BLOODY, EXCELLENT. As someone who has lost 12 friends to avalanches, and sometimes ponder why I also am still here after all the risks I've taken, I find this film to be extraordinary. Thank you Zahan for sharing your journey in such a genuine and heartfelt manner. It takes real courage to talk about these emotional traumas from the deaths of those we love so much. The heartbreak is real beyond belief. The best friend of my life passed away in 2016 under the snow, and I have to admit, I haven't really recovered. Maybe its good we never "recover", though. My steeps-shred-mountaineering game has tamed WAY back, which often bothers me...Because I miss those immense drug-like chemical highs. And shit, man, that game is such a giant part of my identity. How is there even a life without climbing and riding giant faces? But in the same token I'm still alive, today at least. I REALLY appreciate how this film dives into the human element of the "human-mountain interface". But that's just the thing, perhaps these "mishaps", or "accidents" really aren't accidents when put into the perspective the environment we are messing with. These large events are the norm in the high alpine, and we somehow convince ourselves that it is "surprising" when we end up bumping into large scale physics. And we're even more surprised when our best friends get killed. I also appreciate that this film gives zero real conclusions. As stated in the title, its that individual calculus of what is acceptable decision making, and therefore behavior. The math problem remains: As someone who loves high angle terrain more than anything in this life, where do I draw my own lines of what is appropriate behavior for myself? Honestly, to this day I have no idea. I really am sick and tired of losing people, and then surviving those body shaking tears. Also, the older I get the less interested I become in having my body get all pretzeled and broken in some dumb avalanche. There's also just simply the risk of falling! That small slough that killed Luke and Stephen doesn't surprise me, and jesus christ what a shitty situation that rapidly became for Zahan. High angle, hard snow environments are real deal. I feel that losing an edge and falling high on a steep, hard snow face has actually been my greatest risk for fatality in the mountains. I've sort of had to systematically put a stop to many of my behaviors, because I realized that my future depended on it. Thank you, all my friends at Patagonia for all that you do. This one makes us think.

Wow guys this one is really special. Brought tears to my eyes thinking about not being able to bring my friends home from the backcountry. It’s a lesson to all that no matter how good you are, nature is uncontrollable. Being in those environments there is no elimination of risk, only mitigation.

This is definitely an Oscar worthy documentary. I hope Patagonia and Teton Gravity Research take the gold.

When taking Spanish from Zahan on the west side of the Tetons 15 years ago, I knew then that he would someday share an astute perspective with the world. I was happy to see it today. Gracias Zahan. Thank you, Patagonia.

It’s so interesting to see these top athletes like Zahan and Caldwell really questing into this dilemma of how to balance “selfish” risk with performance, experience, and legacy. Shows a higher level of maturity in these sports/lifestyles; a maturity that I personally appreciate as I adventure into the unknowns. Thanks Zahan for sharing deeply, and cheers to @Patagonia for elevating the conversation.

I don't know if it was the music or how he said, "watching the snow wash over my right boot" and feeling florid when he looked up and no one was there but that really hit me and made me feel a sense of loss and dread no other film has made me feel before.

This was great! Thanks to Z for being so vulnerable and honest in front of the camera.

Thanks for reminding us what we’re playing with. We’re not fighting the snow, we’re trying to listen to what it’s telling us. Enjoy a safe winter full of amazing adventures.

Great documentary from Patagonia, haven’t really tuned in on their media until today and was pleasantly surprised. They have always been one of those companies that defies status quo. Usually, outdoor lifestyle brands steadily glorify and promote the “be alive, be free, push yourself to new heights” mantra, but here Patagonia turns over that pretty looking stone to remind us of the dangers of our own egos. We don’t see that enough on instagram and other promotional media because it doesn’t sell lifestyle. This is evidence of core values at every layer of the company-from sustainable sourcing and production of the products, to sustainable marketing to its customers. Coming from a snowboarder, backpacker, and fly fisherman, I’ll keep buying Patagonia gear and checking both my risk factors and ego before jumping into terrain that is out of my league and control. Thank you Z for sharing this vulnerable story with the world, and reminding us that sometimes we can fly too close to the sun, even when we are equipped with the best set of wings.

Another breathtaking film by Patagonia. Really puts things into perspective especially for the new mountain goers

One of the most powerful, heartfelt, honest accounts of life in the mountains as a guide. You are an inspiration!

This film is a strong and timely reminder that traveling in the backcountry is extremely risky no matter how many decades of experience one has. I am definitely guilty of being overly confident at times. This film is a sobering look at how quickly things can change. Thank you for sharing.

Thanks to all involved for telling this story. It is for me an honest reflection on fragility of life in the mountains. Central to the plot is the risk verse reward gamble that plays out time after time. A lifetime of shared family experiences, graduations, marriage, grandchildren etc etc for a few minutes of adrenaline. Z you became a scholar of the mountains, scientific and methodical to your approach of mountaineering because the risks involves a loving wife and beautiful children. That’s the heaviest load a father can ever carry. Whilst preparation, and knowledge will lessen the risks the variables that can added to the formula are infinite. Family and loved ones should be the result every time!!!

Kudos Mr/Mrs Editor. That initial scene of the snow suddenly breaking away under Zahan and fade.... if that doesn't grab you, I'm not sure you're alive. Well done doc. Spectacular.

Absolute masterclass of story telling and production. Yet again. Tears of understanding a stranger with nothing between us but cinema. Thank you for the vulnerability Zahan, and thank you for the reminder that we belong to the mountains, they do not belong to us.

We talk about inspiration a lot but it's rare I'm truly inspired, which means to me that I'm moved to do and be something better. Respek!

I'm glad you are alive Z and send prayers of healing to you, your family and the families that lost their dads. Your hat reads "Samsara" so likely you know nirvana as the other side of the same hand; perhaps you might consider what differentiates them. May your intentions remain beneficial, your insights deepen and your life be long. Peace. Thank you.

just hiking the tetons is intense. these dudes are next level

This. All you outdoor enthusiasts who love to seek new places (which come with risk) should watch this. Worth every minute. heartbreaking, heartwarming and reflecting film.

keep your friends close but your enemies closer... thank you for making this film

Almost 30min of permanent goosebumps. Great film

Amazing film. Great to hear about the guys not always picked up by the cameras. The unsung heroes of this sport.

This was a very emotional experience. I haven't been close to a similar lifestyle but being a passionate lover of nature and the outdoor sports, this hits hard and hits damn right. Thank you for this!

This documentary is amazing. Watching him describe what happened was tough. Experiencing death the way he did that day will certainly change a person. I had a similar experience a few years ago, I had to do cpr on a friend of mine, was able to get a pulse back but ultimately she passed away a few days later. One of the worst days of my life. I hope he finds peace one day though, I’m still searching too.

Sadness and grief takes much longer to process than one thinks. Talk about a massive landslide of unprepardness. If one is going to live a selfish life, then take a course on death and dying. Get your house in order. It helps everyone around you. Great production TGR and Patagonia.

Just came from Totally Deep Podcast with Z. Give it a listen - this guy is very smart.

Yo I'm stoked to see Zahan again! I saw him first in Mark Smiley's avalanche course. I look forward to skiing with him.

Great film, thanks for the ride. Education is important but it's been said thousands of times: There are no old bold mountaineers.

Zahan is an inspiration on how to balance a love of the mountains, family, work and friendships, in the face of doing what you love and doing it well and on the other hand coming to terms with nature, and it's unpredictability that makes you question yourself at a deeply emotional level. Zahan is one of those people who will manage the vissicitudes of life and be an example for us all. Take care my friend and thank you for your vulnerability and genuine.

Don’t beat yourself up So much. Keep up your love for your craft and family. The balance is the most important. I’ve been an Artic and Antarctic soldier and experienced the same and greater losses. So good luck enjoyed the film though.

Thanks for sharing your story. How we approach risk vs reward in the backcountry is a an ongoing struggle. It’s been a while since I’ve seen an skier/ athlete be so vulnerable.

This one was special. Nothing else to stay. Stay safe, be present. Love to y’all.

Wow! This was an awesome story! Cool soundtrack too!

Simply fantastic, fascinating how risk is something humans truly do need to a degree

Love every minute of this short film.....I love the message and how deep he has to reach in his soul.....

What passion! Zahan was able to pursue what he loves, not everyone has that privilege. May he always remain safe!

This was absolutely incredible. Thank you for telling this story!

Wow, thanks Zahan, TGR and Patagonia for making this fantastic doc. I am struck most by Zahan's humility to admit that much of what happens in the mountains can be traced back to selfishness. Stop and think about how often we accept the "He/She died doing what they loved" platitude (...to heck with whatever aftermath is left in the wake of risk-taking and grief). I think many of us stop there, because that conclusion lets us off the hook; we don't have to do the hard soul-searching to ask if its all worth it, and at what cost.

Super good story about natural and human processes, about the jolting moments when the environmental factors around us and even voices within find very sudden breaks from what we believed were stable bases. More arresting still is that gap between our perception of reality and the actual reality in dynamics we tell ourselves we have mastered academically and experientially. Everyone meets this moment in life but not all live through it. Not all via the same catalysts. Who wins? Those who spend their last day intoxicated still, heady with fearlessness, freedom and power tickling the sleeping fangs of nature? Who loses must be those who survive the break and succumb to the addiction nonetheless.....their wishful legend buried by father time like everything else. Something paradoxical about risk. Not taking risk is itself risk.

Excellent story. Excellent filming and editing. Didn't know drones were allowed in the Park. Maybe TGR got special permission, but those drone shots were extraordinary. Nice job TGR and Zahan is a new hero of mine.

Z says, " I have every intention of surviving my career". , which puts things in perspective. He is now confronting middle age and in time will handle old age ( where he will only be able to look up at the mountains.... but with love-joy-tears.)

Brilliant. Thank you for investing in content like this.

He’s come full circle, like many, with the value of the sport compared to risk. Ultimately, one comes to realize, life is made up of so much more and the body cannot keep up with the demands forever. But family, friends, other intellectual pursuits are just as satisfying.

Thank's a lot for this testimony. A lot of humility is necessary to talk about our own mistakes but this is the way to learn about our weaknesses...

Amazing documentary! I can really understand his feelings and the things he's talking about.

Legend, thank you Z!

An achievement indeed! Fulfilling your passion with unwavering determination courage and skill. Well done Zahan! We are proud of you. None of this would have been possible without your sacrificial love Kim. Thank you for releasing and supporting him.

Thank you for this wonderful message. This is how you value life even more and you learn to deal with it. Thank you very much.

Awesome!! Thank you for making this Z is an inspiration to not only get in the mountains but prepare physically, mentally and technically. 🤙

SO. GOOD. Thank you Patagonia for sharing these stories, you are constantly inspiring me to be better.

This film is very very welcome. It’s very inspiring, encouraging and welcoming. Feeling encouraged even being an immigrant. The thoughts at the end of the video resonate with ideas and thoughts that I have been learning through meditation with the headspace app.

thank you for making this and sharing it. there's so much here, thank you.

Thank you, this was an amazing documentary piece.

Amazing! One of the best documentaries I’ve seen.

Wow, this video is amazing. It shows the how amazing the backcountry is while showing the incredible danger

This just hits deep, very special film thank you!

Thanks I really enjoyed that. Zahan has some good things to say.

Thank you for making this film, and thank you Zahan for sharing your story. I just took my AIARE1 a week ago and this film really hit home.

I get this film. Thanks for sharing it with us all. Risk is what we sink our teeth into and work to hard to avoid getting bitten back in return.

Beautiful story and lesson. Makes me want to try and Live A Life.

Amazing film with a very important and real message about risk. Thanks to all involved...

This was beautiful ...thank you.

Looking forward to this! Thanks :)

obviously another amazing video from patagonia!

as a paddler.patroller.paramedic soon to be parent, Z's story resonates deep within me. Not that I operate at his worldclass level at all, but the emotions of the selfish nature of my past adventures as well as having lost so many friends from the river and the rescue world; its tough. Having lost my father in April of 2020, death is now even more visceral. Thanks for sharing your story Z. you are truly #amongstit and #amongstguardians. much love peace and gratitude to you. - Game Gunning, Salmon Falls Maine

Absolute "Gänsehaut-Momente".👍🏾 Was für eine starke Geschichte. Excellent. Ein riesiges Kompliment an die Macher des Werkes.

Amazing film. One the best of this year for sure. While we love to see people ripping steep lines this films focus was greatly needed to balance out the fantasy with reality.

Wow, what a monumental and mind blowing piece of living the dream of a mountain guide. RIP, all his friends and the unknown mass of avalanche victims every year worldwide.

Wow what a great doc. I felt Z’s story is very relatable for me. I spent a good part of my adult life studying and training to be a ski guide. It is a dangerous undertaking and requires a lot of patience. It’s also very competitive to make a living with. I’ve had a lot of close calls and been a party in more Avalanche events than I care to admit; I’ve always gone on the assumption that the more knowledge and experience I earn, the safer I can be in the backcountry. At the end of the day, as more of my heroes have perished in the mountains, I can’t help but realize this is a false assumption. Backcountry winter travel will always have risks that you cannot always mitigate, and it’s not possible to know every hazard. There isn’t actually a very strong correlation between experience and skill vs safety, or at least, the correlation has not been demonstrated to me to sufficiently strong to justify such life and death activities. Of course, each person has the right to assume as much risk as they want. I respect Z’s introspection, especially in the context of his family life.

I always think of the dangerous mountains being in Napal. this is a great reminder that right here in Utah and Idaho, we lose people every year. I probably need to step up my awareness, good movie loved it, I'd love to meet that guy

Strong documentary, thank you Zahan for sharing your story. It was emotionally very strong and heart felt. Mountains is not only about fun, therefore we shall act responsibly as well. It seems, that the more knowledge and experience you have, the more you are pushing yourself to the boundaries were miss-calculation has tragic consequences.

I was not expacting this energy and dedication when I started to watch this movie.

Wow. Really amazing profile of Zahan Billimorias. Amazing person, so dedicated to so many aspects of his life. Definitely part PSA to those that travel in the backcountry. But as usual from Patagonia amazing storytelling. Love it

One of my favorite parts is where he is ruminating afterwards about how he was always pressing maybe before and that he now could see that having a clear and peaceful mind was of paramount importance for being tuned to the mountain. It makes me think of the ceremonies that the Sherpas have before climbing. It is something - getting really present and quiet in the mind - that I want to incorporate into my expedition preparedness. Thanks so much for the inspiration and for willing to be vulnerable. Vulnerability is really necessary to be strong.

Fantastic stuff. Thank you for approaching this difficult subject. Well done.

Really well told and produced. Thanks!

Amazing depth in this film. love it.

A truly amazing film. Well done to all

Thank you for sharing this one.

Wow, I got so much emotion from this 🙏🏻

Excellent film. Well done all around. Really shows what it means to seek the limits of nature and constantly question the merits of risk. Amazing cinematography as well. Excellent!

The best TGR has ever produced

Wow. What an amazing film! From the story and authenticity of Z, to the Cinematography, the choice of music and especially the beauty of the Tetons. This film made me feel alot of emotion in a short period of time. Well done!! 👍🏽 👍🏽

Inspiring, powerful and timely. Thank you for sharing your story Zahan, TGR and Patagonia!

Very touching documentary glad KZfaq brought me to it.

amazing to hear all of your reflections, sending you my best vibes! z

Phenomenal short here. Thank you Z for your honesty, and integrity. Leave it to @Patagonia to once again be leading from the front on issues of morality and ethics. I've been a lot of crazy places, done some stupid things and got away with a few close calls. Then I decided to raise a family. This means a wholesale revision of the risk paradigm, as well the situations we deliberately place ourselves. If you're not engaged deeply in this thought, it's high time to mature.

this was so beautiful, and breathtaking. And inspiring.

Great video, thanks for sharing! My uncle died in an avalanche early 2010 while back-country skiing with some buddies ... stay safe everyone!

Great little film he's right changes good he could guide tourists on 5.8's and still make a decent living and have time with his family 👍

incredible documentary!

Wonderful piece. Thank you.

thank you for this. what a truly amazing doc

You are a legend Z!

Great film you guys, what an epic adventure!

Thank you z, I have loved our journey! Max

What a good film... Man.

thx for this masterpiece and nice story !

Great to see TGR make a film about risk awareness, nut just Nick-McNutt-getting-caught-in-yet-another-avalanche-and-being-cool-about-it.

Thank you and wish you load more guiding . And he feeling to be in natures and see home I know what you mean.