codependecy, my old friend. Genius, as always, Niki.

Amazing song. Brilliant lyrics (of your feelings) and beautifully catchy instrumentals.

Kak niki i come back every day and i really wish ur arts listened and appreciated by many souls in this whole universe cause u deserve it really. This album needs more lover and i'm happy that i'm part of it❤️💗❤️💗✨️✨️✨️💐💐💐

Hits home. I’ve had this friend ever since we were 12. He got his first girlfriend, still do, at 15, and we’re currently turning 19. I’m still waiting. When we turned 18, him and his gf broke up for a while. He was constantly belittling himself and was genuinely broken for a while. I hated seeing him so broken and questioning himself constantly even though he wasn’t the problem. It pained me physically hearing him say he’s not good enough, and it was probably his fault. I impulsively confessed that I’ve liked, probably love, him ever since we turned 13. Of course I know I shouldn’t have done it and told him immediately that he doesn’t need to think about me, because I just wanted him to know that he didn’t need to constantly question himself, cause I genuinely see him as an amazing and the most loyal person I’ve ever met. 3 weeks after I confessed to him, him and his girlfriend got back together. They’re still together until now, and tbh I think I will never get the chance to show him how much I treasure him. And that’s okay. Even though I show him that I didn’t expect anything to come out of my confession to him, I still somehow wish he felt the same at one point. We’re still friends by the way. Nothing changed, he’s still the same caring and amazing person I know, and I still love him the same way. I guess that’s why I would never mind the fact that I placed myself in his backburner, cause in the end, all I want is to see him happy. I am happy him and his girlfriend are doing a lot better and are still getting stronger. I would never wish for them to break up because they’re both an amazing person, and I think they suit each other really well. And to clear things, yes. He showed interest in me when we were 13, but I guess it was just me who thought of it as something serious😂.

I can't lie, it feels nice that you're calling You sound sad and alone, and you're stalling And for once, I don't care about what you want As long as we keep talking (as long as we're talking) I mean, you gotta admit the history's kind of unmatched Asian Calvinism, we made it out of that Well, whether we're free of will or predestined Clearly, I've not learned my lesson even now Hope He doesn't strike me down (strike me down) The Goo Goo Dolls are dead to me The way you should be too But you bring them up Along with how much I fucking miss you Maybe I'm just not better than this, I haven't tried Maybe life's less romantic when I don't wanna die You'd think I'd be a fast learner But guess I won't ever mind crisping up on your backburner Backburner Your backburner Your backburner Your backburner It's pathetic, but at least you are, too I don't know what to do I don't like anyone except sometimes you And now you're sounding like a hurt puppy You look ugly when you cry But I'm the one you think to call How do you feel lucky and appalled at the same time? After everything you put me through I somehow still believe in you, oh-oh But I know in a week or so You'll fade away again And I wish that I cared Hey, are you still there? Good Maybe I'm just not better than this, I haven't tried 'Cause maybe you'll finally choose me after you've had more time I thought I was a fast learner But guess I won't ever mind, guess I won't ever mind Maybe I blame my mother bleeding into my stride Maybe it was my father and his wandering eyes (It's their fault that) I'll always be in your corner 'Cause I don't feel alive 'til I'm burnin' on your backburner, oh-oh (Backburner, your backburner) And I know that it's sad that I settle for the backburner, oh-oh (your backburner) (Your backburner, your backburner) Guess I won't ever mind crisping up on your backburner, oh-oh (your backburner) (Backburner, your backburner) As long as you still think of me, oh, oh-oh (backburner, backburner)

I like the beat and all the elements of this song. Thank you Niky and team.

Just how Niki wrote this as if she knows what I feel for that one person

it's a love you don't find often. You can't help but look back

Gosh I didn't know what kind of confusing relationship I was in till NIKI wrote this song and accurately depicts it

This is Just me these days.. oh no I'm crying but still saved... Thanks to all of your songs 💖🥺 niki

Ya Allah berikanlah niki tubuh yg sehat, jgn biarkan dia sakit.. apa lagi bulan depan dia akan sibuk tur di amerika selama 2 bulan...amin...

My first day in school was amazing beacause i have my first friend we promised each other we will grow together until we graduate but it turn out she will go to a another school without telling me,and its 2024 and first day again with another bestie we promised we will always be together forever but she has to go to US with her family so i dont know if im gonna move on with another friend beacause i dont want to be sad again but i tried another bestie and she was nice and pretty and it turns out it was so amazing she was my bestfriend forever,2024 was the best year ever

AAAA SENENG BGT AKHIRNYAA SEMUANYA KELUARRR

my mom, all of my friends, always tell me that i should not chase after him because “if he wanted to he would” but to me that thinking doesnt make sense, i dont wanna wait around if i really want him to be with me… but then i realize i keep forgetting my self worth trying to please him all the time just to stay in my life. He could leave if he wants to, i dont care. But then deep down, this song tells how I really feel. I don’t want our connection to end, could be attachment or not, but I don’t think I’ll be able to love this way again, or look back on the things we used to bond over the same way again. Even now, I don’t feel like myself anymore, I’m so used to being with him

The way I relate to every NIKI songs is shocking. The only way too explain my feelings is by her songs. I thank NIKI for all these amazing songs! Because I find comfort on these.

NIKIIIII I AM A FAAAAAN! I LOVE YOU AND YOUR SONGS! I'M ALSO A SONGWRITER COMPOSER AND I LOVE YOUR STORYTELLING!! SLAY GURL!!!! 🔥✨🖤🙌

how is it even possible that you can relate to every sentence to a song i'm losing my mind

“maybe you’ll finally choose me after you’ve had more time” DAMN IT this lyric hits different

Bow down to queen nicole ❤️

It hurts knowing that you're not even a choice, can relate tho.

“hey are you still there?” wish i could say no to this.

This is one of few songs from Niki that made me ngeringkuk di lantai pojokan kamar sambil garuk-garuk tembok and can't sleep for three days straight. Thank you, you're still my favorite of all time.

" but I know in a week or so, you’ll fade away again " just hits me hard, now that we just walk past each other acting like we didn't share our soft side together );

thank you for making these good songs 🥹✨❤️

Oh my… this is on repeat! Love this song though it’s a sad song

I just know that this would be the top song on my spotify wrapped this year

girl i just know you from lowkey. now i can say that you are a very great great a songwriter. omg this one too.

Let's go, backburners!!!

This is a masterpiece, your music is incredible

why i like this song so much,,it's not about the lyric, but type of the music

CAUSE MAYBE YOULL FINALLY CHOOSE ME AFTER YOU HAD MORE TIME

when I first started listening to this song, I just realized that I was that backburner

THIS. DESERVES. A. BILLION. VIEWS. :(

Maybe im just not better than this I haven’t tried Maybe life’s loss romantic When i dont wanna die You’d thing i’d be a fast learner But guess i wont ever mind crisping up On your backburner

Maybe I'm just not better than this, I haven't tried 'Cause maybe you'll finally choose me after you've had more time I thought I was a fast learner But guess I won't ever mind, guess I won't ever mind Maybe I blame my mother bleeding into my stride Maybe it was my father and his wandering eyes (It's their fault that) I'll always be in your corner 'Cause I don't feel alive 'til I'm burnin' on your backburner, oh-oh (Backburner, your backburner) And I know that it's sad that I settle for the backburner, oh-oh (your backburner) (Your backburner, your backburner) Guess I won't ever mind crisping up on your backburner, oh-oh (your backburner) (Backburner, your backburner) As long as you still think of me, oh, oh-oh (backburner, backburner)

The fact that this came out when I'm going through this shit Aight backstory time I don't even know what to do with him anymore but I can't stop so I just let him use me as his backburner or some shit ah

so far this is my favorite track on the album

it gives me august 2022 vibes, I missed my friends during that era, even life was cruel that time. I really missed those times

You've made it!! Congratulations NIKI!!♥️🥳

The first time when i listen this song it's like Avril song's ,but it's no problem so many song like that ,just listen it and enjoy the song , Awesome Niki , Salam dari Indonesia, sukses selalu buat Niki dan terus berkarya 🥳🥳🥳

I can't lie. It feels nice too YOUR SONG IS SO NICE crieesss

I'm starting to love this song. ❤️

Niki, lagu nya bener² bikin aku terbawa suasana.

I cant lie, it feels nice That your calling You sound sad and alone And youre stalling And for once, i dont care about What you want, as long as We keep talking I mean, you gotta admit the history’s Kind of unmatehed Asian Calvinism, we made it Out of that Well, whather we’re free of will Or predestined Clearly i’ve not learned My lesson even now

But i know in a week or so You"ll fade away again 🙂 Yak mbak niki nggarai mberebes ya Best mbak nik❤️💐

“I wish i that i cared. Hey are you still there?” How you wish he still on your side but you know you gotta let go 🥲

May fav song on this album so far

Love this!

"Hey are u still there?" GOOD

It hurt more when they don' try to covered up that i am the sec choices

Omg, nice song, and will be my playlist

The best song on the album.

This Song is so Sweet

Back burner deserve to be loved

Obsessed with this song, actually obsessed with NICOLE album!!!!!