which is why it was soooo good.

Best Iowa description.

I agree to a certain extent. It's true that they were all depressed and addicted to substances and they did have their bouts between each-other, but the bond between them was actually really really strong. You can hear when Paul died Corey and Joey both talk about it literally saying they miss their brother. So I really don't think they hated each other.

​ @testingDEATH During Iowa? Yeah, they all hated each other. Shawn Crahan himself said so and so did Corey Taylor.. According to Corey: “We were just all at odds with each other,” said frontman Corey Taylor. “I don’t know if it was jealousy or if it was just insecurity; ‘Am I pulling my weight? Is this person getting more attention than me?’ It was just dark, and it really spit in the face of everything the band tried to accomplish on the first album.” There were plenty of times Sid and Corey would fight during live performances, sometimes Shawn going off on the others, it was dark times for a band that got big quick and were already pressured to make a 2nd album and to then go on tour. Corey said in an interview that after the tour, after Iowa, they finally got time to just settle down and look back on what happened.

So.. Rumors but metal?

Damn man, that must really suck. Glad you've found something that helps deter that feeling

From Lyss: @patrickg2003 Hey there! First off, I just want to say thank you for being open with us here, we appreciate it, we don't take it for granted. I am so sorry for you loss, I personally have not lost someone with this relation, but I do know loss very well. I can't even begin to think how terrible it must feel to lose someone in this way, especially in this relationship. At this time, all of my grandparents have passed on. It has been a tough ride, please know it is ok to grieve, to be emotional. Something my mom has told me that has helped is "it's ok to cry". I think that can be comforting in some aspects, especially when those around you do not show grief openly. Loss is so so hard. Dealing with the emotions it brings is so hard to begin, sometimes it just feels easier to stay sad, to stay complacent with thoughts and feelings; that is totally understandable. It is understandable to bury emotions, sometimes it is easier that way, or so it seems. I think a lot of people take this route of burying it down, keeping it inside, you are not alone in that. Although it can be tempting to keep things inside, it is not always the best. When I was 14 up until probably 19 I was so depressed out of my mind, I didn't talk about it, I kept it all inside, then one day things changed- I started to be open with loved ones, with friends, with colleagues, and I have learned a lot of them have been through the same kind of things as me, they have had the same kind of thoughts and feelings as me, they have had the same kind of losses that they had to grieve. I think it is good to know you are not alone, although I have not lost the same relationship as you, you are not alone in this. It takes time and work to feel okay. I believe that you can work through this, I believe things can get better. I cried a lot through all my loss, I talked about it, acknowledged how I felt, it is still not easy, but it's better. Sometimes it helps me to remember the good times we had, the holidays, the barbeques, the vacations- it can be heart wrenching at times but I think it is helpful in some ways, for me at least, to remember those times. It is good to have things to remember people by, it is helpful to remember that even though we are not together on this earth, they are with us in spirit. Friend, please know you are not alone in this journey. I am glad music has been an outlet for you, I hope it continues to be. Please know that we are always here to listen, always here to be a shoulder to lean on. There are people who'll listen, and people who care. You don't have to go through this alone. Things will get easier, happiness will come again. Much love, Lys

I feel you I've lost family and pets and I've never moved on and I got that reality check at 9 years old

@@HeartSupport Thanks so much for the reply. It was all such a shock... She went in for surgery and was supposed to be home by noon that day...but she was gone. I even had a game set up so we could relax when she got home. Again I thank you for the reply, it means a lot. Keep up the great work.

From Lyss: @patrickg2003 Loss is so hard :( please know you are not alone in this, things can get better and easier to handle with time and work. Much love to you friend, we are always here for you. Sending love.

It’s insane to me a mental health channel that reacts to Slipknot videos and tries to interpret the mental health angles hasn’t done Disasterpiece.

I'd like to know what her view would be on the opening line to the song. Overall it's one of my all time favourite songs by them.

Best song on the album

Goosebumps, every time from the opening chord.

I think Slipknot C&Ded Tay Tay cuz she seems to have moved on without doing Disasterpiece or Heretic Anthem. What a wasted opportunity.

It’s also based on a True Story and Slipknot was Sued over the Song thus the Reason Purity was pulled from the Self title Album. I’m probably one of a very few that still Have that Album all these years later. It wasn’t till “Antennas From Hell” That the Band Was Allowed to bring Back Purity. The New Abortion SkinTicket Were Also many of great songs wrote by this Band

I don't think it was a true story ​@@sgladden84

@@sgladden84 It was based off a fictional internet Alternate Realtiy Game. Though corey didnt know it wasnt the truth until after the song was released

@@sgladden84the song Purity isnt about the story of Purity Knight but is based on it. They also got the name of the song from it and the story is fiction

Either way!! That album was robbed of that song!! And that alone.... 😢

I was 54 when I lost my wife....I get it. Slipknot is not just, "yelling and screaming", as my friends have suggested....it's really helped me in my grief. Take heart, you are not alone.

Me too buddy, me too. So much anger, this was the release.

How good a therapy is when you have to take it daily and still not cured

Good shit man. As a member of the Semicolon Club myself, I'm glad you're still here. We all are.

this is the end of everything you are the end of EVERYTHING

Lotta Korn worth doing. Lyrics are very open about processing mental health issues

Yess, most KoRn songs helped me with my mental health issues during teens

​@mediumvillain maybe if Korn was actually a good band.

In case you missed it, she put that out today actually.

@@craigsovilla6578 Man, Korns first two albums are soo good. They were such a heavy influence on Slipknots sound. Korn and Slipknot were my entire childhood and adolescence, two of my favorite bands at the time.

Thanks man. I'll check it out!

From AliceBlue: @bigsbeeburrito6809 Thank you for sharing your story, or this part of your story. I lost my partner not long ago, and reading your words and how you came close to making this big and impactful decision and then reading how you won over those hurting and dark moments makes me so glad. I’m so very glad you’re here

Thank you for staying ; 😊

From Micro: @bigsbeeburrito6809 Oh friend. My heart goes out to you. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you've been experiencing while going to your work place lately. I'm so very sorry for your losses. It is brutal to lose people we love in such a sudden way. It creates this hole in the chest and this heavy load on your shoulders. I wish words were enough for you to express the heaviness and complexity of this pain. If anything, I hear you and I feel this pain alongside you. It's already beautiful that you have posted about these parts of your story and that you are so bravely sharing your vulnerability here. You make a difference by sharing how you feel and by sharing about them. There is no doubt that they were both an important part of your life, of your heart, and it makes completely sense that somehow the brutality of these losses has made you think about times when things were much darker for you too. When my brother passed away, 6 years ago, I've been myself through this internal turmoil of acknowledging the reality of past traumas and the importance of starting to work on my healing. Grief in many ways is transformative, and it makes sense that it echoes or even reactivates parts of our heart that were wounded before. Somehow I believe that it's an intense call for love - towards others whether they are still present or not, and towards ourselves. On a personal note, I am so very thankful that you didn't go through your suicide plan and are still here today. Thankful you pushed through and decided to work on nurturing your heart and soul. Some wounds we carry can't be processed or even *seen* as long as we are not ready for it. But comes moments or seasons that become breakthroughs in our own story. You've learned to hear your pain, to understand it, to heal it and to love yourself more. You've traded survival for *life*, and that is such a profound transformation there. The memories that remain about your darkest times are a good reminder of what was - and somehow of what you don't want anymore in your life. They are a part of your story, and now also a beautiful testimony of your personal growth and healing. I hope, while you are navigating through this grief of yours, that ou will see yourself with a very gentle, nurturing and protective outlook. As you deserve all the love, care and peace you'd be willing to receive right now. If you ever need to talk more or just someone safe to listen, Heartsupport's community will be there. :heart:

And yeah, the recent trauma was the loss of loved ones. The closest I've ever had to a daughter was taken by cancer, and a week later the one I loved took her life and I found her. Getting left behind in so many things

From Lisalovesfeathers: @RedDevilTN Hi Friend, That must have been tough as a child, you must have felt abandoned and yes angry and those feelings do not disappear overnight, it is understandable that you held on to them for a long time but the only time it is too late is when they are no longer here to build a relationship with. It sounds like things are better now so try to not be so tough on yourself, have grace with them and with you and enjoy your time as a family. life is short, make memories. xx

From dr_hogarth: @RedDevilTN Forgiveness isn't something that happens after a "correct" amount of time; it happens when you have processed what has happened to you and can understand the reasons why it happened. I can totally understand wishing that you'd had that extra time, but that is with hindsight through the lenses of forgiveness. You took the time you needed and that, for you, was the right amount of time. x

From EvilGenius: @RedDevilTN Hey there, Sorry to hear you had this experience with your parents. Feeling abandoned by your parents, especially at such a vulnerable age is incredibly difficult. My dad abandoned me at a young age, and personally I still find it difficult and I’m in my early 20s. I totally understand the anger you have towards them, for me, I resent my dad, and I don’t ever see that changing. Forgiveness is tough, and it’s a process. It involves working through complex emotions, and sometimes accepting that sometimes we just have to move on, not because they deserve forgiveness, but because we deserve peace. I’m glad you were able to forgive your parents eventually, even if it did take some time. However, it is only natural to wish you’d forgiven them sooner. Everybody’s healing journey is different. What matters most for you is that you were able to find it in your heart to forgive and let go of all that anger, in order to create some inner calm and peace. This shows you to be a mature person, which is great! Continue to be gentle with yourself, and remember that it’s okay to have rough days

From Micro: @RedDevilTN It's okay if it took time for you to get to the point of forgiving them. what you have experienced, abandonment, is a type of wound that can take a life time to be acknowledged, named and processed as such. It hurts very deeply. When you felt like reaching a state of forgiveness, it was the right time - your time. It's understandable though that looking back it must have felt like time or energy has been wasted. Somehow, it's easier to see things from a different perspective once we're not *in* the very process of trying to find our way. things become more clear, or at least less cluttered by the way we feel. You had to undergo a personal journey that was highly significant and impactful, and even if it had not led you to forgiveness - which would have been absolutely okay too -, every step you took has been worth it and was absolutely valid. We need to explore and wander in order to find what resonates the most with us, to forge our very own path in light of our personal story. It is beautiful that you are now here and able to speak about it. Wishing your family and you a lot of peace and healing. :heart:

No don't do music video. Do studio version always

scared of it ?@@dubravkogamingyt3526

From OneStepAtATime: @sixscribbles8721 Hi there. Thank you so much for reaching out. You are heard. Everything that you’re feeling is valid. Losing a parent is so hard, regardless of the situation. Please know that you are loved and respected. These things can take time, please be patient and love yourself. We’re here for you. And we always will be. PS this is such a powerful song. I hope you find some solace in this art. Much love

From Listening2Day: @sixscribbles8721 Thanks for the comment. Music is such a great way to get in touch with yourself. To feel all that is understandable, actually. Be patient with yourself. Heart Support is here if you need.

From twixremix: @sixscribbles8721 hey friend, thank you for your vulnerability. please know that grief has no timeline or blueprint as to how it comes out. allow yourself to feel everything, give yourself the permission to cry when you need to, release your anger in a healthy way, and embrace the stages of grief in order to take your steps forward in processing this pain. you were there to witness such an impactful trauma and my biggest hope is that you can find peace through the grieving process. your anger, grudges, and so on… all of it is so valid. you are valid and i believe in you to do all you can to process this grief fully. you got this, my friend. love, twix

From Jearls: @sixscribbles8721 Thank you for sharing. Grief is a tough emotion to deal with. Please know that you are loved and heart support is here to for you.

From Micro: @sixscribbles8721 I'm so very sorry for your loss friend. It must have been so incredibly shocking and brutal to lose your dad in such a way, even if you were not particularly close to each other. Being there during his last moments and facing this unexpectedly is a heavy experience. You were not prepared - you couldn't be -, and it's absolutely understandable that it has left you in a state of horror and shock. I can only imagine how scary and lonely it was for you to wait for the emergency services. What you have been through was a traumatic experience. After it it's like a part of our mind and body remains stuck in that very moment, forcing us to re-live it over and over whenever something activates the memories or the emotions we felt at the time. I struggle with complex ptsd myself, and there are times when the acute memories/flashback surely activate a lot of raw emotions too. The fear that was felt, the confusion when everything was happening too fast, the sadness over the losses, the frustration for feeling in pain all over again... it's a hard place to be in. I don't know if you receive any professional support for this, but if not - and if it is available for you -, I would surely encourage you to consider it, just because it can help your mind to process what happen, and to progressively replace the memories where they belong. You're doing the right thing by talking about it here and opening up about the way it makes you feel. The process towards healing and feeling *some king* of closure may seem slow and feel frustrating most of the time. Although you are here today, you are naming what happened and are able to talk about it, which is in itself a huge step and manifestation of your growth/healing. One step at a time, always. I believe in you wholeheartedly. :heart:

Me to and I was 19 when it was released 😂😅

From ManekiNeko: @EggersEggers-pd6te Grief is so heavy and it feels like it settles in like a thick fog. Just when it feels like it’s clearing, there is still this dense mist that is hard to see through. It feels like it comes back two fold from time to time. Sometimes we build these expectations on how to deal with grief, like we have the 7 stages of grief set in front of us and when it feels like we are recycling the same two stages over and over or we got back to stage one, it’s like a big “when will this end?!” Lingering. Sometimes other peoples expectations on how we grieve is also unbearable. People tell us to move on or that our loved ones would want us to be happy and live our lives, but it’s easier said than done. It’s the expectation that “you’ve had enough time”. But who’s to say how much time is enough time. Whether you’ve known that person your whole life or for just a moment of your life, the expectations to have to move on are unjust and cold. I have been told by someone who was meant to be my best friend “you need to get over it now”. A week after a friend of mine passed away. It was the first real and close death I had experienced. The first time someone who had been a big part of my life had died, and I was expected to get over it just to make someone else happy. I hope we never stop talking about the ones we love who have gone. What I do hope is that the thoughts and memories of them become easier to bear and in time, instead of bringing an ache to our heart, they bring warmth. There may always be to some degree an ache for them, but joy and sadness can coexist. In the end, we have to ensure we take the grieving as it comes. Giving ourselves the freedom to experience what we feel- when we feel it. We don’t owe our thoughts, our grief or our time to those who can’t slow down and understand. I very much guarantee that when the time comes for those people to grieve they will be hit with the realisation of what it can do to a person. And I hope in those moments they find grace for those around them. I hope that you have allowed yourself to have the grace of time in grieving. Know that you don’t carry this burden alone. We may all grieve different things, different people, different experiences, but we all share the heaviness in heart and can support each other when the time comes.

also very insightful.