We also made a video about the signs you're depressed, not lazy: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/p554haqausu-p5c.html Disclaimer: We want to remind you that this is for educational purposes only, and not meant to diagnose or to invalidate an individual experience not included on the list. If you do believe that you are suffering from severe depression or any mental illness, we encourage you to seek the help of a mental health professional.

“You are not alone.” The severely depressed person’s internal response: “Oh, yes, I am.”

One of the worst problems with having depression is that you generally aren't capable of earning the money required to get the help needed.

I suffer from Bipolar disorder and I'm currently going through a severe depressive episode. It sucks, but I'm hanging in there. To everyone suffering, I'm thinking of you. Let's get through this shit, alright?

Severe depression is the most painful thing I've ever gone through. It feels like drowning in darkness and anxiety. Every minute is just about surviving.

Legends says that if you beat life on severe depression difficulty you will unlock even a harder mode.

I could remember several years ago, I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Was actually diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be use globally to help people with related health challenges.

"Help is always available"- for those like me, who are too young to take themselves to the doctors and have parents that don't allow it, these videos and quizzes are the best we can get.

at some point, i don't even want to get better, i just want to finish everything and that's it

The cost of getting help is depressing enough. Most people can’t afford it.

I've been depressed for so long that I've just accepted it at this point, and to other people it looks like I've gotten better

This video described every aspect of my life for the past 10-15years. You tell people your depressed & because nothing traumatic enough has happened to you, people have a way of dismissing how you feel. They’ll say “everyone has a bad day. Everyone’s depressed once in a while” “Get over it” I wake up everyday with a pit in my stomach, I can cry for no reason, I’m unmotivated & I struggle most days to even get out of bed & to do the simplest things ( chores, keep up with hygiene, make a meal, etc. ) When I do something simple, I almost feel fulfilled in a weird way. It sucks, because I know I’m capable of so much more, but I’ve convinced myself I’ll feel like this for the rest of my life. I’ve been talking to someone weekly, it’s been helping & I just hope to get over this. It feels hopeful to know I’m not alone.

I don’t even know what not being depressed is…

For whoever is sad here have a cat hope it makes you feel better :)

Severe depression is more like “every day I go through the motions and even when I laughed and smiled, I felt joyless. All the things that used to excite me now leave me feeling empty and disconnected. What is the point of continuing to exist?”

I live with majour depressive disorder and on top of exercise, I've found that having pets around can really help, especially if you live alone. Just having another body around that cares about you unconditionally can really help and having another being to take care of is a good way to get yourself up

I have all of these. I’m tired… all I want to do is watch KZfaq. I don’t feel like pursuing anything because I feel that nothing is valuable or worth it. Even things I used to dream of… my anxiety is much better but without anxiety life feels unexciting and dull often. The only things I even consider doing are rather dangerous or extreme in order to get some feeling from them. Idk I wouldn’t say I’m sad but rather ‘dissatisfied with my contentment or lack of desire’ if that makes sense

i just feel like if i start crying i’m gonna go on for hours nonstop

"Does your friend told you you don't seem yourself lately" You guys have friends ?

What about crazy sad nightmares? Waking up crying and tired? I related to all.

I get told I'm too sensitive, lazy, that I could've done more, or planned in case I wasn't feeling well. My first year of university went by, and I barely remember any of it, so many days were the same and blurred together. I've had depression for a few years, but it never got that bad. I heard of people who couldn't shower or brush their teeth, and thought it would never happen to me. Now it takes so much of my energy away. It's all the same. Repetitive. Tiring. I get no sleep. It makes me exhausted, so I don't do well in everyday life, and yet still I can't sleep. The cycle repeats over and over. I don't want to keep on living like this

“Help is available” not to those who can’t afford it. Not everyone can afford top notch mental health care

My apathy has grown so great that I just want to curl up and sleep, a deep sleep where everything doesn't matter anymore and nothing will bother me anymore.

I was socially isolated as a child and the effects of it have haunted me all of my life. Could never bond, connect, or form healthy relationships even with my kids (who no longer speak to me). At 50, I'm just living until I die.

As someone who was just diagnosed with major depressive disorder knowing other people feel similarly it's both comforting and rly upsetting

Depression is having to say that you´re fine when you´re not really fine but you just can´t get into it because they would never understand

Why do I feel personally targeted

Thank you for taking this depression quiz! What was your score? Mine was 5/6!

A good day is one in which nothing happens.

Oh hey thanks for checking in I’m still a piece of garbage

I know they say don't self-diagnose but its hard when you relate to everything :/

I've hit a point where I have to keep myself in check so often from not doing myself harm, it's just exhausting. I've started sleeping more and more at random times because my brain is so tired from battling with myself. I know I need to talk to a therapist soon, but then I always feel guilty and tell myself I can do this on my own. I feel for everyone going through the same things. Big hugs to anyone out there that needs help.

Severe depression was a hard battle when I was at my worst. I'm doing much better by taking my strong medicine every day and pushing myself to use my skills I learned in therapy. It took years. Several years and I used to feel that it would never end. It doesn't end, but it does get better. You just need time and help. Give yourself the patience and take care of yourself. It's so hard to feel compassion for yourself at all with severe depression, but it is possible. Please make sure you take care of yourself today, and reach out to people who love you. Though they may not understand, they will most likely do anything they can to help you. Stay around those people. Stay here in this beautiful planet. We need your light.

"It's okay you're not alone" this phrase saddened me more because it made me think that there are a lot of people suffers in silence. Edit: i hope everyone is doing well, labyu guys.

Ive been depressed for almost 10 years and never really realized it until the last few years when i really spiraled out of control. Ive felt phenomenally better recently after taking very extreme measures to escape my depression. While studying philosophy i read that "comfort does not lead to a happy life, fulfillment does"... so i replaced all of my typical coping mechanisms with new activities that are either fulfilling or exciting. I unplugged my video game console and spent all of that time in the gym, dieting, reading, hiking, meditating. I cut out almost all of my friends because i felt that they were negative influences (they really were). My new lifestyle and hobbies allowed me to find new friends and they are supportive, helpful, positive, and a lot more similar to me than my old friends were. I stopped tobacco, i stopped alcohol, i stopped caffeine. ive been happier, ive been more fulfilled, ive been more focused on the present moment, ive even been making more money. I did this one step at a time over a period of more than a year and there were several lows and several highs as an outcome, but now im finally starting to discover my path to fulfillment.

5/6. No hallucinations. Aside from that, been reaching out for ages. The wheels of the system move so slowly, let's not pretend there's any kind of real help at your fingertips, just got to keep fighting for it... I send love to all those out there suffering. I think it's fair to say, we are many.

I wouldn't BE so depressed if I was still young, and by young I mean kid. I HATE being an adult, I would give just about ANYTHING to be a kid again, that alone would make me feel a LOT happier. If I was a kid again and never age, if I had kid friends who also never age, if music TV and films were like they used to be, if all my neighbors were quiet as church mice, if there were no smartphones, and if the weather outside was allways at a comfortable temperature, THEN I would be the happiest soul who ever lived.

That annoying feeling when I wake up in the morning instead of dying in my sleep

" Your life feels like it's on pause" Me: Covid problems

I have all of these problems at one point or another. There I also have other problems too that can cause some of these issues. But I really needed a reminder that I’m not lazy, I’m depressed & recovering from an STPD episode. I really needed this. Thank you Psych2go💕

For me, severe depression manifests as rage at absolutely nothing, waking up every morning and seeing that I am not dead. It's a never-ending cycle. Wake up, see that I am not dead, and get angry. No laughing at all, yet I love to laugh or at least I think I did. making poor decisions and then not caring about consequences. I am 'medicated' and I find no change in things at all. Thank you for 'listening'.

Went to my doctor on my lowest to get help and he told me I wasn't depressed because I smiled at him when I walked into the room. It still haunts me to this day. The way the entirely turned me down in seconds when in fact I was used to cover my sufferings up for years by pretending like I was okay. It did not only make it worse for me but also made me think that my emotions weren't valid...

Restless legs, restless arms and feet, EVERYTHING is restless. Tired all the time Always hungry Headache Muscle aches and stiffness Severe disassociation (feeling that I’m not real’ Panic attacks Meltdowns Sudden sporadic weight gain or loss Crying.. and of course let’s not forget the blood red rage fits I can sink into. These are unfortunately my ailes of depression.

This is the one thing that I’ve noticed helps when you have depression…be outside and either in nature or in a public area, I think feeding off high levels of energy doesn’t give you time to be depressed. When I start to feel it coming on, I have to physically move rooms to disconnect from it, otherwise it consumes me. It’s also only bad during midday/afternoon, I find I’m happy in the mornings and late in the evening for some reason. Writing about it the second you start feeling it also helpful. Start by saying, why am I feeling depressed because you yourself aren’t depression, you’re just feeling it, and feelings can be changed ❤️

I nerver search for this nor am I intereted in it but thank you youtube for bring it forward. I'm struggling with unemployment for the last 10 months. Barely paying my bills wich most of them ar due. Eating or not eating, depending on the kindness of my friends.Sharing whatever I have with my dog and 2 cats. So, yeah. Help is out there. The way out !

My life repeats over and over and it never ends

Honestly my friends don’t comment on how depressed I act just because I’ve acted like this since they’ve known me😐

the problem is, there is still a huge stigma with depression. NEVER tell your boss or your HR rep.. or ANYONE in the company you work for. I did this once. Because they accused me of raising my voice to a co-worker -- This "raised voice" was what I consider my slight irritation voice. I raised it to a millennial who thinks anything more than a whisper is "yelling" at them. They kept badgering me why would I do that? I was finally like -- well -- MAYBE it's because I am on depression meds.. 3 weeks later -- I was fired. FULL STOP.

Having debilitating and distracting anxiety and severe depression that is all consuming, it was a big deal to finally watch this through, and a triumph to comment, although I'm useless and don't expect anyone to read. But that's fine.

Apparently I've been severely depressed for so long that when I'm actually in a rare, happy mood, my family says I'm not acting like myself.

That moment when you realize that your depression is a perfectly normal reaction to terrible things happening that are completely out of your control.

Anyone that is suffering with any mental illness even depression could be moderate, or severe depression. I was diagnosed with severe depression but I'm letting anyone know with any mental illness that everything will okay in the end after getting professional help. And I am a survivor of severe depression for about 3 or 4 years but this video is amazing and all of your videos are so amazing to learn about.

Even going through severe depression, I know I would eventually pull through. Taking the first step towards better mental health was a tough one, but I'm already seeing an improvement :)

Everyday my heart pounds like crazy when I wake up. ...even before the alarm goes off. My whole body is starting to realize that I'm about to have to deal with this shit world again.

I have daily stomach pains and I've never thought it'd be from this since I know I'm depressed but can't let anyone know this because I'd be seen like someone different and I just have to fight everyday to find something that keeps me alive. I'm not the only one so I just wanna say to everyone, stay strong, guys! ❤ We can go through this together!

‘I may not be physically alone, but mentally, there is no one in sight’ That is sometimes how depression can feel, but you are never alone❤

These videos help give me context or a rough frame of reference. A lot of things that get brought up, for years, was treated “as normal” and that I just can’t keep up or perform or function to a normal level. When I was much younger, anytime I would try to talk about it or anything. Family would just talk over me, pretend to not hear me or just get mad. “Hard? Sad? You’re just spoiled.” “Thats nothing” etc etc And I just accepted that and just dealt with it and no longer tried to bring it up. “Friends” didn’t care and would get dropped or ditched… and I just started to accept that no one cares and just unlucky (to things beyond my control or influence) and don’t know what to do.

the taking out the trash part made me cry because literally i feel so useless when i do simple tasks but maybe i should congratulate myself

I just want someone to talk about everything, every ridiculous feeling that I have bottled up inside myself for so long that my chest feel so heavy ,it's hard to keep breathing with such huge pain

Hard to not feel alone when your entire family is deceased and many friends as well. And the few friendships you had left either you pushed them away or they simply had enough and moved on. At that point, one can run out of energy trying to form any sort of bond with anyone anymore.

That last one helped a lot… I’ve been dealing with psychosis the last 3 years. Ever since I found out my fiancée was cheating on me (and years of untreated depression/anxiety, self medicated by abusing adderall and alcohol). I’ve been clean and sober 3 years but the paranoia persisted… it’s good to know it’s more than likely a trauma response and will likely go away eventually (it’s a lot better than it used to be)

Hi everyone I'm Diana. I started writing about myself in comments and alot of people replied with similar stories and great advice🧡 Now I'm out of my abusive relationship.. I'm finally free. I don't feel attached and I'm not scared anymore. I'm slowly gaining back my confidence and fixing my health. I'm grateful for all the support I got even though it was through strangers. #feelingblessed😇

"There is a growing apathy to your goals" Goals? What goals? Never had any

It feels like I'm reliving a life that's already happened. Like I'm in a memory

I feel nothing but everything, I look in the mirror and the person staring back has a sad or emotionless face, someone says hi but I whisper hi back because I don't have the strength to care, I wanna scream but I wanna cry, I wanna live but I wanna die. I don't want others to feel the way I do so I'm going to try to fake smile because sometimes just one person smiling at you can make a great difference.

I don’t want to feel anymore. So tired of dealing with them.

I've been sad for Soo long that my personality has developed around depression :')

I knew I probably shared a lot of these symptoms before the video. These videos remind me that I really should be in therapy. I'm so depressed that I do not have any motivation or hope left to get me there. This is something I should of got help for many years go.

This week has been so hard. Between severe depression and panic attacks. I'm scared to even getting out of my room, everything is so bleak, I feel so utterly alone.

I can't bear the pain of loneliness and ignorance anymore ...my parents think I'm all fine as if it is very usual ...my friends are no longer in touch with me.. no one notices me ...the pain is like you have to suffer and nothing is going to help ...its like you going to die alone 😔

1. Daily stomach pain 0:51 2. Your life feels like its on pause 1:30 3. There is a growing apathy towards your goals 2:04 4. Mental breakdowns 2:33 5. Noticeable behavioral symptons 3:19 6. Hallucinations or delusions 4:12

So hard to separate long Covid fatigue with severe depression and fatigue from past trauma One of my poems “My face is a roadmap. My face is a roadmap of paralyzed fear It lost the contour of shine Where sadness appears. My face is a roadmap To my story afraid to unfold My face is a roadmap Of all the tears buried beneath the road. My face is a roadmap Where once there was light Molesting father , narcissistic mother and brother Darkened it to ashen abysmal night. For years my hidden molestation is what I thought shredded my soul that didn’t compare to the narcissistic abuse my mother and Christianity bestowed. Trampling my heart, lungs, and vocal cords. My face is a roadmap Of Christian demise Respect honor your parents at all cost Are the lies. I didn’t fight back, l didn’t utter a word. I didn’t even know what was a healthy loving world. My face is a roadmap Aging lines of frequent attacks From a shell of a mother Reminding me You’re selfish Self centered Regardless of the mountain of love showered to Her impenetrable heart sac. My face is a roadmap Wiped out by the tidal wave of trauma Voice smothered to the depths of all that Surreal drama. Good days I’m grateful to be alive, Rough days I struggle to stay to survive. My face is a roadmap 69 years Mixed with the joy of my children Loss of parental nuclear family love foundation Stained with tears. It took years layered with abusive narcissistic tasks To turn my roadmap Into a pretend happy mask. My face is a roadmap It conceals Reveals A generation of trust built on sand A broken trust in me Constantly needs A helping hand Today, I author this piece to drive out my fears I want to claim happiness What’s left of my years. My face is a roadmap Also shows joy It came with a price I’d pay again and again To have my precious girl and boy. There is a truth to a portion of my heart undefeated That truth my two children saved With love over their years They repeated. My face is a roadmap Blake stares To a far away place Where all children are gently loved Always kept safe. “ Kimi minor

I’ve suffered from depression since the age of 6, I’m now 62 and still suffering despite being on medication for years . The menopause has further exacerbated my mood swings , and made the accompanying anxiety much worse . I always win the battle but never the bloody war ‼️ ‘ Help’ is only there if you can afford to pay for it ‼️‼️

At this point I can't feel happy. I just don't feel anything, just anger and sadness. Most of the time I don't feel anything, just, idk. I'm scared of death, I can't think about it and that makes this worse. I don't have diagnosed depression, I'm going to start going to therapy in a few days, I just wanted to tell this. Feeling bad it's not always feeling sad; sometimes it's not feeling.

The first test I aced and didn't even study for 🙃

Dealt with psychotic depression for a long time. Its not easy, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Keep fighting folks

I was diagnosed with chronic depression after I had a bout with cancer in 2013. It snowballed into debilitating depression by 2015. I had to go o disability. A heart attack in 2018 made the depression worse. I struggle to get the simplest task done. I was the type of person that always made myself available to help others in need. Sadly, no one came to my aid after I was diagnosed with depression. I’m doing fairly well in spite of everything. I take each day as best as I can. My heart goes out to everyone that struggles with this on a daily basis.

*SUMMARY* : 1. Daily Stomach Pain - 0:52 2. Your Life Feels Like It's on Pause - 1:27 3. There Is A Growing Apathy Towards Your Goals - 2:04 4. Mental Breakdowns - 2:32 5. Noticeable Behavioral Symptoms - 3:17 6. Hallucinations or Delusions - 4:12 Sadly, I mostly relate to these signs. Hope it helps you guys, specially for those in a hurry!

My life doesn't just feel like it's on pause, it feels like it's over. I'm 50 now and it's never going to get better no matter how hard I try. I'm exhausted with being alone and seeing as my best days are over there is no hope of companionship. I have to go on and pretend it's all okay but I'm already dead inside. This isn't how I thought life would play out but I'm unraveling fast. Man, this sucks.

I think about ending it at least 100,000 times a day 😁

I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety my entire life. Lately it has gotten so bad that I can’t even function anymore. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.

I can't stand it when people ask you if "you're okay" 90% of the time I ignore it.

If you read this and if you're struggling on the inside, know that I am proud of you for being still here and beating your record of days on Earth every day a little more 💗 You're amazing to have survived every day and I am sure you'll keep going on. Stay safe. You deserve to be heard ❤

I have OCD, Depression, and Otitis Externa which is basically eczema in the ear's. I can relate to everything in this video. I hope everyone here gets the help they need.

This video made me cry, it helped me understand. I'm not lazy, I'm depressed. I've been depressed for most of my life but sometimes it's hard to tell yourself that you're not being lazy

Yeah depression is different for many people, mine seems to manifest as stomach pain, agitation, and if I'm honest, just not wanting to be around anymore.

Always sad and lonely even when surrounded by family and friends.

This helped a lot. My problem is everyone I have ever cared about in my life has disappointed me greatly. It hurts the same all the time. It does not get easier.

Amanda Silvera, I have never heard of you before, until this video. But allow me to say you have an incredibly soothing voice which filled me with calm. Thank you. Cheers!

Feels like a cycle to me. Starts with nausea, vomiting in AM. Looks like physicsl illness. Loss of appetite. Poor hygiene that looks like laziness. Major Isolation. Little or no communication. Fear guilt self hate. Cycle can last days or weeks into months sometimes. Very hard to hold work or navigate social support. Easier to live on the street.

Your voice is extremely calming and comforting, and thank you for making these videos to educate people like me who don't know much about these subjects ♥️

Several months ago, an aunt on my mother's side of the family told me I look like the light had gone out of my eyes. That really struck a chord with me that maybe, just maybe, all is not well in my inner world.

my experience with severe depression was like this: i was unmotivated, struggled just to get out of bed sometimes (and felt like crap because of it) i wanted to cry for no reasons i overreacted to things and got really irritable i always felt alone and being bored, alone with my thoughts, etc just made it worse this video just freaking described me and im sorry for anyone else who relates :(

Random stomach aches ✅ Hard time getting through the smallest things ✅ Fatigue ✅ Apathy ✅ Mental breakdowns ✅ Out of body experiences ✅ I had no idea stomach aches were a part of my depression welp-

THANK YOU AMANDA

Thank you for this info. This is educational especially for the public who stigmatize mental illness. Please keep them coming. Video has been of great help. I suffer from bipolar 2. I can not stress more the importance of getting help. You may not think or understand the value of searching for help But during the same, you understand your condition and learn how to cope. 😢😮😅😮😢

When you usually act dangerously and have problems with anger, so everybody thinks that it's your normal behaviour

"Your worth is not measured by how much you get done in a day or your productivity level." This is something I need to be reminded of regularly. Especially on days when just taking a shower makes up half of a day's accomplishments.

I have experienced nearly all of this at one time or another. I’ve been very thankful for this channel. It has been a valuable tool toward helping my family to learn better what I have and do still experience. This reminds me how good things have been lately. Reminders are nice to have from time to time. I feel like it is a daily challenge to continue to learn how to live with depression and anxiety. Thank you, Psych2Go, for all you do!

Love how I've had all of these exept hallucination nonstop since my childhood (20ish years) and can't even leaven my house on my own, yet every doctor I've been to claimed my depression to be moderate and episodic. Despite it having been severe and chronic by definition for literal decades. My symptoms fit the crieria perfectly and that's not even counting the SH, S ideation and several attempts. They just decide that I have to be lying. It's fucked up really.