RIP Lee Macmillan's LAST WORDS on Her DEPRESSION AND Mental Health Struggles WILL MAKE YOU CRY😭💔

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###INSTAGRAM celebrity Lee MacMillian died on March 26 after battling depression.
The 28-year-old was known for posting extravagant travel photos with her ex-boyfriend Max Bidstrup and their dog Occy. Lee MacMillan was a Canadian Instagram influencer.
She was living in Santa Barbara, California for about six months but was reported missing and had left her home without taking her car, wallet, keys, ID and phone.
The news of her passing was revealed by Max, who is still reeling from the "soul-crushing loss", on her Instagram page .
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@maasoglory 3 жыл бұрын

Depression is real. Please know you are loved more than you will ever know. Never give up my friends. You make this world brighter and happier with you in it. Just take one step at a time, one progress at a time. Help is there. Please talk to someone you trust. ❤️.

@soniasias6226 2 жыл бұрын

Check your thyroid and nutritional status. Something could be off and depression can result. Also suicide can be a side effect of some pharma drugs.

@waterfirelord 2 жыл бұрын

I know but society say fuck mental health the no fuck mental health problem

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

Some people still get lonely when they had everything.. Her life seems complete and she should be loving it at that point. What more could she ask for? Really.. it's like when her very good life drives her to depression.. I guess she's too demanding and just a spoiled brat... I mean, some people are really happy because they have a life like hers. Maybe her depression is clinical and not because of life circumstances..

@robertwilliams-zz6sy Жыл бұрын

Ive been fighting with alcoholism my whole life. Im actually proud to say Im 7 months sober in my 30's..Im happy and proud for you...whatever your addiction is or was you should always know there are people out there that love you...

@CarinaPiersay Жыл бұрын

God’s blessings and grace on your journey. I wish you peace… the Eagles 🎶

@smoothtruth Жыл бұрын

❤

@smoothtruth 10 ай бұрын

❤

@Mikemonoa-hz2rz 23 күн бұрын

I've never drunk alcohol, smoked cigarettes or did drugs in my life and I've struggled with depression and anxiety all my life and the thing that helps me get through is eating healthy and my gym is my main strength 💪 and i also go to church every Sundays as God is good amen 🙏 ❤️

@irishamericanpinupdoll 19 күн бұрын

I’m seeing this a year later and hope you are still doing well ma wee darlin. Sending you love and strength.❤❤❤

@lisamillerbuchert9447 3 жыл бұрын

They say the Pandemic and isolation has caused many suicides. I get depressed but I’m an introvert so isolation is a comfort for mr

@bobtruck1594 3 жыл бұрын

SCAMDEMIC you mean.

@xanderandherson2987 3 жыл бұрын

Me too

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

Now that is a healthy way to look at it. Everyone's been depressed in this hard world

@sallygardner3714 3 жыл бұрын

@@bobtruck1594 it’s unfortunate that nearly 600 000 dead relatives don’t seem to affect you one bit?

@proinseasokiellig4388 3 жыл бұрын

@@bobtruck1594 Yeah,hijack this with your myopic self centered BS...way to go

@com231am4 3 жыл бұрын

Dearest Lee, Losing your bright light has made me make a promise to myself to make the most of what ever time I have left on this Earth. You did so much and touched so many. You are and will be missed.

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@com231am4 2 ай бұрын

This was during COVID when travel was restricted and she couldn't travel to Canada to be with her family and it's my understanding she was having trouble establishing her mental health care where she was then living. I don't know what her heart and head were feeling in those last hours but she was clearly in pain & her illness had her believing she was alone and would be "better off."

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@@com231am4 Not really sure. I think that's not enough to blow-off her life away just because of that reason. Some people can't even travel outside their country even though they really want to. Sure they get sad from time to time and everyone does. But not to the point of blowing their lives away. I mean there are people blowing theirselves off because their life is a failure.. which is understandable.. But her.. "she wants a boyfriend.. she got it. she wants to go here.. she got it.. she wants attention and fame.. she got it.. she wants funds to have a Van life.. she got it... she wants time and do nothing.. she got it..".. those are difficult things to achieve but got it just like that.. truelly blessed I'm pretty sure she got some mental illness, which is not her fault... we're humans and get sick physically.. and sometimes get sick in the head which is very sad.. Her circumstances are really really good.. and yet she blow herself off.

@Thecaptain666 11 күн бұрын

@@valcrist7428 A “spoiled brat”??!! What a truly horrible and ignorant thing to say. People don’t kill themselves because they’re “spoiled brats”. Depression causes suicides among the rich, the poor, the young, old, middle aged….it affects people of all kinds in all types of circumstances. Please educate yourself. Someone close to you may one day feel suicidal and need you to be aware, sensitive and to help them.

@valcrist7428 11 күн бұрын

@@Thecaptain666 How do you know that? And I also said she may have Clinical depression. Can't you read or maybe you have a LOW IQ. Also, no one gets depressed without a reason. Unless they have mental illness (which I CLEARLY said).

@mogo232 3 жыл бұрын

This is such a real depiction of how hard depression hits and how easily it can hide. Mental health is so so important and shouldn't be a luxury for hundreds of dollars. I hope her spirit is truly free and at peace 💛

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@genevabrantner2722 3 жыл бұрын

Unless you have struggled with severe depression there is no way you can understand the pain. Everyone seems to have an opinion, but unless you've been hanging on to life by a thin string, you can never understand. It's not just mental or emotional pain, it's also physical pain. Please try to be less judgmental with your comments, and be more understanding.

@stacybroussard3097 Жыл бұрын

Yes❤️

@rachelfrees1268 Жыл бұрын

Amen.

@Mylifeasericaaa Жыл бұрын

🙏

@Zzz3331 Жыл бұрын

It’s suffering and feeling no way out. And the suffering usually lasts years and years before one person can only take so much❤ empathy and compassion is needed in these situations. It is a illness just as a physical illness. Which has stages and some people can’t beat. I had my own doctor tell me I wasn’t depressed at 16 I just needed a job. Mind you I didn’t tell her I was abused for 5 years prior, which I shouldn’t of had to. Depression is not understood by anyone who hasent been there and it makes me mad. Stay compassionate people you never know what hell someone fought

@lasagnegurl167 Жыл бұрын

One nasty, cruel, judgmental comment, can push a person who’s already fragile from life’s challenges, to the brink of their existence & cause them to believe they aren’t worthy of living. This is bullying & the effect of bullying can have permanent results. It shatters a person’s spirit & purpose. If you can’t say a kind word to someone, then simply move on. You don’t want your harmful words to be the last thing someone thought of before they ended their life. Just move the f**k on & stop tormenting people. Thank you.

@grahamstefaan 2 жыл бұрын

Lee your presence is still felt. You're missed.

@wendylbranchfield7959 Жыл бұрын

God rest her beautiful soul. I can’t help but think of Max while watching this video. Sending love all the way around to everyone who loved and will miss her!🙏🏼♥️

@Vonmoney995 3 жыл бұрын

That dark place took this beautiful soul! She was so beautiful, full of life! RIP love 😔🙏🏼

@joshpillos Жыл бұрын

People don’t understand having severe depression -suicidal thoughts is an everyday battle not to do it …

@448bubble Жыл бұрын

Depression can be SO brutal.... I'm sorry...💕

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@trixietrog 3 жыл бұрын

Such a beautiful lady so tragic and sad RIP Beautiful angel ❤

@Allengo2 3 жыл бұрын

I got very depressed for a year. It finally broke thank goodness. Combination of personal issues, Covid and other things. It was a hard time but I finally came out of it.

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

And most do and don't step in front of a train.

@Ana-gq7ce 3 жыл бұрын

@@designstudio8013 it's so sad that you get so little attention in your real life that you need to get at least some hate. Trolls like you are so pathetic

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

@@Ana-gq7ce No fool just the facts that u can't handle. She destroyed lives.

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@joanannewallace 2 жыл бұрын

A beautiful tribute to Lee. So sad she couldn't cope with things. RIP Lee.

@riase 2 жыл бұрын

An evidence of having everything; beauty, great personality, physical health, a nice guy, a nice dog, financial means, opportunities and a great future ahead, but still wanting to die. Depression is a bitch.

@madeleine9907 9 ай бұрын

Hard to understand

@j.gravett2878 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you SO MUCH for sharing This! As a long time follower of Max, Lee & Occy, this was helpful in digesting her recent actions!!! 💟

@judycarter4185 Жыл бұрын

Mr and Mrs McMillian ,please accept my sincere sympathy❤

@GinaBrown-bs5rm 20 күн бұрын

My kids save my life every day looking at them save my life

@celestryalcelestryal6690 Жыл бұрын

I never personally met Lee. We never had so much as a conversation. But I adored her and I miss her so very much. I hope that she some how knows and feels how much she was loved in this life.

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@kjbennie9245 3 жыл бұрын

Such a brilliant and beautiful soul. We don't ever truly know what goes on inside a persons mind. Maybe she was a super sensitive soul? Any slight conflict or mishaps, mistakes, accidents, unfortunate events etc etc that occur, she takes it to heart! It affects her deeply. I understand her. Because I am the same way. Anytime life throws punches or curve balls or a money wrench into your path, you can't seem to shake it off and u take it wayy harder than u should. You end up beating the snot outta your own self. Which not only affects your life, but also the people around u. I got the sense of it all through out the videos I've watched of her and Max. Max I feel was her voice of reason and calmness. When Max said " money is only money" his attitude towards life and when sh** happens , he's good at dealing with it. Some people unfortunately aren't. When she began to cry in that one video, I could feel her pain and sorrow. She doesn't quite understand that its not her fault! Max i bet went thru a lot with her. The world isn't meant for ultra sensitive souls like her. 😪😔😔😭. She's too good for this corrupt world. So ya. I feel for her and I understand her completely.

@Sssssssslf 3 жыл бұрын

she was definitely over/ultra sensitive and not cut out for the social media world

@kjbennie9245 3 жыл бұрын

@@Sssssssslf I agree with u

@kjbennie9245 3 жыл бұрын

@Audrey Price I wish u were right😢. Apparently she purposely trespassed into an area she wasn't allowed and jumped off the bridge timingly in front of an oncoming train 😭. I wish u were right!! But she deliberately did it. I read up on it online.

@kjbennie9245 3 жыл бұрын

@Audrey Price i googled amtrak train lee macmillan . There was an article saying all that. For her to physically climb up the overpass and jump in front of an amtrak train is no accident:( God rest her soul

@kjbennie9245 3 жыл бұрын

@Audrey Price well, u can do 2 things. Believe it as a suicide or its a conspiracy. Somebody pushed her onto the tracks or better yet, she tripped and fell into an on coming train. I can't tell u what to believe. If that's what u think and believe then cool 😎. I respect that. Maybe she was abducted by aliens!! And they told her to fall onto the tracks. Bottom line, u are right! We don't truly know what exactly happened at the end of the day. We all have our theories and assumptions. Me? I would bet the farm on her committing suicide. Sadly, it's more common than u think. People have done this in the past. Its quick, it's painless and automatic. RIP 🙏Lee

@Healthwellbeing501 2 жыл бұрын

I followed this young lady on her adventures. Such an example of what so many people are going through. So sad.

@stanleymasterson1135 23 күн бұрын

I was diagnosed as suffering the most severe level of depression possible, but I still cannot understand what she did. Every time I was ready to end it all, I just looked at my dogs, and knowing how much they loved and needed me, I stayed alive. I'll never understand how someone could leave their pets, as she clearly loved them. My pets saved my life

@andreafletch164 5 күн бұрын

I agree so hard with this! I have been severely depressed but no way will I voluntarily abandon my pets. Many times, they have been my sole reason for living. Never would I purposely leave them to the hands of fate. It puzzles me to ponder on those who have suicided and who obviously loved their pets in life. No matter how tortured they may be, how do they not consider these helpless souls?

@ColleenDL 2 жыл бұрын

I still can’t believe she jumped in front of a train. That’s hard core.

@raew5263 3 жыл бұрын

This is so gut wrenching to watch 😢 She was such a bright light. Tragic all around that she just couldn’t pull up out of darkness. Her demons won. RIP 🙏🏻

@evakiefer-ferrara6078 3 жыл бұрын

Such a sweet soul....RIP beautiful lady...

@zl707hp 2 жыл бұрын

I miss you Lee More then words can say !!! RIP my dear friend

@NaMatwo2 3 жыл бұрын

Rest in Heaven precious. Your light has dimmed ,but the Luv from family and friends and followers will forever go forwarded to spread your words of happiness to live life !💐🦋

@samanthablomberg2559 3 жыл бұрын

I’m so devastated to hear the very sad news sending all my love out to Max and Oky

@staceymay52 Жыл бұрын

Your light and presence are still shining here. Thank you for sharing ❤️🤲🏼🌈

@kiwihame 9 күн бұрын

What a beautiful girl. Inside and out. Hope you're at peace Lee.

@chucklogan7296 3 жыл бұрын

So young, So beautiful!! So very sad

@Mylifeasericaaa Жыл бұрын

Lee I'm struggling so hard to make it through a lot of similar issues. Please help guide me to our higher power when my time comes. I'm scared and so lonely but know that our paths crossed for a reason even just virtually. I truly believe you are still are on the most beautiful adventure there ever was.. my soul hurts on this earth but I hope to find peace soon and I hope you have to because you deserve it. You truly were an angel on earth!

@sterlingmatsui154 Жыл бұрын

Hi Erica~I just wanted to say that I am thinking of you tonight here in Arizona...Sending Lotsa Love, Big Hugs, & Many PRAYERS right NOW over to you:) I totally understand how much this Earth can hurt and asking our Lord Jesus to hold you SO very close and have you truly feel HIS Blessings of Hope, Joy, & Peace during these difficult times!!

@daughterofgod3721 Жыл бұрын

@@sterlingmatsui154 Amen. Jesus IS the answer! God bless you!

@RenayEmond Жыл бұрын

Dearest @Erica Hope you're doing well 💯YOU are NECESSARY, LOVED & WORTHY ❣ Sending Understanding & Empathy, Empowerment & LOVE, Great Gratitude & Appreciation, Big Blessings & Admiration, Many Mercies & Joy, All the Compassion & Luck🍀🙏✌🏽✊🏽💞 🇨🇦from Jasper, Alberta, Canada ❤ May All be free from Suffering 🙏

@logo9470 Жыл бұрын

@Erica-gc1fb. I’m hoping you are no longer suffering, I’m hoping you are content and at peace with your life. I’m praying you are still hanging in there. You never know what tomorrow will bring. Sending you love, light and strength 💞🫶💞

@markjohnson4388 3 жыл бұрын

Try and exercise as much as you are able. It worked wonders with slowly quieting those dark voices in my head and allowing my friends and self love back into my heart and mind. Rest In Peace now Lee; it shows on this video and many through out the world you were never alone. You, me, and everyone one is greatly loved probably even those posting vile post. To post and quote a famous saying; and with all reverence.”They know not what they were doing”.

@elaineagar6128 3 жыл бұрын

I agree Mark this lockdown has made me depressed im taking medication but walking has helped. When we walk for over 6 miles i could feel a change .

@JohnnyC10071959 3 жыл бұрын

This is so sad. From outward appearances she was perfect. She is talll and beautiful, smart, successful, just everything. Internally - obviously problems. I am so sad for what Lee had to do. I'd do anything to make it different. Much love Lee, I will always miss you.

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

You will miss the fake youtube image.

@sallygardner3714 3 жыл бұрын

@@designstudio8013 I will pray that you are overwhelmed with empathy for someone other than yourself. That was cruel and uncalled for. “Love one another as I have loved you”

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

@@sallygardner3714 Hey fool I was a medic. Ive seen hundreds die from infants to elderly. You don't understand life at all as you live in a world of emotions. What if the whole world shut down due to a pity party for themselves? It's not for Lee.

@a.sydney5036 3 жыл бұрын

Shallow me “but she was so beautiful, how could she have been depressed???” It’s obviously not a fair assessment but I don’t get it.

@joanofarc1470 3 жыл бұрын

I understand, we live in an illusion through this screen. We are calling what really is spiritual deficit mental illness. We are being attacked in this illusion we are calling life. We all know this world is becoming anti-human, Anti-spirit. How do we come together when the illusions of this world get more attention than the reality. We are not even stepping up to this abuse from this planned Covid pandemic. This is just the beginning. Know we are all here on earth to make a difference. We are all here to rise above the evil pledged on our souls. The only way to do this is understand being here on earth is a hard task. Some will get burnt out faster and it is hard keeping the spirit alive in a world that wants to burn it out. Loved watching Max and Lee’s illusion, she was beautiful to watch. Her spirit was bright on screen. RIP ❤️☮️💐

@CarinaPiersay Жыл бұрын

May she continue to rest in peace 💛

@robertr.2103 Жыл бұрын

What a beautiful woman, it's not my place to butt in but I really feel like more could have been done to help her, I don't know I'm just very sad about what happened to her And I have experienced depression a lot especially now

@davidly9716 3 жыл бұрын

School doesn’t really teach you to take care of yourself mentally but I do agree it’s very important

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@leob4403 16 күн бұрын

@@valcrist7428it seems you bought into the myth that superficial things will somehow automatically turn you into a happy person

@valcrist7428 15 күн бұрын

@@leob4403 So you genuinely believe there's no such thing as mental illness? Where do you live? In the sewers?

@valcrist7428 10 күн бұрын

@@leob4403 who cares about your opinion. LOL

@leob4403 10 күн бұрын

@@valcrist7428 and again showing your immaturity

@TheGatewayProductions 3 жыл бұрын

Awesome video! They should teach the importance of mental health in schools. Keep it up!

@edriley1516 3 жыл бұрын

No, they should teach history and how humans have struggled for thousands of years just to be able to eat and have a roof over their heads and take care of their children....she lived a vacuous, meaningless life of vanity and is already forgotten.

@alexrichardson5731 3 жыл бұрын

@@edriley1516 Only a jerk would speak bad about a dead person. Your comment shows your own lack of ethics.

@veroniquecastel9582 Жыл бұрын

@@edriley1516 gross comment, get a life and grow a heart. Stop being nasty.

@sallygardner3714 Жыл бұрын

I just lost my 25 year old son Matt to depression and addiction . He committed suicide on August 18. I live with depression as well. I really pray that people get the help they need. We keep losing bright lights in our world.

@kerridavis2630 Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry 😔 I'm sending you love and prayers 💖🙏 From another grieving mum 🦋

@sallygardner3714 Жыл бұрын

@@kerridavis2630 thank you Kerri.

@livableincome Жыл бұрын

Dear Sally, I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your dear son Matt. If you don't already have a support group, you might look up The Compassionate Friends in your area. It is international and free. Simply a bereaved parents mutual support group. No one understands like a fellow bereaved parent. Our pain is surreal. The causes of death vary, but we understand each other and those further along help show it is possible to survive. For anyone reading this who isn't a bereaved parent, one of the best things to help us moms and dads is to never ever suggest we need to " move on". We will grieve our kids til the day we die. We cannot " snap out of it". And over the YEARS we will learn to live on this earth without the most important person in our entire lives. It takes a long time to get up off the floor. There simply isn't anything worse than losing one's kid.

@sallygardner3714 Жыл бұрын

@@livableincome thank you so very much. I’ve been told to “move on”?as well or that losing a dog is a similar pain! It’s definitely NOT THAT!!! Thank you for the recommendation. I will look them up. 💕❤️💕

@livableincome Жыл бұрын

@@sallygardner3714 Dear Sally, the really hard thing is that even though I don't know you at all, I could almost guarantee you've heard those dumb things. The loss of my son has been compared to losing a dog too. One person even suggested " he was a nice boy but you need to move on from this." ! We hadn't even got home from the crash site and it was long before the funeral! I've heard it all. TCF has really helped me. We can commiserate and lift each other up. Over the years the pain has eased. I promise it does. But you are never the same and there is still a brokeness. But life does get more " normal." You can do things again. I now help facilitate the meetings. It feels good to give back. Sending you a big hug Sally. Remember to get exercise. It helps relieve the built up stress and helps prevent illness.

@pekroll2467 3 жыл бұрын

Love you Lee, i hope you find your peace. be save up there we will miss you ❤❤❤

@Moonbot943 3 күн бұрын

Imagine how the conductor feels. They'll never be the same again.

@JennMartinello 2 жыл бұрын

I'm so sad over this. Rest in Peace Lee 🥺 😭😥🙏🙏

@donnataylor980 10 ай бұрын

This beautiful lady is now a beautiful angel❤😊❤

@joycefloriocoppa7349 3 жыл бұрын

Lost my 18 year old daughter to suicide, it will be 5 years this June 💔

@laserqueen25 3 жыл бұрын

I’m so very sorry for your loss. ❤️

@unicorns283 3 жыл бұрын

❤😥

@daughterofgod3721 Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry, Joyce. May the Lord comfort you. Sending you so much love in Him!

@smoothtruth Жыл бұрын

❤

@nataliemeenakshithegreat7780 2 жыл бұрын

My darling gorgeous Lee I stumbled into your ad endures at 2 am last night with max and after I ha e learned of your passing and I was devastated why darling why because I also have my episode of depression like hearing about it depresses even more cause that is such a tragic loss. You were loved admired by real authentic people the problem I think that being 28 you grew hope with social media and some individuals are evil jealous and rotten to the core but this isn't a reason to end your young life I strongly believe that you were not well surrounded didn't you know that people are fake honey of course you found out the hard way but to all the people you made us dream it is not a reason again to end your life like this. You were very special Lee iam so sorry you did it so sorry for those who are feeling depressed please change your environment let go disconnect live for yourself not for others become selfish you first

@dawnaw1434 10 күн бұрын

I understand what it's like to have Mental Illness because I've suffered from it my whole life. Before my doctor finally found a new medicine which actually works for me, my depression was terrible...which included Panic Attacks and Severe Anxiety. I thought I'd be better off dead than to have so many dark days. I'm sad that this young lady died by suicide but Im not judging her. I wish that she could have found a medication that would work for her and a Psychiatrist who could have helped her as well. My condolences and prayers go out to her family and friends. RIP young lady.

@luisangel9607 3 жыл бұрын

She was just not happy with herself. It’s difficult to trust a person when depression is involved, we see it as a sign of weakness so rather than trust and talk to people we push them away.. Not even her ex Max not her new dude Jordan could help her be happy. A person with depression doesn’t live life day by day but rather minute by minute. As a person who was born disabled and has tried to take my own life a total of 8 times throughout my life i know she must have suffered deeply, I truly hope she found the peace in death that she could not find in life 😞😔

@elbaby3 2 жыл бұрын

Wow,very true, depression is a powerful monster, i have it and is so hard…

@luisangel9607 2 жыл бұрын

@@elbaby3 well just learn to remember that everything around you can and will help you IF you let it. With this monster called depression we can’t afford to live life “one day at a time” we must learn to live it “one minute” at a time. If you can learn to remember this I guarantee that everything will be ok👍🏻

@christinehandley1746 3 жыл бұрын

RIP special girl x

@gman_livenow3487 3 жыл бұрын

A wise man helped me thru a low time in my life...by asking me to truly serve (give of myself), he took me to the veteran's hospital and we walked the ward of these veterans that had given of themselves to serve...not with words but with their limbs and lives (which would never be the same). I know this will sound harsh as he said "when I feel bad about my life (self-pity in some eyes) to come on back and serve these people to get a true perspective of my life" ...we are here for a minute of time, one's purpose: "positive interaction" people, earth, etc...Choose to walk away from anything counter to that purpose...

@sallygardner3714 3 жыл бұрын

Mental illness is very real. It’s not just a “low point” in your life from being too introspective. Chemical imbalances in your brain require medical professionals to step in and assist in diagnosis and treatment. Treatment isn’t always fun. Side effects are real too. I dealt with depression all my life. At 40 I started to get help. When I was placed on Lithium I discovered a calm that I had NEVER BEFORE experienced. Unfortunately I needed a higher dose after awhile and the side effects were too much so we started again from square one. Hard. I’ve since found a regimen that works for me but being alone isn’t good. I’ve been blessed to be with family through Covid. I don’t know if I would have made it through without that. People need to feel Comfortable enough to reach out for professional help. It’s not something that you can simply shake off... so many ppl make it out to be a weakness. It’s NOT! It’s an ILLNESS like any other. You wouldn’t tell someone to shake off Cancer or a broken bone. Please take it seriously. The ppl that need the help the most will very often project that they’re fine. I did and I nearly died. R.I.P. Lovely Lee💔

@sallygardner3714 3 жыл бұрын

Having been diagnosed with bipolar2 depression I find your response insulting. I have given myself into service all my life yet it didn’t cure me my very real symptoms of “in the pit” lows or over the moon highs ( which are fewer in bipolar2) Even other RN’s carry this stigma of mental illness being a self centred disease. It’s totally unfair and can lead to deaths. We want to reduce the stigma not carry it higher.

@gman_livenow3487 3 жыл бұрын

@@sallygardner3714 Sally perhaps if do not make everything about our self and looking from the lens of victimhood. you may see that the missive was sent in the spirit of hope and solution. as we all know there are many levels in the spectrum of depression hence many solutions...I have gotten many positive responses sharing this message over the years and I know for a fact it helped one person (ME)...each person needs to find their solution... God has given us an amazing brain to work through the impossible...I wish you the best...Aloha G

@sallygardner3714 3 жыл бұрын

@@gman_livenow3487 thank you for your response and yes many ppl seem to agree however feeling blue and being seriously mentally ill are two very different things and the latter must be treated seriously so as not to risk injury or death to oneself or others. I’m a psychiatric nurse and have seen the negative results of ppl who were misunderstood and treated with shame tactics rather than proper help. Your message may have helped you but it may have shamed others into believing that they don’t have the right to say that THEY need help.!

@gman_livenow3487 3 жыл бұрын

@@sallygardner3714 Sally where do presume to know my depth of the depression, "feeling blue and being seriously mentally ill are two different things" really that's your diagnosis of my depression...you need to rethink your snap judgments nurse gardner as you help humans in the future...

@michellemunn7959 3 жыл бұрын

My daughter's both have huge anxiety and depression issues right now. I just make sure to let them know home is there safe place

@jusme9400 3 жыл бұрын

I pray I’m not over stepping... I suffered from anxiety and depression for years and a couple of other things, might I ask how old are your girls... I’ve been prescribed just about everything but for a month now I was prescribed Prozac and that changed everything... I feel like me again. Praying for you and your family.

@Bonzi_Buddy 3 жыл бұрын

The problem with your thinking is there is no safe space from real life. It is better to teach kid's to cope with reality than shelter them from it. Suicides are going to go up in the future as people have been raised to not deal very well with basic things. The fact your kid's are already messed up is not good.

@michellemunn7959 3 жыл бұрын

@@jusme9400 no worries one is 17 and one 18(19 in December). My 17 year old mainly developed her anxiety after lockdown and not being able to see her close friends and school closing. She has trouble taking meds swallowing but we have had success with just adding a multi vitamin with plenty of b vitamins. And letting her know home is safe place to talk and luckily her guidance counselor at school has been amazing

@michellemunn7959 3 жыл бұрын

@@Bonzi_Buddy my girls depression started with bullying in school. But with the pandemic in Canada and lockdown they haven't been able to see there close friends who they can talk to. And home for my girls IS A safe place. At home if my 17 year old has a panic attack, I can help her manage it and we on ways to manage one outside of the house. They know they can talk to me plus they support at school with their classes

@Bonzi_Buddy 3 жыл бұрын

@@michellemunn7959 Plenty of people were bullied in school. Not everyone has panic attacks over it. One day you will not be around to talk and then what? Odds are they will talk to someone who has identified they are extremely vulnerable and then take advantage of them for it. They do not need mom to counsel them. They need a professional.

@laurasplicer712 16 күн бұрын

Her life of constant escapism is what she did wrong no reality of anykind. She wanted to stay child like way past her age.

@getyourlife 3 жыл бұрын

So sad ...rest beautiful soul rest

@rayvalerio2854 3 жыл бұрын

R.I.P. 🌹💐

@tanyamassey9438 Жыл бұрын

I have been dx with severe depression, situational anxiety and panic attacks. I don’t know who will be when I wake up every morning. You may not want to hear it but I’m alive and doing well because I know Jesus as my savior. I still have dark times and I take medicines but I’m living.

@daughterofgod3721 Жыл бұрын

Praise God-Jesus is your savior! I love you, sister in Christ-sending you so much love and encouragement. God bless you!

@donnaloveall1470 3 жыл бұрын

RIP🙏🙏🙏✝️✝️✝️💫💔

@christydavis8704 3 жыл бұрын

U are greatly missed

@devinivedita6355 2 жыл бұрын

I recently saw her last video and was waiting for her next video 😭 now i came across this video .

@TheEunoiaProject 3 жыл бұрын

Really tragic

@jbinkley22 Жыл бұрын

All things aside- that was a fire-ass beat you put in the middle there. Didn't really fit the tone of the video, but it goes so hard

@sumedaft 2 жыл бұрын

I had depression few years back. I know how it’s easy to committed to suicide 🥺🥺🥺🥺

@mishih9189 3 жыл бұрын

Now just seeing it all. I hope others see this....

@alexisbelcher3967 2 жыл бұрын

We live first within, then without, try to live within the universe and from there learn how to live with spirit.

@sweetbeep 3 жыл бұрын

I partly blame the medical industry on this. They tell patients they have a brain chemical imbalance. That's never been proven and they always like to say things are incurable when they are curable. ..they just don't look for the cause. One reason for depression is over relaxation of the brain blood vessels just like ppl have sluggish bowels. It's fixable.

@gracecallowayable 3 жыл бұрын

🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

@djdonrack5592 3 жыл бұрын

Lee, me hubiera gustado ver mas vídeos tuyos..

@tracymorrison1584 3 жыл бұрын

depression is real and life is a challenge in itself. You will be missed Lee , more than you know sweet lady xo.

@dabneegxavtxawj1957 Жыл бұрын

Good. Job

@rostersrosevear8092 Жыл бұрын

I can’t believe this

@smbawden2198 3 жыл бұрын

💔

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

A troubled soul who tried to find peace by traveling the globe and only found herself

@dazzlingfreeman8903 2 жыл бұрын

Lokkong back at this. Still can't believe it.

@sharlenebux4144 11 ай бұрын

RIP LEE ❤

@randykelley6826 18 күн бұрын

NEVER ADMINISTER A PERMANANT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM.

@berenicelepe8003 Жыл бұрын

Depression can take you life :( it suxs 😢 I hate it but I’m no longer interested in none of my hobbies, I don’t laugh I’m always angry and I am always unhappy :(

@lyric8006 3 жыл бұрын

I haven’t seen anything from Jordan. He must be really devastated also.

@jvjackson4775 3 жыл бұрын

Do you think they broke up and she was upset over that? Just so frigging sad....I have the same Transit van, everytime I get in it I'm reminded of her.....

@lyric8006 3 жыл бұрын

@@jvjackson4775 No one really knows what was going on. Suicide always leaves more questions than answers.

@Sssssssslf 3 жыл бұрын

apparently she cheated on Jordan and people were commented online about it in the days beforehand, if true i can see how that would have pushed her over the edge because she was a super sensitive soul not at all cut out for the social media KZfaqr world

@lyric8006 3 жыл бұрын

@@Sssssssslf Yes, understandable and sad.

@LMurphy 3 жыл бұрын

@@Sssssssslf People bullied her for having a new boyfriend (Jordan), even though she and Max had broken up a year before she started dating, along with many other things. People were horrible to her. Please don’t spread rumors claiming she possibly cheated on Jordan. It’s not helpful and very likely not true.

@Kevin_40 15 күн бұрын

he probably dumped her or made her feel like shit i think thats the main thing that makes people depressed is when you feel like someone has given up on you. makes you feel like trash. when someone stops being your friend and treats you like a stranger or an enemy. makes you feel like you dont belong and arent worthy.

@xanderandherson2987 3 жыл бұрын

It’s so sad cus she was getting a lot of exercise which is supposed to give endorphins which is supposed to make you happy 😢💔

@xanderandherson2987 3 жыл бұрын

@Audrey Price well... I hope they figure it out and I guess if not then I hope whoever may be responsible will remember that while they’re may not be justice here on earth there most definitely will be at some point. Who could ever be so greedy to kill for mere monetary gain 💔

@thescarletandgrey2505 3 күн бұрын

No doubt the break-up plus the pandemic took their toll. Also what was probably a rebound-type relationship which maybe didn’t meet expectations. RIP

@MA-jf6tv 3 жыл бұрын

Although we may now never know, I wonder what would’ve happened if Lee and Max would have never broken up. Sadly, her mental illness drove her into the hands of someone else that didn’t truly know her as well as Max. She thought that a new love in her life was gonna be the secret to regaining her happiness, but when reality hit her and realized that Max was her one true love, that further drove her into a deeper depression. A depression that eventually took her life. 😢

@terryjoslin2660 3 жыл бұрын

❤❤❤❤😒😒

@thegospelofvanlife9381 3 жыл бұрын

These people that take thier own lives ,have balls of steel, imagine jumping in front of a train, wow, if i were ever to end my life i would do it diffrently, idk maybe overdosing?

@elaineagar6128 3 жыл бұрын

This a bit personal and inappropriate.

@evaadams8298 3 жыл бұрын

@@elaineagar6128 yes but what about the poor train driver who has to live with that for the rest of their life.....? That would be devastating as well...

@valcrist7428 2 ай бұрын

@007nadineL 2 жыл бұрын

Does anyone know what she was depressed about? . . .

@riddlegunnermanuel6503 23 күн бұрын

Living in u.s. is depressing im selling my house in california and moving to baja

@nataliemeenakshithegreat7780 2 жыл бұрын

It's hard to watch Lee now that you are gone the question honey is why 28, gorgeous healthy looking what triggered this horrible decision to end your life. Life is so precious you had absolutely everything more than a lot of people and a new man in your life so I also suffer from episodes of withdraw and depression but I don't want to die I hope whoever suffers thinks 100 times before ending your life please live for yourself and don't be a follower. Follow yourself even disconnect from social media it is so important to live for you and be selfish that way social media as now we are seing is anything but real all the glam the traveling the friends a lot are fake Lee did not have the right people around her to grab her and say Enough now forget about all this bullshit and live for you stop talking to others stop recording every second of your life live in the silent of your life reenergize yourself change your life if your not happy leave but don't leave your life. All that said I can't believe this young gorgeous woman is gone and she ended her life is horrible iam not getting it there was no police investigation maybe she was put there in the rail

@pmichael820 3 жыл бұрын

🔴 Wish Lee did not kill herself 🔴

@LK-pc4sq 3 жыл бұрын

Did she become very very quiet and show signs of isolation before she took her life?

@suhayrodriguez3587 8 ай бұрын

Is this usually a sign?

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

She needed hospitalization. Feel bad for Jordan and everyone on that train. the most violent way to go.

@designstudio8013 3 жыл бұрын

@Audrey Price Oh she tripped in front of a train.Sorry.

@itsMalma 2 жыл бұрын

the logo is a bit unnecessary don't you think?

@riase 2 жыл бұрын

I suspect it was bipolar. She was very very bubbly and bursting with energy (more than a regular person would) and then she probably had debilitating depressions (off camera). All that takes is the right medication.

@peggydwyer8187 9 ай бұрын

agree. type 2 bipolar. (both my sons had/have it, my eldest died). They did put her on SSRI's, which make it worse, as they treat only the depressive side, and it worsens the cyclothemia.

@bdisaac1 4 күн бұрын

The unnecessary lockdowns caused untold damage.

@Dan-zi8bh 2 жыл бұрын

Having the comments turned off is a bad thing for her videos she made

@icantfindausernamehe 2 жыл бұрын

Throwing yourself under a train. How do people reach that stage ?

@memow4819 3 жыл бұрын

Not all free speech is free...JUSTICE FOR LEE

@Sssssssslf 3 жыл бұрын

justice for Lee? huh?

@memow4819 3 жыл бұрын

@@Sssssssslf Its coming,grand jury to meet mid may

@Sssssssslf 3 жыл бұрын

@@memow4819 ??

@ohhhhhnooooo 23 күн бұрын

she didn't grieve enough. Need to give herself time to heal... Don't get another boyfriend or buying a van. Just talk or start chatting on youtube or go see a therapist.