The most powerful sermon. One we barely hear nowadays 😔

I have been born again. My heart completely changed. A few years later my diligence slowed down. I started to become disobedient in certain areas. A little disobedience turned into a lot. I came into agreement with wicked sin and the temptation to use drugs returned. Previously I had been delivered. It was instant. I am so lost and in such a dark place right now. I want to return but I am so compelled to use and can't stop. Every area of my life is messed up right now. I've been staying in hotels since December and using all day everyday. It is complete dysfunction and insanity. I know it's spiritual. I need help. Yes the heart...deceitful and desperately wicked. Who can know it? I was supposed to be there this morning but didn't wake up as I had been awake for days. I've been to this church 3 times now and love that it is actual truth.