This is probably my favourite trip story EVER! I’m sure you can see why lol. You can watch the uncensored version on Patreon: patreon.com/psychedsubstance for the stuff we can’t show here. Cheers!

I'm giving away my age here, but back in late 1968 or early 1969, I took a purple barrel of an eight way hit of Purple Owsley Acid made by Owsley Stanley himself that was less than two days old. The ego death your talking about, this happened to me, in spades and this wasn't even close to my first experience with LSD. It was unbelievable and to this day, 55 years later, I can honestly say it was the most beautiful, spiritual and most profound experience I ever had in this lifetime. I literally can remember it like it was yesterday and it always makes me feel close to life in ways that are beyond language or even thought that is still with me today, 55 years after the fact! Thanks for sharing!

i guess my natural instinct is to not kill the vibe. because when I was going through an intense ego death experience on acid, I was laid up on the couch in the fetal position 100% certain that I was dying thinking I should definitely call an ambulance, but then I looked around at all my friends tripping and having an amazing time and was like no dude I'll just die I don't wanna ruin their fun with an ambulance lmao

A mantra I've always held in my mind when going into a harsh come up is "It will all be waiting for you when you get back..."

You know what is absolutely beautiful about this video, the tips you give in the first half on how to keep your experience from turning into a bad trip is extremely helpful for anxiety as well. With my panic disorder the whole premise is based on me feeling like I’m not in control and I’m losing my mind, and it is quite similar to an ego death trip in the sense that my mind thinks it is losing its touch with what I’m comfortable with and who I am, so I panic, but these tips are exactly how I’m trying to fight it. Letting go of everything you know and think you know, and becoming okay with the thought of losing your mind, letting whatever happens happen to you, is the absolute most powerful thing a person can learn and experience. Might I say the most terrifying thing, as I have to experience the feelings daily and nothing scares me more.

Adam, once again you've taken 38 minutes away from my life; splendid story telling, my friend!

I have experienced ego death twice. I was so glad I put sticky notes around the house telling me I was tripping and everything is good. Do not call anyone hahaha. I was alone.

i watch you when im on psychedelic journeys, you always calm me. help me focus on the good and bring it back to myself. thank you adam, love your content.

Damn, following those thoughts is exhausting. Take refuge in pure awareness and let them all pass. Why energise more thoughts, even positive ones to the tornado of identification? A meditation practice is so important in these realms

The eagle cry after accidentally saying "eagle death" made me laugh way too hard 🤣 11:56

Dude. I know this was supposed to be serious and all (and it indeed is), but this was so freaking hilarious. You're one hell of a psyched-storyteller. Thanks for sharing. It was awesome.

You are so easy to listen to, been watching your videos for years! Keep up the hard work and struggle!

Since November I've had 3 significant trips that has given me everything I needed in my life. The first helped me grieve the death of my little brother, the second helped me with my relationship with my sons mother, and the third one gave me a path to take in life and the motivation to start moving on the path as well as the confidence to know that this is my path and I will succeed in the ways that I need to.

It’s the worst when you start to internally panic and start wondering how bad you’re about to freak, out and hoping you can hold it together 😂

Man your energy and storytelling was just top tier in this one

you are such a wonderful storyteller i could sit and listen to you talk about anything honestly. thank u for sharing your experience xox

You find yourself checking a channel everyday to see if a new vid has been put up and this is one and I love it every new video entertaining

I hardly ever get body sensations/"flashbacks" from others descriptions, but this was good. Bravo 👏

Great video sir! Had me on the edge of my seat, slowing my own breath & laughing out loud when you spoke about the lady with the crystals! You are an amazing storyteller! 🖤🙌

That feeling you get. All of us get it at one point or another if you prefer the higher dose journeys. It's that voice that says, "this is it, you've really gone and done it this time. You've finally taken it too far and now this is just life now"

Worst ego death I've ever experienced was when I stupidly thought I could get away with a quick DMT trip while waiting for the Acid to kick in. At first it was really cool but it instantly took a sharp turn when I obviously took too much acid. Got stuck in a loop that felt like it lasted centuries with only minutes passing, I would pass out and wake up over and over while it seemed like no time passed at all, the next part is the scariest experience of my life. I passed out again only to not wake up this time. It was darker than anything I've ever seen. I was aware I was there but it was the only thing I was aware of. I existed but at the same time I also didn't and I was aware of it. 100% killed my fear of death, as to me nothing will ever be scarier than existing in complete nothingness

I just wanted to say this video is fantastic. The editing is on point and made me laugh. I’m not done yet but sorry to hear you weren’t feeling great. Thank you for this!

This was one of the most entertaining and lesson rich storys you ever told!

My main tactic when faced with overwhelming terror and confusion during a trip is to remind myself that it ends in a matter of hours. Time can mean absolutely nothing in that moment, but I recognize that the unwanted experience will end. Then I just surrender to observing my experience and not spinning out on the random anxieties that pester my negative trips.

This was a good one, Adam. It's good to see when you're doing good, and it's oh so fun to tune in when you have fun and interesting tales to tell. Much love, man!

Yay a new Adam video! You actually make my day so much better whenever I see new content from you

Big way to start 2023 Adam. We are rooting for you

Great video man! You really nailed the description of ego death, although it gave me flashbacks. You are so right about thinking about something positive in the future to help you through it.

Absolutely brilliant video man, you're honestly so good at articulating interpretations of the crazy nuanced faucets of reality! Big love to you my dude, keep up the great work!

Your take away should inspire us all. I’m consciously trying to resonate in a positive bandwidth these days also. Feels good

I needed to hear the advice you gave about being positive. Thank you. We can breathe through anything.

My eyes light up when I see a new video uploaded 😭 love this man

Great video! I really love these story time videos, it’s always so interesting to listen to you

listen, you being apparently as strong and resilient as you are, you mentioning the takeaway of the trip being “see the good in things”, should be all you need to overcome your addiction. You quite literally conquered your mind when not even being close to controlling it. Just imagine what you can do when in control. Overcoming your addiction is just one of many things that you can and should do. Hope you see this and great video as always.

Your closing statement on this video connected so much. You’re very insightful. Thank you.

This brought me back to my most wonderful, profound and enlightening trips. Massively uplifting. I'm going through some intense stuff lately and needed to watch this today. Thank you Adam. ❤️

I genuinely laughed a lot while watching this and I really needed that. I kept picturing you pacing back and forth, arms folded, shaking your head going "nope uh uh nope I did NOT sign up for no orgy" thank you for sharing this wonderful story and I'm glad you're ok

Adam this is my favourite story you’ve ever told and I’ve been following you since 2016 😂

Wow, that was very descriptive. Good going, you've made it clear enough to be very relatable.

Great video. Your ability to speak-out your experience so freely amazes me...Not many people are able to do it..

youtube decided to give me this video right after i watched "i´m not okay" and its a rollercoaster of emotions, almost crying in one video to pure joyfull laughs at the other :D

Adam, it sounds like Jasmine had a trip much more similar to that of the other trippers. Not as intense. Is there a chance we could get a duo video where she shares some of her experience? Maybe a q/a with both of you?

I LOVE the way you tell this story.

this is one of your best videos, love you Adam.

I love this channel so much!

I can REALLY appreciate this experience story telling. ESPECIALLY the last 5 minutes because i relate to that so hard. I have been personality tested and was the ONLY one who was positive arrogant lol. We always know but need to learn/experience it for ourselves anyways.

this is one of my fav videos of yours Adam , I'm glad you came back and better than before thanks for sharing :D

This was super relatable on so many levels. Thanks for sharing!

That's a great lesson- every positive thought leads to more positivity... I try to remain optimistic at every moment of my life indefinitely, but I often forget to redirect negative thoughts, which I should because if I don't then it will lead to more negativity. Great story 😄

Your commentary is spot on when shit gets challenging!! The struggle to maintain control feels impossible.

Adam you are a great person. I have been watching your videos for almost 5 years. You inspire me a lot you are the best🙌🙏

I just did a mushroom trip and completely relate to this. I actually thought I would induce a bad trip with the way I was thinking. I have been struggling with loving myself and deal with the misery of depression. I didnt know what would come of this trip, but to my surprise it was the best trip Ive ever had. Yes there was some bad parts where I looped and saw aliens, but I told myself that there had to be more than this and that mushrooms are suppose to make you be happy. After that I relaxed and let it take me on a roller coaster of happiness. All smiles and laughter. I lost my body and felt like I turned into a light that became one with whatever felt like a good vibration. Shit is crazy. I couldnt believe that I could be happy like that again. Now being normal and human again, I feel immensely humble. I may even start micro dosing.

Your videos are so entertaining to watch

I have not had mesc since the 90s,It was amazing!

Wow, love the part where you talk about dealing with fear by looking forward to something pleaswant. Brilliant

Damn thats one of the best stories of your channel.

Dude I had the same "focus on the good" feeling after tripping on mushrooms. Like you, my experience was extremely challenging, but super rewarding also. I basically felt as if I'd exercised a muscle in my brain that filters out negative thoughts and I've become way less complainy because of it. It's so cool to hear a similar outcome!

One of my favorite videos of yours in recent memories. You killed it!!

Omg 😭😭😭 the part you forgot was the part I needed at the end you don't know how much that just made me think and cry ❤❤❤

Amazing and cosmically funny experience you share, thank you!

Possibly my favorite trip report of yours

This is your best video with a great message, thank you Adam!

Best video yet in the story, and the telling. Thanks!

really intresting story there, and i think since you went into it with the mindsett of wanting off addicition the psycadelic really dragged you to show you how strong you really are and that overcomming addiction is hard but when it gets tough just breath and find good things to think about and you will always get through it. psycs are after all the most unforgiving and the most forgiving teacher out there when we are acually able to decipher to the advice it gives.

Adam I've been following you for years now, and although I have not brought myself to the point of physical brawn as you have in recent years, I always enjoy living vicariously through the stories of your experiences. It makes me feel inspired that you have and continue to put yourself on camera to do some of these things. I get that you're doing this for information and harm-reduction, but there's something about getting serious about psychedelics that's always made me feel apprehensive. Though with the coming of increasingly decriminalized psilocybin, I'm sure we will see other compounds follow suit. Sometimes I wish I knew more people... I love my friends but the rest of this town is either drunk or on crack, smack, dope, or meth...

Been waiting for a video thank the creator we finally have one. Now we need another thank youuu

Man you sound very happy after this trip. I'm happy about you!!!

Totally reminds me of my very intense mushroom "horrortrip". Same kind of ego dissolution, same fears, been completely on my own, completely lost.... until ego had lost all it's power to fight. From my experience the key is not looking forward to something, it's letting go and be ready to face whatever follows, and to die. MUCH more easy said than done, because eternity in this hell feels so real. But that was what instantly changed my trip to an "enlightenment" experience. Think this is what you are chasing Adam. Ultimately it's not about having a joyful trip, but about "coming" home and total clarity.

Adam, brother, your ending hit hard! Thank you! I felt like it was meant for me to hear...

That’s a beautiful experience. The insight is so valuable. I like how you describe it as a super power. It’s the act of taking responsibility for your experience. And what genuine spirituality is all about. Becoming aware that you are the creator of your experience. ❤️

This is so absolutely relateable from a couple of my experiences! Lol, appointment #2 of 6 in ketamine therapy completely broke me into cells I thought I wouldn't get back into my body 🚀

U helped me and friends safely navigate psyches thanks mr substance

Hey Adam, I love listening to your trips because they remind me of epilepsy. I know this sounds crazy but I'm one of those epileptic people who actually retain all of my memories from when I have seizures. Most people don't have any memories at all ages it's like they just have black outs. For years it was always terrifying for me mainly because of the visual hallucinations and not being able to control "myself" even though most of the time I don't even know I am a "self". The forgetting to breath or thinking I'm not breathing is the most terrifying. A couple of years ago I discovered your channel and other channels like yours. After listening to many testimonials, I began to draw a connection between my epilepsy trips and psychedelic trip reports. So many times I've left my body, observed my body from outside of my body, entered into different dimensions, traveled the entire cosmos, met Jesus plenty of times, many many geometric patterns and entities who have helped me lose my ego and guided me. Even though I've done several psychedelics in my youth I can honestly say that my favorite trips NOW are when I have seizures. I used to hate them and spent my whole entire adult life, hiding the fact that I have epilepsy from everyone. Now I 100% love my "super power" because I have something to compare it to and I get to have trips almost nightly without ever paying a dime. 😂 I used to be really really scared to talk about my seizures and what I've seen and experienced especially when it came to my hallucinations. Of course my biggest fear was always being afraid of someone thinking I'm insane because of mental illness taboo or that people just wouldn't believe me or understand my experiences. Since being able to open up about it, I have now encountered many others who have epilepsy who experience it the same way or similarly to the way I do. I really need to open up more about it on my channel.

This is grandios! Hearing you saying what I too think when I took too much psychoactive somewhat is like having a friend in my mind that's saying "oh yeah man I know what you know, we go through this together". Thanks for sharing Adam! Much love from Germany. And if you're reading this, I wish you the best possible perspective for your addiction as possible. You'll get this right, I fckng know it 😁

Great story man, I felt like I was there with you tripping, I could almost feel your dose, that’s crazy.

So happy to see you pop up in my subscriptions!! You are literally my favorite person to watch/listen to! You’re always so real about your experiences, and extremely entertaining!! Thank you for sharing and thank you for being you! As I said before, I just adore you! 🫶🏽🫶🏽

Adam , I felt like I was going through the trip with you , the fear part , the ego dissolution , the terror , my god it brought me back to my bad trip . But I do have to say , the last part was the best when you talked about choosing to see the good 👍, I’ve since decided to chill on this route for a bit and instead rely on faith and spirit to guide me towards healing and a breakthrough without the use of these substances although I am grateful for them . They Propelled me towards seeking the truth of my being .

Wonderfully told friend. I really appreciated hearing your experience

Holy WHAT you are so f-ing jacked compared to last time i watched. Good job! :D

i almost had an ego death but i didn’t take anything i was just going through extreme anxiety/spiritual experiences, like going crazy but at the same time i knew i wasn’t crazy, hallucinations and everything. At one point i felt like i was physically and mentally dying like i was gonna rest or be liberated from my ego /pass out , but then my mind took over and started thinking “you’re dying “ fear took over for a second , then i was okay with dying because i was going through extreme suffering , but i got an out of this world fear that i was going to die and go to hell , so that’s when my ego fought to stay alive . i still wonder what would be if i actually had an ego death , i was ready to die but i wasn’t ready to die and live in hell for eternity lol

One of the raddest trip reports yet! Lots of insights👁

I wish I was in the same room doing this trip along with you. I am the same bro, I would have said I’m here for my addiction personally issue, I’m very rebellious and we would have shared the best trip together. Thanks for your honest and one of the best reviews of any psychedelic experience I’ve seen! Much respect!

Ah thank you for sharing this Adam! You crack me up haha. This is one of my fav stories too. Very interesting facilitation. I’ve never been in a space where two different medicines were being served.. I really relate to your takeaway though, that’s a theme I’ve been working with. I’ve had a lot of dark times in ayahuasca and mushrooms but couldn’t figure out why. Eventually I realized it was my subconscious projection of how I tend to look at things negatively, and not that the medicine in and of itself is dark. Everything is a choice in this life to a certain degree and we have the power to shift our perspectives. Really amazing that you could find that in such an intense experience. It’s quite a challenge… I went to a San Pedro ceremony on New Years too but didn’t feel a damn thing. Ohhh the contrast. I wasn’t sure it was a medicine that you could really journey far on but clearly I’m mistaken. I shall not tread arrogantly next time, thank you for your service lol

You're a G Adam! Keep up the great work !

Whatever your doing different, keep doing it. Love ya bud

Happy new year, bro 🎉🎉👍👍🍾🍾🍻🍻

you describe so freaking perfectly how it feels when reality just becomes a whole questionmark and you don't know shit, i love it

Glad to see you with lots of energy!

Man, your explanations of the experiences you’ve had throughout your channel have immensely helped me to deal with my own shit. This one in particular I don’t think I’ll be trying in the near future 🤯, but sounds like a ride! As an addict myself & dealing with bipolar, I try to be careful about substances that alter my perception. Your channel has massively helped me out through the years & I can positively say that there are tons of people like me who also feel helped by you. Anyway, I’ll stop blabbering (I’m sue you don’t get to all of these- understandable), but thank you from the bottom of my heart!

as someone who can no longer do psychedelics (schizoaffective) i find solace in your videos so tyvm for continuing to make content 😊

This is why I don't trip with strangers in wierd environments. *Lots of people pointing out the splinter in Adam's eye while ignoring the log in their own. Why exactly are you watching this? It's 100% never been a channel on addiction or recovery.

Total awesome touching monumental ending to your realization in the experience

such good descriptions and story telling. I could relate to just about all of it...

Any time I've had a "challenging" time while on a psychedelic, I always tell myself that it always ends. I've never been in a bad place for long.

The chaos loop is how I've described it. Like static tv in color and eyeballs and all you can do is focus on one sound, mental image, sense or idea that just gets played over and over times seemingly infinity as you are stuck in chaos. Then you give up and after that you realize you are able to link 2 ideas or whatever, then 3, then more as reality starts to come back as the drug wears off. Then after the trip is over you can't shake this nagging feeling that maybe discipline and order is a good way to get through the chaotic nature of life cause after all it was order that saved you from that chaos, (or at least perhaps maybe I shouldn't knock it).

I've missed these kinda videos, loved it

Been doing a lot of research on mescaline and San Pedro/Wachuma recently planning for my first mescaline trip so this video is very timely for me.

this was AWESOME, there are not enough like buttons on earth for this video. Thank you!

Adam you ended this with the best advice for ALL psychonauts deserves an Oscar Nomination😅

To me the best part of a trip is the self discovery that happens when I'm exploring the world around me like a child that just learned to walk. Me looking at my environment around me helps me keep negativity at bay. Being outside in nature or in a cozy home with lots of character and things to look at with great music and good people is all I need to feel secure safe and look at the world in all its glory.