It’s so cool how you have shared your journey of both miscarriage and having your son! you have told both the good and bad, which is something a lot of people don’t do!

You’re an earth angel. I’ve had four miscarriages and four healthy babies. My last “miscarriage” was a year ago. At 11 weeks, my doc discovered that the baby’s placenta has attached to my c-section scar and was about to rupture. I had to have an emergency hysterectomy. The anesthesiologist didn’t believe me. He said, “we don’t perform hysterectomies on pregnant women.” So I had to explain things that I didn’t understand myself. It was horrible. I love, so so much, what you said: tomorrow can be better, we just don’t know which tomorrow. That helped me a lot. I don’t have a uterus anymore, but I get to raise my four sweet kids- and I am beyond thankful for that!! ThankYou ThankYou sincerely for this tender video.

I had a miscarriage at 13 weeks in September 2020 and it is the hardest and saddest thing I’ve ever gone through. I still cry and miss my baby so much! But now I’m pregnant again and just a few weeks away from my due date! But I’m still grieving my first baby and I know I always will. My heart is with anyone who has ever lost a baby 💕

I am 16 weeks pregnant with my first and I have strong fears of miscarriage and delivery complications. This video really spoke to me and helped ease my fears so much because I am looking at things very differently now. Thank you for sharing this. I feel like you were speaking to me and telling me exactly what I needed to hear.

I truly appreciate you making this video. I had a miscarriage two months ago and it was very scary for me since it was my first pregnancy as well. I have experienced a wide mix of emotions that have been hard to deal with. Having a miscarriage as your first pregnancy is especially traumatizing since loss is all you know going forward with trying for a baby again.

I want you to know that I have specifically prayed for you on both anniversaries, because I remembered the date. Losing a child or any loved one no matter how old they are is one of the hardest things if not the hardest thing in life. The emotions are complicated and hard to deal with. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

I resonate so much with your experience. I just went through my 2nd and back to back miscarriage. July 12 & September 28. I am still struggling and trying to heal from loosing 2 precious babies. My 1st was a Chemical Pregnancy & the 2nd I was almost 8 weeks like you were. My baby stopped developing at 6 and a half weeks. I held them in my hand. My small baby. Thank you for sharing your words of wisdom and experience because talking and sharing and hearing has also helped me which is why I have tried to share my stories too. #healing

Christina you are a warrior! You are honestly incredible, I can’t thank you enough for being so open and honest with us about everything you are the best role model and inspiration I could ask for. You have helped me so much and I wouldn’t be who I am now without you 💖

I'm so sorry for the loss of everybody who had to go through this❤️. Remember you are strong and you will get through this. Sending you all lots of love

Thank you for sharing your experience. Losing a child is one of the hardest things you can go through. Praying for you and everyone goiing through this

Christina, I genuinely hope you realise all the good and hope you've injected into the world with all of the topics you've openly spoken about 💘 I really hope you're doing okay mentally at the moment, thank you for being the older sister I never had :)

Thank you so much for sharing your experience about your baby! It’s helped me so much through my own losses in the past year ❤️

I felt weirdly connected to you during this video, although I have never been pregnant before. I just really connected with your pain. The way you looked into the camera was as if you were looking directly at me. Thank you so much Christina❤

Thank you for sharing this. My mom had 5 miscarriages before I was born, when she found out she was pregnant with me, she immediately quit her job so she wasn’t stressed in any way, she now has 4 kids (my youngest sister was supposed to have a twin, another miscarriage)

I love you, and I’m so glad you’ve made it through that. Always here for you. 🥺💖

I went through my first miscarriage last year November 2020, at 6wks. I just went through my second last week at 5wks2d. You have encouraged me so much, and you bring so much light into the world. Thank you for being you.

i really needed this encouragement. thank you so much for being so compassionate and relatable and encouraging

Chris you are soooo strong. And I love how you share your whole story to the internet. And telling millions of people about it. I love the way you view the misscarrige and everything You are soo incredible and we all love you so much!!❤️🥰💪🏻💪🏻🙏🏻

Thank you for acknowledging that your babies’ lives matter, no matter how long or short they may be. A girl who graduated from high school with me lost her two month old little boy around the end of last year. And although that’s been difficult and incredibly painful for her and her family, they still celebrate his life and acknowledge that it mattered. They actually just recently had a small birthday celebration at his grave side on what would’ve been his first birthday. Your babies’ lives mattered just as much as anyone else’s. 🤗 ❤️

You are so strong, Christina! Thank you for being so open about your experiences and encouraging others who have similar experiences too! I love hearing about your faith in God as well - very inspiring :)

Yes, when we get older, intense or difficult things/situations happens more often but at the same time that helps us to be wiser, more assertive and to grow in general. But the process is so complicated. Send hugs to everyone!

Thanks for the ending Christina!! That part really hit me in tears!!💕

Thank you for sharing this. Not many people share stuff like this so you go into adulthood thinking everything is going to be perfect but it is not and it can hurt the most when you don’t control something

Get her to 100K!!! Love that you talked about this! I’ve never been pregnant but watched anyway.

Watching this after having a miscarriage this week in tears. You addressed my feelings and really helped me try to reframe my thoughts. Thank you so much. It’s been the hardest week of my life.

Omg Christina I have never had such a close connection with you. I’ve been watching you and your sisters for maybe, I don’t know 5-6 years AT LEAST. I’m the oldest sister of four kid’s… not as many as you guys, but I’ve always felt so emotionally connected to you specifically. In many mature and communicative ways… I also just had my first baby. Also a boy. And THEN had a miscarriage after… so pretty recently. And I didn’t get to see or hold anything, but it was also incredibly traumatic. I’ve also been “dealing with it well”, but the fact that you got to hold yours and have that moment. I bawled. I had to pause your video cause it’s sucks I didn’t get that chance and I was so scared in the moment and had to go to ER and all this. I was only 10 weeks and had also only just found out there was no heartbeat or anything and this all happened the day after. Anyway. This really struck a chord in me. *singing humor intended* I miss my baby a lot. So many people around me are getting pregnant or announcing they’re due the same time I would’ve been again. And I’m so grateful to have more time with my baby boy and I’m so happy… but it’s hard.

Thank you very much for this video. My sister in law recently miscarried her first baby and it's hard to know what to say. I think seeing people like you being open and honest about it truly helps.

Thank you for being so open with your feelings. It’s very brave to talk about this online with strangers! I’m glad my community (or at least my circle) don’t stigmatize miscarriage. I know more women who have had them than those who haven’t! I can’t imagine having to suppress this experience which happens to so many couples. It’s also really interesting to hear about how your catholic faith shaped your experience and how you processed, etc. I don’t think I know anyone catholic so it’s very interesting to learn about how different faiths influence the way we all experience and cope with things.

Thank you for sharing

Chris, dont ever push your emotions to one side. Your emotions matter and I hope you're doing okay. You're so strong and I love you so so much 🥺❤

Thank you for sharing your story and how you cope with this. ❤️ I just went through a miscarriage 10 days ago and I’m finally starting to feel more like myself. I had just hit the 11 week mark when I started cramping and bleeding. 🥺 I didn’t know I could cry and be so scared and feel so heartbroken all at the same time as much as I did those first five days of miscarrying. I find peace that God knew there was something wrong with this pregnancy and that my body did what it needed to do to get ready for the next time. 🙏🏻

Oh man, Christina!!!! This video somehow started for me @20:09, and what you said absolutely broke me (in the best way). I can relate, as I’m sure many others can. Thank you for your words of encouragement. Things WILL get better. ❤️

Thanks for your words of encouragement and wisdom! So appreciate you sharing how you have dealt with difficult feelings! ❤️

Gorgeous, strong, inspirational, sweet woman! Love you girl!!💕

For anyone who has had a miscarriage, you are all so amazing! The things y’all have gone through are awful things but you will get through all this. You all are strong. No matter if you have had a miscarriage or if your scared to even get pregnant just know you are amazing. We as females must stand up for each other. We are great humans. Never forget how much you are loved even if something sad happened.

Hey Christina! I just wanted to thank you especially for the last segment of the video. What you said on hope was so inspirational, so motivating and so needed in my life. God’s light shines through you, and you are an excellent testimony to His goodness 💖 For anyone going through this, I pray for healing and hope 💖💖

I/We Love and Care about you Christina. Sending Positivity and Prayers to anyone going through this or any other challenges out there. Much Love 😊❤️🙏 As Christina knows: You’re Worth It!

you're so strong, you should be so proud of yourself

Christina you are so strong with everything you are going through I love watching you ❤️ for me life is all about meanings you put to things. I strongly agree with the phrase ‘see the good in everything’ there is always positives in every situation even when it feels like there isn’t. When I have hard times what works for me is I just make sure that I do everything I possibly can to keep me happy and let the rest happen even if I don’t know what is going on which is rllyfrustrating. Then I try and think what has made me feel bad/uncomfortable. Journaling is the best. Also having a warm glass of milk rlly helps or a nice hot bath with candles (rlly sets the vibe for chat with you self). Love you Christina ❤️ we’re here for you!

During listening your story I had just one verse playing in my head over and over again: "How can you miss someone you've never met? 'Cause I need you now but I don't know you yet". And I cried throughout almost all video 😢❤️ I'm not a mum yet, not even a wife, I don't even have a boyfriend but these types of videos always unstoppably are breaking my heart ❤️💔 Christina, you're such a strong woman, I'm looking up to you 💛 I'm living away from my parents and family because of studies and I feel like you are my second mum. When I need to calm down a little bit your videos make me feel so much better everytime. Thank you for being for us and sharing your life experiences. God bless you and your family ♥️♥️♥️

Thank you for sharing not only your experience, but your process and your feelings. It is not an easy thing to do, and I think we all really appreciate it. I also appreciate you mentioning Nick. Even if really different, miscarriage is also a very painful and traumatic experience for fathers, and their pain should also be talked about, they get even less compassion than mothers, sometimes they don’t even find compassion in the mother, her saying that that loss is only hers. I also appreciate how you encourage people to talk about it. At least in the cultures I know, women are told to not announce a pregnancy until after the first trimester just in case is a miscarriage, but doing that you are robbing women from the support they would need if that happens. Sometimes they don’t even tell the father and they go through that completely alone.

I love you so much. You are so beautiful and such an amazing mom. I can’t pretend to know and understand what you’re going through but almost 3 months ago my best friend died in a motorcycle crash. He was 18 years old and he was one of the nicest people you could ever be around. So, in a way I feel what you’ve went through. But there are ways in which I don’t. I will continue to pray for you and your family. We love you guys!!

I never experienced a miscarriage before, but as someone who lost a lost of people in the last ten years, I think sometimes we hold our pain with both hands, because not doing so might look like we are not showing respect to the person we just lost. We don't want to feel like or think we are forgetting them, because that somehow would look disrespectful to them. We also fear we will be judged if we enjoy ourselves after we lost someone. One day I will look for a professional figure to learn how to heal, because right now I don't feel ready yet, but I came to the conclusion I don't care if it looks weird that I'm not crying wherever I go and I will not feel guilty for it. The fact that I'm not crying doesn't mean I'm not hurting, and if I laugh doesn't mean I forgot the people I lost. I have the right to live even if they can't be with me anymore, I have the right to go on with my life, which doesn't mean I'm forgetting them. I will never forget them, but I don't have to think about them every second of my life to prove I did love them or to prove I am a good person. I will remember them in my own way for the rest od my life. Sorry for the long comment! Thank you for having opened up about such a personal topic! Sending you a big hug!

I love this video so much! You are so strong! Thank you

You need to start a podcast all about motherhood and the stuff you talk about on this channel. You’re my favorite person on earth you’re so genuine and compassionate and I love you.

(Sorry for my English) Thank you so much for sharing your experience and your emotions and fears... you're so strong, respectful and nice. I followed your story from the beginning... We prayed for you, we were next you even if we dont really know each other. Now I know how much you have suffered, I understand your every word to the fullest ...now I'm doing different analisys because maybe I have the same health problem that you have. It's hard, but I think that our babies are kept in the God's hands, and I'm happy that maybe one day we could meet our little angels. God bless you and your beautiful family. I'm here if you need. 💖💖💖🌹

This video was beautiful Christina ❤️ Thank you for this

Thank you so much for sharing this Christina you are amazing person and we love you.

It has truly helped so much to hear your story and see you with your beautiful baby boy. My fist miscarriage was at seven weeks in September of 2019 then a second at six weeks in January of 2020. I got pregnant again in June of 2020 and carried my precious “Jules” for 33 weeks. There was a cord accident, and we lost her in January of this year. When I noticed the lack of movement toward the middle of the day, I rushed to L&D and they monitored me for probably fifteen minutes, desperately trying to find her heartbeat, but they couldn’t. Then they put me on ultrasound and confirmed she was gone. I was admitted, and they induced me early the next morning. Birthing and holding our eight month old baby was the most painful yet somehow beautiful experience I have ever been through. I have been a mess pretty much this whole year and had a lot of these same thoughts. I beat myself up for not realizing just a little earlier that I hadn’t felt here move that day. Could I have saved her? My husband and I have found that talking about it, sharing our story, and listening to the similar stories of others has been tremendously helpful and healing for us as well. We are to the point where we want to try again. We both want so badly to have a child, but it is so unbelievably scary to face this journey yet again. We were so close, and what seemed to be a “sure thing” wasn’t. But our beautiful little girl will always be with us, and we will see her again. We are still her mama and daddy. My prayers are with you and your beautiful family, and I hope you continue to heal. Thank you so much for sharing your faith and strength.❤️

Very courageous of you to share Christine. Thank, you

Yes I agree Christina, all love and kindness in the comments. I’m not a mother at all. ( too young ) but I do have five younger siblings, and I can try and understand, and it would be terrible, you’ve got this, and I send lots of love and prayer 💕❤️💕.

Aw Chris! Thanks for being so open.

Ily strong mama!!

Thank you so much, Christina, for sharing your story 🤍 this is something that is so hard for a mother to share. It’s something that none of us mothers should ever have to experience. I’m so so so sorry for your loss. 💔 your video really has helped me. All of those thoughts have been replaying constantly in my mind. I just had a miscarriage at 9 weeks on October 13th following into October 14th and it’s been so so hard. 😞 my birthday was the 15th and my only wish was to have my baby 😭 it’s crazy how much you can miss someone that you never met ❤️🥺💔 I was going to be going to the doctor on the 22nd to find out the gender, I bought gender reveal supplies for the first week of November, I bought clothes, bottles, pacifiers, etc. It’s just an empty feeling that I know you know all too well. The only thing comforting about the situation is knowing that it will always be in the arms of Jesus forever. 🥺❤️

Miscarriages can create strong feelings and a born baby never replaces an unborn baby. I believe what you are saying is very true and I believe whatever you share, even if it is sad. I believe whatever you said in this video is valid for anyone who went through a miscarriage or have feelings to those who went through miscarriages.

Been through it twice. Thank you for this ❤️

Thank you for sharing, Christina!

your a warrior and are so strong ♥

Thank you for this 🥲

This was a beautiful video. So glad you shared this with us

Your such an incredible strong women your amazing and so brave to share your story

I’m coming up on the 3 year anniversary of my miscarriage and I was severely depressed, when it first happened. I spent a lot of time in my room isolating myself and I turned to drinking every day for over a year. I didn’t tell anybody not even my closest friends or family that I had gone through that and I wish I had that way I had support but I was scared of judgement in all honesty. I still have my days where I wonder where they would be or how my life would be but I will say I’m doing a lot better now. 💛

I think that looking back, it's not that your body failed and you lost a child it seems more a learning experience like hey, now you know you have a clotting issue, so now you can watch and be proactive next time. Your little Spero helped you know that, and prepare so you could be able to help have things work better and the doctors could then try and prevent that to a degree with Barrett.

I read this quote ‘you don’t know how strong rlly are until being strong is you only choice🥺 so many times I had to fight and I still do now I suffer from anxiety nor of social anxiety. I don’t know what it is but like I have this plan in my head of everything going great meeting new people but when I go in public I can’t. Can you please do a video on this chris Thankyou 🤟

Hey Chris!! I have two brothers who unfortunately didn't make it out of the womb. I am so thankful that God gave me and my family two little saints who are praying for us in heaven. I am sure Spero is also a saint who is praying for you and your family ♥️

I love how opening you talk about your faith. I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I agree that God is with us during our trials! And sometimes we don't realize this until after the fact. Thank you for sharing your journey ❤

Amazing video, thanks Christina. Beautiful end to the video, rely on your people, rely on God - such important truths!!

I completely understand what you mean by healing through seeing “positive” in such negative times. I had a stillborn at 24 weeks 3 years ago and that was the only way I could move forward with what had happened.

U r so strong u r soo amazing u r sooo kind u r sooo sweet u r soooo pretty ilusfm u keep staying strong

This is seriously crazy. I also had a miscarriage with my first pregnancy in Oct 2019. Then I got pregnant 4 months later, and had my daughter in Nov 2020. It was so terrifying to go through pregnancy after that. Every day, I would look up the chances of miscarriage at that date, because i knew everyday I “held on” to that pregnancy, the better chance it would stick this time around.

You’re so strong

Christina

okay.. I love You

Christina you are pretty

Wow! Super Strong Video. And to anyone ging through a hard time right know: It will get better! maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next Werk, but hold on! And most importantly: there IS a reason, why this happens to you know. If you belive in god (like I do): he has a plan! Trust it! He will give you as much as you can handle, even if it pushes you to your Limits! And you are strenger than you think!

if you feel comfortable answering, im wondering if getting your period after miscarrying was triggering?

Guess what

Dani

I had an early miscarriage last month and my heart hurts. My thoughts were very similar. I was 6 weeks

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Who ever reads this: You are beautiful and so loved💕 Whatever you are struggling with it will get better😊 God is by your side and protects you he will never leave you

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Wow...beautiful

To everyone who belives in God and needs to Read this : in Germany there is a Story (I don't know if you know it in other languages as well): A man walks all his life with god through the Sand. At the End of his life, he looks back at their footprints in the sand. But at the hardest Times, he could only see only the footprints of one Person, so he asks god: "why did you leave me when I needed you most?" And god answers: "I never left you! Where you can see only the footprints of one Person, I carried you. I hope this helps someone! All the Best to everyone here from germany

I love you

Dani ❤😊😊