This is so interesting to me... I've followed Ronnie Radke for 10 years and have loved his work... I've joined your journey with NF for 10 minutes and love his work... Music is such a powerful thing guys, thank you

My son played this song for me 5 years ago. At the time I was at the bottom of a ten year opiate addiction. I felt all my kids pain in Nates eyes and words. It was the push I needed to finally seek treatment. I've been clean ever since. NF couldn't save his mom but he did save me and I am forever greatful. I've been a devoted fan ever since and this is the reason I feel that Nate is a prophet.

He wrote this song when he was like 19 or 20, shortly after she died. He said in an interview that he wrote this from that little kid's perspective. He has since, as a grown man, understand her as the addict better than when he did when he was little. she gave her kids absolutely ZERO stability. They bounced between their dad, their mom & (mostly) his grandparents. He has said he gives her more grace now and has since forgiven her. There are a few great interview videos out there. One is like an hour long and is about 5 years ago or so. Thatbis the interview that he talks about forgiving her now as an adult. Great reaction guys! I absolutely LOVE NF so much!

The most heartbreaking part of this song is throughout the story, he leans on how much anger and resentment he holds towards his mother...but he still ends it with "I wish you were here".

Finally two dudes that get it. Thanks for not making the rest of us feel like little babies for crying too… ❤

10:10 "I'll edit this to make us look cool" absolutely cracked me up!! You both are champs

When Nate recorded this in the studio I’m pretty sure that he wanted everyone to leave for that last part. And from the beginning I think it was supposed to be a complete verse but Nate broke down and just cried into the mic instead. But they decided it was so emotional and fit so well in the song, so they kept it

"music is the only place i can go to speak to you" That line has such a deep meaning and i can relate to it.

This is a song where it doesn’t matter how many times you listen to it, it will always hit you the same as the first time you heard it

I haven’t listened to this song since Nate and his wife had their son. The ending is even harder to listen to now 😭😭

Been waiting for this one. This song destroys people emotionally. Just so you guys know. That last part where NF is talking and crying, the song was getting to be too much for Nate so he asked everyone else to leave the studio and he just let it all out. The talkin/crying part is the result of that.

This song honestly saved my life, I have 3 beautiful children and still wasn't ready to grow up, this song destroyed me in the best way, nf will always be the realest rapper.

Its more or less things you hear from interviews and just NF himself. He talks about it in intervals. One huge thing is that this song took him i think almost 2 days to finish recording because of how hard it was. He recorded the first half, then his producer stopped, and took him to a movie, out to eat, etc. Then the very end NF asked everyone to leave the booth so he could record it.

Don't normally comment on videos but seeing yalls reaction helped this song hit even harder. Thank you for being transparent and not holding back your own emotions. Seeing your empathy, how even you guys let your heart be on your sleeve during this video was truly beautiful. Thank you Kyle and Eric. Yall are awesome. Edit: IDK if you guys do requests. There's a pretty strong song called "The Patriot" by Topher

"Enought to make a grown man cry" it hits deep we may not go through the exact situations but we feel his emotions and can tell it's as real as they get

Something I've come to learn in my 46 years of life, is that it honestly does not matter that NF may have had a worse situation than you two. All that matters is that you went through something of your own. I've had a total shit life myself, but it doesn't matter how much or how bad. If a situation arises that is the worst thing that you've ever had to experience, then you understand. There should never be any discussion of trauma vs trauma and who had it worse. Most everyone has their own trauma of one kind or another, and even though we are all different, having gone through our trauma makes us all the same as broken souls. Love and respect to you both, and can't wait for the journey to continue!

The best song that nobody ever wants to hear twice.

Fun “ish” fact about this song, after he recorded this song he asked everyone to leave him be for a moment so he could talk to his mom in the studio, afaik.

I remember finding NF (I was 14) and this was the first song I’ve ever listened to from him. I’ve been a fan ever since. He really came into my life when I needed it

This masterpiece as he has said ,is the most authentic he ever wrote. Everyone had to leave the studio at the end of the song. Also he said that now that he has become a parent ,he has taken the place of his mother and has forgiven her. Incredible touching reaction, thank you guys. There are songs you listen to and songs you F E E L !!#NFREALMUSIC

You guys are a couple of real, beautiful souls. I really appreciated your emotional honesty and I think it goes a long way to show people it's okay to get emotional over real situations and real human suffering because we all go through it. Wanna hear the good news? The next song is more of a hype song so you've made it out of the woods! 😆

I was waiting for y'all to come across this one. This one hits so hard for me. My daughter is 6, and my son is 4. For almost 80% of that time I've been in and out due to my past drug use. It took me hitting a pretty serious bottom. Being incarcerated about a year, missing all the major holidays and birthdays, and having to process all of it with sober mind, for me to finally understand what I was doing. I've been out since the end of November of 2021, and it's been a no brainer turning my back to that toxic lifestyle. I'm just thankful to be able to be with my kids and celebrate birthdays and holidays with them. Not all addicts see way out, and I always pray that the next addict finds their way back from the edge. There were too many times that I should have died. This song tears me up harder than any song I know, but I listen to it to remind me of where I came from, and where I could go, should I ever let my guard down. Much love to you guys. And much love to the other addicts out there who are trying to pull themselves out of that dark place.

A real song with a real human reaction. NF is magic.

I am a grown ass woman who cries every time I hear this as he sings what was my life..One of the most powerful songs I know Thank you both for your reaction

Not gonna lie... the first time I heard this song a few years ago, I had to go see my mom and grandma and hug them. This song will hurt anyone that listens to it even if they haven't experienced anything to this level. If anyone ever needed proof that his music is "real" this is all the proof you'd ever need.

The Raw Emotion is what hits the hardest. It's feeling it with him. I empathize with him as my bio dad was similar. The pain never goes away and I feel comfort listening to his music. I love y'all's reaction. Y'all are beautiful people. Mental health is important.

This is my exact childhood. Every bit of anger and tears he has I’ve had. This song made me feel so connected to him and made all of his songs and journey make sense. Great reaction guys!

I have watched so many reviews of this video and song and I will just say this; I have never cried so much watching 2 guys looking at a video more then you 2 right now. Well Done!! There is a video of NF doing this song in Las Vegas live, you can see the pain in his face still.

This is THE song that gets me right in the feels. Every time I hear it my heart just hurts. My mother passed away from an overdose in 2015. Growing up for me was incredibly similar to how his up bringing is depicted in this video. All the emotions are raw and exactly how he explains them. Smelling marijuana reminds me of my mother, and how she would get so high from that and pills my sister had to take care of me. The remorse of having that be the way I remember my mother weighs a heavy burden. There were so many times I had to be watched while I showered because my mother was turned in to family services. She passed when I was 21. She never got to meet my three children. She never got to see me excel at my job and get so many promotions. She never got to see me being as homeowner and owning my own land. This song is spot on to how it feels. I'm so excited that you guys are understanding how great NF truly is. I cannot wait for more NF reactions. Hopefully you guys will react to some stuff off of his mix tape.

Oh no. I've been waiting for this one. This one hits me right in the dick. I lost my mom to a drug overdose at 12. I relate to this one so much.

Thank you for being brave enough to actually record this and let it all out. Also, bless Eric for trying to break the ice and bring the humour. A couple of other people have already commented about the “behind the scenes” stuff and I’ve heard the same things too. It’s interesting, NF doesn’t do many interviews at all but I suppose we know so much more about his life via his music anyway.

This was a tough one to watch, I lost my mom to pills 10 years ago. I appreciate how sincere you both are with your comments, thank you for the reaction!

My Mom died because of pills when I was 7, this song came out a few years later and really helped me through it, I have been following NF since his first album years ago and I am really glad he has not only helped me through my pain but millions of other people, keep up the great work guys

Awesome honest reaction lads - nothing unhealthy about shedding some tears at a beautiful piece of art.

The last part you can hear NF cry.. he had told the team and producers to step out for a sec while he speaks from his heart.. that is also the crying in background through the song.

This is the rawest emotional song I've ever heard. Hits deep every time. NF asked his producer/team to leave the studio. They continued recording and he flat out cried and talked through his emotions that you hear at the end. This is the toughest one to listen to. We promise, it gets much much better.

Music is SO powerful man 😭🥺 Nate is an absolutely talented musician & person. The way he brings his story into his music is incredible.

"I'll edit this to make us cool" 😂I've watched this reaction probably 3 times before and I keep coming back because you two have added so much to my NF listening experience over the last few months. Thanks, guys, for being REAL.

I’ve been listening to NF since 2017 and this song brought me to tears. It’s been a long time I heard a song that made me emotional. NF is a great artist.

Man I cry every time...

Ive been waiting for y’all to react to this for awhile

The only song that makes me legitimately cry every time; it hits so incredibly hard and is so genuinely authentic you can FEEL the pain and how much it's affected Nate

Great reaction guys. I listen to NF on constantly, to the point where my daughter says “what a surprise, it’s NF” in a sarcastic tone. But this song always gets to me. I don’t cry much at all and never been through something like this, but this song ALWAYS gets me a little watery. But great reaction and if it helps, I don’t think there is any other song this deep. Lots of great tracks ahead. I don’t know if it has been mentioned but I guess he told everybody to leave at the very end when he was talking. It’s a very sad song but in the journey it’s a very very important piece of the puzzle

This track is so hard to listen to. I cry everytime i hear it. It's so powerful. And when you know how it's been produced that makes it even more impectful. Great reaction guys

You guys did a great job. This is the saving private ryan of songs… great, but devastating. This song is a testament to show the wreckage left by parents who fall into addiction. It's also a place for those children or adults with that past to have someone speak to their pain. Hopefully this also helps those who have a connection/relationship to someone who is struggling with addiction to take a stand and have an a group intervention, if not for them, than at least for their kids.

I was abused in many ways during my childhood. My mother abandoned me after a year. This song hits home. A lot of people don't understand nf. They call him a Christian rapper when he's just a rapper who is Christian. He doesn't reject those of us like me who are atheist. We can bond with him about his pain and struggles because so many of us have had similar struggles or different pains. Things we still carry with us. He does wonders for my mental health but I know he's also looking out for him. I respect him and that's something I can't say for a lot of people especially those in the music industry.

I’ve been waiting for this for weeks!!

I'm re-watching this after "HOPE" and it's something even better now. In this h says "I don't say I forgive you, cause it doesn't happen" but the in HOPE he forgives her and I'm literally crying my heart out...❤️ btw love your videos pls keep it up❤️❤️🫶🏻

such a crazy train of events for me.. i started at one reaction channel a few months ago, just looking for new music i could get into... happened to come across a couple of Falling in reverse vids on said channel ( i had heard of falling in reverse, in name only) so i watched those and was just blown away by RR's voice, watched his vids reacting to content creators, basically leading me here. so my point to all this rambling is that i am thoroughly loving this channel! i had never heard of NF before, so this is my first time hearing this, and the power and emotion of this song. wow... just wow! The thing is.. i prob wouldnt have heard this song unless it just blew up or something like that, but through the chain effect of music it happened and i'm grateful! Music is healing, Music is my higher power! @Rykerroad, keep this up guys, ya'll effin rock!

This song was actually the first NF song I listened to. While I've never experienced anything CLOSE to what NF portrays in the video, I still love it for the art and because NF helped me to understand. So many people in this world have stories like this, and the best way I can help them is to listen and understand where they're coming from. Thanks to NF, I can do that.

This song is a mirror of my entire childhood, luckily Nate found a way out from under all this pain, I'm still searching....

Great reaction as always guys. This song is so sad but beautiful. I bawled my eyes out the first time I heard it. It reminds me of my relationship with my dad when I was a kid. It helped me focus on being there for my children and always jetting know I love them.

My mom wasn't addicted to any drugs to my knowledge but she did abandon my sister, myself and my dad when we were just babies. I never knew her until I was an adult and now that I have two babies of my own it always resurfaces that I'll never understand how she could have done that to us. I'm sure she had her own demons and reasons and I have since forgiven her for the abandonment but I will never fully understand and I have suffered the damages from living with the idea that even your own mother doesn't love you and you werent' good enough for her so how could you be good enough for anything or anyone else. It's coming up on one year of her unexpected passing and now my baby girls will never know their grandmother either. This song is so hard to listen to because it evokes so much emotion. That's what makes it great. NF is a special artist.

Realest musician and realest reactors Thx for that!

I have been low key dreading this part of the journey because I knew it was gonna smash everyone's face in the cement. Whether it's the first time or thousandth time theyve heard it, it simultaneously tugs heartstrings that are freshly born and the old as fuck ones with deep roots. Its raw. Its disgusting. Its beautiful. And its real. I'm a single momma with 3 kids. Ive been thru more in my life than most people and that was BEFORE I had my kids. The ripple effect of trauma never really ends. Its what you do with it that matters. When I get in a dark place, I watch this video on repeat. The amount of beautiful sobbing that happens every single time you watch it, heals. It helps somehow. Thank you for going on this journey and being 100% in the dark the whole time. It makes the reactions that much more authentic and beautiful. Love you guys. I really do. Im here if you need a shoulder or a chat. I'm a pretty dope soul. And dope souls inevitably find each other. Its science. Thanks again for this. Im gonna go cry for a while and feel better after. ❤

NF really struggled with that last part it tore him up really bad and i can relate to his pain losing someone hurts a lot.

I think we all cry listening to this song, thanks for this reaction. You should listen to "remember this" from him

I lost my mom about six years ago now, and this song still hits hard. Not from pills, but from addiction(alcoholic). I had my daughter(her first grandchild) and she wanted to finally get clean for her and us. 3 days in her heart gave out from the withdrawal and she died. Please don't be afraid to call out your loved ones and get them the professional help they need while you still have the chance. I, we should have done more, and alot sooner before things got so bad.

Woww this was rough for sure. God Bless this young man for being able to put it all out there and let the healing begin! Sometimes you just have to. I know your reaction was honest and true, that's what these fine people come here for and you always deliver. I love being your Mom! 💜💜

I felt this pain. I lost my mum at a young age, but it wasn't drugs, but I completely felt his emotional pain 💔 😢 I love NF, and the way he has done this song.

Eric - "Well this is fun" Hilarious. This was a tough song to watch you guys react to, but you made it through it. The rest of the journey will be much easier.

You guys are the realest!

My sister showed me this song years ago, we went through this so it tore me up and I still cry when I hear it. It's an amazing song but as much as I love it, I agree with you. I try not to listen to it unless I have to

I became paralyzed in August 2020 and have been struggling with trying to graduate, chronic pain, crippling depression, and new life style ever since. I had a hard time trying to get my parents to understand how hard it was to have my mobility and normality stripped away. We would have the same fight over and over for a year. My relationship with my mom declined and my dad blamed himself for my accident so he avoided me. It hurt because I used to be really close to them and my dad was truly a best friend. It would hurt when he’d walk past me and not even look at me. Towards the end of 2021 my dad and I were painting, watching movies, making fun of each other and my siblings like we used to. Unfortunately, on January 14th my father unexpectedly passed away from a heart attack. My family grew farther apart and now 5/8 of the people in my household suffer from depression. We no longer have my dad income but we do have 8 mouths to feed not counting out animals. I feel responsible or all the pain in my family and the panic and anxiety attacks have gotten worse to the point I can no longer console myself. I’ve been an NF fan for over five years and I hadn’t listened to his music for maybe three of the five but I feel as if God answered my pleas and sent me a guardian angel. Now NF’s songs hit a little harder after the trauma I’ve experienced. I had started loosing faith in the Lord and it scared me because without the foundation of belief, what motivation do I have to even fight the demons residing in my mind. Without hope or faith I felt nothing and the temptation to take my own life started growing too tempting. Especially after my fathers death. I am glad NF was brought back into by life because the Lord new just how he would be able to help me. I can’t wait for you guys to go on this journey too!!!

I don't usually watch the reactions to this song but I love you guys and just subscribed to your patreon to support your channel and follow you on the NF journey. I turned 40 today and man, I wish I had NF when I was growing up. His vulnerability and genuiness is relatable on so many levels. Not gonna revoke your man cards for the tears cause I was right there with you! Don't worry, some serious bangers are coming up.

As someone who first met my dad at his funeral from drug and alcohol abuse this hit me in places I didn't even think I had. Thank you NF for bringing the music we don't want to hear but need to, and thank you both for the real reactions and incite to his work. Keep up the good work.

I am a addict mom, clean for many years. I am a step mom of three BEAUTIFUL girls who lost their mom to OD And i grew up in foster care, lost my mom to cancer 7 years after she got sober when i was 18. This song is....devastating. and beautiful.

I normally don’t watch reactions for this song….but here we go. Well we all cried together and it’s good to see boys have feelings. Thanks guys.😔

Shivers, chills, tears. Every time I listen.

I was watching some therapists react to a few of NF's songs, including this, and I saw your reaction pop up in the recommended and had to click on it as well. I've seen this reaction already but, strangely enough, coming back to you two felt like coming back to a safe space? Just seeing the both of you cry (like I had just been crying) and then listening to you just talk and joke (also my way of coping) really brought me back down from all the high emotions I was feeling and soothed my nerves again. So, thanks for that ❤‍🩹

Listen to it, over and over. It's ok to have feelings and feel compassion for another human based on their experiences. That is what God meant for us, and what the world fights against.

this is the lowest part of the journey...the healing now begins. My favorite rapper

I’ve never heard anyone in my life in any genre be as real and open in their music as NF

Almost no matter how many times I end up seeing reactors do this one, it always gets me. You guys are troopers and the rest of the journey should be a bit easier past this one. You'll really start seeing NF improve and progress as you go through the albums and I'm here for all of it 😊 Keep on Keeping on!

I avoid this one at all costs. It breaks me every time I hear it. I wasn't going to let y'all suffer alone. You've made it past the hardest song. Great reaction as always. Love from Cali

The go to when it comes to depth

I'm a recovering addict. I didn't know what my kids went through until I stumbled upon this song. Nate's music helped motivated me and helped me to stop using. My kids are back with me and I am now giving my kids the life they truly deserve.

This shit hits home to me SO HARD. Hearing this as a broken child and now listening to it as a father of 3 boys… I don’t know which point of my life it hits harder.

Guys, don’t ever feel ashamed to cry. We as men have this stigma and we have to stay human. We hurt. It’s okay. Even though this song is tearing us apart, sometimes it’s good to feel that. Let that out. On a personal note: I have seen what addiction can do to a person. A parent. How it affects the child(ren). And that is just heartbreaking. Your reaction was real and I respect you for it. Stay real! Much love from the Netherlands 🇳🇱 ❤

When I first listened to this song, it reminded me of my dad. He had no chance to be with me, because of my mother leaving him when I was still a baby. Met him when I was 17 and soon realised that this was what it meant to have a dad. I loved him more than anything else, from the second I met him. He was my anchor, my eyes and ears, my heart, my everything. He died when I was 23, so I only had five years to really be with him and get to know him. Later I found NF and this song and it still makes me sob every single time. NF let's me think back to my dad and our relationship and others like Ronny Ratke make me reflect onto my own life, just like Citizen Soldier and Smash Into Pieces. There are so many bands, speaking the truth and singing with such emotion, it is like therapy. And it helped me out of my depression, to be honest. Much love to you guys, I just found you yesterday, but I'll keep watching your reactions

This one has always hit REALLY close to me and always use it when I need to feel something. I remember the first time I heard it I had a mental breakdown infront of all my friends.

man, the raw reactions. love you guys 🤍

The second time I've watched this song cried both times sad but beautiful song NF is a legend x I had to watch your reaction tho so raw and emotional.

Love NF!! Thank you for this harder reaction, I've seen an interview where they ask NF about this song, he said he understands his mom more now ( at the time of the interview) I'm sorry I don't remember what interview that was I think I've watched all his interviews by now. His wife posted a video of NF reading to his son for Father's day yesterday. It made me so happy but it made me think of what he says in this song.

This song will never not make me cry. I don’t listen to it anymore but I do enjoy seeing reactors videos. Thank you for being so honestly emotional; this song just hits like a tank

the official lyrics are actually "If you're still watching, why?" at the end. It is way more powerful

My dudes. You’re sympathy is life giving. Thank you for your transparency!

“I’m still 9 years old, I just pay taxes” is the most realest think I’ve heard in a long time

My mom passed 16 years ago today. NF and his music has helped tremendously still always a tough battle but this music is definitely therapy. Appreciate your real reactions it’s great to see

I'm fifty three years old and this ripped my heart out. Thanks? I guess when I can face it once more I will go to his site and show him some love by liking and viewing the original but damn that is going to cost me.

"I'm still 9 years old...I just paid taxes". That's soooo profound! Thanks guys. I absolutely love your reactions

Thanks to your reaction to this touching and heartfelt song. Even a person who doesn't pass this situation, can feel the pain and the suffering of NF. The crying simply rip our inner core and make us feel the reality of this world. Sometimes it's so good to let some tears drop of our face. Thanks NF and thanks you guys for your feedback. I'm looking forward to keep accompany you on this wonderfull journey.

I can honestly say I never broke down hearing a song till I heard this when it first came out.

I remember when I first found NF I was like 8 years old…..now I’m 15 and this song always gets me in tears.

Awwww i didnt knew u were brothers wow .sorry for commenting so much.fave reaction channel thats why

GOAt. Thx for sharing real reaction. #RealMusic

Every time I listen to this song I tell myself that I'm not going to cry. Screw that 😭🖤

If you still want to see more about this, i think Tolga Akar, has an interview with Nate from 2018, where, if im not mistaken, there is talk about this song.

I can't make it through this song without crying so I knew it was going to be rough but watching the two of you get emotional broke me. Incredible reaction! Love you guys!

This is genuinely one of the best songs for emotion, impact, or anything that I only listen to like once or twice a year. The pain dripping from this song is overwhelming for me and others that have not even been through something like this.