I am a palliative care nurse. The right medication in the right dose will control your symptoms with minimal side effects. They definitely work and they work well. I have taken care of countless patients with severe pain who have been able to control the pain and enjoy their life. I can understand reluctance but the right team will help you. Prayers to you.

Stage 4 cancer sucks! It is hard. All you can do is take one day at a time. You are so lucky to have a support system! I am stage 4 metastatic breast cancer. My diagnosis was five years this December. I have been on oral treatment all that time and although my cancer can't be cured...it is controlled. Sending you love...and understanding ❤️

Panic attacks are awful. God hold you in His arms❤

Stage 4 colon cancer here. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I always say I do not know how we are not running down the street screaming at all times managing this diagnosis. For me it’s the lack of a next step that begins the waves of terror. We must have hope to continue to push forward and when that is taken from us it is terrifying. For me I have created a system that allows me to sit in these feelings, because my God how could we not have these feelings - but I create safety nets so I don’t get stuck in them. Your husband appears to be a very strong safety line as is my wife. I carve out time in my day to have conversations with my cancer and time for me to process any and all things cancer. Outside of those allotted times I repeatedly tell myself “not now we’ll chat at our coffee chat”. It helps me to address the terror, allow it to move through me and hopefully find a little peace in the day. As for the pain I have gone a different route-I utilize RSO marijuana - OXY or morphine makes me feel gross and I don’t like where my mind is on it. The RSO dulls my pain, helps me to manage my anxiety and I put all my weight back on that cancer took for me. Big hugs my friend. ❤️💪🏻🌈

I have never had cancer but I am 75 year old, a disabled surgical nurse with a 35 year history of chronic pain. Since age 40 I have had 7 back & neck surgeries due to degenerative disc disease which has caused me to have pain in varying degrees from very annoying to extremely painful. I was not a pill taker prior to this but I have learned that I need to do whatever it takes in order to enjoy my life. So I take prescribed pain meds when needed and sometimes it helps but not always. Jenny, you should just do what you have to so that you can be the mom, wife and woman that you are. If that means taking pain pills when you have pain, so be it. Take care of you! I love hearing about you and your beautiful family. Sending healing prayers to you and looking forward to seeing you again soon.

OMG! i haven't even finished the video- but just watched the clip of Kyle opening the Disney castle. He is like a big kid- the excitement on his face was adorable. Jenny, I love that you share you personal life with us. I'm a rather private person so I admire people who can put themselves out there. I'm sorry to hear about the panic attack. They can be absolutely awful. God Bless.

I can’t imagine how hard it is to be in your situation but at the end of the day you have a beautiful life . A helpful husband , gorgeous kiddos and you are a strong lady . No one knows what tomorrow brings . Cancer or not . No one is promised. All we can do is live everyday with love, hope, faith etc. i hope everything works to your favor one way or another. Y’all are the cutest family ! Your husband is lucky to have you as well.

This happened to me, I had rectal cancer & have had numerous MRIs cat scans, pet scans & about 3 weeks after my resection I had to get an MRI , they put in the IV got me ready put me in & I lost my mind, started screaming & crying they hurried up & got me out & had to call my husband to help me I couldn't even stand I was so panicked & hysterical. The tech said that it sometimes happens after so much in a short time. I went back 2 days later & was fine. Jen you are strong & brave, praying for you & fam! Warrior princess

Hi Jenny, I suffer from panic attacks since I was a child. It’s really frightening when there’s no reason for it it just comes out of nowhere. You have a reason and a wonderful husband to get you through the terror That is a panic attack. I had EMTs come to my house numerous times wherever I lived. I’m sorry you are in pain and I hope that they can help you by draining the fluid in your lungs. I pray for you constantly. You are the epitome of grace under pressure. You’re just a wonderful person and life is hard. But life is beautiful too and you have your beautiful husband and children. I pray there is a cure for cancer soon. Every day the scientists are coming up with new therapies. Sending healing aloha your way

Those feelings are SO valid....even to 'emotional hangover' the following day...so accurate - it just drains you. Im sure Kyle was a rock...total respect to you Jenny - you handle it all so so gracefully. Love from Scotland x

Wow, you are so put together. I would have panick attacks if I were you. My husband was just diagnosed with cancer and I’m scared every minute of the day, for him and me. How do I not dwell on it every second? How do you have good days? I think of you so often. You are wonderful people!

Hi Jenny, I suffer with anxiety & Panic Attacks, I guess they are the same to me. I have learned after 15 years, how to deal with them, I know now whe they start,I have to tell myself that I am fine, like you held your daughter is the best thing, as long as you can touch and feel things and focus on visual things, it stops them, within an half an hour, I start to feel better. My doctor also has me take a Xanax, which I only take if necessary. I will continue to pray for you, 🙏💗🙏

I have had those attacks and it is exactly like you describe. I'm so sorry you had that horrible feeling. Remember, anxiety is usually about a fear of things that MIGHT happen in the future; not what is REALLY happening or what is reality. It's terrible, I know. I try to remember if I say 'what if' then it's not a worry that is actually happening and it's anxiety instead.

I miss you so much. Thanks so much for recording such difficult videos so we can still hear and see you.

I suffer from extreme debilitating panic attacks. Had to call the ambulance for one just last month. They are the most terrifying awful thing anyone could possibly imagine. I can’t even function with out daily medication I’ve had them since I was a kid. I’m so sorry you went through that on top of everything else your going through. I admire your strength and positive attitude and selflessness etc. you are amazing and I know you inspire so many! I’m praying God will give peace for your mind and rest for your body and relief from your pain and strength for your husband!

Hi Jenny, I have been waiting to hear from you!!!!. I just love the way you share with us: Medical appointments, romantic dinners with Kyle, reading to the kids or just simply talking to the camara while sharing with us your fears and pains. I have never enjoyed someone on KZfaq like I enjoy you both. I can perfectly understand your sudden panick attack. You must have all those fears you describe. But things could also go really well and the targeted therapy could give you lots of time and better quality of life. The more research I do, the more success stories I find, so many more than I initially thought!!!!!

Of course that was a perfectly normal reaction, Jen. It's your minds way of getting everything negative out. Released now, you can breathe again. You are so inspiring and, like ripples in a pond, you have no idea how many lives you are touching during your hard fought battle. Love you, Jen. ❤️❤️❤️

I hate pain meds to….however sometimes we need them….🙏🤗❤️👍😊

I’m so sorry you had a panic attack! I deal with them too and they are scary, sending you prayers and hugs Jenny! 🙏❤️

How fun that someone sent the Disney Castle, so thoughtful and great for cheering things up, perfect timing. You are brave and strong, but we all have moments when things get to be too much and you need to let the stress out. Don’t be afraid to ask for a mild prescription for an anti anxiety med to use when you need it.

I suffer from panic disorder and that alone is not fun. Added to all you have going on, it must be unbearable! Continuing to pray!

Hi Jenny, I'm sorry you are having panic attacks & in pain. You look pretty in your dress. My partner is in hospital with a post op infection. Watching him projectile vomiting & in pain made me appreciate what both you & Kyle go through. It's horrible watching your loved one suffering & the emotions as the person watching can be overwhelming. You just want to take the pain away for them. Love & hugs to you both & your family. Sending healing vibes to you Jenny❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

You have an amazing family. My husband looks after me like kyle does you. Ive just been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome and long covid to top it off. I have panic attacks when i go out on my own. Im now getting help to get it under control. But you inspire me so much, to see the good in life. Im learning so much off you, thanks for being you and im sending lots of love, prayers to your beautiful family xx

I think about and pray for you everyday. It’s so unfair. I can’t believe all the pain and torment you suffer. But you make the most of every single day and are such an inspiration!!! You will get through this!!!!! ❤

Hi Jenny, I have been on serious pain medications, Fentanyl and Oxycodone for over eighteen years and am very grateful for the pain relief they give me. I am also on Lactulose so that I have no issues with constipation from these medications. I could not have survived all of these years without these medications for my chronic pain syndrome and am very thankful for having found great pain specialist doctors to help me. There is no reason to suffer through pain when there are pain medications that can help and other medications that help prevent any possible adverse side effects from them. I get to enjoy every day mostly pain free with no other side effects and truly hope that you too will take pain medications to help relieve your suffering with pain. I also pray for your complete recovery and wish you and your family all of the best. ❤

It’s so good to see your smiling face Jenny! I’m sorry that you’re dealing with panic attacks and pain. I’ve certainly had my share of both over the last 20 years. Honestly I found the right combination of medication‘s to help me with both and that’s the only way I can make it through the day. I do think you need to talk with your doctor about pain medication. I think you have a very responsible reason for needing that medication. It will allow you to take a bigger part in your children’s lives and have better quality time with Kyle too. You’re in my prayers daily… Sending love to you and your sweet family 💜💜

I’ve witnessed your story first hand as my husband had stage 4 metastatic renal cell! You are doing AWESOME! Stay strong friend, God be with you and your family🧡

Hi lovely Jenny - Tiffany in the UK posted today and she’s having a frightening time as well right now. You’re both amazing women. On the pain relief front, I say go for it. It’s available for a reason but I respect your reservations. If it doesn’t work so be it but if it works then that has to be a good thing for you and your loved ones. Sending love 💕 prayers 🙏 and hugs 🤗 from across the pond 🇬🇧 😘xxx

Panic attacks are awful miserable and the pits Still praying you through this big hugs ❤

Miss You amazing human:(

Jenny..You are a super amazing person.. You are a mountain of strength..You are carrying so much..Its OK to get scared and sad some days.. You have the Best Husband in the world..A sweet son and the cutest little girl there is.. You cant always carry the weight of the world on your shoulders ..Even the strongest of people fall sometimes...Its called being human..and You are an exceptional Human being and inspiration.. I follow every video and pray for You daily..I feel you are a friend.. Keep up the good work ..I think the new plan of care is a positive for You..Much Love!!

Hi Jenny, I’m from New Zealand. My sister had a rare form of lung cancer non small cell adenocarcinoma with (ALK) positive. She also had brain Mets and had three of the four she had at the time dealt with surgically and the other one which couldn’t be removed had radiation. She couldn’t take chemo for her type of cancer. She was on a targeted therapy. Firstly alecnabib then after the brain Mets was changed to loratnibib. She had pretty much all the symptoms that you have described. She loved a good massage but it is NOT recommended for patients of lung cancer as this can help to spread the cancer. My daughter is a beauty therapist and is not allowed to do any massage on people with. Certain types of cancer, lung being one of them.. I love watching your videos and Thankyou for sharing your story with us. Your family are utterly adorable. And your hubby is such an amazing bloke. You guys are just a lovely sweet family. My sister took morphine for pain. Some days better than others. Everyone’s cancer journey is their own personal story. 🦋🦋🦋🦋

I loooove the Disney castle! Thank you for showing us!

I always see people posts videos about Cancer and they seem so positive and uplifting it is very important to see your honest reactions because not everyone can react like all positive. I've been sick (not with Cancer) since I was 23 and I definitely relate to your anxiety. Make memories. As many as you can while you're hurting.

Oh my goodness I can’t even fathom what you’re going through. You have a lot going on and I cannot imagine the ups and downs.❤ your feelings are your feelings, no one owns them but you🫶 your faith in God will sustain you through the ebbs and flows🙏 Sweet girl have a blessed night🌸🌸Otis and me🍂🍁🍂 Massachusetts.. I have been sober since 1988, so I’m real careful with pain meds but taken as needed they will concentrate on the pain and nothing else don’t put yourself through this.

Kyle is such a good guy. I cant even begin to understand your panic...but i do understand panic attacks. Always remember ...it passes. You dont stay in that state forvever....it helps me sometimes... have fun with the games. Its so fun playing games and it takes your mind off stuff for a bit. Postive thoughts always!

Please don’t let yourself suffer, don’t be afraid of pain medication! Take them as needed. It’s ok! 🥰

I’m praying God heals you and that your cancer goes away. Pray for a miracle. I’m so sorry you have to deal with this while having to stay strong for your family. Hugs

Bless your heart. You are the sweetest Lady and a wonderful mother. I wish I could switch places with you and take all your pain, worry and sickness away.. I am 59 and I have lived my life and deal with a lot of pain. I am ready to go when God calls me home. Giving someone the gift of a long life would be something meaningful I could do in my life. My husband is dealing with lung cancer and I would do anything to take his place. I love you all so much. You are precious people and it shows.. God Bless you Jesus loves you.

Panic attacks can be awful, but Kyle seems like the best person to have around if you're having one. I understand where you're coming from with the pain med issue. I'm stage 4 metastatic breast cancer, and I am very cautious when it comes to taking pain meds. This is mainly because I feel like if I can't feel the pain, I may be missing a new symptom or a current symptom getting worse. I was only diagnosed in August of this year and I definitely don't know what I should be doing or feeling yet. I am very thankful for your video's though, they give more hope than you may realize. ❤

Thank you for sharing your journey with us, it's opened my mind to how much cancer affects people emotionaly as well as physically. You're such a strong lady but it must be so tough to deal with at times. I will continue to pray for you and your wonderful family. love from England xxx

You’re very brave Jenny. You deserve the world. Bless Kyle and your children. They’re so kind and caring. You’re doing a great job really. You just have to be how you feel each day and it’s ok. Love from Oz.

Hi Jenny, Love you lots. I was an RN for 42 years. Many years in Oncology and also in hospice. I have multiple myeloma, with many fractured bones throughout. I was wondering when you would bring up the subject of pain. I hate to sound critical of my old profession. But much is to be desired when it comes to pain management. No way would we leave our patients suffer. Patients are treated as potential addicts, or become drug dealers ourselves. There is a big difference between drug dependency and drug addiction. The side effects can be handled, and usually subside after few days, once the body becomes use to the drug. Doses are started slowly and carefully titrated up to get above the pain. Once that is accomplished , something is ordered for break thru pain. Please connect with a good pain management team. I k ow there is alot more info and new meds and treatments on this matter , but being 77 years young , I have been reading alot about patients with all kinds of problems, and many many bring up their pain. Years ago there was a push to blame the drug problem on patients. Along came the government with many rules for the doctors re pain management. So the patients have gotten the wrong end. Do speak up and let your needs be known. The quality of life greatly improves when pain is well managed. Thank you for sharing this video. I have been troubled with this issue for a long time. And you have given me a chance to finally speak up. Keep up your good work. God bless you and your family. Love, Peace, and Joy. Claudia

Jenny you are always in my thoughts and prayers. I admire your strength and courage and you give me inspiration everyday. You’re and amazing mom and women. 🙏💕

Hi Jenny, I start with the last you said, pain medication. What I know about pain is, don’t let the pain prevail. Because then you have to take more medicine! That is what my doctor said to me, I need morfine almost every day.(😊I’m not a cancer patient.) Your panic attacks are going the same way. You don’t like to talk about it all days. And then it’s a big heap you can’t survey. Then you need a little thing and then you feel awfully, it’s going to run and there’s no end. I think you are a very brave and strong woman, and you can be proud of yourself. I think You’re afraid for the future. It’s different than and a lot of new things. You don’t know how that will work out. A whole letter. Stay strong ❤I’ll keep on praying. If you aren’t in the mood it’s okay. I pray every day. 🇳🇱🙋‍♀️

I hate the "What ifs"......sorry you felt this way. I admire you despite this for I know how strong and honest with yourself and your family and us you are. We all are for you!!!! Lots of love, J.

Thankyou jenny showing what emotions and fears we have when we're on this horrendous journey

I’m happy to see the pain is better today ❤ Sending you lots of hugs (as always!) Always in my prayers, your friend Jennifer 🤗

Know that we love you, sending prayers and hugs and hope always. Everything your feeling? It's ok. The anxiety, the grief, or even just numb not knowing what to think. Stay strong and were all here for you

Please don't be afraid of them when you need them. Praying for you.

Jenny, let me just say, panic attacks are just cruel and I am sorry you experienced some. They are the absolute bane of my existence until I literally just had to stop being afraid or I was going to take a heart attack from worrying and trying to control the uncontrollable. Anxiety medications only exasperated the issue and really need to be mindfully taken in moderation. Therapy helped me more than I ever thought it would and I highly suggest having an outlet allowing you to sit and experience all the feelings. Then you take back control. You have every right to be scared as anyone would. I pray you get to a place where you feel more in control again sooner than later and have faith in it all coming together as it should. You are so tough and gracious. Keep fighting sista! 🙏🤍

Hi Jen, I live in the UK and have been following you of late. You are an inspiration to us all with your beautiful smiley face and positivity and strength. You are however allowed to rant and rave when you need too just stay strong you are in our thoughts and prayers.

I'm so sorry that happened to you. God, put Kyle exactly where he is supposed to be, on this Earth. He has a beautiful soul. You look absolutely beautiful! 🥰

I am sorry you are having to go through all of this! Know we are praying for you and thinking about you. Sending hugs❤

Sorry about your panic attack. Best thing is to talk about your feelings. Getting it out will help you. Keep fighting. You are amazing. ❤️❤️

Hi Jenny 👋 I suffer panic attacks and can relate, sending u lots of good healing vibes I will look for you on insta I'd luv to share some advice about the panic that's really helped me. I don't often comment on KZfaq But u really are something else. One of the nicest most humble caring unique people iv ever come across, ur illness ain't got a patch on u. Ur seriously incredible, The luv u have for your children is completely selfless iv noticed what an amazing mother u are and u are a wonderful wife too of course. The world needs more people like you in it. I believe u have amazing things coming up for u, keep keeping on and it's good to get things off your chest so u talk as much as u need to. Sending u big massive luvs from the UK 🇬🇧 xx 💙🌼💙🌼💙🌼💙🌼

The hangover is an adrenaline dump I get this after a meltdown. The remedy for panic attack is focusing on love. Love from your family but more so God’s love. Years ago I had panic attacks and I said to God couldn’t cope with this and the room filled with so much love, crazy amount of love so much I couldn’t contain it. Never had a panic attack again that was back in 2004. Hope you can have this experience too. Much love jennfree

I’m with you. Don’t like pain meds. They make me feel weird. Praying for you and your family.

Hi Jenny, you are sooo brave, you are fighting against this terrible cancer soo adorable, best wishes for you and your family 🙏🤗

I love it - never flossed! Jenny, you always find that glimmer of light to share!😊

Awe love the Disney castle! Seeing y’all so happy and hearing the Christmas music makes us smile big!

You make me feel better about everything. Thank you for sharing your experience.

Hi there Jenny, I've been waiting to hear from you. I look everyday :-) I absolutely adore you and your family. take care of yourself, and keep being strong! Cancer warrior. 💞

I also suffer from panic attacks and it's the most out of control feeling, ever. I've learned to work at focusing on something else and that helps. Along with a good back rub from my husband 🥰. I'm glad Kyle is taking such good care of you 💞 As for pain meds (I've also had cancer), they're good to keep on hand and just use them on particularly bad days. Also, combining the tylenol with ibuprofen works better than either one alone. I wish you all the best!

🍎🍎🍎🍎🍎Jenny Apple🍎🍎🍎🍎🍎 Hi!!! I'm 61yrs old and I've had panic attacks since my 20's. I also have a lot of health problems that cause bad pain. I've come to realize, that there's no reason to let ourselves suffer if there's help available..... whether it's pain, anxiety, depression, etc....For so long, I felt like I had to suffer so people would see that I'm so strong and brave. Finally, I realized that it didn't matter what they felt because at the end of the day, they hadn't been the one that had been suffering so much that day. Long story short....I experienced and learned, that only I knew what I needed and what works for me and that all my pain and suffering was not gonna make me Wonder Woman. 🍎Jenny Apple, you're awesome!! You have (at least) a bazillion people cheering you on!!

Loves and hugs from a stranger but fellow mother and person who cares. You can do it - all you need to do and accept or not accept and fight. I know because you are clearly a loving person who cherishes the moments with your loved ones and so generously shares yourself and your love with them and us and so many others. That’s the ultimate best goal in any situation in life, I think. Virtually all of us are going to go through terrible, painful, scary, and seemingly unbearable experiences at some point and often many points in our lives. But so many of us cannot find a way to go through it with so much love and generosity as you do. I think it’s your superpower. This life is so hard sometimes when we come up against things that are awful and that we can’t fully control. But you show us all how we can deal with those times with love and generosity and grace. Thank you. I wish all the best and healing and long and wonderful lives for you and all your loved ones.

You’re such a lovely positive happy person ❤ best of luck hun x

Sending prayers 🙏.

Im glad you started to feel better!

I cannot tell you how much I enjoyed seeing Kyle reacting to the Disney castle!! I'm curious--if you were one of the Disney princesses, which would you be and why? By the way, you inspired me and I had my hair cut short and I love it. Have a great week!

Jenny dear…those panic attacks sound awful to have to get through. So happy for you that Kyle was able to help you through it all. ❤️ You are such a beautiful woman, mother, wife, aunt, daughter and sister! ((Hug)) Praying for conquer over cancer. What music do you like? Music helps me sometimes when I get anxiety. Please don’t wait too long before you get the pain under control…( I’m an old nurse so give advice freely… even unsolicited🤣)

Oh sweetie I know what you're saying about pain meds I have been on them a log time I hate taking pill but gives you better quality of life I just take enough to take the edge off still have pain but i can handle it better you're a real trooper God bless you an your hubby is a real earth angel nice to see a rea man your both are amazing You have two beautiful children an your amazing parents With love an up most respect from Grants Pass Oregon

Hello Jenny Appreciate the update and processing can cause a flood of emotions. Another stage, another unknown and more waiting. It's to be expected so don't be unkind to yourself. I don't like pain meds or at least how they make me feel. I move fluid with compression, heat, Aleve (which is incredible) and my registered massage therapist, which now off of chemotherapy, you could consider. Reflexology also used to help when I had a retired nurse treating me. Both move fluid and swelling. Please take care

Thankful for your moments of relief. Feel the same about pain meds as you do, but do not allow yourself to go too long in-between without some relief. 😉❤🙏

Jenny, you are one of the strongest women I know. You are truly an inspiration to all who are battling this terrible disease. You and your family are in our daily prayers and I go to church everyday to light a candle and pray for you. Gods Blessings to you and your family Jenny.😊

You are remarkable and absolutely precious. Wishing the world for you and your family 💛

Hi Jenny. Keeping you in my prayers!! ✨✨

Thank you for sharing your lovely mother's day. Such a beautiful family and may I say you look so pretty in your gorgeous dress. Prayers for your scan ❤

You are blessed with Kyle. He is blessed with you and the babes💕. Sending prayers and support in your journey💕💕🙏🏻🙏🏻

You are such a sweet person, I am sending you hugs from Czechia and I am very glad your pain is better. 🌸

Hi Jenny, a little pain medicine for the days when it’s really affecting you wouldn’t hurt. I’m on morphine and have been for many years. Before that I was on fentanyl patches. I have 60mg of a slow release 12 hour morphine morning and night, and then I have additional morphine 20 mg for breakthrough pain. I have to admit they keep trying to take me off it. Problem is they are not helping me with any other drug than paracetamol. Which just doesn’t do anything. I suffer with chronic pain and there’s not a day go by when I’m not hurting.like now I’m writing this at 02.30 in the morning as the pain woke me up. Jenny I’m so sorry you had a panic attack. They’re so scary. Sending you and Kyle much love, and you are in my prayers. 💖💖💖

Praying for you Jenny❤❤❤❤

I know panic attacks are horrible, been there too, BUT you got this!!! The mind is a powerful thing so it's ok to give yourself time to relax and get overt it on your own terms and what works for you....... Sending you prayers and hugs❣️🕯️🙏..........I don't like taking pain medication either, but sometimes it's worse if you try to deal with the pain cold turkey, your blood pressure can go up because of the pain and even your heart rate can beat too fast. Taking it as directed without over medicating, is definitely the way to go, you don't want to add more stress to your body as it is.🌹

Jenny I hope you feel better soon. I love a good heating pad. Lol! ❤️🙏🏻

Jenny we are all here for you and praying you are not alone never will be❤❤❤❤

I’m praying for you and your family, Jenny. You have a beautiful family!

You're definitely one brave woman! Thinking of you!! 🙏🥰

God Bless you Guys !!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

I've had panic attacks ...so awful ...but you and your family are amazing ...wonderful and sweet. Keep up the good fight, sweet girl 💕

You are always in my prayers and I pray God gives you peace❤. Panic attacks are the worst and I understand why that would be scary. I hope you are having a better day with little to no pain ❤

Sooo Sorry Ms. Jenny! Panic Attack’s can be Terrible! You are in my Prayers & all your Family! Have A Blessed Day! 💖💕❤️❤️🙏😇

every time you face a medical appointment it is so stressful, even if good news, it becomes overwhelming, you are so brave we wish we could take away your worry and concerns you have such a lovely family 💕💞

You are in my prayers ALWAYS. Love the nails!!

I love you and am always sending all my prayers and love your way!

my love as a cancer survivor who has been through so much pain physically, mentally and emotionally i can feel you my love. i honor you and your sufferying my love. I honor you for your courage, your pain and i honor your fear. I love you with all my being.

I think you are amazing Jenny. All the emotions you have I think it would be very normal. I pray that the cancer is all gone. You hang in there you sweet lady. ❤ I thing you are so brave, God Bless.

Prayers ❣️

Sending love, hugs and prayers.

Can't imagine the pain. I'm not a big pain med either & it's ok. You had such beautiful card & gift, what magical moments. Having a panic attack or your scared is ok. You got alot of people praying for you & all the love from your hubby. Never be ashamed of your feeling, this is real life stuff. Hope you have a better day tomorrow. Feel my prayer coming your way

I hear you about pain medications. Once you start they are hard to stop. Your body gets used to having a medication to stop the pain that it gets lazy and stops producing dopamine. In order to get the same relief that your body used to do you will now need pain medication to do the job. They also cause constipation and they cause your vascular system to clamp down. I have had my experience on and off narcotics for pain. While it is very hard for me to deal with my pain at times without medications, it was still worth it to stop them. Now i pull into myself with meditation to help deal with the pain. It is exhausting to be in pain. There is no right or wrong answer. You have to do what works for you and gives you the best llife can offer. Just wanted to share my experience with pain medication. Sending you love. You are such a beautiful woman inside and out. Love your personality and what you share with us. You have a beautiful family.