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I went through a spiritual emergency. I was lucky enough to recognize the trauma coming up. I stayed the fuck away from spirituality. I was so afraid of this. So much fear came up. I was so scared of going crazy. I have spent the last 4 years working on trauma and grounding myself. I hardly even meditate anymore. I need to heal my ego and clear a lot more trauma before I can pursue spirituality. I still get paranoid about losing my mind, but now it is very managable. I think you are spot on in this video. I will also add, I was a conspiracy theorist. I realized through this experience that I was projecting my father onto the "illuminati" or whatever you want to call it. Parts therapy, lots and lots of grounding (sitting in nature, walks, exercise especially), and like you said working, taking responsibility and being a part of a conmunity. Dancing helps a lot now, it gives me joy, connection, movement, and human touch.

You recommending Spiritual Emergency in another video last year is quite literally what saved my life and kept me from insanity. First book I picked up when I started going deeper into the work. Thank you for what you do🙏🏾

Walks or physical activities, contact with nature, hot showers, heavy foods, taking a break from meditation or triggering reading material, doing simple hobbies you enjoy, talking to an empathetic other (if you're lucky enough to have such a person around)... Ways to ground ourselves are important when daring to venture into our inner world. Thank you Jordan for sharing your story, and for this very important message in your inner work library. Pure gold as always. Added Healing the Split to my reading list. ☀

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost people to suicide, and intense regret comes to visit me too from time to time. I've had a "spontaneous" spiritual awakening (a spiritual crisis triggered by traumatic content, really). It was terrifying and I felt ashamed for losing control. Thanks to your choice to invest that intense energy in complete strangers such as myself, I know that spiritual emergencies are a thing, I know where to seek information and how to protect myself. I feel safer after watching this video. Thank you for caring deeply about your friend, may he rest in peace.

Hi, Jordan. I can so relate to this video. throughout my own process I have had to find my way through many periods of spirtual emergency. It is not easy to navigate these periods. it often felt that I was being ripped apart from the inside. leanring about the importance of not getting identifed with the many internal forces that move within our experience is certainly not easy. I picked up this book many years ago, but back then i was unable to appreciate the guidance in it. I spent long periods in that 'liminal' space that you refer to. Learning to land can be a slow and often difficult process, and I have to say, i feel so grateful, to be in whole peice now, twenty years on. I'm getting a lot from your videos Jordan and i have to say your my go to reference these days for most of my reading. Thanks so much, man!

Thank you Jordan. I've never seen your channel before and now this video pops up on my homepage after laying awake with night terrors, praying for true guidance and grounding. This made me feel so seen and safer than before. Thank you.

I became a tad narcissistic and detached when I dove into spirituality. It opened me for sure and even liberated me, however I was so high that I was detached from those lower, grounded, more shadowy parts that I think you exemplify so well on this channel. I thought I was enlightened (or on the edge of becoming so) and yet I really missed the key elements of compassion, connection and feeling. I'm still a work in progress, but I have moved away from much of the spiritual community and spend a lot of time just experiencing life from the perspective of the body.

Dear Jordan , thank you for making this video and I’m very sorry for your loss. I want to share a story with you about a very good friend of mine who went through a schizophrenic phase where she had suicidal ideation and was contemplating taking her own life. I tried my best to support her through her paranoid thoughts and her darkest moments by just being there listening to her delusions and validating her “realities” I remember clearly one day she was visiting me and I thought of giving her a book I was reading at the time with the same title “ Spiritual emergencies” she trapped the book and started reading the first chapter, then she asked me if she could borrow it and I said of course! Few weeks later I asked her if she finished reading it, and she said yes but she also expressed her disappointment with the book. I realized then she did not want to accept “change” and would rather live in her paranoid world because she was too scared. Long story short, staying we’re she was offered her more than seeing herself walking through the fire to reach the light. My point sharing this story is; Perhaps you could not save your friend even if you had given him the book to read. Please don’t be too hard on yourself ❤ . Much love to you and to the work you’re doing ❤

Every new wave of feeling more awake and alive has come with a ton of pain and chaos and having to get out of life situations we've created while trying to survive on autopilot. Last time we were in a spiritual / emotional crisis, your book recommendations of trauma and the soul and the dark night of the soul really helped us through. Maybe this time it will be this one 🌸 So far we've alway come out the other side better than we went in...

It has been a year and a half for me as well. I tried to read Spiritual Emergency after stumbling upon your channel and it was helpful but disappointing to see that it pointed me to the fact that this isn't an awakening or if it was it was only part of it, but definitely that feeling of urgency and not wanting to be faced with contradictions that might snap you out of the fairy tale. I've channeled into a physical job that kept me grounded but eventually pulled back because it was "dumb" I'll try and give it a read now that things have settled down a bit, seems like ego-development might be easier done step by step with proper structures in place, at least in your 30s rather than the fairy tales/trauma re-enactment therapy that made things worse/ayahuasca/etc... damn I feel old and boring. Anyway, thanks for your putting the effort into making these. Would have saved me some time in my late 20s when I started with it.

Great message that can help many people avoid crisis during a vulnerable time. ⚓️ Well wishes Jordan. 🙏🏼

It is very helpful to see video like this 💛 I was struggling and sometimes still am with letting go of the spiritual guru narssistic identity that I ve developed after first awakenning. It took me over 10 years to ground myself and see trough the ilusion of ego inflated version of me. Sometimes it kicks in anyway, but the Energy around it is different I think. The story of your friend behind your intention of this video is understandable, spiritual emergency is scary, chaotic and might cause lots of trouble. Keep doing your work, is great ❤️ and bit of a grounded encouregement for everyone struggling with this difficult periods - it will pass, there is always solution for anything sometimes it takes lots of time and work to find your balanced grounded sense of yourself but it is possible.

I feel insanely triggered by this video. I have lived this experience. This is why I was interested on your take/a book on the kundalini awakening from a grounded perspective, because I’m at a point now where I would like to understand more what happened. What’s science; was this experience okay; am I fucked up forever; was that sacred or did I just open myself to some dark shit; how to approach this safely, etc. That was the most destabilizing experience of my life, and since the integration process has been immensely challenging. I feel such a rage for the years of conditioning in newagism that completely disconnected me from real, sacred connection with people, and downplayed the desire for a simple life surrounded by loved ones. Now, that’s all I truly want, and yet I’m still in the process of unlearning and unplugging from the grandiose “higher self” version of myself and life I envisioned. I’m doing the 2024 2 books a month reading currently, and I think some of these books recommended in this video will need to be bumped to the front. Thank you so much for sharing your perspective and providing a grounded presence and blueprint for what has been an extremely turbulent time.

All your videos are intense! My guess is your friend would not want you to feel responsible, i hope he found peace. Decades ago, a friend told me what the reincarnationists say: suicide obliges us to repeat this. Good heavens, what a deterrent. For this life? Once is enough

Thank you for sharing these resources. I've recently had a spiritual awakening and it's been very confusing for me. I've been researching everything spiritual on KZfaq, every day to try and understand what I'm experiencing. There's so much information. I look forward to exploring these texts. I’m sorry for your friend. I’m sure this video will help many.

You pulled at my heart strings pretty well today. I am sorry you lost your friend. I too lost a friend who was in a hard place. It sucks when the "if only" reel plays in my head. What you are doing now is making a huge difference. You are that ripple in the pond reaches out to people when they need it the most. Believe it. Thank you.

A practical tip for navigating unsettled energy that may or may not help the random person that reads this. Spend a few minutes breathing into your root/lower body(bum hole). This tends to really settle volatile energy for me. Jordan’s analogy of trauma moving up really resonated because of this

I am so truly sorry Jordan for the loss of your friend, I am a survivor of such , survivor guilt is something I help clients with so much - everytime I hear of a story of someone leaving us I sigh because i can relate to that feeling of no hope .....I often get clients who have survivor guilt when they come to me to connect to them on the other side - its something that each person perceives differently - When we are at that moment of finality we are not thinking about others and how they will be after we are gone, we are stuck in the darkness of being a burden and just wanting the pain to stop ......I wish that there were more available help for those that get close to that point like that book because when I attempted in Sept 2021 i was isolated alone no family or friends , it caused me to have agoraphobia which I am fighting with all I have since then - society especially here in the united states does not have help like this - I was laughed at, ridiculed, triggererd over and over by the system, lost my job, almost lost my house, I was judged and basically forgotten with no help from western medicine because I refused to take meds and be a zombie again and no medical now and such - but I am fighting and i didn't write this to be about me - the reason I commented is one to THANK YOU and two for anyone who happens to come upon my comment struggling please know YOU are not ALONE - YOU ARE WORTHY and you ARE NOT A BURDEN - it will pass - and I LOVE YOU .....

I shared your Dark Night of the Soul video with a friend a week ago. Fascinating that you followed up with this video as your next video. It may be time I read the book(s) myself. I was going to request a hold at my local library, but I will splurge and add it to my shelf. Thank you for the hard work, passion, and intellect you put into your videos. Your videos have helped me immensely this year. I also know and understand how hard it is to have a loved one go through that turbulence and see that they are the ones who go through it alone, no matter how much we can help at the time. You and I have gone through the turbulence ourselves and witnessed others be lost in it. As you said and understood, “Do the best you can until you know better, then when you know better, do better." -Maya Angelou. I have also been inspired by your journey to go back to graduate school, so Thank you again. Time to go do better. -Ritza 🐢

Thank you thank you so much for this video… A perfect synchronicity as I had a 5meo ceremony a few weeks back which went great however I was not prepared for the reactivations every night having their way with me… Being thrown around in my dreams as I feel my sense of any identity melt away has been so hard to deal with and trying to keep myself reoriented to the subconscious that keeps projecting outwards and tricking me that I’m all alone for eternity and existence is some sort of illusion. I’m finding some grounding again but it has given me a great respect for the ego and the sense of security it brings to an otherwise sense of nothingness and also showing me how I cling to my comfort zone and feel trapped in a web with no escape… I have the spiritual emergency book sitting next to me now, an awaking is absolutely no joke as it you can literally come apart at the seams as everything you thought you were is ripped out from under you…

I searched YT for Beyond Ego Transpersonal Psychology and here you are. So glad to have found your channel. I’ve already added some of your books to my list.

I’m currently on this edge and just hearing about it makes me stop and ground myself.

Thank you for voicing this and I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. In my experience, spirituality is religious doctrine and needs to be navigated with extreme discernment and care because of the hopium it offers the vulnerable. The journey into the soul reveals how many ways it has been fragmented and is a wild crash course in how substance (soul) animates form (created reality). Shadow integration and self-trust is a necessary life skill and is why I have much respect for your work.

I’m so sorry for your loss, Jordan. My best friend died by suicide in her early twenties. She too developed schizophrenia and came to me “lost” (those are the words she used). It is hard to live with the “if only’s” and “should haves”. The reality is that you will never truly know if lending your friend that book would have made a difference. Sometimes we hold on to the guilt because it is even more to painful to sit with the uncertainty. No doubt your video will help others in honor of your friend. I see your pain, grief, and love for him. 🤍

Your perspective on trauma informed spiritual practice and healing needs more attention throughout the space. An extremely potent video, thank you for your work 🙏🏼

Thank you for such a beautiful explanation of what a spiritual, awakening, emergency, spiritual, psychosis, etc. is all about. I experienced all of this starting four years ago, and I love your explanation of the trauma rising from the roots and the downward pull of the divine. That’s exactly how I felt it to be and I’m only now really starting to understand the repercussions. Much love.❤️

Thanks Jordan, I’ve experienced a number of psychotic episodes which have all been resolved (often by intervention from close friends) by grounding in spiritual practice. I’m minded to recommend the book ‘Spiritual Materialism’ by Chögyam Trungpa to you.

Hi Jordan, Thanks so much for video, I’m really glad you’re speaking about this! Fiona X

I can relate to your videos on a very personal level. Going to have to watch them a few times to get a better understanding. Wish I could talk to my psych Dr about this type of material.

This is really useful. I'm in a meditation community in which it's common to have mystical experiences, for the most part it's been intense but hasn't crossed that line for anyone I personally know including myself. However, I do occasionally hear stories of people who have had psychotic breaks as a result of an awaking, so I never know when I'm going to encounter someone who might need help. I am going to buy some of these books just in case. Consequently I have been hearing about people running back to organized religion after these experiences, which makes sense.

What a great question! And a mostly welcome video, I am still struggling with spiritual awareness, I am a technical guy and anything "spiritual" is hard to grasp :). Thank you! I am also sorry about your friend. With all of your calmness, I can feel the boiling underneath.

Hi Jordan , If I had not read the book "Am I going Mad by Marlyse Caroll" a couple years before I watched a Dear one to me going through an Intense Spiritual Emergency I would not of had the knowledge to support and provide some type of guidance to her in a time when very little people, if any Understand what is happening... Thanks for your great Authentic work mate...

Thank you, Jordan. This was useful.

I had the opposite. Personally i had a very traumatic dark night experience, never been to a "spiritual circle", but i realise i was 13yrs old when i read a book on atlantis, i knew there was more to us and myself, but looking back i took that as my identity partly to escape the disregulated emotions from childhood. I then worked but overworked, just a normal person getting on with life. But then a near death experience after surgery sent me into a spiral, i saw spirit and was on the verge of passing. This sent me in a chaotic state within my mind, and i was very distorted. I actually found a retreat, i guess a "circle" 😅 and we did breathwork for emotional release and this was my blessing to finally integrate myself back to a stable place. Rather than doing this and it sending me to an unstable place. But i understand how this can happen. Im moving away from it more and know im meant to ground more and im enjoying keeping away from the woo circles and festivals i have no interest. I feel everyones actually NOT grounded at all. And actually makes me feel unsafe. I used to call myself cosmic coach 3/4yrs ago or spiritual coach and it doesnt feel right anymore, i want to move away from it. As it no longer aligns to me. But funnily enough when i left school i always wanted to do psychology then, it never happened, but these books you suggest has bought that grounded part of me to come even more deeply in. I hope this makes sense. I cringe at myself when so obsessed with crystals, i realise this was an identity for myself and some parts made me feel safe. But since doing alot of inner work, i have let these things go, and all is clear to see now.

Soo refreshinggg

Hi Jordan, thank you for this video and sorry for disappearing after contacting you on IG, not long after I sent you those messages i relapsed on alcohol and heroin and last week I had a real bad overdose which i nearly died from. I haven't touched the stuff since, but I'm now on antipsychotics along with valium (which I'm against in so many ways) but it might be what i need, I am tapering off both of these though. What you said about having this divine feeling being truly connected the one day and then the next day you're just your normal self really stuck with me, and I think the problem is like you said that the "normal self" or my identity that i end up back in is not loved enough by myself and those around me, myself for sure.

My mother - pschizophrenic - tried to suicide once.. Life is throwing same challenges at me - my mother was isolated by the society.

Thank you. Thank you 🤗 ✨🙏😇✌️💖🕯️✨

Thank you - waterfall of relief

Great video 👍🏻

I was in my 17th year when becoming psychotic, i am 22 now. It seems in hindsight (and during but more deluded) to have had a larger purpose. I have transcended most people in growth, and have removed or am working on removing limits self imposed or by others. Edit: as I spoke i have acquired a lot of knowledge and understanding, I have not attained the ability to aid others with it that well, although I know I can to smaller or larger extends. Do you have tips on learning how to convey life experience to others that may need it?

🙏🏽👍 thank you

Can we have a video of some examples of spiritual awakenings? I'm very curious (and frightened) of some of the things you brought up in this video. My own experiences were pretty crazy-person seeming but definitely not to the extent you described. I'd like to know what CAN happen.

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Sorry aboutbyour friend

A kundalini awakening is not a romantic fantasy,and not reading about it or not knowing what is happening to you,doesn't make things better or easier. On the other hand,schizophrenia and spiritual emergencies are very different in nature and in symptomatology. You are mixing things and speak with a solemnity that you can't stand for. You are not an authority in the topic. I recommend you to see a psychotherapist to help you with the loss of your friend

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