Big hugs to everyone who watched this entire thing with me, and who also feel the effects. ❤❤❤

KoЯn in the 90's let thousands of kids and millions of people know they weren't alone! Because of this they were my favorite band.

He agreed to do this song live for 1 tour. The show I was at, when he played it the whole crowd stopped the moshing/jumping and just couldn't take their eyes off him. It hits way different when he is right in front of you singing it with everything in him.

The motherly voice in the end. So sad. It's like the type of caring mother that Johnathan wished for but couldn't have

This is based on real events that occurred during the lead singers childhood, I believe it was the babysitter not is father but his mum didn't believe him. They let the recording go on as he literally broke down singing it.

It actually wasn't his father. It was his babysitter.

Thank you so much for doing this song. It's brutal. His actual abuser was a female babysitter. Mine was my mom. She passed 3 years ago, so I can finally be open about it. I never felt shame, but the rage took decades to get over. This song expresses that so well. To anyone who has experienced this, it's okay to feel like that. The real challenge is what to do with those feelings and all that energy. Bet on yourself and find positive ways to use it to your benefit. There is a path to happiness. It's just a rough and long road.✌️

The panic attack he has during this song gets me every time

The only reason why I'm not in prison for first degree murder is because I've never even seen my abuser since I've been close to an adult. End of line.👿

This song they didn’t play live for YEARS & even now very rarely do they play it. I love that they kept recording Jonathan after to catch his legit crying & screaming. It made it that much more real. No one should have to go through what he did. Powerful song.

Was not the dad who abused him, was a babysiter, but both, stepmom and dad don't bilieved him...

This is a very intense song, but reading through the comments in other reaction videos, many people have commented saying this song saved their life because they went through the same experience as a child, and this song showed them they were not alone.

from an article about the song:

As a middle aged man who's only recently started to deal with the childhood molestation I experienced by a man that worked in the building we lived in, this song is very difficult to listen too, but my feelings are also validated by it. I spent a life time burying my shame and disgust with myself, because of growing up in an environment where boys were taught not to cry, not to express feelings and emotions, and being told not to be a "pussy", which ended in me acting out in violent ways, always getting into fight, trusting no one, passive suicide attempts, and getting deep into heroin and alcohol as a way to numb my feelings. The pain and anger of the loss of my childhood innocence, the feeling of being taken advantage of, is something that continually haunts me, has deeply affected my relationships in my past, and something I've dealt with by numbing my feelings. I have also accumulated other traumatic experiences as a child, like being in a country with a massacre born out of political unrest (hiding in our home with the sounds of gun and tank fire in the background, hoping the bullets won't pierce our windows and the tank shells don't hit our building... and having to flee in the middle of the night, through streets littered with dead bodies. Thankfully I made it through those experiences, have a loving family, and in therapy to deal with my trauma. Music like this is very important, and a band that got me through a lot as a teen was Alice in Chains... being able to hear them express emotions through their music and lyrics that I could connect with meant everything to me. I didn't have therapy as a kid, but I did have my music, which I believe saved my life. I know that a lot of kids go through very traumatic experiences, so I am really grateful that there is so much more awareness about this these days, and so many more resources now compared to when I was a kid.

i love your reactions, coz you just edit your thoughts into it instead of interrupting the music all the time.

I can't ever listen to this without breaking down sobbing. I was sexually assaulted when I was 13 by my best friend's sister, and then a year later AT SCHOOL one of the seniors on the football team tried to rape me in the locker room after P.E. I will FOREVER be grateful to the Junior Varsity player who tackled him and rescued me.

I'm a therapist working with adolescent trauma survivors... powerful song ... bring me back to my own sadistic childhood with my step-father

As a full on metalhead who pretends he is invincible... this song makes me ball like a child, and I still can't watch the entire reaction. Respect for giving it a listen dude, you have more balls than myself. X

Thank you for this reaction, I haven’t cried for years. Such a relief that you’ve unknowingly provided with this raw vulnerability. Thank you.

Korn is so awesome.. early korn was just pure fire 🔥 . They've evolved, naturally all bands grow up and change... but nothing was more lit than that first album and life is peachy.. and that woodstock 99 gig, 3 masterpieces 💯