My best friend listened to Christmas kids for four hours before commiting suicide. This really gives a different, but kind of new outlook on the song. RIP Lucy 21/04/23

Possibly the most disturbing thing about Ian Watkins is how much work it took the victims to get anyone to pay attention…

I dodged a huge bullet with Ian back in 2012. They played Warped Tour and I remember walking around on the grounds to find my friends when I ran into him. I apologized and then soon after realizing who he was, I was starstruck. I asked him for a hug and he gave me one. Soon after, he asked me if I wanted to come to the side of the stage to see his band play because he was about to go on, but I told him I was looking for my friends and turned him down. He was kinda persistent about it at first, but seemed to understand and let me go on my merry little way. A few months later that same year, the news about him came out and I was disgusted. Now I understand why he was so persistent with me.

Mr Kitty isn't the only artist who wrote a song about Junko Furuta. The Gazette has a song called Taion that's about her too.

I spent a good hour or so after a Thursday gig chatting with Stu (previous Lostprophets bassist). He admitted Ian was always an asshole through the years, but couldn’t fathom how wretched he truly was. It was hard not to get emotional over the pain he, the band mates, and even his family went through. I’m glad to know Stu is able to continue playing music now though. He’s one of the sweetest people I’ve met

Xiu Xiu is legit one of my favourite bands. So surreal seeing them in a thumb randomly in feed

I am extremely fascinated by true crime and murder cases. A few years back, I did a lot of research about Junko Furuta. The whole case disgusted me. I feel like writing a song from a victim’s perspective is extremely hard because you never know how much they went through. I feel like 44 days could have been written better with more thought. It’s extremely hard to capture all of that emotion and come off respectful. What happened to her was horrible and disgusting. She was an innocent woman who was humiliated and tortured for no reason at all. You cover the topic very well. Love yah, Knight

I feel like writing from the perspective of junko herself, basically putting your words in her mouth, is a bit too intimate and personal and thats what feels off to me. Like he didnt know junko, i didnt, no one will ever be able to really know her, so to assume what she was thinking and feeling feels wrong. It also feels too pretty and poetic for such a raw horrible event, idk its one thing to write about a case from an outsiders perspective but to do it from the victims is a little...ehh

The day that the Mr Kitty stuff broke that he was the worst kind of human absolutely broke my heart. Dude was so talented, but turned out to be an abhorrent person. Edit: Since it didn’t get mentioned in the vid, he got caught sending explicit messages to minors, “apologized”, did it again, and locked down all of his socials to try to keep people from telling people on his pages.

The fact that they DARED to suggest Junko went to HELL makes my stomach turn

Having no one believe me in 2006 after being backstage with Watkins was soul destroying but seeing him locked up helped me heal

I agree with 44 days, not only because the song’s tone just not feel appropriate for the subject matter, but the lyrics are so poorly written. They seem like they were written by a 12 year old. There’s nothing new or important being said, it feels exploitative. Him using the picture of Jonbenet Ramsey for the album cover makes it so much worse.

I'd just like to say that the "Hell" Mr. Kitty was referring to was more than likely a metephor for the fire or the hell that was her situation entirely, not the hell synonymous with an afterlife.

I remember when ian watkins was on trial. There was a group of superfans who were adamant he was innocent and would harass people who they felt were working against him. It was an interesting look at the conspiratorial mindset. The evidence against him was rock solid, his crimes so appalling, but these fans had built their entire personalities around watkins and they would rather drive themselves mad than let go. They seemed doomed. Maybe they are okay now but i'd bet they are deep into some other nonsense. That mindset seems to be innate.

I’ve been listening to ROAR for years now so it was nice to see them here, I forgot they went viral on tiktok, and twice! He deserves it :)

I would love to see some of Kikuo's songs in the next list, specifically "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" (which would also include "Red riding hood's Wolf" if you count that as a prequel). There are others such as "You're a Worthless Child", "Cotton Candy", "Don't look at me that way", and a lot more I would also recommend.

One I never see on these lists is "man wearing a helmet" by bedwetter. Probably the most horrifying and impactful portrayal of trauma I've ever heard, genuinely made me feel sick the first time I heard it.

Great video. I suggest Paper Cuts by Nirvana. It's a very haunting song that tells the true story that Kurt Cobain read in the newspaper of two kids that were abused and locked up in the dark attic by their parents for days on end. Kurt's vocals on that song send chills down my spine.

I usually avoid things with Ian Watkins in it due to personal reasons, but this was a really good video.

surprised no reference to SewerSlvt was made since they used to go by Junko before changing their name to another direct reference to Junko also the fact that Ian Watkins is doing time while Dahvie Vahnity is STILL free to this day will never stop making me sick to my stomach

That last line of 44 days “hell will engulf me slowly” is absolutely disgusting, that woman suffered for 44 days straight and was killed for no real reason with no one knowing where she is to help her, having her body be thrown in a barrel of concrete and loaded into a cement truck, leaving behind a grieving family and their being barely any justice brought to the perpetrators, and mr. Kitty is insinuating that she’s gonna go to hell? Fuck Mr. Kitty for that, genuinely

Why did knight reminding us to be nice to ourselves make me so emotional

amazing to see the Mount Eerie inclusion, A Crow Looked at Me is one of my favorite albums ever

The Ian Watkins stuff was...I don't have the word for it. I listened to them a lot as a young teenager when I first discovered emo music and was well into the sub-culture. Naturally, I loved Ian. Lostprophets actually came to my small town when I was 14 and were playing at my favorite small venue, a venue I'd been to many times before and had also met plenty of bands before after shows (it was super easy to meet artists back then, especially at that particular venue where most people would just hang around outside). My friend and I wanted to go and specifically wanted to meet Ian afterwards. But her mom wouldn't let my friend go, and since she couldn't go, I couldn't go. I don't want to say that something for sure would've happened to us. Maybe if we met him it would've been a chat, a pic and that was that. But after all of that stuff came out about him years later, and I really looked into the allegations and his...type??? I guess you could say?? I honestly can't say for sure that something *wouldn't* have happened because at 14, i looked *extremely* young for my age, and considering how often he would brazenly invite minors backstage, on his bus, to hotel rooms...idk man. I think I might've dodged a missile and the thought is terrifying. It cannot be understated how evil this guy is. It's been ten years since I've read those court documents and I will never forget what I read. 35 years isn't enough. He needs to never see the light of day again.

Thank you for mentioning one of my favorite bands Acid Bath

I'm more disturbed by the video to "A Town Called Hypocrisy" than the actual song. Knowing what we now know regarding Watkins, just seeing him surrounded by kids in the video is gross and makes me feel uneasy..... makes me feel dirty for still kinda headbanging to the song every now and then because I still enjoy it as a song alongside 3 other Lostprophets songs, "Rooftops", "Shinobi VS. Dragon Ninja" and "Last Train Home".

A song I recommend looking into is Healthy End by Shiinamota/Powapowa-P Shiinamota was a Japanese vocaloid producer who struggled greatly with mental health and growing up, in 2015 he (allegedly, it’s not publicly confirmed but all the signs are there) took his own life, and before he passed away he gave the song “ Healthy End “ to a friend to finish and upload after he had already passed away. Parts of it feel almost like a final message from him.

When it comes to disturbing Xiu Xiu songs, I'm very surprised you didn't go with Niece's Pieces or Mary Turner, Mary Turner. Niece's Pieces, lyrically, is about Jaime Stewart contemplating the dark parts of his family history in the days leading up to his niece's birth. And Mary Turner, Mary Turner is about the actual, real life murder of Hazel Turner, Mary Turner and Mary's unborn and unnamed child. "Looking up, looking up, The first and only light it ever sees: The flames, the flames of its mother's burning, burning. Reaching out, reaching out, The first and only loving touch it receives, The falling ash of its mommy's hair on fire."

Sign up for a 14-day free trial and enjoy All of MyHeritage's amazing features. If you decide to continue your subscription, you’ll get a 50% discount bit.ly/Knightcore Edit: At 22:19, the wrong album art is used. Swap the captions and then the album art will line up.

theres a different between writing about a serial killer and writing about a victim, imo. using a victims experiences and writing in their perspective about things you couldnt even possibly understand the experience they had is a lot grosser than a song about a killer and talking about the social ramifications of it.

Y’all have to listen to that At the Drive-In track. Lead singer Cedric gives some of the most haunting and heartbreaking screams towards the end of the track. Also, that album the track is on is legitimately a 10/10 album.

I really needed to hear that little message in the middle of the video. I've been dealing with so much mentally and I've been feeling like nothing I'm doing matters and I'm wasting my youth trying to reach this unobtainable goal. I just want to live comfortably without my BPD getting in the way of things. Also Christmas Kids was a song I listen to a lot for some reason. It's really good but the backstory was really sad

I’m happy that Christmas Kids was on here, it’s my favorite song and I’ve seen a lot of people have no idea what it’s about

So glad you did another part of this series.

I really like how you go to talk some very disturbing time but still give us some motivation and just love that. I really like your content and I hope that you have a great day

these are my favorite videos! you have such a wide knowledge of music and have a lot of compassion talking about difficult subjects like these. i can’t thank you enough for making content like this!!

Love everything you post. Always hyped.

The song by At the Drive In made me realize there's a similar song I guarantee you nobody has covered on one of these channels: Juarez by Tori Amos, from 1999. Tori is the founder of RAINN. Dropped off the edge again down in Juarez "Don't even bat an eye If the eagle cries" the rasta man says Just cause the desert likes Young girls flesh and No angel came No angel came I don't think you even know What you think you just said So go on and spill your seed, Shake your gun to the Rastaman's head 'Cause the desert, she must be blessed and No angel came No angel came (listen, darling) No angel came There's a time to keep it up, a time to keep it in The Indian is told the cowboy is his friend A time to keep it up, boys, a time to keep it in The Indian is told the cowboy is his friend You know that I can breathe even when I cheat Should, should, should, should've been over for me No angel came No angel came No angel came (listen, darling) No angel came No angel came No angel came No angel came

All 4 of Junko Furuta's killers are free. One of them even living a luxurious life

Hey really liked your List, have a few songs I would have put on the List, "Understanding in a Car Crash" by Thursday, "King Park" By La Dispute and "Limousine" by Brand New, they all have very unsettling back storys based on real events :(

Oh hell yeah! Been waiting for this one bro!

worth mentioning is sewerslvt's entire album "we had good times together dont forget that" her entire history and the tragic end to her very short and dramafilled career is...kinda disturbing? but at the end its just kinda sad

At The Drive-In and their sister project The Mars Volta have a ton of lyrics that are introspective towards darker things. I highly recommend TMV's song Equus 3, which is thought to be about actor Danny Masterson having Cedric's dog killed and sexually assaulting Cedric's wife. Furthermore, their entire album Frances The Mute is a crazy dark story, and has roots in actual tragedy regarding the passing of a band member.

Thank you for making these videos! I love finding songs with backstories and that are based on true events. These are some I know of (sorry that there's so many) Angel of Death - Slayer (based on Josef Mengele and the experiments he performed during WW2) August 7, 4:15 - Bon Jovi (based on the murder of the daughter of Bon Jovi's former personal manager) Chlorine - Trophy Eyes (is about the boy who had saved the singer of the song from drowning and later committed suicide) The Death of Emmett Till - Bob Dylan (you can tell from the title what it's about) Deep Red Bells - Neko Case (based on the murders of the Green River killer) The Evil Has Landed - Testament (based on 9/11) Fiddler of the Green - Demons & Wizards (based on two car accidents which Kürsch witnessed) Guyana (Cult Of The Damned) - Manowar (is about Jonestown) I Don't Like Mondays - The BoomTown Rats (about the Cleveland Elementary School shooting in San Diego) Jacob's Dream - Alison Krauss (about two children who had gotten lost and a man had a dream about them, which led to finding the children's dead bodies) Jenny Was a Friend of Mine - The Killers (based on the murderer Robert Chambers) Let Him Dangle - Elvis Costello (based on Chris Craig and Derek Bentley) Limousine - Brand New (based on a tragic and gruesome car accident involving a child) Nanking - Exodus (about the the 1930s Nanking Massacre) One Way Or Another - Blondie (based on a real stalker) People Who Died - The Jim Carroll Band (based on people he knew irl who had died) Pumped Up Kicks - Foster the People Sadie - Alkaline Trio (based on Susan Atkins, a member of The Manson Family) Secrets of Wysteria - Steampianist (based on Albert Fish) Sunday Bloody Sunday - U2 (based on the 13 unarmed civil rights demonstrators who were killed by British Army paratroopers) The Way - Fastball (based on an elderly couple who drove off and disappeared, who were found dead later on)

Thank you for another amazing video, Knight! Your hopeful messages bring light to an otherwise heavy video. Also, this may be random, but I really like the background music track. Keep up the incredible work, mate ❤

When you reminded me to acknowledge myself that made me feel something in my heart. Thank you bro! 100% subbed and you are my favorite KZfaqr! 🙏

Yes dire trip is definitely one of my favorite channels and he is absolutely amazing when it comes to the respect and honor that he provides when discussing victims of various crimes. You guys both have amazing channels and I absolutely appreciate everything you do❤

Sorry I'm late, but here's a couple ideas for a future installment: 1) "Wishing (I Had a Photograph of You)" by A Flock of Seagulls. It was based on an experience where the lead singer, Mike Score, met a woman and spent some time getting to know her. When it came time for him and his band to go on tour, he asked the woman if he could have a photograph before departing. She refused because she believed that he would go on to become famous and forget her. Just the fact that he never got to see her again, let alone have a token to remember her by, makes the story pretty unsettling for me. 2) "Cars" by Gary Numan. Like the previous song, this is based on a true event. This event involved Gary in a road rage incident. He was stuck in traffic, and some people wanted to beat him up... for some reason. The fact that his car was thankfully locked provided a safe haven for him.

I learned about Christmas Kids in about 2015ish~ and I always thought that the song was interesting the way it told a story, so just now finding out what happened to Ronette is horrible

hell yes At The Drive In. a lot of their songs are about social issues like those addressed in Invalid Litter Dept, however that one is just so striking.

I was so disgusted when I heard about Lostprophets because I liked their music

Songs so catchy, most people don't even listen to the lyrics...but they should!

if you want another one that ties into the mars volta track, check out 'January 10, 2014' by The World Is A Beautiful Place And I Am No Longer Afraid To Die, it's about a woman who went vigilante on that. whole situation and, to this day, has never been caught. also, an important thing you left out of 'real death' is that the entire album was recorded using his wife's instruments (she was also a musician -- one of my favorites -- originally went by WOELV but then changed her name to Ô Pain), in her room, next to the bed she died in. I'm old as balls and have been a fan of Phil since _The Glow, Pt. 2_ and A Crow Looked At Me was a _huge_ change of pace for him, usually he would spend AGES recording something, taking forever writing layers of music and lyrics and recording it in this big church he's turned into a recording space on a giant ancient broken 24 track analog machine. him shifting to just _barfing_ out songs that are made of _pure_ anguish in a single take on instruments that aren't his own and putting out this _masterpiece_ of grief is. the man is talented lol. it's a great album, but it's so damn hard to listen to. makes me cry instantly.

Invalid Litter Dept. has been my dad's favorite At The Drive-In song since I was little, I like the little shout-out the song has gotten here!

Crazy to hear you reference Acid Bath dude. Literally wearing my “When the Kite String Pops” shirt right now. Actually blows my mind that you know who they are dude!

mr.kitty's stuff is so good, but he is such an awful human being.

If a part 4 happens i would be glad to U2'S Sunday Bloody Sunday

I'm Mexican and I like the way you say Spanish words, nice job 👍 I appreciate that you make actual attempts to pronounce names and words in other languages even if it's daunting❤

This is one of my favorite types of videos from you, I'm so pumped you made another one! I agree with you on 44 days. I already was put off by the subject matter but when I listened to a little bit of the song, the tone was COMPLETELY wrong for the subject matter. It just sounded like a fun EDM song, not something detailing a horrific and tragic murder. Definitely tone deaf on Mr. Kitty's part.

Hail The Sun wrote a song about Elisa Lam called Disappearing Syndrome and it’s incredibly chilling but so good! Highly recommend them, they have a lot of great songs inspired by true dark events

amazing editing

Always love to see some Xiu Xiu representation! One of my favorite bands for their extremely raw approach to music Also just to add a little bit more context to I Luv the Valley OH! The lyrics about having to take the pill is taken from a conversation with Jamie’s late father who urged him to take his antidepressants.

As an At The Drive In die hard fan I would have went with Napoleon Solo because of the pain you can hear in the recording due to losing two of their greatest friends. But I appreciate you choosing Unvalid Litter Dept. as most don't know the story behind that song.

It's a good day when knight posts

I was introduced to “Real Death” while I was going through a rough patch in my life. The pure, unadulterated grief and pain presented by that song is very meaningful to me, and never fails to hit me in the stomach.

I never knew that about Invalid Litter Department. Ive been listening to that song for years and years, i knew it was about something much more serious than most of their lyrics but never bothered to see what it was about. Very cool.

Excellent video

A song I never see on these lists is Human Sadness by The Voidz. It's about Julian Casablancas (the lead singer) being abused and neglected by his father (Hits you on the head and says "Come here, can you fix my tie?"), along with the chord progression being that of the last song Mozart wrote before he died (Requiem). It's a hauntingly beautiful song. Another song I think deserves to be on this list is I Will Follow You Into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie. It's about the lead singer, Ben telling the person he loves about what he would do if they died. "Love of mine, someday you will die, but I'll be close behind. I'll follow you into the dark." (Following them into the dark representing suicide). "If Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfied, and illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs; if there's no one beside you, when your soul embarks, then I'll follow you into the dark." I am not religious by any means, but I believe the comments about heaven and hell are meant to represent the unknown. This was so long because I relate a LOT to this song because I know I would do the same thing if I lost my boyfriend. I can't listen to this song without crying lol (Don't Fear) The Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult is another song that I would put on here. It's about the inevitability of death and how you shouldn't fear The Reaper, obviously meant to represent death itself. "Came to her last night of sadness, it was clear she couldn't go on." I think that line is meant to represent Buck's wife dying, and the follow up lines "Then the door was open and the wind appeared, the candles blew and then disappeared, the curtains flew and then he appeared, saying don't be afraid." Are meant to represent death finally coming for her, and the very last verse of the song, "Come on, baby (and she had no fear), and she ran to him (then they started to fly), they looked backward and said goodbye (she had become like they are), she had taken his hand (she had become like they are), come on, baby (don't fear the reaper)" Is her finally passing on. This combined with the haunting guitar, the cowbell which I think is meant to represent the clock of death slowly ticking, chiming in every few seconds and being completely absent during the guitar solo which I think is meant to represent death. Truly a beautiful song. Sorry if this whole thing was messy, I tried to formulate it best I could.

one of these lists should include "hell broke luce" by tom waits, that whole song was based on a soldier's suicide note

Xiu Xiu: The Sent-Down Girl is a phenomenal movie! Depressing as hell, but absolutely fantastic.

I never thought id see at the drive in on list love from texas

It doesn't surprise me that a predator would make a song about Junko and profit off what happened to her. Some people are truly the scum of the earth.

I’d watch a 10 part series on this subject

A Crow Looked At Me will forever be one of my absolute favorite albums. It’s up there alongside Nick Drake’s Pink Moon, Giles Corey’s self-titled, and Elliott Smith’s Either/Or (the whole discography of Elliott Smith honestly). It is definitely music, what it’s definitely not is entertainment. The peak of sincerity and authenticity in music.

Talk about crystal castles and how they treated Alice glass

Tonedeff - More Like You A song that opens with a recount of a childhood memory in which Tonedeff's drunken father attempts to kill him. The song deals with Tone slowly resembling his father more as time passes

I’m a Welsh artist and I’m currently learning to play my guitar and write songs. If there’s one thing I want to do, just one small thing in my musical career, is to shout “FUCK IAN WATKINS” during a gig. Wales doesn’t deserve to have it’s beautiful land gained by such venom.

Mount eerie's seaweed makes me sob every time

Great vid

FINALLY SOMEONE COVERS XIU XIU. Those first three albums are the most depressing but great.

Roar was one of my fav music projects back in the day, I once met Ben when in a record store just before they released their ajj split. My god it was such a fun experience i still have the live at a record store split

Damn the outro was beautifully written bravo

3 dark song suggestions 1. I don’t like Monday’s by the boomtown rats Written about a school shooter that said they did it because they didn’t like mondays Make it stop (Septembers children) by Rise against About teen suicide from bullying I can’t stand losing you- the police About suicidal thoughts

A band and a distrubing-ish song that I would recommend is Primus' My Name is Mud. The band Primus formed around late 1980s and got popular in the early 90s in the funk metal genre, similar to Bands like Red Hot Chili Peppers and stuff like that. Tho what separate Primus from other bands was singer and Bassists Les Claypool's quirky bass lines and wacky lyrics, songs ranging from a fisherman named John, to a cat named Tommy who swings for girls near a milk bar. However in their 1993 album Pork Soda, there is a song in there that I find kinda disturbing and definitely shocking. Its called "My Name is Mud". The title refers to someone being called Mud, which is basically slang for an idoit or unintelligent person, second- its instrumentals sound very wonky and odd, feels like your listening to a busted radio thats distorted. But what really gets the song are it's lyrics, there may not be a whole story behind the song (or atleast not to my knowledge), but I believe its still worth talking about since it's about a murder between our main character "mud" and his friend (who mud murders). I won't spoil much else of the song, but I highly encourage you guys to listen to it, really good stuff

*Sees Ian Watkins in the thumbnail* Oh god this can't be good......

I really fucking hate when people use Junko’s case for stories, songs or anything entertainment wise. Let the poor girl rest ya weirdos.

wake up babe knight dropped

In the vein of Mount Eerie, Tears for Fears’ ‘The Tipping Point’ is about Roland Orzabal watching his wife slowly pass from alcoholism.

a mention of acid bath automatically makes me like you

Christmas Kids will always be one of my favorite pieces of music of all time

ive not watched you in a while, and good god has your hair gotten long. looks hella good btw

i think another addition to this list could be “asking for it” by hole. it was written by courtney love after she was sexually assaulted during one of her shows and is essentially an expression of her experience with it.

Kicked it off with acid bath?? What??!!! I don't know anything about this channel, i havent watched the video yet and I don't know who you are, but I am subscribed immediately.

At the Drive-In! hell yeah Sick Sunbather shirt too!

If you ever do another one of these, I'd look into Giles Corey's self-titled album. It's packaged in with a 120-page booklet that is semi-autobiographical about s*icide.

The crystal castle song you put was the reason I knew about them because I heard when playing watch dogs 2

u are a wonderful creator. every vid i watch of yours i can tell you care a lot about what u do ❤

Nice shoutout to acid bath my man!

For Xiu Xiu, you used the proper album covers, but attributed them oppositely. Contextually and thematically, even though the song in question appears on neither album, that is important if anyone decides to dig deeper. Just an FYI!

Love the Deafheaven tee homie!