Wow, honey. It was like I was listening to a story about myself. I had my daughter at 19. I appreciate your transparency and vulnerability. I've always tried to follow things going on with you and used to say to myself. We are so alike, we would be friends. You are normal, first and foremost. Everyone just has their own kind of "normal". I am glad youve been able to pin point your vices and have things more under control. Its inspiring. Sadly, doctors for me just looked past my anciety and never diagnosed me when I was younger with the ailments I brought up or my mom tried to brush off because "That's not you". Every doc dismissed me. Fast forward now in my 40s. I haven't been to a doctor in almost 15yrs because why if you're always left feeling defeated or ignored. I've been masking for over 30 yrs and for so long put myself down because of it. Now, I live as natural as I can and use herbal\medicinal remedies and stay active to help with my vices. It makes me feel less ashamed of my feelings when I can see that there are others like me who relate to me. And I thank you for that ♡

Oh and my mom has it too, hard core, she had me and 2 brothers, she was not able to have the 3 of us, she had to work as divorced mother, always one kid with grandparents, one kid with an aunt and one kid with her. I remember ambulance getting in the house to treat her because she had anxiety attack, she was overwhelmed with us, her own kids, so we had shitty childhood and teenhood. She is just getting treatment now over 60 years old. She lives in depresion and anxiety, to the point of agoraphobia, now after 10 years she is getting out the house and losing weight (she was over 100 kg morbidly fat) big work on forgiving herself. She is doing her best tho.

Thanks for sharing. I work in mental health services and I want the staff in my team to watch this. It will definitely help them put into context the feelings someone experiences with ADHD and Autism, we see people in crisis and what you spoke off we see daily. This video definitely helps others to understand the challenges for people with ADHD or autism. X

Lauren, i have 4 kids aged 23,20,17 and 7.all except my 20 yr old are mild autistim /adhd on the autistic spectrum. I find my 20 yr old with no autism the hardest do deal with. 😂Autism is our normal in our house. I have found the most beneficial thing is for them to accept who they are and their autism. They work with their strengths and address their weaknesses and get help with them. They know they are different and unique which makes them so special. Your family love you for who you are. You are their normal. You are a blessing to your 2 sisters. You get them and they get you. You seem to suffer with sensory overload so possibly try the calmer ear plugs. Routine is key and will massively benefit you and also your beautiful sisters. Maybe try something natural for the adhd keeping your heart in mind. Its a massive learning curve trying to deal with it all but you are doing great and you are going to help so many through work because you can relate. Stop and take a breath now and again and get yourself a little planner to help you keep track of what you need to be doing and when. I could go on all day about this as its been my life since my 23 yr old was 4.you have got this, 1 day at a time ❤️💐😊💪

Hey Lauren! I’m glad I found your video on this, it sounds like your day-to-day struggles with ADHD (the anxiety and emotional regulation) is very similar to what I go through myself. I too am on Vyvanse (I have been for nearly 2 years) and I have to say, once the medication dosage was correct, my anxiety was helped immensely! Work with your doctor on finding the correct dosage and hopefully it will help yours too. My whole life I have been on and off anti-anxiety medication with no success, until I was diagnosed with adhd and started Vyvanse at 29. And boom! It was gone. Honestly, I still struggle with adhd at times (housework not being done, procrastination, zoning out - even while medicated) but the fact that it has cured my anxiety, in itself, is worth a million dollars. I hope you find your peace with it in time. Good luck! I’m so glad you’re on this treatment journey, it will honestly change your life. Keen to hear how you go! So please keep us updated 💖

I truly appreciate your willingness to show your vulnerabilities and share your experiences - that takes so much courage, and is so helpful to others! Love your authenticity. You are a gem! ❤

Dear Lauren, this was so heartbreaking, to hear what you went through when you were a child, as a teenager, as an adult😥 Thank you for being so open. But I am absolutely certain that this video will help others. And I hope hope hope that you will find the right medication eventually. Wish I was there to give you a big hug, but a virtual one has to do. Thank you Lauren, you're a star!!!❤

It broke my heart when you talked about being in school and being bullied. My sister and I were bullied by people at school as well. She is Autistic but really high functioning. It reminded me of the struggles she has had through her whole life. People would take advantage of her and they never said they were sorry. I applaud you for telling your story. You are going to give people so much hope when they feel hopeless. Keep doing this. You are amazing.

My heart goes out to you. I can't imagine how you feel and what you are going through. It had to be so awful for your as a child and what was going through your head. I am so glad you have been diagnosed and taking steps with medication to see what will help you. I suffer from a mild form of anxiety at times but I do not have it all the time, only occasionally and mostly at night when I am trying to fall asleep. My mind races and I make myself crazy. The last couple of times it happened when I was concentrating on my age. I recently turned 70 and in anticipation of turning that number, I think about just how close I am to the end of my life and it is frightening. Anyway thanks for sharing. You are such a sweet person and I hope one day soon you will begin to feel 'normal'...whatever that means for you. Take care, cutie! I enjoy you and your videos very much. Love the way you put outfits together!!

This is the most informative vid I've ever seen on this subject! Thank you!!!

More videos like this! You are truly amazing and so easy to listen to. I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety since 2016. You are not alone with your struggles. We are all in this together. ❤

Thank you for sharing all of this with us. Hearing about how hard your life has been made me wanna cry. You're such a good person, Lauren. And don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. I feel for you, and I really hope you find a way to finally feel better. I know I have hypersensitivity, maybe giftedness, so I know how hard it can be to feel so different from other people. Sending you lots of love, you truly deserve the best ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for sharing your process and your life. It’s a great reminder to everyone that sometimes we need to stop, listen and be patient with people. It’s a struggle sometimes to get thoughts and words out when you don’t have ADD/ADHD and or autism!!! Thank you again Lauren!!

I’m so pleased you’ve got a diagnosis to help you understand your experiences & that you’re on a journey to try and help make your daily life easier. Especially the ending where you talk about anxiety, being over stimulated by every day life, rejection sensitivity and just generally feeling like you just don’t know how you can continue feeling like that. I think that’s more common that you know & it’s only through people like you being vulnerable, that other people can see that. Thank you xxx

Thank you Lauren for this amazing video and for being so open about your experiences. I know it will be helpful to many people in similar circumstances. You’re a beautiful person, so likeable and such an inspiration. God bless you. ❤

Oh Lauren soo horrible what you have been through darling,I really feel for you and brought tears to my eyes,soo brave sharing what you’ve been through,your just an inspiration my lovely,onward and upward for you,you deserve all good things to happen to you beautiful lady xx❤️❤️

I thank you so much for your open description, it helps a lot to understand the point of a view of autism from the inside. It helps a lot to understand my daughter❤ Please be sure of one thing : You've always been and will always be a person I admire ! And never I had any impressions of you being different, besides being special, bright, admirable and adorable. A big fan-hug from Austria !🎉

Thank you for sharing this, I’ve had some wondering whether my daughter may have it for a little while now. She’s still quite young, but it’s something I’m keeping an eye on. Thank you for sharing your childhood experiences it can’t have been easy, so much of what you said resonated with what we’re experiencing x

Thank you for sharing your story. You are beautiful, bright, brave woman with a big heart. You are finding your way. I wish you the very best. 💜

I’m not sure what to say except I send you love and compassion and encouragement …you are an amazing, bright and talented person and I so deeply respect the pain you have lived with …I’m praying that you find that “sweet spot “and redefine the way you see yourself as broken. I believe in time someone beautiful and whole will walk out of that broken space with wisdom and peace of mind❤

Watched the rest now and thankyou so much for doing this video. You dont know how much this resonates with me. I have felt like im going mad and could never understand why I feel like this. Please do update videos on this as it really does help. Also if theres any websites/books etc you recommend please do let us know 😊

Lauren, you should be proud of yourself and all you have achieved. Despite all those feelings and challenge look how much youve done! Ive had depression all my life which has equally held many challenges and im trying to sort things out.. which is hard! Also, dont forget you are a super creative person which is also why you probably struggled with some of the other jobs, probably not an environment where you would be able to flourish! You are doing great. Lots of love ❤xxx❤❤❤❤

Hi Lauren. Bless you. I'm so sorry you have had such a difficult time day to day dealing with this unknowingly all of your life. Well done though for persisting, sharing, and wanting to help others. And you seem to have a lot of balanced knowledge and held your own experience very well all things considered. ADHD in Women in particular is interesting to research as well.. I recommend looking into Somatic Experiencing, Nervous System Dysregulation as well, or any therapists with psychosomatic/nervous system AND ADHD specific knowledge or expertise. Sounds like it would really help you! Looking forward to seeing how your healing journey goes. 💜

Lauren, Thank you for sharing this! You are definitely not alone in your struggle. None of us are! As someone who struggles with ADD and autism life has been a lot harder for me than it needed to be or should have been. I grew up in a wonderful, loving and supportive family. I was given so many experiences that other people only dreamt of. A lot of times I feel so guilty, like it is my own fault that life has been this way because I know I am responsible for my own actions. That I was given everything in life just like my sisters, one of which is a doctor now. Yet, I cut myself short with trying to silence my negative self thoughts with drugs and men during college. Now I am an RN which the work itself is respectable, but the title to me is not at all. I’m so mad at myself for wasting my younger college years. When I finally got a little control of myself and got my RN degree I passed all of my exams with nothing less than a 95%. I was top of my class out of over 100 people. Although, somehow, my mind still finds a way for this to be depressing to me. Looking at those scores, I should have been a doctor, I should’ve had more self-control, I should have done better and I’m return served more people at a higher level of practice. I’ve been trying to give myself grace and know that this is just the brain chemistry I was born with. That it is okay for me to just be a nurse. Also, I think we will find areas of life that may be easier for us than others who don’t have our special brain chemistry. We are successful in different outlets which is a beautiful thing because it takes all types to make the world go round. YOU are beautifully YOU, Lauren. Don’t compare yourself to other people and make them the “normal” version. Know that you have positive attributes they don’t have. None of us are equal, and we will all contribute to this world, just as we were intended to. I’ve watched you since you first blew up on KZfaq. Over 15 years ago!!!! You paved the way, Lauren. You with your special and unique thoughts and personality did that. You are forever one of the first KZfaq beauty/make up gurus. Never sell yourself short❤ you have already made a lasting impression on so many lives, and I appreciate you sharing this part of your story. I know by sharing stuff like this, that you will continue to make an impact in peoples’ lives with more than just the hottest new beauty item 😊

Lauren just to say, you are very empathetic compassionate and so so brave. Love yourself don’t be hard on yourself. You are not your story you are much more than your story. Brave warrior my new friend. I didn’t have the right gear either. ❤

Hi !.. i have searched your channel after 10 years..because i was listening an audiobook and i heard the word panacea....anyways..u are still here and u have a lot of subscribers!! I remember u were pioneer in make up tutorial channels... congratulations and hope u get better soon 😊

Like most on here I know exactly how you feel. You are right that people think ADHD is badly behaved children but its much more than that. I was an anxious child, too scared to open presents on xmas morning in case I got into trouble and it just got worse as I got older. I don't make friends or mix well. Other have labelled me, unkind names in the past. The internet has been a great tool for learning about what was previously put down to as just slow learning or away with the fairies. I just wish someone would have addressed my childhood anxiety. I wasn't quiet due to shyness, I was scared of everything.

thank you for sharing your experience

Lauren we miss you just checking in

Thanks for sharing! Keep note of whether your sensory issues seem like they’re worse now you’re on the Elvanse, apparently that’s normal if you also have autism as the adhd symptoms calm down on the medication. I’m both ASD and adhd newly-ish diagnosed.

Hi Lauren I'm watching this video again. Could you do a update video please. I have done a referral through the drs with the right to choose also with clinical partners. X

I was like you as a kid. Very distracted, all tho I was very good at art and did well in school as long as I draw, like drawing a map or solar system, or animals or history facts. Fidgeting yes, pulling my dry skin from my fingers, I was diagnosed with Asperger, later autism level1 and 2 years ago a new psychiatrist said "No, you have ADHD" I refused medication because I wanted to have a baby, so the doctor told me to avoid all caffeines from coffee, tea or energy drinks, to avoid sugars and food dyes, also cut down on wheat. He told me to exercise to balance chemistry in my brain, I did and it worked for me, I have a baby now, is hard to be focused but I manage with very strict schedule and the mindset that is ok to be slow, is ok to do just one thing at the time amd just 3 things in the day, (lucky I have a good husband and I can get to stay home) I can not imagine the hell you had to live when you became a mother at such young age struggling with this neurodivergency, so mucj desperation, so much anxiety and such a deep feeling of not being good enough because we can not achieve as much done as a neurotypical person. Love and hugs my dear, I am glad you are doing your best in this journey, you reached all our hearts by hyperfocusing in this chanel giving us your best and that is brave and amazing, you have inspire so many, and you still do, now supporting this now most known neurodivergency. Love you ❤💐🥂

I was diagnosed in my late 40 never tried meditation but I’m thinking about trying it my 15 year old girl been struggling with hers with exam’s coming next year i remember them times 😢 hope the meds help 🙏🏻

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There is something called Fragile X Syndrome … it’s the only known genetic form of autism spectrum disorder. It runs in my family, and there are carriers as well as fully diagnosed forms. It’s a genetic mutation. Might be something to consider since you feel all you ladies have it. ❤️ I recently started Qelbree for my ADD diagnosis.

We think my daughter whos 5 might have adhd She's a handful but i love her so much and wouldn't change her

I understand! I paid for my diagnosis too. I don't know how to respond to this. I have a lot I want to say but I don't want to come off as fully insane.

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I haven't even got 10 minutes in yet and crying. I know something isnt right with me and its always been like this. I just dont know what to do x

I suspect that you really were a normal healthy child even if you didn't fall in line like most. I cant possibly believe that the school system culture was of high quality. It's the system, not you. There's something not right with the culture you were in. I'm just saying that factor should be noted. You're very normal, as in healthy. You mention paperwork? Generally 99.9% of people don't read the terms of service 😂! They just click 😅 the icon for *I Agree* If the Rx meds help you function more productively, and if it's truly safe to use long-term, which I doubt, then that's great. I'm just saying you're likely not the problem. You must consider the culture you're in that's dysfunctional. Just look how rigid and sedentary your childhood school experience was made to be. There is something fundamentally wrong with making children sit most of the day. Humans are supposed to be active. We are biologically designed that way. As an adult, the modern systemic culture is flawed. Unless someone can capably be autonomous from that environment, it's a self-preservation challenge for each participant. I'm just aiming to say it's the system that's the bigger problem, not you. UK schools commonly have such a rigid culture with an emphasis on conformity and obedience. Yet, if you had been somewhere in the USA in a Montessori school, I bet that environment would have allowed you to realize your passions much earlier. I must add that the USA also has bad schools that really just function as daycare. Finland has an unusually positive education format. If you had been there as a child, you probably would have received a customized education. Im fairly sure you didn't exactly get personalized educational assistance if they merely tossed you into detention for simply being a kid. Detention or writing lines is an archaic practice. Anyways, I thought I would spill my thoughts on this issue. You have to question the system. Point out the system faults. Also consider the motives behind the strange widespread marketing of these ADHD drugs. Big Pharma doesn't do much unless it's profitable. Im not denying that autism and ADHD don't exist. I am questioning their growing prevalence. Also it makes no sense to drug more people when changes should be made to the dysfunctional cultural environment first and foremost. I think you're a creative accomplished person 🙂 and brave for freely talking about this issue. It helps bring awareness.