I COMPLETELY relate to this! I married my high school sweetheart at the very early age of 18. We have an almost 2 year old together and when we were teenagers we used to go to church together. As adults we were both in discipleship groups, him in a men's and I was in a women's group. I knew he wasn't reaching for the Lord and tapping into EVERYTHING the Lord has/had for him so I started praying DESPARETELY for his soul and his life. I remember standing in my kitchen and ignorantly (however I do not regret it, but IT WAS IGNORANT) declared war on his oppressors. I actually prayed aloud, "if you don't let him go, then prepare for war." AND BOY DID THEY! I remember shouting at him in frustration and desperation "WAKE UP! WAKE UP!" Later he told me he was so "sick and tired of hearing me talk about God ALL THE TIME!" I actually chuckled and not in a "haha, I'm getting on your nerves" type of chuckle, but because I just KNEW in that moment I was wearing down the enemy. Later, God brought that up to me to help me process it and dive deeper into what I actually heard. The enemy was losing his grip. He was "white knuckling it" having to hold onto him because I was fighting with God on my side! The enemy was getting TIRED, sick and tired of me fighting against him! That was such a big deal for me personally because I have ALWAYS struggled with fear and always have been a door mat for everyone. So to know and to believe that God had empowered me to make my enemy STRIVE to hold on, it was big for me. I started praising and shouting, "THE ENEMY IS AFRAID OF ME! THE ENEMY IS LOSING HIS GRIP!" He ended up ending the relationship and is still pursing his wicked lifestyle. My battle is not over. It's almost over, praise God. Pray if you will as I will for your ex that God would be GLORIFIED first and foremost in their lives and that no matter how dark it gets for them, that the Lord redeems them and that they do submit and surrender themselves over completely to the Lord.

God bless you both, @savannahbean3191 and @angelicacline ❤ Thank you so much for sharing! I'm so encouraged by your testimonies of persistence, love, courage, forgiveness, and faith. I'm partnering with you in believing for God's saving Love to consume the hearts of both of your ex-husbands 💕

@@mandyharris4 thank you so much! 🙏❤️✝️

I can also relate. My husband and I have been best friends 21 years prior to getting married. We've been married 15 years. Last year, he asked for a divorce again. He had asked the year before but later came back and said he didn't want it. This time, he was very cold and selfish. All I could hear God telling me was to love him in spite of. Long story short....it was months of loving the unlovable. The Holy Spirit empowered me to do so. We started our divorce process, separated from our marriage home, and 5 months after, my husband encountered Jesus and begged me to give him another chance. I did. His encounter with Jesus is so evident and I have a new marriage. A new husband. Be encouraged. Continue to love the unlovable and know that anything is possible if you believe.

Sometimes people feel like the only way out is to say the one thing that will hurt you the most. In Ryan’s case, he said he doesn’t love/believe in Jesus. Maybe he truly thinks he feels this way…But maybe he just didn’t have the real words to speak to you. Or the courage to tell you the real reason. Just something to think about. 🥰

I’m a tall red head lol! I’m 6’8”. I am praying for you! For an increase of revelation of God’s word and God’s presence in your life. That you receive a good health report that is cancer free in Jesus name. I know I never met you but I love you!