The Secret of My Endurance by Charles Bukowski

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2 жыл бұрын

Music: Jóhann Jóhannsson - Divine Objects (Pt. 2)
Speaker: Tom O' Bedlam (SpokenVerse)
Full poem:
I still get letters in the mail, mostly from cracked-up
men in tiny rooms with factory jobs or no jobs who are
living with whores or no woman at all, no hope, just
booze and madness.
Most of their letters are on lined paper
written with an unsharpened pencil
or in ink
in tiny handwriting that slants to the
left
and the paper is often torn
usually halfway up the middle
and they say they like my stuff,
I’ve written from where it’s at, and
they recognize that. truly, I’ve given them a second
chance, some recognition of where they’re at.
it’s true, I was there, worse off than most
of them.
but I wonder if they realize where their letters
arrive?
well, they are dropped into a box
behind a six-foot hedge with a long driveway leading
to a two car garage, rose garden, fruit trees,
animals, a beautiful woman, mortgage about half
paid after a year, a new car,
fireplace and a green rug two-inches thick
with a young boy to write my stuff now,
I keep him in a ten-foot cage with a
typewriter, feed him whiskey and raw whores,
belt him pretty good three or four times
a week.
I’m 59 years old now and the critics say
my stuff is getting better than ever.
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@octaviuskane1941 2 жыл бұрын

He knows the reason his work is getting popular and it's the main reason he wrote this. There's more pain, suffering and confusion in the world now and more people find his work appealing. For him becoming famous means the world is getting darker.

@fanatasiastordahl382 Жыл бұрын

He's dead af

@ezye97 Жыл бұрын

@@fanatasiastordahl382and in modern era we all are dead. we just sedate ourselves and there are people and things that sedate you for profit. And one day, time runs out. Lucky are those who don't realize this and go out.

@burgerland5754 Жыл бұрын

Based. Also, the whirled whirl on the world, they're the whirled because the world whirls. The planet, Planet Earth, a plane within a plane, is our environment, our reality... Spinning balls are for dizzy people. GL HF out there.

@AndrewStone-vd9kn Жыл бұрын

He died in 94. No excuse to be this dumb with Google these days.

@AndrewStone-vd9kn Жыл бұрын

@@ezye97 dude stop it your not being deep, stfu

@Reshi_X_Amadeus 8 ай бұрын

" with a young boy to write my stuff now, " i think the young boy is his inner child , he is 59 years old but he keeps abusing or relieving his abuse and won't let the young boy heal..its sad because he could let the boy out and finally escape the pain but its beatiful coz he knows without that pain and trauma he wouldn't be able to write anymore and they need him to keep writting..so the secret to his endurance is that he keeps himself in pain so those in pain can feel seen and heard ..he admits in the beginning that its no longer where he is, thats why he lets the young boy write his stuff...the bluebird he keeps locked up in his cage

@user-zc4hg4qg7j 4 ай бұрын

You should comment on more of these videos

@emmanueladam8271 4 ай бұрын

@@user-zc4hg4qg7jyes i agree, i never gad that point of view

@The_Musicman001 2 ай бұрын

Beautiful 😢

@mic4902 Жыл бұрын

"You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villan." Excellent take on that, here.

@yasminyasser9386 9 ай бұрын

This guy is a mad genius. I love how he described everything like you can truly see it.

@DSensitize Жыл бұрын

That "young boy" is his genius.

@user-zc4hg4qg7j 2 ай бұрын

The young boy is him. Trauma stops growth

@jenereviensjamais Жыл бұрын

"Paroxysmal anxiety is the jolt of my conscious outbursts. When suddenly I see everything, everything becomes calm. Anxiety is the cry of the angels. They urge me to look before it is too late."

@IlGattoCheFuma 7 ай бұрын

wtf you on 'bout homy

@redguerilla8248 Жыл бұрын

They say they like my 'stuff' haha, i can feel his disdain for his very essence, his heart, his soul, his life, being portrayed to him as "stuff"

@scottjackson1259 2 жыл бұрын

Better than ever because with age comes the realization that there is no hope just darkness. Embrace that darkness or it'll breed madness. Realize that it's better to lead a lost soul out of the darkness than to point out that there is light.

@melodyclark4347 2 жыл бұрын

Wow. You nailed it.

@jgjgj7119 Жыл бұрын

hope comes with young age, cynicism comes from old age- is there no in-between? Are we just doomed to think through our hatred, trauma, depression, or what we identify as ‘natural’? Old age has only made people more tired and weaker, and yet it’s wisdom to only give up and live your life as another ‘martyr’? This kind of mentality causes lives to be ruined, and gives another generation issues that they never should of have. From my perspective, you are just conceited mad men that love to live off your own moans and groans.

@AragonaAlessandro Жыл бұрын

Preach!!!

@juanpablosanchezaveleyra6454 Жыл бұрын

The idea that there is no hope, but darkness only comes from the tough that you are not part of the rest, that you are alone and only your so called life is what matters. In my opinion that's not the case, when you realize that there's something greater than your own life, you see there's no darkness, only hope.

@juanpablosanchezaveleyra6454 Жыл бұрын

@@darknightsoup Yes of course, one first need to embrace the darkest within and around you, that is what Jung called individuation. One first need to observe the world as it really is, then decide which way to swing to. You say darkness in our time is inescapable, it seems like that, but every dark age has an end, and that is also inescapable. The time frames of such changes are by far bigger than those of human lives, that why it is so hard to picture, but we all know inside how the world should be and what we ought to do to get it.

@jimw.4161 3 ай бұрын

Brilliant! But a Charles Bukowski poem just isn't a Charles Bukowski poem without the magnificent voice of Tom o'Bedlam. 👍

@davido6278 2 жыл бұрын

damn this guy could write

@aaronquitugua372 Жыл бұрын

Hope there isn't any arrogance or an air superiority and me speaking now, but I'm only speaking directly to those who are able to identify the disconnect and might seem a bit lost by this, so here it goes... Whatever your idea of "better" might be, in whatever shade of gleaming light that keeps barely lit for you way off in the distance of your minds sight, that darkness You're feeling right now is sacrificial. Everybody's looking for a way out, some are just looking for an easier way, but if you genuinely are looking for something very particular, I don't know. Maybe somewhere between secret and taboo, here's the answer. You have to keep a part of you yourself change away in some small shack, kept hidden far from the world and that's the trick, hidden, not kept from! Pain is inevitable. You display it, you become either the laughing stock, a pity party, or worse. Worse yet, you become forgotten. People are always looking at others wondering how they did it, if they even have what it takes to do it, but it's so damn simple and it's making me cry that its only just hitting you now. What I'm trying to say is, when YOU decide how much of you you're willing to stifle, mute, mutilate etc, and intentionally not grow or heal or improve it, THEN you're allowed the room to grow the rest of you. Ps- I hope you found this in time I wish I would've. Aaron

@parveenjoshi8423 11 ай бұрын

Thanks "Aaron"❤🌸☮️

@JorJorIvanovitch 10 ай бұрын

Bukowski was abused as a boy. I think this poem narrates how writing about his pain, trauma, and twisted psyche that resulted from his childhood is what connects with people. His suffering made him the artist he is to speak with authority about the dark impulses and experiences of humans, especially men in our society with particular backgrounds and experiences.

@user-zc4hg4qg7j 2 ай бұрын

This the best comment I've ever read on a Bukowski video. I don't read them anymore because most miss the point and I find it annoying. Thank you

@cloudlion7427 2 жыл бұрын

Human darkness paradox. could feed the ink industry forever.

@AI-Hallucination 15 күн бұрын

Do not be fooled he worked hard every night on his craft and read vicariously he is a master of his craft takes dedication no whiskey

@jasonx-ray3921 8 ай бұрын

Well, I will say what everyone else doesn't know they are thinking, John Cogs knows how to put a Charles Bukowski video together. Salute.

@cassiaomia7584 2 жыл бұрын

I love the content in this page. please don't stop posting!!! hugs and kisses

@tshepopitas7034 Жыл бұрын

genuinely love this piece

@julioviloria3289 2 жыл бұрын

Out of the blue and in to the black

@user-hj6bb7qm9r 7 ай бұрын

Food for thought ✨️

@vinceri260 2 жыл бұрын

Splendid

@jjtom9199 Жыл бұрын

Thank you

@perlaquiroz6060 2 жыл бұрын

Amazing

@ES-wz6db 12 күн бұрын

Great visuals

@user-zc4hg4qg7j 4 ай бұрын

The only thing nore depressing than Bukowskis works are reading the comments on KZfaq written by ppl that either missed the point completely or think they are being insightful when stating the obvious

@JimmyJamesJimbo 5 ай бұрын

Lol I love this poem

@SWW_Productions 10 ай бұрын

Remarkable

@kellycuckoo3143 Жыл бұрын

You’re in my head.

@attack3 2 жыл бұрын

how many of you can understand the torture of life`s irony this man endures??? HE DOES NOT WISH TO BE FAMOUS, US TO LIKE HIS POETRY BECAUSE IT WRITES ABOUT THE FALL OF THE HUMAN SPIRIT AS A WHOLE. I bet he wishes y`all tell him he was wrong, he was a paria, he was a joke. But..

@A.G.Birajdar 2 жыл бұрын

Wow

@kinhamid9665 2 жыл бұрын

Funny how if this were read by Bukowski himself without the music, it would be hilarious

@shiddy. Жыл бұрын

I keep a copy of him in my head and just had him read this in his own voice and you're right - and I love hearing it both ways

@shiddy. Жыл бұрын

btw I found him reading this during his last reading in 1980 - it's on KZfaq and worth watching

@lasherslaugh4752 2 жыл бұрын

A pencil . An unsharpened fucking pencil ! Who does that ?

@cherylcaardillo1702 Жыл бұрын

Reality.....people who have nothing.......all over 3rd world countries....the world is a big place

@msimika_III Жыл бұрын

🤣🤣

@wenom159 Жыл бұрын

i love it - just tell me why did you slow it down? with 1.25 speed it gets better :)

@richardburns1840 Жыл бұрын

Heavenly Soulmates Amongst the Cosmost. The cellustrial creator, Dips into metaphysical energy, forces and drawals a handful. then manipulates, forms,and shapes a celestial entity. This entity is to embark on the grandest journey. To become conscious. Beforehand, it's divided in to halfs. Then thrusted and binded into two separate, and physical organic anatomys. From here fourth on. the two half will search for one another. Tis is the great test. Pain,suffering, and miss direction. This will be the Instruments implemented Against, the aforementioned Halfs. A testament to their own existence. Will the knowledge , and awareness of knowing deep from with in they are a half of a whole. Do they Possess enough measurable marks of tenacity and strength to prevail and overcome to become whole.

@henrys428 5 ай бұрын

If you can't find anything good in this life... Write something good.

@WordsofWisdom-Inspiration 2 жыл бұрын

Hi John, do you have an emailadress with which I can reach you?

@HB-wl8id 6 ай бұрын

Back ground music?

@arielleHT Жыл бұрын

Narrator sounds like it's his last days. shit he made me feel like it's mine.

@2104T34 17 күн бұрын

Интересно чтобы они заметили в Высоцком? Я, признаться, сразу не врубился, что мальчик это он сам в детстве

@killa3468 Жыл бұрын

🎉 be as you are who said anyway else 😢

@killa3468 Жыл бұрын

Be well aware LIFE and then …. I write u back when I get back humans

@invictusmaneo464 Жыл бұрын

Who are living with whores or no woman at all :D Takže než žít jako vy... To je ta první varianta, tak žiju radši tu druhou a to taky jenom kvůli vám! Dokud vy budete v mém okolí, budu sám! Je to neuvěřitelné, ale je to fakt! Tohle jste opravdu dokázali. To vám musím nechat! Ale nic netrvá věčně. Ani vy... Takže já budu sám... A pak jednou, až vy nebudete v mém okolí, já budu žít šťastně a poklidně. Opravdu! Protože jste jenom nemocný. A duševním chorobám, jak je známo, neporučíš.

@invictusmaneo464 Жыл бұрын

Neporučíš, no :D Nemůžete si pomoct :D

@anindanahiyan8660 11 ай бұрын

The young boy is Charles Bukowski

@user-zc4hg4qg7j Ай бұрын

🤦

@helmepodesarius2198 10 ай бұрын

I missed him. I missed the man who was me. And I’m sure he’d hate me. Good.

@Tunderb 2 ай бұрын

The music is really annoying.

@prabhakar3725 8 күн бұрын

Call uthaogi taab na koi chance,tum saab kuch rok ke rakhi hon . Upper se mujhe torture kar rahi hon .

@lamontmariam2923 2 жыл бұрын

【ｐｒｏｍｏｓｍ】

@JTroker Жыл бұрын

Music is too loud 👎.

@darkpoetik5375 Жыл бұрын

Bukowski is proof that Persistance is more important than talent...His poems are ok, but they're just basic...there's no mystery to his writings....he was one of those writers that just kept putting himself out there until someone saw him and took a chance on him...I only got 2/3 into the novel women before i gave up...I couldn't deal with the misogyny....he's not for everybody and definately not for me....

@bradchambers4229 Жыл бұрын

I have a few of his books and find myself mostly skipping anything written about women. It's a big part of him unfortunately, but I don't think he ever meant or wanted to be a role model.

@darkpoetik5375 Жыл бұрын

@@bradchambers4229 i am not a male feminist, nor a white knight...I believe in treating women with respect...but his misogyny was psychotic...

@bradchambers4229 Жыл бұрын

@@darkpoetik5375 There's an interview where he pretty much hits his wife in it too. He definitely had psychotic episodes. It's a grim look into a different part of society. Someone who was abused, becoming an abuser. He was unfiltered and smart, but also insane and abusive. I think that's who he resonates with the most though, the abused, the people who never were happy. Personally, I love some of his poetry because of the nihilism, and then the hope in others; the duality of the absurdist struggle. But he's such a troubled person that it's hard to be a fan in that sense.

@darkpoetik5375 Жыл бұрын

@@bradchambers4229 reading bukowski is like watching a train wreck, you want to ignore him, but he's too interesting for that...I would never hit a woman, but I won't put up with their bullshit or be a pushover, i just walk away and ignore them...I may read him again...

@Ryanlikesbroken Жыл бұрын

You haven’t lived dark enough to understand. It’s ok.