JK Rowling once said: I mean, is ‘fat’ really the worst thing a human being can be? Is ‘fat’ worse than ‘vindictive’, ‘jealous’, ‘shallow’, ‘vain’, ‘boring’ or ‘cruel’? Not to me

I'm dealing with this right now. I've gained twenty pounds in just a couple of months it's horrible, I am miserable and I want support. I'm so glad you made this video it's been a HUGE comfort.

You deserve NO thumbs down. May God please bless you... thank you!

I recently found you through channon rose's channel.Im so glad I've found I have many different chronic illnesses and it just sucks being so young and not being able to be like girls your age. I've only seen 3 videos of yours so far but I feel like you're so positive and your a person I needed to find because of that.

I love this video and adore your positive outlook. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes because I feel like someone vocalized how I'm feeling. Thanks for sharing your story and making this video

I relate to this so much & it’s so nice to see someone that is going through the same thing as me. Happy I found your channel ❤️

Thank you for posting this video! I’m feeling EXACTLY like this. I avoid mirrors and pictures all the time! I really needed to hear this. Thank you for your encouragement! ❤️

I highly commend you for bringing this matter up. For me, I am sick and tired of the media shaming people for being overweight/obese; then, the media turns around and tells us to not bully other people. I am also upset that the media tells people that eating right and exercising will make us healthy: if that were true, then all of us would be healthy. Instead, the media needs to tell us to be kind and compassionate toward people who have chronic medical conditions and to offer to donate their time or money to helping us afford to get the medical care that we need. I'm sorry, but I needed to rant. What do you think?

Came by this video, thank you so so so much for speaking of this matter. Definitely needed to hear this❤️

i completely feel you!i put on 20 pounds really fast die to medication and im having such a hard time dealing with it!your so sweet this made me feel better!lots of love!!

Keep being you and don't be ashamed of who you are. You have your own beauty and you should own it girl! Keep up the positivity you have going on. I commend you for sharing this with your viewers and other people who don't even know what it is like to gain weight from taking meds. I know I sure didn't but this video somewhat gives me a perspective but I'll never truly know.

sums up my life to a tee . i am currently taking medication , before i started i was 80kg and after 3 months without any warning i was 100kg , coming into summer in Australia i realised no singlets or shorts fit me anymore. my short size was 32 and im now up to a 36 , my shirt size was a medium im now an xtra large , clothing brands i usually wear dont have my size and its embarrassing, i know your pain and am proud of you for raising this issue because it does effect alot of people physically and emotionally ✌

So thankful for your video. It really helped me feel less alone in my self-defeating thoughts.

Thank you for sharing this. Now I don't feel like I am the only person who is dealing with this.

thank you for understanding how i have been feeling about my weight gain I wish I could hug you so much right now

So well said! Lyrica packed on 15 lbs for me while i was eating healthy and moving regularly. Thank you!! ❤️

Thank you for making this video. I needed to know I'm not alone in this situation.

felt the same so many times, the pic on profile was at the start of my Ra diagnosis and I've changed so much so many times in just a few years. I look nothing of the person I once was. hate seeing people even younger than me going through all this. I'm so sorry, much love and gentle hugs x

I feel exactly the same as you do thank you for letting me see I’m not alone. You are cute sweetie but I understand wholeheartedly how you feel. Thank you xxx stay strong xxx

You said it exactly. Not recognizing myself when I look in the mirror. So glad I found you. Oh my . I just saw that you have RA! So do I. So you DO understand. Usually I don’t bother to leave a comment but I’ve identified so much with every single issue you brought up! Like I said, so happy I found you!

Thanks for this video :) I'm struggling with my weight because of my illnesses and I just hate the way I look. Thanks for reminding me that it's not my fault and it'll be ok :)

i am so thankful that i found your channel!

OMG you're such a beauty inside and out. I don't see any weight gain I was hoping I would it would look great on u!

(I’m on my brothers KZfaq) but I had to comment because everything you said is 100% true.. I have epilepsy and being on meds for that does not help. I could say a lot of things but there’s no need because you said everything perfectly thank you so much for this video 💖

What is even worse is the feeling of being so uncomfortable from the weight gain

I’m so glad I found your video today. I just got off of Cymbalta and after gaining 46 pounds in a year I’m desperately trying to lose it. Blessings to you.

I'm struggling with this myself, two, maybe three of the medications I take, cause weight gain. I am already a plus size woman. Not only do I feel worse, but I feel ugly and defeated. I try very hard to eat right, drink a lot of water and move my body as much as I am able. Thanks for making this video. Do you ever just got so tired of talking about your health that you are just "sick of yourself?" I feel like that right now. It's a really crappy place to be. I followed you on IG, would love a follow back if you care to. I need as much support as possible and haven't been feeling it.

Thank you for expressing exactly what I have been feeling these last 8 months since starting to take Lyrica. (btw..you are beautiful!) I've gained 15 pounds during that time. I take it for neurolagic pain caused by Shingles and it also helps for anxiety. If it weren't for the weight gain, I'd be very happy. I'm so used to being thin all my life and now I'm going crazy! I've changed my diet to vegan and exercising like crazy now to try to lose this weight gain. I'm also cutting back on the meds and just dealing with pain as it comes. I feel your frustration, so thank you so much for this video. :)

Thank you so much for this. I have been on seroquel for a year and I've gained over 80 pounds. I hated myself and I thought I was doing something wrong. I never looked into the medication causing it and it makes so much SENSE. I have been on multiple diets, gone to the gym, done EVERYTHING. Every time I would lose weight, I would gain it back again. I have weaned myself off of it now and I can already see a difference, and I even feel a bit better in myself. I have cried and cried and hated myself so much because everyone thought I was FAT and LAZY. they would say it so much, i started believing it too.

Brave decision to make this video :) I know these feelings all too well. It's something I struggle with as well with my chronic illnesses/chronic pain. It's awful not feeling like yourself and it being out of your control. And its an awful feeling just wanting to be happy like everyone else and its hard to be happy when you feel so insecure about yourself.

I completely understand where yr coming from, but I have to say YOU LOOK AMAZING /YOUNGER, just the way you are

Thank You for this video, it has helped me a lot to realize it's not my fault. thank you!

Weight gain and hair loss have been the most devastating side effects for me. Now when I see people have gained weight I know it may be due to medications!

I gained 60 pounds in 10 months of Paroxetine. I repaired my anxiety, now I have to ,,repair “ my weigh.

I am so appreciative of this video! I drastically went from 130# to whatever I am now... I refuse to weigh myself but since switching from zoloft to prozac I have gained so much weight. I lost 70# after having my daughter and now I feel like I am right back to the nasty embarrassing feeling of heavy.

You understand! 😭 I remember having a nearly flat stomach. Then when I started medication and heard about the weight gain side affect I was so scared that I turned anorexic for a while. 😓 Then after that I ate normally and gained weight more than I ever have before! 😭 I lost most of that weight thankfully and hope to make god proud with reaching my ideal body type! Fight On!!!

Thank you for your video. You are beautiful and it is so true as my medication has caused me to gain so much weight after I had a full hysterectomy over 8 years ago. I don't buy myself clothes often but when I do they are very baggy because I feel so huge and sloppy. I look like I am 9 months pregnant and I hate how I look. I am going to try lifting weights again if I can to boost my metabolism plus going to try slow jogging. I find that I don't care what others think. I am sure that some people probably do think that I am lazy but I have a physically demanding job and still can't lose. I admired how you came on here to share your story. It does feel lonely and sad because we beat ourselves up over weight gain. To me it's not necessarily about a number on the scale as it is about feeling good in our own body and being agile and able to do the things that we need to do or want to do. People will love us and care about us but inside if we don't feel that way then we aren't going to believe it. We do have to learn how to tell ourselves loving thoughts and comments. My friends say that I am so hard on myself but it's also learned behaviour with growing up with a parent who put themselves down and worried about what others think. I just want to be comfortable in my own skin and I don't really care what others think when they look at me. Loved your video.

I soooooo understand this. I have gained so much weight from my meds that at this point it's hard to even want to eat healthy. I try and buy cute clothes though and still show my personality even if I'm more self concious now.

stop taking the meds is not always an option.

I've had bad weight reactions to medications too I started at a size 6 (uk, unsure about US) went up to size 22, got back down to 16 for a while since it was temporary better but now I'm back to size 20. I know it's though, I've got my bad days but in general I have accepted it. I KNOW I do everything I can to stay on a healthy weight and I'm sure that it helps with not gaining even more. And that is what keeps me going. On hot days I still wear short shorts and an open top. I'm not going to faint from heath just for what MIGHT be people's opinion. If people don't like it they can still look the otherway. Don't hide yourself, you are still very pretty :)

Thank you for speaking exactly what im feeling right now. I am so depressed over my weight gain with latuda i am thinking of getting off.

Gained 30 pounds on a med. thank you for making this video. I cry everyday at the weight gain. None of my clothes fit, I don’t recognize myself. I can’t stop taking my meds though because I don’t want to go back to feeling miserable.

Thank you for your words ! You are beautiful babe ! U have such a great soul god bless

I'm on Zoloft and the best way to offset that is to do cardio 5 to 6 days a week. Do at least 2 strength sessions a week but eventually work up 3

I understand that 100%. When I was prescribe prednisone it cause so much weight gain and everyone was telling I should consider eating right and exercising and I would tell them only if you knew what it's like and what effert i was taking to do so. Lucky I was able to lose most of the weight. We just have to think positive and push our way through it. Have so support too. I have friends that went through it and it helps so much. Don't think people realize what it's like till they go through it themselves.

You’re beautiful! I have UC in I’ve been trying to gain weight since 07 but I’m not able to. People think being small or skinny is fun but it’s really not as what people make it. I’m 22 in I weigh 109 my desired goal is 150 but it sucks.

Hey Kelly, I gain 10lbs in the 6 months medication and not sure what will happen afterward. But I should say, you look prettier then the time you were slim ... I am honest! Yes I remember I am beautiful and you are beautiful as you are positive and brave .

I completely understand you, Kelly! I'm in the same situation, in a couple of days I'll finish my medication and I wonder if after that I'll be able to just shed the weight naturally, because none of my pants since 6 months ago fit me.

I was thin people called me anorexic then meds made me gain weight some people say I look better with the gain and ill wen im thin u just cant win

I take a lot of anti depressants and one has made me gain a lot of weight over the past year since starting it, it's so depressing for me to take a med that really helps me but does this to me. Currently I am struggling so much with self hate, shame and obsessing over this. I am going to try getting off this med with help from my doctor but it is so hard not to hate myself and how I look

Thank you. May God work through you always.

Ive gained 70 pounds on my antidepressant, which I got on to help with my mental illnesses and eating disorders. Body image means way too much to me than it should, but I really hope these pounds will shed once I get off these meds. Wish me luck!

You are so brave !

same here....pain meds n depression meds making my weight loss impossible!!!!!! I feel old, fat like no one wants to be seen with me...I'm so discouraged 😢

i went off prozac 5 days ago. i went from 107lbs to 122 in the course of a month and think it may be from that

I’m glad to see I’m not the only one,.. I hate that my medication makes me gain weight, however the positives from the medication outweigh the negatives for me

Thank you❤️truly.

Oatsfruitn Toast fuck having schizoaffective disorder, fuck having to take mood stabilisers, antidepressants, anti anxiety and antipsychotics, all of which make you gain crazy amounts of weight, and kill you slowly, by building up toxic levels in your blood. My cousin (who has the same condition) gained 120lbs in 2 months (although he was eating extremely healthy, and exercising every day), he developed diabetes, and then died from the lithium toxicity. I miss him so much. I hate having to chose between a healthy mind or a healthy weight.

I can relate. I use to be a very handsome Slim guy. Now because of my medication I gained about 40, maybe even 50 pounds. Like you I feel ugly and don't even like to be in pictures anymore. I don't even give girls eye contact anymore. But you are cute, and I know that you don't think you are what you once were, just remember that you are awesome.

I think you're beautiful and adorable! I found your video looking up weight gain from Paxil. I gained 20 pounds in 4-5 months! EEP! I'm so used to being slenderish. But...I also love me, so it doesn't really matter if I pack a few extra pounds. We who's weight is affected by meds, have to work so hard to counter the weight gain. But, I think it's worth it in the end, for the relief the meds give.

Girl I feel you! I eat extremely healthy and exercise and I always had a hard time gaining weight until I started mirtazapine and now I gain weight and I am not doing anything. I wanted to gain some weight, but then I just kept gaining and gaining until I felt really uncomfortable. Now i want to get off this med because I feel uncomfortable in my body

Ladies & Gentlemen, you are all beautiful. I am Mags, on meds nearly 15 years and for life. Iv'e turned my thoughts around and have grown to love ME . I've gone through the weight gain, watching my clothes size going up and up, dealing with a huge stomach (which I try to hide,,believe me its hard), looking at my neck getting fatter and fatter. Ive tried so hard and Ive been sad but now Im knocking it on the head..........If anyone asks me now i tell them straight to their face and watch the reaction. Mostly people are fine. I just don't let it take over my life anymore........I live my life now and if somebody doesn't like it, well " dont bang the door on your way out " lol. Kelly is fantastic, she is totally on point. :)

This is by far what I dislike most about the meds I'm on. I try to tell myself that without them, more than likely I'd be dead. It's just hard going from anorexia to obesity and being called fat, needing to buy bigger clothes (for all seasons as well as underclothes). And now, some of those clothes don't even fit. It's very difficult to deal with.

you are gorgeous!

I’ve been on methadone for a few years and I also developed hypothyroidism and it has stolen my confidence completely 🥺

Thank you so much for these videos,I have felt so alone and struggled for years and they have only just found out why I've been in so much pain.would love to hear from you and maybe I can talk to you in private as I can't write everything on here. X

My heart hurt for you because I do know what the meds can do to us. I could tell this was hard to do because it is a topic very sensitive to you. I have gone through the weight gain and the yo yo as I call it...lose it..med change gain it...lose it, etc. People do not realize that it is not just weight that gets affected on us. I take two RA meds that have caused my hair to thin and a few bald spots in places, another med I take makes me break out and I am a grandmother. I went to wearing tunic type shirts because I can not stand clothes pulling on me...and I changed material types. I hate the polyester/cotton stuff and do mostly cotton now because it does not cling and give me that creepy crawly feeling. So I totally get you. Right now I am in the losing and losing mode due to a severe spinal issue that I hope is resolved soon because I am losing muscle too. But you know I just thought of something watching this. I came looking when you your inspirational FB post came across my feed as thanks to FB I went through a period of not seeing anything on my FB and losing people not because they unsubbed or I did or they did but I think FB just caused some to fall off and I saw your post and thought there she is where has she been. :) But anyway...let me try to spit this out... You are so talented and creative why don't you try to design or put together from regular clothes outfits that all of us chronically ill might could copy that are comfortable and yes loose and flowly as they call it...but cute and colorfu;l. Like testing fabrics to see which feels the most comfortable. I only wear certain sweatshirts because some have too much polyester in them that they feel like they pull on me. And to be perfectly honest...I had to quit wearing a bra because of two reasons..the scar from lung surgery and the fact it feels binding so I went to tank tops under a shirt. Maybe even talk to people who design for wardrobes for people to get ideas only don't talk to those that try to convince us when we gain weight that the cropped off shirt sleeves look good when all they do is show off we gained weight in our arms. I too gravitate to the yoga pants or sweat pants but maybe when paired with a flowing type shirt it might actually could be made into a cute outfit. I actually do not bother with trying to figure anything out when I am home here so much but really wish I did have ideas because I think it makes us feel better when we have on something cute. Anyway, I know this is long but might be a good project you could work on when you have time that would help so many of us. Oh and another thing that irks me is those that say "but your face is so pretty"....well know what folks I want to feel pretty all over LOL. Hugs to you girl and don't give up cause I think you help many.

Thankyou so much for sharing it,I cried throughout the video! I can totally relate to it since I'm on medication aswell & each month I gain 1-2kgs which is insane & could literally see stretch marks on myself that made me really feel so bad abt myself as if it's all my fault! Your smile & the way you're telling this really made me feel so better & realise that we aren't alone ❤️

I feel the exact same way. I feel puffy and self conscious. Just went to an event last night and my sisters looked beautiful and me beside them looked in a daze and huge.

Thank you!

i can really relate to people judging because they don't know it's a medication side effect that i can't control

Its no fun for guys either trust me. I totally get where you are coming from.

I felt every word you said! I am struggling so much! I was diagnosed with Crohns disease and gained 10kgs in the first month and was on 3 different cortisone medications and antidepressants and trepline which all caused weight gain! (bunch of other meds to but these caused the weight gain) i just cant loose it! I am so embarassed to see my friends! Nothing fit me anymore! I hate it so much! like this disease isnt bad enough now i have this weight that wont come off! emotionally its draining!

50 lbs and going. I eat healthy and it's frustrating. I can't even exercise due to the advancement of my lupus and crps. Making it 20 yards is a big deal for me. And it's killing me. In 2 years I've gone from a size 5 to an 18. I cry a lit because it's not my body. Also I can't go with out the meds the alternative would be a life with out living.

You are beautiful btw!!

I've gained 50 pounds on my meds. I can relate to everyhing your saying. I don't even want pictures taken. It's so awful.

I'm getting to the point that I don't even want to take lyrica of gabapentin anymore. I'd rather deal with the pain

I’m going on anxiety medication soon and just wondering if you can work out a lot to lose the weight or does it not really work?

So my mom and therapist want me to take Zoloft for my anxiety. The thing is, I have ways of dealing with my anxiety and it’s not a harm to me or ANYONE else. I really don’t want to take the meds bc I know they cause weight gain and I’ve worked SO hard for my body. Working out everyday and being vegan (for more ethical reasons) and I don’t want to lose all of that because bc my mom and therapist want to take the easy way out of things. Please help me or Smth

I’m going through this right now. I just found out the medication that I’ve been on for three months actually four months is the reason why I put on weight and my face looks like marshmallow. I see pictures of myself and I look so puffy and blubbery and I run 10 miles a day and I can’t even sweat. Thankfully my doctor told me to discontinue the medication but I’m just worried it’s not gonna come off. He said it will take time to get out of your system but boy do I empathize with you

My doc wants me to take lithium and I’m up in the air because I took serqual or however you spell it and went from 140 to 193 .. I stopped that but now finally lost some weight then they want me on lithium .. I’m like you guys told me I would not gain weight before and I did and now that I lost some , you want me to gain more again so being depressed and gain more weight is healthy for me ??? I don’t know but I am definitely not taking it . You can call me vain or whatever but I have not even lost all that weight . Guys I can finally fit an xlarge shirt . I don’t know what to do but thank you for the video

You look good to me. But I also completely understand everything you are saying. I mean every word has been heard. Meds while trying to figure out what was wrong got me heavier. So I know. And trying to work out but doing great then 3 weeks later you get sick from a flare and you get knocked down. Ugh.

I feel so embarrassed all the time, and while I know that Keppra is keeping me from having seizures, I will hardly leave the house and for one whole year I’ve only worn one pair of stretchy shorts and big tshirts. I have a huge closet of clothes that I don’t even dare try on. It’s horrible.

My weight gain (sadly) isn't a side effect since I don't take any medication. It's just weight gain caused by being ill for the past 11 years and not able to burn more than I eat. I feel like it is my fault because I eat more than I should obviously, although I eat healthy but still I gain, very slowly but still, I need new clothes every year and it's frustrating. I workout when I can, and I lose weight, a little, but I will get bad weeks and I will gain all of it back + a little bit more. I am afraid that in 10/20+ years I will weigh even more and in the end all that weight on my body will make it harder to do thing ofcourse because you're carrying it around all the time. I can relate to the video in a way, just not to the medication part. I think it might be a bit easier to accept for myself if it was meds that made me gain weight because now it feels like it's not out of my control and I should just eat less or workout more even though I can't and eating less would mean weighing everything (becoming obsessed with my food and I don't want to) and being hungry since in the past 11 years I found out what I need to eat in order to stay the same weight and it's not even close to what a 'healthy woman' would need to eat on a daily basis. I wish I could recognize myself when looking in the mirror and I'm really not looking forward to my dads wedding in a couple of months and the pictures of myself that day. :(

I have a question I suffer from Schizoaffective and I take Antipsychotics for it now my question is will I gain weight from the med itself or does the weight come from the meds making me want to eat more? Please reply I’m desperate for a answer from a pro.

I know how you feel. Im battling myself too. I hate myself. I've even thought of suicide. Its frustrating. I cry everyday. Believe me i try to loose weight. I gain and i loose but i never stay in the same weight. But you do look very pretty

Even me being a guy I'm tired of this weight gain from taking meds. Hopefully going down on my meds will make a difference. Ugh.

hi...which medicine u used ?

I gained 15 pounds and went to my dr crying and she switched my medications to it’s sister drug which doesn’t have weight gain side effects. I hope I lose this weight none of my clothes fit and I don’t have money to buy new

I have try may medicine's but am not getting what I went

Love your videos and being positive. What was the name medicine causes you gain weight?

I'm on mirtazapine, olanzapine, paroxtine, will I gain weight.

I'm on mirtazapine and olanzapine, both causes extreme weight gain. I don't want to gain weight...

I hope i can gain weight. I have been skinny all my life. Very hard to put on a pound and very easy to loose them. I just started taking meds for anxiety and hope i can put some pounds on, i really doubt it though. ☹️

i can today i agree...i suffering from this...

Please what is the name of the medicine.

135 pounds today ugh. I was 125 last year. I feel puffy zoloft,! I run everyday . Full body weight lifting every other day. Plant based pescatarian diet. Dumb meds

Hello Kelly i have the very exact feelings you do to the point of suicide.When i was 200 lbs i complained to my doctor and said please don;t give me anything to put weight on im 5ft9. Anyway before i knew it i weighed 280 pounds and probably didn't notice my appearance so much because i have never liked my face.Yo young Lady Kelly are a beautiful women and im an honest guy who is 65 so im not hitting on you.Long story short i went on intermited fasting 18hrs without food and eat a small meal at 2 pm and a little more at 7pm and now weight 230.Problem is i have been stuck at 230 for five weeks now.Doctor and pharmacist told me my medicine isn't weight gaining.I take 5 other medications but now for first time i think it's the pregabalin that has made me heavy because i eat chicken soup and sandwich at 2pm and two chicken legs at 7pm usually so im not a big eater i wish i could sue them both because i really cant stand to look at myself anymore .Im just trying to let you know others have your exact feelings but Beautiful Kelly you have a gorgeous face and when i was in my forties weighing 170lbs i went out with a 260lb lady because the only thing i don't like about a big women is i worry for there health.I was with her 18mths before she passed due to medical problems.I wish you the best in life and pLEASE BELIEVE ME YOUR GORGOUS.Love joe

know how u feel, I've gained 44lbs on my medication, don't feel full, gained weight even though I'm not crazy unhealthy and stuff,.. really sucks! So hard to workout when u are depressed too….fml

thank you for sharing this, I started Prozac last summer and was always around 126 pounds, the meds made me gain 10 pounds in only a few months, and even now I fluctuate at 138 to 142. I was always thin, a size 0 and happy with myself. I now am a size 4 which I know doesn't seem like much to a lot of people but my identity has always been the "skinny girl" my whole life and now I am not as skinny and feel like I've failed everyone. This video made me feel less alone, love to you.