Loved this but your dad is actually really funny don't diss Carl

It sounds like you have quite severe separation anxiety, whether that’s from your home, your family, or even just your own bedroom and bed. It’s fairly common in university students who’ve recently moved away! It also sounds like you had (or almost had) a panic attack on the bus. So, Please take care of yourself and remember you are absolutely not alone in how you feel. You’re genuinely a great, beautiful person and you deserve to enjoy every moment of uni. These days could be the best of your life xx

I dropped out when I was 18 at university cause I didn't enjoy it. A couple years later, I am back at university doing a complete opposite course and absolutely loving it. Everyone's timing is different, hold out but remember to think of your mental health

I also really struggled with the fact that I thought all my friends were having the best time. But remember no one is posting when they're homesick on their stories and everyone is only posting when they're loving it. I made friends with girls on my course and I love them loads, that helped me so much x

Always loved your content but lately i'm actually obsessed with your vlogs! I get your homesickness so much, I feel the feelings just watching you, but I promise it gets better Molly! II was the most homebird person EVER, and I eventually settled and loved it! Just keep busy girly! Chin up and hope you're ok

I actually can’t explain to you how much your vlogs have helped me. I’m now starting my 3rd year of a 4 year university degree and I still don’t feel settled . I hate everything about uni apart from the fact that I’m determined to get a degree. I find it 10 million times easier if I don’t go home because it really unsettled to come back - seeing someone else be unsettled at uni is so comforting because you only really see people loving uni on KZfaq. Trust me, it’s tough but it gets easier, love you x

Honestly, I’m a second year uni student and this is EXACTLY how I felt this time last year. I was lonely, miserable, emotional and more than anything I just wanted to go home. All my friends from home seemed to have already made loads of friends at their unis and settled in so well and I just couldn’t understand why I couldn’t be happy too. I cried every night for at least three weeks, wondering whether it was the right thing and maybe I just wasn’t cut out for uni. But within a month I pushed myself to stay and to make friends and honestly by Christmas I didn’t even want to come home! You just have to give it time, I PROMISE it will get better and it will be worth you sticking it out! It’s completely okay to feel like this and sooo many people do. I would really suggest getting out of your room and hanging out with friends/flatmates as much as possible, even if you just watch a movie in someone’s room together - although I really wanted to just be alone in the evenings and mope, it’s 100% better to push yourself and socialise because being alone ultimately only makes you feel worse. Sending you lots of love and hugs, just wanted you to know you’re not alone and a lot of people are definitely feeling the same way 💓 I’m so glad I stuck with it, it ended up being the best year of my life once I got settled in xxx

Freshers week: students livers shudder at the mention

I love how you are so honest about how you are really feeling about uni, I’ve just finished my first week & I was fine the first week but now it’s settled in and I’ve had a few bad days jsut worrying, but its a big step in our lives & we are allowed to be upset :(( xx ps your dog is absolutely adorable

i feel like you need to try & busy yourself a lot but give yourself lots of love & self-care so you don't get into a negative mentality. unrelated but i love the primark skirt you bought! (-': but we all think you are doing soooo well. it's hard seeing home friends have a good time but just remind yourself that deep down they are probably struggling as well... xxx

love how you are showing the reality of freshers that barely anyone talks about! the changes of living away from home and moving away from everything you know make u feel so up and down!!! it will get better and keep positive

I can relate to this so much!! This is exactly how I felt in first year, I was homesick all the time. I didn't love living there but I find my feet with a good group of friends and it was a good year but I just didn't enjoy living in halls and they aren't for everyone. You shouldn't feel guilty if you come back home regularly if that's what you need then that's what you need x

Just want to tell you that I promise it will get better, I moved 200 miles away to uni and left everything behind... 2 years on and I promise it was the best decision I’ve made. You won’t be away forever and your family will still be there whenever you need them, don’t feel guilty for feeling like this just hold onto any hope you have and run with it. Xxx

You look so beautiful! This blog really helped me to see im not the only one struggling with going to a new school/uni, thank you Molly 💕💜

Watching this brings back so many memories of my freshers! It was such a tough time for me, because everyone around me seemed to be best friends immediately and I thought I had no one... it wasn't until I ended up balling my eyes out at one of my coursemates about 3-4 weeks into term that I found out she felt the exact same, and we kind of decided to stick through the tough times together. After that, I fell into a group of absolutely amazing people, and honestly, looking back freshers week/year was definitely not the best time of my student life - i never get why its painted out to be that way! Third year is where all my best memories are from :) It's normal to have doubts and worries during this time, and I really hope for you that it gets better like it did for me xx

I love watching these vlogs so much xx

Love watching vlogs! Hope you’re okay 💘✨

I’m in my 3rd year now and every time I’ve come back to uni I’ve felt the way you do. The best advice I could give you is to take each day as it comes. Try not to think about the whole year (it’s not even a year, just Sept-May) and just focus on whatever you’re doing that day💛you don’t need to explain yourself when going home/having visitors. And as you’ve said dropping out is absolutely fine. Love you girl😘

💖💖 sending you so much love and positivity

I completely understand how you feel, I was the same last year. I’m studying at Sheffield Hallam and I moved into accommodation and hated it and felt lost like you did. I now commute and starting my second year and I’m so much happier surrounded by my family at home. Even though my boyfriend is away for university and make sure to see each other every weekend. You’ll get through it, I completely understand you!!

Molly i am absolutely loving your uni vlogs! I love how real and genuine u are in them xx

Thank you for sharing this side of the uni experience, freshers week is one of the things putting me off uni and it’s nice to see an honest view of it. Can’t wait to see more of these videos, glad you feel better 💕

I’m loving these uni vlogs! Xx

I honestly love watching these vlogs! I love that you are so honest with your feelings and your vlogs seem so real and relatable! X

I started rewatching gossip girl from season one again too the other week - I’m on season 4 and honestly I love it more than the first time

I can totally relate to how you are feeling! I am now in my third year of uni and felt very similar in first year and I even have days when I feel the same now. Try get out and have a walk and distract yourself by being around other people. Sometimes you just need to cry it out and the next day will be a bit better. Make sure you keep talking about how you feel and don't keep it all to yourself. Xx

Molly, I dropped out of uni after a week. I’m an out going person and I thought going to do the course was the right thing for me. I got there and I felt exactly like you - I wanted to like it but I just couldn’t. And despite all the good experiences I had in that week it wasn’t enough, my gut feeling was that it wasn’t the right decision for me. I’m glad I left when I did - I never looked back, and I really believe everything happens for a reason. Also the earlier you leave the better chances you have of the accommodation filling you room meaning you won’t have to pay rent even when you aren’t living there. I’m sure you’ll make the right decision whether that’s to stay or not. You have built your own business with KZfaq and you’re only 18 and I think you forget that. You’ll build a successful career for yourself whether that’s with a degree or without. PMA is definitely key whether it’s being positive with going back home or positive trying go love the course. Hope you feel clearer soon x

You are doing so well! Keep going ! It takes 21 days to get used to a new situation, It will get easier ! But thank you for sharing this, it makes me feel less lonely about being anxious leaving home xxx

I've literally only just fount your channel and I'm spreading it to all my friends bc like where has your channel all my life. Stay strong beauty 💕💕

Thankyou for sharing this video, it’s so lovely to see such a raw, real side to the situation. I’ll be going off to uni next year (if I feel I’m ready, if not the year later) so it’s lovely to get a bit of insight into it. I hope things start to get better for you.

You’ll get through the home sickness I’m sure, just think about the exciting parts of Uni and the future that you’re beginning by being there!! Proud 💞💞

Girl I feel you!❤ I'm in second year at Leeds, and freshers week was so so hard for me! I cried sooo much and I nearly packed it in and went home but I'm so glad I stuck it through because I LOVE being in Leeds now!

cant explain how watching this has made me feel. this is exactly how i've been feeling for the last week and i can only hope it gets better from here for you! love your vlogs so much!! xxx

Been watching the clock since 10 waiting for this ! Love it🎉 stay strong babes💙💙

Love coming to your channel and seeing 100K ahhh congrats Molly!!💘🎉💯

Your vlogs are always so good 🤗 hope you’re feeling better 💕💕 x

Totally relate to crying despite nothing technically being wrong!! I would spend hours in the kitchen talking with my flatmates (who are my best friends now) and be having a totally lovely time, wouldn't be sad at all - but the second I got back to my room I would burst out crying! It makes you feel bad because you're still enjoying the people you're around, but you can't help but be upset. It'll get better I promise

Loved this! So real and you’re so nice xx

Loving these uni videos, I'm having a similar experience. Sending you love 💕

Love how real you are, as Uni just isn't for everyone! I moved out to Uni last year and after 3 weeks, I just didn't feel settled and was honestly crying all the time. Despite being scared of the stigma around 'dropping out', I decided it was the best decision for me! I took a gap year, earned some money and did some travelling and it was honestly the best decision!! I have started at a different University this year, but have decided to stay at home and commute, so it gives me the independence, but I also still have my home comforts. Honestly, forget everyone else and just think about what it best for you❤️ xxx

Fav!! Excited to watch 💗

I've dropped out of uni twice , i just wasnt ready for it so now I'm studying at home until next year when I know I'll be ready and I'm so much happier !! Do what you need to do and what will make you the happiest! Uni and college etc will always be there ! X

I just want to say that when I went to uni 4 years ago, when I first went it was the hardest thing I ever did- I was always on the phone to my family, crying to them I wanted to quit, crying by myself in my room, so homesick - basically I wanted to leave before it had all even properly started! Exactly how you’re feeling. I decided to try it out, and after a few weeks I honestly didn’t look back. It can feel very lonely to begin with, but you really do develop the best friendships ever in life and make the best memories! I promise it will be the best time of your life, everyday I wish I could go back to my uni day! But I never forget how hard it was to start with but I am proud that I stuck it out and was brave, and you will be too! Keep your chin up and try and stay positive x

I hope your okay, always here for you babes xx

Congratulations on 100k you completely deserve it and I adore these vlogs because of how real you are! You’re amazing and deserve all the happiness we’re all so proud of you ❤️

Molly!!! Loooveee your weekly vlogs!! Btw, thank you so much for being real and honest, and inspiring at the same time! Believe in yourself and I hope you'll feel better about uni :) give it a chance and keep doing what u love. 😘❤

I love your vlogs, never miss one xx

im at uni first year and i can relate so much with how you are feeling like ive only been away from home for a week and ive had so many high highs and low lows! but im sure once settled in properly all will be fine its the best time ofyour life so enjoy hun xoxo

Your makeup that you wore on Thursday is gorgeous! 😍 I’m literally obsessed x

Loved this vlog, always look at the pro's of uni.❤

amazing video molly! your such a inspiration, your vlogs have been amazing recently keep up the good work!

Loved the vlog and love you stay strong 💗

So glad it’s getting better for you!! 💖

Awhh Molly, you are doing so well. Keep thinking positively, it is only the second week and things will begin to get better. Don't worry about the future! Hope this week goes better for you xx

I AM LVOING THESE VIDEOS (even tho they make me feel so old lol) i graduated uni last year and trust me when you arent there you will miss it!! I felt the exact same during freshers such a mix of emotions but before you know it you will feel so settled!!! Hope you are having the best time gorgeous girl!!xxxx

I felt exactly the same as you last year when I was a fresher at uni, I cried my eyes out when my parents left and whenever I thought of home, and I cried down the phone to my parents thinking that my course wasn't right for me. I'll tell you honestly it does get better, I had the best year of my life last year and I'm so excited to start second year! It's okay to cry, it's okay to feel sad, it's okay to not know what you want, but as you get used to new surroundings, new people, it will start becoming easier, I hope everything is okay

i love your longer vlogs 💕

Whoop whoop well done on 100k Mollyyy!!! 🎉🎉 X

So close to 100k so proud of you ❤️ Stay strong 💪 💓

❤️❤️congrats molly on 100k love you x

Seeing you cry makes me so upset for you. I know exactly how you feel, I never got over my homesickness. I lasted a year and a month before I dropped out and came home. I was like you, thought I couldn’t wait to move, was so excited to get there, and then hated being away. Do what you need to do, don’t let anyone tell you how you should be feeling, and don’t worry about what others think/say!

I love how you’re not afraid to show how you really feel:) hope you’re feeling better soon!💖

Molly stay strong! You've got this!! Xxxxxx

I’m currently on freshers week too and I’m finding these videos so helpful knowing someone else is feeling how I am!!!x

Hey Molly, just keep yourself busy and things will get better ☺️☺️ omg I want to go to New York so badddd! Let's gooooo 💕

Hope you start feeling better soon Molly, must be so difficult! Sending lots of love 💓

loved the reality of this vlog I feel the same about moving for uni three weeks ago, I’ve been at home the past couple days and it hit me how much I missed home. But it will get better, each day it has started to for me and it will do for you with time. It’s okay to feel like this, and remember you can always leave whenever you want💘 it’s okay if you did ‘drop out’ and I hope things feel better soon x

I'm so grateful for your realism atm. I've just moved half an hour up the road from home and I'm really struggling so to know I'm not the only one is very comforting. I hope you begin to feel better soon x

Honestly can relate to this so much! I was the exact same my first year last year and I can definitely say it gets better!

Congrats on 100k molly!! 💜

I feel... EXACTLY the same as you do rn. It’s so tough and I just can’t ever imagine thinking of Leeds as a home, and I too am a literal second away from dropping out but I do know it’s always hard at the beginning and I’m sure you do too... thank you for documenting your first few weeks at uni, it’s helping me out so so much ❤️

I was literally in the same situation when I first started university, I really didn’t want to be at university but I’m happy to say that I’m going into my last year of uni and I’ve never been so happy. So honestly it will get better in a couple of weeks 💕 you can do this lovely x

Congrats Molly on 100k. U really deserve it x

I love the decor in your flat so much! 😍

This makes me feel so much better about how I’ve been feeling at uni! I did an art foundation course last year and was feeling very much the same at the beginning but for me the course got so much better after the first few weeks :) xx

Also Molly - if you do want to drop out we will support you regardless! It’s good that you got the opportunity to discover whether you want or didn’t want to go to uni❤️

I love your genuineness ! Xx

Nearly at 100k!! I have loved watching your Chanel grow!! I’m going to Leeds next weekend to look at unis!

I feel the exact same as you ): you are not alone and I hope it all works out ♥️ it’s always hardest in the beginning ✨

dont think too much about dropping out, before i went to uni i wasnt independent at all so moving away on my own was such a big change, for the first 2 or 3 weeks all i did was cry and phone my boyfriend and want to be with people i knew, it took me a good month before i really settled in and made solid friends and started to feel better about being there and i ended up having the best year of my life and made the best memories and the best friends, and dont feel too bad about going home or having your dad or other people come to visit you, i went home nearly every single weekend so if thats what you need to do to make you feel better then you can do that, dont feel pressured to stay there if you dont need to because you can settle in whilst still going home frequently!

You're doing so well, embrace it all and try go with the flow

I completely get how you feel, it’s my second week at uni and I’m finding it so hard to settle in and people around me are like already best friends and it’s just so hard

I honestly cried for the first few month of Uni, and I thought it would never get easier or better but it did! A year later and I've got so many friends and I'm actually excited to go back, it won't feel like it now but *I PROMISE* it gets better! Stay strong and keep going, sending some love from a new subscriber xx

Awww I think it’s good ya dad is coming over!! Good luck with the next week x

Can’t wait to watch this 💓

i’ve just finished my first year of uni and am now about to start my second and honestly, i can relate to you so much! i was exactly the same as you for the first half of my first year, i hated living away from home but honestly, it will change!! i promise you will have the best time ever☺️ stay positive, always be as social as you can (even if you don’t feel like it) and you will have an amazing time and all the crying will be worth it!! 😂😘💖💖

Aww you look so pretty on the Friday vlog!!

Love your weekly vlogs ❤️

So many people feel exactly the same as you and it's totally normal. Don't feel pressure to be happy all the time cause you're a human and you've got a valid reason to be anxious or upset and homesick. Other people might seem like they're fitting in great and not feeling the same as you but for all you know they could be thinking the same about you and they could be feeling the same. Once you settle in and make close friends in Leeds you'll be so glad you moved 💖

YOU ARE 850 SUBS AWAY FROM 100k OMGGGGG! IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU TO HIT THAT NUMBER AHAH. LOVE YOUUU

If I were you, I'd set myself a time guide, say a month or six weeks, and if after that you still feel the same, I'd stop doing it. I wouldn't see it as 'dropping out' just choosing to do something different. Sometimes there's no point enduring something just for the sake of saying I finished it. The course/uni in general/that particular uni/Leeds might not be a right fit for you. Don't justify going home, it's lovely that you have such a nice home/family/dog/boyfriend to go home to. Remember it's not an endurance test, you don't need that, you're far too bright and talented. Is there something nearer home you could do - an apprenticeship maybe or a different course or maybe have a year out to focus on yr KZfaq channel. You have lots of choice and people around you who love and support, you'll be fine. Xxx

Dear Molly, I'm a new subscriber and a few years older than you (almost done with Uni), and I just want to say you're such a brave young woman. With 18 I definitely did not have that mindset that you have. I'ts amazing that you still think rationally even though it is so hard for you. You will get used to it all, I promise. I hate changes and the start was hard for me too. Every new semester (even now in my masters) I get anxious because I don't know the people in my classes and what is to come etc..., but once I'm in the routine and used to it all, I am okay. If you really hate the course (not the situation, just the actual course) then maybe this is not the right path for you, but if it's only the circumstances, I would fight through it. The people will probably become super close friends after a while and then you feel much more comfortable because you have people to talk to that are right there with you and you don't feel as alone. As I said, if you don't like the course, maybe search for something different, maybe something closer to home, but I would always have a plan B - you said you had one, would you consider telling us what that might be? I would give it a few months.. I think after this course you'd have great future opportunities and could build on it. xox

So close to 100k and I can’t think of anyone who deserves it more, I hope you’re feeling a bit better now Molly 🧡 hopefully things get better soon and you start enjoying it more! X

Your vlogs really help me! I’m at Leeds for uni just like you and I’m so homesick, you made me realise I’m not on my own! Thank you so much for being so real x

(sorry if this is long ) molly, if your gut is telling you it doesn't feel right and you feel it yourself, its okay to not want to continue and change it all, its happens, its sucks and its hard but tell yourself that this happens to so many people and its totally normal to feel this way. It happened to me this year, i wanted to go to Montreal bc i wanted to live the same experience as my sister and i wanted to go to uni there, my expectations were a bit high and ended up having the worst year ever, cried every week and kept going no matter how hard it was, i found a routine and that was nice but appart from that it was literally mental breakdowns ( even on my birthday). I felt zero motivation, no energy, had zero friends ( bc i was in a preparatory year not even in a BA), i failed all my finals and i decided to quit and leave to paris my hometown and pursue digital communication studies, i never looked back, never regretted ( sure i would have changed my first year but im better where i am now) life has odd ways of figuring itself out and everything happens for a reason. edit : also if you dont happen to figure out what you wanna do later its fine to put it on pause, you are going to be a Successful woman, you already are shining on KZfaq, you're young and incredible, concentrate on the positives of your life, i know this is hard but ik you're gonna be okay. Much love !!

Your vlogs are amazing💛💛

Awwww I totally get how your feeling molly, I was feeling the same way last year I really couldn’t settle into uni and everyone in my flat was very introverted so I felt so alone and ended up transferring uni so I could stay at home. I know that’s probably such a weak thing to do but at the end of the day you have to do what makes you happy and honestly your so brave to be trying to get through it!! I hope everything works out the way you want it to 😊❤️❤️

Hi Molly, I hope you’re okay and are feeling more comfortable at uni. the way you’re feeling is so normal and gradually over time you’ll feel more comfortable, sending you positive energy!! your vlogs are my favourite to watch!! You’re jewellery is so cute, where are the rings that you always wear from?? ☺️☺️ Love your content xxxx ❤️

OMGGG I can remember when you got that map!! I am so proud of you Molly, your doing so well 💘 xx

Honestly, I am feeling the exact same as you.. It hurts me so bad through the day and it purely hits me when im alone in my flat. I really hope you feel better soon, love u so muchh xXx