I need this. Pray for me. 56 years old, broken believer. I'm so tired.

I definitely feel this way. I feel numb. And all my thoughts throughout the day are always negative. I just want to be free and happy again. Only thru Jesus can it be done. Amen.

Please pray for me. I need freedom from my anger and loneliness.

Pray for me I am NOT free but am saved

I lived what she described, still am. But it's because of the Lord that I am still here. His grace and strength have carried me through the hardest part of my life. I am living because of Him.

Herein lies the hidden “secret” to God’s power in our lives: There is power in surrendering, truly surrendering, to the Lord Jesus. When you simply cannot go on anymore. Come to Him. Run to Him. And get really honest. The world says “fight for what you want”, “survival of the fittest”. Jesus says, “Come to me all who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest”.

I really felt this. I had a similar experience in the past, but in my case I had chosen to walk away from Him years before, after losing my aunt Mary (who was like a second mom to me) in 2009 to a drunk driver. She was only 41. She had just had her first grandbaby 4 months before, her other daughter was 4 months along. She was the designated driver that night, after she and a group of friends went to a "Time Warp Prom," and had already safely dropped everyone off and was on her way home when it happened. I couldn't fathom how He could take Mary, this beautiful soul so full of life and new beginnings, and have THAT be her story. I was so furious at Him before it even occurred to me to direct my anger at the repeated offender behind the wheel that night. Years went by and I went down a deep, worldly rabbit hole, getting mixed up in drugs and all sorts of things that would never heal or fill the spot in my heart that is only ever designated for Him. I finally remember "caving" one night, about 10 years ago, because I was at rock bottom and still trying to scrape lower, and finally decided to pray. I saw so clearly in my head all these dark figures that represent the struggles, grief, etc., which had accumulated since Aunt Mary died, but also things I struggled with prior to that. All the battles in this life. And behind it all I could see that there was light shining through, but had no idea how to reach it. I started explaining to Him what was going on and "Alright, I see that You're back there, cos I can see that light, but how am I supposed to get through all of THAT to get to You?" He said two words that continue to heal and strengthen my life to this day. "Look Up." When I did, He showed me that the light I was seeing was just from His feet, and how much bigger He is than EVERYTHING we face in this life (not making light of what people go through, not by any means, but I do know Jesus is bigger than anything we can face in this lifetime) - how the biggest battles in our life are just ants at His feet. That we were never meant to try and get through it on our own to reach Him, and we won't if we are focused solely on the hurt, and not on Him. That turned my life around. I wish I could say that by morning I was completely better - my spirit was, but I had been steeping in the world for a long time and we have to get out of His way and allow Him to clean us up along the way. It's a lifelong process, but appreciate His patience with you while he whittles the world off of you, sculpting you into what He has called you to be. And allow patience for yourself through it as well. Just lean into Him and He will get you through. Always. 💖 He also used Mare's passing to show me a different angle of grief. It's so easy to place the blame on Him, but the truth is we live in a fallen world and the driver used his free will, knowing it was the wrong choice, and opted to drive anyway, knowing the risks. (According to the letter he wrote us, he has since gotten saved, thank God. God uses ALL things for good!) God taught me that He never "takes" people from us. None of us belong to one another, we are only ever His, on loan to each other while we journey through this life. Instead of focusing solely on the loss, or directing your anger at God, allow yourself to stop and think "Of all of the people who have ever existed, in the history of EVER, He chose that I would be blessed enough to have that person in my life." Don't look at the loss of them (especially cos we know that, as His children, this world is not the end), but at the blessings He gave by bringing them into our lives in the first place. Grieving will still take place, obviously, but it also allows thankfulness to flow to Him, even through the bad. (Sorry for the novella! But He put it on my heart to share this, so I pray it helps someone.) God bless. Find the Joy!

When we literally can't go on He gives us the strength to praise Him. Because in His name is healing power and authority to cleanse and set free the captive and broken hearted. Blessed be the name of Jesus. I too have been at the end of my rope, He is there at the end. When we are weak; He is strong.

Amen! I have been through the toughest warfare of my life in the last 4 months and it’s felt like He keeps slipping away, but He isn’t. It’s so hard to feel the absence of connection with Him. So much confusion and anxiety and oppression/depression. I keep fighting but my heart keeps hurting and numbing. Yet I know the truth, but I don’t feel free. Jesus showed me it’s not about a feeling and it’s letting go of control and pride and trusting Him into the deepest parts of my heart because I can’t even identify the pain deep in there and He is the only one who can take it. I don’t know how to find it or let it go but I invite Him to take it. I think He understands all of our situations so deeply and intimately more than we do. He is faithful to restore.

This reminded me of the time I really struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts and really thought if I died would I get to be with Jesus. I ended up having to go to the hospital to just get help eating and sleeping and being evaluated for mental illness. I had known the Lord most of my life but it wasn’t till I was lying alone in the dark in that hospital bed that I for the first time in my life realized my desperation for Jesus. That I don’t know how to care for my soul and live in freedom in Him. Then I really cried out to Jesus to forgive me for trying to be in control and not trusting him and finally admitted I needed his help to just live and live in freedom . I have had from then on so much more peace and contentment even as as I am still being transformed day by day.

This is so true and beautiful! 🥺 I’ve been hospitalized for suicidal depression before. That song has always brought me comfort as has John 14:27! If you’re feeling this way too, you’re not alone! You matter! You are known to God! He loves you INFINITELY!

Thank you so much for sharing 🙏. Im a 17 year old struggling for years , hope explained it so well

I am here because I’m trying to be someone I’m not. Everytime I let my true self through, people criticise me. I’m wanting to fall down on my knees but I don’t know how God would help me.

It was after I had a break down that I too fell on the floor and cried out to Jesus, fully surrendering to Him, and in that moment He healed me. He opened my eyes to idols I did not realise I had, and I gave them up in obedience to Him. Now my eyes are fully fixed on Jesus, I'm following Him and not this world. My relationship with Jesus is closer than ever. He is my number. He wants to be your number one.

This is something I am so afraid to do. I don’t want to face the hurt.

This life is so cruel and just nasty. It is so refreshing to see a testimony like this explaining the walk with the Lord is not always perfect. It has took me years to finally understand complete peace will one day be fulfilled in heaven when we sit at the feet of Jesus. ❤

Amen. Brethren, we seem to forget about deliverance. We NEED it when we come to the Lord from all past sins and generational curses. This ministry seems to be so forgotten. My people perish for lack of knowledge

Get at his feet & ask him to do only things that he can do!!!++++ Amen amen 🙏... GOD is LOVE at its best!!!++++♡ Peace be still!+♡

See all us broken people at His Banquet. Marriage supper of the Lamb! You all encourage me! God Bless.

Thank you for your testimony. 🥺😢🙏✝️ I heard it right when I needed to,..the Lord's timing is always perfect, I don't know why it still shocks me every time I experience it. God is good! Amen!!

Thank you for being authentic. Ive gone through some of the same when I was 40. Had so much to heal from my past. And at 50, my Identity needed healing. I crashed both of these times. But He picked me up, provided me w help, but mostly w my intimacy w Jesus. His presence heals us! Thank you sister in Christ for sharing and being courageous!

"You are saved, but you are not free". This is how I have been feeling and living for the past several months. Nothing seems to help prayer, fasting, reading, crying out to God. Then forgiving myself for feeling the way I feel becomes very difficult. Thank you for the video. And for being open. Your video softened my heart. May the Lord continue to bless and heal you. In the name of Jesus

This woman’s message hit home for me 🙏🏻

Thank you for great testimony. Blessed and encouraged me greatly. Respect from Russia 2022.

Many heartfelt thanks for sharing this!!! I SO needed to hear this and felt you were speaking directly to me!! God Bless!

Thank you for your life story... As, we must always remember, we are in Relationship with Our King.. NEVER ABOUT RULES.. Shed the chains that bind Us..

I believe, help my unbelief!!!!!!!!!!!

We need more conversations such as this. At 62 dealing with challenge after challenge that messes with my head as a believer wondering why I have no victory in my life. I would rather sleep on than to continue and struggle.

This was me just a few days ago. Exactly same feelings. 🧡

Thank you Hope for your faithfulness. You are helping so many people. I am going through that place and I was led to your song. I have listened to it every day. Today I found your testimony. You are so loved and appreciated.

This is where I’m at right now. Except I haven’t made it to the other side yet. I’m still stuck in the darkness and losing hope

Wow its amazing this story popped up on KZfaq. I’ve been going through a hard time lately with a friend of mine who’s starting to fall down the wrong path I’ve tried to help but only made is worse. I finally fell on me knees and have been asking God to heal and help and guide my friend and every time He has told me that He will help and hold my friend and keep him safe yet I still have doubt idk and I pray God will help me fight the doubt I think God put this story in my life today to show me I am on the right path and He will help me and my friend. What a beautiful story

So Proud of you all for sharing your story❣️ As a former educator in both religious, public and collegiate, I applaud you and wil keep you in my prayers❣️🙏🏻🕊🙌🏻👏 “Blessed are the poor in Spirit…” ❤️‍🔥

I really needed this so much...😢 but to be honest I have been trying and doing everything on my own "with the Lord" for so long.. and the Lord has made it so clear that He wanted me be open to people.. and to be honest.. I have tried, I really have for at least a year... but now I feel like they are all pushing me away when I would need it most that someone'd be there for me.. I am all alone and have no christian family or parents and I am not married. the people I did entrust, now often say things such as "Just go to the Lord," or "pray".. and I really have.. for so many years I have done it all on my own.. I just do not know what to do and how to do it anymore.. I feel so hopeless... 💔😢🙏🏻

God is an amazing God He cares about every pain every doubts every trouble we go through if we only trust only in Him He deliver us and set us free

Thank you so much for sharing your heart and your struggle! It is so powerful!

Thank you so much for this Word.... God is the ONLY One that can help me and I know He is doing just that! Stay blessed!

I absolutely appreciated this. Three years ago The JoyFM was the foundation of getting saved and for knowing Jesus as My Lord and Savior !Thanks to your Ministry, for the first time I understood what JOY meant… I gave my all to Jesus. May God continue blessing this Ministry.Truly Your Liza Aldrich 🌹

I have been there . You first stated all the things that you do, or have done. Not trying to insult, but we are not transformed by what we do . All those things are superficial. We are changed only by HIS saving power, & grace. I struggled with worry big time . I was in prayer, & JESUS spoke to my heart . I set you free at the cross. He has set you free at the cross as well.

THIS IS ME. LOSING MY MOM 2 WEEKS AGO HAS BEEN THE HARDEST TIME I HAVE EVER EXPIRENCED MY WHOLE 40 YEARS OF MY LIFE.

It’s called a deliverance session saints! Don’t suffer longer than you have to. Invicta Ministries is great example to investigate for your own research. Blessings! ✨

I can relate to this. It feels suffocating at time but i pray i get to a place where i completely give up control and worry and dwel in the lord's peace. These days i wake up and ask for peace everyday and i know i will be freed soon.

"Who the son sets free, is free indeed " John 8:36

Thank you Hope for being so vulnerable and sharing your heart. You are a precious sister in the Lord. God is using your gift to encourage others. God bless you.

So beautiful Amen YES at Lord Jesus feet we thank Him for all he has done for us on that cross Risen KING. Thank You Almighty Father for Jesus thank You Lord Jesus for your precious Holy Spirit leading guiding protecting teaching us precious comforter when we weak You are strong Hallelujah Amen

Only He is needed and we need to surrender. Hope said something about laying at the Masters feet much as Mary did when she was learning. We can’t fix ourselves but we need to surrender to Him all our wants and needs. All our pain & anguish. Shalom is found thru Him and in Him. He is the Great Physician. Amen

Thank you 💜

Thank you for sharing your story ✝️

Thank you! Thank you for sharing your story.

Thank you so much for sharing so authentically.

So we’ll said on so many points. Leaving room to ask the hard questions and not being shamed is huge. Bravo to you Hope.

Excellent message

What a great testimony, Thank You for this!

Thanks to the Joy Fm for sharing these stories ♥️ they are life changing

Oh God , I needed this . 😪

Thank you! I needed to hear this today.

Thank you for sharing your testimony💛

Thank you for this

Dear Hope Darst, thanks for your wonderful testimony, there are millions of people who have had or are still having the kind of crisis that you describe here, i know, i was one of those people who struggled with these kinds of feelings for a good part of my life and i hope the millions that are going through what you describe can be set free by your great testimony! Thank God that he has shown you his great mercy and love! Israel Perez, Guatemala, C.A.

Thank God for the Christian community. We are here for each other. We are not alone.

Thank you 🙏 Be free

This is what's come for me. Thank you for speaking the truth

God I needed this , thank you !!!! For sharing this.

I’m there now. Glad I found this.

I can relate. Thank you for your testimony. ❤️

Thank you, thank you so much for opening up. This will touch so many lives

I needed to hear that thankyou so much. God bless you .

Thank you so much for sharing this. We so need to hear personal experiences like this 💖

thank you so much for sharing your testimony.

I can sooooooo relate to this!!!!!! This sounds so similar to my story.😭😭😭😭😭 Thank-you for sharing this!!!! I sooo needed to hear this.

Pray for me , I’m saved but feel I’m tormented by anger and fear .

Thank you

What a beautiful testimony, thank you Hope.

Thank you for the raw honesty in this video. It resonates with me deeply.

This really spoke to me, thank you so much ❤

Thankyou.

Thank you so much for this! I needed to hear this. I am that woman. Thank you so much

Hope Your songs give me JOY beyond Hope...In my darkest days, Music lifted me up....praying for you and thank you for sacrificially doing your music...

I relate to this sooo much. Thank you so much for sharing - it gives hope in Christ ❤

Oh man 😭😭😭😭😭😭 this really touched my heart. I know this feeling sooo well 2020 was a horrible year and I landed myself in the hospital on a 5150 and went through some dark times. Won't go all into details but GOD opened my eyes and touched my heart and has done so many wonderful things for me when I didn't even trust him. N now this journey I'm on with him is something so amazing I never want to go backwards again. I'm taking up my Cross and I'm walking with my Father Lord Jesus until I see him face to face one day so I can wrap my arms around him and give him the biggest hug. I will never be able to Thank him enough.

I’ve never related to anything more. Literally going through the same thing this made me cry.

Hope Darst I love your song Peace Be Still! I'm sure your music has changed the lives of countless people. I can relate to a lot of your story.. multiple pits, emotional turmoil.. Its crazy, we never truly know what someone is going thru, but He brings beauty out of ashes. It is no mistake you are named Hope! We need it so desperately!

Thank you so much for sharing your testimony, I've never heard of someone that identified so closely to something I've been struggling with my hole life's thank you so much !!!!! :')

I don’t know how else do get rid of this anger. I grew up with trauma, I didn’t learn how to act right, abused on one hand and spoiled on the other. I have such short fuse I don’t know how else to get rid of it. I have a therapist, I pray, I try to do work on myself. I wouldn’t even call this anger it’s boiling rage. I watch testimonials when peoples lives changes after meeting or hearing the Lord and I keep asking him to help me get rid of this anger. I’ll keep praying and please pray for me. I’m going to get baptized soon , trying to arrange for that, maybe it will help , too. Then I think of Apostole Paul who pleaded with God 3 times to take away the thorn in his flesh and God just said “My grace is sufficient for you”

Prayers be with you. Thank you for sharing your testimony🙏🏽

Thank you for sharing your story. I found this video. I feel that the Lord led me to this video. Thank you ♥️

Pray for me. I resonate with her words. Church, church activity, small groups, counseling has failed to work. Drawing close to God hasnt healed only soothed...what next? No christians around for help or support really. All escaping something bc they dont know how to help me heal either. I see why Christians can give up now

Powerful testimony. Only Jesus

I have to say out all of the testimonies that I have seen from this series, this one spoke the most to me and it’s my absolute favorite. Praise the Lord, and thier is no coincidence that if I could have chosen an anthem for 2021 it would have been “Peace be Still”. Absolutely love this and wished the videos were longer🕊🙏🏽

Ugh. I need this. My life is a mess.

Thank you for.sharing. what you have talked about helped me. I have dealt with anxiety in the past and some now but God is helping me.

Praise God! I was just feeling so much sadness and confusion and hopelessness. Then I saw this video, and it was exactly what I needed to just let go and surrender. Thank you for sharing this powerful and raw story ❤

Lovely testimony!

Thank you for sharing. I have same struggles….

Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I have been in that place and your story made me weep tears of empathy and joy ❤

This is so amazingly powerful. Thank you for sharing your testimony, your story of coming to the feet of Jesus. I love your transparency. And,,, I love your song. God bless you Hope.

Amen Hallelujah I'm always at Jesus feet❤

I just found this video and want to say Thank You for posting! After many years being a Christian and years of involvement in mainly music ministry - there are so many broken places in my life. So many unanswered questions but Like the little ever-ready bunny I have kept on going - hoping one day for a deep breakthrough and healing from the Lord. Hope - you’re transparency gave me hope! In the midst of my brokenness - God bless you and Thank You Much! 🙏❤️🙏

i felt this way and still do at times

I so needed to hear this message thank you Jesus for healing and letting Hope share this message. God Bless you Hope