I’m trying to escape as well man

Nicky your story is more common than you think. I joined the navy for very similar reasons, as did many of my peers.

Man, this hits home. My parents see me as a failure for wanting to join the military.

I've come from the system. Statistically I should have been a failure...yet here I am with 2 college diplomas and soon to start my military application. Everyone has their story and their struggle. Thank you for sharing your story Nicky. I hope it helps some kids realize they can get out.

Brother, I completely feel you on this. How/why I ended up joining the Navy: I was a union Ironworker from 2006-2010. From all of 2009 through September 2010 I worked a total of 15 weeks. Work was slow, and as an apprentice, you cannot get your own work, nor can you boom out to other locals. My girlfriend at the time broke up with me in the spring of ‘10 because her brothers and dad did not like me, not because I had done anything wrong but because I was not affluent as they were (I drove a busted up 93 Grand Cherokee Laredo, which her mom thought was trashy... I was 24). We had bought a home together months before and seemed to be doing well. Fuck me, right? I ended up having to move in with my oldest sister who wanted $300/wk to cover food and electricity in her one bedroom duplex. I slept in the basement in a room that was half-assedly built that had no heat, no a/c, and was extremely depressing. My sleep schedule went from waking up at 0500 and usually in bed by 2200-2300, to going to bed at 0800-1000 and waking up at 1800-1900. Keep in mind that I was not working, but going to the union hall when I could afford to, on the last tier of unemployment (getting $100/wk from it, to which $50 went to gas, the other $50 to either food or car insurance [yeah... I had to decide at least once a month whether or not I was going to eat, or be legal to drive]), and I slept in a dingy basement room; all while being expected to pay $1200/mo to my sister who was almost never home but was out partying/drinking all the time. I went to the nearest recruiter and signed up. It got to the point where my unemployment completely ran out, work was still dried up, and I would basically go a day or two without eating. This happened while I was in DEP. the week before I left, my sister was threatening to kick me out, my family and friends generally could not help me nor really would help me because I had no way to pay them. I could not afford to put gas in my car, and I was essentially starving. To say that first boot camp meal was absolutely bomb ass good is an understatement. Had I not swallowed my pride and enlisted, I would probably have long since been a permanent fixture in a graveyard. Those last two years were so depressing and hopeless; nothing I did to improve my situation seemed to help, it only made it worse. I truly thank God (at the time I didn’t really fully understand nor believe in a higher power) looking back at that time for providing the means for me to better myself. It was my choice to join, and I regret nothing that has happened since. It was truly THE most pivotal point in my life where you either choose to thrive, or choose to die.

Shiiiidd man, I have mad respect for this guy, I was 19 and going to college when my brother whom I was living with started doing meth, I didn't approve of his life style and he booted me out at gun point, I had to drop out, was homeless for about a week, then went to a recruiter, I ship out in less than a month, were all gonna look back on our lives, people that join, and see where we came from and not go there, just keep moving forward, for y'all who are looking to escape a shitty situation

Similar story. My parents were addicts and both passed away within 6 weeks of each other back in 2014. At the time I was 22. Ran away to Florida, got married, now I'm divorced and enlisting at 28 Sometimes life just sucks. Embracing the suck is a phrase to apply to life, not just basic.

So basically you were on edge all the time I feel you I was also with my bipolar mother and she was doing drugs and my mom also would "lecture" me talking about random crap always in the middle of the night for hours, I was in 12th grade and I had like 8 credits I was done so I moved out with my aunt and I was 18 and I graduated this year and now im going to a school to get my certification in being an electrician.

Congratulations on getting out of that craziness!! You've accomplished quite a lot since then. Thank you for your service. 'Army Dad' & recently retired Police Officer(31yrs).

This is me right now. Couch hopping, no stability. No family life. I want to serve my country and get a nice footing, stability. Otherwise I don’t know if I can succeed.

currently sleeping on my moms living room floor, training for the navy. life’s been crazy. not complaining but yeah.

Im in the dep program. Escaping from my problems as well.

Glad you're alive Nicky baby.

I'm trying to get away from my step-dad as well. Things get bad with him sometimes. Navy seems like the best way out.

You have a lot to be proud of. You overcame long odds to get where you are today. You have a lot to offer the Navy. Stay in and focus on your goal of becoming an Officer.

Finally graduated from collage, hard to get a Job that i studied and now considering to join the military. Life teached me that most of the time is not going as you expected. But i have too keep focus and learn from it.

Because of WW2 and KOREA I seldom saw my dad and then at 11 he lived with us full time as a peace time sailor (BMC) with all the love and compassion as a recruit company commander and I was his seaman 2/c growing up (before they changed it to Seaman Apprentice). We had little or nothing in common, he didn't like or want kids and I felt that. The good part was that instead of falling apart and blaming all my problems on them I pushed myself to get good grades, enlist in the navy and make chief in 7 years, and use the GI bill to be the first in my family to graduate college. Thanks, dad, wish we could have been closer but at 80 I am happy with the end results. Endless thanks to mom for all her love, best mom ever. I know I was really a lucky kid.

Love ya man! Ooh-rah! Doc Up! HM here, RN & Paramedic. You will outlive all your demons! The best revenge is success brotha! Carry on! Scars are proof whatever tried to kill you wasn’t strong enough!

You hit my heart! I’m looking to save myself from that past I had already lived. I’m 25 years old and been homeless twice. I had a lot of turmoil, that just warped my head man. I appreciate your story, and I won’t share my experience to take away your moral of this video. I hope to excel at my ASVAB! I am aiming for Navy too.

Man you had it tough! My story is so much more simple. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, aka the Mormon church. It doesn't say anywhere in our doctrine or commandments that military life is a sin, but the culture of the church states that all men must do these things: serve a church mission, go to college, get married before you turn 23, earn six figures in your career, and have at least 5 kids. If you're a man that doesn't do these things, then many other members, especially in Utah, will see you as flawed, unfaithful to God, and a lesser person. If you're a girl that marries a man like this, then people see you as not having high enough expectations for life, and expect you to be miserable throughout the marriage. I repeat, this is not our doctrine, but it has become our culture. After graduating high school I did serve a 2 year mission in Detroit and it was awesome; the photo you see on my profile was from early 2014 on a street in Detroit. I would go back and do it again if the church allowed it. When I returned home I desired to enlist in the Navy like I had been wanting since I was 16, but everybody encouraged me to go to college. I felt as if God expected me to go to college and get married just like all of my friends were doing. I never wanted to go to college, I never wanted to marry, but I felt that I should try. So I made a deal with God: I would go to college and really try a relationship with three girls; if I married any of them I would continue my education. But if none of the relationships worked out, then I would quit college and enlist. That was summer 2015 when I made that deal. 3 years later, and 3 failed relationships later, I am now sworn into the US Navy and earning my contract as an Explosive Ordnance Disposal technician, and I have never felt such a strong rush of excitement in my life as now. I'm so pumped that I'm finally going through with this, and because of my college credits I'm starting as an E-3. And I truly feel that I have God's support in doing this. I haven't told everybody I know that I'm joining the Navy, but I can tell you that my grandma and one of my aunts were very unhappy with my decision to join. Grandma still thinks the Navy is in WW2 and my aunt thinks it's still in Vietnam, both of them were concerned about marriage and a degree. But after my recruiter came to visit and answered all of my grandma's questions, she's much more excited now that she knows the Navy is a very peaceful branch and that I'll be able to earn my degree while in there. As far as marriage goes I simply tell her that it's something I've never really wanted, so I don't care what married life is like for a sailor. I'm certain others will protest my decision, but I'll simply say "you don't pay any of my bills, so your opinion really isn't a factor in any of this." But I am excited that I'm finally going through with this dream I've had for over 8 years now.

Thanks for sharing man, I’m glad you got out of that toxic situation and have a great future ahead of you now.

Trying to escape away from my mother and just pass my asvab so i can get to my journey started and plus ive been living in Harford county for almost 20 years and its like a box 📦 that you cannot get out of thats why im joining the Navy

glad you made it out safe, look what you become. You did good nick.

Great video. We appreciate the honesty, buddy! You make your KZfaq fam proud!

Thank you for sharing about your family history and how it affected your life choices.... that took guts and it can help other young people as they struggle to make life choices without parental guidance!

Amazing video bro you truly are a god sent more power and blessings to you NICKYMGTV! The only thing preventing me from chasing my dream to enlist is my bad habit of not knowing how to study. I feel like I'm alone despite the number of people around me. I don't want anything bad to happen before I can muster the strength and motivation to exercise, study, get clean. God knows how much I'd wanna leave now. I sleep outside in the back yard I feel your story. I wish I could have someone who would mentor and motivate me. I think that's what I need.

Just thought I'd pop my story in too. I was a corpsman many years ago. Nice to know others had similar stories. My father was career Army and in WWll. He was a confirmed bachelor till he met my mother who had 2 daughters they are 15 & 14 yrs. older than me. My father was 37 when my brother was born and 39 when I was. My mother died suddenly when we were 5 & 3. Her lost plus maybe PTSD and he lost his mind. We did heavy work all day everyday and were randomly beaten for as long as I can remember. He told us we were useless pu**y's, and would never amount to anything. We were scared all the time. At 16 my brother was 5'7" and weighed 75lbs. One sister talked him into letting my brother go live with her. I was alone with him for a year till I ran away at 16 and also went to live with her. Not a good situation she had 4 kids and her husband kept trying to sleep with me. My brother joined the Navy and I did too 6 months later. I was 17 and she was happy to sign the papers and get rid of me. Best decision we ever made. He was a lifer I got out and became a paramedic. We laugh that boot camp was a breeze we'd done this all our life. The military can be a life saver while giving you direction and maturity.

Trying to get in the NAVY with kinda the same situation. Thank you for sharing your story Sir.

Man. Much respect for sharing this story. And thank you for being vulnerable, as a man, it’s taboo to be honest and vulnerable. Thank you. Hopefully it’s helps anyone who may be in the same situation speak up too.

Thanks for sharing! You are not alone in these un-ideal childhood situations.

Glad you stuck with your guns and continued on with your life. Always stay positive and keep your head up!

Nicky, you're an inspiration to others for not giving up, and finding a way through life, and look where you are now. You should be proud of your achievements.

Crazy story man. Sounds a lot like my home life growing up. Thanks for sharing. You should feel proud of what you've done for yourself, despite the circumstances you came from. Wishing you the best for you and your family.

And even though I’m going to enlist in the Army, I like your videos and all your informative information. Thank you!

You’re a very strong man 🙌🏻 many blessings coming your way

Damn, that story really hits home...my father is an alcoholic and has TBI as well as anger issues...nobody can reason with him anymore, and that’s a huge reason that I’m joining the military...work a crap job and live with my parents as I try to get through college, or join the military...it’s obvious. I’m glad you were willing to come out with your story in such detail. Anyone should be proud to call you their son.

Wow man nick this is super relatable. I’m in Maryland too man literally almost same situation parents aren’t really supportive and it’s time for me to gtf out of here. It’s crazy how sometimes in your life you may feel it’s only happening to you then find a story like this to relate to. You’re a good guy man and you made the right decision. Hope family life gets better for you if it’s still salvageable if not then hey man you can create your own. Thanks for this video it takes a lot to open up like this.

Also, MY DUDE. Thank You for sharing! It feels good to know I'm not the only one. I got the hell out at first with college (had a summer camp job in the summers so I was never home then either), then I worked as an Int'l School Teacher overseas for 11 years(barely went back home), and now I'm done with teaching (Education is a farse) and going into the Army for Intel. Sometimes we need to be stuck, for a time, in situations that show us exactly what we don't want out of life. Then, you make plans, walk out the door and DO NOT look back. Time to put 100000% into our own freedom and show the world what we've got.

I appreciate this, man. I'm trying to get out of a nuts situation too, I'm looking at the very likely possibility of being homeless if I don't. But you gave me the motivation I needed to keep trying today by being brave and sharing your story. I've been down in myself, but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger so I'll just keep getting stronger in spite of obstacles in my way, just like you did. Thank you, Nicky 😊🙏

Happy to hear your story!! you've grown from a very dysfunctional family..Always remember where you cane from to use a motivation. I hope you've mended the relationship with your family and that they support you

Thank you for sharing your story man.

You the MAN Nicky. !! Nothing but respect I joined because I wanted to leave home,like everyone else. My High School class, the guys joined the military, or went to college.gals went to beauty school,became secretaries, or went to college none of which appealed to me. Guidance counselor tried to steer me to college,which I nor my mom could afford. He was shocked my wanting to go military,only female in the class to do so. Long story short, I was in for 8 years,it was good times and not so good,but it taught me self confidence, self discipline,and responsibility, plus I got to see Europe on the cheap (lol). I took everything I learned in the Army into civilian life and has made me a better person. Nicky, nothing but respect for your honesty. May it be all your desires be met and nothing but blessings for you.

Nicky when i heard your story I couldn’t believe the similarities between us. My dad and step mom... whatever, we had a similar situation with homelessness and being young and unguided and domestic violence blahblahblah. Im crying as i write this because pain is real. But thank you for sharing, my wife is Dominican. I just heard so many things ring true. I live with my wife and her parents in their house. Things will get better.

I leave for basic March 25th 2020 and I just want to let you know how inspiring all of your videos are to me and I hope I run into you in the fleet!! Thank you so much!

I’m sorry that happened to you and at the same time I am so happy to see that you made it out of that situation

i never sad this video, is so sad dude, i am just so glad that you overcome all those situations.

Toxic families suck. Stay in, put in your work, leave your legacy and move on. Proud of service members like you.

Bro love this video thanks for sharing your story.

Thanks for sharing. Very close to home with the family stuff

I been watching your channel for a while and respect your opinion on things from your perspective branch. I was Army and we all have a lot in common. We all need each other.

This is tough to hear, but I'm glad you were able to achieve something in the end by joining the military. You've help a bunch of young studs on KZfaq. Keep up the great work!

Great story. Glad it's working out for the best.

This video and your stories made me subscribe and now I know I'm not alone. I'm dying to go to the Navy in waiting on my social and I need a waiver for some legal trouble I had hopefully I get it so I can escape from this place.

Thank u for this video it really helped inspire me and relat to my situation

Ya know what's sad? Like myself, a lot of people are trying to escape toxic males wether they are parental figures or otherwise. MEN NEED TO GET THEIR ACTS TOGETHER.

I think we all have our own horror stories of Why We join military I joined the Marines because it was better than home

I ship out for the marines January 27th. Honestly man this hit home. I’m homeless with no car bouncing around from friend to friend. I’m glad you made it out. I hope and pray to God that I can stay strong and do the same. Thank you for your inspiration and help. I love watching you bro your a good guy.

Thanks for sharing and way to be brave

Nicky, thanks for sharing, I'm sure that wasn't fun to reflect back on. The success you have had in the military is a testament your hard work and strong work ethic. Your channel does a great service not only to the Navy but also our nation. Thank you for your commitment. All the best to you.

Thanks for sharing your story bro, I'm tryna change my situation to(similar to yours). I know how shitty it feels when your mom chooses her boyfriend or husband over their own flesh and blood smh. But I'm glad life hit me with that reality sooner rather than later.. keep doing you bro💯

I'm glad you shared this. Dont ever treat anyone like this. It makes me sick to see a parent(s) like this. I know how strong you had to be. Many join the military because of this type of poor parenting. When young people have been kicked in the dirt- look out- they have the incredible strength to succeed like no one has ever seen. To all who have had this happen- dont let that family history repeat itself. Greatness is always born out of adversity!

Nicky, my mom OD'd in 2001. In my 30s I got addicted due to back/shoulder pain from 15+ years of civilian EMS and firefighting. You made the right choice.

Nick thanks for sharing we’re very similar 💪🏾 motivational man

I got my heart broke and recently graduated college with no love interest or no idea what to do with life. With a military family background. I'm deciding to go this route.

Yo Nicky, my wife has a very similar story as yours as far as shitty upbringing goes, and I just gotta say I'm so impressed by her as a grown woman and a mom as to how she figured her shit out and adjusted. She works with autistic children now as a therapist and she is the best person I know by far. Just saying that to say I see how hard it is to rebound from a less than ideal (shit show) childhood and even though I don't know you, I'm proud of you for becoming your own man and being conscious about the type of person you want to be. Much respect man. I'm shipping out to army basic in Feb 2020, I watch lots of your videos, they have helped me a lot in making my decisions the right way. Keep doing your thing man, glad you got to where you are now, as hard as it may have been. I really believe you're stronger for it.

Unfortunate to have had those type of circumstances right there. I hope you are doing alright now.

Hey, Corpsman brother! I joined back in 1997. The reason why I joined was because I was doing miserable in community college in the rad tech program and felt like I was going nowhere in life. I actually sent out emails to both Air Force and Navy recruiters the same day. The only way I was going to sign a contract is if I could get something guaranteed in the medical field. The Navy contacted me first and I was promised Corpsman "A" school so I signed my life away. I was only a couple weeks from graduating Corps school which (was still at GLAKES) and my instructor said that the top five students would get a choice in duty location. I graduated third in my class. On my dream sheet, I think I chose a couple shore commands and a ship, but EVERYONE in my class ended up going to FMSS. My first duty station was 2d MARDIV with an infantry battalion. Needless to say, I was not a happy Corpsman. After my first couple of years, green-side finally grew on me and I transferred over to Headquarters Battalion for my final year. I transferred to NAVHOSPGLAKES in April 2001 with my new shiny FMF pin (also had the ribbon). I stayed there for about five years before I got HYT out as an E4 (even though I was in the 93rd percentile on my exam). I switched immediately over to Navy Reserves and picked up HM2 on my first exam on reserve side. I was happy I picked up rank finally, but unhappy that it wasn't on AD side. Nobody told me either that I could have gone back to AD either...failure on CCC. Anyway, I finally retired in 2020 as HM1 (Chief board eligible), again due to HYT. Overall, my Navy career was awesome. I traveled to so many different places, met people from all over the world, made awesome friends, and even got my Bachelors of Science in Health Sciences completely for free due to the Post 9/11 GI Bill. I had a lot of ups and downs in my 22 years of service, but wouldn't do anything different.

holy crap this is exactly what i’m going through. i have no where else to go and nothing else to do

Great video man. I hated my step dad scenario/Life. Probably 20000% of the reason I joined.

Love this channel

Damn. This hits close to home. My brother joined the army and graduated 3 days ago from basic. I leave for the navy in 51 days. Been looking forward to this for a long time

I enlisted in 1999 to escape toxic parents who never taught me basic life skills and do defy my college advisors in my high school. My parents were okay with me enlisting (although they never showed up to my boot camp graduation, much less told anyone else about it, which made me hate them even more). My teachers treated me like I was a second class citizen when they found out I was in DEP. These days? I retired in 2019 with pension and disability and am working as a federal employee in cybersecurity. Can't say it was a bad decision.

I know this videos a year old but this resonated with me a lot because I’m currently in a similar situation. I also have a stepdad that has a lot of anger issues and I would constantly feel that I had to walk on eggshells around him or he would get set off and my mother knew it was a problem but she didn’t really know what to do about it. I had arguments with him from time to time and they were big ones but they never really resulted in anything except for one time he did kick me out of the house for about two days and I had to couch surf. Until this July when we had gone on a family vacation to Florida where there was a big fight between my stepdad and my other family members including my grandmother which had to do with my stepdad being completely disrespectful and telling my grandmother to “go to hell” for something that was so stupid that she never deserved to have that said to her. So instead of going home with my stepdad and my mother and my little brother, I ended up driving back home from Florida with my grandmother. After that I just couldn’t stay in a house with my stepdad anymore, it was already shitty living constantly on edge with him around and after he disrespected my grandmother and other family I knew I couldn’t go back and be around him. I then was offered some places to stay and ultimately decided to move in with my grandmother for the time being. These events kind of pushed me to want to join the military, to just get away. I first tried to join the Air Force because my uncle is in the Air Force and he kind of influenced me to go to that branch until a complication came because I was diagnosed with mild ADD at 12 (I’m 19 now) and medicated on and off for some years even though I haven’t taken medication for a year because I function normally without medication, I guess the Air Force needed me to be off of medication for longer than a year because I got disqualified from the Air Force. Which brings me to now where I’m trying to join the Navy and currently getting my papers together to be able to join with my ADD history. I pray to god that I get through this time because I need to get out.

I totally understand this man.

love your video man

Good thing you got out of a bad situation & were able to get an education in the medical field where you can help others. You have reinvented yourself.

I'm very sorry to hear about your family problem.

God bless you nick

Just want to say I have a similar situation. I too had a step dad who married my mother who had two kids. I was always walking on eggshells and my stepdad said he was going to find a way to kill me and get away with it and I was really scared. I was doing every thing I could to get out of school early (am 17) and was going to graduate in December. I was going to move in with some friends and just find a way to survive. Luckily my moms grandparents took me in and I’m on the path to joining the air force. hopefully I’ll get TACP. This story hit home and thank you for sharing. PS have a uncle who just moved away from Fayetteville and is trying to move back. Thank you for your openness.

I'm also from North Carolina who just left from a toxic family, deadass got up and bought me a plane ticket to Vegas, where I'm staying with a friend trying to put my life together. But I was thinking of joining the FBI, but I'll need a Bach in Criminal justice(which takes four year's). Go to school through the Navy; get my degree w/ them by becoming a MA, then most likely stay for an extra two or three year's(maybe apply during my extra third year in service).Hopefully I'll start next year. Getting my GED right now

Man that sucks, I'm form sanford NC, its about 30 mins south of Fayetteville nc. I'm losing weight to go in to the navy as a corpmen too.

This video really struck a cord with me thank you for sharing. I to had a bad teenage upbringing with parents I can only describe as zombie parents. I wanted to join the military at 18 but didn't. Long story so I'll keep it short. I'm now 51 and applied to the Canadian Armed Forces as a Tanker. I know I'm old but you can join up to 57 in Canada with mandatory retirement at 60. Wish I had joined at 18 but maybe it's my destiny to join as an old treacherous basterd!

I understand. I didn't have the educational guidance in high school either. I had 1 yr of PSEO college, & had a job outside the home since I was12 yrs old. I got married at age 18, after I graduated. I worked two jobs until 4 yrs into the marriage we began having our kiddos. I continued working full time while my spouse decided he would go to school full time and not work, all the while being critical of me, abusive, sabotaging, etc. Fast fwd..11yrs , I was exhausted. I was essentially single parenting my 3 young boys. I made a difficult decision to divorce. I didn't ask for any support, as I didn't believe it would help. I continued working in my career, but my industry came to a halt. Now, 6 yrs post divorce, I need the same thing as you. I am changing my career, furthering my education(plan on being a "lifer" in the military),and trying to get a stronger foundation for my kiddos' future. Thank you for sharing your journey.

Love you Nicky! *Hugs & kisses*

I’m trying to escape to bro I understand, and I never knew you are from Maryland, I live in Silver Spring,Maryland. I’m sorry you went through this bro 💯

Nicky did you go back and said, "Look I made it".

I thought I was the only one. I'm joining to escape from my abusive family.

U are the most clutch you tuber for this stuff

You really had a tough situation. My parents signed for me to join the Navy when I was 17 b/c we had no money for college and the draft was in effect then. The Navy had a Kitty Cruiser program, three years active duty 18 - 21, so I really joined to avoid the Army.

I’ll try joining after finishing with college, I was disqualified from the army and my recruiter recommended the navy! If it’s also denied, joining the French Foreign Legion, hopefully the pandemic will ease up to join! I just want to do some self absolution that I want to take care of; but mostly try out career options to benefit my broadcasting career!

Glad you make it. Hope you never experience something like that again.

Bro I am currently in the same EXACT situations with my mom and her girlfriend. And this is why I'm joining the Navy as well

Inspiring. Thanks for sharing, man. May God continue to bless you richly in Jesus name.

Crazy, im from the Fayetteville area, now live near bwi airport where you flew out from lol. Enlisting in the usmc any day now

Didn’t realize some people live like this, glad that you got out

Im joining the navy and live in Baltimore md too. I didnt have it as hard of a process though man. I just thought it was cool we came from the same area

Sorry you had to go through that. Wish I could talk to you about my situation.

Somehow stumbled on this, Dad OCD PTSD, Mom, missed the picture here, should of been the Protector (selfish!) Teens are expected to decide on College, Military, Trade School. Just so they can come out better than their parents. Without that push, one can still be at home and become nothing as one ages with regrets. Is what I have learned! :) DREAM BIG!!!!

I can relate to “walking on eggshells” in my own home Mybparents love to drink and smoke and Cuss and I don’t wanna day act like hillbillys but You get the idea I’ve always been a goofy guy but growing up 19 now about to graduate high school I have seen that I can get structure displine and Honor and a lot of character traits and escape this crappy home life I have and I just wanna look back and say holy crap I did it and I wanna be able to do my service and go to college and be somebody none of my family didn’t but I will change that I will not be a bad apple im hoping the military can give me that discipline

Strong man