SOAD is undefeated with their jump scare intros 😂

And then again at the outro! :D

She got me tearing up on some videos when she explaining shit 😂 dont tell nobody

@@KingEdwardMMVIII Damn. Your secret is safe here. A community based on pure art is everything. A common ground.

I WAS JUST ABOUT TO COMMENT THAT

SOOOOIIIILLLL 🔥🤘😬🤘🔥

I'd love her to review an Album...in complete form

Yas, btw😁

*Sad Statue* 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

It's the mentioning of suicide, algorithm's real sensitive about that.

From JBrach: @thecraftmasque Sometimes being strong all the time takes all our energy and a quick repreive from that strength can help us to hold on for longer. The truth is that we all need to be weak sometimes. Everyone will have an end to their life's journey. Whatever pain is leading you to want to end yours, I am sorry you are experiencing that. I hope you can hold on and find your own reasons for living. You are here for a reason! You got this! <3

From Micro: @thecraftmasque Thank you so much for being here, friend. It is indeed incredibly painful to feel like the only thing getting you through some days is the thought that you don’t have to. It’s like there’s this constant shadow hanging over you, making everything feel so much more difficult than it should. The idea that the thought of not having to keep going is what helps you survive, and it makes that it's there. Somehow, it shows how exhausting it is to deal with the pain on a daily basis, and the perspective of having some kind of exit door brings peace to your mind when it needs it the most. It’s about being so overwhelmed and tired that even the simplest things feel impossible. Overall, feeling like you’re surviving on the edge of not wanting to be here is a very painful place to be in, and I'm sorry this has been a part of your own life journey. The mental and emotional weight of that probably feels impossible to explain to others who haven’t been through it, but rest assured that there's people here at Heartsupport who hear you and understand what you're going through. Pushing through each day with that kind of pain hanging over you is isolating, and that's why I'm so very proud of you for talking about it here. There is something special in the very act of sharing our pain, our vulnerability, and being reminded that even if we feel alone in it, we are still seen, heard, and loved. It’s okay to acknowledge how hard it is. You matter friend. Your experiences and you feelings matter too. It’s okay to feel what you’re feeling, and it’s okay to talk about it. I hope that, especially on the darkest days, you will keep hanging in there and seeking support as you need. You don’t have to carry this alone. :heart:

Anyone know if she's covered 10,000 Days/Wings for Marie?

From DyllonKG: @davidm6329 Good Afternoon my friend. I appreciate you posting on this and sharing your story. I know that it must not be easy, especially if what you have to say maybe goes against the grain. You mention in your post that you've struggled for a few decades now with suicidal ideation, specifically in relation to your weight and the toll that takes on your life, self efficacy, and mental health. You mentioned self medicating with food and dealing with chronic pain and stress - the sort of looming cloud that every day you don't get better is a day where you do more damage. A sort of pressure chamber that stresses you out more, sending you back to your only sources of comfort. And Im sorry friend. I really am. I dont feel pity - I want to make that explicitly clear. But I am sorry. I, in a much different way, know what it's like to be caught in a cycle that perpetuates itself in never ending agony. And how suffocating that can be. And Im sorry. I cannot relate to the core of your struggle regarding weight. My only relation is with my own cycle, which I can spare the details of for brevity. But the long story short - I used a lot of people to feel good about myself. Validation was a crutch. I couldn't validate myself very well, i couldnt love myself. But other people would. But eventually, they wouldnt. They wouldnt be able to jump when I needed. And it would wreck me. Without a way to self soothe, without a way to face myself, I would do it all over again. That happened for friendships. Relationships. Everything. My cycle only broke when I demanded it did. When I identified what I needed to change, and stopped going back to it. When I stopped seeking happiness in others, and instead sought it in my existence. Which is a tall order. Years later, I still struggle. Sometimes I relapse into old habits and have to catch myself. Ill likely work on it until im in a grave. But ill always work on it. Our situations aren't the same. I wont pretend they are. I also wont pretend that you dont try. Or that you dont put effort in. But I also wont pretend that you're not someone deserving of a healthy way out. Because I think you do. I think you deserve to live. To enjoy life. Idealistic? Perhaps. But as a once proud cynic, I've learned that my way was equally as destructive as pure positivity. The truth was somewhere in the middle. In the jagged line that juts up and down the graph paper as it scans across the X axis. I'd like to think we're capable of more than we think. Maybe that's because I never thought I'd live this long. Im sorry you're hurting my friend. I'm sorry that you're stuck in this cycle. And I hope in my heart that you can shatter that cycle. We'll be here. I'll be in your corner. Hold fast.

From JBrach: @TrymKZfaqMainChannel Hi! Thanks for your question and I am so sad to hear that you have had those feelings of being lost the last 10 years. What you are describing sounds like passive suicidal ideation. I am not a mental health professional, just a psychology undergrad student. If you can relate with passive feelings of hopelessness, of not minding if you just didn't wake up in the morning, but don't have active plans to end your life-- passive suicidal ideation may be the title you're looking for. Both active and passive ideations stem from feelings of helplessness and hopelessness without the internal locus of control (confidence that you can change your own life for the better) to breath hope into your situation or perspective. And feeling tired from fighting to stay alive is so normal. You are exhausting tons and tons of willpower and mental energy to dissuade those thoughts. That's a workout! Of course you would feel tired of fighting it. [www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation](www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation) I am glad you have found a space on our forum to voice your experiences and trauma. I hope you found support through there! Whether active or passive suicidal ideation, both are dangerous. The energy to keep these things at bay is exhausting. Whatever the main stressor is for you--- this survivor's guilt, your past, or a current situation, or a engrained mindset from years of these thoughts, I hope you can find it and uproot it. This is a place for your to share and explore what those triggers and causes may be. Please share with us if you would like, we are here to listen and help however we can, within the confines of our volunteer non-mental-health-counselor status :) I appreciate you sharing your question and I hope to hear from you soon <3

From Micro: @TrymKZfaqMainChannel You can experience a desire to not live without it necessarily being manifested through suicidal thoughts. Could it be passive suicidal ideation or even just internally giving up on life, it is definitely possible to not expres ssymptoms while also not feeling like embracing life to the fullest. Depression is often a manifestation of that kind of "in-between" for example, where you are alive but also doesn't feel like fully living. It makes despair grow, and you might think about death as an escape rather than something you want to move towards. Through either passive or active ideation, what is present behind is actually a deep craving for LIFE rather than death. It's a way to say: I want a better life. To highlight the pain and struggles we're experiencing as being an obstacle. It expresses a need for peace overall, and being tired of struggling. Staying strong, especially for 10 years, feels exhausting. It makes sense to be tired of it, and to potentially feel alive but also not at the same time. When the emotional exhaustion takes over, it's hard to feel like there would be room to take care of ourselves and embrace our life. We feel stuck, there's inertia, and either way we're not moving towards death or life. We're just here, present, breathing, contemplating how we wish our life could be. We just want to rest and for a positive change to happen. If anything, you are deifnitely not weird or crazy for feeling the way you do. In reality, the fact that you are aware of it is also a strength because it gives you perspective over your own struggle. From there, you have the possibility to try to shift the narrative, seek support that you might not have received during these 10 years, so you could have the possibility to rest, be your authentic self, and have allies by your side as you navigate through life. Being strong all the time and having to put on a brave face is exhausting, but it is possible to unlearn this, to reconnect to yourself in ways that would be both nurturing and healing for you. :heart:

Beautiful inside and out! 💖