I'm not suidcidal but if there was a car coming my way I wouldn't exactly move away...

It's easy to say, "be honest" when one doesn't face the acute threat of being involuntarily incarcerated in a mental ward for being thruthful.

I wish you were my therapist 😕

Not much joy in this world I swear if there were a get me off this planet button I'd hit it

The suicidal hotline in the US is terrible. The lady I talked with was so rude!! We only talked for about 3 minutes. She acted as if I was bothering her and she seemed in a hurry. I was so hurt. It took a lot of guts for make the call and I was so nervous. I cried and cried after the phone call. I’ll never forget how small and insignificant she made me feel.

i want to die but I dont have the courage to do anything about it

Once I dropped a mini pizza on the floor and I cried for like 2 hours and broke a couple plates... lol.

I find it very difficult to look people in the eye when I speak to them about my issues so much so that I find myself completely turning away from them, I am worried that a therapist wouldn't believe what I am saying if they think I am lying...

I'm ill and i'm going to recover because i deserve it !

Why do so many think you are seeking attention when you tell them you have had suicidal thought even though you cannot imagine going through with it? I'm 35 and have combat related ptsd and have had a most difficult time maintaining friends when I told them what it is like for me to face my daily struggles. I feel like if I do not talk about it with friends, I feel like I am hiding my true self, yet in the same aspect it seems like most don't want to hear about the struggles of others. If that makes sense?

im so happy i found this channel everyone is so much nicer than other parts of youtube.

"I cant see a parent saying no"..... uh guess that depends on your parents.

If a person is having suicidal thoughts, how can they get help WITHOUT having to go to the hospital or being admitted into a mental ward of some kind?!!? Does anyone know?!!? I wouldn't even mind being admitted into the hospital IF they weren't going to try putting me on all sorts of medicine that just COMPOUNDS my problems and makes them so much worse. And, IF I knew (for sure) that they wouldn't try putting me in some mental ward of some kind (which would exasperate the problem even worse than putting me into some hospital and putting me on all sorts of meds that just make my problems much worse). I am NOT suicidal right now. But, there ARE times where I do get like that. And, I need help at those times. But, I am scared to go into the hospital as they might admit me and then try to pump me FULL of meds that just make my problems so much worse. Or, they might put me into some mental ward of some kind, too. And, that makes a person NOT want to get help (even though you know that you NEED it). Any suggestions?!!? Thanks!!!

I don’t want to kill my self but I don’t want to live

I’m 62 and thought I couldn’t get help. From someone so much younger, but YAY! I’m grateful to you and your young wisdom and compassion! Having seen several therapists over the years, you’re in my Top two! ♥️☮️🎈

I regularly plan out my suicide in detail. I would have to reach out for help nonstop, probably no one could take that serious anymore.

WOW! I’m so glad someone talked about their parent not consenting to in-patient therapy. I had an eating disorder that started at 13 (exercise bulimia) and got so much worse by 16 to the point where there was no going around it, and I was desperate for help. I voiced it to my mom (my only “parent”), and she said, “oh, you just need to quit doing that.” I had bulimia, binge-eat SO BAD and I was on diet pills... completely debilitating and embarrassing, nonetheless. Affected my extremities(discoloration)/energy. My mom was not helpful and I reached out for help at a treatment center. I had to bring my mom with me, and she then TURNED INTO THE VICTIM and tried to come up with a story of why I was just a moody teenager. My GOD!! I lost hope in her ever being a mother to me completely. I’m 20 now, and I WISH I could’ve had that HELP at 16! I swear, if your child wants inpatient therapy, give them that RIGHT to do so.

Today, I had a really bad panic attack and the nurse called for the counsellor. She (counsellor) saw my scars and stuff and she said that cutting is a sin and if I ever do it again, she would report me :( I hate it here. People won't take me seriously and they don't try to understand. I asked my parents if I could get some help, they said no bc it was just a phase blah blah blah. Help.

Most nights I don't care much whether I wake up the next day if it feels like it's just going to be another day like today was. No interest, purpose, motivation, etc.

Today I almost broke down in tears just because my leg was itching. It was very irritating, lotion and scratching wouldn't stop it. But seriously, wtf? First that's no reason to even get stressed. And second I had a perfectly fine day. So yeah, I do that a lot. Remote won't work, get unreasonably angry over it. But something really stressful happens and I'm just like, nothing. Deal with it and move on. But I better not stub my toe or all hell will break out.

1. I'm grateful I found your channel. 2. I'm grateful I told my Mum about my a Self Harm yesterday (so much relief now) 3. I'm grateful for being healthy, and strong.

I want to go and get help. But my anxiety gets in the way of building the courage to go get the therapy and counseling, even talking to my own mother because she never takes these things seriously is terrifying. She always gets angry or upset, never understands, and because of that I don't tell her anything. At this point, I would rather walk into a mental institution and check myself in, without my parents, than even continue trying to get help. I'm just over it now.

My suicidal thoughts are what push me to seek out a therapist. I'm scared of myself cause I've thought and written how, when and where will it be (suicide). They have been constant and plaguing me. I have depression for years and every relapse is getting stronger. I have talk to a therapist once and have no cousrage to tell my parents.

I will cry over small things (small to other people, anyways) and sometimes, depending on how much it upset me, I will consider myself worthless and want to die. It used to be worse, but now it is less often and whenever I think that I argue with myself over it, arguing that what I’m feeling is an overreaction. I am not tired and I am able to enjoy myself. Am I depressed? Is this suicidal behavior? And should I be seeing a therapist? Note: it’s been harder to argue with myself because I thought I was getting better than I was.

because of my age i feel that i can't tell my therapist anything out of fear that she'll tell my parents. what should i do?

I am a very heavily guarded person and over the years have perfected the mask that I wear in the outside world. The difficulty is that it is so well constructed and such a natural part of me that I can't tell a lot of the time when I am experiencing real emotion or if I am just a projection of whoever i'm talking to. It makes it especially difficult to connect with my therapist because I can't tell if I am being honest about what I feel or if I am just telling her what I thinks she wants to here from me. Any help on how to overcome this?

Ive had a sudden crying spell before, maybe two. Theyre actually pretty normal in certain situations. Most recently it happened when I had moved out of my parents house. In the afternoon I got on a plane, flew across the country, they lost my bags, i went to my place, met my room mate, went out to get some food, etc. Then it was late, I was tired and went to bed. Turned on my gameboy advance to play before I slept, and just broke down crying. It didnt last for long, and I'm not ashamed of it. It was a hugely stressful day, with everything stopping me from really having time to stop and think about it all. First chance I got, I crashed. I just wanted to share this to show that even in situations where nothing is going really wrong (I knew I'd get my stuff back eventually, wasnt a big deal.) you can still have this happen just from being overwhelmed.

I have these thoughts everyday.

i live in finland and i have trouble taken seriously. i told my psychiatrist that i am extremely suicidal and she just said to take my medication and go back to school

I’m talking to friends, a therapist, journaling and crying but I still can’t stop having these thoughts

Hey I was born with a brain injury and depression. I have had a head tic since I was 2 years old. I was suicidal the other day. I’m glad now that I didn’t succeed. For the first time I can see a light at the end of the dark tunnel. Thanks again.

even when you have a plan and you are so lost and feel sincerely like dying and you bring yourself to a hospital they don't take you seriously. . They say if you were able to get here and your asking for help then your not that bad. how dose one deal with that?

Oh. So it's normal to talk back to my bad thoughts. Fought i was going crazy

@katimorton i have been watching you for a long time and in the psych ward right now been here since 4/27/2024 i was detoxed and transfered to the psych ward for ideations and suicide attempt i hid a plastic butter knife off my lunch trey while detoxing and sharpend it on the metal edge of my bed side table and cut open my wrists and arm and was on suicide watch for 9 days then transfered to the psych ward i can honestly tell you that you have saved my life your vidos are life saving thank you for doing all you do

So, everyday of my life I am in such a depressed mood. I do self harm And some days I don’t even want to live anymore. Please help me!😢

I'm passively suicidal. I dont have plans, but I think about it every day. Not like those quick thoughts either. Like, just... the idea of it. Would it make me feel better? Would people really miss me? Stuff like that. And sometimes I think about how I would do it, I guess. I hear about people going to the hospital and getting better there. I want help like that. All I have right now is medication and my family, sitting there thinking everything is alright. I've told my mom, and she said she was going to tell my psychiatrist when we saw him next, but she didn't, and I didn't remind her. I still haven't. I think they dont get it. I feel like just telling them again won't help. For all the courage it'll take, it's not worth it. Actions speak louder than words. I'm 13, and if I was an adult, I'd just go check myself into the hospital. I just want to feel better. And I don't want to try and convince them to take me. They won't. They won't understand. They're really good parents, but they've never dealt with these thoughts. They won't get it. How bad it is. What I have in mind to fix it. Am I sick enough yet? Or do I have to be actively suicidal?

Kati being hypothetically grateful for a parking spot “right up front” is awesome. I call parking spots “right up front” *_”Rock Star Parking“_* and parking _near_ the front *_”Punk-Rock Star Parking”_* . Thanks for making me laugh. Things have been difficult for a while and it felt good.

I have experience with health care systems in the Netherlands and Hungary. Netherlands: my maths teacher sent me to the counsellor at school because she noticed I was feeling down. My counsellor asked me about my issues and at first I refused to speak but then eventually I told her about my family, eating and mood issues. She asked me whether I thought of suicide and when I said yes she called in my parents the same day (it was a Friday afternoon/evening). My parents said there was't a need but she told them there was and wrote an urgent request to my doctor to refer me to a psychologist. I got help in a matter of weeks, it was al covered by insurance. Hungary: my form tutor noticed scars on my arm and discussed that with me, then convinced me to see the school counsellor (note: this is a private school, I don't think Hungarian state schools have a counsellor). She wasn't particularly helpful but really nice, and she basically convinced me to reach out to further help. My form tutor helped me by writing my stepmom a email, asking her to assist in finding an english speaking psychiatrist. She did, and I got help. This psychiatrist is private (so not covered by insurance. Cost is 12000 HUF/hour. I do have Hungarian insurance for the medication she prescribes, and those are really cheap, maybe 1000 HUF/month) So basically I got help in the Netherlands and Hungary, despite the fact that I am a straight-A student

I'm from the UK and I attempted suicide a couple of months ago, thinking that even if I didn't die, I would finally be taken seriously but nothing's changed. In hospital no one really spoke to me and I was just made to feel bad for the way I was feeling and to be honest I felt extremely alienated. I attempted on a Friday and I was back at school the following Monday, where my guidance teacher spoke to me extremely quickly as she is always in a hurry and never has time for a proper conversation. My favourite teacher was also told and all I felt was that she didn't care, and I feel she still doesn't. I was referred onto cahms which is a child's mental health service in the uk, and they were no help at all. The woman who came and spoke to me accepted everything I said, just the same as everyone else, which I was slightly surprised about. I'd thought that someone who had attempted suicide 3 days ago wouldn't be taken seriously when I said I was fine and had nothing to talk about?

The way you talk and your mannerisms and how you say "Okay?" reminds me of someone I know so much, but I can't place it and I keep trying to think of who you remind me of and I can't figure it out!! 😂 Anyone else have someone she reminds them of?

Europe - DID, Depression and Anti-Stress pills for extreme paranoia diagnosis. My diagnosis took years and were really stressing. I began showing signs as a child (what people told me, I only have flashbacks and they terrify me). Then, when we have moved a country I began to hallucinate all over again and lose memory. My hallucinations appeared as a huge black animal covered in blood. It was either standing by my bed while staring at me, or following me when I was outside. It lasted for 3 years without any treatment when I reached towards suicidal thoughts, self-harm, aggression towards most people around me and insomnia due to fear. Fucked up, but only then my mother finally realized that what I was going through was really serious. At first I was undiagnosed, and they gave sleeping pills and sent me back home. We came back two months later after school counselor got really worried. This time psychiatrist diagnosed me with schizophrenia. Me and my mother later decided to change the doctor, and that’s when I had been given medication (Atarax and Zoloft), psychotherapy and diagnosis of DID, Depression and etc. I am now getting help but sometimes it does not feel like enough. But it is very important to be honest with your doctor and I know that its hard. Remember that they want to help you, they will base your diagnosis on your answers same as treatment. But also make sure that you like your doctor and that they know what they are doing. Good luck:)

Had to cancel my therapy session today so this is a good alternative!

When suicidal, what does going to the hospital actually do and help with? Do they have magic medicine we don't? And if so, can I get some out here? Seems like it is just going to cause more problems.

My depression is much deeper than your typical standard depression. It's accompanied by a powerful wave of emotions and grief.

I'm in the UK and have never had problems finding a counsellor, the problem is the free/cheap ones have really long waiting lists, which tends to be a problem when you feel really bad NOW.

When I was in the hospital, we had a violent patient who lashed out and punched one of the male nurses and a security guard. All of the patients in our ward were under lock-down while they got him under control and I was so scared that I practically holed up in my room to cry because I was so upset from it. Like I actually went into fight or flight mode and I felt like I was going to have a heart attack because it was so scary.

Katie, I'm scared. I've only had a suicidal thought/feeling once a couple years ago, until now. Now this past week on Wednesday and Thursday night as I was laying in bed to go to sleep "kill myself" kept popping up in my brain. I have no feeling that I want to do this, yet it kept repeating. I don't understand why. I told my husband about it, and I'm trying to get an appointment with my therapist. I work and have a lot of appointments for my baby, so I feel like I don't have time to get to therapy, yet I know I need to. I do have an appointment with my psychiatrist April 10th. My worry is, will these thoughts end up making me do something I don't want to do? Does happen to people? Can people get to a point where they feel like they're not in control? It worries me. Thank you for your help.

I don't have a therapist because I don't have insurance and I was denied for state insurance my problem's with my manic depression, bpd, anxiety, ptsd, ocd is getting worse I cry all the time I lash out in anger crying is suposed to make you feel better but after I cry I feel so much worse. :(

When you want to leave the world but your too cowardly go through with suicide 🤷‍♂️

I have been voluntarily in patient before because of suicidal ideation. I had intrusive thoughts to do harm. I got the help i needed. The assessment was easier to do than I thought.

I was involuntary admitted to the psych ward cause I felt it was a good idea to admit suicidal thoughts. DO NOT MAKE THAT MISTAKE! The psych ward is a shitty place. It does not help. It does not “keep you safe.” All it is is jail. Psychiatry can’t claim to be just as valuable and valid as any other health profession then have the legal right to force you into the psych “hospital.” If I had diabetes but refused insulin, they would say that’s my own poor choice. I’m not deemed competent enough to decide I need their help but they think I’m competent enough to pay the astronomical bill they send to me for the “service.”

Thank you for all your videos. During some very bleak times, they have been a light of guidance and assurance. May God richly bless you with happiness and more importantly, contentment.

I hate to say it but my experience in the UK is pretty bad. When I was 16 in CAMHS it was quick and efficient, cause your under 18 they are considered responsible so they are not bad depending in the area you live, they will at least give you counselling. Since I turned 18 the adult service is crap, I went strait from day patient unit to one appointment a month, then I lost a load of weight in a month (had bowel op that almost killed me, literally) but when I next went in they weighed me and said you are not trying go. I was trying my best (had a colostomy bag forgodsake) but they said they either wanted me full inpatient or nothing to do with me (no dietician, therapist, family counselor) as my medical health risks due to all the ops ect were high they didnt want to see me and have me die, so it was better to have complete control where they could tube me or no contact at all. They still refuse to help me even though I have asked over a year later as I am struggling. And I'm someone who wants to get better but can't. It's disappointing. My point is you are under 18 so get help now while your still in CAMHS as they will help you. Please do this to help the rest of your life xxxxxx

I'm high functioning and feeling overwhelmed. I'm a combat veteran and I am being treated for depression. I normally I feel a general "when is life over". Not sure if this fall into "passive sudicie thoughts". I don't have a plan to take my life. I just want life to hurry up and be over. I use work, household shores, reading, and studying about natural hair routines as a distraction. But today I feel my depression and anxiety is trying to out smart be like "lol you think you can out smart me with healthy distraction". I'm not on meds cause I don't like the side effects recently prozac now makes me more tired and gives me diarrhea. So stopped taking it. I looked into natural remedies at Whole Foods. I started listening to meditation high vibration music while I sleep. I noticed it helped. I'm tired and exhausted all the time but since I'm high functioning I masked depression and anxiety with work and doing my hair and cooking. These are all healthy and helpful. I just don't think it's enough. I'm tired of being the strong person the bigger person, always strategizing, problem solving always dealing life, managing myself, dealing with others. I always want to be left alone with my thoughts, trying to sort out how not to act how I feel but act reasonable. If anyone reading this can make sense of this. Please help. I'm gonna reach out to my local VA tomorrow thanks for listening/reading. Look for to read your response. Thanks

I see a therapist and a councilor the first day I seen her I told her I'll be honest with you if you will be honest with me I don't want you to sugar coat shit . Just tell me what it is . She said I sure can and I love her. She brutal I live it . I call her when I am in a bad place and she tells me how it is . She's a blessing

Sad songs will reduce and prevent suicidal thoughts. For example; play “if I See you again” and think about committing suicide

I have been following you for awhile now. seriously I'm in a self destructive behavior. I'm talking lightly of what I'm actually feeling.

In India metal health problems are no taken seriously at all..

Depending on what school you go too,you can get counselling there where you can take your time in explaining what is wrong. They also help you talk to your family.

I was in a well being group where i learned strategies to cope with anxiety, and one i found useful for separating yourself from your anxiety was by closing your eyes thinking of a shape to give your anxiety and see it as a horrible monster sitting in your shoulder and you should name it also take time to name it and that gives you the first strength in knowing you gave it its name its shape and separated it from being part of you to just an annoying thing who will try everything to get you worked up because it wants you to feed it and it grows wen being fed anxiety so it takes practise but it works wen you feel your getting to that point remember it this monster who wants to grow and tell it no your not getting anything from me today its a good way to gain the feeling of being in charge plus it help remind you that anxiety is present with you but its not a part of who you are . The more you feed it the more it grows

I'm greatful for your videos and the support they give me!

How do you be honest with people when all they say is that it’s in my head. Like obviously, thank for shutting me down the minute I reach out....and you wonder why I never talk ....

I live in Greece and my therapist didn't ask me any of that we just talk about all the symptoms ( anxiety ) and past experiences or disorders that might have lead to that. I do go to school ( IB ) but that doesn't mean that I'm not struggling so you're not being judged

I find not being scared of suicidal thoughts helps the most. Its just a symptom of severe depression. It doesn't mean anything. The suicidal thought stick around as they scare us.

thank you katie for making these videos!!! its nice to have someone who understands!

My son shot himself in his head about 7 months ago. It was back in July of 2019 and I still struggle with guilt because I feel like I should have seen it coming, but he was always so happy and smiling and joking. I still am not used to him being gone and I feel guilty if I find myself enjoying a conversation or laughing about something. I cried every day for a long time and there were some mornings when I woke up and I was already crying before I was even awake. I considered suicide too, but I know that is not a solution to anything and I just wish my son would have known that.

I'm in the UK and recently had my eating disorder assessmentI got my asesement and being referrd o a eating disorder clinic who then set up the assessment (I hope this helps as I was very nervous and had no idea what was going to happen)..........at the start it was very formal and factual as they initially asked about information to do with jobs, finance and school we also had to fill out some paperwork and sign a few things. I don't remember everything but he asked about my symptoms so e.g. binging/purging/ restricting and asked about any health issues i'd experienced. we spoke a lot about my diet habits and the frequency of the binge purging and about when the eating disorder started and how it starts.he then asked about self-harm and alcohol or drug misuse and then moved on to ask about the situation at home and asked about all of my relationships a home. towards the very end I filled out a motivation scale where I placed my self a scale of 1-10 for topics such as 'how motivated are you to recover?' and 'how likely do you think your are to recover? finally at the end of the session they allow you to invite a parent/guardian/or friend to come in but you can refuse and ask about their main concerns at home and ways to move forward as a family. we then spoke about the kind of treatment I will receive. the session is around 2 hours typically but mine was a bit longer. I hope that this helps you understand the structure of the assessments and you can get treatment xxx

Once my dog ate my lasagna and I cried for like 3 hours and screamed until my head hurt and I couldn't feel anything.

i journal a lot. i just haven't been myself lately. been going through a lot lately. it makes me feel better when i write it down all my feelings. when i get the urge to cut i grab a marker or pen and i draw or write on myself.

I was once told by a psychologist that my depression probably wasn't depression because I wasn't suicidal (I had those "yeah I could just jump here and die" moments but I wasn't actually going to do that or had an actual plan or anything). At that point it had been years of dealing with it without reaching out because "it`s probably nothing, I`ll be fine" and then when I finally did, it was all invalidated for a reason I was lucky enough to know has nothing to do with wether or not it`s depression (seriously thank god I did and was able to realise that, I can only imagine what saying "it`s not depression because you're not suicidal" could do to someone). Didn't work with them for long (probably understandable why, it wasn't really helpful) and it took me years to reach out again. Now I do have the diagnosis (otherwise unspecified depression (not sure what it`s officially in English) and social anxiety) and have been seeing a psychiatric nurse for a while and I'm looking for a therapist. It`s sometimes hard and I still have the habit of invalidating my own feelings that I've had all these years but I'm working on it.

I've made it up to the point where I thought about how I would end it, but it wasn't a plan I would go by exactly, even though I told myself as soon as I felt I needed to I would end myself, these thoughts still occurs everyday, there's a lot behind it and personally I feel like I'm just broken. Is it normal for a fourteen year old like me to have these thoughts everyday. I just feel like randomly crying out of nowhere and then I think to myself if I killed myself who would actually care, and then I think... no oneI just want to know if this is out of the ordinaryPlz can anyone just give me an answer? It would be much appreciated

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in the UK, they do look for functioning signs as I was talking to someone from a charitable organisation, I described in detail a suicide plan and because I didn't cut myself and could still function in daily life. that was four months ago and I have another three months before I even get an evaluation.

I'm just done

I am also high functioning, never a problem excelling at work. But I have fought major depression or depression not otherwise specified with SI for 21 months. As Kati said, professionals have always taken my SI seriously. When I say I am planning to do it, or I have a method and was ready to execute it, I get the help I needed. Today, I have a go to med I use to keep SI at bay. I use a very low level for maintenance, but if I were triggered, I would be able to take a little more and be okay the next day. But I promised to check in to a hospital where my psychiatrist practices if I am overwhelmed. And I had to do that once. So, that is my plan of last resort, go back there and get safe and get help.

She seems like a really nice person, I can't get therapy but if I could I'd love her to be my therapist

Can't take the pain got to get away I feel like cutting into my vein my family drive's me insane stepdad is so lame he can go do his.own thing!

help in UK is hit and miss. depends on professionalism of doctor and therapist

I live in Norway, I tried telling my doctor I needed some help, quick. He referred me to a random therapist in OCTOBER (I asked for help in July). Meanwhile I attemptet suicide cause I couldnt deal With my emotional state. I'm finding myself slowly getting back into the thoughts I had before I tried to kill myself, which is scary. I feel like I need a different type of treatment then I'm getting, but waitinglists are so long. It's killing me

I’m just to tired at this moment. I have been listening to this kind of videos and this is bust so overwhelming 😊😊

I wish that I didn't have family and friends that would be destroyed if I died. They are what is keeping me alive. Yet, none of them are willing or able to help me. So I don't bother telling them how bad I'm doing right now. I had so much and now I'm losing it all and feel like such a failure. It's too late for me to start over, and I just don't have the energy. Sleep is the only relief I get

as she said about granting it helps me a lot by writing it down then burning that paper.one reason why this helps me is that no one else can read it if you aren't telling anyone

All your information is very helpful and have assisted me in figuring out why I am the way I am. but this particular video had a lot of personality in it and that in itself helped me. thank you.

QU.1 Hi, you can ask to see your school counsellor. Alternatively you can go to your GP and asked to be referred to CAMHS. Depending on your area you may be able to self-refer. If you want to message me about where you live I'm on the website and am more than happy to help you research. When you go to the GP be very honest and specifically ask to be referred to CAMHS. As you are under 18 your GP can't prescribe, treat or really diagnose any psych problems but CAMHS can. xox

For people in the UK - Can be very hard to get help before things have gone really bad . Got to go to GP , be honest, wait x number of months and in meantime if you can pay for some private therapy sessions. Do NOT just accept group therapy..ask that you need one to one sessions instead of or as well as group therapy. In my case my anorexia was so bad I was risking inpatient so I got to top of the list immediately..sad that I had to suffer for years. Hope that helps x

I'm in the UK and have had trouble being taken seriously, too. Some professionals aren't very good, and you may have to fight to get treatment... Like, go to another GP, or I saw a mental health advisor (at university) who then wrote a note to my GP. Again, some therapists can be unhelpful. Persevere. I've have a couple of horror stories, but I'm seeing a very good ED specialist now. I spoke to her the other day about my feelings of being a "fake" and not "ill enough", and she was really great about it. She said that they wouldn't have offered me appointments if they thought it wasn't serious. So, yeah, keep going with seeking treatment. There are good doctors and therapists out there.

You are a blessing in my life thank you

I just want to sleep and never wake up 😞😭

I am too ashamed to tell anyone I need help, I have a plan now, I'm afraid I won't be here very much longer at this rate.

re. question 4. In the UK once you're deemed competent (age 12, can be younger, can be much older if someone has severe learning difficulties) you can consent to operations, admissions etc. You can go to the GP and whilst and adult does have to be told certain things you have but it doesn't have to be a parent just an 'appropriate adult'. Not that you can choose to be admitted if you're not being offered that, you could ask a CAMHS worker or something but it isn't the same as the US.

I liked your poker chip analogy! I was thinking about because I was taught the same thing with spoons. If anyone doesn’t know what spoon theory is, basically you wake up with a certain amount of kitchen utensils. You might start with, idk, 5 straws, 2 forks, but for some reason you don’t have a spoon that day. You can eat your breakfast cereal with a fork, but it’s hard with a straw because you can only drink the milk. You have energy to drive to school or work, but not to do the work. I really like these types of analogies because they help to explain why sometimes we just don’t have the capacity to do something at specific times, especially to people who have a smaller or different understanding about what you’re feeling.

Ive tried to End my Life 3 times, I get these attacks of Depression regularly, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder but dont think I am, Ive been to man Shrinks and each would ask me what did the other doctor say? and they would just accept what the other doctor said. I do Not think Im Biploar bc I have met a few people who are Bipolar and they are very frightening and irrational .... and I am Not like them. Ive tried every available option, Professional Help, Medication, Prayer, Church and I have Not gotten any better. The Church say its a generational curse, some churches say its spiritual attacks and Doctors say its a Chemical Imbalance in my brain . I dont know who to believe, but I just want to close my eyes and never wake up.

I've had eating disorder,suicide attempt and I'm bipolar and was put in jail for a year after I stopped taking my meds.

Hi. I'm 18 and from Malaysia. I've recently been diagnosed with anorexia but I doubt so because I don't exactly fit the full criteria and neither am I fully bulimic. I just want to be properly diagnosed and so I can get solid help. I also have depression and anxiety which were officially diagnosed by the Dr. However I do think I too have PTSD. Anyway, my point is I made effort to go and see a psychiatrist about this. It sucks when I want to get help but my meetings with the psychiatrist is disapproved by both my parents. They refuse to pay for my appointments with the Dr. I've relapsed so many times in 5 years and I know that the lack of support from my parents isn't enough for me to recover a 100%. I'm just not mentally strong enough. Right now, I'm trying my best to recover over all and praying that there won't be any relapse again. I'd appreciate if I could get some advice from anyone. I'm sorry btw if you think my situation is rather ridiculous and makes less sense than other people's problems. Maybe I'm over thinking everything? Also thank you to whoever spent their time reading this.

I would love to see you make a video about Bipolar disorder

Everyone has had that thought at some point in their lives.

No one takes me seriously, unless I self harm, and even then, I just get discharged, turned away and told "you're too well" WHAT? How? How do I prove that I'm not ok?

My dad doesn't believe in mental health, he just think I'm fine, even tho I have anxiety and showing symptoms of depression. I really need help and I have a therapist, but they aren't being that nice, and they don't seem to understand me

I would like to have a therapist. But I'm too afraid that my mom will judge me because she is a therapist and I don't want her to see me as one of her patients. But I guess I'll try because I don't want to commit suicide because I have a little brother and I don't want to leave him like that but I guess that's anxiety right there.

When I was 16, I was severely suicidal and finally told my therapist. She wanted to admit me to the hospital and so my parents met us there. She knew my dad was a big part of the problem but when he decided he didn't want me to go inpatient, they just let me leave with them. Just saying that even if your safety is on the line some hospitals won't contradict the legal guardians.