That bit about hearing the birds and knowing you'd stayed up and messed up again is gut wrenching :(

Worst thing is lying in bed trying to sleep saying to yourself why why why

Sober for 35 days!!! Thanks 🙏

thank you for the video. Her words like "i didn't want to but i had to take it" illustrate how much social pressure there is under this addiction, all she wanted was to be accepted and although went through a horrible road she does realize that this way is an obstacle that ruins lives.

I’ve done it almost weekly for 3 years and I’ve lost my girlfriend and job due to the usage. I’m pretty much at an all time low watching this video @ 3:30 am truly trying to figure out what I need to do to once and for all beat this without being able to afford rehab or any type of therapy.

Wow what an amazing story. Thank you Lauren for being so strong and vulnerable in sharing your experience. You're really a testament to recovery!

I am feeling weak and this video came up. This video is perfect before I go to my meeting later on. Thank you so much for sharing.🙏🏿❤🥰

I’ve been clean for almost 4 years now. Thank God 🙏

This was really comforting, thanks for sharing!

Incredibly informative and honest, thank you.

I love hearing her story I can relate. And it mades me feel like I’m not the only one that has gone throw a similar experience, and really she give me motivation to change my ways.

Thanks for sharing listening to this In the gym over a year sober now and this was what i needed 😇 love from Finland

Thank you for saying that talking to your peer is much easier then talking to the therapist. I have just cancelled my therapy because I know right now, I need a meeting. I need to speak to those that understand what I am going through.🥰❤🙏🏿

This was really good to watch.

#1 way to stop. Avoid clubs, parties and the night life.

So so helpful , thank you x

My friend is like this now, it’s heartbreaking for everyone around, she meets up with random men of any age, lies to everyone, doesn’t get out of bed. We have tried everything but nothing gets through, we are all completely heart broken

Wow that was amazing honesty, thank you for this video it really resonated with me

I totally empathise .kudos and good on you for getting out early. Its not a moralistic failing ,the need for anxiety to go away is extremely addictive itself .for some people having anxiety is horrible .It destroys your quality of life ,then we find a substance to self medicate and its bliss at times but never worth it for a second long term . It took me years before i realised why i was self medicating with substances . .a good few years sober myself ,i have PTSD and flashbacks from my carry on and self hatred . These substances are never going away ,its up to governments to think outside the box for solutions ,,the criminal element involved makes the problem far worse. Thank god ive got the rest of my life away from the world of Alcohol and substances . Great interview . Thanks.

Good interview. Bravo!

Just made a call to a counselor for help myself. Something i wanted to do for a long time, but something made act on it after years of my addiction. It was that or completely crumble. Can relate to a many parts of your experience said here except I spent most my time doing it alone. Best advice I can give to anyone in a similar situation whether it's drugs, drink, gambling, depression or anything is to talk to someone. Anyone you can. I'm only on the start of this journey (35yo) but I've been on this path before in my mid 20s after a breakdown with a gambling addiction which is why I'm acting now before it's too late. I have suffered with trauma, but it just goes to show that this can affect anyone regardless.of trauma. Thank you for sharing this. I believe in myself and feel deeply this is the start of a new path in Ive deeply needed.

This is my new favorite channel, just when I needed mental health, i find your channel, gonna binge watch all night 🧠🤓

Omg everything you have said I certainly relate to.👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿

Thanks for sharing.

Iv just stared at na and doing my step 1 found this very useful thanks 🙏

Hi. I'm very grateful that people share their stories. I'm having problem with coke myself and I feel there's noone who is willing to hear my silent scream for help. Please help me to get out of this cycle of addiction. Just talk and understanding would help a lot. Thanks

That girl is so lovely and can explain herself so well, I understand some of my stuff through her. She has such kind and empathetic vibe, love her:)

That girl is amazing. I can relate to every thing she said .. I love how openly honest she is I'm not even that honest with myself ..she is a absolutely amazing shes the realist woman I've ever heard speak she so beautiful aswell

Thank you x

What a breath of fresh air 👍

Any number of years, is not good, but, It's amazing just 3 years. Congratulations! 😊🙏

I love being able to talk to people again. The best gift of being free

Powerful and relatable. I am trying to rid drink and coke from my life for good 🙏

I feel so hopeless right now. I know the consequences my usage has, and yet I cannot stop. I don’t know what to do anymore. My mental health has deteriorated so much and I feel I can barely keep going

Ive realized I have a problem and have opened up to a couple friends and my father about it. Every part of me hates it, I don't enjoy doing it. Even after talking to friends and family, and feeling those ways about it, I still do it. Almost feels like I'm subconsciously sabotaging myself. I have people that have said I can call them if I am ever getting the urge but I don't call. Feels like I have no control over myself which is terrifying and causing high social anxiety. Has anyone felt this way?

I can relate to this story ,, fair play to her saying off it👍👍

Subscribed thanks for Sharing, still fighting my demons, but I'm working at a beautiful future..

I remember being 21 and sober my life was so much better once i got into addiction my life was ruined wish I could go back and never made my decision of trying drugs is so not worth it don't do it it will ruin ur life

3 months pregnant and I quit as soon as I found out yet I’m struggling can’t catch a meeting so I’m here I hope this helps

This video help me so much I just relapses 30 days clean 1st timer answers all my questions

Cocaine is a nightmare drug because it's so moorish. Luckily for me it never got out of hand, but because of my moral compass I exaggerated my dilemma, which always made me keep a check on things. I had an habit and was not addicted, but there were times like, this is gonna get a grip if not careful PARANOIA springs to mind. I'm from a council estate in Manchester, 80s was our time weed, e, acid, etc but to us it was just part of life, but coke that's a creeper. Even now I avoid old haunts and people.Keep fit, eat well, read, and own what you've been through, it's a battle but we will win the war.❤️ You're very welcome. ⭐☀️😀👋🏾🙏🏾🎊👍🏾

Gracias lauren. Bendiciones.

It's a very easy slope to slip down especially if mental health disorders exist like ptsd or anxiety cocaine is a big draw but in the end there is only you and it. It'll will take everything away from you. Friends, house family, kids, jobs and eventually your life

ive been on this merry go round for 15yrs, slowley battled each addiction. drink the first was goinfg to kill me and lead me into herion, i was at age 27 i knew i was going to kill myself unlees i made changes. now im 8yrs soba from drink and hard drugs, my life has been so much better since then but im struugling with cannibis feel i just cant completley let go. thank u for your share lauren :)

This made me feel less alone

I remember I was on it and I smoked about 20 cigarettes in like 2 hours and picking little bits off the floor hoping there was some

I wish the interviewer would stop interrupting!

Attachment trauma is a real thing.

Windle: Differentiated questions lol

I just admitted to my sister that I am an addict. I hate this term as there are so many stereotypes associated with it, but I think my resistance to identifying with this label reinforced why it applies to me. At the end of the day, I was using, I was unhappy and I wanted to change but didnt know how. If that makes me an addict, then so be it. This video helped humanize this label. I need help and I am currently looking for help, but dont know how to move forward. If someone can help, that would be great.

the worst is being high-functioning addict. with unlimited money. so hard to stop

1 Throw away your phone and all dealers and coke taking friends contact details. 2 move to a hot country 3 don’t drink alcohol 4 start to get fit lots of exercise 5 6 to 12 months and you will be fine

I find this so hard to understand. Lost my husband to drugs. Before we got married (5 months) wants divorce had affairs and I’m also pregnant with our second child which is due in 9 days. Seeing him give up and become a monster breaks my heart. I wish I could understand why people would throw their life away and lose everything but I struggle to.

I wish all women thought like her. Perfect wife. 99.9999999% of girls drink and encourage drinking. After years of “peaks and valleys” the relationships end anyways. Hard finding sober women on this earth. Much respect to these two women for sharing this to help others. It’s real talk and very relatable. Thank you and hope you have a great sober life 👍

This was when Coke wasn’t Fetty. She got in under the wire, thank God! Beautiful story of Gods grace and mercy!

I feel So Lost, so done, such a POS. Its So good to hear that I'm not alone.

This is better then anything I listen to befote it's so real it's a blessing to your gonna be okay some day well hopefully rip to the fallen

I am really in need of help. I struggle with coke and alcohol addiction and I know I have a problem. I need help yes. I just don't know what to do now in order to get that help

Alcohol is the gateway to sniffing. If you’re serious about getting off the bag, stop drinking. There’s no shame in this despite what anyone says.

"If drugs weren't pleasurable no one would do them" -Naeem Tull.

6 years and 2 months!? Thats brazzyyy

God I relate to her so much.

Help

What about doing cocaine in modernization? ( once a week)

Help me please

Does cocaine addiction affect libido?

After reading all of these comments, I’ve come to the conclusion that there needs to be a recovery for cocaine ONLY

dangers of kids interreacting who one of their parents has heart disease keeps cut plants in home or does not open doors and windows to oxygenate home

I've fallen in love with her, that's all there is to it. I'm sorry I am unable to be of much more assistance here. Actually I can add that the counsellor is very elegant, but I can't help imagining her living in the Middle Ages perhaps in Hever Castle married to Henry 8th? Or rather as a muse in the ornamental gardens of the castle playing a viola for the pleasure of the king? (This might look like an insult but is in fact some kind of demented compliment). OK I am nuts. My final more relevant edit is that I also had a similar history so I am not just here to make stupid comments

I’m 19, go to a lot of raves n free parties n what not it’s become a habit, especially when I’ve had a few beers

It's hard to make a new group of friends.

I wish the psychologist had interrupted less... But this was very interesting.

WOW WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SISTER ALLAAH BLESS HER MY SISTER IS GREEDY FAT SHIT NEVER DO THAT FOR ME IM ON THE VERGE OF DEATH MY NECK IS STIFF MY EYE FEELS ITS ABOUT TO EXPLODE I GOT FLUID IN MY BRAIN IM IN SO MUCH PAIN I CANT STOP AND MY NOSE IS BURNT FROM INSIDE XHUNKS COMING OUT CANT EXPLAIN THIS PAIN JUST WISH I COULD GET OUT OF LONDON

I’m watching this while wasted on blow lol I usually do it on the weekend then I’m grossed out all week because I was only planning on doing a gram but did little 10 . What a waste of money. But it’s good at the time

I have been hooked on cocaine & alcohol for 35 yrs now. Don't know now if I'll ever be able to stop.

i’m a real cocaine addict, struggling myself, i feel like the way she described everything about it is phoney. can be true but most of it wasnt. but hey i guess everyone is different but congratulations on becoming sober, i cant wait til i can say the same!

56:11, I object this, as every person is differs from others, therefor each case with each person is different.

Cutting her off all the time like that

Alcohol is the gateway to everything. People really need to stop allowing society dictate what is their culture. Don't pass to your children, it cuts out so much nonsense

Help me

15:05

she's sweet

"a series of itches I couldnt properly scratch", I feel you

If you're addicted to cocaine stay away from Miami.

It's like a you just know who's got she's been fru wow and made it out well doing better am relating a lot it's embarrassing

I was lucky... I never got addicted to cocaine. That's the drug that really takes you to the poor house... because there's no ceiling. With heroin... eventually you nod out and fall asleep. You get your fill, so to speak. With cocaine... you're never satisfied. Then there's me... A dumb MF'er that tried and tried cocaine 100 times. Crack, too. I just never experienced this high everyone else speaks of. And I'd be there smoking crack and watching everyone around me ascend in to euphoria... but me... 'Huh, what's so pleasurable about this?' I literally never felt a high off cocaine once... and I used it so many times. I used it because I was a compulsive addict and was desperately LOOKING for something pleasurable. I was a heroin addict for 10 years. Loved that. But eventually heroin gets really boring. The 'high' isn't even an issue eventually... you just need it to stop withdrawals. It's not how fun or good heroin is.. it's how bad it is when you DON'T have it. But with cocaine, luckily there's no physical withdrawal or dependence... and luckily for me.... there wasn't even any mental dependence because I never could feel any 'high' from cocaine. And I always got great quality coke, too. My gf would love it. My friends would love it. But I never felt a 'high' from cocaine. And thank god. Because I never went broke thanks to that. I only did it here and there when others had it. I never spent a dime on it. For some reason, my brain and my body's receptors just never reacted to cocaine. It always did nothing to me. Nothing bad, nothing good. I never could feel cocaine. I wish I knew the science behind why my brain was immune to cocaine. It's interesting. And it saved my life. Everyone I used cocaine with eventually succumbed to it... and went broke for a bit... except me. Because cocaine addiction is like burning your money. It's the habit that breaks you, financially speaking. So I thank my lucky stars, that for whatever reason, I never felt a cocaine 'high'. I mean I'd feel a boost of energy. Sure. But pleasure or euphoria... I never felt even the slightest bit of that from cocaine. And I tried well over 100 times... 50 of them smoking crack.

coke ,your choice.

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22:49 just utterly gorgeous. Look, I'm not a dangerous nutter, I have simply fallen in love lol. I can't stop watching this. Lauren, if I were 15 years younger and unattached, then...probably nothing would happen whatsoever. Ah well, I can dream can't I?

I just wanna say that first rule is accepting u are addicted try to cut down no matter how . Cocaine is different kind of drug because it’s mental and brain drug with simple recording or look at stuff u do around coca makes u take it maybe straw 1 dollar bill plate card song or even place where u do it . So second rule is exclude and get new environment new apartment new stuff and everything I’m opening channel I will update when I upload hopefully I will help and getting push up u can follow me and we can beat it up . Everyone story is different never get shy we are all humans that did shit with experience

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Always blame the guy but he left.

The interviewer was really bad. Let the woman talk! We’re interested in what she has to say, not the interviewer! There were so many times where she was about to say something interesting and was cut off. Really annoying.

The interviewer was horrible. She constantly cut off Windle and tried to make silly interjections.

Currently laid in bed at 6pm curled up trying to avoid a relapse. First thing I thought when I pressed play was 'man iv love a gram and a couple sex toys with her' shit isn't easy