This is so accurate.

Davis Ray At least he has the good fortune of having manic phases. It's kind of like a holiday away from depression. Depressed people don't get that luxury. It's all depression and no holiday.

ॐ Jordan Gould I guess I may have manic depression because in between my hard depression I have moments of almost feeling like I'm high on life.

The same like Robin William..

@@Starkardur what's the point of your snarky comment?

I assume a private education and Cambridge degree helps.

I know exactly what you mean-I tend to push people I care about away when I'm depressed, even though, ironically, I'm afraid of losing them. I tell myself I want to be alone, and then being alone makes me feel even worse.

I actually like being alone, makes it a whole lot easier to deal with. I can't stand being around people when i'm depressed.

I know that feeling well. I like people to be in the house and then when they are I go to my to and sit alone and don't really want anyone near me. But just nearby helps

I hate being alone and also I hate being not alone.

+Taylor Lynn Google TruthContest and read "The Present". Just scroll through first couple of pages and see if you can understand what it says. If you can, continue reading and watch how your life changes completely..

was literally coming here to comment this verbatim. "The monstrosity of being alive" i've spent my entire fucking life wishing to meet someone who understood how i felt so that i can finally relate to someone and talk- anyone. never thought it would be the posh guy from QI

That's dissapointment, I think. I think he means there is no hope, it's just endless and meaningless. Like sitting in a waiting room without having an appointment.

Angel Sparkle you okay?

that's beautiful.

This is how I think. I always think if it gets too bad I would rather say 'fuck it' to the life I have and use that absolute freedom to try anything else. To reach out. To make a fool of myself. To take an insane risk. To help others and stop focusing so much on myself. When there's really nothing left to lose it can be liberating. Only after exhausting these other options would I seriously considering ending it all. Sort of used this method a few years after graduating when I was bogged down with working life. Wasn't happy in my life and career and found it impossible to see a satisfying future if I kept on that road. So I said 'fuck it', quit, took what little money I had and headed off to the furthest place I could, New Zealand. I travelled around, took in nature, met people from all over and all walks of life, worked on and off to keep my little pot healthy enough to keep me going for the next month or two. All the while knowing if things really go tits up and I fall into a hole financially or mentally I have a Plan B (although it was really more of a Plan E after heading back home, talking to a doctor, telling my family of my struggles etc etc). What I discovered is that life is much greater than the little bubble we have all been raised in. The ways of living life are truly endless. You could try a new way of living every day of your existence and still barely scratch the surface of how millions live and have lived before you. I experienced things that in hindsight were truly one of a kind moments. The mixture of place, mindset, people, experience are so unique and beautiful to me and are a constant source of comfort whenever I get low these days. After a year in NZ I did the same in Australia. Travelled. Made memories. Learned a lot. Scrapped by. Even met my girlfriend who opened up sides of me that were buried before. Now I live in Germany with her, learned the language, a new culture, new friends, a new routine. All because I choose to change the road I was on rather than end it. Life isn't perfect. I doubt it ever will be but now I know more than I did before. I know that there are things we can do ourselves, big and small, to impact the course of events we call life. I know if things ever get so bad again I can hit a soft reset rather than pulling the plug.

@@kevtb874 this is such a beautiful comment. I've headed to the airport twice and spent a night in a forest on the whim of those "fuck it" moments, and then realised how horribly fucked I'd be financially. Not just shaky, I like shaky, but absolutely fucked. I can identify certain symptoms, certain changes in my perceptions, certain mood swings and modifications of my acceptance or outlook on reality in the days before, so next time it comes around I hope i find myself with, if slightly, deeper pockets. Then alaska or New Zealand sound good, opposite ends of the earth but you're right. A "soft reset" is a fascinating way of looking at it and something I now believe everyone should experience. Thank you for this. Hope you're doing a little better, man

Nidra Life its my greatest motivation in life :D helped me a lot

Gustav Adamas lol sometimes I think this and it will actually stop me from hanging myself. Like, this life is happening anyway. May as well see what adventure comes up lol

Easier said than done

Such a way to put it. It's great.

Very much so. There's one thing we can all agree on and that's that nobody can see the future. It is not set. We can all look back on the past and with hindsight see the odd, surprising and unpreditable twists and turns life has taken. There's no reason to believe your future will be any different. The moments that will stay with you, define you and your understanding of life and yourself, they happen almost at random. There are many more to come. The decisions you make today that will influence everything from the big to the small in your future are so multifacted and impossible to predict, you truly never know what life will bring. That's part of the deal. It can make it painful and scary but it can also make it incredible and memorable. Just try to enjoy the jounney because we all know the destination.

Never related to anything so much in my life.

Man hang in there, it'll get better eventually

wladwlad I

Sorry to hear, hope your doing alright.

irishelk3 im taking it one day at a time

Bipolar includes periods of depression. It's awful I know. I have it myself. As bad as it is though I can live with it. It's the OCD and Borderline Personality Disorder that really makes me feel insane. Hang in there.

iammadness awe im so sorry D:

Emily Schroeder It's okay. The meds I'm on are helping a lot.

Thank you for encouragement. I am struggling now

LoL. British Eric Cartman on the video did his best to remove hope from everyone with his New Atheists and plunge everyone into depression while he is having fun with his shows.He goes from being bipolar and depressed to man of reason, from atheist to jewish supporter and admirer of greek capricious gods based on his audience...Don't worry he will hang in there, he simpy plays a role...Others who have nothing left might not....