Since my awakening I’ve only realized more and more how absolutely pointless this life is. All this suffering for the sake of suffering? As well as how ridiculous all the systems here are. Waking up every morning and having to stress about money and health and all the other stuff when you feel like it’s all absolutely pointless is torture.

Yes, the void is real. I experience high's and low's since awakening. I'll be full of joy for no reason because I'm free from the beliefs that I was raised in but then I get sad for no reason. I guess because who I was my whole life up to now has been a lie. You've explained it very well, thank you. So I have to go in and do the shadow work... okay. Thanks for this video!

Spiritual awakening is very depressing yet enlightening in a way

Im in the middle of the void. Family not awake and not responsive to me. Ruff going at moment.

I started my awakening with a burn out 4 years ago,. I am experiencing depressions sometimes feels like a part of me is dying, in fact it is old habits dying that i don`t need anymore and were in the way of my true natural essence/ being. Realising this makes the depression a blessing although i feel sad while the depression is going on, sometimes for days, it makes it more digestible. Afterwards i can see my lesson the depression taught me, so i can acknowledge what you're saying/ stating and want to thank you for sharing this great important information, also want to send my blessings to everyone thats going through a spiritual awakening, Keep on going you're on the right path in making yourself and via you the world a better place. Namaste.

Wow. You just described my life over the last 3 years. Now I just want to sleep. I don’t even know how I want to move forward. I only feel depressed of I try to move forward. When I stop and rest, just tired.

100% what I'm going through right now. Thank youuuu. Videos of having people to relate to who understand the experience make me and I'm sure others going through this feel soo much more sane, and just such a relief to have someone to relate to.

After a pretty terrible psychedelic experience I had over a month ago this is how I feel. At times I feel I am slowly losing my mind, but then I also get moments where I feel everything is making sense and the purpose is simply to love. It has been pretty difficult and I reckon it will be a while before it all makes sense, but the process is exciting and I'm sure it will be worth it in the end! Sending love 🙏

detached, (........is an excellent way to describe it...)

I remember my awakening. I was meditating as usual, had been for six months up until that point, then had an experience its hard to word. Let's just say I now know what one with everything means. After that experience my life changed forever, and I remenber the next morning I woke up feeling detached, I looked in the mirror and I felt I was looking at a stranger, beyond that I looked like a wild weird animal or alien. Afterwards I felt depressed because I felt I lost myself, so instead of giving up I decided to go deeper. I felt I had nothing to lose, I didn't want to go back to what I was, so when I kept looking inward, I found myself again, a better version of me thats forever changing. To learn is to change, to change is to evolve, and love is the beacon that guides us all. I'm sending love to you Vanessa, and everyone here ❤ And if any of you feel bad don't worry, you are not alone, never was alone and never will be alone. This is all a beautiful illusion, and we are all connected.

Yes. Absolutely. You know, I go in and out of remembering who I Am. I Am. I Am Spirit. A Spiritual being having an Earthly experience. The outside images fool me, so I forget. Then I step out of peace. I fall victim to the illusion. Only for a time though. As you said, this too shall pass, and it always does. The longer I practice Spiritual principles the shorter the distance in-between times that I fall victim to the illusion. The illusion in which Ego lives. Because I Am awakened from the illusion, my Soul is happy! Then when I accept the illusion again, my Soul gets sad. Because it finally has told me and I know who it is. So it no longer allows me to be out of alignment without an indicator. An alarm. One that tells me to gently glide back into alignment of who my true identity is. The Spirit of God. Loves...

This resonates with me so much. Thank you. I feel like I’ve done a lot of shadow work already so i’m not sure what else to do. Depression is awful, and I’m going through a pretty heavy duty bout of it right now. So glad to know that I’m not alone.

Omg 😢 you appear when i needed it the most 🤧😭 thank you for your insights 🙏 I’ll get back to you when im done doing the shadowork and look back how far ive come 😢

Oh my goodness this is exactly how I’m feeling you nailed it

it just sucks that my ego death comes on the back of a hard breakup, and dealing with underlying autism, cptsd and bpd.

Oh good, I'm not the only mad person on this planet. I've found a soul sister!

Big thanks for this upload! Depression is devastating but we can crush it!

Spot on 🙌🏼

Thank you so much for sharing! I'm about 6 months in and have my ups and downs with this. This was so well explained and made me feel so much better. I definitely feel like some shadow parts of me are hanging on and I am experiencing ego deaths.. the void feels so weird and scary at times. Lonely, ungrounded and floaty for sure!! I related to so much of what you shared. It can feel like a roller coaster but thankfully, I'm learning, that there are breakthrough moments once they pass! I'm glad I discovered your channel. Much love 🙏🏼❤💕😊

Your awesome! Thanks from my heart 💜 🚣🚣🚣🦋

This is so true, it hurts.

Thank you for putting this out.

Thank you for this video. It really helped me understand what I feel.

Thank you for this video. Beautifully explained and it deeply resonated 🙏🏻❤️

Thank you 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹🌹

Thank you for the reminder beautiful angel!! I love you 😍

Thank you ♥️

So wonderful, Vanessa, and so similar to my own voyage to self discovery. Thanks so much for following me!

this was such an understanding warm hug

Yes! Its so helpful to hear this, it resonates very well and I think for many who had a sudden awakening late in life not having much relgion or deep spritual beliefs in their lifes and dont feel like going down that path I think Vanessa points out some other ways to go about it. This video will stay with me for a long time. Thank you and your beautiful soul!

Thank you

Thank you.

Thank you. This is one of the best, gentle and authentic explanations I’ve come across on KZfaq. Very resonant and reassuring 🙏✨

Everything u say it true I'm in that stage too.

Love you Guru

Thank you for sharing. I really connect with you on a soul level. I hope to get to the point you are at. I try hard everyday

Thank you for the good info. I have ups and downs and struggle. I miss the bliss of the beginning of the awakening. It’s was so beautiful. I’m trying to figure out how to get back there. Love your backdrop. That looks like pure bliss and I picture myself in that environment 😊 Thank you for your video and the great words of wisdom…..

so grateful i found this video tonight, thank you so much. A few weeks ago I started feeling more drawn to spirituality and I was getting excited to learn more, do my own research, start meditating more, I even did a full moon reiki the other night. But ever since I did that reiki session I have had insomnia and today, a pretty intense panic attack that I'm still coming down from. It's like ever since I started leaning into this more, the more I've gotten scared and anxious suddenly. I never suffer from panic attacks unless I've smoked too much which has happened once or twice. This is the first time I feel like I'm paranoid and panicked while being completely sober. I know it's connected to this awakening - I even woke up from a nap the other night and heard bells ringing and read that it can be a sign of a spiritual awakening. I think my brain is just not able to comprehend yet that this is happening and now I'm extremely sensitive, nervous, and anxious and can't sleep. It has been so scary but this video helped me feel less alone

Amazing.thank you.

Miss Lady I can't express how grateful & SPOT ON U R🥺you covered all my questions & concerns. Most of all gave direction to understanding. I can't thank u enough 😩 I mean it. Thank you so much 💕💕💕 so greatful u did this video for us. Confirmed so much & so greatful it's a journey & that the exhaustion & depression part of awaking is NORMAL. Bc u cud feel like your losing it🤯. There is more to life & this world & it's terrifying once u register that you have to learn everything over & download truth, awareness & understanding. It's actually very beautiful. Thank u for the encouragement.. Ps. Do u have any videos on meditating

That’s Been going on around. 30 I’ve been awake to our family in heaven and I’ve wanted nothing but to go home so I worked and took care of my children until the last 6 years you are spot on

OMG thank you so so so much for this! I don't feel like I'm alone or going crazy! You've helped me see the next step I need to take...work with my shadows.

i do listen (.........i just have to hear the same message ten thousand times before i understand it...)

I understand the connection between spirituality and depression...but check vitamin d3 and vitamin b12 levels in blood too

Have to come back to the video later :( the smiles and laughing, made me burst into tears and reaffirmed that no one understands 😭😭😭 not strong enough for that atm Only commenting so I don’t lose the video

@Vanessa Ooms Hi Vanessa! I've read you saying somewhere in the comment section that you watched a movie in which was said that pain, uncertainty and constant work will always be part of our lives. I think I agree with the uncertainty and constant work part, but the pain part to me is kind of a different beast, as to me that part in particular seems to present itself in different ways as we progress in life. At least thats how I feel about it. To me, pain is closely linked to suffering, meaning, suffering is the perception of pain from your own perspective. Look at it from an ego's perspective and you most likely will either be hard on yourself as you will feel some form of guilt that this pain is inflicted upon you, OR look at it from a souls's perspective, and you will feel the impetus to plough through the darkness so you can transmute all of the pain into something that (on the long haul) will actually feed your soul and make you a better person. And with a better person I don't mean, someone who is superior to other human beings, but simply someone who is better aligned with the universe. And in order to surpass your ego you simply (not really simple in practice though) have to go with whatever flow the universe provides you with. If I'm being really honest with myself, I have no real difficulty now with surrendering myself to that flow. At least not to a large extend. The only caveat for me personally lies in the fact that I'm somewhat scared of what I will become solely from an ego's perspective, meaning: How will I explain to the people who are with me now (family, friends etc) the person that I'll become later. It's even so that I'm not scared of being rejected later on or frowned upon at a certain point, as my believe and resolve can't really be shaken in any way, shape or form. It's just that I don't wanna HURT anyone. Not purposefully by the way I act as I progress on my spiritual path, and not inadvertently either, as the impact it might have on them may present itself as 'collateral damage'.i In my personal opinion, being scared of integrating and 'explaining' the person you'll become is the main culprit of all the anxiety that faces us during a ego death/soul awakening - from an ego's perspective that is! All of the other uncertainties that fall upon us as our soul awakens have more to do with us not 'wanting' to entertain the notion that we are FAR more powerful and compassionate then we ever give ourselves credit for. (We simply can't see ourselves as that powerful, extremely compassionate entity, coming to terms with that notion requires a lot of soulsearching and some back-and forth play from soul to ego and vice versa). It could be that of all of the life experiences that have stuck with you, some have already put you in a disadvantaged postion. So maybe you're already scared or terrified from the get-go, scared of not fitting in, being rejected, frowned upon, not being loved for just being you, etc. In that case the awakening process will let you deal and wrestle with that first. This is hard enough already. imagine then placing a second layer on top of that as you progress towards ascension of the soul! I'm a firm believer of the fact (imo) that the ego's fear is mainly a SOCIAL fear. As long as you believe that some people will always be there for you, and even when some leave, you will find new people that walk along with you on your way towards ascension, you will be fine. (Still a challenge though). Keep being you, Vanessa! :)

Thank you for taking the time to make this. Definitely uncharted. Definitely scary. Not at all what I want for my life. But the thing is, up until this video, I didn't have the urge to make any changes. And even that is like "wtf is my deal?" Tomorrow might be different, but at least I know I'm not alone, and I came come back to this.

This is severe, and all I pray for is to feel happiness again. 😐

I feel so depressed. I feel like I'm questioning my own existence

Sometimes it feels like if I just had all the money in the world everything would be wonderful and joyful but deep down inside I know the money wouldn’t truly do anything for my soul.

Thank you for your words, I resonate with everything you said. Can I ask you if you also offer private counselling?

I think you have to go with the flow I have some really deep moods and then snap out of it again but I do use grounding stones and crystals they do really help

exactement cela expérience de mort imminente donc plus rien n'a de sens ...merci pour t'as vidéo et t'as page qui tombe au bon moment merci L'Univers la vie l'amour infinie la maison là haut me manque mais si je suis revenu, c'est par amour pour ma femme et mes enfants.Merci pour ce partage.C'est bizard j'ai vraiment l'impression que tu me parlé en direct, un grand merci et effectivement je veux bien de ton aide.

It's called DPDR

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I feel really bad because nothings going forward. I feel tired, meaningless and unloved and this huge pressure of taking responsibility for my life. But everything I’m trying something new I feel ,,defeated“ from life, like it’s saying to me ‚ don‘t. even. try.‘ Then I feel even more bad bc nothings happening and my parents complaining to me ,,when is your life starting to change?“ and I always think ,,hopefully someday without you guys“

Why is this person talking to us From a mtn top in the snow

I’ve experienced depression before and after awakening. What I noticed for me personally is that I was pretty good at wearing a mask before my awakening when I used to be in such phases and kind of cover it up. Afterwards however it’s like you can’t ignore the things that bother you any longer…maybe this is what makes the depression even more difficult after awakening. Plus that you actually feel so alone and can’t relate to your friends and families anymore.

Thanks for your video, however, that's not what is going on with me. I am in a Kundalini wave and it has been intense the last few days...I am so uncomfortable and all at once I just fell into depression...I would like to be able to just be with what is but it becomes frightening to me....thanks for the video Vanessa...I really appreciated your comment that we awaken gradually and thus have bouts of depression as a result of a new awareness. Thanks for all you do. Namaste'

This planet and experience is truly hell and it seems it’s like it fit everyone

Hey Vanessa, Thnks for your message my dear , nicely spoken ❤, I know this, been in the dark night for 6 years now, and felt all the ascension symptoms ... now I am falling into a depression fase again, a new dark night... because my psychologist who has helped me so much through my awakening, is going to retire..and my aunt who also did help me has dementia... so feeling alone, old feelings coming up, fear, sadness, pain in my heart chakra.. .. and depression.... it's hard to be with right now Vanessa, have to keep the faith, and trust God... it also feels like I am changing into another person... maybe less dependent and moving towards my inner strength... but for know.. it sucks... just wanted to share... God bless..much love 🙏🏻❤🤗 Erik

I am in that state. 😞! I was using alcohol to mask , 😞😞😞😞😞

depression eats the seperateness within

Writing this when there are 444 likes! Any advice on finding a good spiritual advisor.

I've tried medication, psychologists, psychiatrists, shadow work, exercise, healthy diet, meditation, spirituality and facing the pain for 3.5 years and everyday is the same, pure mental anguish and uncontrollable thinking. This train ride sucks.

How can i stop feeling afraid from people and socially anxious like why do I care so much about peoples judgement or how they would percieve me 🥲

Someone help me out please 🙏 I’m not depressed or at least I don’t feel depressed, but something is happening to me that I just don’t understand and what I’m reading here resonates with me.. I feel like many, that life is pointless, not from a depressed POV but from what I believe, to be a pointless existence, by that I mean I split from my long term partner 17 months ago, I have my kids full time, work full time, the socially engineered society is squeezing everything out of me financially, I don’t care for materialistic things, I smile often, I have a laugh with people, but deep inside I kind of feel nothing is real anymore, hard to describe, I feel like I genuinely have no life purpose, I have an ambition to leave my employer work to go self employed but then I think what’s the point I’m tired of chasing the money, to be screwed over in tax’s and guess you could call them tax’s for being alive, I feel like I want to just buy land in the woods and spend my time pottering about working on myself, instead society expects me to work 60 hrs a week just to sustain a basic life for me and my kids. It all seems pointless…I look around me and everyone, literally everyone seems miserable, so I know I’m not alone, I’m not miserable but I’m not exactly happy and feel lost and maybe I haven’t articulated what I’m really trying to say as I can’t find the words, all I know is I feel lost, lonely, isolated even when surrounded by others, and I haven’t a clue what’s going on but I don’t feel depressed… just lost in space I guess you could say. No direction. Do I have to have direction. What is the true meaning and definition of spiritual awakening, what can we expect once we have fully awakened!!!

I am in Awakening journey, i don't know what happened to me I am become loner and also i don't take call of my friends and family members, just i a home for years, studying and feel depressed

I'm starting to think you are permanently outside in the snow 🌨

I am there where i need professional help , because this is too much to handle for me!😭🥺. I Mean a palm reader or something like that because its too much for me & I feel so damn lost Even if I meditate!

did you feel social anxiety during that process

Thank you Vanessa for sharing your insights on the experience of spiritual awakening and depression. Blessings to you all. Each one of us has an inner voice calling them to seek out their spiritual journey to reconnect with the highest aspect of themselves. Your divine consciousness is waiting to be rediscovered. We were all born onto this world as a unique divine being, however much universal wisdom has been lost along the way from unconscious distractions and unintended suffering. We should always remember that each and every one of us are infinite beings capable of achieving limitless potential. Wishing everyone in your community a transformative journey . . . kzfaq.info/get/bejne/rqmTdc2IqdfWl6c.html

how is now dear

using the current measure of time, ..........i am at least, (..............one year here longer than i thought i would be...) . .............i am grateful to be wrong.... .........................................42

I’ve been living in this void all my life then 😂

i know about the birds, .............they don't bother me , (............i am surrounded instead,... ............by other animals that i, (..............choose not to understand...)

Absorbing that bitter absurdity of creations and existence is spiritual awakening?? 🙂

Thank you