Jason - glad you are feeling a little better. I do mostly agree with Baz, there were a lot of pearls of wisdom in there. I was surprised to hear the "man drowning in hopelessness" -- in that particular video, maybe you were. In general, it doesn't seem that way to me.. you seem like someone who gets up every day and tries. You have some hobbies that you're VERY intelligent with. I think Baz meant that apologizing and making amends involves expressing your remorse safely and then moving on. You've already tried to apologize, and continuously doing so isn't productive. Similarly, dwelling on it mentally after taking responsibility is unhelpful. There's a difference between the actual situation and one's mental processing of it/ tendency to obsess over it. 😊

Hey ..... Jason? I did watch your whole video and do feel a motivation to respond. Before I do, my name is Baz and I live in England. I am 59 yrs on this planet and like you I value being a good person. I have been depressed, I have been very dissapointed with the world, I have certainly suffered from others expectations but I have suffered far more from my own. I have certainly paid attention to the nature of this existence we share and have made some definitive observations. Observations that have shaped my core principles in this life. 1. The meaning of life is mental well being. Of this I am sure. An optimised experience of life should definitely be the one aim we strive for. 2. Goodness is the only thing that truly matters. True mental wellbeing can only come from good situations, good people, good intentions and good thoughts. To indulge anything that opposes this invites stress. Stress is the enemy. 3. Goodness should dominate the 'now' . the past exists nowhere but in my head. The future does not, and never will, exist anywhere but in my head. When I create and repeat resentment in my head for past events then I simply distress myself with my own imaginings. This poisons my 'now' with self induced stress. If I choose to entertain my insecurities and fears in relation to the future, then again, I distress myself with my own imaginings. In your video I see a good man distressing himself with imaginings. 4. The mother of all resentment is unrealistic expectation. Expectations are a trap. The world and everything in it is EXACTLY as it should be. Everything and everyone is non negotiable nature in constant flow. We cannot expect the world to comply to our preferred standards. People are perfectly themselves. They are exactly as they should be given the natural journey they are on since birth. Everything they experienced up to this moment shaped them. It is perfection. If the nature of them is challenging to our nervous system then the best we can do is shelter from that human weather. That is what human behaviour is..... Weather! 5. There are no problems, only solutions. You are clearly an intelligent person. You have the ability to restrict all predictions for the future. Fears and insecurity is pointless stressful thinking. The only time I consider the future is for the purpose of personal practical responsibility or under the law. I refuse to distress myself with future imaginings. 6. The quality of my life is a direct result of the quality of my thinking. I get to maintain and manage my thoughts on a daily basis. I do this through gratitude. I also do it by being a definite part of the human solution. I work every day to improve the life experience of all those I meet. I use humour, laughter, positivity, appreciation, creativity, wonder and curiosity to keep life interesting both for myself and others. I am very good at being happy in my ' now'. Happiness is a choice. It takes a lot of effort to be miserable! "Happiness is an attitude born from gratitude". Jason, I noticed you were very much trapped in your negative views of existence. I see a man drowning in hopelessness. Allow me to try to point you out of that dark cloud towards the light. You are incorrect to say that one little mistake makes you as bad as the people who have been dedicated to acting out on their defects. There is noone on the planet who is perfect! Every human has defects. I see in you a man who does try hard to take care of his side of the street, you are only missing one thing. When you do slip and a defect appears then the one thing that keeps your integrity intact is owning it. So..... If after taking personal inventory you say to yourself " Jason, you were wrong to behave that way" then you must simply make amends. You go to that person and tell them " Hey, I need to make an amends to you. I said things in the heat of the moment that on reflection I know made me wrong. I dont expect you to forgive me, but it would be nice if you did. I just wanted you to know I own my behaviour and I apologise". By doing this you demonstrate yourself as a developing human being. You lead from the front by showing others the right way to behave. Humility is a very powerful asset to have. Practice humility where appropriate and you WILL keep your integrity. No one can accuse you of being a terrible person or being a terrible worker. I truly hope my input inspires some positivity! Write back ok?

I know you started this video out saying you wanted to be left alone. If me commenting is annoying, just ignore it. I think I'm gonna make a video talking about all these things so I'm not just blowing up your comments. Hoping the depression fog lifts for you soon. Keep talking your way through it, if it helps. ❤‍🩹

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I have some questions but don't want to pry into your personal business. I hope you're not always alone in the house. Hearing the kid screaming and crying would be so triggering. I know it was hard to call the police and deal with the ensuing BS, but it was the right thing to do. I can relate to what you're going through. Please stay safe and talk to someone you trust. The people you are describing are seriously reminding me of the movie Gummo-- if you do a quick google image search you'll see why 😊

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I like where you are goin with trying to do your own thing.

Some great advice there. make your own kinda blend right? I do. I've read a lotta ingredients in stuff that can cost ya some bucks, some things that aren't good for you, and some ingredients that you don't need... sensitivity to or an allergen to. Witch Hazel is a good base (depending), it's a pore constrictor. I like Quinns with the rose water. no p#$$ here... jus dont wanna look like my age.✌🏼

Hey man! good to see ya outside doing some videos. You sure can develop some power with that staff. I was thinking about getting a riot baton like that to keep in the truck.

Awesome blade sir not just collect but to fondle it too

catching up on youtube - and YEP! The Scamazonian Jungle is certainly a place to be careful! They show you deals on products very similar to those you've already been looking at. I bought the stupidest impulse buy last week because it was 40% off - these stick-on pimple patches that are shaped like stars and are totally ineffective, lol. But I saw the original "pimple patch" product and have considered buying it for a long time... but alas, the random lookalike brands are total crap. my entire family has been making fun of me and well, they're right. :D

Polycarbonate is tough stuff , Cool Vid

List the knife maker.

WOOT! IBS-havers unite! Seriously, this is a pretty common condition that is hard to talk about. so if anyone is laughing or making fun of you for it, remember you're also helping others. It's also NOT about having constant diarrhea. It's about your entire digestive system rejecting foods/drinks seemingly randomly. And eating and drinking are necessary to live. Thanks for this info, I will try it!

Try Radionics.

I have to see you try that one out maybe on a few branches Thanks

Feel you on this- and situations like this are really serious. In 2012, I had a situation sort of similar to the one you're talking about at the 30:00 mark happen. It was a kid from a group home who I had never met or seen in my life. She had run away and was hiding and apparently saw me walking by, made up a CRAZY story to tell the staff when they found her, and next thing I know I was sitting in the back of a police car. I didn't even know what I was doing there until the next morning before my arraignment - when I was allowed to read the report. It was unbelievable-- it didn't even make any sense to me until months later that the whole thing was based on the made up story of a child who had been through traumatic experiences, thought she was going to get in trouble at that group home, had been in trouble the entire day, had a history at that group home of making up stories about adults... and I had to spend time in prison, then on house arrest, waiting for 1 1/2 years for the D.A. to finally drop the charges. And later, I found out that by the time my legal nightmare was over, the child had completely forgotten about the entire thing and told different stories every time she was asked. GOOD thinking about not letting them come inside, and for letting the kid hang out in a safe environment, and for assisting him home.. The thought of what could have happened to that kid is sickening. Considering the fact you say you've already had a brush with nasty accusations, it was also very brave of you. I also try to stay away from environments where there are a lot of poorly-watched after children... sorry for the length of this comment but wow, that story really kinda struck a nerve.

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I'm not much into video games Jason But it gives you something to do , I'm more into the hobby of model trains We all need something to do Jason Thanks

Its a good knife.

There’s 20% off on it now.

The sheath is ridiculously tight on mine. I have the ST11 too and like it more than the 12.

That was hard to watch. Damn bro I feel your pain, you were all excited about getting your new sword and now it's just a wall hanger. I'd seen the discolored weld area, you're right... why slop shod an integral part of the weapon? again, I feel ya. especially when cash is a thing. I order a pair of Levi's and they are never consistent on their size... always three inches too long or the waist is a size or two too small... then ya gotta send'em back. not everything I order has free shipping so ya gotta fork out the cash to send it back and pay for the shipping again. I hope something works out for you.... gotta win one sometime, right? 😁

Full tang is the only way to go for me too.... a skinny lil rat tail or welded on tang I won't touch'em.

Cool Sword , I been sharpening my Cold Steel Machete /Sword with the Smith's = Machete , Axe Sharpener from Amazon , 17$ it's Great

These never get old , always fun to blast stuff ! Cool Game

Reviews a skandi grind while not knowing what a skandi grind is.

Off Grid Knives are great , they are pricey but well worth it , awesome quality

I Really like the Off Grid , All Day Fixie , has become my new EDC , Great Vid

watched the first couple of minutes, but I gotta go - I don't know if it'll help but you can play your guitar through any home stereo receiver with a phono input. Record players needed a preamp like your guitar. I play my guitar on my youtube channel through a 500 amp Pioneer that I got at a second hand store real cheap ($10 I think...) - gotta go, shouldn't have typed - hope it helps kid

Glad you didn't edit the video it was funny. bummer on the first amp attempt, I was going to suggest gettin a radio from second hand as well and forgetting about using something with new junk technology. I used my dad's stereo and plugged into the headphone jack with it switched on the auxiliary back in the day. I kinda figured that wood looked a little thin, maybe find a good speaker in a cabinet and use that? just drill some holes for your plugins and controls and install the electronics. No worries, I've gotten big ideas that sound good and look good on paper... but won't work. You're a smart n crafty dude you can figure somethin out... never give up.

I've been looking for a budget Arkansas toothpick to see if I like them before getting a nicer one... I have a slew of Bowie knives, but wanted to check out one of these types of knives, would have never found it without this video. So thanks!

Doing it back hand is not the easy but that knife was sharp enough to cut it

It'll be 720p, I think the video is still processing, just figured I'd share that seeing 320p first play.

3:53 - I love this, especially since you said IBS (made me chuckle since I have it). But yeah what you're saying is so true. I'm tired of hearing mental illness diagnoses being used as adjectives, whether it's "oh, that person is so bipolar" because they are dramatic and moody. I've had a diagnosis of major depressive disorder since I was nine (now 38). I've been put on so many different meds, I don't know what it's like to be unmedicated anymore. The only reason I don't give them up is that I think they keep me from hitting my absolute lowest - to the point of DOING something about it.

Make a vid on it before you send back , wasted opportunity we cant see what u are talking about '(

Dude. I collect knives. My son was throwing this. The balance was sweet. He pulled it out of the target and it snapped near the finger guard. It was new. Boooo.

Send it back get a refund false advertising ' you called it , great vid A+

Great vid, maybe do some cut test on cam , carboard , rubber hose , straps to see how it holds up, then see if it still cuts paper ' the real cpmS30v will hold up ')

Matthew 11:27-30 [27]All things are delivered unto me of my Father: and no man knoweth the Son, but the Father; neither knoweth any man the Father, save the Son, and he to whomsoever the Son will reveal him. [28]Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. [29]Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. [30]For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. One step at a time.

That grind is a scandi grind and is popular on bushcraft knives. It doesn't have a real secondary grind and is almost like a chisel edge to give it a lot of strength.

Great vid ' The cloth is to wipe the blade down without marking it , best for mirror polish blades ') not many grips that can release the button lock ' , one handed use , have u tried to middle finger flick it ?

Cool knife. Do you like swords? There’s this one sword resembling a sword in Lord of the rings that I really want to get.

Really interesting and thorough breakdown of it!

This game scared the fuck outta me when i was a kid

I used to play with those marking flags all the time when I was a kid. Hopefully there's no problems for you

Great collection ' did you find out the name of that German knife ' )

A zombie apocalypse demon knife - a good buy!

You're a dude ????? I thought you were woman 😮

just a heads up it dont matter where in pakistan the knife s from they only have access to a few types of steel .1095,440 and j2 and chinese d2 .it more has to do with the heat treat .

Take psychedelics