Does anyone else feel like they lie to others so much that they start believing their own lies? or that they are stuck in a dark void and each lie they tell they go down deeper and deeper loosing sight of the light? And no one knows how u r feeling and that u feel like u r drowning? I do every single day...

I saw this in a comment: “Would you go right with nothing left,or left with nothing right?”

" Hey, how are you?" 4y ears old, my kindergarten bestfriends betrayed me. 6 years old, my crush laughed at me and my friends don't payed attention to me 7 years old, I got to school. I got bullied and class laughed at my name. 10 years old, new school. No one talked to me except a girl. She smiled at me and asked to be friends. 5 months later she died in cause of cancer. I started cutting and my mom became colder to me. 12 years old, all my friends left school. An other girl talked to me and we became friends. I noticed scars on her wrists. "What's that?" I said. "A cat scrached me" she said. After 3 months she commited suicide. 13 years old, went to Germany and made friends with a kind boy. We became bestfriends. I went back to country. We were texting almost everyday. After some months, he died in a car crash. *I'm fine*

It’s funny how strangers care more than your own friends🙂

Depression is like a Body that try's to survive, but a mind that try's to die

They say “Follow your Heart" But what if Your Heart is in a Million Pieces, which piece do you follow?

This is a scary generation. The people that aren't depressed say that they are, and those people ruined it for the ones that actually are depressed. Depressed people are usually alone in this world because no one believes them. When I attempted suicide on a school bus I was just laughed at because "I only stabbed myself for attention" Only until the very end of the bus ride one of my friends heard about what I did and tried to talk to me. I felt like even more shit, and was laughed at even more because people thought I was crying from the stupid thing I did. No, I was crying because this was going through my mind: " I want to die I want to die I want to die... " My parents just thought it was a 'phase' I was going through, since I had no reason to feel like this, I just do. But what makes me angry now is the people that are complete fakes and try to act depressed, and get attention for it. I don't like how I turned out because of this and receiving no help. I lie about every single little thing for no reason, I push away people that show a sliver of care, I'm not even in touch with my emotions. I'd be crying one minute and laughing like a psychopath the next. I stopped feeling empathy for anything around me, and have sudden urges to kill whatever's in front of me. I'm on the borderline for whether I want to die or not. All this hate that I've collected for myself, I take it out on the nearest person. The best part: people think I'm happy just because I'm a straight A student. You don't know who's suffering, or what someone's been through. And you don't know whether they're being fake or real since everyone deals with their problems differently. For example, my method is crying in the shower every night, while someone in my life that has been diagnosed with depression posts stuff like, "I wanna die" on their profile. Thanks for coming to my ted talk and listening to this whole rant 😂😂

When she was 7, she wanted to be an astronaut When she was 8, she wanted to be a pop star When she was 9, she wanted to be a doctor When she was 10, she wanted to be a teacher When she was 11, she wanted to be happy When she was 12, she wanted to be dead And by the time she was 16, she was.

“Telling someone with depression to just be happy and smile is like telling someone with Asthma, Just breath it’s not that hard. Or someone who is paralyzed just move! It’s easy. Or a deaf person to just listen to you.” Edit: so I see some of you are respond with rude things. Please if your not gonna say something nice just don’t say it at all. A lot of the other people replying are going through something and you saying that rude response won’t do anything to help. Thank you all

Pretending is so much easier than excepting reality...

Has anyone noticed when you can't feel anything anymore, when you don't have true emotions, when you don't care anymore. You just feel bored, tired, empty and pointless.

I don't know why I can't stop crying. My tears keeps falling , i dont know how i feel after these song but i feel something that i cannot describe. Its not just sadness

BUT I‘LL BE FINE PRETENDING THAT IM NOT SAD THAT THIS SONG IS NOT AVAILABLE BY SPOTIFY

Guys, we're died inside, but we still living. We're strong We're good We're... we are a family. So, if you need a family, just join to us.

Does no one actually get what this song is about? It isn't about depression, even if it is sad, from what it sounds like, it's about someone watching a close friend trying to hold on to a love which isn't there anymore, they want to make them realize that it's time to move on and stop pretending everything's alright, but they can't find a way to make the realize it.

I remember listening to this song when I was a kid, I was about to give up so I listened to it on repeat. This song still comforts me.

me : *listening to super depressing sad songs* twin brother : are you depressed? me : no these songs are just really freaking good and... relatable sometimes

(2010: ???: "Im depressed." ???: "Oh! Are you ok?!") (2019: ???: "Im depressed." ???: "Same...")

Heart: offline Anxiety: online Mind: offline Love: no Signal found Depression: online

I've listened to this song for years. I love this song. I never thought much about it. And then one day.. Just today.. I figured out the feelings I have.. In a single song..

You just have to smile even though deep down...... You want to die

i found this by accident best accident ever!!

This song hit real close to home, I've been used by people as a therapist, its like, they open up with all their problems and i offer help and support, yet the moment i open up about my problems, i'm seen as just wanting attention. It forces me to put on a fake smile and burying my emotions, to the point where i'm numb. it's gotten so bad to the point where i've found it natural to keep them in, even when they ask if i want to talk about them... It feels weird smiling now, cause i know its fake, yet i have to continue so they think i'm fine. This isn't a call for help, it was just a vent.

For anyone reading this I wish you the best your life holds and i hope everything will be alright I hope all of you realize You matter just as much as anyone else So to anyone feeling sad I am here for you and hope everything improves 💓

Its easy to pretend, especially if you've done it so, long that its a normal thing to do, and the lies you tell you start to believe them your self.....because, I do. Whats wrong with one little lie or two thousand.....Pretending to be happy your entire life, it gets easy.

My mom relates to this song. My mom and step dad fight constantly. I hear them fight, she sleeps on the couch, and the next day she is "happy" with him. He drinks constantly. He hates us and she's broken. I sang this to her and she cried so much.

Friends: "How are you?" 5 year old me: "I'm so awesome! Me and mommy got ice-cream!" 6 year old me: "Fine.. i guess" 7 year old me: "Meh, i could be better, my life is going downhill a bit though" 8 year old me: "I don't know anymore.." 9 year old me: "I'm not good..." (Them: *walks away* 10 year old me: "...... why do you care?!" 11 year old me: "Let me find the word fine in my dictionary and ill define how much i'm am *not* fine" 12 year old me: " Fine"

I like to visit old nightcore songs that I used to listen to when I was depressed and almost suicidal. Coming back about two years since recovering reminds me of the days I used to hate myself, and makes me feel even more motivated to stay happy today.

Me: MOM! Come I broke something! Mom: What is it? Me: The replay button =3 Mom: -_-"

AGH I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO THIS BEAUTIFUL CREATION

Why is it that when someone is actually depressed no one believes them, but when someone is Fake depressed everyone believes them...

“The one that laughs the most, usually shed the most tears”

"Hey, Are you alright? You seem off today. Everything fine?" "N- Yes! Everything's peachy! Just a little tired is all!" She'd smile as her eyes watered "Excuse me for a moment, I Need to got to the bathroom!" She'd speed walk to the bathroom quickly hiding in a stall as she cried. She went out a couple minutes later. "Sorry, I got a call from someone!" What's wrong with pretending! It only breaks you slowly! Right?...

:what's wrong? me:Nothing N-umbness and pain O-thers judging me T-hinking about death H-ate I-gnorance N-othing inside G-reat, just great...

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This song is about a girl who doesn’t want to show that she’s hurting or falling apart because of their relationship. She’s trying to fight for their relationship and she can’t let go even though she knows it’s ending. She’s pretending she’s fine and she doesn’t care that he’s leaving.

To My Bully, 'My Heart Isn't Paper, So don't Tear it apart. My Feelings aren't toys, so Don't Play with them. My Body isn't a Punching bag. So don't Beat it. 😔😢 It's just Ironic..I told my Depressed friend To smile and be Happy. she did. And it isn't fake. Why..Can't.. Why can't *I tell Myself to be Happy and Smile?*

I pretend all the time just to make people happier

*Me:*Making my family happy while faking a smile** *Them: She is so happy and lively! Thats what we love about you..* Little do I want to shout that I wanna die...But I cant and dont want too

Hi i'm going through these old songs for the nostalgia. My nightcore faze was probably the darkest time in my life. I managed to make it through it and you will too don't give up.❤️ I listened to this so much while going through a toxic relationship listening to this now a year later made me cry so much

Bestfriend: "are you OK?" Me: "yeah just tired....." Tired of smiling, tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of pretending I'm fine when I'm actually crying inside and my heart in pieces...

Here's an original poem (not rhyming) Dont change for someone else Everyone sucks Please help Realise that you are worth nothing Every second of my life I wonder why I'm still living Save me Say I love you and I'll say it back I need someone by my side Only when I am in a crowd I feel alone Never been loved before Never will be Depression...

i used to listen to this in 2021/2022 when i was depressed and going through a really hard time coping with the world around me, now it's 2024 and i can say for sure that it does get better

If there is a song you like, most probably you'll sing along and vibe with it But for this song it's really worth it to just keep a resting face and listen to its lyrics quitely 💙💙💙

“She can’t feel the pain” Then why can’t I? I feel hurt and lonely every day…

People say “oh it’s easy to get out of depression just be happy” when they don’t know what happens in the world...the world is cruel guys remember to keep going threw the hard times...don’t pretend to be happy when your not that’s not helping the depression...ik it’s hard to smile in depression and even I f you do yourself makes it seem like the smile was fake...

It's sad how people like us who have depression wanna say everything is ok and pretending it alright tbh I'm in a 3 year depression state I didn't notice until my therapist told me and gave me medicine tbh I don't want to take it anymore

This song felt like the ending of everything when I first heard it. It was light. The kind that illuminates true feelings, not the kind that makes things brighter. This song saw me at the beginning of a horrible spiral that almost killed me. Now, Alec's rewritten it and retitled it "It's over when it's over," and I survived the spiral. Please try again. Try one more time. It might lead you to a rewrite you never thought you'd get either.

2019？？ And this song was just like me. When I was sad,cry I never let others know. Every day I just think:Maybe I just go to die if I die I can not get hurt....... But I didn’t do it.

Love it.When I hear the lyrics that hurt. why the hell this song is not famous.

Friend: you really love listening that kind of songs? R u depress ? Me that feels alone but can even say because im afraid that they will look at me like im lost: no. I just like sad songs...

When they tell me to “try” what’s the point? Why should I? Nothing makes me happy anymore.

Pretending... Sounds familiar. Pretending you're depressed Pretending you have anxiety but the only thing you are pretending is your happiness

Who can actually relate to this, other than me

They don't notice your pain They don't notice your scars They don't notice the tears But they notice every mistake you make

This is the type of melody I like in songs.

The most common lies I tell are I'm fine,I'm not hungry,I already ate,and nothing's wrong

in the reality I have a friend after a few second there gone so i always smiling with no reason just like this song I'm always pretending

Got a whole playlist of depresso Nightcore songs from when I was a teen. Listening to them after I’ve become happier is one of the most satisfying feelings that I hope all of you feel one day as well.

Here's the difference Sad: you feel sad for a while but it ends up going away and you know exactly what you're sad about Depressed: you are carrying this with you all the time and you feel empty inside, you have no clue why your sad at all These are the differences bet the two feelings. I do hope that you guys are ok and I'm here for now.

Little girl: hey, what's that on your wrist? Me: Battle scars.. Little girl: cool, you were in a war? Me: ya.. A really hard one..called.. heh, never mind... Little girl: cool I want some! Me: no, please don't get ANY..just promise me, if you ever see someone with battle scars, hug them and tell them they're beautiful.. Little girl: I promise...

i honestly love you guys, you people comfort me :)

it hurts a lot when you feel like your only friends are strangers on the internet who can relate to your problems rather than the people in your life whove known for a long time

Me- *sitting quiet* Friend- you ok is anything wrong you can tell me you know Me-*fake smile*yeah dont worry about me worry about yourself That's my life

This is literally my life rn

"She hopes that there's still something left" -that hit me hard

if someone is reading this i want u to know that even when life is harsh u still have friends, that care and love u, always, and i pray for u if u have a bad life❤

But I’d be fine pretending, everything’s alright... Even as its ending, Keep it inside... All the pain of my heart breaking...

What's wrong with u? Don't worry it's nothing...

This relates to me more then it should.

Why is there always something wrong? Why can't I be a shield for them? Why can't I be there for them? Why can't I be strong enough? Why can't I have energy? Why can't there be a happy day? Why can't anything be happy? Why can't I cry? Why can't I stay? Why can't life be so simple and happy? Why can't I just hurt myself? Why can't I stop existing? Why can't I.. .. Why can't I be someone? ..Why can I pretend?

"behind my smiles is a million tears you'll never see"

Suicide stand for..... *S* cared of life,I can't carry on.... *U* seless for everyone,they all want me gone... *I* mpossile to love,too impossible to care *C* onfused in this broken land,for me there's no one there *I* nvisible to everyone,they think I'm a bore *D* amaged at heart which they gladly tore *E* motional I can't possibly live anymore.... *I AM SUICIDAL*

I’m find pretending I’m ok 🙂 I’m fine pretending as long as others are happy...

Coming back this song just feels nostalgic ya know? Haven’t heard it in a while

I heard it over thousand time.It makes me cry.Love from Bangladesh. 💜

New SVs is coming soon! So stay tuned 🖤

The details in the picture n the meaning of the song is the best part of listning nightcore!!

" But every little fight and every little lie is impossible to hide " Counts as every battle scars you try to hide and every little lies you tell to yourself and you tell to the people who actually really cares for you.

"All their love is pending, so what is she defending?" Man, that hit me hard. If someone hurt me beyond repair to the point where I lay in bed all day and sleep and cry... Then why am I still defending him?

my friend had her headphones in and was dancing like it was the fastest coolest rap song and I asked what she was listening to and she gave me the name but wouldn't let me hear it and now I'm here and I am *extremely* concerned for my friend's mental health but yea. btw this song is a bop

When I first heard this song years ago, I never thought I'd relate to it. Well, here I am I guess

this brings back memories :,)

Lyrics: In this masquerade She can't feel the pain Cover up her heart With a little paint While he's pulling out a flask To hide it all away There's nothing left to say He knows that They're drowning She hopes that There's still something legt Let go now cause he's leaving But she'd be fine pretending Things werde alright Even while it's ending keep it inside She can feel them bending All their love is pending So what is she defending? Even when she says she'll open her eyes All her words are empty when she denies But she can feel them bending All their love is pending So what is she defending? But she'd be fine prete Eh eh eh eh eh eh Step into the light To look him in the eye Feeling so exposed She tries to stay composed But every little fight And every little lie Is impossible to hide He knows that They're drowning She hopes that There's still something left Let go now cause he's leaving But she'd be fine pretending things were alright Even while it's ending keep it inside She can feel them bending All their love is pending So what is she defending? Even when she says she'll open her eyes All her words are empty when she denies But she can feel them bending All their love is pending So what is she defending? But she'd be fine prete Eh eh eh eh eh eh I hate to watch her hurt I know it isn't right But she can't find the courage To leave it all behind I wish I had the words To help her realize That there is just no way To bring this back to life He knows that They're drowning But she'd be fine pretending things were alright Even while it's ending keep it inside She can feel them bending All their love is pending So what is she defending? Even when she says she'll open her eyes All her words are empty when she denies But she can feel them bending All their love is pending So what is she defending? But she'd be fine prete Eh eh eh eh eh eh She'd be fine

"let go now, cause he's leaving" wow, hit me. if that doesn't describe more than my life then i'm just wiered, but I swear that should be the quote of the year.

This hit hard. Really hard. This is that one song for me that when you hear it you fall apart, because it describes the situation you’re in SO perfectly. Songs have such a way of expressing emotions of the heart that are too painful and profound to put into words yourself.

POV: your that one kid with severe depression that no one believed, so you went to music for help wait!!! that's!!! me!!! this song is nice, very calming

God had a pencil ✏️ Nightcore had markers God drew the world Nightcore made it brighter for all of us Edit: likes own comment

"She'd be fine Pretending..." I identify with that phrase...

Omg, this was in my recommendation. I listened to this about 2 years ago crying to it because of how relatable it was. This was my comfort song 🥺

Why does nightcore understand my feelings, but my friend and parents thought i was joking about suicide

I just noticed that alot of alec's songs are talking about a "girl" from his point of view

*Watches one sad song* KZfaq recommendations: Oh, you’re sad now? *wElL hERe iS 1 mIlLiOn oF sAd sOnGs” Me: BISH WHAT-

for the people " i wish my life was game so i can quit it " " i wish my life was a game so i can pause it " " i wish people can see that words can hurt too " " i wish people see that behind this smile is my sadness " " i wish people can understand me " " i wish people can see the tears " " i wish people see the good i do and not only my mistakes " " i wish i can find the missing piece of my heart that can complete me " " i wish people would care for me not because i am gone " " i wish people could see the tears behind my smile " " i wish i was better " " i wish i was perfect " " i wish i wasn't a pain " " i wish i could help " " i wish i was fine " " i wish i was ok " " i wish i could do better " " i wish i could make you proud " " i wish that i could be happy again " " i wish i could remember how to smile " " i wish i wasn't depressed " " i wish the pain to go away " " i wish i can talk my pain to somebody " " i wish i could explain how much the pain hurts " " i wish you could see my struggles behind my fake smile " " i wish my battle will end someday " " i wish i could win my fight " " i wish you can see the pain i am in " " i wish you can remember me " " i wish i wasn't here " " i wish i was never alive " " i wish i could give my life to someone else " " i wish i wasn't in pain " " i wish i wasn't broken " " i wish my life was worth it " " i wish i could just fade away " " i wish i could have dreams " " i wish i wasn't tired of life " " i wish you can see all the pain " My hands are paper i will cut it My face isn't art so ill hide it My size is a book ill judge it My heart is a door ill look it My neck is hanger ill hang it My head is a target ill shoot it My life is just a film ill end it this is what we think well this is what I think I want you to know your perfect on your own way dont give up dont lose hope keep on fighting and win your battle prove the people who doubted you will win show them you can win that you did not give up because of them dont let their words get to you stay strong and keep on going forward and keep fighting show them you can do it that your in control, win and finish your battle finish the battle you started, overcome your fears dont lose hope just because of someone show them you are worth it show them what you can do show them you will never give up just because of what they say keep on hanging on I know you can do it. - Janah

I listen to this song nowing I have depression and take medicine for it But no matter how much medicine I take I always pretend to smile..... And always conintue to bleed

[Verse 1] In this masquerade, she can't feel the pain Cover up her heart, with a little paint While he's pulling out a flask, to hide it all away There's nothing left to say He knows that they're drowning She hopes that there's still something left Let go now cause he's leaving [Chorus] But she'd be fine pretending Things were alright, even while its ending keep it inside She can feel them bending All their love is pending so what is she defending? Even when she says she'll open her eyes All her words are empty when she denies But she can feel them bending All their love is pending so what is she defending? But she'd be fine prete (eh) x10 (she'd be fine) [Verse 2] Step into the light, to look him in the eye Feeling so exposed, she tries to stay composed But every little fight and every little lie is impossible to hide [Bridge] He knows that there're drowning She hopes that there's still something left Let go now cause he's leaving But she'd be fine pretending things were alright Even while its ending keep it inside She can feel them bending All their love is pending so what is she defending? Even when she says she'll open her eyes, all her words are empty when she denies Chorus] But she can feel them bending All their love is pending so what is she defending? But she'd be fine prete (eh) x10 (she'd be fine) I hate to watch her hurt, I know it isn't right But she can find the courage to leave it all behind I wish I had I the words to help her realize That there is just no way to bring this back to life [Bridge] He knows that, they're drowning But she'd be fine pretending things were alright Even while its ending keep it inside She can feel them bending All their love is pending, so what is she defending? Even when she says she'll open her eyes All the words are empty when she denies But she can feel them bending all their love is pending so what is She defending But she'd be fine prete (eh) x10 She'd be fine

I recognized Alec's voice immediately, even nightcored lol

Is no one going to talk baout how underrated and talented alex benjamin is? also, repsect for all these depressed people, even you. you deserve a better family, better friends, a better life. you really deserve it, you've been fighting for a long time and still you haven't given up? you are very strong then

Wow, after years of not listening to this, it came back to me at the perfect time.

???: are you ok..? Me: oh.. -im sick of tears, pain, the abuse, the lies, the wasted time, the bullying, anxiety, depression, empty words, broken hearts, the wasted love, the judgement, the constant reminder that im not enugh- i'm fine..