I remember being sat on the floor of my bathroom, it was 4am and everyone was asleep except for my best friend who lives 2 hours from me, he video called me for 40 minutes about his Minecraft world, he had no clue what I was planning on doing…he didn’t know he saved me until I told him about it just last week. I would have been gone in 2020 if it wasn’t for him. Thank you Jayden, I love you ❤

i am crying rn bc i read the title and it reminds me of how hard i tried to save my best friend jay... he killed himself tho... miss that man... hope he rest in peace... never forgot you man it's been 5 years already...

my bestfriend wanted to die so bad. I called her when I heard she had taken an overdose and we talked for an hour. I remember that she said she had already written the letters, but I told her that she doesnt need to give them. I told her that she can go to her favourite school and that we need to paint again. She told me not to call help, because she had trauma from the hospital. I was so worried, but thankfully my other friend called help for her. when help was on the way, I talked with her for a long time and I calmed her down, I gave her hope in that moment. me and my other friend went into the hospital for 4 hours, we never got to see her but we felt her presence. she survived, but after that she tried many times again but always survived. me and the other classmates made her a get well soon-card and when I finally got to hug her, she just cried and thanked me she told me if it wasn't for the hope I gave her, she wouldn't be here anymore i'm so grateful that she's getting help now, she means the world to me

A few months ago my friend attempted. It failed and he ended up in a mental hospital. I haven't seen him since. But this playlist reminds me of him. Stay safe everyone :)

my bestfriend was getting bullied online. she would call me everynight about it. and post suicide notes on her story but never do it. and one night I never picked up any of her calls since I was busy. the next morning her brother texted me that shes gone. she was my only true friend I really love her.

I have depression and social anxiety, sometimes bad thoughts. My family don't know anything about it. I wish they would forget about me so I can go away... alone.

I decided to stay, just for my friend and my kitten. Thank you Gabriel for never giving up on me, I will never be able to express such gratitude (he's still alive, and so am I, thanks to him)

It’s been 6, nearly 7 years since they took their life. I tried, I tried to stop them, I wanted to scream, but I was afraid of waking my parents, I cried, I begged. I couldn’t keep them alive. Our call, the last thing they ever did, I was so young, they were so young, they shouldn’t deserve this fate. I still remember their face, their arms, the rope and the way they gasped out. The tears and the blood. the way they slowly swung from the ceiling. I should’ve called the police, but I wanted to help, it’s my fault. Their family, they came in, and saw their child. I still remember the way they cried. I never went to the funeral because their parents didn’t even know me. I miss them, I love them. I wish I could have saved them and done more. It was my fault and I hope they can forgive me. I love you, I will never forget you.

i miss my sister... fly high my sweet

I just want to vent...One night I had everything ready, my arms were already stained but I got a message from my sister who was not feeling very well... I took a big sigh and started to comfort her until she fell asleep, that night I promised not to do it because She continued to need me, some time later she got healthy, she started eating (she had anorexia) she stopped hurting herself and thinking about suicide, I decided it was time to do it, I planned it for a few months since my father had gotten sick, some time later I got a message from my sister's friends saying that she was in the hospital for a suicide attempt (my sister and I don't share blood she is from another continent) I felt so guilty, I didn't sleep for almost 2 weeks fearing the worst... Today she is healthy and I am suffering from depression but I am so afraid that she will suffer again... I am terrified that she cried on the phone like I did it when I found out that she almost died but she no longer needs me anymore, she is no longer my little girl, she is now a teenager

This playlist is now my comfort zone

i think i found the hidden message! its the first letter of the first ten songs :)

this playlist is slowly healing my soul

My best friend used to cut herself and I was the reason she stop which make me want to cry because she was doing it for about 3 months and when she was thinking about stopping she told me and I gave her a very long pep talk and then she stopped❤❤

I remeber how I was walking around in my room, thinking if I should do it or not th night before I already wanted to it I self harmed myself in the bathtub in this night, and when I was in my room I hesitated a part of me wanted to live the other not I just knew after I took the overdose my inner voice talked to me concicing me to call my mother and telling her it whar i've done I called my mother and she immeditaly called an ambulance when she was here I was almost fallen asleep and she tried to keep me awake the ambulance was there fast enough and took me to the hositpal my heart was weak I had be checked every hour and was under control for 24 hours, it was my worse thing ever I remeber how a nurse said to me this wasn't enough pills to kill me I just cried the whole night, How can someone say that to someone who tried to take their life right after that, once I was dismissed I was relieved and I realized I wanted to live (this was a few weeks ago, sorry for my english is pretty bad)

me and my girlfriend are both people with really hard stories. My family is abosulte shit and extremely toxic. Both of our lives have been filled with confusion and pain. We find safety with eachother. Shes the only person thats ever loved me. Shes attemped many times. So i have ig but anyway. She was drinking way to much tonight and was texting me about it. I watched as she nearly slipped away and there was nothing i could do about it. nothing i said would get through. Shes still my favourite person. ill love her forever. I think we will both be okay. (shes alright now, shes going to be okay.) oh and we are 14....

You ever play with your online buddy and the last words was, it’s getting late I’ll see you tomorrow,ok bye, you get back on but it’s not your friend it’s your friends dad 😢❤

0:00 - 1:40 Wake up to reality. Nothing ever goes as planned in this accursed world. The longer you live, the more you realize that the only things that truly exist in this reality are merely pain, suffering and futility. Listen, everywhere you look in this world, wherever there is light, there will always be shadows to be found as well. As long as there is a concept of victors, the vanquished will also exist. The selfish intent of wanting to preserve peace, initiates war and hatred is born in order to protect love. There are nexuses causal relationships that cannot be separated. I want to sever the fate of the world. A world of only victors. A world of only peace. A world of only love. I will create such a world. I am the ghost of the uchiha.

the songs in this playlist are so gut-wrenching and so perfect.

My best friend killed herself Halloween of 2021. I could’ve save her.

Im not complaining but just want to type my thoughts out. My friend was a really cool guy that actually cares about other people and becoming better. Then he went through some stuff and everything changed. He stopped caring. I miss the old him. My brother. Just wanted to vent that out into words. Remember appreciate everything you have and always be grateful, I'm grateful that our friendship even happened. Life is great, much love to all!

'I WANT TO DIE' the first letter of each song. You alright bud?..

Am sobbing I lost my friend rip my love…

just dwelling on that sad train lets gaurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

fire playlist 🔥🔥🔥🔥🙏🙏🙏🙏

I would rather have the world hate me and i love myself than have the world love me and i hate myself - Suicidal person But what can i do now, it really doesnt matter if my parents love me, if my sister loves me, if my friends love me, if my classmates love me, if my church friends love me or even if God loves me.... Because i really hate myself and wish that i could find a reason to die and not have everyone feel bad and sad. Back then i told her i didnt care and i never liked her. Its true because deep down, i loved her sooo much more than anything. And i still do. The other person inside me is winning. He's like the tyler durden i never had but needed only for awhile. But now he's destroying me. Now i just want a reason to die. He's always asking me whether me not existing is better whenever i make a mistake or just mess up badly. He never ever comforts me or sweet talk. Instead he curses me, put in bad thoughts in my head, manipulate me. Its like having bipolar disorder and split personality disorder at the same time. But now that i think about it.... Is it really this "Tyler Durden" that's hurting me... Or am i just hurting myself... Now i even turned away from God. I didn't care anymore whether i died or not. I just wanted everyone else to be happy.

Satoru and Suguru...🤍🖤

I want to change..I don't wanna be depress anymore...I want to turn my life around for good.

I - I don’t know anymore… what to do, and if I did how I would do it. Guys I’ve done it. I’m finally numb so I cant feel sad, but also can’t feel happy.

Mm...my best friend is su!c!dal...they have a crush on me, and I do too...idk why he wants to khs...i don't want it...he's told me he's done sh and that he's fat, I try to help but i can't, he pushed me away... I would try to help more be really he doesn't want help...me and him are still kids and school is over so we can't tell adults...Alex please don't kys

Mi mejor amiga intento hacerlo una vez,termino en el hospita por sobredosis de pastillas y despues en un psiquiatrico. Hable con ella una vez despies de su rehabilitación y no era la misma,ya no sonreia igual y su mirada se notaba apaga,me siento culpable de no haber estado con ella...

I fear I will become that friend.

thinking of committing, she stopped me and told me i have things to live for. thanks allira, i love you more than myself

4:13 Anyone know where i can find this song? I searched for a WHILE and couldn't...

선생님 그만 유명해지세요 저만 듣고싶어요

my friend told me he was contemplating doing that to himself and i just tried... He is still with me here but i worry if that wont be true anymore

똥 안나올때 들으니까 도움돼요

no importa cuando tarde el tiempo, ni cuanto duela la herida Espero no causar mas daño en este corto tiempo a nadie de mi familia, de mis amigos, de mis seres queridos, espero ser fuerte y seguir adelante, 2024 te dije que me sorprendieras, pero no de esta manera, me hiciste odiar junio y julio.

i miss my best friend she didn't kill her self in real life she killed her self inside me

Me and my bf are arguing so bad and I don't have any friends to talk to about it because none of them talk to me anymore they just kinda left me and I'm stuck crying in my bed with No one and I'm just kinda done at this moment I just want to cry and cry and cry.

To all the broken people. To all those who have suffered for too long. To all those who are in pain and cant handle it anymore. To all the lonely and depressed. To the empty and lost. To all those who have no hope nor purpose in life. There is something I want to share with you. I know most people dont believe in God. I know that some people believe God exists but doesn't care about us human. But no matter what you believe, i wanted to share this with you. You see, i believe in a God. But not because thats what people told me to believe, but because i went out and found out myself, what all the fuss was about. It was about Jesus. You see, He loves each and every one of you. He cares for you, even when you cant see nor feel it. He brought light hope, fulfillment, belonging, joy, and happiness to my life. I wanted to tell you this because I know its tough feeling completely and utterly alone, scared, and depressed. But Jesus healed me, He redeemed me. If you dont want to go to church, thats fine. But there are so many videos online that debate this topic; Why is Jesus so important? How Jesus saved this and that person's life from drugs and depression and suicide. Haven't you ever wondered why? Why and how such people found such hope in their lives? Go, go find out for yourself, and ask God to reveal himself and to bring hope and light into your lives. He did it for me, and He can do it for you.I mean it doesn't hurt to just get curious and ask questions. I pray you find that hope and light in your life. Remember Jesus Loves you. -love from a stranger who understands.

come back, man, I need you.

the first letters of the song names, :(

Phonk : 99999999 Pov : ????????????