Need to come on here and say a massive thankyou to you all for the support 💗 I was absolutely terrified to post this video because of my thoughts & feelings. It’s so nice to see I/we aren’t alone 🥰

You are the realist youtuber I watch. Understand your reasons for not uploading that video but even that snippet was so relatable💖.

so much props to you for keeping it so real; showing how hard things can actually be and sharing this journey with us 💚💚 so much love to you jess xx

loved this video you are so honest which you never see anywhere else on KZfaq that’s why people love your channel so much ❤️ Hope the pregnancy is going well, P will make the best big sister! Xxxx

Can I just say from what I can see your an amazing mam, you have a good head on your shoulders! You’ll do just fine doing it all over again! So excited to watch your journey xxx

i’m so excited to watch your journey i’ve watched you since your first ever video, makes me emotional 😭🤣🥰

Your honesty is incredible. Well done to you for being so open. Motherhood is so damn hard and you've taken the time to think about it all without any rush which is very admirable. You are a great mum and everyone struggles but like you said its that security you want for your children when they grow up to have siblings xx

It’s excellent news Jess...you are an amazing mum ..and exactly having a lil brother/sister for p is brilliant..I’ve got a brother and sister and when times can be tough they are your rock...can’t believe it’s nearly a yr since you moved in your new home...so bloody exited for you all xxx💕

You will smash being a mum of 2 💓 I think being a mum is the best but hardest job ever. P will be the best big sister and you will be so proud to see your children together x

I never comment, but I absolutely loved this video. Probably the most raw & realistic video I've ever seen. You're a great mom & will even better with #2. Like you've said, you know what to expect so you'll be prepared.

I love how open and honest you are you dont sugar coat anything ... we all struggle at times and think why am I doing this... I have 5 kids and as much as they drive me insane at time and I could scream I wouldn't be without them ... thank you for keeping it real and cant wait to see the bump growing and watch your updates .. p is going to be amazing big sister x

Aww Jess. I totally understand your fear and reservations. I also over think everything and worry about what people think which makes my anxiety worse.I've said it before and I will say it again. Love your honesty and how you are completely yourself in your vlogs. I don't think you give yourself enough credit! You are a fabulous mother and any future baby will be lucky to have u!

Jess you’ve got this girl 👊🏼👊🏼👊🏼 your an amazing mummy and the fact that your overthinking shows how much you care about things xx

Your honesty is so refreshing. It's ok to not feel like you've got your shit together all the time and to worry, it's because you care so much. My idea of motherhood and the reality was two very different things and looking back my youngest is 6 and eldest is 10 im glad the reality was different as I've learnt so much good and bad and it's moulded me into a better person, I've more understanding, more empathy, more patience, resilience, more kinda to myself. Good luck with the pregancy and hope your doing ok mentally and physically xxxx

Can’t wait to watch your journey 🥰🥰

A brilliant start to your new adventure. Love it. Congratulations again xxx

Honestly second time round is so much easier! Congratulations! Looking forward to updates! Xx

You are a fantastic mum to P and will be a fantastic mum to baby number two. Remember, nothing worth doing is ever easy. Yes, it will be difficult at times but like you said, it will all be worth it in the long run. Love your honesty about the whole subject. I'm sure many, many, many mums can relate. 😘😘😘

What an inspiration! Not many people would be as true and honest as you have been with your parenting journey! As a mother of 2 myself with a 4 year age gap I also questioned it alot but I wouldn't change anything for the world and once you have the routine you will be so surprised with yourself. Can't wait to see your journey on getting ready to become a mother of 2 but all you have to do is look at that amazing little girl you have already and know that you are the best mom they could ask for struggles or no struggles xxxxxx

This was brilliant Jess, love how much detail you go into ☺️ we also planned both our pregnancy’s our daughter has just turned 3 and we are on 4 week countdown to baby boy 🥴 I am SO excited to watch your baby#2 Journey xx

Wow, well done Jess. Dont be so hard on yourself, the way you get there is brilliant. 💜💜

Your an amazing mum, it gets tough sometimes but that doesnt make you any less of a mother! It happens to most of us, im so so so happy for you all 🙂xx

Being a parent is the hardest job but having watched you for a long time now I know this is the right decision for you and your family...You're a brilliant mummy and you can and will be able to do it and in time you will realise you have made the right decision. It's ok to be open and honest about the way you feel and I feel honoured that you have shared your thoughts with us...try not to worry it will all be ok and so worth it xxx

So excited to watch your journey 😘🎉

Love how honest you are xxxx

Hi Jess , I have 2 girls one is 9 and the other is 5 , they are so close and it's lovely to watch them together and love each other . Some days are hard , but it's all worth it in the end . Thank you for always being so honest about motherhood, we need more people like you online ! Xx

Oh jess u do make me laugh. I thought I worried alot. Much love to u all and I look forward to seeing u be a super mum of 2!!!

I LOVE you, not in a weird way but freaking adore you ❤ Thank you for being real, for speaking, for being vulnerable and for sharing your thoughts, feelings and opinions. You are so right when you say that people don't really state what they feel for fear of judgement, screw that, you are the perfect example of real and down to earth. I appreciate you so much, really. I can kind of relate to you in the sense of overthinking, but I had to force myself to stop and to let go and just ride the flow lol. It makes things easier. Remember not all nannies are the same, my daughter was HARD work, and I got pregnant and had my son exactly the same age gap as yours. He was a piece of cake, completely different lol. Cant wait to follow your journey, you're going to be just fine ❤

Wow!! A lot goes on In that head of yours!!! I have a 4 year old girl and just had my second girl and both were unplanned! The way the new baby looks at her big sister is my new favourite thing in the world❤️ your a great mum and P and baby number 2 deserve you❤️

Thank you so much for posting this, I've been having the same internal fight with myself for the past few months, I think about it and way things up most days and I'm driving myself mad, you've basically put all of my thoughts into words and you're spot on saying the days are long but the years are short, I think I need a proper chat with my hubby now 🙈😂

Congratulations again! So excited for you and looking forward to the updates! I’m still in the 1 kid club haha-33 in a few months so can’t see me changing my mind. Make sure you get the sound sleeper app back 😅 xxx

I am soo glad you did!! I had kids late in life it was a struggle Ivf is not easy! Bless you sweet girl!! X especially for P she deserves a sibling! X

I wish i could have jumped back in time and given you a hug back in may and february 💖 You’ve got this 👌 There is never the right time is there ;) Pregnancy with the second goes so fast, you wont have any more time for this overthinking 🙃 Thank you for sharing your thoughts 😘

Congratulations Jess your a fab mum 💕 you will smash it just like you have with p can’t wait for the next update xx

Second time around is easier as you are more relaxed and don’t sweat the small stuff, looking forward to sharing your journeys xx

Never come across more of a real KZfaqr than yourself. Every other KZfaqr sugarcoats motherhood and shows nothing but positive all the time, but I just love your honesty and wish I seen more content like this nowadays. You’re doing incredible 💛

I always love your videos and your honesty x

You are so honest and relatable, I am such a planner and over thinker as well!! I have a nearly 18month old girl and the second sibling debate and age gap is always playing on my mind Xx

I’ve just had my second baby girl, she’s 6 weeks old.. my oldest is 3.5. I was sooo scared because I knew what to expect. But honestly I have found it so much easier than I thought, I really worked it up in my head! But honestly you will love being a mum to two children. I love it. Congratulations again 💕 xxx

Super excited for you 🤞🏼💜 I also am a massive planner & I knew when my first turned 1 we would try and it took me 3/4 months & I fell pregnant the exact same month I did first time round so had 2 June babies 2 weeks apart in birthdays ( ideally I didn’t want that but now I wouldn’t change it for the world ) I have 2 beautiful daughter & being so close in age plus same season means using all the old clothes again and it works with the seasons so I love it x x x

Many congratulations to u, can’t wait for the updates along the way xxx 👍

I have a daughter the same age as P and a 9 month old. I had my second child for the EXACT same reasons as you. To say I have struggled being a mum is an understatement but I’m glad I made the decision to have a second so I know that my child will never be alone. Yes you’re an over thinker but so am I and there is nothing wrong with that. Excited to see your new journey ❤️

I feel like I could have made this video myself. I am now about to have my second child in Nov. I'm very excited, but also so scared. I really struggled with the two's, and really never wanted to go through it again. My daughter is now 3 1/2 . I overthink things, and worry about the future way too much. My mom always tells me, it's because I worry that makes me a good mom. I feel the same about you, worrying just means you are doing your job right. You are such a good mom. Can't wait to watch your upcoming Vlogs!

The scariest thought is to have another 1 but each child is different and the next one will be different, I'm 35 and am pregnant with our 3rd and I thought I was done at 2, but am glad I didn't think too long otherwise I would have regretted it. I'm so pleased as you are the ones on KZfaq that don't put Rose tinted glasses on everything, so thankyou😘

Love love your vlogs you are so honast and real . You are an amazing mum and I’m so happy for you all 👍👍

You're a brilliant mum and you're gonna absolutely smash this 👌🥰xxx

I resonate with everything you have said in this video 🙌🏻 my first is only 4 months and I’ve found it SO much harder than I ever imagined, and the toddler years haven’t even come for me yet 😂🙈 I also find myself overthinking EVERYTHING, including when to have another 🙈 why are we like this 😂 thank you for posting this! Xx

“I just need to get pregnant now” 🤣 remember in the park that day discussing this, I promise second is easier & the age gap works well as Emily helps gets Darcys nappies, clothes out etc. P will be the best big sister xx

I discovered your channel yesterday...thank you so much for posting this! It's pretty much how I'm feeling now too, almost everything you described I can totally relate to. My little boy is 4 in October and we want a sibling for him but at the same time I'm terrified!

Felt a bit teary watching the clip you uploaded. I have a 3 year old & feel exactly the same.. good luck with everything!

I'm glad you have spoken about the struggles I totally feel how I feel. My eldest was 4.5 yrs when I had my second before that I was terrified to go through it all again I honestly thought also I would only have one as I was traumatised from giving birth etc and toddler behaviour. When my second was born it was easier than first time, I hope it is for you too and good luck with the pregnancy. My son is also 4 in November 😊❤ xx

Loved this ❤️

You will be amazed how it just clicks when you're new addition arrives Jess. It will be like he/she has always been there. The difference between any baby that comes along after your 1st is that they just fit in,what I mean by that is,you don't go with their routine (like your 1st) they go with yours. I'm a Mum of 6 and it just works,like you I'm a "planner" (Christmas is almost in the bag,even wrapped😂) so I can relate to you in that sense but you will do great..... I live my life with lists and I love it. Congratulations again and enjoy your pregnancy,I always missed my bump even though I had my baby (I sound nuts when I say that out loud) 😂 xx

Omg this is so true and relatable - I feel exactly the same 🙌

I felt like this with my second pregnancy too and my anxiety was all over the place always making a bigger picture and other thinking but once he was with me all them thoughts went.. I think it’s just natural as you know what to expect this time around xx

I really struggled being do young at 19 with my first but we grew up together . I then fell pregnant at 24 with my second and it was the best decision I made it was like doing it all again felt like being a mum for the first time, you feel prepared and confident and I have enjoyed every second he has just started reception and I’m me again🙂 Congratulations lovely 😊 xxx

I'm so excited to watch this journey. I've just had a miscarriage and ectopic pregnancy back to back so I'm made up for you being pregnant. Congratulations! X

I felt the exact same I promise. When we started ttc I actually hoped it would take longer than it did so I could have a bit more time. I actually sobbed when I got the positive test because I was so scared. I spoke to my midwife about how i was feeling and she reassured me it was very common. It took me about 3 or 4 months to be content with expecting again and once baby was born, I honestly looked back and wondered what I was so scared about. X

“Do you want a brother or a sister?” No 😂😂😂😂

I have a 11 year old a 10 year old and a nearly 3 year old. I was 19 when I had my 1st and 21 with my 2nd. The best thing I done was have them so close in age, seeing them growing up together, doing everything together and having each other no matter what has been amazing and I've never regretted having them close. Yes was hard but seeing them now and seeing how close they are has been so worth it. X

My other half is an only child and he loves the fact that our little girl is an only child and will probably stay that way as he doesn’t want anymore, I would love more

Exactly what I kept thinking before we tried! Well I always knew I wanted another but the reasons why I did want another was the same as you, didn’t want my first to be lonely etc wanted him to always have a friend. My first was 16 months when we decided to try and the next month I was pregnant. Then when I was pregnant I desperately wanted another boy and overthought that too... happily for me (of course a girl would of been nice too but just being honest) I got the second boy I wanted. I found having the second so easy, the newborn stage was so easy, I missed my free time when my first was in bed at night etc as baby was still awake but didn’t bother me as much as I thought. Now my second is 14 months and I thought now would be when it would become easy, and I find it so hard! I’m mentally exhausted and drained but I wouldn’t change it for the world. And when one of them is driving me crazy the other one is almost guaranteed to put a smile on my face. You will do fab, it’s so worth it. So pleased you are pregnant and I’m so excited to watch your journey! P will be a fab sister and your heart will be bigger than you ever thought possible x

Took almost 3 years to get pregnant with my 2nd and my 2 girls are 5 years apart. I was so worried about the age gap but I can now say I wouldn't change a thing my 2 girls are 8 and 3 and are little bffs. Having 2 will be amazing and p will be a fantastic big sister x

Wow... You upset in the clip saying you'd made a decision not to have anymore children... Is me right now, I'm so glad I'm not the only woman feeling like that, I literally have that same thing of one minute I'm saying I should have another one and then the next I'm saying I just can't do it. Most women I know say they'd have another child in a heart beat and I envy that. I know deep down, I would love another child and for my 2 year old son to have a younger brother or sister. But I'm just lost to weather I actually can. My son had such bad reflux, was under a pediatrician, still has a dairy allergy and hardly slept. And now he is going through the terrible twos. I'm so over the moon for you and this gives me hope. Congratulations to you all. You really are a realist and an inspiration hun xx

I totally get you! I am in exact same situation right now (well not pregnant yet) , I’m in same position as you were in THIS vlog lol if that makes sense ❤️

Congratulations hunny xxx ur amazing xx

For me the second time was WAY easier (not baby wise as second was more clingy ) but you just know that everything Is temporary and everything will pass. I cant explain how the love grows with two but it really does. I now have a 5 and 2 year old and could not be more happy x

You are so honest and wow yes are you an over thinker ha ha asking for a table for 4! Ha ha it's so daunting but my goodness so worth it, and I wanted a sibling for Annabelle to have a best friend so much and all these 2 do is fight ha ha ha ha however that is improving with age, we go through so many challenges but we have 2 beautiful children so worth every second! Cant wait to see your journey x x x

There are struggles with 1 baby and struggles with 2 babies, kids are difficult! I used to plan and overthink everything but I've had 3 unplanned pregnancies and now shit just happens the way it happens. If dinner isn't at 5 then oh well it will be ready when it's ready where as if I only had 1 and dinner wasn't at 5 I would be freaking thinking I'm failing at life and my child will become a failure 😂 some shits not worth the stress or over think. The fact you care shows your a good mum x you got this 👌

Jess I just love you you have me laughing because that's exactly how I feel atm with figuring out if I want a baby at all and I am 35 lol x

Can’t wait I’m due baby number 1 18th Dec so excited

This is everything. I have a toddler right now and we are in a place where we are really happy but our little boy has special needs and we will never have things like grandchildren from him and all we worry about it who’s going to look after him when we go. So we are trying for another baby. But I’m terrified x

Totally get where u are coming from I am nearly 10 weeks pregnant we around about the same time my date April but my wee boy was born 33 weeks c section so I will be a bit early x

How quickly did you fall with baby 2? Everything your saying is exactly how I’m feeling right now!! I talk myself in and out of it all the time and it’s driving me crazy!x

I had a second baby purely for my daughter she was 4 at the time and begged me for a brother or sister, I was more than happy as I was with 1, I can honestly say 3 kids down best thing we have ever done, love them all equally which was always a worry for me, it will change your family forever for the better I promise xx

I have three children and none to one is definitely harder. You’re more prepared the second time. x

Sounds like me I've got a nearly 11yr old and a 2yr old as I couldn't decide if to have another or not! I've struggled massively this time around with my mental health but I wouldn't change anything for the world. I always said to myself I'll never regret having another but I'd regret not having another. You'll be fine xx

My second is 4 months and my eldest is 2, things are definitely easier second time round! Xx

Everything you’ve said is me I’ve got a 3 year old and my god it’s so hard and it’s the fear of upsetting my routine that works and is perfectly fine that puts me off another one it’s not that I don’t want a 2nd it’s just the fear of knowing what’s to come I don’t know if I’ll ever get over this fear it’s also the 2 car seats the night feeds then having the nursey/school run to do and my partner is so laid back he’s horizontal which doesn’t help my fears either 🤷🏻‍♀️ but it’s when I lost my mum if I didn’t have my sister I was ‘on my own’ and the thought of anything happening to either of us and my son being on his own kills me it’s not an easy decision to make and like you said the age gap is on,y getting bigger and I feel like the bigger the age gap it’s less appealing to go back and do it all again xx

It's such a hard one I have one full sibling & 2 half sister's and we are not close at all. I don't have anything to do with my mum & dad for different reasons. I do feel alone but I am happy as I don't have the stress anymore.

Am in the exact same situation as you. My little boy turns 2 next month and i have been struggling. I come from a small family 2 I am an only child my part at has a brother so I am on the fence weather to have another baby or not x

For me personally I found having my second child a lot easier, simply because I sort of knew what to expect and I didn’t take things to seriously. I was less nervous about the silly things and so far she’s growing into a really chilled out little girl, all though we are approaching the terrible two’s so that will all probably change 😬😂

I absolutely love your videos :) we trying to conceive again I fell pregnant in June but miscarrried at 7 weeks but we still ttc :) xx

My girls are 5 years apart and it's a lovely age gap, you'll 100% smash having 2, maybe you'll end up with 6 kids, who knows, but you'll be absolutely fine 👍🏻 xx

Your the most amazing mum to pea , and you are going to the best mum to baby number 2 .. can’t wait to find out what you havein btw , and I’m the same with the pill I came off my pill about a month ago now and I want a baby , and how did you find out you was pregnant even tho I know you will known the signs xx

All your reasons was the reasons we had a second I now have a girl who is 4 and now a 9month. I didnt my wanted my little girl to be on her own I am an only child . Oh yeah it has been hard but when I see my little girls face with her brother the bond is there already even with the age gap

Will you be moving or is your house big enough for baby number 2 xx

Another baby is the best idea. You won't have any time to over think. 😂😂😂😂