"my own thought disgust me " I really know how it feels especially during car rides my mind just wonders into weird places and I'm not proud of it

You know it’s gonna be good when it starts with the ✨trauma tango✨

Imagine going to a party and this type of music plays and everyone is like, "What is that noise?" meanwhile I'm in the corner saying, *"Oh yeah, This is my jam"*

My imaginary friend even hates me. They wont comfort me anymore and my daydreaming about us having fun together are becoming less hyper realistic

Have you ever cried into something before? If you cry atleast every two days or more into a specific stuffed animal it starts to feel like everything is better. The tears soak into the plushie and start to dry into the stuffing. It then leaves a aroma of comforting despair to remind you it's okay to cry. Let it all out into the small thing until you pass out from it all. I cried for atleast four hours yesterday into Goldie, he always tells me something new to comfort me and never makes it feel like its a lie. I've been with goldie since I was 5. We've always cried together. Please remember it's completely okay to cry into something and tell it everything. People will betray, abandon, or loose interest in us always. Plushies and stuffed toys stay forever. They are there forever.

i just want to be real. i want to stop crying. i want to be real. i want to be real. i want to be real. i want to be real. please make me real. please. why am i not real. make me real. i want to be real. please.

I have a eating disorder called Rumination Disorder and it grosses ppl out so I grew up thinking I’m gross which makes me really sad and I use to cry all the time so these things make me feel safe but at the same time not safe.

lemon demon and jack stauber are the definition of weirdcore / dreamcore

_i ‘ m pacing back and forth in my room because i Maladaptive Daydream ( i can put myself in other universes just by daydreaming , it ‘ s an escape from reality ) and DDLC came on and my paranoia went through the roof , i can ‘ t with that song_

you ever feel as if your friends secretly hate you or dont rlly like you as they did before, you try to fix everything and try to appreciate them but do they appreciate you? I feel like that, theres this pain at my chest but i cant find where its coming from and i want it to stop. Everyday i overthink it. Do they still love me? what do i need to do to make them happy. what do i do. am i being selfish?

ddlc fans coming

OH AND ONE THING I PICKED THE WRONG AUDIO AT NUMBER 5

The thumbnail: My own thoughts disgust me. Me: I mean, I can relate to be honest.

Hello. I’m just a random person. I found these playlists in my recommendations all the time. It’s confusing. But after reading all of your comments and thoughts, I feel...sad. Sad that people can go through something (minor or not) and have that be with them forever. I don’t have any ‘worthy’ trauma. Well, maybe a few, but it’s really all a blur. I just wanna give you all hugs and some cookies, telling you all it’s gonna be okay. Cause it will be, sooner or later. It’s going to be alright. stay strong everyone. goodbye, friends. -Golden Heart 💛

Whenever Sayo-nara plays I just expect Stressed Out to start playing a bit later...

I've been obsessed with this feeling of sadness and loneliness since I was 10, im 15 now, If I had to choose a certain feeling above all, id choose sadness, bc I actually feel it, experiment the pain through it, happiness is not real to me (if I feel happinessat all), I don't feel anything with it, its just another random and careless thing to me, I would say im in love with sadness, I recognize that I might be a little (or entirely) masochist, my one friend says that I have to cut this out but I can't, perhaps I don't want to, I almost never complain about my sadness bc I enjoy it, I refuse to talk with someone bc im afraid that if I talk abut it I might end up loosing this feeling that I love so much, everything hurts to me, even the good things, I tend to use sadness as my cope mechanism, idk if I can call it a cope mechanism if im not facing anything but it feels like it, I've never been trough traumatic or sad experiences in my life, I guess that's why I like to feel like this, lonely, broken and numb of my own perception sense, my life needed a little plot twist from being completely fine to extremely bad, I always dream about being the sad and fucked up character in a show, well, I guess i already am, im proud of me for keeping this feeling for so long, its kind of my biggest accomplish, I don't hate anybody or anything in special, I don't hate myself either, I don't hate my life, or my school, or my friends, neither I feel happy about anything, I only feel sadness but nothing makes me sad at the same time, its kind of confusing but that's how it is, im not trying to show off my depression (if I can call it that) its not like im in need of attention, its not like that at all, its even weird im telling this to random strangers in a KZfaq video comment section, believe me its even weird me talking about myself at all, but today I kind of felt like sharing this, maybe some of u can relate to this, maybe not at all, no one can tell what sadness, or happiness, or any feeling is, everyone has their own way of feeling, maybe my sadness is completely different to a person, or maybe accurate to their perception of it, but no one can tell, no one can feel what other person feels, that's why I love sadness, its complex and confusing, everyone has their own type of it, its truly one of the most beautiful things that exist, that's why its my favorite feeling, that's why im attached to it

kikuo just hits diff

DAMN WHY YOU MAKING ME REMEMBER SAYORI -

Love that you added kikuo to the list

That beat drop things in Hole Dwelling was SO satisfying and makes you feel a specific way

the thumbnail pls- i can relate to that the hardest in my soul bc i have intrusive thoughts and i matured from an early age (4 years old. yeah :/) and its always in car rides and when i dont have music or anything on my mind that my intrusive thoughts come and theyre disgusting. but then theres my comfort characters to help me get through it all, by visualizing i just imayine them giving me hugs and saying "its all gonna be ok, i promise". everytime i get in a fight with my mother or anyone i just imagine them telling me its all ok that theres no need to worry or feel mad, that its ok to cry, if they didnt exist idk what i'd do. sometimes i dont know why i act like an adult when im young and i beat myself up about it like "why, why do you act this way, stop doing these things" and i just can handle it anymore. please someone just give me a hug. please?. atleast c!techno, ghostbur and c!philza got me :] sorry for the sad fest :/

the vocaloid made me so happy idk why :0

having a trauma-breakdown while listening to this playlist made my day. Might sound weird cause breakdowns are horrible, but it made me discover new answers for my problems. Also, good choice on adding six forty seven to this, is one of my favs

Heres some weirdcore dreamcore playlist ideas Just take my wallet-jack stauber six forty seven - Instupendo PONPONPON - Kyara Pamyu Pamyu Still life- sitcom Lavender town - PokéMon Burning memories - The caretaker (listen to the Caretakes song there good!) Baby Hotline- Jack Stauber Sugar Crash - elyOtto (?) Buttercup- Jack stauber I hope you enjoy the idea!!

hey keep scrolling.. you are amazing I hope you are doing well ❤️

AND ONE THING, THANK YOU FOR 1K VIEWS💗😭

All Kikuo's songs are material for weirdcore playlist

if yall lazy to open my descriptio>_< 0:00​ kikuo- hole dwelling 5:57​ stcom- still life 9:41​ doki doki literature club- sayonara OST 12:15​ instupendo- six forty seven 14:12​ current joys- blondie 19:21​ jack stauber- just take my wallet 20:49​ lemon demon- ask for nothing ur welcome in advance!!

Why do these playlists feel more like home than anywhere else?🍊

i know where the musics coming from but it feels like its coming from every direction

I fake all of my emotions. not matter if I with someone or just by myself. I have a fear someone notice this disgusting habit (like, sometimes I laughing too loud and something like this), so I trying hard to act natural, but I still can't do this, lol 👐

for some reason the first song kinda summons my instability and makes me want to laugh in pain

thank you for properly crediting kikuo

I have this separate 'voice' in my head that I call my brain. And I'm my imagination. It's not mean to me but it wishes bad things upon me and it sounds like me but it isn't, I'm so confused. It talks over my thoughts and spirals out of control and I get confused and upset. But then it also gives me false senses of danger and constantly makes me feel on edge by saying things that scare me. I promise that it isn't me, it's something else. The unhealthy part of my brain has been operated into a different being only existing in my head. HELP

yk idk what to call it but i want to make like a playlist of songs that make me feel not real. like lately ive been feeling more nd more disconnected nd just experiencing a lot of depersonalization nd derealization nd stuff like that but somehow its oddly comforting sometimes, nd finding songs that support those feelings is kinda nice

The first song went: ⬅️➡️⬅️➡️⬅️➡️⬅️ in my ears and it was nuce

**why did my recommended knew i needed this**

Hiya! This is just a drabble of feelings I slapped on here. Take care of yourself, okay? (TW: childhood trauma, gaslighting, threats(?), swearing, caps, unhealthy coping mechanisms, self-isolation... let me know if I need to add anything else, please.) I hear your angry screams echoing in my head whenever I’m around you. How the HELL am I supposed to tell you anything real or emotional when you crush the vulnerable emotions I let you see into guilt and self loathing. How do you DO that to me and THEN have the gall to try to guilt me into telling you why I’m always MISERABLE. Why I’m always afraid. I can’t even communicate effectively with anyone. I HID THE FACT THAT I WAS SICK FROM EVERYONE FOR A WHOLE WEEK. BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED THEY’D EXPLODE INTO A FIT OF RAGE. LIKE YOU DO. CALL IT A THING OF THE PAST ALL YOU WANT, IF YOURE WEAPONIZING THE KNOWLEDGE OF HOW TRAUMATIZED YOU CAN MAKE US, ITS NOT IN THE PAST. IF I HEAR THE ECHOES OF THAT SAME PAST YOU SPEAK OF EVERY. SINGLE. TIME YOU SEEM EVEN MILDLY ANGERED AND RAISE YOUR VOICE, YOU DO NOT GET TO DISREGARD IT AS “All in the past!” I hide from the people I love because I’m afraid they’ll all just get tired of me and act like YOU. THIS WAS YOUR FAULT, AND YOU ACT LIKE I *CHOOSE* TO BE AFFECTED BY THE NIGHTMARE *YOU* INFLICTED ONTO MY PSYCHE. Why can *YOU* throw your trauma at us? Why can’t I GET AWAY FROM YOU?! *WHY AM I THE CRAZY ONE?! WHY AM I BEING LOOKED AT LIKE I NEED HELP WHEN YOU’RE DOING ALL OF THIS, THINKING THAT ITS REMOTELY OKAY?! WHY CAN’T I EVEN LET MYSELF HAVE TEARS WITHOUT YOU STOMPING ALL OVER IT?!?! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!! PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, JUST GET OUT OF MY ROOM, GET OUT OF MY CHEST, GET OUT OF MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR, AND GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HEAD!!!*

oh lord the ddlc one caught me off guard 😰

i always see hallucinations and it scares me so bad so can you smile for me?

Im gonna make another one i was pretty busy with school work woops..

Once I heard Miku I instantly thought of hole dwelling

your thoughts do not deem who you are as a person, your words and actions do.

i cant feel my body, i feel high.

its time for the tango trauma dance!

this is so comforting omg

I know this is good when it starts with Kikuo, the current host of my Yandere playlist.

"momma's cryin.. Mamma's cryin for you.." Gives me a feeling I cannot explain but I will try. Every hair on my body sticks up and I feel an overwhelming dread, guilt even. It makes me uneasy and yet I can't turn off the song. Those words transporting me back like I'm there, in that same nightmare again, that same moment. Ouch.

Why is this on my recommended? I- *youtube knows something*

I love this playlist! Thank u! :D 💕💫

sorry everyone for not posting i was like very busy with school and trying to get over everything so yeah thats it!

listening to this at 4 am,with fog outside

It's a bit funny I have similar bedsheets to those on the bed they're almost identical.

WHY IS THERE 7K VIEWS AND ONLY LIKE 700 LIKES??? THERE SHOULD BE 7K LIKES BY NOW

"Nature, can I have conciousness?" "For increased survival chances?" "Yeeeeeeessss" Proceeds to escape reality, creating new ones like a boss.

you DARE put SAYONARA?? /j

i think about htis playlist a lot. in a good way. it helps me remember and deal with past stuff for some reason.thank you op!

I love this playlist

my favorite song from ths playlist has to be still life it's so good

This hits diferentes at midnight

omg kikuo.. good taste

Love this playlist!! the ddlc one still affects me when i hear it tho, i feel my whole being sink 😭😭 honestly scared of it lmao

thank you yeah that did help, im crying

I love you for adding ddlc sayonara omh

THIS IS SO GOOD

Thank youu ✧*。

Oh my i wasn’t expecting kikuo I love kikuo

Omg Kikuo!!! :") I'm so glad.

This was made for me🙏🛐

This reminded me that I can only dream when I’m in uncomfortable places, I forgot about that stupid castle room dream ( I would be chased but the chaser never caught me, it was always in a large open space in a medieval esc place) until I dreamt of it again and for some reason this playlist took me back to those castle rooms(I fell asleep), except I was just there, alone in a much smaller room and it was the most peaceful stress I’ve ever felt in one of the rooms.

Some traumacore emojis 🎀🧸🕰😞🌸🕰🛌🖼🪟🩹🧺🏚 Dreamcore: 🧸🛌♟🌻🌤🦇🧦🧳😴🪟🖼🧺 Weirdcore: 🏚🗝🤡🎩🐸🍄☂️🌈🍬🪗🤹🏽💸

Thank u. I love u

"my own thoughts disgust me" why am i so f*cked up like this? God i was so happy but then- i don't even know what happened but- now i'm like this. My thoughts aren't mine anymore. They are dirty, lewd, disgusting. I'm stuck with them, I'm not proud of them, i'm not proud of myself. I can't stop thinking about them, i can't stop them. I am me but after a while i'm not me anymore, i'm a complete different person with different thoughts, that person has the disgusting thoughts, not me, i never even thought of that before that person appeared. They control my hands, force me to see disgusting things. They find them amusing, they love it, and won't stop until they see all of it. When i have something i can find comfort in, they come back and push me into the worst part of it. They look like me, talk like me, but they aren't me. They can't be me, i don't want to be them. They're disgusting, i hate them so much. They're destroying my life. I don't have control of my own thoughts anymore, they have control of my thoughts now. Did i even had control of them in the first place?

BTW EVERYONE the blondie song is actually called kids - current joys but both songs are amazing!!

I Love listening to traumacore,dreamcore and weirdcore playlists during my parents arguing or when i Just had a flashback of......ya know,Thank you for making this,i guess those playlists are my cooping mechanism And idk if i should talk about my possible ptsd even if i dont even know if what i have is ptsd or not ... Heh,i guess Thats all i can tell..right?

I love this playlist i recommend when making another traumacore playlist add yuri's death music from doki doki literture club

dang I love doki doki even if it has disturbing images it’s still mah fav game ever it’s so scary and fun at the same time :>

The first six songs really hit down deep and now I’m sitting here listening to lemon demon and I can’t stop thinking about Ranboo 😍😍

I try to deal with nihilism and this sense of detatchment of humans in particular through stories and magical worlds made inside my head. It makes me sad that I will never be able to truly visit them. Theres something strangely comforting about this music that just got me through a panic attack, and I can't put my finger on it. Maybe its the cute tones played with distorted vocals one would typically find scary. Maybe its the airy and aloof qualities that make the music feel like an astral projection. Whatever it is, it feels like a personification of what I feel like in the outside world. Distant, distorted, and only half there.

All of my friends ask why I'm always holding a tedy/ being so childish.... I never got to have a childhood. so I'm making my own 🥰

i was literally preparing myself for the ddlc song but when it came on it still scared tf out of me lmfao

If it starts with Kikuo it must be great playlist

So much pain and anguish, so its time for a fuck ton of playlists and a03 stories to fill this void

i like to call this the trama tango

It's hard for me to remember that this world is real, I feel like I'm the only one that has a mind to think. Other people are just people that don't think and do actions if they where programed.

I don’t think I’m real....my parents don’t know about what happens to me,I’m crying all the time ,my thoughts are disgusting my stepdad says I’m full of bullsh*t and my mom and my stepdad traumatized me I’m scared of everything .I tried suicide but didn’t work and my mom found out I harmed myself by hitting and cutting she didn’t try to understand and then started shouting nonsense.I’m failing everything..

me and my imaginary friend always hang out because i dont have real friends, but my imaginary friend is great. we have a lot of fun adventures.

We'll never be happy or satisfied :3

It's going to be okay, you don't have to be alone, and for anyone who need to hear this: trauma is not karma, it's not your fault ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

what’s the kindest way to to say you took away my friend, my buddy.

For everyone curious: 5 is not Blondie, but a song called ‘kids’ by current joys, just slowed down

maybe its just me and i should go find another playlist to listen to instead but im not sure if sayonnara ost was a good idea to put here haha....

I knew the Doki Doki literature club song immediately and almost screamed LMFAO help

Mister hug is here for me When i'm sad, I hug him and i'm fine I wish Mister hug exist!!!!

Do you ever cry but you have no tears?

hole dwelling reminds me of a calm version of kara kara kara no kara idek why

lemon demonnn!

10:43 i didnt need this bestie. Ima get nightmares now, peace ✌️

no cos hole dwelling reminds me of killing stalking 😭

I danced all night with a bottle of wine in hand...