To say that OCD sucks is an understatement. I can say without a doubt that it's one of the worst things I've ever had to experience. I just feel so hopeless and alone sometimes.

It happened to me when I was 22 years old. I’m now 36. It makes you question everything. It may start with not wanting your pants to be dirty, to HOCD, etc. then it’s everything. It’s the doubting of everything. It’s emotionally draining.

I can’t get over the fact that this blew up in my face and in one month my whole life changed. I don’t know how to make it through each day. And then thinking this is going to be with me forever makes me so hopeless

Yes no doubt, Pure-O is very traumatizing. Being treated the wrong way by therapists, buying into your fears, having been suicidal, I went to dark places, I'd call it the depth of hell. Nowadays ERP therapy has made OCD better but the darkness in my soul has become a permanent thing.

My OCD was so bad on my wedding day and it just sucks because I just wanted to have one good freakin day for once in my life.

Its always the good people who have inner core values that they stick to, develop ocd cuz they care about it so much

I've been diagnosed with OCD by a team of therapists. I've told them of my believed attraction to men (I'm male) they have all said its OCD. Even though those people have told me I still feel like i am lying to them and I'm just in denial. It consumes my day 24/7. I haven't been to work in months and I can't stop checking and reassuring. It's exhausting and unbelievably traumatic.

I had my first episode with OCD when I was 8, or 9, can’t remember at this point. It went away for a few years and came back when I was 13. Again, went away and came back during COVID pandemic, that was the shortest period it was, now in 2023 this is the longest seasons of it and the most scary. The past 3 were all HARM ocd, but now it’s a combination of HARM, POCD and Real Event and I believe I will get better when I start treatment but now I wonder, what will I do when I’m better? It’s like sometimes I forget what my life was like before this all started and when I rewatch these memories in my head I think, “when I’m better, I don’t think I’ll be that old happy self again though.”

You can still do life. Acceptance! Amen. 2 Months into my 14 month ERP treatment, my spikes where almost non-existent. I remember the horror realizing my anxiety was still there. I said to Dr. Phillipson, “ I thought my OCD was the biggest problem in my life. I now realize it was ‘A ‘ problem.” I suffered with undiagnosed OCD for 28 years. No doubt I was traumatized. I will strive to rise above this adversity until my last breath. Life has to much to offer and I have too much to give to quit now. If you are suffering; recovery is possible. This nightmare will end. We are not bad people trying to get good. We are sick people trying to get well. Don’t delay ERP treatment. Work through it. You are worth it.

I used to feel guilty and thought people have "real" traumatic situations but not anymore. The torment and fear attacks ocd causes are absolutely ptsd causing. This reality is completely ignored even by professionals it seems. You can find tons of articles about ocd caused by trauma but almost nothing about ocd causing serious trauma and even ptsd. Thank you so much.

I cannot express in a single KZfaq comment how much these videos as well as everyone sharing their stoyries and advice here have been

I have it since 6. I've had trauma, parents died, shame through my ocd. Trauma through gang land. We all experience trauma. It's how we deal with it!!! OCD thoughts and especially a breakdown, it so traumatic. Happy now at 44. Therapist in O. C. D. Though I still suffer Chrissie, I take it one day at a time. F. E. A. R. FALSE EMOTIONS APPEARING REAL. LOVE NOEL.

Thank you for this video! I was diagnosed with OCD at 11. I had a rough childhood and it runs in my life. I’m so glad I’m not alone!

Its amazing to me how much you describe my exact emotions to perfection.... you live it as I do unfortunately but knowing you get it makes me feel I'm not alone and yes I am envious of those who go through life without it

This woman is a gift from god. Well done.

One thought one day in the summer of 1995. Here I am 27 years later still tormented and traumatised.

I also found accepting the need for medication to be difficult. 😢

This is a very interesting point. I never consider myself traumatized, but this bullshit really makes life hard and makes it a struggle to do some of the most basic things, especially if your themes are involved. Want to love your girlfriend but one of your themes is ROCD? better get to fighting. etc. You're awesome Chrissie! N

Thank you so much for these videos, Chrissie. ❤️

I would remain grateful to you Chrissie! Thank you from the core of my heart. More power to you!

Great video, thanks for sharing. Good to hear from someone with lived experience.

Your videos have helped so much Chrissie xxx

This is so important! I’ve been wondering about this myself and this video came at the perfect time!

Great video Chrissie! Thanks for all the amazing work you do and for always keeping it real. I appreciate you.

I am so grateful for you and your videos. Thank you ❤️

Thank you for all your hard work 💝

God bless you, Chrissie. Thank you soo much for this video! I have never though of ocd as being traumatizing but it definitely has been and still is.. It helps me be more compassionate and patient with myself when I think of it as trauma.

I love your videos. I'm so glad I found you. I feel like I found my best friend here.this women is very much like me from a few videos I seen. Ty

OCD is very much trauma induced

This is so important to share thankyouu ❤

Thank you for what you're doing!! I have OCD and it took me a lot longer to get a proper diagnosis because I didn't know about (and the therapists who I saw didn't seem to know or pick up on) pure OCD. It took listening to advocates like you to understand that OCD isn't just the few minutes a day that I would touch my car over and over again so that I wouldn't get into a car accident; it was the flashing violent images in my mind and the hours a day that I would worry about whether I would stab someone in front of me or harm a child. OCD is like an iceberg; there's the small tip that others can see, but the biggest part of the iceberg is under the water, invisible to others and often to ourselves. Now that I've heard you and other advocates talk about pure O, I've been able to advocate for myself and get a proper psychiatrist diagnosis and start doing ERP for my mental compulsions (and compulsions like avoidance and reassurance-seeking for my pure O intrusions). THANK YOU!

meditation is a great tool to helping you live in the present moment

It doesnt feel like chaos. It feels like hell((((((((

I felt for years I was traumatized by my own scrupulosity which had me thinking for a long time that I had done something unforgivable and would spend eternity in hell. Part of it was the church I went to. I'm what happens when OCD and staunch evangelicalism come together. I've healed from it now and no longer believes that way. Changing my beliefs Helped a lot. My OCD manifests in other ways now. It seems if I conquer one thing it manifests another way.

Love you Chrissie

I lost so many beautiful moments and relationships because of OCD. I don't know how to come terms with that.

I do have my low times but I can tell I’m getting better over time. My OCD was really bad a few months ago, but I’m getting support and I’ve started taking SSRIs so I hope I will be able to cope with this

Thank you

Yup, I could not say it better myself, I have been plagued with OCD most of my life. I'm an old person now and still enjoy life some of the time. What are you going to do? Like Chrissie says 'Your not alone" and knowing that makes living with OCD a little easier. Its help me this morning.

You know what my OCD says? Its says that I am a good person only because it exists. 😂. I never chose to say, oh omay let it be. I am a good person because I chose to be. I still could've been even if I didnt do the compulsions. And this is no excuse for OCD to exist.

That's exactly what it feels like.I feel so alone,tired and confused and i don't understand why this had to happen.Tese past 2 and a half years i'm stranglng with hocd or that's what i believe and lately things have become so strange that i doubt this is hocd.I feel jelous of others and also have a feeling that i miss every person in my life because i feel like i'm losing myself and also lose everyone and also maybe that's it because every interaction with them is ruined by my thoughts.I just wish that i will wake up one day and forget everything about it.

Super helpful

I relate so much

Great video. Thanks for sharing. What class of medicine is best for OCD sufferers?

I think this is why attraction gets lost to the opposite sex when you have hocd. It’s kinda like ptsd

I ended up in a psychiatric unit for 3 weeks voluntarily after having a bad ocd flare up of memories from a long time ago that was tormenting me, I got insomnia and felt sui cidal. It’s the hardest thing I’ve been through. 3 months since leaving and I’m still struggling as it’s changed to something else now

"What if I'm not listened exactly to her/him?" "Did I really get it?" - That's where the horror of my mind started 7 months ago... I'm so done with it. I want my old program back

I have horrible ROCD & ive had it for 1.5 years ... the thought is “you don’t love him” or I wanna leave him

You make me laugh a lot, especially the part when you were graduating and you were thinking I'm gay or not, totally my experience

11:43' dont worry about that

Thank you Chrissie for your video it really is true and helps validate us. Ali Greymond on KZfaq is another great advocate for OCD check her out too xxxx

Trauma therapy sounds good xx

chrissie, i have lost hope. I know you will not answer me but all my life i have been like this so how can i be well if i have never been well.

Can you have the same ocd theme for ever ?

Do you take medicine lexapro helps me

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Dear Chrissie, can you tell me how to be in relationship if you have sexual intrusive thoughts about familly member....(becausce pictures in head when I am with boyfriend, groinal simptoms...) How to relax when I want to kiss boyfriend for example, because I have that fear of having groinal and what if it means that I am atracxted to that familiy member? Plis tell me how to relax?

OCD is not what traumatized us. Events traumatized a child experiencing lack of safety and neglect. Then OCD is the avoidance rituals to keep us safe. These rituals could even be an addiction. Solution is to find safety and security inside of you. It is difficult to do but possible.

Pure o themes are much worst than trauma! Its actually one of the worst experiences a human being could go through its like getting raped every day such a soul crushing experience..ofcourse it causes PTSD and all other issues