unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

@@user-dm4mr7tk5v I am incredibly sorry you lost your brother. May he rest in peace and may you heal from your grief. I know I am a stranger to you, but I'm sending you love.

Believe it or not most addicts are. We have to be smart and resourceful. I still drink every once in a while but have been heroin and fentynal clean for two years and like two months, that shit made me pure evil.

Hes like this..he's a great person. Funny and very caring.

And he's got great comedic timing

Matt Heinemann what made you decide to take fentynal in the first place.

hes an absolute fun and hilarious person... he was a very emotional and loving child. unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

Unfortunately he’s since passed away 💔such an amazing person gone too soon. I wish I had good new to share 😢

@@blakebreuhan3194what happened???

Today is a year that we lost him. Hes my little brother... he overdosed on fentanyl on skidrow unfortunately. 😞

he was so so intelligent, always loved to read and learn...unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

It's a good thing. I mean, it's so easy to blame anything for your circumstances but at the end of the day you put those substances in you. It's OK. Figure out why, and take responsibility for it. And it seems like he has. He's very close to actually I think repairing himself for good I think if he can just get clean one more time. God willing the fentanyl shit doesn't take him first. That shit is no joke.

When your dopamine level for hours is is 5x the level of an orgasm then you wouldn't have much bad to say about ppl either lol

Except himself...

Umm he's high. He's really really high and he is talking about himself and someone is listening. He feels interesting, but know this, he's not. He's a cliche. I have a new neighbor who hustled a voucher for being homeless. She/ he has a whole rotation of people from the park down the street. The washing machine is either in use or broken now. The outside outlets are charging stations and the fun never stops. You're being fed manipulation. You are constantly bombarded with their problems and you are their solution until you have to establish you have problems too . So before you get dazzled by this hug fest go to a drug court and hear about their children. They are generally taken away for reasons other than their parents being intoxicated. They are people. People who love themselves in a most peculiar manner because as much as they talk about their lives and plans, they watch porn, try to have sex, neglect themselves and the property they " live" in. Are engaged in their drug hustle, sleeeeeeeep for a month or until the next opportunity to keep the dream alive emerges. He's a liar and he's high and he's going to get paid by the guy shooting this.

@@jpaul5387 I shouldn't laugh, but yea it is like that lmao.

Almost pitiful, but NOT. He needs his mama right NOW. I know what he's going through minus the drugs.

@brooks brown, you are right he does need his mom. My little brother uses drugs because of my mother's death over 20 years ago smh, and I don't know how to help him.

That hit hard

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :( hes with his momma now.

I have watched all of Marks videos. This one hurts the most, today anyway. I even imagined that in another time we would be close friends! Pleasant interlude. So beautiful what an appalling waste.

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

Very true. As someone that’s been through it, it’s a living hell. You’re just TRYING to feel normal ALL the time

In my experience suffering builds character. Break the cycle and reinvent yourself 🙏

All addicts are real ppl.. Thyr hurt ppl. But still all the things describe.. life is harder for some ppl.. ppl just can't deal sometimes.

@@bhief473 q1q

Very well said. I appreciate you understanding the cycle. But I think we all know no one can reach as deep as a struggling addict and come out on the other side being successful. We addicts are definitely the most intelligent and understanding people!!

He definitely is nice looking at 32. He looks late 20s early 30s. I think you’re just used to people who look older

32 is young. He looks 32

@@kadeelacayo4806 perhaps. I guess more often then not the people on here look a bit more rough from their drug usage

Exactly. He looks 25

@@cassgreen5813 oh gosh definitely not 25 haha but he does look good for someone who has done so many drugs and been through as much as he has. I just turned 26 and I'd guess he was mid-30s.

Tell him to get on a plane and come to Minnesota. Call PRIDE institute they specify in gay men and sex/meth. MN has something called a rule-25 which can get you treatment free…there’s a huge community of LGBT in recovery with sober house and everything.

I'm one of his siblings. This is how he was naturally his whole short life.

@@sourtm5916heartbreaking. I’m so sorry to hear your brother passed. He seemed like a wonderful person. I see myself in his struggles. My mother passed a year ago and it’s been a hard and empty time. Wishing your family the best.

Yup he can so it again

A nurse who is an addict is not a good idea Lot's of temptations in hospitals.

Addicts recover.

Correct me if I’m wrong but I don’t think you can be an rn with hep c

@@brandonjoseph1489 HARVONI cures hep c

EXACTLY!!! Mental illness added in to that too

We as addicts will do whatever it takes to numb the feelings

@@margaret4870 I know. ❤️

We need to get rid of the junkie word

Not totally true... drugs such as opiates which are started for fun drastically turn people into junkies because it's on a physical level which robs your body of producing dopamine and seratonin, which in turn makes users become seriously depressed along with the other physical withdrawl symptons turn people into junkies... I have personally known a few people, some lifelong close friends who never had any mental issues, came from great loving families with everything growing up, good looking, lots of friends and great relationships.... turn into junkies because the opiates robbed them of their bodies natural chemical production of all the chemicals the body needs. As well as robbing your body of any sexual desire from the lowering of testosterone and other hormones. It's one of the only drugs that literally robs your body.

I really appreciate your last sentence, Kaleb. And, I believe it too.

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

some ppl dont believe in that tho. In my opinion, "ADHD" is just a personality type, not a disease or something wrong. Plus he said he was on adderal in like 3rd grade, which must have been because of ADHD. In my honest opinion, theres a good chance a person will end up like this when they are pretty much given meth from a young age. Its like so many drugs, the doctors that prescribe them have no idea what they are like because they have never done them. Last thing this guy needs is legal meth for his troubles

I was thinking the same the thing. He checks all the boxes for ADHD.

@@nunyabizwacks6711 ADHD is just a personality type? How do you arrive at that? Kids who took adderall wind up addicts because addiction is unbelievably common with ADHD, not because adderall was their gateway drug. There has been a lot of advancements in what happens in the ADHD brain, particularly with women who have it. I recommend catching up on the disorder.

I had the same thought. Or c-ptsd possibly. Hearing him speak is how my brain is.

I’m not on drugs…but my brain is just, bouncy.

I second this. STEPHEN!- go home and be the man you know you should be! Fix everything and make it all better than it would have been without your involvement in colouring the world!

I had so much hope that he would finally get help and stay in rehab... he refused to stay everytime. We all tried so hard. Jessica is back in FL she has a son and has been clean for a few years. unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother too...still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. . Hes no longer struggling :(

He has passed. There's a go fund me page

@@sourtm5916 Can you please post a link to the gofundme?

​@@sourtm5916 can you post a link to the Go Fund Me Page?

He passed away the end of May of this year. We love him and miss him dearly ❤

Oh no! This breaks my heart!

💯💯💯

All addicts

I think he’s in with a chance. Clean Stefan is achievable but his relapses are obviously an issue. Best wishes for his future success. 🌬💨💨💨🤍

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

God Bless you ❤

Congratulations that is something to brag about such a great accomplishment. Stay strong nothing is worth going back.

Proud of you, what a powerful transformation.

Thank you everyone❤️ stay strong and keep one foot in front of the other

Wish you all the best 💗🇬🇧

Same here. This interview is like a therapy session, hope Steph finds a good partner, and breaks his chains.

Treasure her. The most devastating thing in life is losing her.😔

@@janicejacome I understand and am pre mourning it. Not sure if I will deal with it when it happens I want to go first but I know it would here her even more

He's with her now😢❤

He definitely didnt mention the whole story of the abise we went though as children.. im his step sister. My father and his mother had a very toxic relationship ... she was type 2 bipolar and abusive. He Did love her so much though, they were close as adults. They also used together which is how she contracted hep c and passed about 5 years ago... unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose last year. still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :(

Yes, he is suffering and he's very likeable.

@Blacksun Sigrune only an absolute dickhead would make a comment like that... congratulations.

We can't ever find happiness really

YES

Never heard a Florida dude use the term bloke

Woulda never guessed your not a Florida dude holy shit. Dan brown what u write the fuckin DaVinci code or are u just cursed with a john smith ass name.

@@meco4068 yea, born and raised in England, moved to FL at 15 years old, been here ever since. I have an intertwined mix of British slang and Florida twang 🤣🤣🤣😳😳😳

Maslow’s hierarchy of needs is exactly what I say every video and in person. They are essential and without absolutely wrecks havoc.

Aurora... You still have to be working or work as a nurse, and most likely an address, let alone passing drug tests if employed to keep your license...

@@Vixen160 ...I would like to think a PO Box or family/friend would lend an address. A nurse can keep their license current without practicing, as long as CEUs are met. There is no need for drug test unless working. Many nurses take time off to raise a family and return to nursing when their children are older. Many nurses have branched into another career and still keep their license current.

@@Vixen160 all he needs is the ceus and to pay..a lot of nurses don’t even work as a nurse but keep it active because why not? There nurses on top of whatever there career is..

Didn't I hear that he relapsed just before he was to take his State Board Exams?

Me too x

unfortunately we lost stephen to an overdose. This is my little brother.... still hard knowing the drugs took him from us. We all tried so hard to help. Hes no longer struggling :( our childhood was so insane but he just could not cope with the a use his mother and my father put us through.... she was type 2 bipolar and they got closer as adults nd unfortunately used together and thats how she passed 5 yrs ago from hep c. We tried to save them both :/

That is absurd! His life belongs to HIM, not to a memory. She's gone, now it is time for him to look for his own path.

@@katlara9161 while you might think it’s absurd, he is continuing to use to numb out from his feelings and by his emotional reaction when speaking about the guilt and loss he feels around the relationship with his mom he continues to torture himself. I was merely suggesting he turn these negative emotions into something positive by finding his sobriety and then using his enormous talents as a nurse and someone who has dealt with addiction and loss. He could really help a lot of people. That’s all......

Glad you're clean now. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do

@@issafacelift same bro, same. It took me over a decade. We both made it through one of the most difficult things life will ever throw at us. I hope you’re proud of yourself. IM PROUD OF YOU 🙏🏼

Very well said. Thank you! And well done K. ❤️

@@kpeezyforsheezy thank you very much. Proud of you for kicking addictions ass too! 🤙🏻❤ I try to remember how far I've made it after going through addiction, but I have ups and downs. Like now, in the worst rutt and have never felt so dreadfully depressed/useless. I won't relapse, but I fucking wish I actually had a support system instead of dealing with it in my own head and driving myself crazy lol

He got so emotional throughout. My heart hurt for him!

Narcissist never change.

I’m sorry it wasn’t where you wanted/needed it to be before it ended. I truly believe your mom is with you now and would do it all over if she could. Sending a hug your way. ♥️

He needs you, Friend!

It still doesnt feel real that hes gone :/

You don't know him at all. I mean, seriously.

@@b1k2q34 you're right. I rarely ever comment on videos. Normally I'd agree with you, yet I had a reaction (for some reason) and just thought I'd post.

Hes just like this for real. A great kid. I miss him. Sincerely, one of his 5 siblings

@@Evielove36 l believe it..he's a sweetheart l would love to have for a brother. Best of luck, love ,and new start in 2022.

It's the abuse he's really tortured by The drugs are the cope

I believe if he gets clean FOR GOOD, he'll be great. He has an infectious personality.

@@davidx4120 I think it's very hard for people to get clean for good when they have trauma, especially childhood trauma, that has gone untreated. Addiction isn't just a matter of staying clean, avoiding the drug and other people who use. If trauma is left untreated, and the person isn't taught new healthier coping mechanisms, it's going to be extremely hard not to relapse. This channel, plus being close to someone who has struggled her entire life with addiction, and knowing trauma is what caused her to use in the first place has taught me this.

It can still be put to use. Just gotta land back on his feet. He’s done it before, he’ll do it again.

Not could, he can still. ❤🇨🇦🌈

i mean hes high on meth so that is definitely part of it.

We are all alive and qere doing good. We have overcome the trauma. Steph needs to know we are home. Hes so ashamed and completely jaded. His dad is a very kind man. My dad, his stepdad loves him too. We miss him.

@@Evielove36 That's great to hear. I hope that Stephan will reconnect with you guys. Most addicts are ashamed when they are in their addictions but they forget that family is there to support each other.

@@Evielove36 Just responding to these posts shows such a strong sense of family support that many don’t have…thanks!

Do something NOW please because you know the train is speeding down the tracks. I live it daily.. for decades. If you wait too long, the real kisser is when the self loathing comes in...cuz then you think and almost HOPE that train speeds up..PLEASE don't get to that point. Your brother would want you happy.

Yeah, or maybe he's high on speed 🤔 seems to be a nice guy who needs a little help with treatment.

One of his siblings here...he's actually like this naturally

Lol it’s called drugs 😂

So little do l know and need SO MUCH HELP... l will look into this, there's got to be a way be a way. THANK YOU!

🏆

Insightful reply Diego. Living in the past is a hard cycle to break in and of itself. I can't imagine how challenging it would be addicted and homeless.

She was my stepmother. She was a very proper lady with a good job. She just couldn't handle her bipolar disorder. I don't know why she went to drugs. Was not in her character. Steph was doing pills as a teen. I couldn't help him. It was so disfunctional.