Were close to being able to hit a top 10 record spot, maybe even a number one! Pretty unbelievable for an independent record! You can help push that even further! Pre-order the Sick Boi album by clicking this link! bio.to/Ren-Sick-Boi As always here are the lyrics for anyone who wants them, thankyou so much for watching this, really proud of it, im doing everything independently so if it moved you in someway it would mean the world to me if you gave it a share as it will help spread it all over the world :) Also out on streaming platforms too! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/hiren Hi there Ren It's been a little while, Did you miss me? You thought you’d buried me, didn't you? Risky… Because I always come back Deep down you know that… Deep down you know I'm always in periphery Ren aren't you pleased to see me? it's been weeks since we spoke bro, you know you need me You’re the sheep, I'm the shepherd Not your place to lead me Not your place to be biting off the hand that feeds me Hi Ren I’ve been taking some time to be distant I’ve been taking some time to be still I've been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I'm ill I've been making some progress lately, and I've learnt some new coping skills So I haven't really needed you much man I think we need to just step back and chill Ren, you sound more insane than I do You think that those doctors are really there to guide you? Been through this a million times Your civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied to Okay, take another pill boy Drown yourself in the sound of white noise Follow this 10 step program, rejoice! All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy Nah mate, this time it's different man trust me I feel like things might be falling in place And my music's been kinda doing bits too Like I actually might do something great And when I'm gone maybe I'll be remembered For doing something special with myself That's why I don't think that we should talk man Cause when your with me it never seems to help You think that you can amputate me? I am you, you are me, you are I, I am we We are one, split in two that makes one so you see You got to kill you if you wanna kill me. I'm not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the side, oh your music is thriving? Delusional guy! Where's your top ten hit? Where's your interview with Oprah? Where are your grammes Ren? Nowhere! Yeah but, my music's not commercial like that I never chased numbers, statistics or stats I Never write hooks for the radio, they never even play me so why would Iconcernn myself with that? But my music is really connecting, And the people who find it respect it , And for me that's enough ‘cause this life's been tough so it gives me a purpose I can rest in Man you sound so pretentious ! Ren your music is so self centred, No one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself… trust me You should be so lucky having me inside you to guide you, remind you to manage expectations, provide you perspective, that thing you neglected, I get it You wana be a big deal… Next jimi hendrix? forget it Man it's not like that Man it's just like that I'm inside you you twat Nah it's not man your wrong, when I write I belong Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song Ren sits down, Has a stroke of genius, He wants to write a song that was not done previous A battle with his subconscious… Eminem did it Played on guitar Plan B did it Man your not original you criminal, rip off artist, the pinnacle of your success is stealing other people's material Ren mate we've heard it all before Ohh "she sell sea shells on the sea shore" Fuck you I don't need you, I don't need to hear this, cause I'm fine by myself, I'm a genius! and I will be great, and I will make waves, and ill shake up the whole world beneath us That's right speak your truth, your fucking god complex leaks out of you It's refreshing to actually hear you say it! In stead of down play it… “Oh the music Is all about the creative process and if people can find something to relate to within that the that's just a bonus” Fuck you ima fucking kill you Ren Well fucking kill me then let's fucking have you Ren I'm a do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music? ‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die Yeah I call the shots and so i who choose who survives I'll tie you up in knots then I'll lock you inside News flash… I was created at the dawn of creation, I am temptation I am the snake in Eden, I am the reason for treason Beheading all Kings, I am sin with no rhyme or reason, Sun of the morning, Lucifer, Antichrist, father of lies, Mestophilies, Truth in a blender, Deceitful pretender, The Banished avenger, The righteous surrender When standing in-front of my solar eclipse, My name it is stitched to your lips so see I won't bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normal You wana kill me? I'm enteral, immortal I live in every decision that catalysed chaos That causes division I live inside death, the beginning of ends I am you, you are me, I am you Ren Hi Ren… I’ve been taking some time to be distant, I’ve been taking some time to be still I’ve been taking some time to be by myself and I've spent half my life ill But just as sure as the tide start turning Just as sure as the night has dawn Just as sure as rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm I was made to be tested and twisted I was made to be broken and beat I was made by his hand, it's all part of the plan that I stand on my own two feet And you know me my will is eternal And you know me you've met Me before Face to with a beast I will rise from the east and I'll settle on the ocean floor And I go by many names also Some people know me as hope Some people know me as the voice that you hear when u loosen the noose on the rope And you know how I know how I know that I'll prosper? Because I stand here beside you today I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain And I didn't once flinch or shake So cower at the man I've become When I sing from the top of my lungs That I won't retire I'll stand in your fire inspire the meek to be strong And when I am gone I will rise In the music that I left behind Ferocious persistent, immortal like you we’re a coin with two different sides When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, into a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil, and for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences... With Illness, autoimmunity and psychosis As I got older I realised that there were no real winners or no real losers in physiological warfare But there were victims and there were students It wasn’t David verses Goliath, it's was a pendulum eternally swaying between the dark and the light, and the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast It was never a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance, and like a dance, the more rigid I became the harder it got The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps the more i suffered And so I got older and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften, and that dance got easier It is this eternal waltz that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings.

Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed. I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head. When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus. These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between. My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished. My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world. The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war. For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person. I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought. Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours. I can't wait for you all to hear it.

I’m just a 73 year old man who over my years on this earth have learned to appreciate all forms and styles of music. I rarely comment on the majority of artists I have stumbled upon in my search for good music but you sir are one of those very rare artists that I’ve heard who can span the distance of age. Your music, style and emotion in your performance is refreshing to this old man and my belief in the younger generation of musical artists. I look very much forward to listening to more of your creations, for they are not mere songs that you share, they are life.

In 9 minutes and 20 seconds, I went from Smiling > Laughing > Empathizing > Appreciating > Enjoying > Respecting > Marveling > Feeling Disrupted > Feeling Inspired > and … CRYING… and then when the song ended, sitting speechless for a long while. This is the first time I have come across your music, and you are right, you are a GENIUS! Better yet, you’re a captivating artistic genius! Thank you for putting this into the world! WOW!

I’m 60, a musician and producer and I’ve heard so many great songs. But this is the most important piece of music I’ve ever heard. Period. The world has changed, but most people just don’t know it yet.

This is no longer a song. This is no longer music. This is a soul splitting open and exploding into art.

I wanted to make this track one of the most honest and raw pieces i've made. All live stripped back with just me and a guitar, It's probably my proudest works to date, and I cant wait for you guys to see it, remember to turn on the notifications button to be reminded to join me at the premier next Thursday at 7pm GMT. See you guys there. So excited for you guys to see this

When this came out I was homeless, on drugs, and then jail. I now have a house, job, and husband. This song and “Clover Cage - In the Moment” are the two songs that helped get rid of my depression. I just want to send love to everyone and I want everyone to know things will get better. We are in this together..I love you ❤️😊

Oh my God. I am just hearing this for the first time and I am speaking the truth when I say this is one of the most beautiful works of art I have ever witnessed. You sir, are an amazing artist. There isn't one person on this earth who can't identify with this song. Simply perfect. Bravo.

"The people who find it respect it." Indeed.

I´m a 58 year old man from Belgium with a lovely wife and great sons, but unfortunately I went through the deepest dark for two-three years due to a number of reasons. But since april last year I feel good again (what a feeling! - since I didn´t expect it any more) thanks to therapy, that I didn´t want /avoided way to long. But the real lifesavers/lifechangers in that period were... artists/video´s on You Tube. If Michael Stipe (R.E.M.) didn´t sing 'Hold on/Hang on' in Everybody Hurts, I doubt if I would still be here. If Nightbirde didn´t sing ´It´s okay´ on AGT and didn´t say ´You can´t wait until life isn´t hard anymore before you decide to be happy', maybe I´d still be depressed. Just to say: I saw THIS video (and the reactions on YT to it) two days ago and I know FOR SURE this changes the life/thoughts of many people, this saves lives. Ren = hope. Because he´s real. Because he´s been there. Because he´s a (beautiful) human being...

I’ve been sick more than half my life. In kindergarten I was diagnosed with ADHD. In seventh grade it was maniac depression. Then in ninth grade it was anxiety and ocd. Around 5 years ago my physical pain started to become worse than the mental pain, and I was diagnosed with lupus. Thank you for writing this song, and thank you for giving me and the millions of others who live in perpetual darkness hope.

I am a psychiatric nurse. I actually learned about you from another psych. nurse. Your music is spreading and inspiring both patients and staff. Thank you for doing this. It makes a difference. It really does.

- you did something great - you will be remembered - you did something special - your music is really connected - your music is respected - you made waves - you shaked the world - you are hope

I wish I had discovered this song 3 weeks ago. My Dad (step but my Dad my whole life) has struggled with mental health issues for a very long time. He hung himself on the 11th. If I had seen this then, I would have sent it to him. He was an incredible man. He was insanely intelligent and he was a musician like you. He had actually gotten back together and played with his band again a couple weeks before (back in the day he played guitar and sang). Though he worried he wouldn't be able to sing well enough ever again. But at least that brought him a little bit of joy in the week leading up. I know that he would have appreciated this song so much. I'm almost positive that it would have resonated with him. And idk I just feel that maybe if I had sent this, it could have given him hope and strength. Maybe filled him with motivation to overcome. I guess I'll never know and there is no point in wondering. But just know I appreciate this song entirely. It also gives me a bit of hope.

I don't know how I ended up here, but I am so glad I did... What a piece of art.

This isn't a song. It's a journey through the struggle of the mind.

I have come to the conclusion that this performance should win both a Grammy and an Oscar!

It took me 56 years to get to listen to your song. It took me 56 years of imbalance, turmoil and strife, only for my life to begin again. This song and your performance, Ren, has had a profound effect on me. It has stirred feelings in me I never knew existed. Thank you. You're an inspiration.

this was a wild experience, thank you

It doesn't even feel like 9 minutes, what an amazing track

Fucking perfect. Concept. Performance. Lyrics. Message. Cinematography. Deserves a Grammy. Bravo!

I'ma paraplegic confined to a hospital bed.. I've been in the same spot for over five years now.. i just found this song.. it's.. amazingly helpful in dark time's.. which there are a lot of, and a lot of time laying here to dwell deep inside thise dark places.. you can begin to loose these balles.. one small battle at a time that seem meaningless.. untill you add them up one day and it feels like a break.. music has power.... it's a pendulum and it will get brighter.. saved me a few times..

I watched this for the first time 2 weeks ago. Since then I’ve watched every video on this channel and listened to every song I could find. I have POTS, EDS and a kidney disease. I can only stand for about 10 minutes before almost passing out. Also, due to a bad reaction to some meds, I’ve also dealt with psychosis. I am beyond thankful to see someone writing about experiences like mine. I’ve cried more in the last 2 weeks watching and listening to Ren more than I’ve ever cried for any music before all combined. I’m absolutely astonished. Thank you for everything you’ve done, Ren.

"And the people who find it respect it." Facts Ren. Facts.

I commented under one of Ren's other songs talking about my depression. I have never seen so much support from another community online. YOU GUYS (including Ren) are the real treasure. Keep being awesome, the world needs you!

I read about this artist in a Reddit thread that was discussing music. The comment specifically mentioned this song. It’s been a very long time since I’ve seen something this authentic and powerful. The emotion and the passion with how you express yourself in these lyrics is phenomenal. This is a masterpiece and it’s wonderful to see that your song has touched so many people ❤

My daughter has had ME/CFS and POTS for two and a half years and counting with no end in sight. You are an incredible gust of hope and inspiration to us. Thank you for sharing this with the world.

Ren, Im a 38 year old U.S. Navy Corpsman who has been dealing with PTSD and i cant ever tell anyone how it feels to be at battle with your own insides but your song makes to so clear what its like and i cant thank you enough or your words they are beyond worthy of any award in the world but i hope my thanks is enough at this moment.

"You gotta kill you if you wanna kill me" that line always hits me like a freight train.

This is not only a song it's reality for some of us and the way you created this is amazing and hats off to all your music continue to stay humble and real to all the viewers who suffer from bipolar stay strong life is beautiful and more with you in it ! Reach for help and if anyone needs a friend to talk to I'm here to listen because even I need someone sometimes even if I just want to cry and vent out you always need someone to dry your tears Peace and love will take us so far away ❤❤❤ thank you

I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 1 after struggling with mania and depression for the last 15 years. This song does such a good job of describing the extreme ups and downs. Thank you.

It's like Shakespeare was reborn, learnt guitar, wrote a rap lyric, and staged his own performance. Stupendous.

Ren, as a physician I would like to thank you for this monumental exploration of the human condition. This is exactly what those of us that have suffered with psychic distress needed. Shame on CNN and their editorial and journalistic malpractice in creating the impression that your music is somehow dangerous to those having suicidal ideation. Of course, anything and anyone can be blamed for romanticizing self-harm but in my professional opinion, there is a greater therapeutic healing associated with an honest approach to this subject. CNN should be ashamed of themselves.

That lines hits so hard...every...single...time..."some people know me as the voice they hear when they loosen the noose on the rope" HOPE is what keeps pushing humanity forward.

I absolutely LOVE songs like this, I pick the songs/artists I like/love based off of their lyrical content and the sound of the beat/instrumental arrangement (s)....🖤😍🖤😍 PLEASE DON'T STOP MAKING MUSIC. 🖤🖤🖤🖤

When a 9+ minute song feels like it’s 30 seconds. Phenomenal. I got chills.

I come back to this song regularly to remind myself to not give up. I'm a 43yo single dad who's been raising 3 girls for mostly on my own for the last 10 years. I've been to the darkest depths of my mind and have been on the edge of giving up too many times. This song reminds me that I'm not alone and I'm stronger than I've led myself to believe. My eyes have leaked countless times while listening to this song. I can't put into words how this song truly effects me. One of these days I hope to give you a hug and shake your hand.

This is not just music .. it is art . You should be proud bro you've created something beautiful

I’m so sorry. I’m sending you lots of respect and also lots of hugs…

My little Brothers name is REN. Ren went missing and I thought he was dead. I searched the internet high and low for clues and then I came upon your video HI-REN. It was as if My brother was singing his personal Anthem. You share his name and his struggle. After 5 months I found my brother safe. I shared with him this video, we watched it together and cried from the deepest part of our souls. Your message is so needed in this chaotic world and HOPE is the light we look to. In pure gratitude for your gift…. Thank you Ren.

I’m a therapist in my 60’s, this dragged me from high to low to high again, just like the pendulum Ren describes. Standing ovation from me 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

Update: Ren was played on the radio today, Sick Boi sounded at BBC6music ❤

When i first lestened to this, the first 90 secs i thought "Wtf is this?"..... After listening to it hundreds of times ive decided its a lyrical masterpiece. I'm also sure it speaks to a lot of people battling the same demons. Fantastic piece of music 🎶 👏

Ren is a legend. His music truly powerful. U can tell theres nothin but passion in this. Huge inspiration... listening to this on christmas after getting my heartbroken... 3,5 years of my life i gave my all to this girl and in the end I got nothing to show for it. I made a song about it to express my feelings and help people going through the same thing.. Lonliness hurts and I hope to inspire people to use heartbreak as a motivation for their passion. Dropped the song yesterday, to anyone that takes the time to check me out and join me on the journey to success, I will forever be thankful. Right now it means more than anything💔🙏

I teach computer programming on my channel and this is the first time I’ve shared a non-programming related video on my community feed because I felt like it had such a good message for folks to hear. Really respect the art of this song man. Thanks so much for sharing.

Just found this song by accident and have been listening to it on repeat for the whole day. This song isn't just music but it connects to the listeners soul and tells them a deep meaningful story.

Music is extremely important to my dad, which is why it's important to me too. He has a pristine record collection of every record he bought through his entire life. Rolling Stones, Bob Dylan, The Beatles, Janis Joplin, Led Zeppelin, Van Morrison. It goes on and on. I've heard stories about Led Zeppelin concerts. When I was a kid my parents took me to see Bob Dylan, Van Morrison and Joni Mitchell. Every night my parents watch music on KZfaq which is how they discover new music. My dad told me you have to check out this artist Ren. So I did and I was blown away. Today my dad said Ren is the most talented musician of this generation. This comes from a man who knows.

This is an incredible piece of art. So proud of you, Ren. Stay strong for us.

I was a teenager in the 80's and music was my passion. My spirit. I got older. Got pulled under by life. I lost my passion along the way. It's been a very long time since I came across music that touched me and made me feel that connection again. A month or two ago you popped up in my recommendations and I clicked. I am very glad that I did because for the first time, in a very long time, you've helped me feel that passion again. Thank you Ren. You have a gift that does not come along often.

Mate, what a fucking track. I've no words. Here in Australia I'm a mental health & AOD peer support worker, both in community & an acute, inpatient setting. My lived/living experience does not include audio & visual hallucinations (that I didn't seek deliberately with substance) so I have always felt ill-equipt to support our consumers who live with this. I have tried to understand, to some degree, this condition but with very little success. This piece of artistic expression has given me a far greater understanding of this experience than I've been able to get from any conversations I've had. Certainly conversations had with doctors but also conversations with consumers. While I want to know, I want to understand as much as I can without experiencing, I don't feel comfortable to explore a consumers world too deeply. Thank you brother for allowing me to sit here and get even a small understanding (far more than I had previous). The Universe is ours to play in and with all the injustice in the world, bless you for the justice in the way you commentate/referee this part of the game for us 🙏🏼 Almost forgot. It says your album (vinyl) is not in stock and it will let me know. Will it be reprinted? 🤞🏼 I would absolutely love to have your work on vinyl, if possible. Keep dancin' brother ✌🏼

I just discovered this song, it is such a breath of fresh air. I know its cliche but it helps to realize that no matter what you're going through, you're never truly alone qnd there's always hope. I look forward to diving down this rabbit hole.

I am a woman in my seventies. I gave up on today’s music , for some years now, then last week, I heard Ren!! I haven’t felt so excited, inspired and enthralled by music, since I first heard David Bowie in the 70’s...... he said, Rock was the art form of the working class.... I think Ren just gave a voice to a whole generation of disenfranchised young people of today, and those of all ages struggling with their own mental health..... deep and wonderful , thank you Ren ❤️

I am 53 years old and making music since 15. But this guy is a genius. This is perfect Art. I really respect him and what he is doing !

This song is my life. This song is my mantra. This song has saved me through my darkest times.. Renegades unite! 🙏🏻❤

This reminds me a lot of when I'm trying to write my own art. I always feel like I'm walking a thin line between inspirational and pompous, trying to keep balance. I wont claim to be an artist but this track you've gifted everyonehere with has helped me put things in to perspective better. The more media i find like this, the easier it gets to understand what i want and how i intend to go about getting it. Thank you.

I've been in and out of the mental hospital since I was a teenager, by my count eight times now. Without sharing my diagnoses (I have a lot), I regularly have psychosis on top of mood swings and panic attacks, and as hard as its been for me, it's been harder for my family that can't understand. My father showed me this, and I think he was excited to be able to feel connected to me through music that he could relate to my mental health problems. I'm not really one to leave comments, but I wanted to say thank you.

Well done KZfaq, you finally recommended sommething actually Good!

For all of you struggling with the devil inside that makes us do the things we don't want to do like use and drink and whatever you do that you don't want to do. Use this song as a way to stop, cope, and feel better about yourself. It's not easy and you're not alone

In it’s own special way, a very clever arrow. Thank you, My Friend.

I was done. Finished. Ready to check out. My military career, over. My children, raised. I was okay with becoming a statistic. I wondered, “where will I fall? 18, 12….22?” Then this song popped into my feed. Thank you Ren. Your song was like a friend reaching out in the dark to grab me just before I fall into the sweet abyss. I know there’s a lot of work ahead…but I have to save myself…I deserve being saved. Thank you. Your music is saving lives. Big love to you!

Jesus this brought me to tears. Lost my son just over a year ago to suicide, he was 19. He was a coding genius and game publisher at just 14 and even interned at a university in China at aged 15. Not bad for a kid from a Belfast council estate. My son struggled with his mental health for a large part of his life and just ten minutes ago I sat with his picture talking to him and then this comes up on my KZfaq, it honestly feels like my son is guiding and communicating from the other side and letting my know the struggles he faced and letting me understand. Thank you Ren.

My 18 years old son just got diagnosed with schizophrenia. Watching this and crying.

I am 47 years old. You young sir, are Amazing! Thank you for this song as well as an Exceptional Performance!!! Ive been checking out your music and I cant get enough! Bravo!!!!!

well this is magical

I work in Suicide Prevention I will be definitely telling callers to listen to your song. I think this song will understand we all have darkness and light and we have to learn the dance and appreciate ourselves. I think this song will help them. ❤️

My son who is a marine sent me this song and asked me to watch it. I did and immediately loved it. You did a phenomenal job with this song, and I am so proud of you! Awesomeness!!!

I'm 48 years old and I didn't know Ren until today. I discover him today with this piece, this story. By chance. I am overwhelmed as I have rarely been. This is more than music. Thank you.

I had never heard of or listened to Ren until today. This isn’t music, this is performance artistry personified ❤

I am also called Ren, and that's probably the only reason I found this masterpiece...scrolling thru vids until I saw 'HI REN' and from that moment I was captured. This was amazing! I can't wait to hear more. Thanks Ren.

I just found you tonight while i was down a wormhole of new music and i just wanna say wow... you are truly amazing. Thank you for sharing your art ❤

My oldest son took his life 3 weeks ago. He regretted not joining the 27 club. The funeral was packed. He never realized how many people loved him and were sad. He was 28. Drugs and depression. Take care of yourself and your friends and family. I question everything now with my two younger boys. Be there for them.

As a war veteran with brain injuries, many demons, and constant rumination this speaks to me. Thanks for this.

Musical Art …

There are many fabulous musicians out there. But Frank. My eyes are watering, you just brought me to tears! You are amazing.

I'm a 50 yr old man who has struggled with demons most of my adult life. On listening to this it was like those demons fucked off for a while. I cried for hrs after listening this transcends music. This is healing, this is cathartic. Cheers man.

As a 73 year old with a life ripped apart by multiple and severe chronic conditions it has been impossible to describe or articulate any or even some of the devastation these conditions cause both physically and emotionally. I am pleased that I have survived long enough to discover that there is a Bard who is capable of articulating these complex feelings. This is perhaps the most cathartic piece of art I have ever witnessed. I thank you for it. My sorrow is the dark journey you have had to undertake on our behalf. I applaud you sir and hope you survive and flourish the world needs you. I have great hope for you because of your conclusion in realising that "And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings" Get well the world needs you

This song is so complex that like a good movie you can watch it many times and find something new .. like in the intro when he’s playing a cheerful intro but throws a few off notes in there to let your ears know something is not quite right.. I could safely say this is a modern day classic in the lines of a Bohemian Rhapsody or songs if this nature but done on a solo classical guitar .. mind blowing and I’m 60 so that’s high praise

This song is the most honest and transparent song I have ever heard from an artist. It blows my soul wide open. there is nothing more freeing and inspiring than an artist willing to speak truth when everything inside him tells him different. I guarantee you have reached millions of people with this one song alone. We all battle the voices within and everybody knows it whether they talk about it or not, it's a part of our humanity, and you just concorde the negative stronghold that had tormented you for half your life. Praise God! Thank you, Ren!

As a Veteran who has struggled and battled with PTSD for 13 years, this song hits harder than anything I've watched or listened to. I know all too well that voice which isn't your own, putting you down at every turn. Thank you for creating this raw, emotional and beautiful masterpiece.

Kicked heroin a year and half ago after 12 years of using and trying to just end it man. To be be fully honest with yall. This song has meant more than any song I've ever heard. I can't express it. Truly. How can one put into words the way a piece of art shakes and breaks your entire soul. Thank you. Thank you for creating. Thank you all for being here to support and relate to this.. I love you. You are beautiful. Things get better.

Ren, this is absolutely amazing. I am a mental health therapist and I have never seen such a perfectly captured depiction of this battle that so many face in the world. There are certainly more worlds than we see. You will be heard by so many and give hope through the comfort of "it is not just me". Thank you and your universe for this!!

"The people who find it respect it." we respect it

We lost our son to depression. Your music helps us. Thank you.

You saved the life of a young man I worry about. I'm a retired teacher and after bumping into him in town, I sent him this. I envisage a huge crowd marching on Parliament to stop the attack on the NHS funding for young people's mental health with everyone singing this together. You have given me, an old lady hope. To see this amount of passion and determination in the younger generation is exhilarating. But more than that Ren - you saved a life.

This is right up there with Buckley’s Hallelujah. Took my breath away. Standing ovation from me by the time he got to the “hope” segment (when he stands), because he didn’t drop the ball, he raised the bar, and then that speech at the end, left me speechless. This is genius. Congratulations on this masterpiece.

Literally doesn't matter how many times I listen. I am blown away more than the time before. This is the lesson of perseverance and resilience. Not victimhood. Thank you for sharing your music with the world. I will always be grateful.

this guy has a loyal fan base. 75% of his subscriber count watched this in 3 days of uploading

I’ve never experienced a song making me cry before. Today is 29 days sober. Fuck the cravings, I’m making it to 29 years. Edit: 7 and a half months and counting, I can’t express how much better my life is

You ve made a 50 yrs old man cry. Thank You! I forgot to be weak. The world didnt let me be.

There are certain people born in every generation that are just.. more. Sometimes it's the voice that catches your interest in the beginning but even that changes. The more you listen the more you realize that they are a lot more than that. In history bards were the ones that car around fires singing songs, but more importantly they were the ones that passed on history. Through them you learned about what came before, and with their tones, strumming, and words they learned what not to repeat from the past, and more importantly they gave hope for the future. They could make you laugh, cry, THINK. They are the ones that stir those feelings of love, hate, comradery... and so much more. Through their voice they sway history, for the better or worse. You not only share your history and what you have gone through, but make people think and open their eyes to what's going on around them. What's REALLY going on. You not only show them, us, but let everyone know they aren't alone. There are others going through the same things, and encourage people to stand together and help each other. Some people scream to an empty room while others scream in a room full of others, and are never heard. Never seen and over looked. We all hear the whispers and feel the pain, thinking that there is no one out there going through the same thing. It only takes that one person to smile at a random person to make a day better. That one person to reach out and help. That one person to SEE you, and help you get out of that hole. Shine that light. We are taught that we need no one, that no one is there. You're one of the people that remind people that it was all lies... there are other people out there. And to fight against it. All of the little things people do add up and create those butterfly effects, then that other person sees and reaches out to someone else. Lol I talk way to much. I'm sorry. Thank you for being one of the few bards in our time. Thank you for being you. Your love of what you do shines through everything you do, and the people that you keep close to you. I still feel like I didn't say it all right, but it's the closest I can get to it. Thank you again. You and your friends have fun in your travels, I can't wait to see what you do next.

I’m a 42 year old man. A single song has never broken me down as much as this has. Not only am I having a major pressure release in the form of crying but the absolute emotions this brought on so many levels has opened my eyes. I have never witnessed such creative honesty in an art form. I’ve never been so touched by something. Chills… tears… lyrical beauty and talent. A life change moment for me here.

Your words at the end are a hug your song and singing are an embrace your lyrics are the truth of you that echos with truth you are not alone I truly enjoy this song for very deep personal reasons thank you.

Your artistry in this song is exceptional, inspirational, and all together uncommon. It's my new inspirational piece as I slog through my own mental torment. My voice is new and not un akin to your own from your past (not to insinuate you don't still struggle). It's refreshing to have an artist that actually makes the connection and accurately portals the deeper struggle, not just the surface aspect. Thank you for sharing it.

“It’s the duty of artists to go into the darkness and bring something back that’s tangible for people to heal themselves with” - Benjamin Tod

this is not just music, this is something much bigger

His music is so on point for a person who deals with a voice of self doubt I find that a relief indeed

FMJ: "...Something about the duality of Man, Sir!"

Hi Ren….I am a MH professional, I studied many years to do my job and I do it with a passion and devotion to help people. Here in this song you breached the boundaries of music, therapy, existentialism, and made art of the purest level. I cry every time I listen to this song…thank you for being so completely and utterly raw and vulnerable…but most of all for having shared this with the rest of the world…this is inspiring, it makes me a better person, a better clinician, a better human being…it gives me renewed hope for us as a species! thank you Ren! - some people will know you as hope, some people will know you as the voice that they hear when they loosen the noose on the rope…

Im a 57 year old man, im homeless and living in my truck. I was at my end but your song has given me just that little bit of hope i needed to carry on, dont know how it will turn out but thank you