I was stuck....I was lost....I lost all hope.... I thought alcohol was going to kill me. I thought I was going to wake up one day and feel like suicide was the only option.
Albert Einstein said, " Going insane is doing the same thing everyday expecting different results."
I lived this.......
All of the sudden I realized I was going to die and ruined my life.
Everyday I would drink....and I was looking to black out....I drank on pills and never ate anything. I didn't care. My behavior was suicidal and destructive.....I didn't care about anything.....I was basically OK with the path I was n and waiting to die. I was waiting to just not wake up one day so my terrible life and sad pathetic existence of being a failure and drug addict would one day be over.
The medication PSILOCYBIN , aka Magic Mushrooms, saved my life........it helped me see the beauty within this life....I had become so numb and destructive and didn't care about life anymore.....after trying many different pills and doctors and methods to shake the depression and stop my alcohol addiction ...I stopped everything.....for 30 days I microdosed just under a gram , twice a day-------- and it showed me so much......I surrendered to my mind and my own thoughts.......I let the powerful natural substance take me for a ride through my past,present and future.
It showed me that if I continued on the path of bitterness and being resentful and destructive, I was going to die.
I was able to turn my phone off for 3 days.....and go inide my mind....I was able to pinpoint events and occurrences in my life where I started unhealthy patterns of behavior. It showed me everything I was doing wrong, and it showed me I didn't have to continue living this way. I fell in love with life again.
3 days of just under a gram-- mostly cap--2-3 times a day---morning-afternoon.
I turned off my phone and made sure I was in a healthy setting and spent most of my time outside. I fell in love with nature and everything living on this planet with me. It showed me I could stop living in chaos.........I could stop and change. I could get myself on a better path of GOOD rather than EVIL.