Sometimes it feels like I want the thoughts. It’s very scary and I have to fight the thoughts. I physically cringe and tighten my body or kinda hit my head to get the thought out of my head. I used to blink very rapidly to get the thoughts out but I stopped doing it. Update: Hello everyone it’s been quite a while since I wrote this comment. I struggled for a long time before I got the help I needed. 2 months ago I was finally able to get a therapist that specializes in OCD. I strongly urge if possible that if your struggle with these intrusive thoughts you seek professional help. I held it off for so long because I thought I could handle it myself. If your reading this update I hope you get the help you need. It saved me.

My mind is horrible. I feel trapped in the urges.

Does anyone else suffer with intense intrusive thoughts when waking in the night? They're so loud and so real!!!

I'm smiling with a huge, huge smile on my face because this is exactly what I am going through and then at the same time I worry about not having OCD...LOL.

I'm crying because I understand the pain you're talking about. Thank you for your.voice and support

I have been through severe depression and panic attacks for a long time and ocd takes the cake every time it is a living hell im trying to stay positive but thank you Chrissie I’m reading your book and recommend to anyone who has intrusive thoughts and just want to say I love the way you have passion for people like us because you know what it’s like.

Thank you so much for these videos. I suffer from POCD and it’s absolutely terrible. I felt as though life was not worth living because the disorder is just draining. I’m so glad to know I’m not alone in this. Blessings to you all.

Largely anxiety produces the symptoms you’re on guard for - nausea, headaches, arousal...etc.

Thank you so much. I won’t lie, I’ve been having so much hocd trouble. I relapse every few days. The worst part is when you convince yourself it’s true, so then it seems true. Before hocd, I had pocd. Before that, school grades. The best advice is to stay strong, get help, and remember, if it feels this bad, ITS NOT TRUE! This vid helped a lot, I’m starting to get better.

Logic: oh my god we both know you would never do that Me calming: down your right your right *silence* Intrusive thoughts: but what if you did Me crying: your right I’m a monster! I’m going to move to Antarctica where I can’t hurt or see anyone! Logic looks at intrusive thoughts Logic annoyed: are you just bored Intrusive thoughts: kinda yeah

Literally the 3 worst things of pure ocd in one video. I just wanna say thank you so much these 3 things were the things triggering me today and yesterday even though I thought I was doing better. I have POCD and it's dreadful. It's weird how when you want the groinal to happen it doesn't yet when you don't it does and I hate it so much!

Literally watching your videos have become a compulsion for my OCD brain...but thankyou so much anyway. You help me so much.

I'm scared cause my mind's making me believe I want to do it accompanied by arousal/urges which make it even worse. They feel so real, am I becoming it? The thought scares me to death.

Your videos always make me cry. Not just tear up, but slump over and cry my eyes out. You explain it all so well. It’s like you’re reaching into my heart and mind and pulling things out that I can never find the words to adequately express. Thank you so much for these videos and for all that you do to help us. ❤️❤️❤️

I was diagnosed with Pure OCD about a year ago, and it is horrible. My main theme is HOCD, and before I saw this video, I was having a lot of HOCD related dreams. I have been so scared that i’m actually gay that sometimes I can’t sleep (i’m a girl btw). This video really helped explain why we dream about our fears. Thank you Chrissie!!

thank you for making me laugh while also being in the middle of the scariest time of my life. alongside my own therapist, your videos are going to help me get through.

why do we believe in something so unbelievable and irrational? i mean deep down i know i am not that kind of person, but i need reassurance.

God bless you. Thank you for making these videos. It's like hell everyday with these fears and having the gronial effect. It's so hard because you hate and fear these things but they dominate your mind every day. Makes me not want to be around people....

Fantastic Chrissie’s!!!-you have a way of getting your message across loud and clear-great!!!

You're an awesome person Chrissie! Thank you so much!

Hi Chrissie: You are kind and compassionate, and I think that's amazing.

hey, i just wanted to let you know how much your videos helped me. felt so understood when i saw that other people were going through the same things as me, your channel just feels like a safe place and i find myself coming back to it when my thoughts get out of hand. thank you

You're amazing Chrissie- literally saving lives. Your personality and candor is wonderful as well! 😊❤️ Thank you for all you do!

Chrissie, what you're doing is so precious.

Chrissie thanks so much for making these videos. Thanks to you, people with OCD don't have to feel alone and they can actually hear someone with a lot of experience talk about difficult topics such as "the groinal". People need someone who understands. Feeling alone is the worst with OCD.

You have no idea how much this helped me. Thank you so much

Thank you Chrissie for this! Been struggling really bad with my OCD.

A million likes to you, Chrissie! Had this devil a lifetime and it's ruined a lot of things. Unnecessarily. God bless you.

I have never heard such an authentic description of what I have struggled with since my late teens, which you have touched on specifically. I have considered suicide many times because of this internal isolation and self torture, avoided relationships and jobs many times. I do have a psychologist and psychiatrist but I realise that it is an OCD specialist such as yourself that I really need to see'.

What a great lady

Thank you so much for this! The manifesting of symptoms HOLY SHIT YES. Literally last night I was scared of a specific illness and the ONLY symptom I didn't have was bloating...I thought well at least I don't have that! I woke up this morning bloated. Of course I did. Our brains are amazing, just gotta flip it on its head.

your video helped me a lot, thank you so much. im glad you talked about the groinal thing because I have that and didn't know that it was a syndrome and I couldn't figure out why I was having those feeling and they were making me feel like a terrible person and its so reliving to know that there is an explanation for it. When you were talking about something I got a little confused and then you said if u have OCD u will understand. Then I got scared because I got confused and was like does that mean I don't have ocd because I got confused for a few seconds. That is that black and white thinking of ocd because I understood like 99% of it but because I didn't understand one part I was like oh god! lol I know its not logical! ugh I hate ocd

chrissie you are a gift from god

This is super helpful ❤

It’s so much worse when you keep having sexual images/urges involving your parent. 😔 I hope I can fully get through this, I myself used to suffer with HOCD for a few years. That’s no longer a problem for me really, I know I’m not gay but it’s now my own mother, the last person I would ever want to have these intrusive thoughts about. I hate ocd. I would rather have HOCD again than suffering with the one I’m dealing with now.

Thank you so much, such valuable info

Coming from someone who had a benign brain tumour. This one did not cause headaches at all but it caused a lot of seizures which generalised over time. They started as Simple partial Seizures then Complex Partial Seizures and increased with frequency. They later generalised to mixed seizures between complex partiual seizures and tonic clonic (drop seizures). They got more frequent, in Oct 2006 they developed in to clusters of simple partial seizures which lead to having nearly 100 seizures a day as they would come on every 10 mins. Depends on where the brain tumour is, it does not always cause head aches but the surgery does cause a lot of headache, sickness and etc.

Hey grats on 5,000 subscribers!

You are so good!!! 😘🤗

I’m crying bc it finally feels like I some completely understand what I’m going through. I have all of this things and sometimes I cry out of Frustration because I know who I am and what I like and it just to the point we I feel so hopeless sometimes, I couldn’t even call my friends baby or babe or tell them they look cute anymore with my brain completely take over! Ugh, I was able to focus but I realize I was living in a high state of anxiety, bc I started smoking CBD and that when I knew, something was finally wrong with me.

This video is so fucking amazing lol it has helped me so much even though I’m still feeling slightly confused about the urge bit. Having said that I I’m getting my head round it a little bit. Thank you Christie xx

Thank you so much ❤ Yes, i always have the feeling that i'm the exception, "maybe it's real in my case, it is not hocd"... blabla and that's so distressing

I LOVE you videos...thank you for everything ♥️♥️♥️

Omg thank you! My adhd and ocd took me through witchcraft for like thirty years lol Super fun, but damn it triggers so much anxiety if the wrong thought happens at the wrong ritual moment lol

Thank you Chrissie ❤️

Omg I love you so much Thankyou for this video

Hi, Chrissie!!!❤️ i definitely get all of this and i honestly don’t think it’s ridiculous. Though, i haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, i honestly have felt all of this, I’ve thought most of this.

it’s weird for me..... I have had like 3 dreams about doing things with guys but literally every time I do it’s like my own conscious takes over and then I notice what I’m doing and then I go “what the fuck? nah GTFO ME!” it’s like my brain is trying to convince me but the REAL me is fighting it and telling it to stop already, like you know how in dreams you can’t hit hard?? well when a dude tried to go in for a kiss in my DREAM I was actually able to push him away and go like “no I’m not even like that” I don’t hate or dislike any gay people like “you do you” but “that ain’t me” and I don’t like it if someone knows that but still attempts to do stuff with me, but anyways back to what I was saying, what I was trying to say is that it really feels like even though I feel like I want it, in reality I really don’t because my own self is telling me who I REALLY am but these thoughts are what keep it in my mind

I resonated with every single thing you said!

Could you do a video about obsessions with having/developing personality disorders such as BPD, NPD etc? I have been struggling with this so badly recently :(

Hi there Chrissie. You r just awesome. Thank you for your videos. I was wondering if the groinal is a type of sensorimotor OCD because we are so much aware of the movements. What do u think ?

Idk if anyone is having this experience but let me explain. I always knew I'm straight but there are times when my brain has this urge to I guess "twist my words" and contradict what I want to say. Like for example just now I wanted to say "I like guys" to myself to reassure myself but I said the opposite " I don't like guys" which FREAKED ME THE FUCK OUT!!! I then started going down a rabbit hole of anxiety and doubt. "Why did I say that?! Dose this mean I'm actually Lesbian? Or Bi? Am I in denial?! Why is this happening?!" I DONT WANT THIS cause I feel horrible and sad cause I want to like guys. I just feel I'm not allowed to cause I'm having these hocd thoughts. Thank you for explaining OCD more. Love your channel. I felt I was the only one.

Thanks Chrissie!!!😀

You have saved me, thank you.

A big hello from germany! Gladly, I found your videos which made me feel like no longer being alone with this or feeling like a monster... a huge thank you for your videos and your honesty about all the experiences you've made... feels so good to hear about that... my question is: does anybody has the fear of touching themselves ,,down there" for example while showering or going to the toilet and after it washing their hands a few times until you get the feeling of being clean enough to touch things or persons (especially those the thoughts are/were about)? Because my problem is that I am washing my hands so often and I never have the feeling or certainty that they are clean enough and because I am a hairstylist this is making me crazy and I am afraid of receiving an allergic reaction on my hands because we're supposed to protect our hands of too much water and soap. Big thank you and greetings!

You know, the only thing that really worked "ok" for me was anti-depressants. But, on those, I feel like a zombie and everything just feels "okay". I want to have emotions, so I quit. But then, life just came crashing down. I don't want to take them again, but since I quit I have lots of anxiety, the groinal response happens daily and makes me want to die, and me and my girlfriend just broke up because of my condition. OCD: When life has you checkmate.

could you please do a video about the backdoor spike , if that’s okay

Bless your heart. OCD is horrible.

I’m watching this at half 6 in the morning, I woke up after having a dream of a man, and I’m panicking at 5 in the morning, and it’s taken me this video to calm me down. Thank you Chrissy, you’ve helped so much 😁

I don't have dreams about girls but I'm pretty sure I still have hocd. Is that normal? I'm learning to overcome hocd and deal with my thoughts ☺️

what about "lucid" dreams. having those weirds dreams, knowing in the dreams that they are only a dream and waking up guilty

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Im suffering thorugh hocd.male one my frinend was wearing glasses so he tried one cool one. So i smiled and said these one are cool. And that hit with anxiety why would you smile. After that when ever i talk to him if i smiled i got hit with anxiety.

I find it a bit easier to leave the thoughts alone now so if i keep going will it disapear? Or do i still need professional help

Hi Chrissie I was wondering if I would be able to talk to you about Hocd. Please if you can respond that would be great. Thank you.

I literally had a dream last night about telling myself I was at least a little bi 🤦🏻‍♀️

I love this lady.

I’m constantly checking to see if I have hocd or if I’m in denial I’ll go out of my way to talk to girls to see if it’s more it’s really scary 😢

Back end??? 🤔🤔🤔 was that an avoidance of saying backside or bottom?

Please talk about masturbation and the groinal syndrome.Is masturbation a part of the gs?

Once you introduce a anything to a ocd person we have to see it. I would probably not know what to to do if the banana was not in the frame.

I know this is part of the "feels logical but isnt" issue with harm OCD. But these killers literally describe the exact same feelings. Except they one day are weak and act on them. So i dont understand how it can't happen to any of us. In a heightened state of stress how the urge wont be overwhelming

I have all sorts of ocd mines makes me think about stabbing people and I suffer with health ocd as well and I suffer with sexual orientation ocd when I’m around girls I think they are pretty but my ocd gives me urges to kiss them and I get anxiety

Why is the line between an urge and desire so fuzzy. That’s what I’m having trouble with. I’m trying to learn what makes this monster tick and that’s the part that’s troubling for me. I’ve been suffering with it for 2 months now. It’s absolutely horrible. No matter how hard I try I can’t think with logic. I can’t do anything to escape it because it’s me.

Why would you say not to do ERP alone? I thought this was a good thing once you knew the techniques.

What happens if you act on an I intrusive thought/ urge? Because I dont want to be gay and I've watched gay porn 3 times. I dont have any groinals responses anymore I'm not grossed while watching it well kinda am. But dont find it fun to watch like I'm just torturing myself it's gross. I feel like I've lost my attraction which isn't true because I know it isn't just my head keeps thinking otherwise. Is possible to come back to normal after acting upon the had stuff that you despise and have no actually interest in?

It’s like trying to fight it makes it worse. Right?

hello, can I discuss my problem with you. can I contact you by messenger.

I know you said "act" on urges and said patting a person on the shoulder was cheating. But what if you actually cheat on your partner to prove your ocd wrong? Like sleep with someone else.

I was hugging my son and had my hand on his leg then I had a thought of putting my hand on his thing, so to get rid of the urge I put my hand further up his leg but never touched him sexually Is this a compulsion, is it normal ? I feel terrible

So you can have urges without a desire?

I don't want my OCD to manifest

Today I had a dream where according to what I felt excited by the body of another girl. I don't really remember the dream well, I don't even know if it's really like that, but my mind wants me to believe that it is so. I'm very tired of this, I've even set a limit on where if I'm not better in two months I'm going to commit suicide. Because i prefer die before to accept somenthing that i know is a lie. 😣😭