Since I’ve been off for just 9 days, my energy feels like a drug and my sleep game is solid asf

Nobody knew I was an alcoholic until one day I came home sober.

I was an alcoholic for years, I use to hide vodka in rubbing alcohol and hydrogen peroxide bottles in the bathroom. Anytime I needed a drink, I’d go “take a pee” and swig what I needed. No one knew, and I was destroying myself. Now 8 months sober by the grace of Jesus Christ, my Healer and Redeemer❤️

I haven’t drank alcohol in almost 3 weeks, but I think about it almost every day. Edit, July 2nd 2024: A few weeks after writing this comment, I continued drinking throughout the year, and I realized a few months ago that I am an alcoholic. I have restarted my efforts to quit after a year of failure and lies. I have relapsed so many times, but one day I shall prosper.

I was an alcoholic for 10 years (from age 20-30). Drank pretty much daily. Drank at work, drank at home, drank before family events, before everything. No one ever knew until I got sober

I am 28, just got out of the hospital yesterday diagnosed with fatty liver, pancreatitis, and my gallbladder is filled with “sludge”. Waiting for follow up with doctor tomorrow. I’ve been drinking since I was 21 almost daily.. hoping my doctor will help me get sober. I want to live.

I wish you all the best. My husband died a few months ago of Liver Failure due to alcoholism. He was 56.

I was a raging alcoholic junkie and I quit it all and now I can live. I was vomiting blood and I was shaking so badly that I couldn’t hold a pencil or button my buttons or do anything for myself. I detoxed in the hospital and the nurses treated me much better than I deserved. I’m crying thinking about it and writing this 6 years later. It’s no one else’s fault. You have to take responsibility for yourself and get clean for yourself. If you are doing it for other people it won’t last and you’ll end up worse than before you tried to stop. I wish you the best. I hope you have the support you need. Even though a person must make the changes for themselves, they need support from others. 12 steps is still statistically the most effective way for a person to get clean and sober. The drug abuse is only a symptom of the spiritual malady that keeps addicts and alcoholics(just a specific type of addict but an addict nonetheless) using the drugs they use and staying miserable. 12 steps and the rooms of Narcotics anonymous saved my life and people helped me to do what I could not do alone. May God bless you on this journey.

28 days sober I feel so amazing 🤩 I’m not going to lie though because I like to feel what I’m feeling but I don’t stay there I sometimes drive and think about pulling over to get booze 🥃 but I’ve came too far to turn back now 🙏🏾❤️‍🩹 Happy Healing everyone ❤

Cheers! Addiction is addiction, right ? A junkie hides the spoon, a drunk hides the booze. Same shit, different lives . Cheers ! Clean and sober for a few years here !

Great little video and congrats on your sobriety! My best friend of 40 years died in 2022 due to alcoholism- and she was pretty good at hiding it as well. I'm so glad to see all of the comments here from newly (and not so newly) sober folks. She got sober the year before she passed and tbh I didn't even realize she'd gone back to it until it was too late to help in any significant way. They'd told her at rehab she was at risk for it if she went bk to the booze but she just didn't make it. She sadly passed of wet brain at just shy of 54. What a heart breaking loss it was for her family, me and so many others. Keep on keeping on folks, I for one am so happy you're still with us!

Sober 3+ years now - but when i was at my worst, I was living alone, and STILL hid my vodka lol.

Yeah as a 20-year recovered drug addicts I do understand what you mean about being duplicitous we're such good liars we even convinced ourselves but good on you brother for getting clean and letting people know stay strong

We Alcoholics are the most creative when we try and hide alcohol. If only we put that use to something else.

I’m 20, and currently an alcoholic. Even though my parents know I have an alcohol problem, I still hide it. I always choose to go up to the liquor store when they aren’t home, or pretend I am going out to take pictures when they are home. I always feel guilty. I am slowly lowering my intake.. I am hoping I will be sober soon.

Note to my fellow alkies who are still on the drink: You're not hiding it. Disguise the evidence all you want; your pores and breath don't lie.

Im almost 5 months sober after a month in the hospital with pancreatitus. Ive been an alchoholic for over 20 years. Most of my life. Learning to be sober is a process. The cravings will get less and less. Keep it up everyone. Its better to live. And sobriety is pretty cool when you start putting that time to a better use.

Coming from a 6 year recovering alcoholic, good on ya' mate. The first year for me was a nightmare, but the last 5 years has been pretty easy for me actually. I still think about it every once in a while but not very often. And I also turned my sobriety into creativity and am a woodworker. Cheers my guy

Hiding alcohol… I thought I was so slick with my alcohol hiding strategies until I went to AA and got a topical discussion on hiding booze. I hid booze in water bottles , drinking half pints as I rolled through car washes, toilet tanks… , dead drops about the house... wall hallows… furnace filters.. After I shared my story a man with a new liver told me he put vodka in his windshield washer tank and rerouted the flow to inside the vehicle cabin. He put a tube in his mouth and got a shot anytime he wanted. And that is when I knew I was alcoholic and I was lucky to be alive.

I had a major substanse abuse problem- sober almost 5 years!! Anyway I got GOOD at hiding things. Towards the end of my addiction my family was onto and would constantly try to search my bags. So I figured out how to make hidden pockets either in my bag or some of my clothes. But OMG a whole bottle!!!! It was so exhausting lying all the time. Addiction was my fulltime job so I lied 24/7 about everything. Where I was, what I was doing, the money I spent, even if I was eating enough/spending money on food. I'm so glad I never have to do that again!!! I've also noticed that alot of former/current addicts are super creative, I was an art major in college myself. So glad to see you channeling your energy into something productive & beautiful, lotsa love keep it goin!!! ❤️‍🩹

Being an alcoholic is a full-time job. Hiding booze and hiding drunkenness, trying to map out the night before like a detective, discovering and practicing the most effective ways to recover half the day, and then the rest of the day other than sleeping is just fighting cravings or being buzzed.

I’m so proud of you. I wish my mom would get sober too. Blessings!

Congratulations Steven. I’m so happy that you made it and are living life again. There’s nothing sweeter than breaking the chains that held you captive. I hope you lead a rewarding and peaceful life.

Been sober 2 years now. But it's interesting, because part of the addiction was finding new places to hide it. It was such a thrill to know I'd got away with it again.

Im sober 24 hours 😢 its so hard.

I was addicted to heroin and fentanyl… different hats, you know? I have mad respect for you man! 2 years clean myself, good to see you putting that energy to good use!

I'm coming up 3 years sober . I've been sleeping terrible lately but all good. By the grace of God I'm sober today,employed,married have food and shelter thank you God.

"nobody ever knew" Everyone knows. It's on your breath, you're drunk. Thinking no one knows is the worst lie you can tell yourself. Don't get comfortable.

Been sober for for over 4 years with God’s grace and the help of fellowship. A lot of”days at a time”. Keep it simple.

I’m an alcoholic too and it’s really affected my quality of life. Surprisingly I have no scarring on my liver, but I now have ulcers in my throat due to swigging straight vodka for years and I nearly died of blood loss the other week. Please seek help if you’re addicted.. I beg you. I lost my uncle and his varices burst ( they got patched, but he was too far gone for a transplant). I miss him every day and don’t want to end up like him. He was never aggressive, just obviously unhappy deep down and it’s heart breaking. I’m cheering for everyone fighting this illness ❤ I was the same being sneaky, mixing it in dilute juice and r drinking it out and about from bottles to literally just drinking it from the bottles and everyone could see. I regret those days as it’s a bad impression on kids and families etc.. be the better person and ditch it ❤

Sending you so much love & light! My husband is a alcoholic & while he is way better then before, he only drinks 2 days a week now, he still needs to stop completely. Thanks for sharing & being vulnerable. ❤

Good for you brother! Being honest and transparent can be tough. Been sober for almost 3 years and it's the best thing that ever happened to me. I found its liberating to lift the weight off our spirits. Pun intended 😅 AA didn't work for me but therapy and 🍄 did. Anyways, whatever works for you run with it. We're all different, there isn't a singular fix all. Much love for you and the energy you bring

My father is alcoholic. So was his dad, mom, and my uncle has been to rehab 20x. My dad would tell me stories about my uncle pouring down a whole bottle for breakfast. He said “vodka because you cant smell it”.. couple years later i brought my dad some where and he insisted that i drive. No problem. Till i pullled up and it took him 5 minutes to walk to the car. When he got in his eyes were glassed over and i could see it. Broke my heart. He doesnt drink in social settings but hes rippping that bottle behind closed doors for sure

In 7 days, i will be ONE YEAR SOBER. With not even 1 beer or glass of wine. Not even a drop of any alcohol at all and i was WILD for years... if i can do it, anyone can! You just have to WANT to quit. Good luck to all!

Fair play to you mate. Keep strong and well done for overcoming addiction. I still have a long way to go but your honesty is really inspiring.

Cograts on having the bravery to share. I am a just over a thousand days sober and am so much happier.

I did the same thing for years, brother. Stay strong and thank you for your encouragement and positivity!

A guy I used to work with did stuff like that and had some very creative hiding places. Unfortunately his addiction got worse, he got fired and when he could no longer afford to buy alcohol he went into withdrawals and died. He was only 42

My problem is severe life long depression, I drink everyday but don't have the drive to actually get drunk. I go to bed after 2 or 3 unless my mood picks up for whatever reason.

I have alcoholic sensitivity. My dad was an alcoholic. I find that if I drink one, my body calls for another, then another, and then another and so on. I don't like the taste of alcohol but I like the taste of beer. Thankful I'm aware of this and only drink from time to time while out to eat with the family, and that helps. Other than that, I stay away from it. Congrats on your sobriety, sir ❤

31 years old here, finally got back to AA after being off the wagon for 8 months or so. And it's absolutely correct what I was told, not one person has ever came back into AA and said "eureka, I've found a better way to drink that doesn't bring all the mayhem"...It got worse for me, addiction in general wants to isolate you from everyone and everything. It got to the point that I was starting to drink vodka all by myself in my house when I was really a pub drinker. For the first time in all my adult life, I've actually had my face in my pillow asking god to help me in relieving this pain, and I wouldn't consider myself religious.

Very proud of you! Thanks for being so open. Almost two years sober and come from a long line of alcoholics.

Wishing you success on your journey and your honesty is awesome.. the best way the handle the dark is to flip on a light 💋

Mine was always to hide in my binoculars. As im a nature person and love being outdoors, i often would carry with me 2 - 3 pairs of binoculars. I would unscrew the eye glass and fill it up with Vodka. Worked every time.

Necessity is the mother of invention. Not easy abstaining from alcohol. Even harder to get rid of the ism's. Difficult living with an Alcoholic and harder to live with a 'recovering ' Alcoholic. Fantastic that you have taken the road to recovery. Congratulations to everyone that is on the journey. Sometimes you stumble but tomorrow is another day. Never give up giving up. It really is worth while. Sending love to all ❤❤❤❤

word up brothaa!!! been struggling for 8 years myself... you're page is very inspirational to me.

I still put vodka in water bottles, and pour a mouthwash bottle out and fill it up with voka or white rum and drop a bit of blue food colouring in , no one gussed that one, especially on short holidays . I also used to hide small plastic bottles in my make-up bag. Or after a party id use a spirit bottle so they thought it was still full but id switch it with water. Sober now i hope people look for thinks like this so they can help their partner get help, but please dont be mad at them ! Or they will hide it even more .

Happy for you Steven!!! I'm working on my way to sobriety too man, thanks for giving ppl hope!

The white spirits bottle was impressive. The amount of time I spent trying to find alcohol I had when drunk is substantial. Used to hide my booze under the trash bag in the garbage bin. Nobody looked there.

Glad your sober sir I can just imagine your working an office job and a coworker comes in and catches your drinking vodka out a fuel can. “No no it’s not what it looks like it’s just vodka” lol

I was watching your metal detecting videos way before I knew the whole story. Sobriety was your best find ever.

My dad was a chronic alcoholic. He was also extremely arrogant, and the two almost always leads to death and destruction. He died 2 years ago from cancer caused by his alcoholism

This is so amazing to see, you seem like a lovely person 😊 wishing you all the success in your sober future 🎉

Thank you for sharing your truth! It will help many people, including myself❤

I was a weed addict all through my educational years. It was only after my final year at uni - I brought my weed in with me, I smoked it right by the library, lecturers knew, everyone knew. When you are honest with others you can be honest with yourself.

As a man who hides cans of steel reserve in a bush, I can sympathize

Im happy you have recovered yourself man, congratulations. But it wasnt necessary to share hacks to hide buzz, for other alcoholics to cheat themselves or their loved ones. I really think that was uncalled for.

I used to hide my vodka in 2 travel-sized laundry detergent bottles that I had found. They were shaped like a flask and laid flat. I'd always wear knee high socks to work and stuff them on the inner part of my calf. If sneak away to the bathroom every couple hours to stop the shakes. Each bottle held about 3 shots.

I don't know you but Im proud of you.

I know this is about alcohol but I am addicted to marijuana. Finally trying to stop after the doctor told me it is causing my sinus canals to erode from constant sinus infections. I have hope I can stop, I also hope anyone else fighting addiction can find the strength to stop as well.

Well done! I was an alcoholic and an opiate addict, 15 years and I haven't felt the compulsion for either and can now enjoy the occasional drink, in fact I rarely enjoy it when I do now if I am completely transparent. And no more opioids.

I'm an alcoholic and these are good tips

Sobriety rules

Thank you for sharing! Thank you for purely being transparent!!

I used to use 16 ounce orange flavor Gatorade bottles.i would leave it a quarter full and fill it up with vodka.

Wishing you the very best. My drink of choice is also vodka. I’ve been sober for 19 days in the past 3 years. It’s been rough. You got this

Wish u nothing but the best glad to hear you are in a better place in life ❤

My uncle when he was an alcoholic wasn’t trying to hide it so much because you would find Jose Cuervo Tequila bottles empty in the pantry a lot . He gave up smoke and drink to live long to be with his wife and son .

I had an alcoholic narcissist friend for 45 years. He knew every trick in the book, and now so do I just from observing him. I was also raised by a damaged alcoholic. I honestly feel that I could counsel people on how to deal with these types.

You’re a legend Stephen - keep it up ❤

Hi, Im getting to know a man, after 3 times now seeing him drink I believe he has a problem. It's very hard cause I don't know what to do cause I care about him.

I have been a drug addict and alcoholic my whole life. Drugs came first, alcohol being the fall back. Anyway, long story short I am 38 now and finally made it off all opiates and pills..etc. I am now 1 month of suboxone and kratom. Still drinking alot, hoping to quit that next.❤

Yooooo you earned a sub in me. Ty so much for your honesty. I was an alcoholic for 15 yrs and the hiding spots were never ending. A few times my son accidentally drank my wine Gatorade, I felt horrible. That made me cut back for a while.

God bless and wish you continued success my man. Godspeed.

Thanks for showing us how to be alcoholics

ive stopped drinking 6 beers ago.. I'll never look back to my bud to feel light ...

Names Brandon. I'm an addict in recovery. I attend meetings, I have a support group and sponsor. Unfortunately that doesn't change being homeless, sleeping outside rain or shine, 100° or 0°. It doesn't change my past, how alone I am because of the people I have hurt. It doesn't change what seems like t endless cycle of other homeless people stealing my food, beating me while sleeping and being sexually assault. It doesn't change waking up everyday praying to stay sober, to eat and for no rain, praying to live and by 1 am, praying for God's mercy and the keys to get into heaven. I want to stay sober.. I want to liv, I want to see my kids again, I want to hug my dad, I want to be looked at as human again, not some bum washed up junkie who destroyed his own life with poor choices. I want to be b loved again, trusted. I want to live...

I'm just glad that there is parasocial communities for sobriety, I used to drink a gallon of beer a day at least, when I'd get paid beer was the first purchase I'd have made. But I've got an inkling that I could be living with undiagnosed alcohol related illnesses😂 hopefully my youngish age will be a good supplement to quitting alcohol to alleviate these symptoms (sorry for basically journaling in the comments)

We are so happy for you!

Wel done for your honesty. Alcohol has harmed many lives. Thank you for showing us the other side.

I’m about to die because of this, I wish I could Afford financially to quit but I have too many people depending on me…I wish I could stop

Rooting for you! ❤

Alcoholic here. Feels so good.

Absolutely love your honesty!

I used to hide my vodka in big bottles of coca-Cola. You just drink it half way then Pour in as much as you can preferably buy the smaller bottles of vodka and dispose of evidence No one ever suspected I was drinking. Then you can just pour your soda into a thermos and I’d drink it every where. At work, at church, at the doctors I had it in my bag everywhere I went.

Going to TikTok to get sober is like going from heroine to crack.

did u get confused and think tic toc is AA?

Isn’t it amazing how creative our desperate brains get! Congrats to you!

Im 37 never drank saw what my dad did to my mum and ive embarrassingly always been terrified off alcohol when someone drinks next to me I cant help it I shake with fear when I smell it I get taken back to my childhood I know I'm an adult and thats the oast but the mental fear which turns to physical terror has just stayed with me. Good for you getting sober my friend 👍😎

Pro Tip. Put Vodka in a Vinegar Bottle. If someone sees you drinking a bottle of Vinegar, they'll just think your crazy, not an Alcoholic. Also, a 25 oz Tall Boy can fits perfectly into a Big Gulp.

So brave, my guy❤ I used to slice open the lining of my purses to hide drugs and paraphernalia. Humans all have alot in common:) Same joy. Same pain.

"putting that crearivity to good use" Good job man. Bravo.

I'm proud of you. Sobriety is a hard road, but one worth taking.

Here's another trick. You buy a bottle of vodka or whatever, it doesn't matter, empty it by half, and then display it out in the open so if ever you are called out on your drinking you say "If I was an alcoholic I would have drank this already.".

when we’re drinking and living the drug, it’s amazing how whole-consuming the habit can become. But we’re still in there somewhere. Hello in there. 😊 Glad to see your impressive nature put to use, sir.

😂 you are clearly a very creative individual, glad that you have better outlets for your creativity today! 24+ years sober myself but I didn’t have to work so hard to hide most of my drinking.

Here's a genuine question I have: How do alcoholics even do it physically? I can go months without drinking, but when I do, I mostly go on benders, because I drink to battle axiety. However: I can't do it for long, because it just really messes up my intestines. I get reflux, heartburn and diarreah. So at some point, I will get sick to the stomach just smelling booze. How do you do this daily and not immediately get stopped by your own body?

I was the child of an alcoholic, and he would hide vodka in water bottles. One time he packed my lunch and orange the wrong water bottle. 🤦‍♀️ That was the first time I unintentionally drank.

Well done mate. Keep up the good work, love that you are putting your energy into something you love.

I met a man in rehab who went one better. He actually drank the white sprit, mixed with orange juice( he said you had to keep shaking it to mix) he also melted shoe polish and drank that. He was 40 , looked 80, and was nearly blind as a result. The levels we stoop to are for each one of us, different, but when you know, you know. 😊