00:00 disclaimer and intro 7:18 Dr. Siu discovers twitch chat 9:40 Life Crisis 12:15 True Values vs Perceived Values 17:58 Suppressives vs Evocative therapies 27:00 Meditation vs Psychedelics 34:15 The voice vs the heart vs the body 43:51 How to trust your body 51:40 Healthy vs Unhealthy emotions 54:49 "Dating is a waste of time" on being in painful positions 1:01:22 Ayuahausca retreat uses of psychedelics 1:06:10 LSD, MDMA, ketamine, different kinds of psychedelics, psychedelic experiences 1:16:30 set, setting, dosage of psychedelics q&a 1:23:20 "How do I know if I am in a good space for psychedelics" 1:26:13 "How do psychedelics change brain/consciousness to change yourself" 1:30:25 "Panic Disorders and psychedelics, how to do them safely" back to interview 1:36:20 Emotional Catharsis 1:41:40 Dr. Will Siu's take on psychedelics are unique 1:45:30 Outro for Dr. Will Siu and where to follow him 1:50:00 Underestimate value on struggling 2:01:30 Meditation for feeling weak and judgment toward yourself

Dr. K should do a regular podcast with Will... Assuming he gets a better internet plan! It's a great dynamic.

The new timestamps feature is amazing holy moly.

I have to jump in here at the 1:27:00 mark of ‘how can psychedelics improve you’ The greatest analogy I can think of is: you want to learn music and psychedelics are like a music class. If at the right dose with the right set and setting, they can make you learn faster than if you were trying to learn by yourself. You can sit in class and not bother to learn and you won’t get very far (tripping without a purpose). You could also take a too advanced class and discourage you from wanting to learning music (bad trip,ptsd,etc).

"You mean I'm angry that I feel guilty for being ashamed that I'm afraid?" ~ Chuck Pyle

Joe Rogan: Have you tried DMT Dr.K : Have you tried mediation

Yeah that part where he said he's not strong, he's not vulnerable, he's just himself... that was awesome. That really triggered some kind of revelation in my brain. That is something worth striving for.

I love what he said in the last 15 or 20 minutes of the video. I'm in college, and I have been struggling through it the last 5 years. I love my major, and I have the potential to be very capable in that field, but I have repeatedly questioned whether I should give it up and do something else. I want to run from it because I fail, but I fail because I continue to make mistakes like not doing my homework, or not going to class. I have engaged in unhealthy shame. I felt shame and wanted to run from what was causing it instead of changing my behavior, so that I don't continue to make the same mistakes. Furthermore, it's a message of responsibility that I heard a lot from Jordan Peterson. I got a lot from Jordan Peterson, but I struggled to change from his messages, because at that time I felt ashamed for not being responsible, and I didn't know what shame was, or how to deal with it. It's very strange to think about how long I was affected by shame, without understanding what shame was. I felt something unpleasant, but didn't know that unpleasant feeling was shame, so I had no idea how to address it.

I like when chat panicked over muted Dr K and then he types 1 in chat to say 'yeah i know i'm muted'

something about people that meditate have the most genuine smiles and personalities ive ever seen its amazing to see

This is amazing. Dr K should have more professionals on the show. Does Will have a youtube or anything like that yet?

Alok "have you ever tried DMT" Kanoja is coming next season confirmed????

I really enjoy that you had a psychedelic intellect, the positive benefits of these compounds can be so helpful but yet so detrimental and damaging to your mental health when used improperly. This is excellent information to get out to the public.

More people need to see this. Especially the dr.k monologue starting at 1:49:30. some very powerful words that i think many people need to hear to start changing the way they view themselves in their current situations.

An absolutely wonderful discussion! Both Dr. K and Dr. Siu's contributions to the discussion were thought-provoking, and I heard a great deal of wisdom. I especially appreciated Dr. Liu's perspectives on 'set, setting, dosage' and on trusting yourself and your body, and Dr. K's thoughts on the value of struggling at the end. The meditation really helped me to connect with my shame and guilt and find some forgiveness. It helped me find some tears... I'm going to sit with that more in a bit. Thank you both, and all the community as well, for welcoming and fostering these kinds of conversations. These kinds of conversations, filled with genuine curiosity, compassion, awareness, and a desire to understand, are what change the world for the better.

Someone should point Dr.K in the direction of channels like psyched substances. There's already online communities of psychonauts that always want professional expertise.

Dude this was sick, informative, educational, resonating, scuffed as the dicord connection was i was glued to everythign that was said keep up the good work Doc :D

Dr K and Dr Siu totally remind of Gandalf and Radagast

holy shit. what a powerful closing thought from dr k. i loved the whole interview as i have not only been watching dr k for around the last 6 months, but also researching and exploring psychedelics for about a year. the idea that we are where we are because life needs us to experience this in order to become stronger and do what we are meant to do is really a beautiful way to feel value in sadness. i feel like just recently i have gotten out of the quicksand pit of depression and am beginning to navigate out of the swamp and move on. i just got a job where i will be working with pets amd pet owners and i just see it as such a service to my community that i will get to help change a families life as much as my pets have changed mine, and although im not going into psychology, watching these streams has definitely helped me to communicate with the people who matter to me and be a more open and understanding person. i love this community

I try this video meditation, and in the moment you say "try to see your resistance" my mind goes blank and cried like a baby for a few minutes. I think its worse then i thought Thanks for all ✌️🙂

I enjoy these talks about psychedelics. Its all old news to me but I like how you have an open mind to new "technologies" or approaches to therapy.

"Do you have any spirituality?" - "Psychedelics"

DMT is the closest thing I've ever come to a true spiritual experience. You can get to the same headspace through many years of meditation, but nothing close to what DMT shows your brain is capable of.

"life needs you to be the person that you are"- is something I've often hoped for myself, but I still feel very conflicted by competing interests.

Something i dont see a lot of people talk about is how much smoking marijuana will effect you when tripping. Its up to you if you do it, but i can almost promise it wont be good

Used to do Psilocybin with a good friend, we both had 1 paper with a list of notes on what we thought could improve the other. On peak we read each our list, thats made about the other and what improvements/behavior changes could be done - from other person perspective. And from there we drafted, understood the new angle, and how it would benefit the person (me/you). Then we put the improvements/changes to life. (Always on the right mindset before, with the right enviroment, start on 50% and add 50% when its under control. 3-5g

This was amazing! I want to see more interviews like this.

MDMA with good friends safed my life while i had a strange cannabis condition which was persisent over years without smoking any weed. I was constantly feeling bad ( hard to describe it was a permanent uncomfortable feeling) but MDMA had first changed it while i was on this drug but later it was complete away. I dont take any drugs today but i wish drugs like mdma wouldnt have such a bad reputation because there is still so much to discover in this substances beside beeing "party" drugs.

Really interesting talk, thanks for having Dr. Siu on the show!

57:00 I like the "middle section" talk. Makes a lot of sense

Can we take a moment to appreciate all the extra work drk has to go tru adding time stamps

This interview provided so many interesting insights! I would love to see more of these talks, with other experts.

Just want to chime in (25 mins thru and am really fascinated by these topics btw) and say I respectfully disagree that therapy shouldn’t be a long time process. I’m not saying that the goal isn’t to obviously drag it out, but sometimes it does take people time to process his or her emotions, and the catharsis- As you mentioned your friend(?) has a client for 3 years before cacarthsis - which is still great progress regardless of the timeline. You guys even went on to mention that meditation is a long term strategy and psilocybin brings catharsis faster. I get that you don’t want to waste time with a client, but in my personal opinion helping someone finally release emotions is amazing regardless of how long it takes. But I digress, I’ll continue watching now. Thanks for making these Edit: sry for typos writing comments on a phone sux

LSD allowed me to see my math potential when everything in nature was shown to me from a mathematical standpoint. To see such order in the universe gave me a kind of relaxation I had not experienced previously. It allowed me to break my insecurity of working with numbers. I began to cram this training through the myiad of free resources online without paying a professor and having to learn about topics unrelated to my main interest in a classrom environment. I found that my heart rate plummets to around 50BPM when taking tests or working through a problem. I didn't do well in math before but now I feel limitless in that respect. I went from mowing lawns and other laborious jobs to programming and working with electronics (That one shot change people who took psychedelics talk about). It was powerful beyond words and I feel like I found personal evidence of a grand creator through that one trip with only 40 bucks worth of LSD. I took a math competency test recently and maxed it out with ease. I have no clue what to do with this new found skill because I don't have a degree to back it up or the money to return to school. I'm almost 40 now and still feel like I have the learning ability of a child. Degrees should be replaced with tests in my opinion. I think I should be able to walk into a university and skip the years of process and debt to just get certified. Hopefully I can find my calling soon. Maybe DARPA can see this post and take me on.

How to Change Your Mind by Michael Pollan is a really interesting read about psychedelics

This was such an interesting talk. Would love to hear of more experts in the field about "unconventional" therapie and other stories. Also: "poligamy pog" we see you Dr. K :D

I wish I could hit the like button 1000 times. Fascinating interview.

I think the biggest issue is making any sort of profound experience or lesson to stick for a long time after the trip

Really good discussion !! Keep up the good work, your channel has really helped me try to improve myself

One Love! Always forward, never ever backward!! ☀️☀️☀️ 💚💛❤️ 🙏🏿🙏🙏🏼

Maybe Dr K has addressed this, but I think I understand one of the question askers and have the same: What if you don't even understand the first step of starting on all of this stuff? Meaning: Self awareness. Goal setting. Values. Anything that is a vocabulary word. I understand this things cognitively, theoretically. But when I turn them towards ME, I get INSTANTLY lost. I used to think my compass was broken too, but now I am trying AS HARD AS I CAN MUSTER to read that compass... but I'm STILL struggling. It's like I have dyslexia for the compass. I feel pretty instinctually that I can learn to read it, but I need at least 1 person to walk me through Step 0. I meditate and feel good, but it provides no direction. I think about my values, and I can identify a few on how to behave morally but nothing that is actionable. I set goals but I doubt them and change them and then doubt those and go back and then doubt those and change them again. Nothing "hits" correctly and I suspect that I have less than zero XP with this, so I can't identify that feeling even if I did or have felt it. I have gained a type of faith I never had growing up, in myself, in humanity, in some kind of higher power or purpose, in my parents, in my wife, in my bosses (sometimes!) but at no point does that equation equal out into a result. It's like I have this great complex math problem and I can understand every individual transaction, but no one taught me the order of operations. So at the end of the day, I can't differentiate between the 100 possible results depending on which order you do them in. And I'm told that I am meant to, at some point, intuit the order of operations. And I'm trying. Trying SO hard. I believe I can do it, but so far, it's had little results. It's been about 3 years now, and in that time I've gained so much understanding, but this whole point of why I started eludes me and I feel 0% closer to that goal, which seems required to move on to my next epoch of discovery. I believe I grew up SO alexithymic, so dead to my own inner voice, never ever taught a single emotional skill outside of how to operate morally (which has been helpful, thanks mom!) that I just feel truly dumb in this area. I often feel like a sociopath who managed to dodge all dark triad traits, and that also makes me wonder about autism spectrum like so many other gamers. In reality, I have no idea. Basically, I've watched a ton of Dr K videos, Therapist videos, Psychology research, I follow mental health and psychology blogs and news, watch documentaries, study psychological philosophy (Four Agreements and The Courage to be Disliked were AMAZING), don't meditate as much as I should but try that as well, and I'm feeling good on a day to day basis, but still have occasional crises' of direction. So I wonder if there's any later videos he's made that address this or any other practice or person that might have advice. At this point my introverted self is even willing to do group therapy or something. My individual therapists have largely helped with surface emotions but I never felt like they led me to a place where I can start building on my foundation rather than just stabilizing the foundation. Anytime I ask anyone "what do I ACTUALLY do tho?" it's like the are Gandalf and I'm frodo and I have to say "Ok then keep your secrets" because it feels like they deflect and avoid answering. It's all "You'll know yourself" and stuff. Ok sure, that's fine. But how do I START this engine of knowing? Like ppl are assuming I know how to turn the key on the engine b/c they explained the engine to me, but the key is in the cockpit. Not the engine. I'm not asking them to tell me where to point. I know I can handle that in the long term. I want to know how do I learn what east, west, north and south are? I'm basically illiterate and I am trying as hard as possible to learn on my own b/c everyone says you have to struggle yourself, but damn it seems a lot easier if you have a teacher walk you through how to pronounce the alphabet. It's prob faster than having to construct an entire language from scratch at least. Like, Tell me how YOU did it and I can at least learn what you're talking about via demonstration at least. I'm not asking for someone to come hold my pencil hand and write the letters for me like it feels like everyone thinks I'm asking, just show me how YOU write the letters so I can try that out and start improvising my own words from there. So often in life, and I'm super curious what other gamers think here since we're so exploratory with game mechanics and stuff, I've had people basically walk up to me doing something and go "oh you poor dear, you're doing that the hard way. Try this." and they show me a trick I never would have figured out on my own. Not because I'm stupid. I can do that trick easily enough. But b/c I was left alone and told "you'll figure it out, you little scamp" so I DID, but what I figured out was NOT what the teacher meant for me to figure out. Like they wanted me to learn to read with a baby's first book and instead I learned how to start a fire out of paper and just kind of assumed that's what they meant b/c the instructions were non-existent. I always feel like the 'beat of my drum' is so my own that I'm often on an island compared to everyone else. Like an alien that no one has realized isn't fitting in the same as everyone else b/c all I'm EVER doing is trying me best to watch everyone else and copy what they do since it seems like what we, the alleged humans, are meant to. I, to some degree, hope and wonder if psychedelics could help someone like me. I'm moving back in with my parents at 32 in 2 months, with my wife (her idea even) and maybe a support network being re-established will make things fall into place, who knows. But I still just struggle to even understand at a basic level what any emotional information means in any way. I also am diagnosed ADHD so I wonder how all of that factors in, and would love to know how/if psychedelics helped anyone else with ADHD for ADHD/attention/focus related issues in life. I know weed edibles REALLY unlocked a side of my brain that I know for a fact I was entirely closed off to previously. That's why Im so interested in Psychedelic therapy. I've lived a form of it, I'm certain. I actually relate a TON to Rick Doblin but without any exploration of my freedom until I was already in my 30's. Now, I can feel emotions that I fully have NEVER EVER felt before having a few specific spiritually transcendent experiences with edibles and going through, basically, talk therapy and integration with my highly emotionally intelligent wife. I strongly suspect, from a neuroscience perspective, there were parts of my brain that were not helpful in my development that did not have many neuronal connections that I've managed to improve function of by prying open my third eye. The idea of having a single direction is just so... boring sounding to me. Which makes me think I just don't quite understand it yet the way I need to. I'm trying to write a Scifi novel, I'm trying to learn C++ and Unity, I'm trying to learn narrative building, considering having a kid amongst this terrible economy we find ourselves in, and all trying to work 40+ hours a week in an IT job. I strongly feel like I need someone to help me organize that, but I rarely hear this kind of discussion exit the realm of theory and macro-data and into the individual, actionable and practical. I'm going to start investigating Ketamine therapy now that I'm moving to a place with more health care services, I think, even though I'd strongly prefer other psychs. (Psilo) Maybe the real issue with practical info is that the legal situation just makes everything about this potentially life changing tool impracticable.

Will was amazing!!! Great hearing him talk, I would love to hear more from him.

I was going to just have a regular trip today but after this video I feel enlightened everything to the very end was eye opening to a new level thank you Dr k

Why does he still not have a KZfaq channel coz GODDAMM I wanna hear Dr. Siu talk more

i have a feeling rekful is gonna like this one

Lovely guest, fascinating topic- i have lots of experience with psychedelics but haven't heard much from doctors and psychotherapists about it so it was great to see it from that angle

Fun fact: "Set, setting, dose" is actually from the oft-maligned Timothy Leary. And I can also add that it is fantastic advise, as Will states.

Wow, you can see how happy he is that Alok was listening with attention at 6:30!

Amazing talk so far and i'm only one third into the video. Explaining the concepts and understandings you guys have is really impactful for me

I would be dead if not for psychedelics.

Such a good episode, try getting Will again on the stream :)

I have a few analogies for psychedelics and potential for healing mental ills, one is The Bridge: A damaged psyche is like a bridge in disrepair. The engineers know generally what the problem is, but don’t have the equipment to properly assess or repair. Psychedelics are like the heavy equipment that allows the crews to repair the damage, but their needs to be conscious work done

Will should create a KZfaq channel like this one!!

I keep coming back to this interview rarely, it's a lot to take in but each time I listen to it again, I learn something new or understand their conversation even better than I did last time

Dr. K this really was an awesome episode. Thanks!

The bit about the different types of drugs being useful for different things was interesting.

loved the stream!!! everything you guys talked about is so interesting to me i would love to learn more

wow mdma showed me what happines is when i was 21 a year ago i learned allot from drugs psychedelics and mdma i think maps is such great thing that is happening im happy to hear someone else found what i found from this substances

What a fascinating conversation. Great guy.

Thank you both! Really inspirational words from dr siu

I have finally found my meditation practice, it's not looking at Twitch chat at all!

i think a conversation between the youtuber psyched substance and dr k could be very interesting

Reallly appreciate the time stamps! :)

I wonder if people who daydream a lot and have a lot of phantasy produce more of those substances naturally?

I agree that our categorization of mental health is flawed and broken. Psilocybin did more for me than two years of CBT. Medicating emotions is far from a cure, although in can be very useful short-term if you're at an extreme.

As an Herbalist who specializes in nervous system disorders, i would love to be a trip coach.

Dr. K ft Steve Aoki discussing psychedelics should definitely be a Chillwave remix

i've been trying to climb mount everest while trying to carrie the baggage of other people and also having to climb down all the time to climb other peoples mountains. i need to start planning how i'm gonna get to the top and train for this adventure.

Preach!!! To everything that was mentioned in this video.

Comment on this comment to boost this video in the Algorithm. Also Dr. K you need to get on Joe Rogan pls!🤞🏼

Fantastic video DR Ken!! I was so excited to have a specialist on psychedelics on the stream, I'd love to see more videos with DR Will about psychedelics, things such as integration after a psychedelic trip and more. I'd love it if Will could get into contact with Rick Doblin, the head of MAPS to come on and talk about psychedelics and research, I think it would be really valuable information. Cheers!!

such a good stream, i loved it. reminds me of midnight gospel

I really appreciate this video Dr. K

Anyone know what the string instrument is during the break they took around 1:22:00? I like it a lot! Thanks for another awesome video

at 1:20:00 you guys were talking about suffering trauma from trips which brings me back to doing LSD for the first time. I've done it a total of three times and every time it was a dosage much higher than my body and mind were prepared for. they were incredibly traumatizing experiences. I won't touch the stuff anymore. That's not to say that I didnt get any benefits from it, but the negatives outweighed the positives for me. I've taken psilocybin and mdma and had much more enjoyable and introspective experiences with those substances than i ever had with lsd.

Cool, Dr K worked his way through the raid tiers and got to the MAPS boss in 2022.

1:54:38 Added to my noted quotes.

Whoever does your thumbnails is really good at it. Those colors sick

How is using it for spirituality and using it for exploration/ new ideas different?

Question: coming from the field of biology here and with that perspective. I wonder why you prefer "worry" and "regret" as descriptions? I am specifically addressing the choice of words, not your stance on medicalised terms, which I agree on. Not that I disagree with anything you said, just wondering. When working with animals, and describing their behaviours, it is best not to interpret their actions with emotions. We would describe something as high and low energy, and reactive vs. passive (depending on field though... ants, birds, apes, so forth). In that context, when applicable we also look at produced stress (stress not always having a negative connotation, though we usually mean “bad” stress). Reactivity or passivity isn’t a character trait per say, but rather the observed reaction to a produced stimulus. High energy and reactive, is outward behaviour, i.e. jumping, attacking, spinning in circles upon a stimulus. Low energy passive would be inward behaviour, like lying in corners, no “eye”-contact., passing without interaction… When speaking about worry and regret however, you have a before vs future scenario, and I ask myself why that is a necessity. I wouldn't necessarily deem anxiety as forward thinking and depression as backwards thinking. I would say that reactivity is an OVERreaction to a stimulus and too little reactivity an UNDERreaction. Dogs (mammals) that do not know how to process stimuli are often reactive (locked inside all their life-> the smell of grass becomes too intense when outside), dogs that are inhibited from exploring stimuli tend to become passive (grass everywhere yet out of reach -> why bother). Intuitively I would have said people with anxiety do not know how to deal with incoming stimuli, therefore worry about incoming stimuli, therefor stress. Perhaps even sensing a loss of control with certain stimuli. Their behaviour is reactive. People with depression would be inhibited from exploring stimuli, thus they shut down, no exploration, no fun. Without anything to excite, these people may not have any motivation to make plans, or might not perceive the stimulus as intensely. This behaviour would be passive. I am not claiming to know much about our human psyche, I am just asking. It seemed very interpretative from where I stand, though as a psychiatrist you are working and communicating with people, and people are generally better verbally. I just observed the different approach. Personally, I think you can be very anxious and still live in the moment. Or at least you can be highly reactive in the present, while concerning yourself solely with the present.

My life is where it's at because I'm so fearful of rejection by anyone whose opinions I care about (job interviewers, bosses, women). The few times I tried psychedelics I was so fearful I never wanted to do it again. Do I need a bigger dose to ride the fear through the other side? I can't afford insurance so therapy in between is not possible.

Generally speaking the best way to understand psychosis is to watch Dr. Siu's webcam quality.

Amazing podcast docs!

this was fascinating, thanks.

this Interview was amazinggg! btw i wish i can try ayahuasca some day before i die.

"You can navigate just as well with a compass that always points east but if you think that a compass should always point north and you don't recognise your compass for what it is then you're gonna have a lot of problems. All you need to do is calibrate. "Oh my compass always points east so if I wanted to go north I can still go north. If I want to go east I can go east. If I want to go south or west it works just as well. It's just different. So start with the notion that you're not fucked up." -- Dr K 1:56:41

Meditation vs Psychedelics having tried both I know True meditation Feels eerily similar To Psychedelics, difference being I can step away from meditation and can even step on my on toes not being very experienced with trippy true meditation, where as Psychedelics strap you on a rocket and show you everything you are doing wrong in life or what ever realization you need for the period of life you are currently in, but I'm sure, having a strict meditation regimen you could achieve at least very similar experiences/ benefits. But I can not say 100% everything meditation can fix, Psychedelics can, and vice versa. I think they are 2 very important pieces, and not many people know they belong to the same puzzle.

This Will is super much like me. I dig it

I think he needs to think more about this because his answers/knowledge of the subjective experience seem to be incomplete or generally lacking. I appreciate him because his heart is clearly in the right place, but i dont think he's ready to be giving advice about psychedelics. For example, his advice on set/setting didnt emphasise that you should have as little unknown variables in your environment as possible, meaning that there should be nothing that you need to worry about besides your trip. Also the advice of "have someone you trust" isnt ideal because I love and trust many of my friends with my life, but very few with the responsibility of trip-sitting because it requires a certain level of compassion, patience, and knowledge of psychedelics.

Dr. K I love you

1:12:00 > it's interesting to think a little bit about staying connected to the person that you have to come back to, and if you have an experience that's completely unrelated to the person that you live most of your life as it's gonna be hard for that experience to actually help you in some way. On the contrary, having such experiences is exactly the thing that can allow the person to experience existence itself from a perspective that completely breaks to mold of our standard thought patterns, and so is the closest thing to having memories of someone or something else downloaded into your brain. It can put ones ego into perspective, it makes it apparent what the ego is, and that it is there at all, it makes it visceral, people can through this be reintroduced to themselves, and experience what they are like from another person's or another being's perspective. We're often blind to our own traits both positive and negative, and as one is coming down from being completely disconnected from themselves, the reconnection itself is the healing element of the whole equation. Rather than the lack of healing potential of stronger trips, it's the risk of bad trip that is the real reason why I do agree with the general sentiment of keeping doses low or upping them slowly.

That was great 🙏❤️

Aoe healing great explanation😂 Resonating both ends and the topics💖

loved this interview

I need some help from the Dr or anyone on the discord who is willing to talk. It's related to some stuff on here, but also mainly my current mental health. I don't know who else to talk to anymore. My discord name is SkiMask808

Invite Richard Schwartz, who developed the Internal Family Systems model

Anti-_____ depressants/anxiety do make it seem like sadness and feelings are bad, and meant to be suppressed :(

This is something really interesting and definitely worth trying but in my opinion, this should only be done AFTER achieving a comfortable level of career success and life balance. Trying all this crazy stuff while you re a college student and having an all round chaotic life anyway can be too much

what was the intermission music during 1:22:00?

I had a Ketamine injection at John's Hopkins once for treatment for something I can't even remember. But it didn't work I do remember that. But a bunch of people said it worked for them. They also said they had to go back and do it again over and over to really work and that's not something I would want to do again. It was so terrifying even though they said I handled it better than most people. And I was screaming while squeezing the nurses hand. Meanwhile, whenever I could get any LSD, I'd always trip at home, alone, just meditating the entire time. And nothing has ever healed me more than that has. Which I would use when I couldn't meditate. Which can easily happen to people when problems arise in people's lives that are so heavy that meditation is impossible without a substance like LSD. But most people I know use it as a party drug and I legit just don't understand that. I don't disagree with it, I just feel like for me it's a waste if I'm not meditating. Also, LSD does need to be done in a medical way. Ketamine does not work for everyone and it neither does MDMA. Which doesn't work on me anymore after my bone marrow transplants and use of anti depressants which I vehemently refused but was forced onto me by the corrupted physicians that I had to deal with during my battle with an incurable, completely fatal cancer that I barely survived thanks to meditation and magick. It wasn't until later after surviving that I needed the LSD which I never tried until I was mentally ill. And it made me feel all better! And always does! It really sucks that I can't actually get any now... There is some hope that Johns Hopkins can provide it. But it would not help me very much if I had to do it in an office with people I don't know. I need to be alone at home. Which is abnormal for most. But the not wanting to be around health care professionals is not abnormal at all.