smoking a cigarette and opening up about my anxiety

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eeheh left the footage without colorgrading for a second at the beggining so you can see what it looks like before editing!
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00:00 im too afraid of things that aren't even going to happen
02:48 a moment to appreciate what's at hand
03:22 what am I even afraid of?
04:39 cute doggo makes a cameo appearence
05:18 I think too much and I should probably cut that out
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@Jalopezlag Ай бұрын

"I'm more afraid of the thought of it than the actual action of doing it" is so real

@just4pierce7 Ай бұрын

my anxiety is really bad too. my parents often have friends come over and i ALWAYS hide the entire time until they are gone

@foxmulder3748 Ай бұрын

I still do this and I live with myself.

@RandomCoyote Ай бұрын

relatable especially during holidays

@Ampie09 Ай бұрын

Same here

@fieldstalker2474 Ай бұрын

My anxiety is worse... My parents often have friends come over and i ALWAYS show myself the entire time until they are gone

@infinsci8406 Ай бұрын

⁠@@fieldstalker2474good for you?

@user-zaiobaiosluk Ай бұрын

You're so right that most of the anxiety we have feed into hypothetical storylines that are 85% (at least) NOT going to happen I've been trying to go out and record silly little videos for myself and my friends, which is a great way to take a step into an uncomfortable territory but yeah practice makes perfect and doing something thats uncomfortable once will only make it easier to do the second time you know

@connieramos Ай бұрын

you totally got this Bo!!! thanks for your early comment :))

@fr0z3n9k Ай бұрын

let me ask you connie. how many cigarettes you smoke per day❤

@mohammedrezin1488 Ай бұрын

@@fr0z3n9klast time she pointed out that it was 1 or 2 cigarettes per day

@fr0z3n9k Ай бұрын

@@mohammedrezin1488 thank

@ChrisShin-jb9xq Ай бұрын

I used to have anxiety and panic attacks. If you have them, just remember that you can heal from it over time. Yes, it isn't permanent, it's a season. Always have faith that you will get through it. Faith, hope, and love is the motto.

@prismatic1239 Ай бұрын

I’ve been dealing with some generalized anxiety for the past 2 months. I’ve just been on edge since I had my first real panic attack, so you can imagine how relieved (for lack of better words), I was to see this upload.

@connieramos Ай бұрын

it's going to get better :) try to reduce screen time as much as possible, try meditation or some sort of breathing exercises, (I like to inhale in 3 seconds hold for 2 exhale for 6 seconds, hold for 2 again and repeat until I feel calmer). I also love spending time outside just observing the world and people, it helps me detatch myself from my own worries and focus more on what's happening around!

@No_message928 Ай бұрын

Hi Connie Your videos and live streams are always top-notch. The way you interact with us is really welcoming and kind. And I think that's what sets you apart from other KZfaqrs; it's just the way your personality shines through in your videos and live streams that makes this channel so much better and authentic. And I really do believe your goal for this channel is actually working. having someone to smoke with Or just having someone for company Or accompany someone who's feeling lonely. You are truly kind-hearted and deserve all the joy, happiness, and peace coming your way. And, btw, you can call me Danny; I don't really mind it.

@tomdavis5715 Ай бұрын

EXCELLENT post "Dylan!" I can only say "Amen" in support of everything you wrote about Connie!

@connieramos Ай бұрын

thank you so much the support you keep showing c: and ill call you by your name!!!! thank you Dylan!!!!!! (i remember from the livestream :))

@gianmariadipaolo9668 Ай бұрын

I agree totally, very relaxed

@joshcornell Ай бұрын

For people with social anxiety, pro tip: Instead of focusing so much on yourself and worrying about what to say, focus on what the other person is saying and just go with the flow. If there’s silence, that’s okay. If you have awkward moments, don’t worry cuz everyone has awkward moments. Focus on the moment and enjoy it how it is, even if it isn’t perfect

@connieramos Ай бұрын

this is a really nice way to look at it :) maybe a lot of the anxiety comes from a place of looking inward too much! perhaps if we focus on the "other" we might find more peace c:

@billm6294 Ай бұрын

80,000 subscribers level passed...because you are honest and sincere. I hope we all help to support you!

@461aron6 Ай бұрын

Oh man, I also think way too much. And since I left school it's gotten more and more and more, I know the thing about the racing heart. There was a moment when I realized that I really had a problem with it, I was at the point Checkout and wanted to pay and my heart was racing. I couldn't really control myself, and it happend more often. But I've accepted it, all I can do is work on it and make it better. And I don't have that with friends either, only with strangers lmao. Nice video Connie

@connieramos Ай бұрын

thanks so much for being here so early Aron, I always love reading your comments so much !! thanks for sharing :)

@toddreeder3082 Ай бұрын

Thank you Connie i also have anxiety as well hard for others to comprehend what we deal with on a daily basis

@geoffreyjohnK Ай бұрын

We love you Connie

@blair1664 Ай бұрын

Bangs really suit you Connie :) thank you for the video!

@swaggscronus Ай бұрын

Proud to be a member

@connieramos Ай бұрын

:))) appreciate it!!

@rhandleatime8558 Ай бұрын

@@lunalovegoodwitch shut up and leave her alone

@gianmariadipaolo9668 Ай бұрын

Best wishes for all

@HenryVlahavas Ай бұрын

I love watching your videos. You are intelligent and have a unique magnetism.

@irenealvzz Ай бұрын

So happy to watch,💗

Ай бұрын

It is wat it is... you say always... YOU RIGHT!!! thanks for this :) and LOVE for you ❤❤

@chen0rama Ай бұрын

Love you Connie :)

@user-hs9ns7fg1j Ай бұрын

I ended up in a mental health facility for this same problem but I'm proud to say your dad is right I'm a lot better know that I confronted that anxiety smart man great advice have a great day 😊😎👍

@rw1995p Ай бұрын

don,t mind others how think bad of you, Connie because i still really like your channel and livestreams❤❤

@gabebishop821 Ай бұрын

Im trying to do the same thing. I have terrible OCD, and anxiety. But once or twice a week, I'll drive out to the nearest town that has some activity, and just walk around the main street. See the shops and groups of people. Just to put myself out there. See the bustle of the town. Just to be part of it. You are a very intelligent and amazing woman Connie. Love your accent (and music taste) btw. Keep being you. 😊

@MrHemppa Ай бұрын

Hi Connie! There was very good thinking in your video and very often these over thinkers and doers have symptom named Ocd. I warmly recommend all these people who has this kind thoughts in life to get know better in this subject. All people have thinking but there is people whose thought or actions are like mountains and very challenging to exceed over or calm them self to balance these moments. Here is what google says about it : Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a long-lasting disorder in which a person experiences uncontrollable and recurring thoughts (obsessions), engages in repetitive behaviors (compulsions), or both. People with OCD have time-consuming symptoms that can cause significant distress or interfere with daily life.

@ali77044ao Ай бұрын

I have similar symptoms like you, of anxiety I think I know what you feel it’s anxiety around people probably social anxiety hope we get better in that goodluck to you and me Connie! I recommend to you to try Marlboro double mix they taste soooooo amazing!

@tomdavis5715 Ай бұрын

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do." --Eleanor Roosevelt And YOU just did this...and did it well! I am proud of you!!

@KetchupOnShirt Ай бұрын

Connie My Favorite Creator :)

@connieramos Ай бұрын

c: tysm !!

@user-iu7rf6yt3l Ай бұрын

It is not so much what people (might) think of you that makes the pressure. But it is the miror of how you judge yourself that is hard to accept. Because you can tell how you judge yourself juste by observing how people see you. In a way, their eyes will tell you how you see yourself. If that makes sens (?).

@Leah-ys6bg Ай бұрын

something my mom's always told me is "don't feel the sorrow in advance" (or something like that, not sure how accurate the translation is), but I think something we with anxiety feel a lot is the pain we know we'd feel if this or that were to happen, without it even having happened. So I like reminding myself of that as often as I can. I was just diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder like last week so I'm still figuring out how to deal with it, but it helps having a diagnose, makes it a lot easier for me to recognize when my thoughts are just my anxiety. and I'm proud of you for facing your fears, in return you got to realize that you could do it, and we got a relaxing video with beautiful nature in the back (although I also love your car videos)

@connieramos Ай бұрын

thank you so much for this comment Leah!! Theres a saying like that one in my country as well and I try to think about it a lot when I'm worrying about things that didn't even happen yet! Its like that lyric by Bobby Mcferrin "In every life we have some trouble, But when you worry, you make it double" and it is so true :)

@marcindolecki1721 23 күн бұрын

Connie, you are not silly, you are good, sincere person, beautiful both internally and externally. Warm greetings from Poland 🙂

@imnil3797 Ай бұрын

WOW!! i just rolled my first cigarette like right now and smoked it watching ur asmr video the experience MammaMia!! the buzz was soo different from what im used to smoked it without filter i thought it would be harsh but not at all, what an experience thanks connie

@Ritchii3 Ай бұрын

I think I think too much I relate too this video a lot❤

@OXSkuldream Ай бұрын

You're awesome!

@mariasaojose1955 Ай бұрын

I just get so happy when i see the notification of her new video 🥹

@connieramos Ай бұрын

@alexgermane2211 Ай бұрын

Great video and yeah I think everyone struggles with anxiety

@massimozaganelli4955 Ай бұрын

A huge kiss to you, Connie!

@leyor7604 Ай бұрын

You can get menthol tobacco spray. You could spray it over your Cigarettes of choice, and then let them dry out over night. You then got yourself some awesome DIY menthol cigs😉 Great video as always Connie, you're an inspiration to people😊🙏

@Iago-1234 Ай бұрын

This thumbnail got that Isaac newton under The Apple tree vibe (awesome video Constança)

@Iago-1234 Ай бұрын

I don't know If it's KZfaq bugging or Connie Just confiscated The ❤️ in my comment, but the notification showed UP, but It don't appear here

@connieramos Ай бұрын

@@Iago-1234 youtube be wilding these days

@Iago-1234 Ай бұрын

@@connieramos It came back ❤️🚬 (those bugs are Crazy)

@origamilotus Ай бұрын

From the outside looking in, I would say that you have unresolved issues that you are attempting to escape and fear being exposed. That anxiety related with every random interaction is that you fear someone clearly seeing the issue you are ashamed of and don't care to be reminded of(is my face really a billboard for this issue?). All I will say is that there is peace in Christ and freedom from these anxieties. Cast aside the old and learn from the new. You are an excellent speaker and I think you are more than aware of the source of your fear. Ask and it shall be given to you, seek and you shall find, knock and it will be opened unto you. Have a blessed day and know that you are loved.

@Lazyseal97rajrupa Ай бұрын

We suffer more in our imagination than reality....and it's so hard to come out of that situation....when you're in that dark place it's so hard to think positive knowing that there's a way to come out and there's light...my heart goes out for all the people that are suffering....and trust me....everything's gonna be okay....everyone stay strong,we are loved and thanks Connie for spreading positivity and love ....🤍🤍💛💛 Sending love and light to all 🤍✨🦭

@connieramos Ай бұрын

that first line in your comment is so true Seal AHAHHAHA thanks for always being here

@benturner3458 Ай бұрын

Unfortunately Connie, for people with a similar disposition to yourself (by that I mean people who unfortunately struggle with anxiety) I feel like the internet and social media can end up making you feel so much worse because of the likelihood of negative comments from insensitive people. It would be hard for normal people to deal with that all the time, but it must be even worse for you. I hope you find ways to not let it bother you. You have a lovely personality and I very much enjoy watching your videos. Even to watch you talk about your life is comforting to me. Thanks and take care EDIT: I also wanted to mention, that from someone who's a little bit older than you (30's) I find it remarkable that the younger generation can suffer from anxiety and yet be so comfortable in front of a camera or on social media. I'm completely the opposite myself: I'm super comfortable around people (well I used to be, maybe less so as I've got older) but I'd never be able find the confidence to make videos. It's very funny how technology can change us isn't it. Anyway all the best

@headacheimperial1999 Ай бұрын

Usually watch these having a j instead. These vids are always chill to have on.

@connieramos Ай бұрын

glad to know you're enjoying the videos man !!

@decoupage5582 Ай бұрын

i love your hair in this video

@connieramos Ай бұрын

thank u c:

@juliodefreitas157 Ай бұрын

Absolutely video ❤

@maxkasmr Ай бұрын

honestly there's so much I relate to here. being judged by strangers is such a real fear, despite the fact a stranger's opinion doesn't matter and most strangers don't ACTUALLY care. I've always loved public speaking and was good at that in school but for some reason these days it's quite intimidating to be around others who may judge. also fellow European, soo wish menthols weren't banned!

@connieramos Ай бұрын

damn you just described my thoughts exaclty!! and yeah.........the menthols........and flavored ciggis :c rip

@Biblecampvictim_ Ай бұрын

Thumbnail hard asf

@donnahart3888 27 күн бұрын

Hi Connie it's so weird for me I don't like smoking outside in front of others as we are in emergency housing like a motel setup thank it was when I use to smoke out the front door of our rental but here I have to literally come out for a smoke early in the wee hours of the morning I was use to the privacy we had but here us like a motel setup any tips for me Connie would be greatly appreciated.

@crazydude2520 Ай бұрын

Who cares what other people think? If people can't accept you for yourself, they simply don't deserve your company. You are stunningly beautiful, you are nice, and you smoke. What could be better than that?

@MarineCy Ай бұрын

hi Connie am from Cyprus, and I watch your videos sometimes, I like the way you talk.. Am not a smoker but I use some chewing tobacco like snus or dip if you ever tried...

@Skyler-pl8dm Ай бұрын

I feel the same way

@JennieJohnson-xx9tc Ай бұрын

Your hair looks beautiful

@connieramos Ай бұрын

jennie you are an absolute legend

@JennieJohnson-xx9tc Ай бұрын

@@connieramos thank you Connie

@astorwelters-ld8jq Ай бұрын

i fw that

@ainahjmekrat Ай бұрын

at the end of the day I feel like it's human nature to have that fight or flight feeling y'know, that's probably how we're geared for survival and it's a completely rational thought to think of the worst case scenario and as another girl, a more accessible place to record your video is a safe bet

@krishalvorson5883 Ай бұрын

Stay calm

@user-dy5ue2tb6u Ай бұрын

Connie's forest.😊

@dox.K Ай бұрын

I don’t smoke but I like hearing you talk ngl

@krishalvorson5883 Ай бұрын

Don’t think too much. Don’t think fast don’t be scared. Don’t be scared. Relax.

@ToddSweeney341 Ай бұрын

Hey Connie hope you are doing well 😀😀☺️☺️

@V8-friendly Ай бұрын

Xanax is unbeaten for anxiety relief.

@krishalvorson5883 Ай бұрын

Everybody else is busy in their life you don’t have to be scared

@derekspradling7452 Ай бұрын

I think there is a bit of rationale to this social anxiety. So many people henge so much importance on a first impression and the first impression of someone you can only make ones. You fuck it up and depending on who you’re talking to you can’t take it back. With someone you know, at least you have some context as to their likes and dislikes. At least you’re used to each other and are at least familiar with each other’s quirks, regardless of whether or not you approve of them.

@CuteCorvus Ай бұрын

I suggest you one time smoking in the coast or lake or something like that it's very fun❤❤

@SlavicandScandinavianGirlLover Ай бұрын

I’m edging to this

@bobbyherbert8484 Ай бұрын

Connie, I’m a stranger and I’ll tell you what I think of you. In my opinion, you are an intelligent, caring and attractive person.

@ynwrubbiz4963 Ай бұрын

The worst is when anxiety is mixed with severe depression 😊 i know

@maxi04 Ай бұрын

to anyone struggling with anxiety, quit caffeine (if you drink it, which i guess 95% of people do 😂) and eat real healthy, move your body a bit (even if it’s just a walk and some stretching) get as much sunlight as possible, try to get sufficient sleep and always breathe deeply and slowly through your nose. also maybe pick up meditation. and you will be cured and feel absolutely amazing. but honestly, even just dropping caffeine will probably already cure it entirely

@Mafiakartell Ай бұрын

Ehhh these are ways to life better and healthier in general ? Not just for anxiety

@maxi04 Ай бұрын

@@Mafiakartell yeah for sure. didn’t say it was just for anxiety. but these things will cure your anxiety

@dox.K Ай бұрын

@@maxi04I’m gonna be honest, most social anxiety stems from something that isn’t physical health related. I’m healthy, exercise, drink water, no caffeine, I still struggle with severe social anxiety. Those things are really just for general physical health and maybe some generalized anxiety.

@maxi04 Ай бұрын

@@dox.K ok yeah i agree. it might not completely cure it but these things i mentioned definitely will make a huge difference

@Fob107 Ай бұрын

womp womp

@yazzarkhan8001 Ай бұрын

Ur really amazing I really like u and u think like me love from Pakistan 💖 I don't smoke any more but I like listening to you u hv pure heart💖when I use to smoke I don't know how to inhale so I use to inhale from the the nose like when smoke came out I use to inhale that smoke when it use to come from my mouth so I can't smoke in open air I use to smoke in bathroom and my mom use to yell at me 😁

@lastfirst6204 Ай бұрын

How do you usually hold a cigarette?

@Lonee_Ekks Ай бұрын

✌

@Periwinkleton Ай бұрын

My two cents, people are bad. All of us. Our ability to say sorry, genuinely, is the feat that's best.

@Fredlikesearthbound Ай бұрын

Maybe if you didn't smoke your anxiety would go down.

@marceloramos6579 Ай бұрын

🙂

@danlewis3605 Ай бұрын

Cigarettes help my anxiety so much!

@KingdomDumb Ай бұрын

If what you're doing isn't causing real harm, then yeah, just don't give a fuck and live and do what you want. The more you practice it, the easier it gets. Like anything else you would practice.

@enderman777 Ай бұрын

You must try Indonesian cigarrete

@jeffhucle6436 Ай бұрын

I have a super challenge for you then. Go do an improv stand up comedy bit. You'll need to find an "open mic night" at a club in your neighborhood. Good luck

@Miguelelam339 Ай бұрын

Fodasse o que eu tou para aki a fazer... epa continua xavala tas fazer belíssimo trabalho... isto e que ja n me diz respeito...

@lauramardegan4442 Ай бұрын

você é brasileira?

@gabedamasceno889 Ай бұрын

Im a handsome young man about your age thinking that smoking a cigarette with you would be pretty cool. God helped me tremendously with my anxiety, heeding to the holy spirit's guidance while going for walks is essential. Some people and temptations we're better off avoiding altogether. Im living in the USA. Also, tu é Brazileira?

@shemsinruwng4219 Ай бұрын

I've been smoking 20cigs in 1and half day and it's increasing. I need to reduce can anyone help me with it

@dox.K Ай бұрын

Just got to stop no one can help you except yourself

@Ilaysharon-cu8vu Ай бұрын

don't stop Your body probably needs it in another day or two it will thicken

@christopherevans5816 Ай бұрын

Ignore negativity and those who preach it. You speak really well

@skswamy100 Ай бұрын

Pipe is preferable

@Dickz24 Ай бұрын

Hi love ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@IbrahimMuhammad_114 Ай бұрын

Can you give a tour of your car

@connieramos Ай бұрын

yessir i can

@IbrahimMuhammad_114 Ай бұрын

@@connieramos nice. I saw its a manual transmission so I got curious

@710.gavvvvv Ай бұрын

As a smoker myself here’s some quick advice smoking is gonna make the anxiety worse

@sathish1765 Ай бұрын

Sometimes i think im dum. Why i shouldn't be dum in this comment section too. But you dont need to worry about this time bec you changed ur getup, no one could identify u if you change back as usual.

@Valentin11Ga Ай бұрын

I cheated on my fears, broke up with my doubts, got engaged to my faith Now I‘m marrying my dreams ~ Beyoncé (allegedly)

@ynwrubbiz4963 Ай бұрын

Do u wanna vlog in anther country where u can smoke mental cigarettes?

@Nik_Min0979 Ай бұрын

When are you gonna do a collab with Jacobfuckingjones? Would be awsome imo. Btw, you’re awsome, don’t let anybody take that away from you. You’re much appreciated❤

@connieramos Ай бұрын

would be awesome for sure! but hard to arranje since we live very far away tt_tt thanks for the support and nice comment :))

@Nik_Min0979 Ай бұрын

@@connieramos wow, thanks a lot, I’m sure it will happen some time in the future

@Damon_Washington Ай бұрын

Maybe you think you'd get scolded that would bother me

@Virtualrealist236 Ай бұрын

pick up meditation. you wont regret it. you cant stop the waves but you can learn to surf!

@connieramos Ай бұрын

ive been meditating very frequently these days and you are so right! it has truly been helping and I'm learning more and more about it :>)

@Virtualrealist236 Ай бұрын

@@connieramos keep it up. meditation shows you so much and its all within us. you should look up Alan Watts on youtube. tons of great lectures about anxiety, life, etc. stay curious and be here now !