I made the decision to get out of a 3 year toxic and mentally abusive relationship TODAY and have never felt more lonely or devastated in my life. i got onto youtube to try to distract myself from the pain and your video was the first one that popped up. thank you for sharing this I really needed to hear that it gets better.

And there she is... The jaclyn of 8 yrs ago filming from her kitchen.. Genuine, funny, silly,... Great video!!

this is the woman we all missed.. truly radiant, genuine and full of life. Wishing you the best. ❤️

The last thing you’d say to Jon 😢 RIP We’re here for you Jaclyn and the Hill family ❤️ sending lots of love and prayers

This is how a Q & A is done! Not click bait and not only 5 questions answered. Appreciated👏

Oh my god, when you talked about the dad who cried and told you to never stop doing what you do cause you saved his daughter life.. oh my god too much, my eyes are wet. That is just, wow..

This video was so refreshing and almost pure in a way. idk if anyone else feels that but this was so comforting and real to watch ❤️

I feel like the Jaclyn I originally subscribed to is back!! I just wish she posted videos more often 😫

‘this is the brain God gave me and i have to work with it’ that’s a great perspective to have on depression and anxiety, thank you for being so open ❤️

Girl, this is the most real I’ve seen you and it makes me love you even more. Thank you for being you and being confident in that. ♥️ I appreciate you and your transparency so much.

Watching you blend your foundation is so satisfying.... like seeing your tan slowly getting to your face

Not gunna lie... I like Jaclyn but mainly came to watch this video because @RawBeautyKristi talked about how Jaclyn is a wizard/goddess with her bronzer and I've seen it so many times before, but still have to come watch 😂👏🏻🤷🏼‍♀️

you speak so sweetly of jon and it really is nice to see how after everything, you two are on great terms and are still great friends

Is it just me or is everyone else living for Jaclyn 2.0 out of a toxic relationship, living her best life, happy af, because ummmm me too

“Mommy’s drinking her medicine” seems so much heavier now that she’s revealed the reason for her weight gain. I pray she finds the love in herself. She’s an angel she deserves happiness.

This video made me legit love you more. You're always such a bright light and hearing your struggles with anxiety and depression made you so much more relatable. I have been struggling the hardest over the last 3 years and I started to fall in love with makeup and I have felt that it's helped me escaped and make me feel so much better. Thank you for this video, your honesty and what you do for the community, especially with all the disgusting drama going on now. Okay, I need your palette now!

A relationship is toxic when there is no longer respect and kindness

Wow Jaclyn, your attitude and your energy has shifted for the better. It’s very clear that you’re very happy and you have this natural beam that just made this entire video feel like I was sitting down with a BFF talking about some deep stuff! I haven’t felt like that in a long time with your videos tbh, but I’m glad you’re happy 💘

The happiness radiating from this video is so contagious, I’ve never seen Jaclyn so happy but I’m 1000% here for it!!! 🖤

Im seriously really starting to love her. I can see why shes so popular, as THIS jaclyn. Shes honestly a really cool person.

She is so much more full of LIFE now. She used to be so serious. Her energy different. SO HAPPY FOR U SIS💫

“If you had to tell Jon something for the last and final time, what would it be?” Jaclyn-“I’ll always love you, I’ll always care about you.” INSTANT TEARS!!! 😭❤️ Jaclyn you are an inspiration and your heart is gold.

So happy to hear you found your self-worth and your happiness. You’re glowing.

putting lemon on doritos is so normal in mexico, especially with hot sauce

Jaclyn, thank you so much for opening up. I was standing in Ulta one day, shortly after your morphe pallet had been released. I had the money and I had the desire to buy it. I picked it up, held it, and put it back down, never bought it. I walked out of the store. See..the thing was, I was in a very toxic, abusive relationship. I knew that if I spent the money on that beautiful pallet I was in for hell when he found out. I wish I could say I left him shortly after that but that would be a lie. I stayed with him until my children became at risk. And then we left. We left him, our home, our dogs, and moved 6 hours away. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, but my children and I were worth it. Life is a struggle for sure right now but I have my determination and it will get better. I really admire you and how far you’ve come. Keeping being awesome!

"This is the brain that God gave me" Literally, idk. This helped me so much in a weird way. I'm constantly going in and out, up and down with anxiety and depression. Like you, I am in therapy and it's just not "the cure all". You still have to live with the day to day and hearing you say that was very nice to hear and gave me some confidence. So thank you! So happy that you are in a good space right now, always remember that like IS the ups and downs. Love you so much!! Xoxo

I agree, this is the most naturall you I've seen in a long time!!! You are beautifull!!!

I LOVE this video. I deal with anxiety/depression as well and seeing someone as famous as you be so REAL is so inspiring and makes me not feel alone! I loved watching this, great way to start my day!! Thanks girl! I still dont have your AWESOME palette but hope to soon ❤❤ Keep being you and so kind, we need more people like you in the world!!!

43:00- What is the most important thing in your life right now? Jaclyn: Me. Then shrugs unapologetically. Yes Jaclyn. Yes! You can’t take care of others unless you take care of yourself first. Therapy is paying off. 👍😃❤️

Jaclyn, been a fan since 2014. I’ve been so happy that you’ve grown truly, but honestly I started to feel disconnected. But this video BROUGHT ME BACK!!! Felt so connected like the good ol days and laughed with the tv haha! Glad you’re doing so well.

“ I want to die very full” I FELT THAT QUEEN 😩🙌🏽 there is no better way to go

I love loved looooooved this video. You’re the only youtuber that i genuinely never skip through. I feel like i’m just hanging out with you. You’re so amazing. So real. I seriously love you jaclyn. ❤️

The only problem with this video is that it wasn’t longer. Your confidence is so radiant.

Thank you for answering that question about toxic relationships. I'm in tears now. Thank you for reminding me it gets better and that I deserve better. 💕

Mad respect for you being patient and grateful for your subscribers when they see you out in public. Honestly, I’d get so annoyed and claustrophobic to always have to be stopped when I’m out and about in my day lol

Jaclyn, watching you bake and those strong bake lines is the most satisfying thing to ever watch.

Remember when she was too nervous/ didn't like filming in front of people, even Jon. The personal growth is beautiful. ❤❤❤❤

This. Is. The Jaclyn. I. Fell. In. Love. With. GREAT VIDEO and the aura was airy and light, even during the real heavy hitting questions. Xoxo.

I've been with my husband 15 years now, celebrating 10 years married this December. When you talked about toxic relationships it really rings true. Before my husband I only ever knew the rollercoaster, always feeling like if I didn't do x, y, or z that they would leave. Feeling insecure, normalizing and eventually believing that I would never find something more, because when it was good it was great. So then it became almost looking forward to the lows so we could make up and experience the highs... anyway, when I met my husband I experienced calm for the first time. I didn't feel like I was constantly fighting to keep someone, constantly fighting to make things work. If you leave a relationship after genuinely trying, you aren't giving up, you can mutually decide that you care about each other (or cared about each other at one point) enough that you both deserve a chance to find happiness again.

I am so thankful for your teaching style in your videos! I learned how to wear makeup because of you. Because of you, I felt confident enough to sign up with my favorite cosmetics company and start doing videos on Facebook creating looks and teaching about makeup! Love you and thank you!

When you said doing a full face of makeup gives you confidence and helps with your anxiety, I felt that is my soul. Doing my makeup is therapy for me and when I don't wear it I don't feel like me. Thanks for this video, you are so brave to answer these tough questions. You seriously give me life and have taught me so much since 2013!

Hi Jaclyn! Thank you SO much for the shout out! We absolutely LOVE you!

WOW Jaclyn is actually REALLY GORGEOUS without makeup.

"Mommy's drinking her medicine" is 100% me though

This. This is my favorite version of Jaclyn. You are glowing and I love your energy.

You can definitely tell she's in a different space just mentally! I'm loving it ❤️

Hey Jaclyn! Thank you for saying that you would do makeup to relax! My dad stresses me out so bad and when I'm angry or stressed I go in my room and sit down and just do my makeup for SOOO LONG

@jaclynhill Thank you for doing this Q&A. I currently suffer debilitating anxiety and depression, and there are so many days that I don’t see myself making it out. I come and watch your videos, and literally they remind me that I’m human, and I’m not alone. Thank you for being you, Jaclyn.

You answered my girlfriend’s question in the video and made her SO HAPPY. Wanted to thank you 😁

It’s fascinating to me that someone asked about a toxic relationship, and you gave an amazing answer. I remember a Q&A from YEARSSSS AGO you talked about a toxic relationship and it honestly made me realize the toxic relationship I was in and it really opened my eyes and helped me end it. Thankyou so much because I’m in the most beautiful relationship now because of you ❤️

Jaclyn “my pain tolerance is really high” Also Jaclyn “laser hurts so bad I can’t handle it”

You are so inspiring! I’m also a cancer.. no wonder I love you!! Also what you said about your dad and going back to tell yourself things won’t last forever totally spoke to me. I grew up in a super toxic family and I had to get out and do my own thing for my own mental health and I just love that you understand that and that you’re so inspiring and successful. ❤️❤️❤️

I have been following Jaclyn since the red head days and this video made me so happy. THIS is the pure Jaclyn Hill and I think this is the best video she has ever posted? Love you Jaclyn! forever my favorite youtuber.

I know you've had people on set before to help film but this video felt different! I loved that you had someone ask you the questions. It felt like we were having a conversation with you and it felt like you were more at ease with answering the tough questions. ❤ I'm here for this 2k19 realizing Jaclyn.

Jaclyn: I send out pallets all the time Everyone: my palette broke!!

I watched that entire video and enjoyed every minute! Jaclyn is the OG! And I love her palettes! Very fun!

damn remember the days jaclyn couldn't even film if Jon was in the house lol, now you got a team girl, we've come so far

I loved her attitude here. She felt so relaxed, and hilarious too!

I go through phases of watching jaclyn and I fall in love with her everytime. She’s such a pick me up! 🥰

When she said forgiveness and kindness and goodness, it reminded me of Joey in Friends when he’s writing his speech for Chandler and Monica’s wedding 😂

“God brought an angel to me” Me: looks at my dog.

Been disconnected from this channel for a while but this video def brought me back.

When you said salon that spoke to me on a personal level I’m going to college for cosmetology and I love it and that’s goals!

your energy in this video was amazing i love it. love to see you laughing so much makes me feel good and nice to get away from the drama in the makeup community and see people like you still thriving

Your hella committed to your make up base... your sponge work is admirable 😂

“Mommy is drinking her medicine.” I feel that on a spiritual level 😂💀

Jaclyn just know that we are here for you and that you inspire us all. If you are hurting we are hurting. If you cry we cry. If you are happy we are happy. You mean a lot to us and we will support you through everything and anything. I love you so much and I want you to know thaf

I loved watching your videos before but after watching this I respect you so much, you've been through so much in life and I am glad it's you that has a platform and uses it in a way to help those that need it. The part about not doing something because of a man, YES QUEEN

This is the Jaclyn I fell in love with years ago! I’ve missed you so much girl. Glad to see your happiness truly shine thru again. 💕

Imagine watching this video and you’re the one who grabbed Jaclyn’s arm and stared at her without saying a word lol

That fast answer "What is the most important thing in your life?" "Me." I love that so much. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

I love how realistic she is and just fun! I’ll always be a ride or die for Jaclyn!❤️

Dude I’m amazed on how she acknowledges god and all of his glory yesssss Jaclyn u keep giving god glory and he’ll continue to bless you with all that u deserve u watch

WHY DID I GET SO EMOTIONAL when she said to Jon “I will always love you.” Damn that hit hard 😭

You are amazing!!!! I’m a 43 y/o single mom of a 5 y/o who used to love makeup, and kept up with trends, etc. During pregnancy, I basically gave up, and over time, literally forgot, no lie. Then, makeup totally progressed, and I felt like i was just too gone to even try. Then...I found you... I’m still watching, and just taking baby steps, but thank you for just being you, and being so honest and down to earth. You’re totally different than all the rest.

Hi Jaclyn! Thank you for being so transparent. This past year has been a rollercoaster for me as well and I find constant inspiration through your videos (whether it’s from your makeup looks to you being true to yourself). I grew up in a very controlling/judgmental environment and that trickled into the kinds of relationships I let into my life. One relationship was so toxic that I moved to Seattle from LA completely on my own to make a life change and make my own happiness. I met the man of my dreams in Seattle and he has shown me only unconditional love and has been my rock, biggest supporter, and absolute best friend! I am so glad that you have found love and happiness! I have grown up watching your videos and you seem so happy now! Your laugh even sounds happier! One year ago I was working at a retail store and got into a work accident due to someone else’s mistake and broke my foot. I have been struggling with anxiety and depression harder than ever before and have been out of work for a year due to crippling ptsd and anxiety. Although the hardest year of my life, I have learned so much and your video hit my heart strings. Doing my makeup helps my anxiety as well. It gives me something that I’m proud of and quiets the never-ending thoughts running through my mind. Your highlighter/blush palette with Becca was my first luxury makeup purchase which started a deep love of makeup and self expression (and shining like a diamond!). Makeup has been a source of joy for me and something that I have worked hard to purchase for myself. I haven’t been able to buy any new makeup this past year due to work and finances, but I’m saving up to buy your eyeshadow palette! Maybe I’ll just keep saving until your makeup line comes out! Lol. I love you so much! Thanks for inspiring so many of us! 💖💖💖

I’ll be honest- your videos last year made me so bored and not excited (harsh and bitchy, I know!!). THIS had me smiling, had my eyes watering, made my heart melt. You are such a gem. You seem so down to earth and I am so happy for you and your new love for life. You are really taking care of YOU and it shows. This video was such a breath of fresh air. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for you.

Omg Jaclyn I just fell back in love with you again not in a weird way lol. It is so apparent how happy and in love you are. Just relate to you so much and appreciate your message.

Watching her do her make up is sooooo satisfying. . . Why is that?

"i hate tropical scents. i live in florida. i want to escape." 🤣

Omg this video was so fun to watch it had me cackling 😭💀

Yes JACLYN is back.... This is the Jaclyn i love watching just soo normal and down to earth💕💕

Haven’t watched you in a while, but you genuinely look happy! Love ya❤️

You have helped me with my anxiety and depression! I have suffered with anxiety and depression since I was 7 or 8 and it’s been so hard! I hope you see this; but you are truly an amazing person and have helped me on my lowest days! Love you Jaclyn💜💜💜

Someone: What's the most important thing in your life right now? Jaclyn: Me. The way you said that was so confident and self assured. I love it.

Watching you genuinely be yourself and be happy literally makes my heart so happy for you. You’re definitely in a good place rn honey and I’m here for it.

I’m just over here waiting on the next Jaclyn’s Journey video

Can we please talk about this queen's intro like ??? Godesssssss 😍

Lmaoooo Jaclyn! Every Mexican watching this video is not surprised that Limón goes on Doritos and with salsa Valentina it takes it to another level 🔥🔥

For whatever reason, when you said you still talked to Jon, it made me tear up. That's maturity and growth right there. Kudos to you! And as a Cancer, I was nodding my head when you said loving doing the same time all the time!

This was the best video you’ve put out in years ❤️ so happy your happy!

Every single thing you answered, was completely 100% me. It’s so weird to hear someone be exactly like you that you’ve never met💕 you are pretty freaking awesome chica🤗

Non-boring, heavy Q&A whilst getting ready with your gal, Jaclyn

The way she described anxiety and depression just hit me and I felt that I’m not alone. Seeing that you can overcome such hard times and live your best life really gives me a lot of hope. Thank you Jaclyn ❤️

“That landed right in my drink” Good, now your drink is like our lipsticks ☺️

I love your videos and I can’t even imagine how you are feeling with all that is going on now. I’ve followed you for years and watched how you have grown. I’m wishing you much strength during this difficult time.

Jaclyn we NEED an updated skincare routine, your skin is AMAZING

Video request: do a met gala inspired makeup please

I laughed all 44 minutes and 26 seconds. This is the Jaclyn that we love so much!

I’m just curious how powdery her face looks in real life bc sista going innnnn with that powder 😂😂