This is what pain sounds like

"Fourth of July”, is a reflection on the night his mother died. Sufjan quietly cries and croons his love for the woman who bore him, the woman who weaved in and out of his life until her death. The words feel close, **like a private conversation occurring with the listener eavesdropping. He calls her many tender names: “dragonfly”, “star in the sky”, “my little Versailles”. These words are weighted, full of nostalgia and regret; realizations of how small we are in death. “Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook Burn? or the Fourth of July?” He poses a question without answer. Life is utter destruction and infinite joy. (this paragraph is not mine)

i played this on repeat while doing my homework, ended up bawling my eyes out.

My favorite cousin died not so long ago and she had this playing on her funeral. It was her last wish :(

"did you get enough love my little dove" is utterly the most beautiful and utterly soul crushing thing I have ever heard

listening to this while hearing muffled fireworks in the background is one of the most life-reflecting moments i've ever had

Anyone who listens to sufjan Stevens is automatically my friend. Edit: Oh thank you guys, now I have 300 friends❤️.

This song just hits different. My anxiety just keeps ruining my life and I feel so alone... I just wish I could go back in time and be a kid again...

My lover, my bestfriend, my….future wife, she sadly passed away exactly 1 year ago today (17th feb 2021), she committed…..and there hasn’t been a day where I haven’t thought of her. This song is such a great example of how I feel because it too is written based on loss of a loved one…. *”Did you get enough love my little dove”* reminds me of when I used to beg her to reach out because of a unloving family….little nicknames; dove, sugar, love etc were always a big thing in our time together….I miss you so much Jennifer my life isn’t the same without you….. Edit: I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, I was bawling at the time and english isn't my first language, to the person reading this I'm sorry for your loss....I know it hurts but I promise you it will get better, of course they'll be days you want nothing more to hear them again, see them and hear them laugh and smile but it'll be okay. 💖

I miss my mom..

this song reminds me of my history teacher this year because, he always sings quietly to himself, everyone dislikes him because he has a ADHD and dyslexia.. honestly this teacher is what I call my home he is so sweet and calm, he never yells and he saved me from being taken advantage of.. I want to tell him that I love him (NOT THAT WAY OF LOVE) but it's so difficult to.. he is why I'm still here.

I love the fact that you posted on July 4th and basically that’s what the song is called, stay safe

my comfort song im crying

if i don't make it through this year, i want everyone to know that this song comforted me more than anyone ever did

this is what real depression feels like. nothingness, numbness, overwhelming sadness yet peace all at the same time.

I’m nothing without my music. I just wouldn’t be here. edit: hey guys, please leave religion out of this, and respect everyone in the replies. not everyone wants to hear about God. And yes I am Christian, catholic in fact.

The "why do you cry" so strong i wanna cry myself

“It may get better, but it never goes away. The sadness is always there”

This song is so sad, it's basically about his mother dying and it's a dialogue between him and her if I remember correctly

2:40 _"and i'm sorry i left, but it was for the best, thought it never felt right. My little versailles"_

i have anxiety and paranoia. One Lunar eclipse night I gathered the courage to put both headphones on, and go outside of my apartment building. My family was asleep. 3 AM. This song played as I stared at one of the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. I had never felt so alive. Even fearless. And I didn’t allow anything to distract me for a solid 3 minutes. it seems so insignificant ….. but to me, a whole galaxy of pure bliss. What a strange existence.

“i’d like to go out just as beautifully.” “I’d really prefer if you didn’t go at all.” “Please don’t say that, not even as a joke.”

i’ll forever cherish the memories we made together and all the ones we’ll never get to make. the little things everyone takes for granted in this lifetime. listening to this just breaks my heart all over again. it’s impossible to ever exist in a world without you, and yet i have to wake up everyday and try.

When my grandfather died, i couldn't cry. I had to not cry because i had to stay strong, a few days after his burial i dreamt of him laughing and having fun. He looked younger and really happy, he was in his favorite chair and asked me who he was and i said you're amma (which was the name i called him) and then he laughed. I saw white and woke up with tears .

I had a friend, a best friend. Whenever I felt sad, I talked to her, she was always there for me. We were best friends in 10 years. But sadly, she passed away. 7th Dec 2020. 1 year without her and Im still not over her. People tell me to get over her and try to move on. Im trying, but it's hard without her. She was my everything and she's still my everything. I really loved her. I know she's with me, always. But I cant see her and that makes it so much worse. I just wish I could see her 1 time again, just to say goodbye. You wanna know why? Its because she died when I was in school, so I couldnt say goodbye. I just want a hug from her, and I know she wants a hug from me. Shes finally happy, and im so proud of her. She always bring light to people when they doesnt feel good. Shes my light, my saviour. Shes the most beautiful and kindness girl I have ever seen. Shes the sun and im the moon. She will always be the sun in my life, even if she's gone. I still remember the day when I come home and my mom told me she was gone. I cried so much. I layed in bed and my mom come in to my room, she gave me a big hug and layed her body next to me. She taked her arms around my stomach and huged me hard. I dont think I will ever feel that love again. I also remember that after 10-20 mins, I eated a sandwich and cried so much lol. It took me almost 15 mins to eat 1 sandwich. At the same day, on the night, I couldnt sleep, I was so destroyed. My heart was so empty, my eyes were full of tears. I still cant get over her and I dont think I want that. I dont want to feel the pain, but I also wants to feel it because it reminds me of how much we loved eachother, how much fun we had and how much we went trought together. I really really miss her. And I hope that no one of you guys that are reading this, feel the pain after loosing a bestfriend or just someone you love. I wish we all were ghosts or angels so we all could live forever and never die. So to you that are reading this, please, for me, go to your loved ones and tell them how much you love them, because one day you're gonna lose them and never see them again. Go to your mom, sister, brother, whoever it is, and give them a big hug. Please, for me? Have a great day and remember we all love you.

When I die, I want you to put this song up for my funeral.

To me this song feels like the empty hollow fear you get in your heart when you realize that one day you WILL be old and one day you WILL genuinely die. And no one knows what comes next. What does it feel like? Why do I feel sick whenever I think about it.

I personally don't see this sound as everyone else sees it, as a reflection of their mother or sister or friend dying. But when it states "why do you cry" It makes me feel as someone is asking me the question why do you cry. Like someone is finally asking what is wrong but in a beautiful way. "We're all gonna die" hurts me because it's true some may be sooner or later, some may cheat the system and go sooner like I wish I could but this song and music save me in a way people cannot but this specific song creates a feeling of comfort for the depression that stirs inside and I will forever be grateful for sufjan

Listening to this on the 4th of July

My family told me that I'm so weird cause I'm listening this song while laying down in my bed. But they don't even know this masterpiece always cure my soul

this has to me one my favorite song to ever exist… the lyrics are just… so perfect

If KZfaq recommended you this, believe me you have an awesome taste in music!

i lost my best friend 3 months ago ; when i listen to this i imagine him hearing the same words. Asking him why he chose to leave me here. The sadness creeps in, but being in this dark place of grief- i find solace in the idea of keeping him alive in my thoughts. Although my thoughts are a horrible place atm. thank you for listening to this art with me.

my grandpa died yesterday and this song has been the only piece of music i've been willing to listen to. so sad but its very healing at the same time.

Perfect for my mood, i need to chill right now

Now we can all cry on a holiday about how crappy this would has become :")

It's the fourth of July , 2024

this man is a complete masterpiece

This song is so beautiful, it gives me some sort of emotions that I even can't explain

i imagine myself sitting on a rooftop looking out at a city while the sunsets and people start doing fire works, im sitting with them. they don’t love me irl but in this moment they do. 🙂

I sit here on the floor of my bedroom with my frightened dog listening to this song. My mother is drunk, she yelled at him for no reason. I’m scared. I hate it when she’s drunk. I hate all people when they’re drunk. They’re scary and there’s nothing good that comes out of drinking. I’m promising myself here and now, I’ll never touch alcohol for as long as I live, I’ll never be the monsters these drunk adults have become.

I miss you Mom how do I even go on without you? My highschool graduation, dying my hair, getting married. I’m so glad your not in pain. I hated seeing you so hurt and I was so mean. I hope you loved me till the last breath ❤️ it’s been 6 months already

To anyone having/went through a difficult time, you are so loved and cared about. I am very proud of you for continuing to push forward and being alive. Keep on going bubba muffin, no emotion is forever and you shall get through any obstacle that may be presented your way. You are so so strong, brave, important, enough, intelligent, gorgeous, talented, and you matter ♡ You got this, and you can do it! Set your heart ablaze, I believe in you and am here by your side encouraging you to continue living life 🤲 It can get hard, but there are so many moments in life that can be wonderful. You can accomplish many incredible things and meet so many extraordinary people. Find healthy ways to cope with stress and get comfort. 🌱 Sending a ton of love, positivity, comfort, support, care, happiness, good luck, best wishes, wellness, amazing thoughts, kindness, and may you all be surrounded by wonderful bubbas who care for you, love you, and treat you generously 🤲 Please please take very good care of yourself, take breaks, take things slow and at your own pace, stay safe, stay hydrated (drink at least seven cups of water a day), eat food (at least two meals, get in those nutrients, vitamins, proteins, etc.), get rest (at least eight hours at night), and do not overwork/overwhelm yourself 💕 May you only have spectacular days to come, hun 🧚‍♀️

The evil it spread like a fever ahead It was night when you died, my firefly What could I have said to raise you from the dead? Oh could I be the sky on the Fourth of July? Well you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We're all gonna die Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head Was it all a disguise, like Junior High Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction Now, where am I? My fading supply Did you get enough love, my little dove Why do you cry? And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best Though it never felt right My little Versailles The hospital asked should the body be cast Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth Do you find it all right, my dragonfly? Shall we look at the moon, my little loon Why do you cry? Make the most of your life, while it is rife While it is light Well you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die

This is the first time I’ve genuinely sobbed in months. My German Shepard, Faith, was barely 4 years old when she was diagnosed with an incurable cancer crushing her internal organs. She was the most devoted dog I’ve ever met. She followed me every step I took, lied by my side, comforted me with any negative emotion I experienced, looked into my eyes with so much loyalty. She loved me so much that she fought the pain of the tumor to exist with me as long as possible. Eventually, I had to call the vets to put her down in my home. It was too much to see her in so much pain. Even then, she still fought the drugs as they attempted to shut her body down. She wanted to see why I was sobbing so harshly, if I was safe. After she passed I could still feel her presence the next morning, a ghostly weight of her body pressing against my legs while I lied in bed. I will never be able to find a living angel like her ever again. She was my one and only best friend, and I’ll never forget her presence. This song reminds me so much of the grief I went through and still go through. It’s been 3 years now, but I’ll never stop mourning her absence.

"And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best Though it never felt right" hits me harder than anything ive ever felt.

This song helped me through the grief of the passing of my great grandma recently back in August. I love how Sufjan continuously says "we're all gonna die" because it's a realization people who have only experienced death understand completely. We understand the fear and the shortness of ones life. For others who have lost someone I see you and I feel your pain.

Back here on the 4th of july.

My dad was fighting against cancer for 2 years. Lot of churgeries, chimio, radiotherapy... On Octobre 1, he passed away. He was in an establishment for people dying. It was very beautiful, calm and nurses were so nice. We visited him everyday. This day, we received a call to tell us that the night was very long and painful for him... She told us that he's not going to pass now, but maybe in few days. But two hours later we visited him, he passed away 5 mins before we saw him. I feel like he knows that we were here. He knows that It was time to go in dignity, like "ok you are here I know it, you came to see me, that's all I got to know. I want you to be here when my soule left my body. Now I've got to go in peace, the pain was hard for you and myself, time so stop". He will leave till I leave.

currently sobbing on my bed to my cat, I haven’t cried in awhile, I’ve kinda been bottling it up, in December my nana passed away, I didn’t tell anyone except one of my closest friends, my grades went down and teachers mentioned it at parent teacher meetings but they never knew what was going on in my life, no one did, I miss her so much it hits me randomly, I forget she isn’t across the road as she usually is, I haven’t been to her house since she was alive, I couldn’t handle going over there and it’s being put on sale soon, it hurts me so much knowing she won’t be there like always, someone else will be to make new memories and people will forget her, I never will. I loved her so much and I still do, I forget she’s gone and when it hits me it hurts so so bad. I’m so scared for when I loose anymore of my family or pets, it’s the worst feeling and this song gives me so much sadness and comfort, I was listening to this on repeat while stressing and doing my maths project and I broke, for the first time in a while. I came into my bedroom and just started balling after I closed the door, I just miss her so much and the lyrics match her story so well. have a nice day or night everyone ❤️

What I feel while listening this? I feel nothing, empty. It’s nothing special. Life is boring and sometimes I wanna end it. But one think is holding me, maybe it’s my friend or my family. I don’t know. Im just sorry to be like this.

This is by far, one of the most hauntingly beautiful songs ever written.

summer 2022, u still not end yet. but i will never forget u, with this song, vibes, people, smiles and tears.

Kaya, I miss you so much... you were a better person a year ago... in the 7th grade you started smoking and drinking alcohol... what's happening to you? I miss you so much. You're not the same person I remember. I can't believe how much you've changed for the worse. Your parents found you on Thursday at 3 a.m. under the influence of alcohol, and you are only 13 years old... The whole class misses you. I always associated you with this song. Now when I listen to this song I can't stop crying... we miss you so much Kaya...

i listen to this constantly thinking about my farther figure. for an explanation my farther was a violent and sometimes abusive person. but he had a bestfriend called billy. my mother and farther have been spilt since my little brother was born (2011) . so me and my little brother would have to visits my farther. most of the time billy would be there. when he was mad he would take me and my little brother away. he looked after my family so well, even though my dad was a horrible person. when he became homeless he took him in. when my mother couldn’t afford dinner, he would pay for it. but 2 years ago he passed away. in 2022 it will be 3 years. i miss him so much. i still see my dad. he’s kind of a better person thanks to billy. i miss him so much.

I love this song I love this picture

I love this song, it hits so different

It’s the Fourth of July and while everyone else is partying I’m listening to this work of art.

I lost my dad last year on 18th May...because of COVID And before leaving us.. He appeared in my dreams on 17th night... Spend some time with me but never came back home with me... It was a message from him... He again appeared in my sister's dreams where he said that he left mom behind so that I can have a guardian and after I get independent enough then he will take her with him... Everytime I listen to "Did you get enough love my little dove? Why do you cry? And I am sorry I left, was for the best Thought it never felt right" makes me feel like he will say this to be when I get to meet him afterlife.

Listening to this in the 4th of July hits different

This sounds so gentle and I love it so much

My dad passed away when I was 7. He died in the middle of the night, with no warning (a heart failure), and the only likely reason being over-exhaustion. It's been over 10 years and I can barely remember him anymore, but there's still this ache in my heart whenever I'm reminded of his sudden absence.This song always reminds me of him, I don't really understand why. Maybe I relate to Sufjan's pain of losing a parent so dear to my heart, maybe I enjoy imagining that it's my dad calling me a little hawk or dove, or maybe it's because I wish I could become the sky on the Fourth of July, just to see him once more.

YESSSS HERE THE MINUTE THE NOTIFICATION CAME THROUGH. ALREADY KNOW I’M GONNA LOVEEE IT. TY ESSA. ❤️

This is my new comfort song

Even though hes a streamer...it hurt like hell He was my happiness And when it was his time I slowly died inside from tears of sadness He was a father figure Nearly a brother to me And it felt like something emotionally scarring R.i.p technoblade You were a good man With a good heart And humor that i felt attached too..

When i listen to this i remember when my mom told me "you are a waste of 9 months" "you are a failure" "**** is better than you anywas." .... This song will forever hit hard.

It's been a whole year and I've been listening to this version every day to remember how happy we were before 2020 May we find our happiness again 🤍

i know a lot of people like sped up songs now but please never stop posting your account means sm to me and ur vids are so comforting

I'm so glad this song gained popularity. I discovered it a long while ago before it was blown up.. I knew it would get somewhere :)) love you sufjan

hits different on 4th of July

Omg..seeing this on the 4th of July on my recommended. 11 Months later.. this song still makes me so emotional. Im missing that special someone right now..

Walking through New York with this playing in my headphones. Makes me remember all the heartbreak, trauma, PTSD and betrayals. This life is shit

i can't express how much this song has done for me i love it so much

I’m back for the 4th July, that year flew by

I’ve recently reached a point in my life where I don’t even feel the pain or the hopelessness I should feel through my body I’ve become numb to all of that, I know there’s no hope of finding true friends, succeeding in studies, having a boyfriend, being happy in the real world, living those moments I would love to experience, doing all those things regular people get to do I know life will never be good for me, I’m just part of these people, who will never get to have the life they wish they had, who will always fight to have nothing in the end But I think I’ve accepted that, I’ve become used to having no happy future I just want to live in my virtual world now, and give up on life, just have the bare minimum to experience love, happiness and success in video games, books, films/series, and with my imagination I wish I could just live in my own little world, because I wasn’t made for the real world, and I’m only really happy in my virtual world

Why you gotta make me cry like this-

This song has such a strong folklore - evermore essence. It has such a soft melody yet the words really crush your heart. "I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be forevermore": this fits so much with the pain Sufjan is talking about.

I was born on 4th of July and I can relate to these lyrics. This is like my theme song

3:54 ’make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light’

Bro music is my therapy.

Lost my friend to cancer, then almost instantly after I lost my dog. School has been severly burning me out, and I feel stuck in a loop. Nothing is new. I think I'm okay, but when I finally sit down, i cry. I dont want to die, but at the same time, i dont want to be here anymore.

2:31 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦, 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘷𝘦? 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘳𝘺?

I always thought the lyrics were “did you get enough love? my little girl, why do you cry?” so i would cry every time i listen to this song because it feels like what my mom might felt when i went through depression and she had to see how broken i was which broke her heart too.

I wish this was on spotify

Today is 4th July. I wish everyone reading this that things will go well and only get better.

"we're all gonna die.."

This song reminds me of my grandfather. I used to visit him every summer and he would always have a different treat for us. Sometimes he has Italian ice or ice popsicles. I hanged out by his community pool. I still remember the day my mom broke into tears in the kitchen when me and my sister were playing a video game. My grandfather had died is his sleep. I was 5 and never really experienced death like that, I didn’t know how to react. I didn’t cry that day or at his funeral but whenever I think of him and the memories I had with him, I cry until I can’t breathe. In fact it was hard to write this comment without crying.

Pov: it's the 4th of July...

this song is one of the most beautiful pieces of music I know , it reminds me of my family, my grandparents how much i love them and how much i’m going to miss them , I hope I give them as much love I possibly can before they go, it makes me sad that life is short and all we can do is love everyone we can as much as we can including ourselves while we still can , kinda corny but this song is truly an amazing song in its own unique way

This is GORGEOUS and so chilling and all I can think about is the fact that the cassette effect noise at the beginning sounds EXACTLY like the one in the Magnus Archives. I love this though oh my GODS

This song is out of world

For me This song sounds like a sunset where in the sky there are colors like yellow, violet, dark pink. with a calm wind and the sun hitting your face in the midst of the beauty of Switzerland. i feel like this song belongs to switzerland… manages to heal me of my wounds.

listening to this on 4th of July hits different

My uncle died and they didn't even let me attend his funeral.....he was the only family member that accepted me for who I was and always told me to look forward and not backwards and made me confident in myself Now he is gone so all I have is music as my best friend and thing that still keeps me alive and with hope🙏 R.I.P uncle wish you are happy in the next world🙏 A little timestamp for me 3:40

lustry....I WAS WAITING FOR THIS

i love this sm

We’re all gonna die so whatever you decide to do in life, don’t be afraid and do it for yourself

I didn't just cry rn. I'm a very strong person that doesn't cry easily. I have to say, this helped me express my emotions truthfully

The start of this song always makes me bawl my eyes out for some reason but I love the song sm♡

hey lustry i really didn’t need this rn🙏🏽🙏🏽