Oh Rachel, you are so hard on yourself. I still love your content, regardless of what you share, and don't care if your videos are highly edited or not at all! When you said "You guys don't need me anymore" I felt a little pain stab me in the heart - not because I felt disappointed about your viewership, but because it felt like it's coming from someone who has some deep wounds and needs to be needed. And that's a totally valid way of feeling here. Perhaps that would be worth exploring for yourself, for your own happiness and contentment with what you do and the content you produce. I know "they" always say you should create the content that YOU enjoy creating, and your people will flock to you and enjoy watching. I think another point here is that you are not in the same place you were a couple of years ago, and as life stages change, so too will the people who view your content. It happens to the best content creators out there! And that's a good thing. I repeat - That's a good thing! It means that your viewership continues to self-tailor to the content you authentically produce - I call that a success! Wishing you all the best with your residency application - you've got this 💞

You got this Rachel! Every creator goes through the cycle and your stories, whether or not you realize it, are impacting millions around the world. If you feel stuck, take a step back and begin making stuff that you enjoy rather than trying to always find an obvious way to make videos that directly apply to your audience. You'll be surprised by how sharing the small lessons you learn, even if it isn't med school related, can change someone's life. Best of luck in your application cycle and during your auditions :)

I’ll tell you this: I am a 40 year old English professor with ZERO intention of becoming a doctor. Yet, I watch your videos - not all of them, but a good number of them. I’m amazed by what doctors do and what you all go thru to become a doctor. So I’m here for that. And as a not so young working professional woman of color, it’s beautiful to see another woman of color out there killing it in a professional field. So if anything, stay online for that! My female students of color constantly tell me how wonderful it is to see someone who looks like them in a position like mine. On that note, even seemingly boring content has a powerful impact. But ALSO, you are interesting to watch. Your energy and honesty is a breath or fresh air in a world filled with excess and an unhealthy desire to show off and one-up everyone. Also, in life, we go through ups and downs and varied stages of life. Will everything be super exciting every day? Of course not. I tell my students, not every lecture will be the best lecture you’ve ever had. Not every book I assign you to read will be the best you’ve ever had. But remember that you’re here for the JOURNEY, highs, lows and everything in between. It’s commendable that you always want to improve. We should always want that for ourselves. In short, you are enough. This is enough. And it is plenty. So, thank you for being here and shining some light in this world.

Rachel, seeing you happier is EXACTLY what we needed to see. As a current 2nd year, it gives me so much hope that things get better. It gave me sooo much joy to hear you say that you are a happier person now. I’ve been watching you since you started med school, and you are one of the reasons why I had the courage to pursue medicine, and I still get hope and happiness from your videos. I will watch your videos for as long as you will make them. As far as what I want to see, I would love to see you transition your channel to something you would truly love. If vlog-y style things aren’t working anymore, maybe a Dr. Mike style channel is in order lol, I’d love to see you comment on things happening in the world of medicine, or whatever else you want to do! It’s okay to rebrand if you wish, or if you want to stick with what you’re doing that’s awesome too 😊

Rachel! I got into medical school yesterday. I hope when I matriculate I can find as much love and passion for the specialty I choose as you display. You’re an awesome content creator - I catch almost all your Saturday uploads. Whether you’re making breakfast sandwiches or talking about catching babies it really demystifies this daunting journey I’m about to embark on and gives me a lot to look forward to. Personally, I never notice what you may think are poorer vlogs. I see it as on Saturdays I get to catch up with a friend / mentor and see what they may have to share with me this time and I’m always grateful for it!

Your day to day is what majority of pre med students (including me) are looking for. We're wanting a glimpse into the reality of a medical student so we can have some idea of what we're getting ourselves into. Others in medical school need to see you and know that they aren't alone in what they are experiencing and feeling. You're doing great girl!

Rachel you tell us to take care of ourselves and be kind to ourselves.... please do that too. i love that you show your vulnerable side, it shows that you're human.

I've loved seeing you grow as a med student. I really enjoy seeing your day-to-day as a med student interspersed with little moments where you tell us about a procedure you observed/did or something you learned (without breaking HIPAA obvs). Maybe you could throw in more of those moments - like what were those papers about that you had to read the night before? And like, what did that laproscopic game you showed us help you learn for real surgery? But really, don't be too hard on yourself, med school I'm sure is way harder and time-consuming than anything I've ever done and you need to focus on that first!

Hello from the UK. I am 74 and have probably left it a bit late to go in for medicine, so not your target audience, admittedly. However, I have watched pretty well every one of your videos since I discovered your channel a couple of years ago and, although I sometimes have a tendency to skip bits of videos I'm watching, I can honestly say, with yours I never do. I absolutely love watching them and I really don't mind what the content is, I still enjoy them. I have a daughter who is a doctor and I have always been interested in things medical but my career has been in teaching. As regards content of your videos, I would say do what feels right for you and don't agonise about it too much because I would say that, whatever the content, 99.9% of your followers will be enjoying it or benefiting from it. 😊

"BE KIND TO YOURSELVES"! ❤ You have a lot going on! You are doing what you can! That is OK! I am not even a medical student and I enjoy watching your videos because of who you are. I aspire to be like you!

I used to watch for guidance, but now I watch for guidance AND inspiration. I have followed you since your second MCAT and have loved watching you grow. Moving forward, I would love to see daily things you do that bring you joy, how you cope with loneliness, a Costco shopping trip POV, and how you manage your time.

Rachel you always ask us to chat with you about how everything is going. Recently I had to take in my baby sister (15 y/o) because she wasn’t in a safe situation 😕 she moved in with me and it took a few months to address all the issues and make the reports, and it ended up eating into my study time a ton… I ended up failing my first block of MS2 because I was so busy helping my family. Unfortunately the situation was out of my hands, but I’m still proud of how I handled it because my family comes first and I couldn’t leave my siblings in a dangerous situation. I’m hoping my med school will be willing to work with me to remediate the course, and I’m trusting God that it will all work out in the end. On a more positive note, I just started my neuro block and it is SO COOL. I love neuro and it has renewed my motivation and excitement about being in med school and having the honor of becoming a physician ☺️

OMG RACHEL! Don’t feel bad about your videos! Even though you feel like you’re not connecting with us, I promise you you’re still making a huge impact on so SO many of us. Watching you go through medical school and grow stronger and more confident in your abilities has been such a beautiful journey, and you are my absolute biggest inspiration and role model. I know it sounds cheesy, but your videos have gotten me through a bulk of my premed journey and I wouldn’t want it any other way (you’re kind of like the older sister I never had hehe). You have grown so much throughout med school, and you’re entering a new season in your life and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that! You’ve learned how to handle all the difficult obstacles that come with being a med student, and you’re now ready to enter into residency and kick butt as a doctor. I know I can speak for all of the Herd when I say that we’re all so proud of you and excited to continue along with you on your journey. And I promise you are still impacting us, just in a different way! Seeing you thriving makes us all so happy for you and makes the journey seem worth it, even though it may be very difficult at times. We are all so happy for you and proud of you! Sending you a huge virtual hug ❤️❤️❤️

I’m a second year nursing student and your video notifications bring me a sense of relief & excitement because you’re my favorite study break content. You motive & inspire me while also making me feel like I’m watching one of my favorite comfort shows. It’s the best of both worlds. You DO NOT have to be going through certain struggles to be relatable bc you are relatable in so many other ways. When I see you now I feel so happy & proud & excited for you + it makes me wanna do better for myself too! I love the videos you’re putting out now so pls don’t stop making them, but if you want ideas for other videos I would love more “study tips/thoughts” videos, but with a twist - I would love to know your preferred methodology for approaching your study content (Do you memorize basics first and then conceptualize? Is it all one process or is it broken up in certain parts? Do you have any tips on how to prioritize lecture content (I.e. what will be on exams/most necessary to know)? Even if your answers are personal and completely related to your own area of study, it’s still so interesting & helpful. Also, when you feel unmotivated what do you do? Do you journal? Do you have a certain affirmation? How do you get in the “zone” to study? Honestly I think you can post anything and I’d love it😂🤍🥹 I would even love videos showing your workout routine!! 😂 you can also make videos about your fitness journey during med school and how you balanced your health/fitness with school / any tips on how to fit mental/physical health activities during school & if it’s not possible to fit it in at times, what was that adjustment like for you? (if you feel comfortable of course)

Pre med in college applying to med school and your videos remind me that the bad feelings pass and there is light at the end of the tunnel. So anything you post that shines a positive light on medical school and the good parts of it help!

Rachel, I started watching you in undergrad, as a biology major who thought she wanted to go to veterinary school and then made the decision to decide on going to PA school.(long story) Living with strict parents, I had a new-found freedom where social life and academics didn’t necessarily mix well and my gpa showed that. When I found your channel and saw how hard you worked, it gave me so much motivation and inspiration to not only graduate with honors, but also make the deans list as well! Currently I work at a Chiropractors office as a chiropractic assistant and weight loss coach. I’ve been there for almost 2 years but my path to PA school has taken a turn as my husband and I are expecting our first child very soon 🥰. I still watch your videos all the time as it still gives me the motivation to keep moving forward with my dreams and goals. Rachel, you will be a PHENOMENAL OB/GYN!!!! Your channel will help so many future/current healthcare providers not only keep the enthusiasm throughout their careers but also to enjoy the process as well. We all love you and are so happy to see you enjoy what you were called to do !

I can tell you that as a 28 year old woman who has absolutely no plans of becoming a doctor or going into the medical field, you are an inspiration. You have opened my eyes to what goes into becoming a doctor. It’s because of you that I have a better appreciation for doctors and also higher expectations. Because I see how passionate you are about providing the best care to your patients so now I expect that same passion and care for myself. We’ve seen you through your struggles and so that only makes it that much more rewarding to see you where you are now. If anything you’re probably showing many people that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that hard work pays off. I am not a confident person and I can very hard on myself and my abilities to do certain things as I’m currently trying to switch my career from childcare to office work. But seeing you do hard things makes me think I can do hard things too. I have so much respect for you, Rachel that I’m happy to see your content no matter what it is. Be kinder to yourself ❤️

You made the concept of being a “struggling first year medical student” a normal thing and that’s something I needed more than ever when I started med school. I tried my best to assimilate to the culture and fit in with my friends but there’s things that they’ll just never understand about coming from a true URM background and I don’t expect them to cause it’s not their lived experience but seeing you be so successful while living your own struggles has been extremely reassuring to me that I’ll make it and be where I want to be one day. I started watching you the year before I started med school and now I’m in my second rotation of 3rd year and I’m loving it! Thank you for everything you do

As a person who couldn't get threw the high school years without watching your videos, it makes me so sad to see how hard you are on yourself, and we are extremely happy for you and seeing becoming a doctor and "happy a person" we like watching your videos because it shows your "process" the real process of becoming a doc,thank you Racher and remember we are happy with you just being around and counties making contact no matter what it is, lots of love and support

You’re too hard on yourself, I love your videos! One of the reasons I watch you is because I love how honest you are. I feel like a lot of people on social media act like everything in their life is perfect and easy, which is impossible. I love that you show the good, bad, ugly, and everything in between! I’m not a medical student but I am in the medical field and I love seeing the perspective of other medical professionals! 🌹♥️

Hi Rachel … u have no idea how much ua vlogs help me to push me each day to complete my daily targets … I m going through a very stressful situation n finding so hard to cope up with my med school exams

I think i can speak for everyone when I say we love you channel and we love what you share. I don't care whether your videos are edited or not. I don't care if your videos are 5 minutes or 30 minutes. I love your day to day videos, I love your truthfulness about the hardness of what you do. Watching your videos have inspired me and a ton of people. If you want more variety on your channel i would love to see more of those 'study with me' videos, those are so motivating and maybe some 'clean with me (real time') kind of things. You taking time out of your day to edit videos and give us a day to day in your life, is more than enough and we all appreciate that! 💞

Giiiiiirl! Yessss!!! I’m in the same boat. Both parents migrated from Mexico. My mom only went up to 6th grade. My dad did some college in Mexico, but never got a degree. They just never got the opportunities they wanted, but made sure we would get more opportunities. I slacked off in high school. Was always made to feel like I just wasn’t smart enough. I enlisted in the military. Matured. Gained confidence. Now I’m out the military. And I’m an undergrad at TWU and I hope to go to medical school in a couple years. I still get discouraged. I still don’t feel like I’m smart enough for it. But, seeing you IN MEDICAL SCHOOL and basically feeling the same way I’ve been feeling gives me confidence that I can too. You’re doing amazing girl!!! I watch all your videos! What I love to watch is not just your day to day, but I love when you talk about what it’s like to be in medical school. And also, tips!!! I need tips. I want to know how to better prepare myself. If you can do that, I would love it! But, I love how real you are on the channel. Be vulnerable. We’re here for you! This is what makes you relatable. Keep killing it Queen!❤️

I recently just had to be a part of my first surgery (veterinarian) that lead to a euthanasia... and I cried for 30 minutes after. Dont feel bad about crying. you are human, you have emotions, and you are alive! Lots of love

I’d love to hear more about your experience navigating your field of choice, especially a surgical field (maybe more on the competitiveness associated with that field, making yourself a solid candidate and how you stay kind through it all). I’d love to hear about your involvements in school that have led you to OB. My struggle sometimes as a new first-gen med student is allowing myself to be like “hey, if I’m interested in a more “competitive” speciality, I have just as much a right as anyone to explore it” (side note I dislike the word competitive but can’t think of a synonym at the moment). I know it seems like you are not using your platform in the way you initially sought out to, but part of the brilliance of it is seeing the evolution from you taking the MCAT to developing your confidence as a prepared, truly passionate future OBGYN. It shows me that even though a lot of us first-gen/URM students may struggle at the beginning to get a seat at the table, we still all have the potential to make it to the end with hard work and passion.

I can't of course speak for everyone, but the content i connect with the most, is seeing you work hard. Even if you are happier, especially when you are happier. Because that means you're choosing to work hard/hustle even when you don't need to/don't have this fear looming over you. You just work hard because there is always room for improvement, and that you're passionate about what you're doing, and you want to be the best at it. And this is what inspires me too. So just seeing more of that, watching you balance out everything in terms of clinical postings and studying and bettering your skills while navigating your emotions. Don't worry about putting out content that makes you look weak/vulnerable. Because that is the message that you should stand for. That you do stand for. That you also go through these highs and lows but still manage to come out the other end victorious. And that is inspirational. Thankss so much.

The part where you said, "you're growing to better and bigger things & will probably no longer need me for what you first came for" literally made me shed tears. I came to your channel at the beginning of 11th Grade and would religiously watch your vlogs and wait every Friday to watch them.. Fast forward to a couple years now & I've passed my Foundation Year of Medicine (MBBS system) & now I am promoted to Year 1. I hope you know how great of an impact you personally had on me & how much I love your content & your genuine intentions. Your authenticity only made me sure I am ready to go into Medicine and endure whatever it takes. I love you, Rachel! And Keep shining. + I've loved Ob/Gyn for as long as I can remember & when I heard you're specializing in it I was over the moon. Would love to keep watching your journey through residency & beyond. 💗💗💗

I am a new Intern (aah), but I want you to NEVER apologize for feeling comfortable in your rotations. The work you put in in your first two years is now paying off in third and fourth year and that in itself is a learning experience for all! I want you to know that you have a right to feel comfortable in your rotations and in your element. Fourth year especially is about feeling comfortable and for enjoying your free time before intern year. Intern year is hard, you will have struggles and lessons to learn then, so take this time to focus on enjoying your time and travel and spend time with friends. the hard stuff is yet to come, and you need the recharging of fourth year to be able to do intern year to the best of your ability!

It makes me sad that you’re so sad about this 😭 I haven’t felt disconnected from your content at all, and if anything it’s so nice to see how genuinely happy you are living out your dreams every day and truly feel like you’re doing what you are meant to be doing. I’m an M2 now and started watching when you were an M2, and being able to see how you felt then made me feel so much less alone with the feelings that sometimes come with going through medical school. If anything your content now gives me hope that all of the hours studying in the pre-clinical years are so worth it, not only for third and fourth year but for the rest of our lives as physicians in the field that fulfills us the most. Be kind to yourself and give yourself grace 💛 you’re doing amazing please never stop!

Rachel, when I do not want to study I always play your STUDY WITH ME videos and it provided companionship during the world shutdown. Please go easy on yourself ! It dampens the eyes a little to see such a bright light going through struggles. I think completing a Ikigai, a Japanese concept referring to something that gives a person a sense of purpose, a reason for living, will help in this season you are in. One of my favorite motivational speakers says in short: we do not collect life's most delicious fruits from the tops of mountains, it is simply too cold. We get these delicious fruits from the low valleys, and life can feel analogous to that reference as you may feel you are in valley, just collect the fruits along the way. Also like when a wave retracts, it always comes back, sometimes harder than the last. Need I remind you that you have launched a brand, a culture, and your passion along this journey, sis. And I want to point out, you are undefeated so far! You may never know the magnitude of your impacts, but know it has come here to stay! So I lastly say, HOLD ON! Your future patients are depending on you. I have learned so much about myself by watching your journey. So thank you for that! During my prayer time, I'll be sure to ask God to wrap his armor around you. People may throw dirt at your in life, but show them you simple will grow from it. Be safe. Be your best. And most of all, continue to be YOURSELF!

Rachel, every person who has followed your journey from the beginning wants you to succeed! The Herd understands if you are more focused on real-life stuff as you transition to residency in earnest. I, for one, have really enjoyed the content following your audition residency and everything, because it's like being a proud mom watching you reach another milestone from afar :') And I love your sit-down videos (even though they are hard to film and might be difficult to do when you're an intern). As far as videos I would like to see, I personally have enjoyed your vlogs focused on preparing for residency. I gently urge you to not be so hard on yourself/compare your new self to your "old" self. You new self is doing such cool things that your old self probably didn't even think were possible! And for those of us that have followed you, it's really exciting to see your maturity/confidence as a (future) physician emerge/become more evident. I would honestly just keep doing what you're doing -- vlogging your residency journey, do a couple sit-down "coffee chats" where you provide advice for those who want to become doctors and/or chat about general stuff. I'm here for all of it! I'm not even a doctor/trying to become a doctor, but I find the process so fascinating and MOTIVATING! And your presence is so warm and soothing for me. So, I'll watch whatever what you put out.

as a first gen med student and someone with few friends I did consider you a family, we both got to med school the same year and it was hard for me I did not have a fam member or a friend whom I can ask comfortably if my struggle is normal (did not want to upset my parents who thought I was smart to get into med schools nor did I. want to tell a friend that things are hard for me bc they looked like they got it unlike me) so I used to wait every week for you vlog to connect with and feel ok about myself and thro the week id re watch the video cuz It literally felt like I am on face time with a friend, but yeah as you said in Clinical year ur vids shifted to ummm I don't want to say less relatable but yeah they were all happy and full of enjoyment and excitement and positivity which is good and I am happy for u ofc but me in the other hand was facing some difficulties I kinda felt alone and it would actually make me feel bad about myself I am definitely not blaming you on my lack of confidence 😂 no not at all but just thought Id be honest + it is very understandable that u r trying be careful. I agree it is not worth it risking ur passion for KZfaq I am still here and I come every once in awhile, also to protect my mental health and to not compare myself with other who are in a better place I try to be selective with what I watch now luv uuuu ❤❤

Rachel, you silly perfectionist! We love you to bits. I wait every Sat till 12 am IST to watch your videos, they have gotten me through some of the toughest times in the last 2 years. On a note of positive criticism though we could use more Study specific videos- where you are studying, showing schedules etc

Rachel, please don't be hard on yourself. Fans like me are not just here to watch you struggle and see you overcome difficulties but we want to be part of your happiness too as it makes us happy...Apart from the videos you make, maybe you can put out some vlogs of your life apart from medical world...We all love you Rachel...

I used to watch your channel very frequently during your early years of medical school. I was extremely depressed during my undergraduate degree and your videos helped me get through that. Now, I just watch your videos sometimes to see how life is as a resident even though I don't have interest in medical school. but I would like to thank you for putting out amazing content. Take care

Seeing how much you were able to overcome from the MCAT to now, is so much motivational than you realize. Seeing that you're on rotations and applying to residency and how happy you are is incredibly motivational. I'm studying for my MCAT right now, and watching your early videos compared to the recent ones is what gives me hope that this will all be worth it in the future.

Rachel, I have always admired you and your tenacity. I’ve been here since you chose your med school - I’ve been quietly cheering you on from this little corner of the internet, as have countless others. I appreciate the gravity of applying to residencies and having such a public platform. I can’t begin to comprehend what kind of pressure you’re dealing with. But I want to share with you that the more authentic you are, about things you see you may not like, things you disagree with, things you hear and realize “I’m never gonna be like that as a physician” .. the more we are drawn to you. Most of us here have always been drawn to your candor and how unapologetically you’ve lived your life as a premed and now successful med student. And I miss that. I don’t want to tell you how to do ANYTHING, but you asked, and I am simply sharing my two sense on the matter. Just a side note - I believe if you filter yourself in hopes of not disappointing a residency admissions team - you run the risk of attracting the kind of residency that would otherwise not want the opinionated and unapologetic Rachel. The Rachel we love. ALLLL that’s to say - you do you, boo. Proud of you!

You have grown tremendously. I'm in podmed school....and you are guiding me through rotations. You're filming when I barely have time to juggle gym, study time, mental health, and take care of my dog. You are doing so much and it is showing! Thank you for sharing and filming....YOU'RE KILLING IT don't worry about content.

I’m not a student, just a 41 year old Mum in Australia but I love your videos and I can feel the love for your job in your videos.

I think everything you have been posting is fantastic! It's great to be on this journey with you, and seeing who you have become! You're an incredible person and you will continue to do so! It's perfectly okay to be cautious, and the journey itself is different for everyone, it can give one person optimism and another something to relate to! :) Your videos have lead me in the right direction for my medical career and have just started Perfusion School! I owe you a big thank you!

We’re always here for you ❤️

Rachel, I am so proud of you. Anything that you place on your channel is helpful. I use your videos as a vacation away from my studies and hardships. I put a video on while I’m having my lunch or break during my horrible days, my good days, and my neutral days! You are the light during my day when I am feeling down! I use your videos as a way to remember why I am doing what I am doing. You be kind to yourself! We are on this journey with you, and we are cheering for you.

I hate that you’re so hard on yourself 😔 I started watching when I stumbled upon your videos maybe 4yrs back? I was looking for day in the life of nurses and somehow yours popped up and I’m so grateful it did! I want to say it’s been phenomenal watching your confidence grow, and experiencing your determination through this season of becoming an OB-GYN. There’s obvs things you can’t show or talk about but I love your vlogs. I’d want to keep hearing more about the procedures you get to be part of and what made it unique, personally. Aside from that, I genuinely love what you put out. Sending you un abrazo fuerte!

I'm a 2nd year medical student & I love watching your videos! They help keep me going when times get tough on this journey. Keep being you. ❤️

I LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR VIDEOS EVERY WEEK!! thank you for being you

Speaking for myself only, I still enjoy your content and I’m not a med student. I fully understand you’re in a place where filming is difficult. It’s ok 👌🏼 you’re doing great ❤

Rachel Southard, I flunked organic chemistry three times in a row before I passed it. HA HA HA!!! There is absolutely NO WAY I am getting into med school, but I am not giving up, partly because I find your example so inspiring. I don't care if you filter yourself, you show us what we need to see. Keep up the great work!

I hope all is good on your side . Lots of love . Stay strong. YOU CAN DO IT

I liked because it's always good to open us ❤ Sending you lots of love

i started watching you since high school , you have always inspired me to never give up and seeing your journey makes me more excited for my future .it also grew my passion more to the medical felid . you are like an older sister soo thank you . this year im a freshman at western washington university majoring in Biology 🧬 ... so thank youuu

At first I used your videos as study motivation, but I never had any intention of becoming a doctor. I've now gotten my degree and work full time, but I still always come back to your videos during my breaks. Not for any motivation or specific reason. Just because I really enjoy watching you do your vlogs and grow as a person. I feel like "less people are watching" just because it's not that study related anymore. There's a huge study community on youtube which students use to help them get motivated, and these people are probably looking for more study related videos. I still love watching what you do and seeing your daily life. Your videos still help me get productive and I'm still so thankful. You're still helping so many people and we all just love seeing your day to day life and I personally love the small things I learn about being a med student and OBGYN from you.

As an MS2- it’s VERY ENCOURAGING to see that you’re feeling happier and more adjusted in your rotations. Also, completely understandable that you need to filter and restrict how you share! Ultimately, that is your future!! Keep doing what you’re doing. I hope you feel encouraged by your followers today!

I actually really liked this vlog. I've been with you since your 1st yr, and now im in second year. i love how you dont complain, overcome obstacles and so focused on your goals, which makes me motivated to maximize and live up to my potential.

You asked at 15:01, 'What is it that you want to see?'. My only response to that is EVERYTHING & ANYTHING that YOU want to share. I don't follow you so that you can give me the thing that I want. I follow you because you love medicine and you are literally so pure, genuine and hard-working. I know am a year late to reply to this but I've been watching you since your MCAT journey. In the middle, I stopped following because life happened but the minute I got back, I didn't run to the newest video you posted but started where I left off because you truly inspire me to be a better student and a better nurse.

I'm not in the medical field, but I will say that as someone who just graduated from law school - I watched your videos to feel less alone. Even if we weren't studying the same thing, we were both studying and going through difficult times. I still enjoy your content and am invested in your journey, but totally understand that you have to be careful given the nature your job. I actually think it's really helpful that you are a normal person who interacts with social media in a way that REAL people do. Real people can't complain about their jobs on the internet all the time. That's just reality! Keep doing what you're doing.

Even though it’s a stage you’ve passed, I’m an undergrad that has to retake their mcat, and even hearing you refer back to your journey and retaking the mcat is comforting and VERY relevant to my life and I’m sure others. Tbh I think I as well as others would like to just keep being privy to the ups and downs of your life and perspectives as a medical student! It’s a very real perspective that I for one am so so appreciative of! In a way you’re like a virtual mentor lol and I think you just have to give yourself more credit.

This is the best content I have seen in my whole life!! From motivational, inspirational and sensitive videos...the best. ❤❤You have a KZfaq fam...never forget:)❤

Between the hustle and bustle and things we want to connect over there are so many reasons we disconnect. When I think about people I want to connect with I try to keep them in the back of my mind. How do I want to connect and what do I want to connect over? How do I do it? Sometimes it can be overwhelming or you slip on the connections you want to keep reenforcing or you feel like you’re not doing it the right way and it is easy to blame yourself even if it isn’t your fault. And it isn’t your fault. It’s not your fault, Rachel. Everyone seems to run into the impasse over how they can and can’t connect, but when there’s something you really want to share and connect through, you’ll find a way to bridge the gap. I remember seeing a creator who went through alot of life changes (like we all do) who was experiencing some trauma after something really terrible happened to them and they ended up feeling really alone in that situation. Only after when they finally did open up were people able to even try to connect and realize that connection was something that was there to access all along. About a week after this bad thing happened to them, the same thing happened to me and it made me think of how important it is to be compassionate and reenforce connection over what matters to us and to respond when people say they need one. So here’s me responding to you. On both sides of “content” we can end up disconnecting around really important things. I think it’s important that people remember to reach toward each other in these spaces. Creators need to reach audiences and audiences need to reach creators. We’re all just people, but there is alot that seems to get in the way. If you can’t get around it, remember that it’s not your fault. If you didn’t have time for it, remember you do not move faster than time. You are doing more than enough and you don’t need to get held up by the analytics, but if something feels off allow yourself the time to find what feels right. You will find it. Be patient with yourself. Love and light to you. You still do and always will bring a massive amount of inspiration and joy and vitality to all the life around you. Remember your worth.

Be kind to yourself. The different from your channel at the beginning you had classes. Now you have to go to hospital. You got is. Stop being hard to yourself. Love your videos.

Rachel I’ve been following you for almost a year. Just yesterday I got my acceptance into nursing school. I love watching your videos and who you are, and the passion you have for OGBYN. Even though you’re in med school & im a nursing student we still connect in a way. Your videos are entertaining even if it’s just you talking to the camera. Most of the people here love your dedication & who you are as a person. Keep up the good work 💕💕we love you.

RACHEL, keep doing what you do! Those that love your channel will always be here. Those that leave is just moving on. This is your channel so the content is your choice. I personally just love seeing how you're doing, where you're at as far as schooling/working/workouts/foods/. Your channel is fairly rounded out. Keep in mind once you get residency you may or may not have more free time. Or maybe try to do a collab with you tubers near you that is going, or already been through all this. YOU are doing great! Keep your chin up your numbers will go back up. Big hugs and sending positive vibes to you.

I accidentally found ur channel during the covid lockdown and beleive me that was a huge productivity slump period for me...your videos helped me so much to keep working and not give up because I felt like I had a friend who is trying to make everything work despite obstacles. Its true that I dont get the same level of motivation from ur channel wen things are smooth and easy. But I want u to know that I'm always excited to see ur progress and I genuinely wish to see u as a gynecologist vlogging her life in the future.❤ love u Rachel for all the motivation....always support u❤ just keep going with the flow and share ur beautiful journey.

I dont even work in the medical field, I work in tech but I found this channel during quarantine and I have kept watching each time you post a new video. Seeing you go through the process to become a doctor is so interesting. I'm not very helpful here but I dont see any problem with your content.

Oh Rachel!! You’re in a completely different stage of your life and everything is changing. I’m sorry you feel this way. You’ve helped and inspired A LOT OF PEOPLE and will continue to do so. You always say at the end of your videos to be kind to your selves. Now it’s our turn to say it back to you. Continue producing whatever you want to produce. Try out tiktoks or reels? Maybe platforms are changing too. Proud of you!!

We love you, Rachel. You are such an inspiration to all of us and motivate us to chase our dreams. I'm currently studying for my first exam of my last semester of nursing school and I have been using your "study with me" videos, super helpful. Can't wait for this video! ❤

Not proud of your content?! 🥺❤️‍🩹 I find your videos super useful info!! Your videos have been amazing. You show the good and the bad, you demonstrate keeping a good attitude and how to stay motivated even when you aren’t really enjoying your rotation. You talk about the importance of mental health and staying balanced in life. Your grit and perseverance are so inspirational. So please PLEASE be proud. I love taking a break and finding encouragement by enjoying your vlogs, even (or maybe especially) now!! You have great tips and perspective and explain things really well! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ It is completely understandable that you are restrictive with the information you share. Know what it shows? You being very aware of becoming a professional that is under a different kind of microscope. You are shifting from a student to a medical provider, and showing your followers what that looks like and why it’s important to be professional! You are doing a great job.

Don't get in your head too much 😭You're thriving, and I'm living for it!

Ohh Rachel your so hard on your self, I used to be a law student and I graduated last year and you were a big inspiration for me and you still are and I always love to watch you grow with your channel and your life, we support you no matter what and we are hare for you as you always were here for us and hope for you the best as always.❤️❤️💓💓

Ok, so I think I’ ve been here since the beginning. I’ ve always loved your videos and the content you put out. I was so excited every single week to watch your new vlog because I knew that we are kinda in the same boat and that I can use your wisdom to ulter my mentality if I’ m feeling low or if something went bad that week for me. I always simpathized with you whenever you had a rough week or whatever. In my opinion the thing with less people watching your vlogs is because there is not a lot of thing we can identify ourselves with you anymore. Don’ t get me wrong but I believe there are some cool and interesting things you can share to make people interested for example what you are doing on a daily basis after rotations, how do you feel about certain things that include your future in medical school, how do you keep on grinding, do you do any hobbies, do you spend time with your familly/friends and soo much more. You used to include your familly and friends in vlogs, we saw your working out routines, you took us to a day in desert with your parents if I’ m not mistaken when you tought you had a bad test day, then to the beach and so much more. And now is mostly just you talking about your rotations we rarely get to literaly see something for real. You can ask that there were people watching you sitting on a chair for 2 years and now there are less of them when you show something else. It’ s because they don’ t identify themselves with you anymore because maybe medical school programs are not the same everywhere in the world(I was a dental studen and we had are exams till the end of uni) I’ m sorry if I’ ve hurt your feeling, I’ m telling you this because I care for you and know how much you’ ve helped me on my journey while studying. Trust me, if there is anything bothering you ever, all solutions are inside of you. If you think you are not inspired to do any content, trust me, go back to basics and remember who you are. You are just Rachel who started this to help people out and share your hardships and victories!! Go with the flow and everything will fall into it’ s place. Don’ t try to push it or rush it, it will be fine. All is well. Be brave and unapologetically who you are. Love, Anamaria xx

We all love you, Rachel！

For me nothing has changed, your vlogs still inspire me all the time to get productive and especially now, going back to pharmacy school in a few days I‘m really glad to have you and your videos. And I really love to see you as happy as you are now, especially after watching you struggle a lot in the past vlogs. :D

Rachel, your channel is amazing. I use to watch your videos when I was high school and now I am studying for the MCAT and I am so glad I reconnected with your channel. It helps me so much is keeping stay positive throughout this journey and inspired about medicine. Your videos keep me happy especially because this journey can get kind of lonely, so seeing you independently doing all the things and showing your raw emotions makes me feel less alone in it. Thank you!

Rachel I LOVE your channel! I'm pretty shy about commenting on videos, but you opening up compelled me to reach out! I am a college professor who interacts frequently with undergraduate students interested in medical school (I teach biochemistry and have a research lab). Because I have a Ph.D. and never went to medical school, your videos have been INVALUABLE for me to explain what medical school is like to my students. I frequently refer them to your videos so that they can learn not only about how to study for the MCAT, but also to get a realistic look at what the process of medical school is like. I think it's great for them to see the hard times and struggles that can come in the early years of medical school, but it's equally valuable for them to see the highs and joys of rotations when you are working as a doctor. I'm sorry I can't give you more feedback about specific content creation, but I just want to emphasize that just sharing the process is enough and it's really helpful. Thank you for all that you do!

Stay strong .. ❤️

Pls just being you and doing what you're doing right now. I enjoy watching your day to day and whatever you're allowed to show. It's fun just watching your journey.

AWW GIRLY!!!! I literally watch your channel because its so cool to see someone so passionate about what they want todo and I feel you do show your struggles etc! I feel I am similar like I am very passionate about what I want todo and I go through struggles to like any human! I just love watching what you are doing in your life honestly!!! Hang in there!!! You are awesome!!!! We love you thank you for taking the time todo these videos even though you have a life to live!!! Thank you again!!!!

We love you!

we’re here for you 🥺❤️i really hope you’re doing ok. our ant queen ❤️❤️

Rachel! I am still here! I just wanted to know that I look at your channel because it comforting. I’ve been watching you since your 1st year of medical school, I honestly love all of your videos! You are an inspiration to all Latinas, to all 1st gen college/professional students, and most importantly all the girls! Keep going Red Ant! ❤

Your videos help me tremendously, I've been watching them since I was applying to medical school and all throughout I've appreciated your honesty and realness. As a second year medical student, I honestly love seeing how well you're doing in your clerkships! It gives me hope that all of the challenges I'm facing right now will be worth it. Seeing how excited you are each day for rotations you're passionate about is inspiring!! I want to be like you when I grow up to be a 4th year :)

Love yah rachel

the herd loves you

Would love a video about HOW you were able to get yourself through med school…finances, budget, relationships, loans, all of the things. I feel like that’s not talked about nearly as much, but definitely something that should be. It’s all part of the process! I know it’s personal, but would be so helpful!

I think you’re an awesome person, Rachel, you’re kind, down to earth and really sweet. What you’re going through is super tough, and while I’ve never experienced this, I can say that I have faith in you and whichever direction you choose to go with this channel. I personally started watching your videos because I was going through a tough time as a senior in high school and in the beginning of my undergraduate studies (started in the peak of COVID). I think just seeing you overcome your obstacles and hearing your advice to others helped me to feel not alone. I would love to see content based on what you enjoy doing in your personal time and just more of you talking genuinely to us. Best of luck 💕

:/ Hope everything is okay ❤️

in the building waiting from barbados 😎😎😎

Hey Rachel, I'm an MS1 and I can promise you that I learn something from EVERY ONE of your videos. As high achievers, you and I both have high expectations for ourselves. All of us watching know that you are at a transition in your life and we are totally happy with the content you are making! You are doing amazing! Keep going and make sure to reserve a bit of your big heart for yourself.

Rachel, you inspire, so many! Head up high!

hay rachel here i something you can ponder upon (i’ve been watching from 2019) and i studied with you on zoom so i know what your channel was and the expectations i had when i subscribed. You were super inspirational to me when i was younger but over the years you’ve been educating us more on your life than on medicine. I know that’s the point of vlogs but at this point it’s more about what you do as a medical student rather than giving us more insights upon medicine and study techniques and giving us interesting opinions on medicine ect. Like we all have lifes all of us know what living looks like. Here’s my opinion you got too much influencery and the channel is about you now rather than medicine. See kharma medic’s channel is about medicine (80% then his personality 15% same with doctor mike but you’re is vise versa.) I hope this helps either way i still enjoy watching you. please ponder upon this opinion byeee red ant always : (basically make it more about medicine and less about you) im sorry this might be a bit harsh to hear but you do need to, you have a lot of potential and you’re doing very well BUT: the videos start to feel like a chore i think since lockdown it felt as if you only made videos to make a video it’s a chore for you. I could be wrong and again i’m saying tis so that you can improve and you have insane amount of potential i wouldn’t be watching you if i didn’t enjoy it ( 4 years 🙀) also maybe try something rather than vlogs it worked in the beginning but yes plan a nice script (if you want) come up with a cool idea and maybe just post that once a week like put more effort into editing and coming up with new stuff. hope this helps rachel! please contact me for any clearification on some points :)

I think your content is good regardless because I love you & watching your journey! But something you really motivated with is having your sit down study videos, showing how you study, being productive videos, showing daily life, I really enjoy those videos! You inspire me with your motivation to learn. ❤️

SIS it is amazing that you are at a a place of such self belief that these obstacles are coming easier for you now. Go you! GROWTH

The raw emotion is what I LOVE about your channel. It makes me feel included; it reminds me you are more similar to me than I think; it motivates me more than you know. I find it so refreshing and totally understand if those moments are going to be far and few between during this application cycle into residency. I will be here through it all!

Rachel, I love watching your content and seeing how you’ve grown throughout each stage of med school. Regardless of what you post, it’s your passion and enthusiasm for what you do that makes me excited to watch. I recently decided to pursue medical school after a lot of contemplation and sacrifice. Each post reminds me of my why and continues to motivate me. I get excited just to watch you walk through the hospital corridors. continue being your wholesome, kind self. We need more Rachels in this world ❤️

I love your videos! I watched them before I got into school when I was struggling with the mcat and now I’m a second year and I still watch them here and there. I still get excited every time I see you’ve put out another video. It’s great to see that you are comfortable, confident and struggling with less as far as medical school! It’s so nice to see that it does get better! Seeing you succeed also helps me because it reminds me that hard work pays off. Advice for rotations is great and everyday life stuff is great too! We are all rooting for you! It’s nice to see pieces of your journey. I look up to you so much!

Lots of love Rachel, no matter where you are in life. You always uplift in all your videos. I know you haven't ever seen me comment but I'm here to tell you that I have watched your videos ever since a year ago and you just emanate perseverance which is why I watch you. You are always real even if u can't share too much which is refreshing. Just know there are us here that are here just for who you are.

Rachel, you are such a kind person! I love to watch your videos for comfort and just to see how you are doing. I usually end up learning some interesting medical stuff too!

I am here learn from you and I am so EXCITED for you.. YOU ARE IN A GREAT place in your life and we all love to watch. KEEP DOING YOUR THING💪🏽🙏🏽♥️

OMG this made me cry. i love watching your day-to-day. i am in optometry school and i think of you all the time when i am struggling. seeing you prosper as you prepare for residency is INSPIRING and keeps me motivated to keep going so that i can get there, too, in my own little way! please keep making the content you have been making!!!

Hi Rachel, I don't frequently post comments but definitely thought I should for this video. I just recently graduated from college and am currently in the process of taking the mcat in january! Your videos have played such an important role during my journey. They were the first ones that popped up when I was looking into switching my major to pre-med. They were so real and just seeing what a typical day in the life of a med student looked like definitely helped bring out that motivation to keep going! Seeing you go from studying for med school exams to finding your passion for OB/GYN and seeing how much you'd light up when talking about deliveries you've taken a part of really made me feel like I was a part of your journey! You being so real in your videos really made them stand out from all the rest! I put a lot of pressure on myself to succeed and getting into med school but since graduating it seems that plan to get into med school just seems further and further away each time. I didn't graduate with a good gpa (3.1) and didn't really excel in school. I've volunteered at the hospital doing basic bedside care and because of it in interested in going into neonatology as a specialty! However I don't have anything that really sets me apart from other applicants. Neither of my parents are doctors or went to college so its been super overwhelming trying to figure out my way through applications, requirements, etc and that need to male sure that I don't let them down is always consciously in the back of my mind. I'm currently working a full time job helping students with learning disabilities and I love it but it feels like I've abandoned my plans for a career in medicine. I always feel like I'm not good enough and shouldn't even bother trying because there are so many applicants out there that can do exactly what I can do plus more! Seeing my friends and peers all get into med school and attend their white coat ceremonies is always bittersweet because I'm so proud of then for making it but disappointed in myself for not. I for sure feel like I'm at a road block right now and that I'll never make it to med school but seeing your videos really do help me feel less alone in this and help give me that hope and motivation to continue this pursuit! I wanted to thank you for taking the time out of your hectic schedule to make videos for so many of us to enjoy! Please know that there are so many people that truly do benefit from watching your content! 💛

I'm so impressed with you! I love your honesty about the good things but also your down times. The fact that you are being careful about what you share is SPOT ON! Keep on doing what you are doing, tears and all. I'M PROUD OF YOU AND BE KIND TO YOURSELF. Hugs.