Hey ..... Jason? I did watch your whole video and do feel a motivation to respond. Before I do, my name is Baz and I live in England. I am 59 yrs on this planet and like you I value being a good person. I have been depressed, I have been very dissapointed with the world, I have certainly suffered from others expectations but I have suffered far more from my own. I have certainly paid attention to the nature of this existence we share and have made some definitive observations. Observations that have shaped my core principles in this life. 1. The meaning of life is mental well being. Of this I am sure. An optimised experience of life should definitely be the one aim we strive for. 2. Goodness is the only thing that truly matters. True mental wellbeing can only come from good situations, good people, good intentions and good thoughts. To indulge anything that opposes this invites stress. Stress is the enemy. 3. Goodness should dominate the 'now' . the past exists nowhere but in my head. The future does not, and never will, exist anywhere but in my head. When I create and repeat resentment in my head for past events then I simply distress myself with my own imaginings. This poisons my 'now' with self induced stress. If I choose to entertain my insecurities and fears in relation to the future, then again, I distress myself with my own imaginings. In your video I see a good man distressing himself with imaginings. 4. The mother of all resentment is unrealistic expectation. Expectations are a trap. The world and everything in it is EXACTLY as it should be. Everything and everyone is non negotiable nature in constant flow. We cannot expect the world to comply to our preferred standards. People are perfectly themselves. They are exactly as they should be given the natural journey they are on since birth. Everything they experienced up to this moment shaped them. It is perfection. If the nature of them is challenging to our nervous system then the best we can do is shelter from that human weather. That is what human behaviour is..... Weather! 5. There are no problems, only solutions. You are clearly an intelligent person. You have the ability to restrict all predictions for the future. Fears and insecurity is pointless stressful thinking. The only time I consider the future is for the purpose of personal practical responsibility or under the law. I refuse to distress myself with future imaginings. 6. The quality of my life is a direct result of the quality of my thinking. I get to maintain and manage my thoughts on a daily basis. I do this through gratitude. I also do it by being a definite part of the human solution. I work every day to improve the life experience of all those I meet. I use humour, laughter, positivity, appreciation, creativity, wonder and curiosity to keep life interesting both for myself and others. I am very good at being happy in my ' now'. Happiness is a choice. It takes a lot of effort to be miserable! "Happiness is an attitude born from gratitude". Jason, I noticed you were very much trapped in your negative views of existence. I see a man drowning in hopelessness. Allow me to try to point you out of that dark cloud towards the light. You are incorrect to say that one little mistake makes you as bad as the people who have been dedicated to acting out on their defects. There is noone on the planet who is perfect! Every human has defects. I see in you a man who does try hard to take care of his side of the street, you are only missing one thing. When you do slip and a defect appears then the one thing that keeps your integrity intact is owning it. So..... If after taking personal inventory you say to yourself " Jason, you were wrong to behave that way" then you must simply make amends. You go to that person and tell them " Hey, I need to make an amends to you. I said things in the heat of the moment that on reflection I know made me wrong. I dont expect you to forgive me, but it would be nice if you did. I just wanted you to know I own my behaviour and I apologise". By doing this you demonstrate yourself as a developing human being. You lead from the front by showing others the right way to behave. Humility is a very powerful asset to have. Practice humility where appropriate and you WILL keep your integrity. No one can accuse you of being a terrible person or being a terrible worker. I truly hope my input inspires some positivity! Write back ok?

I know you started this video out saying you wanted to be left alone. If me commenting is annoying, just ignore it. I think I'm gonna make a video talking about all these things so I'm not just blowing up your comments. Hoping the depression fog lifts for you soon. Keep talking your way through it, if it helps. ❤‍🩹