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POV: you need help, but are scared to ask for it.

"Excuse me? That's not how you treat your mother" Your not my mom. You never will be. Your just her friend. My mother is at home waiting. Let me go home. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please.. *Let me go home.*

"i'll still love you even after our breakup! i'll wait for you forever." 3 days later i see him with my bestfriend. they're still together to this day, i think i was a stepping stone that brought them together. i just .. really loved him and hoped his words were true.

"we can take a shower together, it'll save water. And its fine we are sisters" i was only 3 it didnt end till i was 6 or 7 it was long ago, but what she did to me was not ok.

I.deserve.better. We.all.deserve.better.

I do deserve an apology because of what he did. I just wanted to play one video game.. I was 5 and I always sat on people's laps like my dad's so when he said it I didn't think anything of it. I wish I never did. He has forever scared me. And I hope he gets what he deserves for it.

My parents once said something so true it still hurts "They will laugh at you"

He only liked me for my body and the pics I sent him (nothing physical happened and we were long distance). Everytime I told him that I didn't want to send him anything or that I was getting tired of doing it every night he'd get mad and try to make me feel bad. The words "What, I can't see my girl?" is still vivid in my head despite blocking and deleting his number

why did i think he would ever feel the same. he only liked me for my body. it was always, you’re hot, sexy. but never “you’re so intelligent” or “you’re a such a good listener”. never “you look pretty today.” always, “send a pic pls ;).” im tired. being used is soul sucking. my self worth is better than that. and so is everyone else’s. i empathize with people that have been/felt used. im sorry. you deserve so much more.

People joking around about " my dad went to store to buy milk and hasnt came back and it has been 9 years already" in my face and knowing that my dad left me when i was 4 years old. They dont desvere my forgivness.

im tired.... emotionally, little task like an essay looks like a big@ss problem too me.. i always feel under pressure, so i just cope with music video games and daydreaming.. and it's becoming unhealthy

I really do deserve a apology my friend's always make me feel left out I have been left out every night I can't stop crying in front of my screen right now..

They used me for emotional labor. They never actually considered me their best friend. They never considered me family. Sure i'm gullible but I was not in the wrong for believing the things I was fed for two years. I feel stupid.

This really hits different if u experienced Childhood emotional neglect :')

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I love how ppl treat this comment section as a vent place. I really hope you guys are safe! Proud of you

I don't usually vent but here we go... They always ignore me Made fun of me Didn't apologise for anything They know what j gk through with my head. They know how I feel. They muted me in calls they called me stupid and other shit They yelled at me Made me seem like the bad guy I finally got away from them but...one of them wants to know how I'm feeling. How I'm doing. Not like hed care. Not at all. I want this all to go away.

Tw : SH (kinda) I remember the look in my parent's eyes when i told them i was indulging in SH it was..a painful look? but what really did suck is..they didnt really care about what i was doing and that i was indulging in these type of things..they only cared about what ppl would say to them and all they said to me about it was well, that i was stupid, and how its okay to feel "sad" sometimes basically the worst things you could ever say to someone dealing with SH. Im in therapy now but..there still telling me stuff like "hurry up and be okay" "youre wasting my time" "is this even helping you?" "see what happens when you do stupid things"....it is getting in a way better but not quite.

It's getting worse again, The feeling of no escape, The feeling of no hope, The feeling of bitterness, The feeling of someone beating u, U cant sleep, Cant eat, Only think, U feel the need to talk, But not sure to who, U want turn back time, But u cant, U want to cry, But there's no tears left, U then realize slowly, The thinking of what u want is disappearing, Trying to think but have no thoughts, Wanting to know what love is, But u know it hurts u even more, Ur slowly crumbling, U try to make everyone happy, It always fails though, Ur best friends losing their smile, You're stuck in a loop of the past, U on a last thread, Slowly losing your mind, Wanting to kill ur self, Wanting to cut ur wrists even deeper, U try not to cry in front of ur friends, Ur just therapist friend any ways u cant, Ur not aloud to, U have to smile for ur friends, U have seem skinny for ur friends, U need to be perfect! The sharp pain in ur chest, Ur memories following u like a dark cloud, Feeling like everything is going smaller, U cant breathe, U cant speak, It's getting dark now, Too tired to smile, Too tired to laugh, Too tired to talk, Too tired to cry, Too tired to move, Just stuck in ur own box, Ur own world. i- umm thanks for reading it... im still writing about it but i wanted to share what u guys think of it. it about me how im expierencing things but i know others could be feelings this the same i guess so i just want to say i am so proud of you. You are so strong im so proud for you staying this long here.

Stepdad quotes: "Stop crying. You're making me feel like I'm the bad guy" "You're hurting your mother's feelings, stop it." "You're like a 200 lb man in a 12-" (now 13 but yknow) "-year old body" "Hey, I know I was supposed to take you to theatre today, but a car show just came up, so you'll need to ask pop if he can take you" "If you don't say 'I love you' to me for a day, I bet you'll implode" "What blows my mind is that you're so smart, but you can't comprehend *insert random thing*" Mother quotes: "Your smile is so unnatural-" "Your eyes are so dark" "Maybe if you do this, you'll get slimmer!" "At some point we need to start excising more!" *gestures to my stomach* "Do you actually love me? It doesn't feel like it." "I'm disappointed that you didn't make high honor roll" *after I crumple it up cause she isn't proud of me* "Why'd you do that? I was gonna get a picture of you and your sister holding your honor roll papers!"

I hope everyone who sees this is safe and healthy. be sure take care of yourself and ignore what others say about you, you should never forget your self-worth. no matter what you think someone will be there for you and cares for you for who you are don't change yourself to "fit in" it's just a matter of finding those people.

I did everything in my power to make sure everyone was happy. No matter what torture I put myself through. I always just made sure that they were all happy. They never noticed. They never noticed how much I did for them. It might be selfish but I think after a decade of doing this (older than 10, just the amount of time I’ve done this for) and putting myself in the way of everything bad to happen to everyone I deserve one apology. Just something signifying that they see what I I go through for them. That they see I’m struggling. That they freaking see me.

My parents are the main cause of my trauma

A motivational speech. You can’t connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backward. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something; your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even if it leads you off the well-worn path and that will make all the difference. Your time is limited so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. You’ve got to find what you love, and that is as true for work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work, and the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep going and don’t settle. Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly want to become. But you’re gonna have some ups and you’re gonna have some downs. Most people give up on themselves easily. You know the human spirit is powerful, this nothing is powerful. It’s hard to kill the human spirit. Anybody can feel good. Their health bills are paid, they have happy relationships, anybody can have a larger vision then. Anybody can have faith under those kinds of circumstances. The real challenge of growth mentally, emotionally, and spiritually comes when you get knocked down. It takes courage and time. Part of being hungry when you’ve been defeated. That takes courage to start over again. Fear kills dreams. Fear kills hope. Fear put people in the hospital. Fear can age you, can hold you back from doing something that you know within yourself that you’re capable of doing but it will paralyze you. At the end of your fillings is nothing. But at the end of every principle is a promise. Behind your little feelings, it might not be absolutely anything at the end of your little feelings, but behind every principle is a promise. And some of you in your life, the reason is why you aren’t at your goal right now because you’re all about your feelings. You don’t feel like waking up so who does? Every time you say no to your dreams you might be pushing your dreams back a whole six months, a whole year. That one single day that you didn’t get up could have pushed your stuff back I don’t know how long. Don’t allow your emotions to control you. We are emotional, but do you want to begin to discipline your emotion? If you don’t discipline and contain your emotions they will use you. You want it, and you’re going to go all it to have it. It’s not going to be easy, when you want to change it’s not easy. If it were in fact easy, everybody would do it. But if you’re serious you’ll go all out. “I’m in control here. I’m not gonna let this get me down, I’m not gonna let this destroy me. I’m coming back. And I’ll be stronger and better because of it.” You have got to make a declaration that is what you stand for. You’re standing up for your dreams. You’re standing up for peace of mind. You’re standing up for help. Take full responsibility for your life. Accept where you are and the responsibility that you’re going to take yourself where you want to go. You can decide that you’re going to love each day as if it were your last. Live your life with passion, with some drive. Decide that you’re going to push yourself. The last chapter of your life has not been written yet. It doesn’t matter about what happened yesterday. It doesn’t matter what happens to you. What matters is what are you gonna do about it? “This year I will make this goal become a reality. I won’t talk about it anymore. I can. I can. I can.” They persevere, I think it’s important for everybody. Don’t give up, don’t give in. There’s always an answer for everything.

i'm not sure if i'm really the one who deserves an apology,, both of us fucked up, both of us shoudl apologize. but all this happened b'cuz of me, it's all my fault

"This place we call earth." Oh no it's great- When I'm not in it. "They love you when your gone?" "It's your birthday why arnt you smiling?? Some people dont evan have Birthdays." "I never ask for anything. Just give everything to that person.. "When your just 5 and you already know and see the dust people like {me} try to sweep under neath a rusty carpet and pretend it's not their then more dust piles up out of nowhere. As you continue to hide the dust you relies that theirs no more room and take the easy way out because it was too late, you reached for a hand that was covered with a pile of dust you tried to hide.." 《< ßãņğ >》 No more dust...

shouldnt be listening to this knowing my life is going exactly how ive manifested but this music is bomb af so im still listening

Once in the class groupchat we were talking about depression, and I talked about mine a little and I said "yeah I had depression for more than 6 years" and they legit said "do you even know what's depression?" "Are you sure it was depression?" ..........

'Don't be dramatic, we haven't even started darling'That's when I realized that my parents didn't care about my mental health, they were the first to leave me traumas and destroyed what little mental health I had.

My head hurts and I can’t cry as much anymore I’m hella tired but can’t sleep I have an essay and I can’t-

this is one of the most underrated channels I've ever meant

I don’t think I could ever forgive him. He knew I was part of the lgbtqia+ community, yet he hung out w/ all these people he knew were homophobic, transphobic, racist, and said slurs knowing what they were doing was wrong. When I tried to run away from them I was called a “traitor”, they made me extremely uncomfortable. Every time I tried to run away they’d all be there. I didn’t plan to make any friends that year, but they talked to me first and I thought it would be rude, I wanted to start over, I thought it’d be a good start. All these people who made me extremely uncomfortable were all around me thinking I was their friend, I couldn’t run, I gave up, those five months felt like years. I didn’t want to be known as a bad person, so I refrained from yelling, I stayed silent. I didn’t have a safe spot anymore,I hated school,but home was just 10× worse. The only thing that kept me going was the thought of running away to somewhere where I’d be happy and my online friend,Erika. Everyday I’d have thoughts of offing myself and running away,but I quickly shook them off because I thought of Erika. One day it had gotten so bad I cried in front of my favorite teacher. Now it’s the present. I can’t help but feel as if something is going to go completely wrong, just like last semester. I recently opened up to a friend about this and how I was suicidal she them proceeded to respond with “I know people who had it worse than you”. I don’t know why I stick with my current friend group,maybe it’s because I don’t want to be alone? Or is it because I don’t want it to end up like last time?? I don’t try to think about it, instead I give myself piles of work such as watching streams,anime,or playing Minecraft. I know if I don’t give myself work like this, I’ll just begin to realize my feelings and have a mental breakdown on the spot. -A delusional romantic

If I hadn't gotten feelings we would have still been friends, but I don't think it was all my fault anymore. If I were a close friend as they had told me then this wouldn't have changed anything between us. At least I think so...maybe I am at fault but it still hurts losing them like this. I'm sorry my friend I hope to meet you in another life.. Edit: To anyone reading this I wanted to let you know. You do have worth. It does eventually get manageable and just because situations like this happen there is no need to change yourself. I can't promise everything will get better in a few weeks or months but just know you are loved. If you don't believe so, then I will be the first to say I love you. From one stranger to another.

No matter how much I apologize no matter how much I do to try and smooth everything over it’s never enough and I’m still reminded of my mistakes and end up feeling like a disappointment

I love this playlist! Your definitely underrated.

Wish every one who treats me horrible every year or day and never is on my side and makes me feel horrible, apolgized for once . I'm like a kid but having so much problems at once in just some years wish I could trade lives some times .

Whoever is seeing this your doing great its not your fault you are amazing keep up the great work

When music/vent playlists make you more comfortable than actual people around you, you know there is a problem :")

I don't deserve an apology. I don't deserve love. I don't deserve family. I don't deserve to be happy. The only thing I deserve is pain.

POV: you know all the songs and you love them all

I just don't know anymore. I have no reason to be alive anymore. After years and years of severe verbal and mental abuse from my parents, I r reached a very low point. I'm constantly reminded I'm behind everyone else- I'm failing my classes because of how depressed i am. Genshin was my sole escape. But my parents also had to take that away so I can barely play. I've been self harming by scratching myself until I bleed, and the only thing on my mind now is killing myself 24/7. I'm also starting new clubs and activities, and the pressure is too much. I just dont have a reason to keep working, to try harder, to exist in this shitty, hell like world. My parents constantly force their religion on me, and I just cant take this anymore. No one understands just how tired and suicidal I am right now- everything I know right now in my head is correlated to death. I'm in so much pain-my parents saying that you have to be ahead of everyone and my friends will leave me for success doesnt help eother. Please..... i just need someone in this world to tell me that they care.... just have them hug me out of sinceriety....... some love left. Someone to tell me to not commit suicide, someone to just help me like i'm helping everyone around me. im sorry if i'm being a bother.

I was being touched in inappropriate places(unwillingly) by a classmate. Do you think it still counts given the fact that we were only 6 at the time?

HE LOVES YOU HE DOESN'T CRY DON'T CRY SCREAM DON'T SCREAM SCREAMMMMMMMMMM NO YOUR TRAPPED IN THE LOOP OF PAIN YOU CAN'T LEAVE SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

i think this is a place where you can finally release what you feel...

pov: you joined a new school last year and this year the jokes and comments got worse and now your starting to distance yourself from everybody to make yourself feel better.

he said it would be a fun game lasted for a while he said it would be fun it wasnt fun i was only 6 at the time and it lasted till i was 10 he finally left tho thank god.

Bro thanks for this ive been looking for a playlist that was perfect and I think I found it

someone in my classroom got really up close to my face today and I nearly started crying, I hope my teachers pillow is cold tonight literally saved me from possible harassment. The kid who was up in my face was known for smacking girls @$$'s and nobody is comfortable around him.

i dont understand people anymore they hurt me always i cant seem to find myself anymore im falling apart..

hey kids, the world is a dark place, find your light and never ever let it go.

akutagawa is literally my fav villain.

we stopped being friends and now shes telling everyone im spreading rumors on her but im not so idk what to do cause ive tried telling her and she just ignored that

i never wanted an apology cause i know you have things that you have gone through. i never wanted anything more and i never asked for anything cause you have others to give more and i understand that. i just wanted some care, just a bit. for you to ask me if im okay, if im eating, if im well. i dont even asked to be loved. mom, where did i go wrong that makes you to despise me?

For some reason idk but seeing akutagawa really gives me some kind of comfort, I really really want to hug him so bad. Oh I wish I could:(

that boy that harassed me on the bus still owes me one. he's still trying to play the victim. he told all his friends, now they hate me too.

i was crying so much i felt my heart beat match the beats at the beginning of the playlist lol

This blade I hold Broke me And it will till the day I decide I'm stronger Stronger than the thoughts. Stronger than the pain. Stronger than the voices. Stronger than myself. No matter how hard I try This blade I hold Makes me leave the numbness behind So I can breathe again So I can cry again So I can feel again So I can remember myself. This blade is similar to I We both want the pain to go By increasing it To the point of death Idk what that was but I'm sad :)

Now THIS is a playlist I can get behind :]

ive really been struggling with my mental health and stuff (not going into it unless someone wants me to cuz its a lot for me) and your playlists have really helped me sleep at night. Thank you and I love you -vex (my name says my deadname because this is the account with no ads from my dad :/)

I knew this whould be good but...not this good and emotional and it’s just perfect for my last days...I’m to tired for it all so thank u for this playlist..it will be the last I listen too if it don’t get better soon and I don’t think it will so I just wanna say thank you...

Blasting this shit on Christmas hits hard ://

You definitely got yourself a new sub dude!

... I don't have real real friends. And I tried to save my friendship with so many ppl but nobody thought of me as their best friend, and I'm so tired I just want a real good friendship. All my good friends are online friends. I'm so sick I do anything for them and they don't even take me seriously. I once slept on a bench for an hour in freezing winter for my friend cuz I was waiting for her, and she just went home by her mother without even telling me....

I have stopped talking to my friends often and now we barely talk outside of school. We barely make plans to meet up and I get over talked at school by my other friends I don’t talk to much anywhere. It’s just feeling like “hey! What about me I’m right here!” And sometimes it just feels like “okay. So what if you’re here I’m talking to so and so can you not?” And I’m just tired but I can’t leave them yet but this is my last year here anyways I’m in 8th grade and moving after the school year ends. I just wanna create memories with them but it seems like they don’t really care about me anymore. I have been friends with them for like 3-5 years so leaving to start again is something I don’t wanna do cause they make me feel like I’m annoying them and I need to leave them alone same with my friend for more than 9 years I wanna end it with them but the time will come soon enough anyways. They won’t even miss me because they’ll make other friends and I won’t even be a step stone I’ll just be a person that was there for some years left and that’s all there gonna remember.

I don't sleep at 1 year ago cuz my life is broken🌚✌🏻

I wanna talk I wanna speak without stuttering I wanna tell a story without getting interrupted PLEASE LET ME SPEAK, I WANNA KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED I WANNA FEEL VALIDATION FROM MY FRIENDS, I MAY NOT BE THE FUNNIEST PERSON OR THE INTERESTING PERSON EVER BUT.. Please ..I wanna speak , speak so much my throat is getting dry. I wanna talk , talk without getting mocked , talk without getting talked over. I hate being a listener, but I can’t speak right so I’m stuck in that category

Adding Akutagawa in that is literally a power move.

I dont want to do this anymore..I should be happy, I got a friend back, but it's so tiring to keep smiling when I can't even get the motivation to get out of bed. I'm so close to ending it all at this point. It doesn't matter anymore does it.

You shiver I CANT DO THIS YOU CRY YOU SCREAM URE NEVER FREE

I wish I could escape reality Everything would be so much better I wish it was silent for hours, but the silence is so loud. I want to be free, I wanna hang out with friends I wanna explore, but my parents wont let me. I understand, I'm only 11. Maybe when I'm older, maybe.. If I still have friends. I want to escape from this room, its so boring.

i wish i could say with certainty how long it went on and when but it fucked me up so much that i cant remember things right anymore

She created an idea of me, made me develop feelings for her, wanted my love and affection, but never offered anything back. She wanted all the receiving but none of the giving.

sometimes i get tired of what? everything.

now im gonna make something to do how this playlist makes me feel oh no Of course, again im stuck. I listen to the same songs everyday only realising that it increases, is it getting slower or am i slowly dying? I can't control myself, my urges have pushed me down an endless loop that i cant get out of. i just want to be happy again. i just want to go back. i dont care if people learn from their mistakes. i am different, i am myself, i am lonely. its an eternal abyss of pain that showers me as i look around to try help myself. i cant do anything, im stuck. im stuck on the one question that i dont even know what it is, i never payed attention , i never looked , glanced , or gazed at it. im worrying what my mental health is doing right now, is it begging for help? but i dont want to talk to them. i dont.

People who red You dont deserve a apology..

it hurts so much .

my mom deserve to give me an apology

Life isn't the same..

The only person I felt safe around left and now I have no one again. It’s not really their fault but it still hurts

What an true subject

Is that Akutagawa in the picture? If it is, that just makes the playlist even better. Totally fits his character and his relationship with Dazai

The worst part is I know I should get an apology, I should want one. I don't feel like I deserve one. Not anymore.

I am at my low-point rn and I can't do this anymore. I told my friends that I needed a break and they kept pestering me with "whats wrong? You don't wanna tell?" I clearly wasn't ready to talk abt my feelings because I didn't understand them either. Now I told them that we could talk and they ignored me??? I hate this sm. Everytime I need someone I have no one. I am not depressed or sumn, and I am thankful for that. But I have so many low-points in my life rn. I just need a break. But I can't get one. Because if I need one, no one lets me have one, but if I don't need one, no ones there for me. My best friend is the only person who genuinely listens and understands me. My other friends just don't. Plus I have social anxiety and I feel like distancing myself from everyone. my social battery is so low rn. I want to forget everyone and restart life, without all of these problems. Without overthinking. Without questioning my worth everytime someone is mean to me. I know that I am worth sm more, but I can't get it into my head. It's so hard.

Thsnk u for making this

I was so frustrated and angry by u leaving me constantly. Until I found out why. The reason why u left this time broke me. I felt horrible. The other times u left were for other reasons but I didn’t care back then. As long as u and I were together I couldn’t be happier. Until that day. U said those words to me. I was so confused on how to feel. “Im gay..” Oh. Im happy for u! U found urself!! Im so… I’m so glad u found out..! “Ur not mad are u-“ I have no right to be upset. So no. No sweetie I’m not mad..! It happens..! Haha.. “I still wanna be ur friend I actually love talking to u lmao” yeah.. let’s. Let’s be friends! I’ll always support u..! Im happy for u!!! But why. Why can’t I forget the feeling of u leaving me for months when I look at new people I have interest in? Yes u abandoned me. But it wasn’t ur fault! Then why am I so angry.. so angry that I cant fall in love. I’m so worried that they will leave me with no one to go for that kind of love. Just like u did. What have u done..? No no I can’t be mad. I have no right. It wasn’t ur fault. It couldn’t be helped. But it still hurts. To this day when I think about that night. My heart physically hurts and my eyes fill with tears. Someone please tell me how to feel. I’m so confused.. and there is not a single person irl that I can tell.

i don’t need an apology for it all but if i ever see any of them again then it’d be nice if it was for that. i was small and shouldn’t have been told to be an adult before high school. y know?

not akutagawa..that hit hard fr

if this is a playlist where the pov is that you deserve an apology, is there a playlist where the pov is that you don't deserve an apology or that you think that the other person doesn't deserve an apology? just late night thoughts talking.

I really like traumacore and dreamcore music

my mom died when I was little and then my step mother was abusing me for like 10years. I tried to commit suicide and now I'm living with mental illness.... And I was always told that all of this is my fault

Wonderful music!

They left me..They leave me out. I feel..hurt? I feel tired because they throw their stuff at me to hold..they yell even when they know I hate when someone yells..They. Don’t. Care.. they hurt me.. they laugh at my trauma.. I don’t want to be alive.. I’m trying to feel alive.. they touch me in places I don’t want to be touched..they joke about me being touched sexually..they talk about how they would love to see me sexualized..it hurts me.. I loved them all.. but they don’t love me.. I want to forgive them..but they don’t want to apologize…I want them to love me..they don’t love me.. they never will..I’m a freak.. I’m thin air to them..please..help..please. I beg of you..

Hi I love this play list🙂

help. i can't do it anymore it's getting worse again.

i never said no but i never said yes. i said i dont know. that wasnt a yes. yet he still did it to me. i feel disgusting to even move or sit down. i feel disgusting. i can’t believe i just sat there and let it happen to me.

I need an apology from my absent father An apology from my addicted and narcissistic mother who doesn't love me An apology from my grandfather who honest to god tries his best to raise me, but still makes me feel like I'm not shit

No matter how much I keep my friends happy and be as nice to them as possible they come back with the harshest comment ever “ your life has socially distanced from everyone here” my other friend did nothing but talk to the other A lol I want is an I’m sorry for calling me an “it” and not a “they ” Just one.

I was hoping I wouldn't grow up to be like my dad but my mother thinks I am

just tired.