After thinking I was transgender "MTF" I learned that after a while I'm not, I don't want to be seen as a woman or called a woman, but I also don't want to be seen as a boy and called a boy, being called he/him pronouns by strangers never really bothered me that much, but when it came to friends and family I really wanted to tell them that I didn't like being called them. After a lot of thinking I learned I'm just a feminine leaning non binary person, I identify with being feminine MUCH more then being masculine. one friend of mine shit on me saying "people will just see you as a gay man" and honestly, I'd rather be seen as the "gay man who is the woman in the relationship" then the one who is the man, know what I mean? I wouldn't say I'm transfem either cause I'm not trying to look a LOT like a woman, I'm trying to do both but i'm not sure how to look like both man and woman.

Thank you so much for letting us hear your journey❤ I'm personally Nonbinary transmasc and just bought my first binder to see how I'd like a flatter chest and goodness. That was a game changer!

It makes me so happy to hear someone speak the feelings I dont have words for. You described my non binary experience so well and I feel so seen 💕

As someone who came into their nonbinary ID later in life (33), I often wish someone had pulled me aside when I was 7 or 8 and told me gender wasn't binary...but I do wonder how kiddos today are wrestling with access to information now (in the current political climate). I would love to hear an integrational discussion with younger and older nonbinary folx.

I was really insecure about my body at a very young age and kept wanting to chnage my gender I use to be trans (so I wanted to be a male) but then I noticed I don’t fit in either but I still wanna look masculine! I do technically identify as trans but I decided that I will have no gender and thank you for talking about this so people can understand you and non binary properly

i've been struggling to fully understand myself and my identity for years and it is so comforting to have creators like you who talk about your experiences. Especially as a young trans person it is so important to see things like this, thank you !

thank you for sharing this. your experiences sound similar to mine, and that day/night metaphor is so affirming.

Thank you so much for starting your channel! I just found this one, but I'm definitely gonna subscribe & watch your previous videos. 💕 I'm 29 & I've finally reached a point that I'm GENUINELY recognizing myself as nonbinary [transmasc]. Like... Not just joking about it. Or hearing stories of nonbinary people & being happy for them but thinking "no, I've come to terms with being a girl, I'm fine". Or brushing off my identity as internalized misogyny. I'm... Finally there. Of course, in order to get there, I did have to unpack a lot of trauma & internalized misogyny. I had to do a lot of psychological work in order to determine what parts were dysphoria & what parts were insecurity. So... As upset as I am that I didn't have this language or knowledge when I was young enough to go on puberty blockers, I'm glad I have had time to know myself better. I'm still not sure what I want, as far as transitioning... Low dose T sounds PERFECT as far as lowering my voice a bit, bottom growth, & some fat/muscle changes. But I need to iron out some existing hormonal issues first. 🙃 Top surgery, tho? I dunno... I think I'd be happy with an extreme reduction. On normal days, I could wear a compression sports bra & be totally flat. On days where I want to wear my "girl costume", I can wear whatever I want & not have to worry about a bra or looking EXCEEDINGLY female by default -- I still want a bit of mystery as to whether I'm actually a girl or not, lol Thank you for sharing your story! I'm so happy for your upcoming consultation & I'm excited to hear about it. 😊

I found this video to be affirming. Usually I listen to voices that are described as "androgynous", but more often than not, they're usually on the high end of male or the low end of female, but your voice when you made this video was smack dab in the middle, with harmonics traditionally understood as female and the harshness, buzziness and scratchiness traditionally understood as male. For most of my life I've been in the extremely low female/high male register--- with traditionally understood as female harmonics and traditionally understood as male resonance, but by using various vocal techniques I was able to push it into the middle male register, so that I was able to sound like a younger teenager. What I didn't realize was that I was very close to the voice break already. An unexpected testosterone boost, though it didn't drop my regular speaking voice by that much, gave me that buzzy sound so now I sound like a teenager without using any vocal techniques. The voice break increased the volume and fullness of my voice in the third and second octave so in the second octave I'm able to finally sound at least somewhat like an adult man. I feel validated by non-binary people medically transitioning to one of the points in their transition when they gain a voice which is thoroughly androgynous--traditionally understood as female harmonics and traditionally understood as male harshness and/or traditionally understood as male resonance, that they consider it a voice change and progress in their transition. As someone who for the longest time who had traditionally understood as male resonance and traditionally understood as female harmonics, I felt like my voice was strange. But then I realized that people medically transitioning achieved at some point in their transition, voices with similarity to my voice both before and after my voice break. I feel euphoric at watching videos of non-binary transition, because it reminds me that vocally, I had for years been at the crossroads between female and male. Now though my voice has shifted further into the male register, my voice is still close to the crossroads.

Thank you for this video. Starting my journey into transitioning to enby and it’s such a new topic there’s little info and support especially for POC

I thought I was the only one that had that sensation in my stomach when someone said something that made me dysphoric!! This is why these videos are so helpful!! ❤❤❤❤

soooooo definitely googled bottom growth. and now im looking at intersex as an identity. thanks for the gems!

Love this and appreciate your perspective! Definitely relatable on many fronts! Wishing you all the best in your journey!

I’m going through an identity awakening lately, and you honestly give me so much gender envy. Thanks for your thoughts man, super helpful

I am so excited. I literally just got an email that my T will be here tomorrow!!

thanks a lot for this video! A while back i started really considering that i could be nonbinary. I recently had to move back in with my family though and i know my parents probably wouldn't be accepting if i came out, and just spending time at home being treated like a woman all the time makes me feel like i'm making things up, even though i was so confident when living alone. Videos like this really helps me remember what i feel about my gender is valid though.

Your voice is so soothing and androgynous - jealousy??? Loved this perspective

Thank you for sharing your journey thus far!

Watching your videos has helped me with my own journey so much, thank you for sharing with us and thank you for posting ❤️

I identify with non binary ppl I completely understand yall I lean more towards the masculine/man side but I’m not extreme with it I still acknowledge my diviness me being born “female” is my super power as a man is how I see it .

im relating to you in so many ways, happy to have come across ur video (:

If you haven’t already done so, can you please make a video about how you advocated for yourself initially wanting a high dose of T then switching to a low dose once you started seeing changes?

eeeee, thank you for this. we are so worthy of documenting our stories

Awesome video! ❤Thank you for sharing!

very beautiful explanation, the sky thing, thank you for sharing

A blend? Amazing

Clocked in only to realise i should move on fast.

Lovely video!

Hello, I appreciate that you did not call yourself a stud, but you felt dysphoria. I respect that you have a sense of style, that doesn't come across, that you're trying to be, what a few black women would call, a 'bad *itch'. You have a happy medium of being tropical, masculine and fem. I respect that you do that, cause it is not as simple for some others to do. It's simple for folks like you and I. I consider myself as male, but every now and then, I get treated as if I am almost a weirdo. I have a mustache that's kinda bushy, but cause I don't have a beard, (but bits of stubble), there are certain folks who question me. They question my sexuality, my intentions, and I simply continue being a good citizen, cause I know I like certain women, and even certain nonbinaries who were born as female.

You mention your wife, how did you guys meet . It'd be interesting to get to know the intricacies of dating as an NB. Maybe some of the hurdles you guys had to go through in the beginning?

Hi I am new to being nonbinary and I really feel like I am lacking a lot of language to explain myself to others or even myself. Do you know any good resources for learning good language?

Love your video, and what dosage are you on if you don't mind? 💕

slay

What is bottom growth ?

You look pretty to me