This is the longest song I have ever produced. Between Steph, Doodle, and myself, this project has easily been over 100 hours of work. After 3 months, here it is! Thank you to my Patrons for supporting my music! Queen Bees: cyphR ICEShredder Generalspyro Minecraftrackers Ares_Everhart saevaragon Squad Bees: Cyclic1812, Kazun, maadneet, FletchIsMe, Kevaa, SgtXana, kvartez, EssentricWolf, renapti, Rubio1736, FJayB, Chucklenuts3883, PBRawket, ElecMagPulse, TellsNoTales, GothiccDeity, DesaKobold, EnigmaticElm, mudkiz, tarnisheddreamer, lunalilylover, goat_boi0 Access Tier: MattW, KingEagle, themoolife, Ghostly_lycanroc, ritualneo, SomeGuyGuess, LumiDraconia, SmazaJack, TheOldgineer, RS_Productions, Jave, AaronPTB, xtremegamer25, RydertheProto, Dusticat, TheHydra, IfRotten, ChaoticCamper, blob1807, The_Zelda_Crafter, Jonny_b, Bbison36, gremlotek, Snicker, PhoraSonos, PercyPanleo, Ominous_Nonimous, Gray-Cerule, Xelioso, Pehp, Soviet_Nick, Gamley, Blackilykat, Goddimb, SpiderJockeyCZ

this song is about the time viva tried to meet up with a friend at the cheesecake factory but mistyped "dessert" into google maps and it took them to a very silly place trust me

The artwork for this one destroyed my hand a bit but I'm exceptionally happy with it! The background painting alone took over 6 hours, so I hope you all like it!

A song about stubbornly pushing through your problems with no outside help, even if its tearing you apart inside and out (I think at least) really deserves to be the longest song you have made. This is a great project all the way through, all of your music is so underrated, keep up the good work!

Okay, _wow._ Seriously, between Ivy’s music and editing, Stephanafro’s vocals, and PC_Doodle’s artwork, this is absolutely stunning in every way. I don’t know what else to say; it’s just so damn _good._ Massive props to you all.

No idea how you two even met but collabing might just be the best decision you guys have ever made, holy

Wow... Without words. Understanding the lyrics and identifying with them while dancing with the melody makes you burst into tears, but at the same time it pushes you to continue because, despite going through difficult times, we have been able to solve them... Or at least, in my case, how to forget them so as not to continue tormenting ourselves with those thoughs.

This song hits hard for me. I have only slept an hour an a half in the last 24 hours. I'm stuck on my bed, dizzy and unable to get up without falling down, while I just wait for it all to stop. 10/10 didn't expect one of your songs to hit me like this.

last premiere message "lmao he dead"

wow, great work

Ivy has a niche portion of their audience that immediately adopted this song as an instant favorite because it describes their situation uncomfortably well. I am firmly within this portion and i had to stop and rewind the first time i paid attention to the lyrics. Story for those who care: Moved to phoenix az to attend a tech school and basically everything is falling apart around me. Not only does this song apply to me in the metaphorical sense, it applies to me in the literal sense as well.

This is amazing! It can be difficult to make songs longer than 3-4 minutes so having one come out this long that you lose track of time listening too is so good! Can't wait to add this to my casual spotify playlist!

Full lyrics for the musicians🎶: My head's on the ground again. I'm bleeding on the sand, but I don't feel a thing... I start with a count to ten, as I pull myself up slowly and I take it in... Lost in this desert and I'm looking for freedom. A small oasis or a moment of breathing. I'm still alive but I can hear my body screaming... A broken core despite its pieces interweaving. Scorch the sun, I'm burning! Freezing nights, I'm learning to fill my cup of emptiness, with tired limbs and bloody fists. On my own I'll make it. Blood and bone, I'll take it! By fighting the coldness inside, I'm leaving it all to the side. I'm learning to swallow my pride, I'm burning! I'm burning! I'm burning! Surrounded by mirages, nonexistent entourages. Nowhere to roam, there's nothing left to call home... I'm thinking, I found it. Nirvana built it from my own life's trauma. Each day just gets hotter. Learned to live without the water. My head's on the ground again. A feeling too familiar, but this time it stings. There's no one to call my friend, but the burden's feeling lighter without their things... I see on the road ahead, a person walking slowly as my vision fades. I wake on an empty bed, but I quickly take my leave and I refuse the aid. No one can hurt me if I'm walking all alone... They can't desert me if I've already turned- to- stone. "Lost in this desert and I'm looking for freedom. A small oasis or a moment of breathing." I'm still alive but I can hear my body screaming... A broken core despite its pieces interweaving. Scorch the sun, I'm burning! Freezing nights, I'm learning to fill my cup of emptiness, with tired limbs and bloody fists. On my own I'll make it. Blood and bone, I'll take it! By fighting the coldness inside, I'm leaving it all to the side. I'm learning to swallow my pride, I'm burning! I'm burning! I'm burning! I'm burning it all down with me! I'm burning! I'm burning! The only way I'll be set free! A body that feels foreign to me. Dissonance is soaring through me. Physical pain is nothing to the ache that's roaring through me. I'll do it. I'LL DO IT! Anything to get me through it. How long can I fake through the agony I take? At what point will I break as I fall into it? I'm sick of asking, if this path will make me who I'm supposed to be... In taking the path less traveled, will the difference be the one I want to see? Rip my heart out my chest, so I won't be possessed, by the weakness that tries to shut me down! My movement has slowed, but I'll never let go. I'll just lift myself each time around... If I had known that it would be this way, I would've never put myself this far into the fray. Cause now I'm seeing everything I am today, is just a product of the existential price I paid. Now there's dust in the wind and my vision has dimmed. The sand has covered my skin. Is this the end of the end? I wipe it from my body, but it's starting to blend, and now the only option left is just to soak it in... If I was whole, would I be more? Or does the sum of my parts make me more? How can I compete against this hold? Cause when I turn up the heat, I still feel cold... I still feel cold... I still feel... cold I still feel... My head's on the ground again... My body's not the same and I can't feel my skin... I wrap up my broken limbs and I stand up on my feet, but the whole world's spinning. "Lost in this desert and I'm looking for freedom. A small oasis or a moment of breathing." I'm still alive but I can hear my body screaming... A broken core despite its pieces interweaving. I search and pick up the pieces all to my soul and I go and try to fill all the gaps to fix all the holes, I don't know. How someone like me can learn to be free, pay their toll. When they were broken down before they had a chance to be whole. But living life isn't a life, if you have nothing left to give. And living life isn't a life, if you've burned all your reasons left to live. SCORCHING SUN! FREEZING NIGHTS!... I'm slipping. LOSING SIGHT of my WILL TO FIGHT. ON MY OWN~ All alone... It's ticking. Counting down my fading light. I'm sick of picking myself up off of these burning sands below. I'm still alive but something died in me, ages long ago... Now my stomach is sick and I'm hearing the tick to the next time I fall and hit the ground. This time will be quick, no longer equipped to lift myself this time around. I've burned it all down, as the flames surround me and I fall into the sand. Like a shot in the dark, I use my last spark for one last deed before the end. My head's on the ground again... I try to lift my head, but I'm still sinking in... I lift up a shaky hand, and I say the only word I should've said back then... "help-"

This song made by heart rate increase by 50% because of how much I relate too it.

This has given me great inspiration to write a story about crossing an infinite desert. I'll be starting the writing process soon.

Can we talk about the message here? The way I’m seeing it, it’s about someone who prides themself on everything you’d think makes a ‘strong person.’ Letting go of their ego, having the will to keep going time and time again without support, taking challenges on like it’s nothing, actively learning how to survive and thrive and pushing themself to ascend personally and to get to where they want to go. But they’ve made one major issue. They’ve closed themself off. The narrator talks about nobody being able to abandon them if they have nobody to begin with and having an ‘untouchable’ heart due to them having ripped it out. They’ve closed themself off from having a connection with others. The narrator mentions not having a home or soul and building Nirvana from their trauma. They’re identifying with their trauma and loss and closing themself off from anything new. In the end, the narrator regardless of whatever they’ve found on their journey has grown to regret living like this. That disregard for their emotional well-being wound up being their downfall. Where willpower and pride once stood is now but an empty hole of regret. Without that will to carry on, they begin to slip. Nearing the end now beyond any chance to change the past, the narrator realises that surviving to see the next rise isn’t a worthy life if there’s nothing to live for. Then right before sinking in, they finally reach up and ask for help only because there’s nothing left to live. And the thing is, that’s it. By doing that one thing, the narrator has abandoned their pride. Now they have no one, nothing and they can’t even say they were stubborn enough to keep going. And now it’s over. The narrator presumably died with nothing to say about it and nobody to remember them. The end.

I love the music and the detail of the character changing with the song, as if they are falling apart, each color represents a different aspect of the personality and the first/last one is the full person.

This is excellent. Its darker tone is somewhat similar to Antihuman and one part of World of Everything, and I personally like this style quite a lot.

It's really a talent to make a song almost 8 minutes in a way it stays interesting the whole way trough. Good job.

I wasn't expecting that part at 3:30 in the song, this song is so good, love what you did Ivy

This song is definitely going to be on my Spotify wrapped and it should be on everyone else's too.

I was expecting a fun song from the goofy bee proto but instead I ended up near tears as he sung his heart out about pain and trauma that is to close to my own for comfort fantastic song dude

This is one of the most underrated songs ever, I related dearly to the sheer power and emotion behind the lyrics, let alone the incredible artwork, this is amazing and the creators of this masterpiece deserve far more recognition for their talent

Its not only very impressive how long this song is, but the lyrics and art are amazing! Fantastic job to everyone involved

YIPPEE ITS ON KZfaq I WAS LISTENING TO THIS ON SOUNDCLOUD, BUT NOW ITS ON KZfaq

I love this and after only listening to only a few notes when this song first started it immediately became my favorite, I just love how unique these character designs are :3❤

The last word made me sob and cry,it may seem like its better to be alone in your struggles and not be hurt by others but we can't always do it alone.sure they might hurt you but they could also help you and you could help them.I try not to let life harden me to stone if it does i'll just soften.

I’m just seeing the cover and I already know it’s gonna be good

Ivycomb are you okay? These songs continue to derail more, and get more and more sad. Honestly, I sometimes cry to these. Please let me know that these are not a cry for help, I’ve been in similar spots

Wow! and i mean wow. This song is incredible! The visual effects of VIVA swapping between the others and allowing each to shine, and the background slowly dissolving into glitches just as VIVA was at the end, was INSANE. Not even mentioning the incredible instrumental and lyrics! Massive applause to PC_Doodle, Ivy and Stephanafro for creating such a masterpiece!

Yet again, I'm baffled by the passion audibly present in this stunning song, let alone the glitchy art style here.

This song goes hard when I’m carrying groceries in both hands and have to open the door. “ON MY OWN ILL MAKE IT, BLOOD AND BONE ILL TAKE IT”

One of the few songs that went to my soul ^^ I loves Dis lol ^w^

WHATT THIS IS SO RELATABLE I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH (my jaw was on the ground when I started to realize what the lyrics meant, I've been waiting for a song like this for ages now.)

I have never really understood what or why have I felt so awful lately and I eventually found this video which sums up what I have been feeling and it's actually kinda scary- I have this obsession with finishing a promise I made three years ago with my old friends, they eventually left me behind and I still haven't made any progress and it makes me feel this empty feeling in my chest, after some eventful things between me and my old group I have been keeping a lot of my problems to myself. Thank you for making this masterpiece of a song I hope you grow bigger because you've motivated me to find help now that I have a better idea of what I am doing to myself and I should probably go find help before I sink deeper into whatever this obsession is. Thank you.

This song is both a banger, and also long enough to be used as a timer for kraft mac n cheese

Broken down before they got to be whole. I feel that man, this song really speaks to me. I've always wondered if I'd have been more if I hadn't been broken so early in life.

Oh shit I wake up to a new Ivy song coming out? Today is going to be good

I can't believe that guy turned down an offer for help. The rest of his agony and death could have been avoided if he stayed with the guy in the house. (great song btw)

Ivycomb is literally a queen bee spreading out this sweet sweet honey

Jesus Christ ivycomb makes the best music and hires the best artists, every single song is a banger with an awesome art

Wow, this is one of the best songs I've heard this last year. Seriously, the artwork, the vocals, everything is stunning!!!

I just woke up and listened to the whole song, and I got shocked that it’s a 7 minute long song. Loved the desperate feeling vocals on this one. What’s the best part is that when reaching the end of the song I still couldn’t understand the meaning of the song until the last part. When the last word was said, everything just *dawned* on me. Great song, pretty unique.

I love how every time viva’s face and color scheme changes, the song’s tempo and tone changes.

i'm a picky listener, i get maybe one or two songs from bands that i actually like, but Ivycomb has made me enjoy nearly all of their songs.

I am not going to lie, i think this is your best song yet! and kudos to the artist team as well.

I think I’m spotting lore. Tell me if I’m wrong, but I think the characters we’ve been seeing in Ivy’s songs are the ghosts that possess this character, we can clearly see Moka and the one from the Luminescent(I’m sorry, I don’t know their name)appear in the video. I also suspect that the original consciousness of the body is represented by purple secondary coloring and rainbow ears. Honestly, I think this is so cool. I wanna see more of this lore!!!

THIS IS SO GOOD AAAAA I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE HOW LONG IT WAS BECAUSE I DIDN'T GET TIRED OF LISTENING TO IT THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH

0:52 the line made me immediately think of Ultrakill level 4-2 and i wanted to know if that is a thing that more than one person has thought of or if it was just me playing that game obsessively. either way cool song. sounds good and i will add it to my collection of liked things.

A powerful song, one that beats with the hollow void one of my OCs has. Rambling ensues below. Thrust into a violent world, he found it's impossible to stay dead in that new realm. Wringing mortality out of him and leaving him fighting with nothing unbroken else be rent further. He got *better* at it all eventually, but I still vibe with his darkest chapters. The need to push with such strain that everything shatters, just to drag myself together and keep up the battlefront.

this song deeply resonates with my past struggles and how i kept breaking and building myself back up time and time again

WE PROVIDING FOR THE COLONY WITH THIS ONE🔥🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥

This boutta be a banger

I'm a truck driver... I can't wait to blast this at full volume tomorrow! I'll be crossing the desert soon. Again. :3

Ok I am hooked on this music, it brings so much emotion I can FEEL the lyrics.

this is my number 1 favorite song now, this is genuinely amazing in everyway

Man I really love Stephanafro's singing voice.

One of your best songs, ngl ❤

This is awesome, thank you Ivycomb for the amazing music as always

Man thanks for what you do, your music hits just right! Hope to keep hearing more and more. LOVE IT!!!

Fun fact about me: I feel happyer the colder it is, so winter is my favorite season.

Absolutely amazing! I know ill be listening to this masterpiece on repeat for a while.

WE MAKIN IT OUT OF THE DESERT WITH THIS ONE 🔥🔥🔥

I don’t typically enjoy songs this long, but the story told through the lyrics more than makes up for it. Going through something thats breaking you apart inside, and pushing away everyone who’s trying to help is something I still struggle with. The verse from 4:13-4:55 almost perfectly reflects me

Honey wake up, new ivycomb song dropped!

This song reminds me of my life... it started out by being put down by everyone around me, but i stayed strong. over time i lost hope, then one person came to help, but it wasn't enough. now that person isn't here, and i am even more alone. everything leaves a gap and nothing helps... i am slowly losing the rest of my determination. i do realise i should've said all that stuff back then. the word. "help". There is no need for that anymore. i don't have the determination to face anyone with my real troubles as i don't want to trouble anyone with my own personal troubles. it is far too late, and i am far too gone. although not everything is all bad about my life, since i was able to hear these amazing songs by amazing people :D i have lost a lot, but i still have some people that care about me. that is probably the only thing holding me back from my true self that nobody ever wants to see. nobody knows about it, and nobody will ever realise it. i keep it to myself, as i do with my feelings. everything is just a facade. just to keep everyone around me happy. i hide behind myself, although what is there even to hide with? i may be succeeding every class, but at what cost. i have no friends, nobody to rely on, no living being that can help me... but even if there was someone, would they even help? i have tried getting to know a few people, then telling them after i think i can rely on them.... it just ended up leaving an even bigger gap. it grows and grows. the hatred that i suppress into nothing. i suppress my hatred, but at the cost of all other emotions. i dont feel sadness, i dont feel happiness. i just wish i could find someone to rely on, and open up to. someone to help me get out of this rabbit hole. i am stuck, and i keep falling deeper. nobody sees it, even if i give signs. signs aren't clear enough, and they don't realise what i'm hinting at. i can't trust them either way... the only reason i really go on is because if i died, they would feel remorse. i dont want them to be sad. even if they can't help me, they still give me food and shelter. this all just shows, if you show weakness in the start of your life, you will have a lot of troubles getting back out of that rabbit hole. i am struggling, and maybe succeeding, but for now it just isn't enough. i just want to find happiness and honesty, someone i can open up everything to. someone who won't pick on me for who i really am. if you read all of this then congrats, you just wasted your time. btw... thanks for making this high quality song :)

Ive never related to a song its almost word for word of my own experience to the point i had a panic attack when i listened to it

I like this song, but it is a hard song for me to listen to. It has nothing to do with the production or performance, none of it is bad, I actually think this is in my top 3 songs from all of you, but it is hard to listen to. The vocals are so raw and filled with pain and it just, hits, you know? I know Ivy posted on twitter that it was a song about murder, but when I hear and read the lyrics, I get a strong sense that is just a metaphor for body dysmorphia. That's what I got out of the song. I was on the verge of tears when I heard it the first time a couple days ago. No song has ever made me cry, and this one almost got me there. All this to say: I love your music, thank you.

Even if it's a coincidence I'm overjoyed this came out on my birthday... In short, this is freaking beautiful

I was hyped when i saw the Twitter post and I'm more so now 100 hours of work and it shows👏

I like your OC there! makes me wanna create one similar to that. but i don't wanna it be too similar but it hard ;-;

One of the few longer songs I don't imagine I will ever get tired of listening to. Just found ya and I'm loving your music!

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH :3

hollyyy shitttt can you imagine all the animatics with this. Not to undermine the vocals, lyricism, production, and art. It all works so well, though most importantly im loving stephs performance

2 Fun facts: sahara is the name of one of the driest deserts and this is his longest song

S tier character design

What's it like to post only bangers? On a more serious note, your music is helping me through this rough patch in my life. You probably hear that all the time though

Oh, wow. That "Help" at the end really shook me for a moment. Great work!

Inspired by a trip to the Australian desert

I swear everytime you release a new song it's even better than the last one! Absolutely love your music!

I'm very much hoping theres going to be an instrumental version of this but otherwise this is really great!

THAT OPENING THOUGH HOLY SHIT

I love the animation! The song is fantastic as well! Edit: maybe some lore is hidden in this video somewhere.. I MUST CHECK EVERY FRAME!

Release it already I’ve been checking Spotify every like five minutes🥲

I'm sad I didn't get to see the premiere, but holy F**k, this song is so good... And relatable

Babe wake up! New Ivycomb song just dropped!

This has got to be possibley my favorite song you have wrote Ivy and Stephenafro amazing vocals and dynamics. Now a day you don't hear dynamics in the songs, not nearly as much as your's it's beautiful. You two make a good song making team. Keep up the great work but please don't overwhelm yourselves I get how stressful it is for music creators.

I can say this song resonates with me, no context to be given because its alot. But I grew up in Vegas so y'know.. desert settings

Look I used to be very, furry phobic, I guess is the word, but hearing this song, makes me realize how similar we all are no matter how desperately we try to make ourselves different from the rest, honestly this song might be the kick that makes me draw my first fursona. Might be

"Scorch the sun" Idk why that line is good, but it's good.

in the sahara desert of morocco right now listening to this

This is when all of my emotions go to war.

I love your voice with a burning passion.

Ivycomb you’ve done it again holy crap I’ve never heard anything better! My autistic ass is gonna be listening to only this for the next month or two. Thank you for this masterpiece!!❤❤❤

Wow. I love the sound of this song, the beat and the lyrics aswell! The lyrics are very nicely written to make the connections between a pure desert and your own brain. Very nice job on this, after I heard this I was completely sold on your music :3 Please make more like this one! ❤

AAAAA I LOVE THEY SWITCH AND SING DIFFERENT.

Holy shit, this tells a story. I'm legit at a lost for words xdd

This song is absolutely amazing can’t even put it on a scale of 1 to 10 it’s so good everything about it is just astonishing.

Day 1: first time listening it Day 2: addiction

This song is a masterpiece. It just hits different is how good it is!