*If you use the comments as your safe space, you’re not alone, you are safe and you are heard. I love you all so much* 🌻

“keep fighting the good fight” -Carmen sandiego

"Haters are your Motivators.." -A Proud Sunflower❤

When I came out the other side, there’s a quote Dolly Parton said that stuck with me, which is “We can’t have rainbows without putting up with a bit of rain” 🌧️🌈 and throughout time the quote got more deeper, as the more I felt days of joy and happiness it makes me appreciate those days more when I can reflect back on those dark days. And during those dark days, I know there will be that rainbow again if I push through.

Don't worry girl, I've suffered from Autism, depression, anxiety, etc. Also have had suicide thoughts. You're not the only one. LOVE YOU! ❤

“You are fighting the battle strong, but soon then war will be won” -CrazyCae ❤

The best gift you can give to someone is kindness and compassion and love and respect and making them know they are appreciated very much by their peers

Anxiety just swallows me up I’m getting bullied and body shamed at school I do self- harm and su!s!dle thoughts i also have social anxiety and a bit of separation anxiety and it is so hard to talk to people about your problems these days you just want to tell someone everything but there is always something stopping you

“I’m a proud weirdo till the end of my days” I need that on a shirt

“Different is Fucking Awesome. Different is Beautiful.” ❤️❤️❤️

Yeah I completely just fall to the floor making no sound at all ! “Rolling around like a roly poly” -Cae ❤

I actually hate it when u cry 😭 and it always makes me 😭. I luv u girl your so strong❤

I feel the "stop stop stop stop TALKING" 😢

🌻It's funny that we are strangers and yet we understand each other so much. About 2 months ago my battle with depression ended. Cae, you are incredibly important to me, as you are to all of us. We love you with all our hearts, because you are our sun that gives us light. Thanks to you, your sunflowers are growing. You have really helped many people, so we want to help you, even by being with you. Hang in there🌻

I just want to start by saying I watched this before my job interview today, and had to redo my makeup. As someone living with CPTSD, Anxiety, Depression, and Asperger's, I can relate to everything you are saying. I was bullied from the time I was in kindergarten until I graduated high school, and I've been suicidal since I was in the 4th grade. It is a daily struggle sometimes to not listen to that voice that tells me that no one could love me, I am worthless, I am nothing and I should unalive myself. I've attempted it once when I was in my late teens, but was stopped by my mom who got me the help I needed. YOU are magic Cae! I know that if I am having the absolute worst day, I can click on your videos and immerse myself in your characters. You are special, beautiful, and kind. I try to be kind in my words and actions myself because it's the right thing to do. Be kind to yourself, and when those emotions hit you, give yourself grace. You deserve all the goodness in life! Take care, Jules

I’m so sorry, I understand how you feel, I hate when people yell at me, because I have a sensory disorder where before I had to go to a therapist when I was younger a faint sound on my window would make me shut down and I couldn’t hear or even see, now that is dealed with, my thoughts just hate me, and tell me I’m horrible and things that aren’t true, and whenever to many things are going on I get over stimulated, and get mad or frustrated easily, but I don’t like doing that but I can’t control it. And when someone yells at me or talks about how someone isn’t doing something they want, and basically blame it on me without physically saying it. It overloads my brain and makes me cry, so I just go sit in my room and let my brain go on about how it’s all my fault, and everything. But then when I do something “wrong” I understand people want an apology so I do apologize but I always get myself worked up by myself and keep asking myself why when people are mean to me they never apologize or when they say sorry they do it again, but I usually don’t do it again. And then especially when I do something accidentally wrong because I forget things easily or I don’t think, they talk about how they’ve never done it to me and that I should apologize, but they’re lieing, because I remember when they did it to me and they never ever said sorry. My thoughts always say it’s not fair over and over again, and they’re right…

Hey Cae. I am a huge fan and you've inspired me to push through and put my hate into novels I write. As a young child I grew up in a quite a toxic household, I have two younger brothers. I love my parents but sometimes they would get physical and I've had chairs and knives thrown at me before. I devolped bad anxiety. I had no friends just my books I would read to entertain myself, I thought I finally made a friend in year 6, but she started making fun of flinchy behaviour and would go around a use me as a joke pretending to punch me for attention. But those fake punches became real, it was daily she would beat me up in front of a crowd for months, she would choke me and encouraged others to do the same, there was only one girl who stood up for me and told a teacher after months. I was classed a snitch and still managed to have no friends. My dad then started to get very sick, My mum would work late so I would care for my two younger brothers. When I reached high school, I transferred to a new school and made friends. I even gained a boyfriend. I excelled in school. Until my friends read my diary and made fun of me, I was once again beaten up for no reason. My bf would say a lot about my body, like why are you so flat, you'd look prettier if you had makeup and to the point he actually because I rejected given consent to s3x he went with two of my best friends instead. My dad got sicker and sicker. I got a job at a rural shop. People loved me and stories I told, but one old guy started leaving love notes in my books. I was in year 9 at this point, he would say stuff about my boobs, I ignored it and thought nothing of it until I went to the toilet and he followed me, I won't say much more. He's in jail now and I have a new job. My dad died a couple weeks later, my mum leant into alcohol and I raised my two younger brothers, I was stress from school plus at home, I stopped eating from lack of money and lost quite a lot of weight. Then my amazing girlfriend encouraged me to eat, she would help me out as much as she could. Now I am a 21 year old and I am still with my amazing girlfriend, I am happy and love showing me and who I am. Thank you Cae you've inspired me so much. I also went through suicide many times, and I know it's a hard thing to talk about. Love you so much and everyone else who is struggling.

Hey Cae. Anxiety is also a monster I battle with every day. It's not something that just comes and goes. Instead, it lingers and waits. Some people think it's just something that will go away, or either I'm exaggerating, or I'm just stressed, but it's that monster that has its hand on my shoulder. Every day I fight it, and I will continue to fight it until I am at peace with it. Thank you Cae for sharing your story and know you are not alone in this fight.

Omg this is so accurate, I’m a 13 year old and I’m in (not a completely toxic household but enough to make me doubt myself) a pretty bad household. My mom always tries to talk to me but I just can’t figure out what’s going on in my head and it makes me go crazy, if I told my mom just a little information she would put it on her socials and I would get bullied or just talked about. I was never able to explain what was going on in my head, I heard voices and it just made me think that I was never gonna be good enough and I should just die. It’s been a really tough 2 years and it still goes on. (Crying as I’m writing) your message and just sharing this is inspirational to me and I’m glad I’m not alone. Hopefully it gets better for you and I really love your content and art. I love you so much and I’m sorry if this message is long I just needed it to come out. Cause I’m not going too well to be honest. Really just continue and I’m just happy to get this out and hopefully you get better. And KEEP FIGHTING ! ❤ you’re not alone I got diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression 😔 - Kyky, your sunflower

Your short about medication brought me here and i agree with it wholeheartedly. SSRI's are overprescribed and in so many cases, completely unnecessary. They should be used to manage lifelong/chronic disorders, or for someone in an immediate mental health crisis who is in active danger or harm or death due to their mental health, and they certainly should not be prescribed for long periods of time without review. I honestly believe that PSSD is real and have witnessed a person who after years of taking SSRIs develop PSSD and is now no longer with us because of the toll SSRIs had on his body. Im incredibly happy that you came to the understanding that they are not good for you, but incredibly sad that you were prescribed them in the first place. Im now incredibly proud of the strength that you display and your POVs and acting stories are so beautifully done. I am glad to have found your channel and hope to see more awesome things from you in the future ❤

6:45 is just evil for them to say that, I am so sorry and I hope it gets better, my heart goes out to u and anyone else experiencing terrible things

When you said that you have no reason to have these issues, that hit hard. I don’t like going to people because I think they’ll tell me I fake it or think im being dramatic. And that stuff sucks. EDIT: Thank you all so much for the likes! This really comes to show that you aren’t alone and that there are people out there going through the same tough times! Love you all so so so much!❤️🌻

You are the warriors that are in your videos. You are strong. You are the hero of your story.

I struggle with depression, anxiety, and self-harm problems and I am so glad you made this video because it lets me know I am not alone. Honestly watching your content has made me as a person feel so relatable. You videos are so amazing and honestly you are a inspiration. I love you so much!

I struggle at home… I always feel I need to do better in school and nothing is ever good enough. I have toxic friends who all my other friends want me to be their friend and there are a lot of things I am going through but you are my safe space and you have helped me a lot so thank you! 😢

I had the same thoughts of thinking I wasn’t good enough, and that everyone hated me. Still to this day I think about it. Keep going cae. I love your videos. Stay strong.

I know the worst thing about depression is people making it about themselves but I feel you

" it's okay, it's okay" that's the only thing that they say. They don't understand that we need help. We suffer all of this by are self's and they just laugh and say that that's nothing and your faking . But people like you make us feel herd and its comes it down. We love you crazycae

I believe that dizzy spell was something or someone tell you to stay. We all love you. I may be just a stranger, but I give you a lot of credit for not only creating the wonderful characters you do but also for making videos this this one. I suffer from ADHD. It's not as bad now as it was when I was little. I was picked on all through school. In high school I had people bouncing frogs' legs and rubber stoppers off the back of my head despite all this I still continue to have a positive outlook at least I try to. Continue to be the unique, special, creative person you are and don't waste your time for the haters out there because they are sooooooo not worth your time or your energy.

Been there. I've been dealing w depression and suicidal ideas for over 50 years. Even my kids deal w this sh**. But we thrive anyway.

I understand how you feel. Ever since I was young my parents abused me even for the littlest things I would often find shoes, books or just anything that my parents could reach thrown at me and that wasn’t even the worst. Now i feel like I’ve been affected by that so now I don’t feel like I’m as social ect. I often find myself curled up in my room thinking about su!c!de or calling child line or self h@rm and since year 6 in school I’ve been bullied for stuff as little as my name and most times I just can’t take it. I come to your channel and watch your videos and they don’t fail to make me smile so I wanted to thank you for making me feel like I’m not just an extra in the world (:

I didn't know someone that I've never met could make such a good fucking impact on my life ,we all love you so much Cae and ty so much

With the Vivalda thing, I know EXACTLY how you feel. That closeness with a character you created is something I can heavily relate to as an author.

I agree. Hatred isn't needed. Do what you love. Be weird. Be unique. Be different. Be seen Be heard. Ignore the hate and doubt. Just go forward with hope.

You are so strong girl and just know that we are with you❤

Never stop doing what you love Cae❤❤❤❤keep it up never stop you are the best watching you is my safe space

Oh darling, you dont know how much I am proud of you. You are still fricking here, you got through everything, you never gave up! YOU are helping hundreds, thousands, MILLIONS of awesome people. You create amazing stories, characters and they are my and not only mine, safe, comfort place. You are a wonderful, lovely person and I LOVE YOU. You got this and youll win it. I believe in you. WE believe in you! ❤❤❤

The “ hatred is so pathetic” hits different you go gurl!!!

"stars can't shine without darkness" we got this cae community!

I have had depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. so you’re not the only one. I love your videos ❤ also you’re a sunflower too. This video is amazing I’m so proud of you doing this because telling the whole internet is hard.❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰

33:16 3 years ago i was a young girl at my lowest point, insecure, trying to fit in, the works, and 3 years ago i found cae on youtube. 3 years ago she inspired me to be who i am and to create my story’s and characters. 3 years later i identify as gender-fluid/neutral , ive taught myself to draw, i love fantasy, i love all my “flaws” , i’m not afraid of being me and i go out in public with elf ears lol, because i found car. thank you cae for everything you’ve done for us💚 i wish you and everyone the best on there journeys

I used to struggle with my mental health too, still do.... But this channel made me realise that I'm not the only one and that I have to be strong.... Thank you and Ily cae ❤

When you said that you have no reason to be depressed I felt that. I have been suffering with depression for a little while now and I always feel so mad at the fact that I have barely any reason to feel this way.

Your laugh, Cae. It just makes me feel like a sunflower is blooming inside me. Starting from my heart, it truly is one of the purest sounds humanity can hear. Keep laughing that laugh, your laugh, and keep making us laugh with your crazy videos! I love your content sO much and have started writing stories of my own because of you. You are my ray of sunshine, even if you don't feel like you are. Most of my favorite songs come from clips of you and your amazing characters and I love how with all you're going through, you still make the effort to make us (your sunflowers) feel like we belong somewhere even if that somewhere is imagining what else you could create. I've always felt like my mind was different, I always had disturbing nightmares, they really seemed real, but my parents would just dismiss it, I always imagined I was the main character of the book or movie I'd just watched, yet, I always felt like something was missing. And then, I found you. You'r crazy content, your beautiful characters and your awesome stories are the first thing I look for when I go to KZfaq. You are my hero, my sunflower, and I always try to be a little more like you everyday, kind, amazing, beautiful, loving and awe-inspiring. Don't forget this. Don't forget that there are a LOT of people out here who love you and your content and characters. Some might say it's childish to create video's about mythological myths and creatures and stuff like that. But I'm proud of my obsession with dragons and mythology, even if it is weird and other people laugh at me for it, but I act like I don't care, like I don't hear them even if it tears my heart apart every time I think about it. Keep up your crazy video's that we all love and make sure you remember that all your sunflowers (there must be infinite amount of them by now ;) ) love you and your characters. Thank you for making my every day brighter with your amazing laugh. xx From one of your many sunflowers (Maia) xx

For those of you struggling, trust me, things get better. I was going through a really rough time in middle school, I was bullied and didn’t have many friends. I had really bad anxiety and depression, and I thought everyone hated me because people were treating me so badly. But once I got to high school things got a lot better and I’m so much happier. I haven’t been bullied even once and I have a big group of friends. Don’t give up. ❤️

I’m here immediately. We are all here for you cae and I hope your alright currently ❤❤❤❤

We are so glad that your here we love you LOVE YOU ❤

This must be so hard to talk about, but yes, we should celebrate your still here. We love you Cae, you’re important and should never have to experience something so hard. To be honest, your the reason I’m alive at this moment.❤

You’re not alone. Not only I dealt with anxiety, but I have dealt with trauma and challenges that I wish to reverse along with the insecurities of having autism and ADHD. As a writer myself, I want the stories I write to show a message and or let the readers relate to the characters I bring to life. Again, you are not alone and you will be found.

Before watching: Hi. I just saw you posted this and just started watching. as hearing and reading what’s this vid is about, I’m don’t have any diagnosis yet but I have pretty bad mental health and I understand what you are going through. ❤❤ Still watching: I’m still watching this but I can already relate already. I’m about 13 minutes into the video. I do wake up in the night sometimes. It doesn’t get too bad as you explain though but for some reason I can just understand and relate too much for my age. You are not alone. ❤❤ the part with everything on the floor I understand. I love keeping stuff on the floor that I know I will need. But everytime my parents enter my room (and they don’t knock or anything. They just barge in) they yell at me about the mess and I hate that. I’m now 18 minutes in. Yes, you can talk to anyone. Right now over a thousand people have already viewed this. That is because we care about you. Speaking of medication, I am scared of the thought of taking medicine or medication. I also think about suicide. Yeah, a lot lately but 😅. I’m now about 25 minutes in. I’m going to stop adding to this comment and just watch till the end. I can relate to this less but I’m watching and listening 32 minutes in: I have paused it to say something. You are REALLY freaking important and I’m glad you know that. Keep being you please. You are here for a reason. You are not worthless. After watching: I’m glad you were okay with sharing with us. I hope you are okay and I will forever keep watching you and I can’t wait for your books to come. Different is amazing. Different is beautiful. Now, I am gonna go make a vid on my channel for my 49 subscribers to see, about mental health. There is not a lot of them but there are a little and for a few people to know, it could start a change to get away from hatred. Bye Cae and the Sunflowers 🌻 🌻 ❤❤

Cae ,it's not just you who has these problems.I know that u CAN get through this 'n a LOT of doctor are like OOHHHH we don't know.but I'm sure that you are gonna get better.So keep it up Cae!!😊

i'm so sorry for what you've been through. your video helped me feel less alone so thank you :) talking to people about it is scary and i'm so proud of you for doing it ♥

As someone who has really bad anxiety, depression and adhd I know exactly how this feels, like you want to separate your brain or soul from your body, your sunflowers are here for you

“Soon, the war will be won.” - Cae, 2024 Girl, I want that on my gravestone. It is so true ❤

ive suffered from both and being around someone that understands those feelings you make me feel like I can be myself like I can see the world without that feeling of being fun of or rolling up into a ball inside my room alone...

I get what you mean by people being hard to talk to. The only person I feel like I can talk to is my older sister, but she's at college and we don't get to talk very often. When I finally told my parents about my suicidal thoughts, it was the hardest thing I'd ever done because I don't feel like I can talk to them. I have childhood trauma from my dad being emotionally abusive that really affects me. I now have a fear of hurting other people, a fear of being yelled at, a fear of hurting others, and a fear of showing my emotions, so I just wear a mask of fake happiness everyday, and it's so freaking hard. It took forever for me to finally tell a few of my friends about it, but now I know that several of them are going through the same things I am, and I don't feel quite so alone anymore. Your videos also help because it shows that mental health is a problem everywhere. Love you Cae

Watching this and hearing this has made me tearing up.... I feel genuinely sorry for what you've gone so through.... Those doctors are really pathetic for not taking so seriously..... We are all here for you.... You're not alone... You're such a brave person and keep going forward... We're so proud of you..

What an icon! She’s been through so much and is still fighting, my mum would cry if she knew what you when through and would want to help (she’s a doctor). You will always be the sun in our flower ❤️

I am 11 years old and have dealt with this before. I always think that I am worth nothing and I don’t deserve what I have. I always have anxiety attacks and thoughts to unalive myself. I’m going to be honest I’m not sure how to control it. A lot of it has to do with trauma. When I was 8, I had lying issues. I always got into conflicts with my “friends”. I normally tended to do this because I felt left out or alone. But, I didn’t know it would change me. My “friends” would spread rumors and be rude to me and ghost me. And one day they asked me a question. The question was if I had seen a video of a puppy falling of a building and then floating in mid air. I responded, yes. I hadn’t. Turns out, the video was a lie and they came up to me and said, “we’re not friends anymore.” This went on for 3 months. I was hit by them and they continued to spread rumors about me. During this I hit depression. All I wanted to do was lay down and cry myself to sleep. I told my parents, but left out certain bits. This was 4 years ago, so I don’t remember how we became friends again but we did. I am now friends with them in 5th grade and it’s gotten better. No conflicts so far. But 4th grade was the jackpot of fights. My parents constantly told me to stop being friends with them but I couldn’t. I remember in fourth grade grabbing a knife at home and holding it to my chest. I wanted to so bad, but I’m not sure what happened. I just…. couldn’t. I have never ever told anybody but my family this before. You inspired me. You INSPIRE me. You are not alone. I love you.❤

I too suffer from anxiety, along with major paranoia and have had a panic attack in the middle of the night. I also have had su!c!dal thoughts and i sh. I know how it feels with nobody believing how bad you feel, my mum doesn’t believe me and my dad isn’t close enough to me for me to discuss it. But this video isn’t about me, it’s about you. I hope you feel better ASAP, and you are amazing and very loved. Enjoy life while it lasts, and please stay here. 🌻

I love you Cae, I also have dealt with anxiety at a very young age. I felt like no one there for me not even my parents so I just kept everything under a smile.Now watching your videos I regain my power to keep going. Thank you Cae❤❤❤

That little “Haha” at the start made my day😂❤ Plus, we are here for you❤ Even if you don’t know us, you should know that we love you🌻❤️

I LOVE YOU CAE YOU ARE MY FAVORITE KEEP GOING I LOVE U FOREVER

As a therian KZfaqr this video is VERY relatable. But you shall keep fighting, fight for things you love and be yourself always

Just because someone doesn't show that they ate having a hard time doesn't mean that they aren't. Love u Cae❤❤❤❤❤

You aren’t alone, Cae. I always had anxiety, but its worse a lot since my friends started bullying me, it makes it hard to sleep at night, and a struggle with lots of other things too. But I've gotten better because I have friends that go through the same things, and we help each other, and I have you. You always make my day, and please remember that you are never alone Cae. Edit: Thank you for the likes and sweet comments.

Thank you. I needed this today. The brain weasels have been extremely active and I'm not sure what exactly you said helped but you helped. Thank you 🌻

Cae, im so glad u have pushed through this and posted your feelings bcuz i want and every single one of your subscribers wants you to keep going! I can see you clenching your (i think) knife or anxiety thing and that means your feelings are genuine. You have all of your subscribers to be there for you! You’re not alone if you know that! Your doctors that u had before a good one are very non-helpful(i think). I went through deppression too. I just want you to know you’re not alone❤ we all love you dont listen to the haters!❤

I wish I could watch and listen to this right now, and even though I can’t I want to say how brave you are cae. You are inspiring so many others, and being able to speak out is beautiful.

As a person struggling with depression and anxiety. I feel you, we, all of the people who struggle with mental health, love you❤

I know ur pain, you are not alone. I have suffered for years…hating myself, harming myself. Sometimes…I just wanna leave. But I’m trying to fight.

I’m so glad you’re still here and about this whole community. So kind. I like how I don’t feel alone when I come here and talk to everybody. I can relate to this video like others too, you are doing amazing and I’m very glad that you’re still here to do what you love🙂

You aren't alone. I suffer from anxiety, depression, PTSD, and ADHD.

I don't comment much but when you said "it's alright to be mad" it resonated with me. My mom told me I wasn't allowed to be mad or sad about anything. You are very talented and it's great that, despite everything, you are able to share your stories with us. I've not had the experiences you have had but I had thoughts of suicide in my teens as well. It's a terrible feeling and it sucks that some many experience it at some time in their lives. Keep doing what you do because the world will be a sad place without you.

I’ve been there, Its painful, I know, I hoope you get better soon though. Everyone has went through, depression, anxiety and etc. I’ve been there personally but if I can get through it then you can too, keep on going Cae!

I don't really know what to comment. But one thing is for sure, Cae you are an amazing human being. I really appreciate your content and, if I'm being honest, your personality, strength and all the amazing features that comes within you. Even if I'm still a teenager, I've gone through lots of years of fighting for my well -being and I could relate to some of the things you said. But gosh you had such a positive impact on me personally. I really needed that. Thank you so much for sharing part of your story and thank you for existing today. Thank you for bringing into this world so much positive energy. Thank you for making me open my eyes into a new prospective of another life completely different than mine. I hope for you lots of love and I wish that the war you're fighting it's going to end soon. Send you the best of energies, with love from one of your sunflowers ❤❤❤

Thank you!! I go through the same stuff you go through as well. You have helped me through my mental health, and I appreciate you. Everyone is like, " Stop lying," or " Stop trying to get attention." I get told that I fake it. I suffer from Depression, suicidal thoughts and Anxiety every single day. So, I know what you're going through. I am 13 years old and have had it for years. God bless you, Crazy Cae.

you don't need a reason to be depressed your experience is still valued

That anxiety feeling you described is exactly what I felt!! The stomach and the heat and the beating chest. Anxiety is the worst!!!!! I've actually been on holiday and had to lie down on a bathroom floor in a hotel restaurant and let those feelings wash over me till I could calm down enough to move. I hated it!!! I'm on medication now, so it's doesn't get that bad as much. But it still seeps through from time to time. Honestly when you talked about that I felt so happy to know that someone understands what it is like! After having even the people I love tell me I can just control it. Are you kidding me! No I can't!! To hear you say you get it, just makes me feel validated. Thankyou.

As someone who struggled and still struggles with my mental health this video made me feel like I wasn't alone.Thank you SO much Cae. Best wishes for the future

Going through a terrible loss right now and I needed this. It's tragic because sometimes people who save so many can't save themselves. Chester Bennington, Chris Cornell, or everyday people come to mind. I hope the best for you and I hope you know how we appreciate you. I don't want to tell you you're okay, because you might not be. But I want to tell you that you deserve love, and you continue to recieve it from my end and others. So let us know if there's something YOU need, as you do so much for us already.

I can’t even explain how this made me feel…. I have anxiety as well and I too have really nothing to have anxiety about. My rock is art. Any type of art theatre,painting, sketching, just being creative in general. I lose myself In books to escape the real world. I feel the characters and I *breathe* through the characters. Especially yours. No one, and I mean NO-ONE should have to go with what you go through. YOU are my rock Cae

You are so so so brave for sharing this. You are not over dramatic this is real. Your mental health is real. You are real. Keep fighting we love you 🥲 🌻 ❤

I'm currently diagnosed with panic disorder and a lot of what you're sharing makes me feel very seen. I hope you can find more people, professionals, and moments that make you feel seen, whatever you decide is best for you.

Thank You Cae, you are the reason I keep going as well as 2 people in my life and I have came so close to deleting myself from this world so many times and I have came straight to your videos and it helps so much. Thank You

It's so scary how you sometimes don't even think abt so,etching before you do it. WhenI was 12 I had a plastic bag in my room. And I just randomly tried suffocating myself. I got rlly scared as well all the sudden and started balling my eyes out. I think God saved me with that scare just like that fainting spell scared you❤

I’ve suffered with autism, anxiety, depression, severe phobias and worry about self harm. U are amazing, keep it up ❤❤

I suffer with depression and anxiety and its thought and hard but there will always be a light remember you are never alone i love you and so many others do too, keep doing what your doing we love you and your stories

I understand how you feel. I was su!c!dal at one point, sometimes I still think about hurting myself. This all started round about when I was in year 5 and people would start commenting on how I am overweight about my looks basically everything about me and I have tried to k!ll myself once. It was only like 2 years ago I think and I was basically breaking down but it was on the inside so I wasn't crying or anything I looked fine on the outside but I was just sitting in my bed, staring at my bedroom wall and thinking if I should do it... I don't wanna say to much because i don't like sharing things because of how many hatters there are but I feel like I was a mistake or something. But when I came across your videos about 1 year ago I started feeling better. I started loving myself a little bit more and honestly when I feel upset or like I wanna selfh@rm I come to your account and watch all your videos and it always makes me smile and I wanted to thank you for your videos and showing me I am not worthless. 😊

It feels good when you know you are not alone when someone knows what you r suffering through cuz they have suffered through it too... I shouldn't be happy and i don't want anyone to feel what you feel or I feel or any other mental health patient feels...but having someone like us and supporting us feels good....so thanks a lot for sharing you story❤

8:56 i feel the exact opposite, i feel like i need to have someone to keep me entertained, to keep me busy, to talk to me. I hate being alone because then i am just left with my own thoughts, my own feelings, my loneliness, my anxiety, me overthinking, and i am left with my brain telling me i suck. I wish i could tell someone about this but i am scared to be vulnerable, i am scared to trust people. And when i do trust people, the very few people i am scared to tell them about how i feel, at the throught of them finding me depressing or boring (i know they would never find me like that, a lot of them have their own mental problems) but its also the thing that i have always been the 'therapist friend' or the 'mom friend' that i listen to them because I dont want them to feel they are alone, to feel like they arent heard. I always felt like i wasnt heard, and that caused me to trust people less and be more closed up or scared to be vulnerable. So if you are going through something please talk to someone ❤ and stay safe. Thx for listening to my rant😅

As someone who has literally tried to drop from a ten story building because I didn't fit in...Yeah. I get this. Also the whole no-reason-to-be-depressed thing is something my parents told me when I first started showing signs. They actually got MAD that I got depressed. Also, yes, my Amilai Salkhann is my safe space too. She is everything I am, and everything I wish I could be. I relate to you, Cae. So much. And I like, live on the other end of the planet.

I'm not revealing my age, but I'm a minor. People never take me seriously when I need help. They say I'm too young to feel this way. But genuinely I'm terrified of my own brain. I'm trying so hard but it just takes over me. 24/7 I'm either screaming in rage, sobbing uncontrollably, or just numb. I trying so hard to not go down the path of cutting myself. I'll scratch myself so hard that it sometimes breaks skin because I know if I don't I'll pick up a blade. I feel like I can't vent to anyone because I've tried but it gets no where. It's just two parts of my brain fighting constantly for control: the part that's telling me to die and the part that's telling me to live. Sorry for a sort-of-long vent. Thanks for making this video Cae, because I relate so hard. Love your vids, keep shining 🌻🌻🌻

I don’t have anxiety or any disorders I know of but I feel for you and it may be hard when people just say keep going when your stuck and just can’t get out but a lot of people understand what you’re going through I love your videos and your amazing ❤️💖

I get really depressed and you videos just make me so happy 😊

Hi Cae, I just wanted you to know, that you're not alone and you're so strong. I appreciate the amount of joy you bring to us and the posivity you're spreading around. You're an amazing, smart and gorgeous woman. Never give up, we are here for you.💜

4:41 I feel you Cae anxiety is so bad for me too especially when it comes to personal problems so we, as you sunflowers, are here. (edit) I also suffer from ADHD

You are very strong! You inspire so many people including me. You’ve really helped me to be more open and confident with my love of fantasy and making worlds and characters in my head! We all love you.

i feel exactly the same i am going through the same thing most of the time i feel you and i get how you feel keep pushing. you are amazing and you have a huge heart and make people smile. dont let the people who hate get to you

I am sorry you have to go through that, that sounds utterly exhausting. You are incredibly brave for being so open and honest about it, I can't imagine how scary it is