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TOXY! - 鯨木
• • TOXY! / 鯨木【Official Mu...
The MV was made by: PANDA
(Aka Loveit & Lovecat!!!)
and the music and lyrics are NILFRUITS!!!
So I literally had to sing it as soon as I saw it. This is not a very happy song, I think it's pretty clearly about substance abuse and the dulling of your senses over time. Falling into addiction is not fun or easy, especially to deal with all by yourself.
It felt cathartic to be able to sing about something I somewhat deal with in my daily life, in one way or another, and the music is just absolutely fire so yeah. It had to be mf done you guys.
I'm not super duper proud of the mix, but i felt the sudden urge to release SOMETHING so that's what I did. Can't always be perfect lol, and besides, my channel is truly just a little collection of songs that I want to share with a larger audience, even on a smaller scale. I do this for fun cuz i am nawt getting paid ☠️☠️☠️
one day tho ☝️🤓
anyways. thanks for listening, if you like the lyrics ofc you are welcome to use them, as always.
lyrics ~
Down sidewalks
Where I, a "Where am I?"
And the "skybox"
Spins to- spins tonight
Paradoxical talks
no end in sight...
Am I losing my mind...?
Heading home now
Bombs will- bombs will drop.
Dance around town
Lights will- lights will pop
Fire deep down
Vaguely faintly caught
In my anger, I drown.
I'm begging
Don't let me
Don't let me dissipate and fade away
Into the darkness below me...
Into the darkness that's growing...
Don't let me
Don't let me try to love until I live
To hate this world I'm in
And eat away at it's limbs like a poison-
The shots pour in
It's really
TOXY, TOXY, TOXY.
Wouldn't you say, how long you'll stay?
Here to
WATCH ME, WATCH ME, WATCH ME,
Fall out of grace.
Wonder if you'll save the day.
I could kick self pitying
and stick to life the right way.
But only up until the sun is raised...
Fucked up and lonely TOXY, TOXY, TOXY.
Spinning and dazed, the nausea stays.
Watch it TOSS ME, TOSS ME, TOSS ME
Everyday, praying for something to change.
Tragic love, tossed up and down.
My life is a merry-go-round.
This cycle has me in a chokehold
This show is done, though...
Run it back tomorrow....
Ahh~ "living is a gift", they say,
when everyday's the same.
Speed run and skip to where I'm in my grave.
Life won't give you auto-saves,
you'll never get to hit "new game"
Our time of termina is down the block
The needle on
the clock.
At 23:00 got stuck.
Nothing is lost so it's fine,
No love lost so I'm fine.
Woah, woah, woah...
Don't let me
Don't let me break to bits and disappear
Into the darkness behind me...
Into the darkness inside me...
Don't let me
Don't let me try to love until I give
Up on this life I live,
That eats away at my limbs, like a poison-
That I dive in.
Easy!
TOXY, TOXY, TOXY.
When did you throw me to my ways.
You don't
SEE ME, SEE ME, SEE ME,
Fallling from grace
Cuz you gave me up anyway.
I could kick self pitying
and stick to life the right way.
But life needs substance for the heartache.
Fucked up and lonely TOXY, TOXY, TOXY.
Spinning and dazed, the nausea stays.
Watch it TOSS ME, TOSS ME, TOSS ME
Everyday, praying for something to change.
Tragic love, tossed up and down.
My lifes a merry-go-round.
This loop I'm married to will just stay
This show is done,
But Morning brings a replay~
Ah na na na na na....
Poisoned; I need
TOXY, TOXY, TOXY
What do you say? Watch me decay.
It helps me.
LOVE ME, SICKLY, I NEED.
A shot of pain,
To brave each and everyday.
Nauseous love has claws in me
This carousel is all I need.
The curtain closed on mr.lonely
On my own, each days the same old story.